Thursday 31 December 2015

Happy New Year 2016 :)


I wish you ALL
the Most Beautiful and Magic
Happy New Year 2016!!!


ENJOY
this is a very cute and harmonious
interpretation of the classic :




Being in Alignment with Divine Will



When are you in alignment
with Divine Will?

my guess is
Be and it IS
condition
is the one of the Love of Joy

cause if you are not
even if you strongly desire something
you won't get it as you wish
wholly and lastingly

cause imagine
the Universe or Heavens
they can't let enter you in them
if they do
with your low vibes
you will destroy the Harmony of the realm there
not because you are bad

but because Universe Goal
is your Joy
so if you are unable to feel it
even in Heavens
then no way you enter it

TILL
you learn your (soul) lessons
for it

Essence of Lies



you know what is painful in a lie
is not the lie itself
it does not give pain

is that the lie uncovers the truth
so once you uncover the lie
you uncover the truth
and the truth is the lie existed not

said like this
it might make no sense

but when a person lies to you
and you know it not
you are not only believing in a statement
but you are believing in the making of it
you are believing that it has some laws that it was obeying to
to exist
see?

and by believing it
you ended up believing in these laws
unconsciously
and you believed that these were common grounds
between you and that person

while all the way
the apparent image had no law behind it to build it
so the person itself
you realise
is just an image
which never existed
so that image was a lie all the way

this is why i said the lie ie 'the image you believed in'
never existed
and you were just hypnotised by it
all the way
looking all the time
at something which never existed

that is the first pain
and the second pain
is that you realise that the person
is ABLE actually to disbelieve in his own Law
that you are believing in and honoring all the way

so finally
you realise
you never knew that person
you only knew the image you made up of it
and that a person who is low enough to dishonor its own law
can't be worthy to be held high in your own eyes
or to be believed in
cause it never existed.

now about forgiveness
and saying it is stuff of past
you are living the present
and blablabla

these are empty words
to me for now

in the sense that
in the present i see the person still believing in its own lies
still believing in its own fake image
and thinking i see it not
and that gives me
really the feeling to throw up
lol is the belly who wants to throw up
actually

that is the GAP
which for now i can't bridge

the healing in it
or the solution would be
that i care no more for that person
or ignore the existence of that person
cause it is ignoring its own existence
by still believing in its fake image.

and the funny message i received today
when i consulted an oracle
is that one :


Law of No law

Common human values and rules are always false, or misguided.
Beware of adopting or agreeing with the opinions, fears and judgment of others-
especially about yourself


It hit on the SPOT
the very thing i discovered about Lies
isn't it?



How magic works



How magic works

thing is the Life we are living
is exactly the life we have decided to project

that's all.

that i realised it
when i was in uk
i was watching out of the window
in the train

and i got struck
that all that i see around
i am projecting it
in truth

and now i understood
what is Power?

Power is the ABILITY
to make the Reality Changes
according to your Will

and if the Power is Divine
then for sure your Will if it is resonating
with Divine Will
becomes Divine Will

this is meaning of
Kun Faya Kun
Be and it IS

nowadays here is
what i decided to experiment
how to use CONSCIOUSLY
for we all use power
but say 86% of it is passive use
meaning that we control not

does it ring a bell?
like when we are told we
only use 5% of our brain
and the best of us 20% of it

same stuff here

and usually
when we want to do
some BIG things in our life
say our elders tell us
start with small

this always irritated me
what if i want to start with Big?
see ?
i want my explanation

anyway
now i understood
the wisdom of starting small

actually Big or small
is not the size that hinders God lol
is what hinders us to see with ease our own defects

so when i start BIG
i can't see what works not from me
so if something fails
is because i am doing wrong somewhere

BUT
when we start small
we have the vision and scope to see things
and THUS are able to correct them

so out of blue
i wanted to sell
a broken chair
just to test this

of course for days
it did not get sold

but my point
is to be ABLE to sell a broken chair
that's my challenge

so
spirit told me
JUST Love

what does it mean?
it means not i fall in love with chair
for the same Leopard weirdos

it means
i should LOVE what i am doing
it means
i should LOVE to SEE my chair being SOLD

see?
we NEVER do
or go to the end of our LOGIC
if we don't
how we will be able to DO our share?

ONLY once we do it
THEN we leave it to God
and circumstances will gather together to assist us

cause God loves Joy
and thus the Universe is set in motion
when you Love Joy
and it conspires to Love you back
and is done more quickly
than you needed to Love
and you receive it FULL FORCE back

and yes
guess what?
i managed to sell a broken chair
not for 1€
but for 20€!!!!

incredible isn't it?

and i know how love acts

cause when i was in uk
in dream
which was like a vision

i saw how EVEN a seed of green pea
was OUT OF LOVE riding this wave of Love
and INSIDE of it ,
IT KNEW
that its way to SETTLE in its pod
and i saw it moving out of Love
and being drawn to its VERY place
in its pod







when you look at this image
green peas in their pod

tell me honestly
do you see Love?

no way!

that is my point
you are disconnected

in my vision
i saw and felt the green pea Love inside of the pea
i saw  and felt the wave of Love which was drawing it
like a magnet
to its final destination to settle in
and that is the orecise place in the pod
not anywhere in the pod


and i KNOW
is same with birds
who know where their nest is
or dolphins
or any other animal who will know
where his way back home is
even after generations

cause the Love is engraved in the Genes
and is just a path
you remember
you ride
and you arrive without DOUBT
to your final destination

so once in small matter
you succeed
then you can be SURE
in Greater ones you will

not because they are GREAT
but because YOU ARE GREAT
and while in small matters your correct yourself
while NO ONE SEES YOU


in GREAT MATTER
PEOPLE SEE YOU
but you don't care for that fake fame
because you KNOW YOU ARE GREAT
because of GOD WHO IS IN YOU WHO IS GREAT

and by then
for fake people who humiliated you
before
when you were in "apparence" some
backward muslim lol

these fake one
will have NO ROOM in your life
when you will be GREAT

because they cut themselves
from their OWN SELF
as SELF is ONE

small things are tailored
for your soul to make the experience
and grow

while GREAT things
are done for your soul
once ready to SHINE
and be seen

so that you may keep attracting more JOY
for your soul
and allow other people to SHINE ALSO
as they can more easily see you

this is to EMBODY your SOUL
or fill your body will a growing soul

this is why i value sincerity
only a friend in time of hardship
will be a real friend in time of ease

and never opposite

while i despise hypocrisy
cause if the meaning of hypocrisy
is to hide one's fault then is OK
you are just being insincere

BUT when it is TO LOWER
OTHERS FOR EVEN LESS

then you are being dictatorial/patronising and a liar
for you are limiting that person's Freedom
that yourself you enjoyed
and sought to hide from others
and forbid them this very freedom ...

and that is TRUTH.


as said in the Pinocchio movie
when the fairy say to Pinocchio
these words before he starts his life

"if you want to reach what your heart desires,
you should follow the path of wisdom"

and when Gepetto said to Pinocchio
G:you are alive
P:alive?
what does it mean?
G:it means you have a life to live

P:is it good or bad?

