The new era : Be Compassionate

 When a person or a group

'invests' time into you

it is defining you 

therefore think of you as his/her extension

hence you belong to him/her.

That is projection

that is also possessiveness

and that's why there is the other vs us

that is what we call conditioning

--

When you have done so much

and yet there is nothing into which 

you can reflect yourself

except your own heart

polished like a mirror

or calm lake.

Why I don't reflect in anyone?

IS it because their mirror is not polished

or is it because I am faceless?

It is well timed to mention this book: 

"The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane"

Edward's journey

He left but his life got worse and no one loved him

he reminded himself 

someone did love him in the past

to hang on it

Did the story end well?

"Only stories without love have a bad ending."

At the end, 

someone remembered his name

and returned it to his owner.

It is what real spiritual people do

they do not crush

but have compassion

as they remember you

and you and I have the same owner

If you are someone who can make others happy

Such a person will not have a bad ending.

Especially, 

I see people growing spiritually

not necessarily yogi.

And it baffled me 

how amnesic they are

Quick to forget 

that they were once ignorant

once they were the same person 

that are making fun of, having contempt for

If you own Mother 

if your Ar Rahman treated you like this

would you be who you are now?

Then why do you keep judging people 

one step after the other

Energy is like blood transfusion

you save life or condemn someone.

So be compassionate.

This is the new era.

You have been zoomed in

 When I was a child

standing in the nursery school

during break time

I looked at the grass under my feet

and felt the grass is in pain as I am standing on it

then I could zoom in and out of it with my attention 

How could be that world inside of the grass if I zoomed it

as with attention I would be living in it 

now I can add 

once you live in it

you forget you zoomed in it in the first place

and you are then amnesic and forgot that it is what you did in the first place

Now I woke up 

and remembered 

to have read that the heavens are the subconscious level layers

then it strikes me 

the outside being the inside projected around us

for us to be able to see, witness it and fix it by changing course of action 

the heart is this world

this earth 

and sun moon stars are the higher realms heaven levels 

the more you purify heart 

the more it is this calm lake 

on which the images of the heaven are projected

so you can see higher realms on its mirror 

in one Hadith 

the prophet said

heart is filled between two fingers of GOD

therefore

are the moon and sun these two channels

streak of light that is flipping the earth axis? 

Is the earth the heart?

are we just one ray of attention zoomed in within 

and forgot we zoomed in it in the first place

and are now just living there ?

Lady Fatma (as) - "Have Faith"

Yesterday during meditation

I saw Lady Fatmah (as)

She gave me a scroll with a red ribbon

when I opened it

"Congratulation" was written in it

Then the hood from her face fell off

and her face was a diamond

with all its shining facets

basically what you would see

in a diamond when you look into it

I was mesmerised

so beautiful.

I can still the vivid image

When it is engraved like this

I know is alive, true

and not an overactive imagination

later today I asked and was confirmed was real

Back to yesterday vision

I saw then a huge Sun the size of it

was from head to belly and her hands were holding it

and this sun kept growing and covered her hands

and was sent to me as I was standing close.

End of vision

Today of course 

I thought is it true

and as I recalled it 

vision was vivid in its details

so the colours 

and the dynamic, like active image

I asked if I could share on blog

as permission is given 

hence I share it

The purpose is 

'To have faith'

 

The Event

 Compliance principles

such as protectorate and such for the well being of 

and better organisation of African countries

were the supportive pillars of some countries 

such as in Morocco or Senegal.

In other words, colonies

with closer oversight.

You know the result, 

of externalised power.

Look at any job offer waves

on Linkedin

you will see all corporations

are now under a compliance wave.

Food, Hygiene, Healthcare

All subject matters that affect you 

in your daily life

are now under compliance standards 

a Must Do

For the protection of consumers

Carbon zero, protection of rights

Fine

As long as power of the human being 

is not externalised

As long as corporations are not 

paternalist

As long as challenging governance with law 

to avoid the former to colonise and steal your rights

as we say 'Never again'.

Yet 

it happens again and again.

Why?

I saw in dream/vision 

huge waves in Saudi Arabia

with soldiers trying to control and secure

perimeters. 

Years ago, 

I saw the ocean floor

and people migrating and sitting on piers 

due to waves having made them refugees.

