I wished to be a support
for those who needed it
and I spent so many years
to give that support
recycle the negative into the positive
to accumulate and transform the trauma we all receive from life
this way is called
to die for the other.
It is helpful or not
depends on the other
most of people do not cultivate
so it is a temporary gratification
they do not change
and get worse and greedier with life
that is slipping out of hand
like sand
yesterday
reading a sufi book
I got inspired
and remembered one verse from the Quran
which always made me wonder
surah Anissa ayah 78-79
Wherever you be will overtake you [the] death even if you are in towers lofty. And if befalls them any good they say, "This (is) from Allah," And if befalls them any evil they say, "This (is) from you." Say, "All (is) from Allah." So what (is wrong) (with) these [the] people, not do they seem (to) understand any statement.
What(ever) befalls you of (the) good (is) from Allah, and whatever befalls you of (the) evil (is) from yourself. And We (have) sent you for the people (as) a Messenger, and sufficient (is) Allah (as) a Witness.
Simply put
in our experience
we should just desire to experience Joy.
This is why
I had seen Mother Mary
in my room
she was cleaning the floor
and she was beaming of joy
the light of joy
of course I knew it was the highlight
but there are worlds between knowing and being that.
That's where the life experiment comes in
till we understood and embed that simple truth
All is from God
good and bad. ultimately.
Good when you receive it, you are grateful as you know its source is God
and the bad, with your pain felt, you have to give it to God too
for it to be transformed to good
transformation or alchemy
if you keep it, then you are weighing your back down with unnecessary burden.
Hence, just give thanks when all good
and ask forgiveness, ie let go, everything else
the bad, the hard, the messy, and also the neutral,
ie most of our responsibilities we take upon ourselves
as a parents, as a child, as a worker etc.
Because as per evolution
Only Joy is meant to beam out of us
and all the rest we let it flow.
So expect Joy from life my friend
because ultimately
a coin has two sides
good and bad
and God is the 'spine' of this coin
the witness of both
and if you keep the good, it ll be cut from growth as cut from source
so try to make it grow on your own. you ll fail.
That's why despite so much love
children fail their parents
as parents took upon the responsibility of making them in their image
just do what common sense ask you to do as your day to day task
but do not be clingy, greedy, attached.
Be grateful.
As for the bad,
ask forgiveness in abundance
ie not as a victim or sinner lol
but as in letting go of any bad, and especially anything that is not Joy giving
and just expect, experience and beam joy