G:oh no is a marvellous thing

see?
is not about duality
is about finding what is your life that you desire deeply to live
to experience marvel and not the good or bad side of it
cause calling on one bring the other
as everything called has to bring his other half along with it
for everything was one before

hey did you know?
"Pine eye" translates into "occhio del pino"
this is what is the meaning of Pinocchio

what is funny
is that Pine is being praised lol
some inside joke!


ps : yes lol
in the ad i had explicitely written
the chair is broken!


Wednesday 30 December 2015

Citta, Ki and the Leopard...



apparently
some weirdos
think in my last post
the word Citta is some leopard

what to say?
i am hesitating between laughing
and say "wiki yourself"

don't assume i am some numb nut
talking of a leopard in my spiritual blog
no seriously
some people are really weird

when you don't know
you use wiki
or remember that google is your friend...

Just for today
i will replace Google
till you find your friend


Citta
The Pali-English Dictionary suggests citta is heart / mind
source : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citta


Qi
In traditional Chinese culture, or ch'i (About this sound , also known as gi in Korean culture and ki in Japanese culture) is an active principle forming part of any living thing.[1][2][3] Qi literally translates as "breath", "air", or "gas", and figuratively as "material energy", "life force", or "energy flow".[4] Qi is the central underlying principle in traditional Chinese medicine and martial arts.
Concepts similar to qi can be found in many cultures, for example, prana in the Hindu religion, "chi" in the Igbo religion, pneuma in ancient Greece, mana in Hawaiian culture, lüng in Tibetan Buddhism, ruah in Hebrew culture, and vital energy in Western philosophy. Some elements of qi can be understood in the term energy when used by writers and practitioners of various esoteric forms of spirituality and alternative medicine. Elements of the qi concept can also be found in Western popular culture, for example "The Force" in Star Wars.[5] and Jediism. Notions in the West of energeia, élan vital, or "vitalism" are purported to be similar.[6]

source : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qi


Tuesday 29 December 2015

Joy attracts Joy



YEASH!

Pure wild outcry of success!!


hahahaha

Joy attracts Joy
indeed
the Key is once you are stagnating
and WANT desperately another Higher Level of Joy
BACK into your life

you GOTTA provoke it!!!!

ah!! so amazing
even orgasmic....errrr...

hahaha
i sound so funny
but   sheush... can't say it yet

Gotta wait a few days
to share it!!!

share the KEY method
and the AMAZING stuff lining up for me
nowadays.... yeeeeaaaaasssshhh!


You can't learn to Forgive or Love



Forgiveness and Love
are powers of God

you can't learn to forgive or love
since ki energy is stuck
how can you forgive?
you must purify your citta
and that takes God power
or Holy Spirit

that's the truth.


Citta
The Pali-English Dictionary suggests citta is heart / mind
source : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citta


Qi
In traditional Chinese culture, or ch'i (About this sound , also known as gi in Korean culture and ki in Japanese culture) is an active principle forming part of any living thing.[1][2][3] Qi literally translates as "breath", "air", or "gas", and figuratively as "material energy", "life force", or "energy flow".[4] Qi is the central underlying principle in traditional Chinese medicine and martial arts.
Concepts similar to qi can be found in many cultures, for example, prana in the Hindu religion, "chi" in the Igbo religion, pneuma in ancient Greece, mana in Hawaiian culture, lüng in Tibetan Buddhism, ruah in Hebrew culture, and vital energy in Western philosophy. Some elements of qi can be understood in the term energy when used by writers and practitioners of various esoteric forms of spirituality and alternative medicine. Elements of the qi concept can also be found in Western popular culture, for example "The Force" in Star Wars.[5] and Jediism. Notions in the West of energeia, élan vital, or "vitalism" are purported to be similar.[6]

source : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qi

So you better forgive and let go..happy new year!



You see
i had met a girl who used to shame people in public
and i used to give her excuses
you see assuming is the worst service
you could do to yourself

NEVER assume about anyone
never try to give them excuses
otherwise you will NEVER see things as they are

so that girl
i thought she was just lost
and needed help
i assumed was just bad manners

but no
she was BY INTENT
acting like a vampire
and BY INTENT has been stealing
people's energy around

why?
you would never see her alone
she HAS to ALWAYS be surrounded
again i used to attribute it
to her NEED to be social


see ?
one always try to project
our own life onto others
but that is NOT Truth

Truth IS what it IS
and you should learn to admit it
the quicker we do
the better it is
for you to stay away from fake relationship
and time loss

cause never in months
this girl changed her behavior
she kept and still keep shaming people in public

the only time she is afraid
is when she is exposed in a group
as i did to her once
and then she started to cry

why she cried?
because she knew i KNEW her
and she was afraid of losing sympathy
from people around

cause all she wanted is to shame others
and never be shamed
to lower others
and never lower herself

why doing onto others
what you don't like them do to you?

but see?
if that girl was real sincere
she would have changed
she never changed
she went on and on shaming everyone

and this by INTENT

this was outrageous to me
how on EARTH one could ON PURPOSE
shame others?
and have NO remorse?

cause she has been STEALING
their energy

this is why
she was never tired
was like she was on drugs
she is a very much outstanding vampire
i never met one really
nor any other people i knew was
ONLY she

she could sleep only 3h
and do this for months
never tired
cause she got replenished
by people around her

which were left depleted
i tell you

incredible!
never KNEW it was real!

but yes it is...