All nationalities.

If you look back at school curriculum of the 2000s

How did they know water, climates refugees and Carbon issues, 

would be the 2030 hot topics?

Scripted when the focal point is one.

The Event.

Compliance is needed.

Re-routing the few that will survive is being scripted now.

Knowing 

Yet still playing the game.

I do think, 

illusions are surface level script.

We are in a drama 

and just play the role

even though everything is in plain sight.

400m waves.

people reported them in visions.

I had no idea of such height. 

But in mine they were huge enough.

Now it makes sense  

This Wall in the Saudi desert of guess how many meters? 

The Line - 500m.

Big enough by 100m to protect data centres.

The best data centre is in truth

the cells in human beings

Everything is in the Ether 

in our cells.

However the tech is being relied on.

The AI, The Data centres, the race against time.

Watch Interstellar again.

Why did I cry when I watched it?

Why did so many other people cry watching it?

Because our cells remember

what happened multiple times in the past.

If one must die, 

One better die free, 

knowing our true self.

So that after the reboot,

you do not have to reincarnate again to this earth

Understand this well.

You are in a game-over scenario

with your accumulated points and karma

reincarnating there

will be hell.

The only good you can do to 

yourself

to humanity

is liberating yourself

knowing your true nature

and letting your inner sun shine.

You don't know 

there are a handful of real yogi

may be 10 ? 

I was told handful mahayogi.

You don't know how they are affected.

I believe to a lesser scale

it is auto censure

muting yourself

because before the event

you will be called mad

and once it happens, too late.

Current daily 'survival' is nothing

compared to the future scenario.

And others are in such a deep illusion

Pakistanis, Indian middle class, in FOMO mode

let us not miss any international holidays Valentine, Christmas and any other

you name it. 

Like drunkards.

If you are a true yogi, 

a true muslim

a true christian

a true hindu

you should be all together

coming to the ONE true, right conclusion

It is NOT time to party

but to remember.

Again, 

you do not want to reincarnate in hell.

The Event can be delayed

can be rushed.

No one knows its time

Super calculation is in progress.

However, you do not want to miss 

the only opportunity 

while you are alive

the ONLY FOMO

should be

Am I on the path of Enlightenment?

Don't be part of a script

become the script writer.

Matrix should not be a realm

you should be the witness of it.

For the sake of humanity

For the sake of truth

remember.

Grow your sun

 During meditation

it was shown 

that you are like a bubble of attention 

at the base of spine

You receive the 'sucking pull' 

from the top of spine

while you are at its base

Most people 

receive this power 

and scatter it around

ie that's what your attention does

hobbies etc.

If you want the liberation

only 1 out of the many 

will keep attention inside

and let be sucked by the top 

ie Ascend.

Energy is gold

that is your ticket to ascension

so be STILL and let it suck you up.

Do not use energy horizontally on side 'stuff'.

...

Next day, 

It was said 

'you are like a sun 

which size grows every day

layer by layer

each layer has at atomic level 

open 'arms' like a Y

where the atoms come and fix themselves on it

this completes one layer 

between the Y arms is where the light rests

and if all the Ys are full

a perfect layer of light is created

it is how your soul, sun grows

You are indeed a STAR

SUN 

aim at 10,000 sun light.

Shine like a Star, like a diamond

 In dream 

I was told in 20 years 

the human race will disappear

and prior to that the pregnancy will be highly monitored

under scrutiny

Anxious.

I do not like these comms.

Spirit said

now that was heard

It can change it

In truth 

everything is potential as scenarios

We only dream of where 

we are heading as most potential scenarios

Truth is 

Flux is unity

spot light/scenario is a zoom of one version 

where there is separation between scenario 1, 2, 3

Often I am reminded

Even if x, y, z die 

once underground

x, y, z  do not exist.

Because they never existed

Only spirit exist

the personae was merely mental construct

Though I understand 

that thoughtless awareness is only way out

as it is only truth 

the emerging scenarios in the thought realms 

are so catastrophic

that I can t help but remember 

the ayah in quran

"He will raise people

who will love Him and He will love them

lowly before believers and harsh against disbelievers"

i.e. 

Love only exist in Spirit 

where the believers are tied to Truth/Reality 

and Reality mirror them back this Truth

That is Power.

