In vision
I saw the Al aqsa dome
and heard the voice saying
'yahan se chlani hai'
meaning 'from here it'll get started'
Symbolically
new life starting for me
couldn't be more on point.
After meditation,
I saw myself from top
and the column of light was rounded shape on its end.
That's when I understood
the yoni and lingham symbolism
represent the energy seen from above
the circling up kundalini is the yoni
and once it pierce through the sahasrara
the column or pillar of light is the lingham
it is just a description
so don't take it on mental level
by mixing sexual meaning
it is creative energy which is used for evolution
not for procreation
The breakthrough that happened
was that I reached the breaking point
in terms of pressure
Once can say past 2 years where the peeling of the onion
Remember
you can only have a peeling
once you develop the soul
in order to merge with the source back
I had asked spirit
why not getting it right once born
with fate proving you the right teaching method
and then you don't go through useless purification
As I always saw and knew
that I had to play
and pretend that I don't know I have to play
then going through all the steps as if pretending I don't know
so what's the point
Spirit said
the point is to develop your individuality
to experience the spirit unity back
At the same time
it felt like creating on purpose attachments
just to be able to cut them
and experience the re-uniting
at different degrees
with its culmination
when you realised that is just as it is
so let it be
