Living Light

you know
alive?

i said everything is alive
as if i discovered it is alive as of now
but in fact
what i wanted to say
is that i witnessed that it is alive

because my intelligence saw it ON THE MOMENT

this is what makes it alive
the rest of time
my intelligence is only holding onto image of object in mind
so it is as an image is
i.e. dead

but now the present is Ever Alive
all is there
means all that is in the moment
is there indeed, alive.
(not frozen in a past image or anticipated in a future form)

so it means
usually my own intelligene is dead
when NOT illuminated by the kundalini

the kundalini
is like a lift
by passing through the chakras
it takes in it the attention from the liver
then the spirit in the heart
and then passing by the head
it illuminates it
thus the quality of the spirit which is/expresses/maniests itself as love at the heart
becomes a peaceful witness of the present
that is an illuminated attention
which can thus be called a witness

so it acts like a mirror
that enables you to see light of creation
thus light under a multitude of forms
and that is why it is called play of Life

it is like a diamond
which when turned
has many facets
but to see them
the mirror should be polished
so that light be reflected
and you may see it (alive) in its different form

when we can see the beauty of God


the beauty is/means
the secret of God being witnessed in the present moment
secret, i.e. each object is giving out a manifested characteristic
and this is the message attached to each one of it
and in the present it is revealing its beauty, i.e. that which was opaque/secret to our eyes before

when we say we witness the beauty of God
beauty is just a generic term

to say the Light of God in the objects in the present
and as each object has its light
this is why it is said
is being seen as "it is as it is"

so this light
is being contemplated in the present

ah, it is so beautiful

Candle wax

oh this is incredible!
i remember to have written that after a long time of meditation
i could see beauty when i go outside

but also it happened now while i was inside home!

so amazing feeling :

you know the candle wax?
sometimes it just remain in the pot
and you cannot get rid of the remainder
you try hard to remove it and it stick like hell
and you give up

well i had given up since long to remove it lol

but today by accident
i let it on top of the oven
which heat melt the wax on the candle holder !

and then, it was so soft
that i could let it slide and remove it!

but you know what hit me
is strange to say that
but i say it even though

when i saw the wax melted
and so "submissively" sliding away
i found it being "so innocent"
that was such a beautiful feeling for it

i really wish to write it as the impression remains:


one it was like i was saying myself
look ! it is so innocent! and i was so hard on it
thinking it is just a wasted wax unremovable
you know like a misjudgement
lol if i can talk of this for an object
but really there it felt not like an object
but something alive
truly

also
the way the wax got removed
so graciously
i just had to slid it aside with a light finger pressure
and gone!

and then it hit me
it is same with the heart of people
you cannot hammer to teach them some change

but when the right condition
like heat for this candle
are gathered
then
the heart softened by themselves

in real life
you could use the heat of God
the one provided by the vibrations purifying your heart
which is the softer way

or alternatively,
if you refuse to practice
you refuse the soft heat on the subtle level of vibrations

then, it is on the grosser plane
the one of manifestation
that your heart would have to test the heart of the crisis
to learn the hard way its softness

for everything is under transformation
what is solid becomes liquid and then gaseous
and so on back and forth
all is there to get transformed
nothing can remain stable in the elements

so the Spirit gather together the right condition
to allow change to take place
but
if you resist it

as it is said in quran
"come willingly or unwilling"
and the elements responded "we obey"

Then He directed (Himself) towards the heaven while it (was) smoke, and He said to it and to the earth, "Come both of you willingly or unwillingly." They both said, "We come willingly."
quran 41:11

i am right now in love with this verse
i remember in 2006
while i was doing my training in a company
i was just going out of the room
and i saw drops of water hanging on the ceiling
about to fall

and this verses
came alive in my head for these drops of water
and i realised the elements are truly submitted to the Order of God
for they came willingly

by the way
Order is not only Command
order is literally speaking to put order from chaos
and the order of God is both


and when i was removing the last remainders
of the wax
this one was totally liquid by then
so as i was removing it with the handkerchief
as strange as it may seem to read it
i felt love for it
as if i was doing a mix of
thanking it, and healing it in myself

for myself months before
i judged it being worthless and too hard to be ever removed

that was really an alive communication
right now
lol i think i would have even kissed it
as it looked like so beautiful innocent to me

i swear
:) i feel so happy writing it
lol with a bit of tears in the eyes if i keep remembering it

it is really alive

it is true
everything is alive