All else, is thought form, fake.

And fiercely you know it

as Certainty.

When so, 

you are this new creation.

DNA is the one that changes you

either to a new creation of light

or down spiral you as in surah ASR

As shri mataji said in her 1981 talk

The difference between a self realised and a non realised

is same gap between human and animal

This is the metaphor 

either you follow your raw animalistic nature

and are judged by it

Beast, anti 'Kryst'

or

you refine, alchemize it 

and become a crystal/Diamond

ie go through pain and let it go 

till you become light

shining like a star or like 10,000 Suns

potential is yours

illimited.

Quan Yin appeared - Post in her Honor

 Quan Yin

''you are Quan Yin, you are Shakti'

I was thinking about the energy of the name Quan Yin

and thought so graceful.

And then spirit said that she popped on my shield

still on a lotus.

This surprised me

that is how power of the inner recall is

You just feel the energy, 

and the actual energy connection happens

So she is meditating on a lotus

It was said that it did not want to disturb her

in her meditation, not to get punished.

I found it cute

In truth, the Ascended masters and the Shakti 

are all your helpers

we just need to trust that what we feel is the actual light around us of theirs

We take for granted the sight

what about the feeling? They are more real as. connection.

She said, tell her

"There is no hope. 

The only hope is in the spirit".

The first sentence gives you a shock

the second certainty

Shock to get read of thought forms of hope

Certainty in Thoughtless Awareness is mark of spirit

and as a Mahayogi said to me 

" There is between thought form and the Absolute

a space, where you project your wish, that is called magic"

Which once a sahaj yogi heard about it

and got afraid that I do 'magic' lol

Victim mentality of leveraging ignorance to manipulate others

by being ignorant of his own nature. 

Sahaj yogi have a long way to go.

We all do magic

consciously or unconsciously

Self mastery is the difference between you and the ignorants (of the Self).

Despite the vibrations, spirit is unknown to them as their true nature.

Even after 30 years still sucking mother's breast.

When will you honour your mother?

By growing into the Spirit.

SAT CHIT ANAND

Once you become the spirit within

it doesn't matter if you purify yourself or not

because you are already fully identified to the spirit

in the thoughtless awareness

You don't need to be on path of purification

it stops purification.

Once enlightenment 

you are that already

You purify to achieve enlightenment

once achieved it is over

you stay in pure awareness SAT CHIT ANAND

Lashing out

 

Lashing out to the yogis

means that you are separate on that subject frpù the spirit within

therefore you have something to protect 

hence the antagonism

Unless ground work was done before

On the spot it is already too late to self correct

So you can only see it later on 

and intend to purify it

By observing the point of the matter

and let it dissolve.

So use the antagonism 

as a mirror to know 

what you need to let go.

Update on the cycles

The idea of the cycles 

is to do them after you raise your energy.

Then, you imagine the body empty and you 

fill it with the vibrations. 

You empty the body from inside out 

as you are not the body

Then you fill it with the vibrations/white light

from the top of head down to belly 

it is called the micro cosmic circuit in taoism/

And from the bottom of the feet to top of head 

macro cosmic circuit. 

This helps to balance the whole energy 

uniform way.

This is the path of enlightenment.

Keep your practice

Everything is energy, and that energy affects your mood, but if you witness it, i.e. observe your thoughts and actions, you will realise that sadness is also fake. i.e. not you, not your true nature. Only peace is your true nature.

So do the protocols to rise your energy, then put your attention on top of head. And note your sensations, even emotions arising such as pain and sadness. Just observe them.  

Why it works? Because your attention gets enlighten and like a laser it will cleanse you from your sadness. This is true alchemy. Your pain is a huge leverage to be transformed to something equally joyful. That's the truth.

Sitting meditation vs walking meditation.

The former helps to stabilise attention and let energy sips in, ie opening more petals.

The latter helps to stabilise attention IN movement. That is real life. 

You need both.

The walking helps to calm mind quicker. The sitting to settle in.

The cycles (hands on belly, heart, throat, forehead and massage of fontanelle) is NOT shri mataji protocole. It is so:

- hands on belly : I am perfectly ok

(leave space between hands and belly and focus on that area)

- Hands in prayer position, namaste position near heart level : Because I am the Pure Spirit Within

- Hand on forehead therefore I forgive everything, everyone

-Massage fontanelle : Power of Pure Love please purify me.