now the worst about her
is that she has NO CARE AT ALL
about meditation

so the time
i corrected her on SPOT
and saw she STILL kept behaving
lowly with others

i realised she was doing it
BY INTENT

such vampires
the only way to stop them
from stealing your energy
is to CORRECT THEM ON THE SPOT
and EXPOSE THEM
for everyone to see

when they are uncovered
they run away
cause they can't anymore suck
your energy out of you

and for what?
because is ALL about competition
who will be and look superior to others

the whole society actually
i learned in  that crash course of my life
in 2 years
is about competition

one day
some yogi guy lol told me
did you live in some cave all these years?
that you don't even know
women are just envious of each other
and they compete to lower the other
by all means?

technically lol
i never lived in a cave
but by nature
you can say
my focus was so much
on ONE single thing at a time
that i was totally oblivious to the rest

and by then
my single focus
and all of my attention 
was my studies
and after it was spirituality
and these past two years was the study of society and people's relationship

so people thought i was some stupid
backward muslim
when they met me

i was just learning what society was about
and i am a fast learner
once lesson is learned i take the best of it
and know how to deal with people

as for backward muslim
lol
what was funny,
was that girl was muslim
so she was racist behaving with non muslim
thinking they are bad because they eat pork
and of course she despised me innerly for eating it
but all is seen on her face

yet what she knows not
is that pork is not forbiden in islam
because some yogi told it to me

but because prior to meeting them
i met my sufi teacher
who started eating pork lol
and i was indignated!
so the WHYS started
and the answers too
by then

hence i started eating it
to crack off my limits
as spirituality is my aim
and not religion lol

second
this very girl
used to have sex with any guy
even some yogi

jesus
now as she judges others being "bad" muslims
let her be judged now at her turn
by her own standards
bad muslims are those who
have adulterous life
for that is a hellish sin in her islam, no?

yet as a spiritual seeker
unlike to her
i have no care about judging her sex life
for life taught me
is just about soul experience

YET
what i despise
is hypocrisy
showing to people how good one is
and BLAMING them
for lesser stuff
while one does worse..

this is the edge of insanity
lol what is after insanity?

what you know not
each single PAIN and JUDGEMENT
YOU have been inflicting onto others
you will get it BACK in full FORCE
once you die
cause this is as the spirit said to me

"before they hurt you
they hurt themselves"

so you better learn to forgive
let go
and try to have nice intent towards others
if you want Life to be nice to you too

with Love
Petals

Being the extension of the Spirit or of the Ego of others




"The fifth ascension initiation is the first one that brings a person into the path of true Ascended Mastery. The transfiguration in one’s physical being begins here. It is most easily defined as the “activation” (NOT OPENING) of the heart chakra. This takes an initiate into Christ Consciousness. When the heart chakra activates the light becomes an  intense sensation of LOVE and true bliss which becomes permanent in one’s body. There is NO mistaking it as it feels like a little sun has lit up where the heart used to be."


this is what i have NOT experienced so far
just may be 2 or 3 times
that i can remember to have felt so

like once i remembered
i was standing in metro
and felt sudden love for all people around me

just the joy of seeing them
and feeling warm love
wherever i looked

a second time
was right after a meditation
so much that a yogi
called me after
and said he felt my heart opening
so it confirmed that was special indeed

and a third time
which lol now i remember no more

but see?
it is NOT stable
is just there to show you it exists

as i read in that article
and reformulate it in my way

when you feel God Grace
is like a spark that leaves a trace in you
then as you hang on it, to remember that sparks
that is actually "past" so
you should let go EVEN of this watermark

cause if you don't
then is you who are into it
by yourself
is no more the initial Grace
that you experienced

you are only feeding on its souvenir
see?

next :

"Lower vibrations always find fault. Higher vibrations don’t have that experience as it all has been mastered. That is partly why those masters previously went to an ashram away from all those who are in the lower vibration. They don’t want the crap or need to learn the lessons those others have not yet understood and completed. Do you blame them?"


and this part
really made me laugh
as i remembered an experience:

"As the current ascension begins we are finding ourselves associating with others of similar vibration and on the same path, and with the same awareness as our own. We share knowledge and help each other because we each have different pieces to the puzzle. We are all both students and teachers. As we do we go through the process of increasing the light in our own field and vibrating ever higher. We find ourselves relearning or remembering many things we knew and have always known hidden deep within our soul. Being with others of the same or similar vibrations helps us to remember and to unlock those codes of understanding, bringing ourselves into ever higher awareness and states of ever expanding consciousness. We are becoming aware of All That IS (God, (“ourselves”) as we ascend out of the densities of forgetfulness and the veils are removed. That IS ascension in one description."

source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/


so we are suppose to SHARE knowledge right ?
for we are both students and teachers
lol
and guess what ?
one day a yogi said to me
"dear, don't be so deep when you speak
otherwise i feel you are teaching us
you should change"

so i asked her
dumbfounded
of her ridiculous and nonsensical request,
"do you want me to be superficial and fake?!"

see?
there are people
who are just envious
and not only they hide it not
or are not ashamed of it
but they OPENLY assert it
as if lowering others will make them superior

second
WHO on earth gives the advice
to be lesser than your true self?

only EGO.

never the Divine
even in the name of "collectivity"
will be trying to put other down
and make them deviate from their natural qualities see?

so the worst in the spiritual quest
is to find people who are pretending to be spiritual
and try to put you down
just to remain superior

incredible
but such people DO exist

and they are so oblivious
to their bad manners
that they glorify each other
for it
and act as thugs
by acting in group against a person they single out

this is why
they call people one by one
to teach them how to do puja
as is a group vs one new comer

never a group teaching puja to a new comer group
why?
cause patronising and manipulation
is what count
and NOT spirituality
otherwise their "spiritual ego"
will lose its reason of existence see?

what i DISLIKE most
is traditions
and any religion or spirituality
once it starts carving you into their group image
is a SECT to me

is FAKE
and has at some point LOST
the real AIM

which is to find God Within
for God gives a flying no-concern attitude
about your rules and rituals that you teach to others

at best applies them to YOURSELVES
but please
don't to others

for you are just trying
to carve people
new comers
to your OWN image
and that is EGO


there is a very interesting episode in Dr Who
which of course i don't remember the number of it

in it
a woman came at the head of the cybermen group
as her mind was strong enough to control them

Dr who gave her the possibility
to leave this earth for another with them
cause he valued her spirit strength to control them
so he gave her the CHOICE to not harm other people free will
on this earth

of course
she refused
as she wanted whole control over others

and what he did?
he disconnected her from the network
she had with those robots

she thought he was going to harm her
but he harmed her not
she just harmed herself
cause
he just removed her connection
that tied her to them

and then
her eyes opened up
to the hell she was in ...

