Indian store - anger benefit

Anger and outburst

it is rare that i become angry
but when i become angry is really because
the person is at the least displaying stupidity to hurt you OPENLY

yesterday we went to an indian store to buy
some stuff
accompanied by three other girls

let me tell you
the sort of indian man we met
he was so happy that we wanted to buy 10 clothes
that in his haste of getting things done

he did not pay attention to us as a human being lol

see that :

we told him
bring the SAME RED color
the SAME clothes

he said yes yes

later,

he brought us another red
thinking what?

money of course

anyway,
we told him
but it is not same red
and he said
well it is the light,
the neon light which is affecting ...!

really take us for numbnuts!
i said to myself

second,
when we said him no
he became angry

and accused us of having made him
work for nothing

and i exploded
not only the man DID a mistake
but also TOPPED it with accusation
while it is his fault
he had to assure himself of the right color
we did not ask him to bring it ANYWAY
but bring the SAME color

and later put the cherry of insult!

so i turned my anger at him
and told him this above
i really hate bad will people with such stupidity
as to PURPOSELY LIE and deform reality in FRONT OF MY FACE

and ACCUSE me of that!

of course,
the other girls thought it was unbalanced behavior
for the image of the "spirit" is love and compassion

but that which you understand not
is that ON THE SPOT you ARE what you ARE
you PRETEND NOT
pretending is the LAST thing to do
if you repress your disagreement, anger or discontent
under the pretext of what the spirit quality is
then you will never let your defect come out
into your attention

so that the energy may purify you with.

For at some point,
you will reach one day your breaking point
and you WILL lose your temper,
and become angry at the WRONG person, at the WRONG time
and it would be a greater catastrophe for you
than to settle things ON THE SPOT

so ONLY when you realise your DEFECT
that you can gain KNOWLEDGE of yourself
and THEN let the Power of God purify you.

and FOR that to happen
RIGHT after it
i SHOULD use the cycles
so that my GOD WITHIN HEALS me from that anger.

for no MENTAL effort of "letting go" will work
as we will ALWAYS come back speaking of it to others
ONLY God power erase your anger and heals you from it.

and that is the ONLY way
if you don't want to reincarnate
due to that anger.

and the day
your belly is ALL healed
then, you will know it
and on the spot in front of such people
you won't even feel bothered
and only smile and laugh it out

so it is NOT about the others
NOR about your self-control or manners...
it is about your INNER healing

and to heal
first you need to let your anger emerge
second ON THE SPOT
use the cycles to let God heals you.

and 


so i say,
don't pretend
don't be uptight ass,

BE YOURSELF

and then,
one day,
you will realise, and this for sure, that you are the SPIRIT.

but this does not take an attitude
or EFFORT to remain self-composed
this take HONESTY to (be) oneself on the spot

to PROTECT your soul rights, first and foremost
(i wonder why yogis speak not of soul, atman?? hello?)

second, to KNOW where your limits lies
and THEN to LET IT GO for the energy to purify it for you.

i prefer to settle things on spot
than to become overpowered by them on the wrong place, wrong time and heavier consequences.

kiss:x

ps : people make mistake
because their care is NOT on the person
they lack empathy
therefore they assume that provided they are ticking their box
and get their things done
all SHOULD be ok
and if not ok
then they consider it NOT as an error
but as a weirdo reaction coming from the other

hello?
error is not what you think precision/or manners are missing
error is when you forget to have care/empathy,
and expect the other to get ticked into a box!

then things go wrong
and this is an error.

and the worst is when people recognise not
or are unable to see their error
because they are lacking empathy
not because they are all bad willed

they are simply lacking heart qualities.

Forgiveness and its interpretation

i just discovered
why usually we don't like to forgive

it is because forgive is synonymous for us
of "staying with that (kind of) person"

at least for me so far

but i just realised it was my interpretation


so as in truth,
to forgive is to let go

it means if you forgive the people
you appreciate less and less
then the Power of God
will shift you with higher quality people

hence the importance of forgiveness
forgive, forgive
till your surrounding change
and you be upgraded with more refined
and more honest people


now, seen like that
i LOVE forgiveness!

kiss:x