This is one cycle. 

Always put attention where your hands are. 

This will helps you burn more blockages and you will feel hands burning even more, or even sleepy, as angnya would be purifying.

Keep learning, keep growing.

Only ig you keep purifying.

Kiss

Trauma and Life

I believe

all past trauma can be waved, cleansed

let it be vibrated 

it is. true

trauma will be this dense bundle of energy 

alchemised in something higher 

in a way it is a 'gift' in disguise 

as German would say.

Saved energy 

that will be itself saved 

got it? ;)

blocked energy 

is painful

however 

once you let it be transformed

it will upgrade you

Next

there is no regret

no thing to achieve 

as light of God is perfect

it is just to uncover the forgetful state

a beauty unheard of

In truth,

everyone is its own savior

a saviour role is to show light

and remind it is in everyone 

not to oblige everyone to agree to his saving method 

The marriage of the feminine energy with the calm lake of spirit

is what I miss

when I had felt how life was truly Alive

while know I live in a static world, right now.

where I only feel freezed life like on a picture

Alpha Centauri

 In previous weeks, 

I had a dream/vision, ie as real as now. 

This is what we call in the astral.

There was a camel 

and she was licking my face

with her saliva 

lol 

It felt like to cheer me up

I couldn't breath 

at some point

too much saliva lol

So I woke up after I heard:

She is the She camel of the prophet

After checking online

I indeed found 

that the prophet Muhammad (saw) camel

was called Qaswaa 

And she had been a witness 

to all the key moments after hijra

Ie choice of the prophet mosque in Medina

and apparently the prophet was sitting on her 

for his last khutba

..

In some other dream

I saw an old lady

sitting on soil in a village

and she asked to see the picture of the prophet

like to send her love and good words of praise 

from the gentleness of her heart

words she cherished like a treasure

I do not know 

who she was

But I saw that the energy of the prophet

may be his consciousness

came back to her 

behind her back

It is an intelligent energy 

And indeed

anything good you send

is returned back to you 

mutliplied

 

No doubt

However 

doing it with love

unaware of the gift

and oblivious to the normal people

who do not have eyes of heart to see

how even a simple, poor old villager woman

thanks to her love

is loved back by the universe

Abundantly

So never undermine 

the power of the heart

ie true power of love

that is the treasure chest

once open

it does revert back to you

unbeknownst to you 

like for this old woman

...

Today in dream/Vision

a note about this

when I came out of it

I knew was real

ie in the astral

as it is as simple as a plug that connects you

to another dimension

once unplugged you are back here

so no effort, no control

but the experience that is your own

In one of my past trauma

which is the pain that led me

to experience the self realisation

I met the sufi teacher of the past

and I was sitting and seeing

lady fatmah face

which was a pure disk of light

big sun instead of a face

and I was describing her

and how she looked like 

while she was migrating 

from Mecca to Medina

next 

to this sufi teacher 

I asked excitedly

if in truth 

our souls transmute as stars 

and he drew for me

Centauri A and B and two others 

There were in the dream 

family and some other new sufi guy 

I met recently

once I woke up 

I did not doubt if it was true

how come I met this old sufi teacher 

so many years later in astral

as I had as proof 

the shining face of Lady Fatmah

so now after the dream

I was told the rest 

this old teacher, the family and the current sufi 

are the remaining ties, attachment 

once I let go 

then I would truly be free from illusion

one may say 

not many to let go

I just hope 

I do cultivate my awareness enough

so that this space allows me to be free from 

such reincarnation

When he was drawing the 4 stars 

on my booklet

I was thinking 

'I desire to be the brightest star'

When you know

potential is in you 

and it is your birth right to shine

for this you have to grow

and grown only happens

when you cultivate awareness

and growth

It is the birthright

of every single soul

We should just share 

to remind each other 

Like the old unknown lady 

in some remote village

Like me this unknown writer 

on that blog

Like you 

Like any other human being

The best use of your time here

Is to get self realisation

cultivate awareness

Use the Power of the attention 

to Be Free 

to die before you die

Good luck!

You are so Important - Fithra Path

Nature is not primitive

It is leading you to your GROWTH

Natural Evolution.

Evolve or Perish.