cause she was no more in control
of the hell she had created
she was an observer in a deep shit
thus a victim

see?
is like that it feels after death
once you die
your consciousness dies
so your connection with the WHOLE is cut

but your subconscious
is there witnessing and  being affected
by the hell you created

which you could not see before
as your consciousness
and your excess of confidence
were a veil that prevented you to see
where you are
and you are in "deep hell"

such a beautiful drama is this Dr Who

is same stuff in this life
when you are into a group
you are part of it
you swim into it
you are connected to it
and you are part of its karma

the day you get disconnected from it
you can see what you reaped

and are affected
consequently according to your deeds

same for me
as the natural distance installed itself
i saw that the only thing people where interested in
was the marketing of their sect
through the image of a muslim to aim at other muslims
large scale recruitment
of muslims lol

useless

you don't need to recruit
when is Truthful

you just need to be GENUINE
let your light shine
and it will attract those who are of your vibrations

so if you really care for yourself
you will care to increase your vibes
to shine
and then you won't be the extension of the EGO of some other group, sect, religion

but you will REALISE (self realisation...hm?)
that you are the extension of the Spirit
you, the Soul

Monday 28 December 2015

Conscious embodying of one's soul and hearing your soul's voice


i love the fact of how
the author says
in brief

the whole point is to fill yourself UP
with light

see your body like a bottle
and fill it with light
that's the aim of meditation
of expanding your consciousness

"
The third Ascension mastery initiation is the conscious embodying of one’s soul. People think that they have already done this but when you realize the vastness of the soul and that it is experiencing multiple realities at the same time, and in multiple dimensions and universes, and in various physical forms far beyond just you, you realize that what is in your physical form is only a very tiny fragment of who you truly are. And even then that is only a small fragment of what you truly are on the grandest scale, which is ALL THAT IS, or God. You are that and that is you! I AM THAT I AM! Does that make sense?
Bringing more of YOU into your physical form is what you are doing as you increase your light, for THAT IS YOU! YOU ARE THAT LIGHT! This initiation is the conscious realization of embodying soul but in reality that understanding of embodying the true you – bringing heaven to earth – is ever expanding. Look at the tip of your little finger’s fingernail. That is how much soul is actually in your physical body. That should be a good representation to you. The trick is to get the whole of that which is you – your soul – into your little body.That is done by the expansion of what you think you are – by expanding your consciousness. It is an ongoing and eternal process as we ascend back to source."


AND THIS PART
IS REALLY IMPORTANT :

"The fourth ascension initiation is allowing soul to manipulate life for its experiences. It is the Soul that is connected to source and is fed by your life experiences. You are only an incarnation of the soul in human form. People have a very difficult time when soul wants the individual to do one thing but that individual is in his/her ego and not listening and decides to do another. Conflict occurs at that point and lessons are being given to that individual that will continue until that person has recognized what initiates the conflict and surrenders to the soul. That’s a difficult thing to master, Learning to be still, quiet, and meditate is the process of learning to hear what soul is telling you."

 source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/

see
thing is
with the yogi i met
they never got over the idea of
vibrations
they were just stuck
on feeling them
once felt, happy go lucky
end of story.

they did it once a week
especially the most patronising guys & girls
amongst them
they had the idea
of meditating once a week

never in morning

only very few
spoke of spirit
but really NONE of soul

and how can you neglect your soul?
the very own voice of your soul?
and directly aim at spirit

soul is the very individualised part
of you
that needs its way back to spirit
yes

and vibrations provide for that

but for the life direction
you need to listen to
the voice of your soul

i never heard
ANYONE
saying
hey i heard my soul
telling me this

while i often wrote
what inner voice i heard
right after meditation


last time
my soul voice said to me :

"they inflict hurt (to others)
as they have inflicted it to their image and likeness

they must hurt themselves first
prior to you

otherwise how would they feel
your hurt"

see?
is about life lesson
before you may do something to someone else
you are actually first doing it to/against you

why is so?
so that your soul may experience the lesson of it
and taste it first hand
otherwise there will be no first hand experience
for you to learn the lesson


cause soul speaks
or manifests its voice
to you
ONLY once you are in silence

so the yogi that i met
who are now "specialists"
of meditation
have no access to the voice of their soul?

incredible!

why is so?
cause they forsake
morning meditation
which is the only one
which provides you access to
best meditation

second
when the most patronising of them
meditate
they only do it
when they are themselves patronised
or are patronising others

so that's it

that's the life program
i saw
is such a waste of time
to not have EVER heard your OWN soul...

 so
let me quote this to you again

"That’s a difficult thing to master, Learning to be still, quiet, and meditate is the process of learning to hear what soul is telling you."




Sunday 27 December 2015

Lord Increase me in Knowledge



As i remember
when my quest for Truth started
in a dream
i entered a library
which now i know
represents the akashic records

i took a book
and before opening it
i said the quranic ayah

"Rabbi zidni ilma"

meaning

"O my Lord
increase me in Knowledge"

once i opened the book
i saw in the first page
the word written
"Nafs"

Nafs is the Self

so the answer was
that the Knowledge starts
by knowing your True Self

this article is definitely one of the best
here is another extract of it :

"The first Ascended Mastery initiation is the desire to know one’s self, or find God. You choose to find your way up the mastery path when you do this. Everything soon unfolds as you make that choice. There is a probationary period by soul as you do this. That is designed to see IF you really want to complete the Earth School Experience. To understand that probationary period you must understand the descension process and how we became the individual fragments of consciousness you recognize yourself as being. Ascending is nothing more than a reversal of descending from where we came. I will not get into that subject here as I have previously written about that process."

