Oh so cool!
Two nights ago
I was sleeping dreaming but also feeling in the dream and thus in real life as well
I just saw myself and was feeling and seeing
literally speaking a fountain of water pouring from inside out
of the head and falling on the face
I can now even remember the feel
it is like being a fountain and feeling the shape of the water springing out of the head
so much that I was also trying to adjust the breathing as the water flow was fast
Then when it finished
there were still drops of water rolling on the face.
And today
I saw a cave where people were looking at the wrong entrance advertised
to distract people's attention
let's call it a touristic trap.
While I was looking at the hidden entrance
and i saw it as i saw a pillar of light coming out of it to the sky
and i said to myself
this is where a saint is sitting
all the settings of the rest of the dream was in the uk.
Later on
when i asked the spirit it said
my breakthrough is imminent
so I should meditate.
While i was meditating
well i didnt get the breakthrough per se for now
but instead at the end of my meditation yesterday
i saw an entity which rushed out of my left knee cap
So cool!
I asked the spirit what it was
and it was the entity responsible for my laziness LOL
So great, it works!
As couple days ago i realised
Hmm no more cleaning is happening in terms of entity leaving my body
as either we are THE PURE SPirit or we are a mix
ie we are still subjugated to other entities
ie we are possessed
Unless we admit to ourselves
that we want to grow
Unless we admit we are not the one we perceive ourselves to be in the daily life
Unless we admit all the things we do not want to keep
we will never be purified from them
because the Power does not work against our will
but ALONG with our Desire.
So couple days ago
I desired to get rid of my laziness
It is something I never used to have before
But developped it after my period of trauma i went through couple years ago
while seeking truth
so depression, calls for laziness which calls for procrastination.
So far I got rid of the sadness and laziness
but procrastination entity still there.
So doing an inventory
I asked the Spirit what are the entities remaining
It said 3
namely, Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Envy.
So I recall there were 12
But I asked again
And it said
8 more are hidden, meaning have not yet arose from the subconscious to the conscious mind
so I suppose let me give them a break for now.
So I will tackle for now the Self Sabotage as I learned about it recently.
I had a great Job prospect
but in a way i self sabotaged myself to get it slowly not in one go
as i FELT i needed time to be up to the task, which clearly now i see i can so easily handle it
so the message i got was
that my mind wanted it
but my feeling wanted safety
hence the return was i got the job but with some progressive steps of transitioning from
former to the new job.
Seen like this, it is amazing
we do control reality with our feelings
but the "worry" which is this not-so-hidden entity
which does cause me to tone things/success down
ie self sabotage myself is to be cleared as the last entity,
before full enlightenment.
So the next one should be self sabotage
Just put attention on it
and then meditate
and it should be released with some focus or intensity
Earth quake are needed to shake things off
I guess mine started with my anger which exploded to its height
when i went to pilgrimage to Mecca qnd Medinq
and there i was truly angry at the lack of authorisation to visit the prophet grave
unheard of!
but as i was on the right
i had such amazing experience of seeing angels there
how they serve all pilgrims and how they act as guardians
i wonder why i have not blogged that yet
have to do so in a later post
and there i was told that the sincerity of my desire
make two people moved enough
that they lock themselves a whole afternoon in a room
and called so many of their contacts that they ended up reaching the Minsitry of Pilgrimage
who issued the authorisation for me to enter the grave :)
Ouf!
But once i came back
the intensity of meditation and rites there
just triggered the entity of anger and hate , or both entities
to leave the body
As in a previous post i wrote how i saw them leaving
and they left as I desired these feelings to leave me
as they got exposed
they served their purpose
but they can't be controlling me
as the image it reflected to me was not honorable
and i could not recognised myself into this reflection being projected on a permanent basis.
so anger is a tool now
no more a possession.
So next one,
self sabotage.