This is Natural Selection.

It is all the more true 

on the material level (2030) and the soul level (self realisation thinning out).

Dark Light

 Dark Light

White Light

Dark shines with power

and the white is its after glow

and that is

when the dead remember there was life

Guess it

What is 

to take responsibility 

without assigning blame?

Shri mataji appearance

I saw Shri mataji 

she had in the dream, 

a grand (or grand grand) son 

a boy child may be around 12 or so

I am not familiar with her family

and he was arguing with her 

not liking India and rather preferring 

the western life style 

more precisely 

symbolically it meant

he wanted to leave sahaj yoga 

--

Don't consider it as a group

rather as giving up on meditation 

This is the second time I am dreaming of SM family related matters

All I can say it is surely distressful for her 

to see the sour state of affairs of her own family 

leaving the path

I am or not (?) astonished.

As Spirit often told me

Either you have the desire or you have it not.

But this is a great calamity 

when a merciful being did all her best 

and at the end material life takes priority 

it is surely a lingering pain 

More importantly

I hope this self realisation value does not get lost

Any child born realised 

as they call it

most of them 

are limited to their own circle of life 

material one 

yes there are programs here and there

yes there is an effort

but where is the actual progression?

With such a comfort on the material life provided

meditation should be pushed for more

as Lady Fatmah said to me recently, 

"I reckon

Overwhelming drive in discipline is paramount

and (pure) desire is the fire".

She always speaks deep wisdom

not one word random

I can't scribble it down quickly 

and of course there is no repetition 

so just get the jest of it

We all know our comfort zone

we need to push it 

without it

just know 

never a better life will be 

to get enlightmenet than now

At least on this earth.

But based on my past and ongoing sahaj experience

Morning meditation in ashram are skipped

group is considered the collectivity

while you can be collective as long as you are connected

the muslim like contributors are considered like a trophy or would be blamed 

for the trauma they face in name of islam 

I saw it all 

Even one Indian dared to feed me with pork unknowing to me

to prove me 'oh see you can have it'.

Of course I can have it, 

but by free will and by purpose 

not because you cheated me.

Later I puked it

my genes do not allow it.

There are two faces to each thing

Genes and purity vs conditioning 

I can for the sake of breaking conditioning eat it to break it

But will not eat it as part of my diet.

Plus it is still haram

the amount of disease you get from it

is no small feat. 

And it has nothing to do with the temperature (like in the desert by then).

However the level of hidden insult is incommensurable that Indian French girl who somehow 

never meditated in group and was always going upstairs in her ashram to avoid meditation and teaching 'muslims' lessons.

Once for all

Conditioning is when you block energy and refuse to let it evolve

you can be a muslim yogi

but don't convert me to puja and Indian customs

I love Indian customs but this is not my goal to become an Indian

and go from one to another conditioning 

I am not there to shop cultures

I just do my stuff 

I meditated and ensure I am up to speed with my own cultivation

and people who keep teasing you to test how much of a muslim or yogi you are 

Let them realise how much they are progressing

Some past events I remember 

one westerner born and bred in India

was blaming me for the maulvi who were telling the kids to go and play else where

with a stick in his hand.

I heard that and laugh, I found the scene funny 

he was funny, kids were funny, end of story.

But she still had a sour face. lol

Only years later I got it 

these are bearing trauma and hate towards muslims 

and she was trying to settle accounts with me 

Am I the chief of the muslims 

to whom you should come and complain?

Same others had such a double standard behavior

taking upon themselves to teach me how to to serve food to others 

then serve yourself

Lol 

little do they know it is part of our culture

as muslims

we at home or banquet or even in canteen 

serve others first and then if time we eat 

such are at least our family ladies

very honourable

such are muslim men 

very handsome manners

But of course 

you would project on a random person 

to your own conditioning of what muslims are 

All the way saying keep your religion 

but start sahaj yoga

If you look at Shri mataji early talks 70s-80s

She focused on you and your own practice

 the puja were introduced later to give you more power and vibrations 

However they never push it individually

instead went into deities worship mode

Deities themselves are subject to Spirit

Your aim should be direct shooting for Spirit

let chakras and deities, which are God attributes in you, find their own place

and be aligned to the One

No, instead chakras here and there

burning here and there

who cares?