"The second ascension initiation is passed as the probationary period has been reached and one has maintained his/her desire to ascend. This probationary time in past lives could have been a whole lifetime. Now in the End Times as we are completing this cycle known as the Piscean Age, that probationary period can possibly occur in weeks."


source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/ 


the second paragraph
illustrates
you can't know
how CLEARLY this happened in my own life
this is why i can't praise enough the writer of this article

all is very precisely stated
and is very true

for i was in this very dilemma
that was by then
the dead end in my spiritual quest
it was like i find something
or i am done

and then it awe strucked me
even if i find nothing
to see  theTruth

at least
i felt it in me
definitely
the desire is there

and that is the first
TIME
in my life
i used the word desire

cause for me the word desire
was about something not pure
something that you are dependent upon
such as a passion that enslaves you

but this time
the first time in my life
i realised how that was in me
the way i was inside feeling wired
to find Truth
was a true longing
that i called "desire"

and indeed
not only for weeks
but nearly for about 2 years
i was literally in hell

as in the extract
the writer called it
"descension"

because i had to face my fears
of not finding Truth
so i was experiencing
all the fearful scenarios
of what my life would be
if i find not the Path

i think feelings, emotions
and that desire
have so many aspects

that they can't be truly treated
in one shot
but once again
that writer wrote it truthfully


Vampires


Vampires

they exist
look in your surrounding
when you feel exhausted by a person
each time you encounter that person

a person that will expose you in public
and shame you
so that you feel unease even fear

that person will provoke
fear in you
ON PURPOSE
and that fear will please that one

WHY?

because
this person is
FEEDING on your FEAR
and gets all of sudden
out of nowhere
a FEELING of SUPERIORITY
over the fearful person

why?
how it happened?

Hmmm?

when you know that
that feeling of superiority
existed not before ?

is because that person
TOOK your OWN energy
by feeding from your fears

such people
are VAMPIRES

too low to CREATE Love
to SHARE
with others

they PRETEND
they are loving
but in truth
they are POOR
spiritually low level
dependent people

who lower others
to feed from their fears
to ENHANCE themselves
and their image
by threading onto others

so they STEAL your energy
and share NO Love

if they pretend contrary
you will see
that those who truly Love
don't self advertise

for these True Lovers
when you are near them
you JUST feel GOOD
and RE-ENERGISED


Great article for Great People to read :

"In reality we are all the masters of our illusion. So the question becomes what is it you desire to create and experience? Law of attraction states what you put out to the universe will return a manifestation of the same vibration, but amplified, thereby creating your life experiences… WE all do this. So we are no victims if we have bad experiences in our life. We have created this by what we put out or by what we allow to come in to our fields and do this for our experiences. That is why one on the mastery path masters each thought, emotion and vibration that goes out. They know they must be very careful in what they think, feel, allow into their fields and what persons they may be corded by who attune to their energies. Spiritual vampires may want that energy you have or have you share in their lower vibrations. That cording for feeding off another’s life force only works in the 3rd and 4th dimensions and cannot happen in higher realms. That is why there are no negative ETs in the 5th dimension and higher. The level of ego is limited by the 4th dimension. You must be in your heart to advance from there."

source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/

Thus
your ONLY solution
is to RAISE your vibrations
and without even YOU planning
you will be CUT from those low level people

they are NOT low level
because they are "bad"

they are low level
compared to you
as you are just more advanced

and you don't really do something for this
is just Life who testifies for you
as only Time will prove it

you already passed through these experiences
you don't need to linger
and re-live such experiences

which by the way
i confirm
are dead BORING
and suck GREAT deal

is like trying to train a dog
no sorry
even dogs get trained
but some human beings
are really NOT being able to get educated
NOT in 100 life times

;)
but hey at some 101th time or so
know that you will be loved....

...hopefully
mwhahahahaha

Mastering and Holding your light



Limit
if there is limit
it means something exists
and as there is limit
it means an opposition exists


hence this is why mind is limited
like when you think one thing
you -de facto- attracts its "opposite"


Great extract of a Great article :

"
During the Fall of Atlantis we shifted into the lower dimensions by moving from our hearts into our heads. We became beings of ego and fear in those lower dimensions. Learning to move your consciousness from your head (ego) back to your heart is one of the steps beginning your ascension process. Consciousness – which we have been taught by the 3D illusion, by our schools and training – as only residing in the brain, is not a reality. Your consciousness is the true you, that which always is, has ever been and will ever be. Consciousness is not fixed in the brain and can be moved anywhere you choose. How do you think astral projection works? Thinking it is only in the brain limits you and leaves you in a state of duality as the brain is right/left and functions in polarity. Manifestation from the brain also creates both polarities, that which you desire as well as that which you don’t.
That was the problem with the book, movie and concept known as “The Secret”. If you don’t shift from the brain sure you can create money, but you also create the opposite effect which takes your money. That happens when you create from the brain. When you create from your heart, only that intent is manifested, and done so much more as the energy field of the heart is far greater in its power that that of the brain. When you really get the art of manifestation you have no desire for the material things anyway. You find you have everything you need readily available. Earthly matters fall away as your focus becomes more vertically aligned."

source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/



so this is why
when you start a project that you want to be successful
you will get a failure with it
always
at some point
because you created from the brain
which is a place of DUALITY
meaning success and failure
in this example

so is mind blowing
hahaha
such a good expression indeed
once your mind blows up
and then i realise if indeed i create from the heart
i mean in TRUTH and FULLY from it

then there is NO more duality
thus NO more limits
so NO more pains
as it is JUST about BEING in the Moment of your OWN creation

that is being the Creator of Your Life
or the Master of your Light


Sunday 13 December 2015

New video I made " Life Choice"




I loved the music i discovered recently in some TV commercials
i find the composer choice of words and the singer voice
contain genuine contemplation about life that he cherishes and longing about it

As lyrics need to be found yet
i have not included them here

so i made this small movie that i entitled " Life Choice"

as it refers to my own sensibility
in regards to Life choices
i made

Enjoy it!


Saturday 12 December 2015

When you wish upon a star



Really nice songs
i am discovering nowadays

lol
sure you know this one
but for me is a first

and this one is very lovely
"If your heart is in your dream"

this one is the key to any dream
for me





DISNEY


When You Wish Upon A Star Lyrics
When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you.

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do.

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue
Suddenly, it comes to you
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true

When a star is born
They possess a gift or two.
One of them is this
They have the power to make a wish come true.

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you,

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do.

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing.

