Transform your Fear into Fun

lol
i kept saying to my friend
since a few weeks
let's go tree climbing !

of course
routine habit is so much tenacious
that he never makes it out...

today
my desire was so strong
that i just say
let's go!

and we were out on our way...

now...
lol!
when i arrived there!
i was hitting my head
in my imagination
saying to myself
"dear! what happened to you?!!
you are the ONE who brought us there!"
i said this
when i realised how HIGH the trees were...

and i saw complications...

is very funny
when you have desire
you have magic sand thrown on your eyes
and you ONLY see the beauty of it
ahead of its time

and somehow
once you are in front of the very stuff
you desired so much
it felt like swerving for a split of a second
and footstep a bit shaky lol
and innerly
wishing to strangle myself
ahead of time
before EVEN having tried it

why?
because was ALL new
because was TALLLLL trees
because i had NOT imagined how it would be in terms of fears...
and only saw FUN

so desire/fun led me there
and then i discovered fear

actually when i looked around me
there were adults and kids
all mixed up
doing this tree climbing
and in each and everyone lips and minds
the word FEAR was placarded!

so i felt a waft of fear there!
lol but mixed with fun/success/ and
the STRONG conviction
and so dearly admitted
"YES there is fear
and NEXT there is FUN"

it felt so
this double FF hit me
like a waft
lady prepare yourself for Fear and Fun!


and guys
it was like that !

i had more Fun than Fear
actually i realised i have NO vertigo
and i sat on top of trees 10 to 20 m from the ground
legs hanging in the air

the hardest was to
bear my own weight for some activities
by the end of day
my arms felt like mashed potatoes lol

the activity i loved it!
i realised
that i had great balance
especially when i had to jump from
one moving to another moving wooden plateform
soooooo great it was!

initially
i was so paralysed
that my OWN feet was feeling LIKE glued
to the wood
i could NOT move it
even when my mind ordered it
it felt i was weighting 200pounds!

and then
i looked keenly at a kiddo
she was just directing her gaze
and her feet went where her gaze went to

and she kept doing it
and it felt so easy peasy looking at her!

and i could feel her excitement
for the next step
and for the oh-so-waited arrival!

so!
i just looked at her
and i imbibed myself from her state of mind
and i realised
what i think is what i experience
just like that!

and as i was thinking of fear and hardship
so it was what my body/experience of the game
was giving me back
heaviness and stiffness...

so, one i imbibed myself
of that girl state of mind
then, i did it!
while my friend had still hard time doing it

but as far as i was concerned, this time
i just progressed as if i was walking
on plain ground
my feet felt light
and so my body regained agility
and i did great split with my legs lol!

so yes...
ALL is in the mind
if your mind think is hard
then it gets hard

literally speaking
hard means heavy
and your feet BECOME heavy
and GLUED
and you can't move!

or if you manage to move
is like you are doing huge effort

so as i got the hang of it
everything in the mind
i imbibed myself from the lightness and fun
of the moment
and just made the whole circuit so FUN!

then,
two girls around 10 year of age
joined me
one said to me
while reassuring herself
"see, in this game,
there are moments we are afraid
and others were it flows"

jesus!
so refreshing this girl was!
ah! in countryside
i tell you kids are full of wisdom
and maturity and lightness

in paris
even the best of them
lack this freshness
and most of time look like crippled in their manners
cause they absorb too much from the environement around
which is so..

and was such a pleasure to chit chat with her

and now
even when i watch tv
or do anything at my job
it is like that
is LIKE the VERY scene is SPEAKING to me
TEACHING me
is so much hammer like wisdom hitting!

so when this girl said that
it felt such a deep wisdom
as if Life is saying me
"see dear?
Life is like that game
at times you are afraid
and at other time it just flow.."

beautiful!

there i was philosophing about life
while 15m in the air hanging between two trees
and swinging to reach my arrival spot lol!


ahahhaha

there was a SCARY moment
when i was there
cause had NO CLUE
of how to move ON

see?
that was funny
on this place you have to FACE
your fear
no way out!

a little boy was up high
and could not move
her mother told him
"see? you can't go back
just move on
you are safe"

again
this hit me
first i praised that mother
in myself
how good education she is giving to his son
through that game

then i praised that game
for there is no way backward
you are OBLIGED to MOVE FORWARD
either you do it or you die/lol of shame
cause you CAN'T just give up!

you HAVE to Face your Fear
no one can come and take you back
and there is no emergency exit
no dogging
face it or die(of shame) lol!

so when i arrived to the next circuit
there i was standing on the edge of tree
and 20meters away from me was the next landing spot
a huge net!
and inbetween nothing

there i said to myself
HOW on EARTH am i supposed to LAND there?

hahaha
actually was SO easy!
the rope was on the other side
so the girls helped me to slide it towards me
and then
she said
'now be brave'

hahaha
i laughed hard
cause i was so happy
to hear so much straight forwardness
i miss so much this kind of honest talk

and her maturity was just astonishing!

and then
i got the rope
and had to land on the net 20meters away from me
so i said to myself
"dear, think NOT!
just THROW yourself in the air"!!!!!


hahahahhaa
i did it!

and landed on the net
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cooooooooooooooooooooooool!
mwha:x


and then
everything was easy peasy!
the BEST moments were when i had to do such long sliding
from one tree to another on a rope
just FAB!

see?
Life taught me clearly that lesson this day
"if you follow your desire,
then you can face your fears"

see?
before going
i had no awareness of my fears
sure i have no vertigo
but the unknown is a fear
not knowing is a fear
doing stuff you never did is a fear
not knowing how to use your body is a fear
cause you have to go out of your known comfort zone
and face your limits,
your untold and undiscovered fears

only the moment on earth
in 3D reveal them to you
and your experience
yes your very experience heal them
and then you transform your fears into FUN!