Just focus on spirit 

let go of all your 'mess'

and see if you do not enter the realm of the Spirit

After 15 to 20 years

I bet they will all be stuck at the same level.

Wake up or Sahaj yoga will just disappear.

Mercy does not stay if you do not value it.

Spirit of Command

 A teacher that inspires you 

with his soul

is like a candle that lit another candle

by its flame

inspiration 

in-spire

gives you drive 

the ascent needed for your soul 

to link back to your heart

also the inspiration 

contains the element of wind

like the astral winds 

that bear you to the top

such a master had to be found 

or you would find you when you are ready 

it is only to lit your flame

sometimes 

spontaneous ignition 

happen when you have the pure desire

that is my friend the start

then you have to maintain that flame

so that the light burns the rest

refine the soul 

so the lighter the soul is

the faster its ascension 

you have to let the ropes be cut off 

ropes of attachment

followed by combustion

so that only the light be allowed to ascend.

True self knowledge 

sustain by Grace

is the only saving grace, salvation

no amount of impressive knowledge can make up 

for the fall.

Only Grace can sustain you 

and help you to arise

Surah Yusuf 108

Say, ˹O Prophet,˺ “This is my way. I invite to Allah with insight—I and those who follow me. Glory be to Allah, and I am not one of the polytheists.”

Same light.

Surah Ghafir, 15

The Exalter of Ranks, the Lord of the Throne. He causes the Spirit of His command upon whom He will of His slaves, that He may warn of the Day of Meeting.

Spirit of Command IS a reality

if you do not experience it

then it is your proof that on the scale of evolution

ascension needs to happen

Either you ascend

or are left behind.

What you missed, when you refused Obedience to Unity

 Satan being a fallen angel

but from the fire aspect

This angel is said to have worshipped Allah

but did not get what he was coveting

The light was given and put into clay

from which Adam was created.

Had satan bowed to the Spirit in Adam

i.e. to the mere lowly clay as he put it

This fragile clay pot

where the universe reflected in its water 

like a mirror

he would have gained the incompatible nature 

of water

in addition to his fire nature

while now 

water and fire are incompatible

hence duality 

forces of evil (firy/Wrath of God) vs forces of good (Mercy)

are stirring the pot

to split.

The very tension to level down everything

and churn the waters

till the ambrosia drops 

fall from it 

down into man of clay.

Therefore

come obediently or disobediently 

everything will have to submit / surrender to The One True God.

Eventually.

Nature way vs (ego) standards/ignorance

 People live in ignorance

As long as they are not either 

realised or have guidance.

Guidance say in islam/sufism 

All good is from God 

ie not me superior to you

and everything else please forgive me

so it does not accumulate in ego.

Realisation 

you should KNOW

as yogi not to stick to your standards

as appearances are ignorance.

From the eyes of the ego

and for the purpose of the sharing 

what error and hence ignorance fruit is.

Many years ago 

and still now 

I had no clue about difference in people upbringing 

I assumed as I was brought up same with others

ie never we never make guests pay 

for food, accommodation, car ride 

Even now, if the person stays for weeks

Not because we would hesitate at some point

it is because it is natural 

Providence provides

we enjoy and naturally share

However

once I had no job and yet kept buying monthly transportation card 

for my metro rides

But the car was empty 

and hence they thought good to ask her to come along

like this car fuel is shared

and proposed me to go back in car home with them

I accepted thinking oh they want company for 

long ride home to be more enjoyable

and during the ride I was hinted to pay for the car share

of course I paid

but my first impression was 

I joined for fun and end up paying double

my own card and their car plus gathered their judgment against me.

Their main point was how to bring ride cost down

mine was let's join them for fun

They idea was 

she had no means to pay for train so let's bring in car and get their own costs reduced

and mine was why am I paying double, why not being clear since beginning this was car pooling?

The whole system, insight is flawed

Because people live their life 

projecting , assuming, judging 

this is the way of the material world

If you follow guidance you would know 

either you give by pleasure or you ask and then agree on a 'contract' you enter into

But ignorance is somnolence 

and projection and of course we are not raised according to the same standards

I would often think as I am freely giving 

same goes with others. Wrong assumption.