Like a bolt out of the blue
Suddenly, it comes to you
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true.

source : http://www.elyrics.net/read/d/disney-lyrics/when-you-wish-upon-a-star-lyrics.html

Wednesday 9 December 2015

Inside Out - The Movie - part 2


ah that's part 2 of my notes
on the movie Vice Versa

these are on the spot notes
that i jotted down very quickly
so bear with it
if some parts are not enough meaningful to you
to me they are:) !

and if you need to read the part 1

http://petals1000uk.blogspot.fr/2015/11/inside-out-movie-part-1.html

Plot

A girl named Riley is born in Minnesota, and within her mind, five personifications of her basic emotions — Joy, Sadness, Fear, Disgust and Anger — come to life. The emotions live in Headquarters, Riley's conscious mind, where they influence Riley's actions and memories via a control console. Her new memories are housed in colored orbs, which are sent into long-term memory at the end of every waking period. The most important memories, known as "core" memories, are housed in a hub in Headquarters and power five "islands", each of which reflects a different aspect of Riley's personality. Joy does everything in her power to keep Riley in a happy state, but since she and the other emotions do not understand Sadness's purpose, they try to keep her from controlling the console.
When Riley is 11 years old, her family moves to San Francisco after her father gets a new job. However, their new home is lifeless, and their belongings are still in a moving van that ends up getting lost in Texas. Joy becomes concerned when Sadness begins touching happy memories, causing them to turn sad, so she tries to keep Sadness isolated. However, on Riley's first day at her new school, Sadness accidentally causes Riley to cry in front of her class, creating a sad core memory. Joy attempts to dispose of the new core memory before it reaches the central hub, but she accidentally knocks the other core memories loose in her struggle with Sadness, shutting down the personality islands and making them unstable. As Joy scrambles around to collect the core memories, she, Sadness, and the core memories are sucked out of Headquarters through the memory tube leading to the rest of Riley's mind. They end up in the labyrinthine storage area of Riley's long-term memories and set out to return to Headquarters.
Anger, Disgust, and Fear attempt to maintain Riley's emotional state in Joy's absence, but inadvertently distance Riley from her parents, friends, and hobbies, resulting in her personality islands slowly crumbling and falling into the Memory Dump, an abyss where fading memories are disposed and forgotten. Anger inserts an idea to run away to Minnesota into the control console, believing they can produce new happy core memories there. Meanwhile, Joy and Sadness find Bing Bong, Riley's childhood imaginary friend, who is desperate to reconnect with her. He tells them they can get to Headquarters by riding the train of thought. After exploring different areas of Riley's mind, the three eventually catch the train, but it derails when another personality island falls.
As Riley prepares to board a bus bound for Minnesota, Joy attempts to use a "recall tube" to return to Headquarters, abandoning Sadness out of fear that her touch would change the happy core memories into sad ones if they travel in the tube together; however, the last personality island falls and breaks the tube, sending Joy into the Memory Dump along with Bing Bong. While despairingly looking through old memories, Joy discovers a sad memory in Riley's life that becomes happy when her parents and friends come to comfort her over losing a hockey game, causing her to realize Sadness's true importance: alerting others when Riley needs help or comforting.
Joy and Bing Bong try to use Bing Bong's discarded wagon rocket to get out of the Memory Dump, but after several failed attempts, Bing Bong realizes their combined weight is too much and jumps out, allowing Joy to escape. Bing Bong then fades away, finally forgotten. Joy uses various tools from Imagination Land to propel herself and an unwilling Sadness to Headquarters, where they find that Anger's idea has disabled the control console, rendering Riley numb and apathetic. At Joy's encouragement, Sadness takes control of the console and successfully removes the idea, reactivating the console and prompting Riley to return home.
As Sadness reinstalls the core memories and takes control of the console, Riley arrives home and breaks down in tears, confessing to her parents that she misses her old life and that she cannot keep pretending to be happy all the time. As her parents comfort and reassure her, Joy and Sadness work together to create a new, amalgamated core memory, which creates a much larger personality island. A year later, Riley has turned 12 and adapted to her new home, and all her emotions now work together to help her lead a content, more emotionally complex life.

source : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inside_Out_%282015_film%29

When her parents see her
they exclaimed
"you are so Beautiful, so FULL of Joy"

we tend to take it as an expression
but no
literally speaking
Riley's Face is so FULL of Joy Inside of her
that it reflects on her Face
and makes her so beautiful and joyful
at her turn
and her joy beams on her parents face

and this very feedback
is made in balls of light
that Joy receive in return
inside
so that Joy increases even more..

Inside she said to Riley
"it"ll be the only two of us"
meaning Riley the manifested side of her
and She the Joy
which occupies the WHOLE space inside Riley
as her parents said
"you are so FULL of Joy"

this is why babies beam
this is why innocence beams
this is why there is light
because there is ONLY Light
only when it becomes to be shaded
by emotions other than joy
that light looses space...


then,
on that fateful day
Riley had to move out
from the countryside
to the big city

her emotions are as such :
Fear gives her feeling of security
Tastes helps her to be physical and socially on top
Angry is based on her sense of imparting justice and unbiased opinion

sadness has no known use..

Joy ensures herself that Riley's memories be joyous
and she cherishes them
those joyful souvenirs beaming with light


and other balls of light
are tainted by their own colors

those colors like a rainbow
like the sweater she is wearing
full of rainbow colors
when she arrives in SF
from Minnesota

metaphorically
she is leaving countryside
nature
and joy

to a city
where you only see grey buildings
depressive new home
and even more sadness butts in with time...


personality of Riley
has five isles
hocket, funny moods, friendship, honesty
family
island of personality
makes her so

in this new city and life
Joy tries to patches Riley's Life
and mend it like a patchwork really

but at some point
she got aspired with Sadness
and fell out of her command center
the "Conscious Mind"

so we see the Fall from Heaven
of Joy
which used to be Filling up this Space along
with Her Light
and started to share it with other emotions
and then got ejected out of it
due to Sadness...

Sadness is sad (lol)
'cause she wants to understand life
hence her glasses
and book reading
to be able to face it

