Not as i wish, but as YOU wish

; )

i have been told this :

On this day of your life, petals, I believe God wants you to know...

...that life is rarely as difficult as you think it is, and

hardly ever as aggravating as humans are able to make it.

How much patience do you have with Life? Are you

willing to overcome minor obstacles as you move

through your day? Or does anything and everything

that does not move in accordance with your wishes

cause you annoyance--if not outright frustration?

Consider the possibility that the little obstacles in

life are not obstacles at all, but stepping stones. Look

to see what they offer you in terms of growth, and

you'll see their treasure.

Love, Your Friend....

Indeed, the message was true.

Into my life, some people were there with their wish to form some kind of partnership.

within i felt disharmony towards them

and could not trust them being the right kind of partners

so i was just willing them to go away

and wondering why it was not happening

for my inner call/feeling towards them was clear.

then, i read his message, 

which said, that one should love Life and learn from it

so that obstacles become opportunities for growth.

again, i read this very extract which said, 

The only journey is the journey within. 

~ Be patient with all that is in your heart 

And try to love the questions themselves. 

Do not seek for the answers that cannot be given 

For you would not be able to live them 

And the point is to live everything. 

Live the questions now and perhaps, without knowing it, 

You will live along some day into answers. 

~ The only journey is the journey within. 

~(Rainer Maria Rilke)  

yes, by wishing that something happens AS I WISH

i was just actually preventing my growth

for i wanted it and not wanting to grow 

yet, aim is to GROW

and how could one grow, if everything is given to you

while you are always in the same state?

at times it is given

for it is the period of expansion

and at other time, it is delayed

till you enter into your period of compression

and in that case, 

you have to be patient and WATCH OUT

for the hidden treasure

for your lesson 

which will make you grow.

had i just wished these persons to go away, 

and it would have happened, 

i would have never learned to turn/tune within

to test the power within

how could i have gained the certainty then, 

that the power is trustworthy?

that this very power is taking care of me?

this trust may be built on different aspects

and one by one i may need to experience them

and thus be patient/aligned with the rhythm of expansion and compression 

so that this growth fully takes place

if on the spot the partnership would have ended, 

i would not have grown

i would have only been satisfied that "i" exist and am powerful in my actual state

yet the actual state is to be transcended

growth HAS to take place

and it can ONLY if while meeting new challenges

i learn each time to find the eternal companionship within

and see how light is showered

exposing some - making the partnership go dust by itself, if the person is not standing in his true self

or freeing others - relieving them from a looming disharmony 

the former is exposed

while the latter progress and grow towards new horizons

but staying on the same level is impossible for both

both have to move on

so no one is superior to the other

except by the standard of Truth 

and the Truth has Its own rhythmic patterns

which opens or closes doors.

finally, if i do not learn to love the current situation

to love the current challenge

to love the people in spirit 

to ask them, who are present in spirit, for they ARE spirit, to remove themselves, if their physical manifestation is simply not in phase with me

then, i do not learn to consider/converse with Unity behind the diversity

and i would have only learned in that case to divide.

once we have learned to love and live the question/the issue 

then, when time has come we can learn to appreciate the answer and live it.

true, 

how may i SEE the answer

if i do not SEE the question?

if i do not LIVE the question, fully, 

considering ALL of its aspects

how could i FIND its counterpart/shades in answers?

if one wish is to be colored in the color of God

to fully awaken the beautiful names of God within

then, one has to pass through all aspects of them

the questions

will be echoed by their answers

and this one face will then be realised.

how we MOST of time are standing in the false self

i felt that i like testing people who are on spiritual path
for i wish to see if they are true

before i knew not what kind of truth in them i was searching
then, it dawn on me,
it is about them where do they STAND?

for if it is appearance only
then, just irritate the person
and he WILL get irritated
because he is standing in his false self
so when negativity hit, it hit fully
for it finds its counterpart in the person
and one can do that,
because the face, where the character of the person is reflected
is telling the other
here are my limits
and so you push the button out of the limit of the person
and see, he reacts.

but very rare, are those i met
and tried that
and they DID NOT get irritated when i was expecting them
and even never as long as i was trying and was allowed to try ; )

now i know
it is because they were standing in their TRUE self
and when one stands in the true self
as it is just AS It IS
it is true
it is not conditioned to any border
so the person inside is actually a very WIDE person
which sort of break barriers or transcend his individual body/or his perception
of what one usually identify ourselves with
body, name, old scenes of past experiences

yes people let themselves being defined by others
it suffices that one thing be repeated thrice or many times be referred to
that it solidifies into our thinking pattern
and becomes a truth
like ok ACQUIRED
and it is ME now
for i GAINED that state
ONLY because it has been repeated by MANY
and MANY TIMES

so in a way,
success and fame is dangerous for it makes you stick to an image
that you start feeling comfy with

yet, success and fame could be so FUN
as long as it is used as sharing the common feeling ON THE SPOT
and ONLY on the spot
for on the SPOT you SHARE your light and others are happy to benefit from your sun rays
but after lights went off
so if you remain there rehearsing an old play
you are totally dephased
no,
you have to use it like for adrenaline
to enter into NEW projects or UPGRADE yourself
use this self confidence and support you felt
to TRANSCEND in another area
and become WIDER

this latter one is still to be practised though.
let's see.