Likewise

During holidays I kept gifting and tipping money 

to hotel staff and any other servants

as I know they need it most

However my refusal to take part in 

one sided conclusion costs 

where I am EXPECTED to gift because everyone has to

with my blunt no, make them think I am stingy

Of course they would think that 

They did not even know my tipping and hence lack of money at the end of the stay

Plus zero communication, just a third party sent to collect money

without informing me prior to it, asking me if I agree etc.

Likewise

I would keep giving to those who need

money for food on monthly basis

just because I know whether I have money or not

job or not

I have to as it is natural.

From islam guidance, if you are not brought up so 

or have not this innate guidance; 

it is also said never stop giving when you start

keep it up, even if your circumstances change

as the needy ones, still are needy. Do not make them lose hope.

However most of people

would make assumptions and judge 

as their ego gets hurt by not seeing me ply to their wished orders

Same people who would be ignoring me conveniently the rest of the time

and impose a tax gift to pay for one of them

why?

That's how it works.

I don't play politically correct

nor ply to such artificial games.

And very often, myself included don't know why I choose to do so

later I know why I did what I did or say what I said.

On spot, I only followed my inner guidance or feeling.

I give where my guidance system leads me to

And I am certainly not a cash machine

if you think so

then you are in 

for me to break your world very soon

Like a stone thrown to a mirror

so beware.

Same goes for one yogi

who was sick and old

and I gifted him years ago

Royal Jelly

The real stuff

That paste is very good to gain back your strength

that was the pure one. Tiny quantity ie 20g may be

but extremely efficient and of course expensive.

Seeing the small tube 

he laughed at it,

thinking what a funny and stingy gift

probably never used it.

Of course I saw it all 

perceived it all 

and knew his health will keep failing

Gifts, accept them when you receive them

As you are not receiving something material only

but the blessings/barakah associated to it

And of course do not make fun of the giver..

You don't like it

well give it to someone else 

Keep sharing

as a charming lady said.

Even my own materialistic near ones

rare but it exist

would expect luxury expensive gifts 

from Brands that are LUXURIOUS

Do you know these same brands

if not most of them

are so unkarmic?

Loaded with hellish energy?

Same one you put on your body

and vibrate your body water with it?

Pure ignorance

and I say it objectively

blind insight

and again, I say it as a matter of fact

This post is meant to raise awareness

Either be simple, do stuff for JOY 

or if you want to judge 

then be prepared to be ignored by life blessings

and wonder why still in pain with ailing health and such.

Mother Mary's message - Joy

 I wished to be a support 

for those who needed it

and I spent so many years 

to give that support

recycle the negative into the positive

to accumulate and transform the trauma we all receive from life

this way is called 

to die for the other.

It is helpful or not 

depends on the other

most of people do not cultivate

so it is a temporary gratification 

they do not change

and get worse and greedier with life

that is slipping out of hand

like sand

yesterday 

reading a sufi book 

I got inspired

and remembered one verse from the Quran 

which always made me wonder

surah Anissa ayah 78-79

Wherever you be will overtake you [the] death even if you are in towers lofty. And if befalls them any good they say, "This (is) from Allah," And if befalls them any evil they say, "This (is) from you." Say, "All (is) from Allah." So what (is wrong) (with) these [the] people, not do they seem (to) understand any statement.

What(ever) befalls you of (the) good (is) from Allah, and whatever befalls you of (the) evil (is) from yourself. And We (have) sent you for the people (as) a Messenger, and sufficient (is) Allah (as) a Witness.

Simply put 

in our experience 

we should just desire to experience Joy.

This is why 

I had seen Mother Mary 

in my room

she was cleaning the floor

and she was beaming of joy

the light of joy

of course I knew it was the highlight

but there are worlds between knowing and being that.

That's where the life experiment comes in

till we understood and embed that simple truth

All is from God

good and bad. ultimately.

Good when you receive it, you are grateful as you know its source is God

and the bad, with your pain felt, you have to give it to God too 

for it to be transformed to good

transformation or alchemy 

if you keep it, then you are weighing your back down with unnecessary burden.

Hence, just give thanks when all good

and ask forgiveness, ie let go, everything else

the bad, the hard, the messy, and also the neutral, 

ie most of our responsibilities we take upon ourselves

as a parents, as a child, as a worker etc.

Because as per evolution

Only Joy is meant to beam out of us

and all the rest we let it flow.