Joy wants to feel it
even if in souvenirs she speaks of rain
everything is opportunity
for her to feel joyous

while for Sadness
is about dirt and cold

but sometimes the human being can't follow
there are synaptic gaps
which he can't compensate

unless Sadness helps
him to express them

so when Joy asked her
how you helped the imaginary friends to feel better
she said i just listened
and understood him
he got the outlet to relieve himself
as he needed to express
what was blocking his emotions
to flow freely

so Sadness provides the Space
for the emotions to be released
and then

Joy see by the end
that the joyous souvenir
that Riley's had
like when she lost her hockey game
existed only
because Sadness
allowed her to be sad
so that Joy may come
and give her Joy

how could Joy enters in the game
when there is no room for her?
as we saw all along the movie

for she kept failing,
falling
missing the train
and could never touched Riley's conscious mind

she could ONLY
once Sadness got the RIGHT
to let her BE
to let her express her sadness

then only then
Joy could use circusmtances around
like her friends and families
to cheer her up

see?
this is why
is important
for you to be yourself
don't try to be perfect

but try to express your emotions
be it sadness or anger
so that Joy can then have the space
to transform the negative to the positive

back to the movie,
so, when suddenly power goes down the drain

Joy arrives in long term memory
she sees her islands going off
so no more personality
no more joy

she can see a bridge
as a fine horizontal line
to help her join the vertical tower of light
of consciousness

which is by the way getting darker
as much as her absence is lasting

once broken
she used imagination power
to create a bridge and bridge the gap
from the underworld of her subconsciousness
to the outer word of her consciousness

in the meanwhile
emotions try to patch work
as joy used to do
but she had a real power
the power to love life
to do it
and help emotions to reach a balance
but without joy they can't imitate joy

even if sport for Riley
is a given
now it works not
gives Riley no joy

as long as Joy was there
then she used to love her sport

so Joy is a natural state
that gives that joyful state

and emotions
canNOT imitate and lead to joy
however hard we try to imitate

lol i love how her dad
got absent minded
zapping in his consciousness
on her football match screen
and zapping back on her wife
while his emotions of fear goes wild
has she seen me?
what have i done wrong?
(trash bin?out? etc.)

same we see by the end of movie
the cool girl at school
innerly afraid
have they seen me?
that i don't know what i am talking about?
and Taste saying don't worry
mascara covered it up lol

so people rely on apparences
while harboring inner fears
and being thus unable to live life
and feel joyous
because always one emotion
is becoming overloading
and they choke

same with mom
she zapped on her brazilian lover
in her mind
when she got disappointed by her husband

so people use imagination
to make life more bearable

unless
they make room for sadness
not till it overloads you as other emotions
but to create that space to hear your emotions
so that you let go
and let joy shine as before

Joy lost way back to consciousness
so she needs guidance  through Sadness
who has theoric knowledge
but feels too heavy to implement it
so that Joy needs to drag her along

Joy drags Sadness like a Weight
so heavy it is for her

i love the imaginary friends

or the abstract department
3D to 2D

sadness twice was close to bring
joy to the right track
but joy went to ask others
because she was not really appealed by
sadness attitude which is too depressive
so she thoughts her advice worths two cents only

till she realised how she helped
imaginary friends
and how her warning about abstract world
were right

the imaginary friend
i like its symbol in his body:

elephant nose represents the innocence
cat purring like attitude
and rainbow color fuel for the transport
for his rocket
dolphin has fine intellect to dvp imagination
and the lovely cotton candy is sweet
so the sweet innocence

emotions can't resign
they wants to find solution
by digging into the past

so, only Joy can know how to be present
and enjoy the present life

i love how joy beam in night
shows that metaphor
joy is never affected by darkness
hence darkenss is illusion indeed



yea i love colored balls of souvenir that emotions
try to use to help her play good hockey
like when u insert a CD in a matrix to teach you how to do it


but joy philosophy is incomplete without sadness
she think she can wake her up with funny hilarious dreams
but trauma is best
as Sadness suggested

we see that subsconscious
harvest the troublesome elements
like hidden fears  of childhood


joy only wants Riley to enjoy life
so far she thoughts sadness is sad
but saw that thanks to her sadness
she had this moment of cheering up by her parents
and this moment of joy by  her friends cheering her up

and to comfort her

then joy let sadness touch the balls of souvenir
and she saw herself falling like for hocket (sad element)
and her dad comforting (joyful one)

vs
when you compare
when she decided to quit hocket
and had by then not been allowed to express sadness
so she could not get comforted by her parents..

that sadness
creates some breaking point/silence
to hear the pain
and then a ball with duality
of blue light and golden light arrived

and islands start rebuilding this time with more
varied colors
rainbow like one
as now
finally a mix is allowed ..

so if no outlet for sadness
emotions no more access to feeling
and she ended up leaving her home




About Hurt


yesterday night
as i was going to sleep
i heard the spirit
saying something

before i relate
i tell you how the impression was
was like you could follow the energy
of what was being said/described

let me give you an example
say you are holding a cup of tea
it just sounds boring to envision that
right?

but what if
you were all of this?
the energy of that hand
which is holding the cup
the cup itself
and the water

being all of this
and knowing it from "inside" of them
and is like
you are a flux of energy
passing by each of them
and are able to witness how it is
to be all of this

now
all of sudden
that is an exciting cup of tea!
isn't it?

well was same
in my vision

when the spirit
was saying what it was saying
i was experiencing the saying
so it makes it true for me
for i could feel it from the inside

and it said

"they hurt others to their image
prior to hurting you
they have to hurt themselves
otherwise how would they feel/know the feel of the hurt they are inflicting to you?"

and when the voice was saying this
i saw was like this
as if the person
before it could hurt me
had to hurt itself
then it could reach me

but while doing so
he self inflicted upon himself
the very hurt
and learned thereby
what is the hurt

was very educating
is like you take a needle
and the needle is inside your body
first you have to tear apart
you own flesh
before reaching out of your body
to tear apart and hurt the others

this is what i saw
and what i felt
the person can't hurt me
first it has to hurt himself

second
i learned that
the person can't know the meaning
of what is bad
or the meaning of hurt
on others

unless it has experienced it
on his own self first



Burning Love



Nice Christmas songs
are on nowadays

i like the atmosphere
these special Christmas movies give
it feels like a balm

that one i loved it !



Discovered the music "Burning Love" by Elvis Presley
interpreted by Nick Anderson in the movie Mistle tones
just Love the style!

Lyrics

Elvis Presly - Burnin' Love

Lord Almighty,
I feel my temperature rising
Higher higher
It's burning through to my soul

Girl, girl, girl, girl
You gonna set me on fire
My brain is flaming
I don't know which way to go

Your kisses lift me higher
Like the sweet song of a choir
You light my morning sky
With burning love

Ooh, ooh, ooh,
I feel my temperature rising
Help me, I'm flaming
I must be a hundred and nine
Burning, burning, burning
And nothing can cool me
I just might turn into smoke
But I feel fine

'Cause your kisses lift me higher
Like a sweet song of a choir
And you light my morning sky
With burning love

It's coming closer
The flames are reaching my body
Won't you help me
I feel like I'm slipping away
It's hard to breath
And my chest is a-heaving

Lord have mercy,
I'm burning a hole where I lay
'Cause your kisses lift me higher
Like the sweet song of a choir
You light my morning sky
With burning love
With burning love
Ah, ah, burning love
I'm just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Just a hunk, a hunk of burning love
Songwriters: LINDE, DENNIS
Burning Love lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Monday 30 November 2015

Islam and not islam


i noticed
when you read salah/prayer
why you start thinking about other stuff
people say is shaitan/the devil/satan

but actually
is when you go into some
mantra/zikr mood
you are trying to calm down your lake
so what happens
you can actually HEAR your thoughts
that you are just NOT aware of during your day

even one imam
imam abu hanifa
i think
he said once
to someone who forgot
where he had put his keys
(some stuff like that)
start reading your salah
and you will get the answer

it happened so
he came back
and asked him
how you knew i would remember so?
because i did as you said
and i remembered it while doing my prayer

the imam answered him
is because when you get into
"the prayer mood
(the calming of mind)
then shaitan (which are your inner ego/thought forms)
arise"

so you remember stuff
while precisely
you are trying to get into
no thought mood
in order to focus onto
your prayer
(lol this is my explanation of course in bracket and next)
see?

this story
i used to know it before
but now
with meditation
i realised

the word "shaitan"
or even the "whys" of thoughts popping up
while precisely we are trying to
focus and pray
is merely
to be understood

as the calming down of our mind
which is like a lake
which is first agitated
and thought forms are surfacing

not that you were not thinking before
but before you had plenty of thoughts
while now
into prayer mood
you can actually HEAR your thoughts
why?
because they come one by one....

because
if we take one step further
when you meditate
really
the space between two thoughts
is widening
and thus
the frequency of thoughts
is decreasing 

which enables YOU
to actually hear your thoughts
and you think that
"shaitan" is bothering you
LOL

is just that
these are key words
in all religions
used by then because mind was gross

but over centuries
the human being understanding
has become more refined
and he can grasp even more stuff

and less interpret them
through ignorance
and fear

but more through wisdom
and flexibility

thus those
who have given up the spirit of islam
for the letter of islam
as rigidly as some wannabe salafi thug
defaming islam name are doing now

are going nowhere
except creating more hell for themselves

for you have to remember
the prophet words :
in His last sermon

"All those who listen to me shall pass on my words to others and those to others again; and may the last ones understand my words better than those who listen to me directly. Be my witness, O ALLAH, that I have conveyed your message to your people”. 

see?
i had always thought
how come we have to repeat history?
what is the meaning of being born 
to just practice rituals
that past muslims did?

then this key sentence

All those who listen to me shall pass on my words to others and those to others again; and may the last ones understand my words better than those who listen to me directly.  

THIS
is the real meaning

you GOTTA use your 
God Blessed intelligence
and SEE by yourself 
HOW to UNDERSTAND
what TRUE islam is

True islam 
is about Submitting 
to your INNER Light of God
THE WITNESS
as the Prophet said 
"o Allah be my witness"

what you think?
is some fancy expression?
is about REALISING 
THAT witness state of God..

and this is what this 
WHOLE blog is about

as for those who think
that they are a better muslim than me
because i wrote once i ate pork
lol

let them know
that i am speaking about 
the Heart of Islam
i.e. the Spiritual Islam
the one that the prophet taught
for the individual progress

the one that the more close to it
are the Sufi 
among the average muslim

so is not because 
i started to practice
yoga that one day i said
ok lets eat pork!

my own sufi teacher 
ate it
and i was appalled when i saw him
doing so

but this is my OWN personal 
experience
and path of progress

and not because 
i am a "bad muslim"
or because i am a converted "hindu"

is because is MY OWN path
and i wanted to KNOW
and get over my OWN limitation

but what i tolerate NOT
is some wanna be muslim Hypocrisy..
like such muslim 
who sleep with anyone around
and think and even allude to me
of being a bad muslim lol

let me remind YOU
that sleeping with men
out of wedlock
is prohibited in islam...


so what is worst
according to your own "islamic"standards?
eating pork 
or living an adulterous life?
hmm?
who is the bad muslim now?


now,

if not on the spiritual level
cause is out of their grasp, 
so let's consider the basic level of islam
i.e. EVEN on the ritual terms
to those i ask them

have you ever for 
at least 1 year
prayed your 5 prayers a day?
have you eaten only Halal Meat as a basic rule
have you fasted the whole month every year
for ramadan?

this islam pillars
that is written in your OWN book
have you ever devoted yourself to it


if you are a real muslim?

is muslim
just about bearing a cultural tag?
i am arab so i am muslim?


so how come
that you think you are
a "better muslim" than me?

is it the fact 
that you are SO conditioned
to your tribal background
that you think others are fake muslims?

usually arabs think
they are best muslim
even if they pray not
and just wear hijab 

this is NOT so

after 
you can be a muslim
and sleep with anyone who comes 
your way 
literally

this i care NOT
nor i judge

but be SURE
i judge you back 
if you judge me

this i call it a boomrang effect
what you send ahead
you receive it back

what you judge
judges you back

and for those crazy 
imposters
and rigid guys 
who think themselves as muslims

i asked them
to think twice before 
calling themselves muslims

because this is a shame 
to what Islam is

and is Shame for Humanity

as if you recall
Islam is for Humanity

but not the Islamic religion
that your ego wants

but the Islam 
which salvation is Brought by Shakti
 which is the Queen of Heaven

but this 
your sour mind can't encompass
see?

this is why 
in early islamic history
the very Daughter and family 
of the prophet
and even sufi now
have been persecuted and killed

and ANYONE
trying to usurp islam
will be judge by his own deeds

and of course 
hellish deeds
lead you to hellish life
in this life and the hereafter

but those
who have some common sense
self honesty
and sincerity 

in the search of truth

to them 
i say 
may your path be blessed!

and judge not others
lest you be judged

for if you judge 
my food diet
let me judge your sex life
for i believe in islam ...

adulterous life
binds you to hell
and is a BIG sin
no?

what do you think of it?
cause yea
you are a better muslim
than me


on that
don't forget
i love you all
regardless :x

kissi:x 







"My Immortal"


I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

... ah, me... ah, me... ah...


Writer(s): Ben Moody, David Hodges, amy lee
Copyright: Zombies Ate My Publishing, Forthefallen Publishing, BMG Rights Management (Ireland) Ltd.

EVANESCENCE - MY IMMORTAL