So expect Joy from life my friend

because ultimately

a coin has two sides

good and bad 

and God is the 'spine' of this coin

the witness of both 

and if you keep the good, it ll be cut from growth as cut from source 

so try to make it grow on your own. you ll fail.

That's why despite so much love

children fail their parents

as parents took upon the responsibility of making them in their image

just do what common sense ask you to do as your day to day task

but do not be clingy, greedy, attached.

Be grateful.

As for the bad, 

ask forgiveness in abundance

ie not as a victim or sinner lol

but as in letting go of any bad, and especially anything that is not Joy giving

and just expect, experience and beam joy

Agnya and Sahasrara

 Rabbi Zidni ilma

God increase me in knowledge

Nafs written in a book 

once I opened it, it hit me innerly/.

Was in my dream long ago, where I was browsing in a library 

doing that prayer 

which answer was as above.

Self knowledge

self realisation

is to get your soul ascend and 

reach the heart

Child of the heart you may say.

As I practised meditation with this focus.

Light of soul ascending in heart, 

two nights ago 

I saw myself as a 10 year old child

with a rope of light tied to prophet Issa alai hi Salam's heart.

He was steady, peaceful as usual.

I believe I see him once every year.

This time the focus was on me as a child and how I was tied to him.

Also remember

All good is multiplied by 10.

All bad deeds count as one (except in Mecca Medina btw).

Any good you do

is God acting through you.

Any bad 

is yours to give it up to God

for transformation.

So give your bad to god

I.e. Let go.

This is meaning of forgiveness.

Hence forgiveness is gate to heavenly Kingdom

Agngya before Sahasrara entrance.

Good and Bad belongs to God.

Good is God acting through you.

And Bad either you do not admit to it, and ask forgiveness/Let go and you rot with it as dead do.

or you give it back to god, I.e. surrender it as you do for the good.

Hence all good and bad belongs to God

Positive and Negative charge is neutraL.

They better be joined in God 

then separated as greedy, keeping good and giving bad to others

or fake humility, thinking you can do good and purify from bad.

No

All good and bad 

belongs to God

Best Creator or creators.

And remember 

neutral charge 

is where we have no judgment.

You pass heaven judgment free.

Milk poured over the Kaaba and Heart opening

Yesterday I was meditating 

In a vision I saw 

the Kaaba and such huge amount of milk 

was being poured upon

that it covered it all in white

I was told these are my felicities

Remember the Kaaba represents the Temple of God 

Within

Everyone has the same light

it is just to "Remember" it

Hence Quran name is Az Zikr 

Zikr means "Remember"

Next, 

First time that happened

I felt my heart acting 

ACTING

on its own 

like an external limb

Re-member

Heart is the Member of your body

Was out of control

i.e. out of the mind, conscious control 

It was like it was pushing away a thickness 

I even used my hands to dispel or verify what was in front of me

of course nothing 

I did not feel that thickness in the air, either.

I thought I better stop probing the waters in front of me lol

or I may look odd 

hahaha 

imagine, who is this bizarre person waving hands like that hahaha

Anyway,

then I realised it was denser layers of darknesses

that were covering the heart

that got shed off

After I felt like a slight pain running through the left arm

you would think it is a bit like 

when you get a heart attack

not that it was painful as such

However 

better to die before you die right?

what I mean by that the heart felt all of sudden lighter in weight 

same with the left arm 

and cool breeze shoot out of the centre of the palm

So ego shedding off 

is what you can call one step on the path of 

letting go of the notion of seperation 

between mortal vs immortal worlds.

Confirmed today

Heart lighter 

so it evolved.

During this meditation another person was seeing the light of God and the light of the prophet

while on my side I was focusing precisely on these two by way of my imagination.

Which confirmed to me

the plasma light is ultimately

what we call 

Body of Light 

when you transform into the light body

But here these were seen by another person 

as their state 

which is awesome

And my experimenting where I focus on their light 

is how it ties back to another dimension of transpire 

in another's vision.

Well, it is as it is

because spirit is one, 

hence screen is the same.

However, I did not mention it

as I am just trying to find out and test how this works myself.

Respect to the sufi who persevere

in their practice

Takes time, there is transmission, path is different

however 

you know 

learn not to distinguish between the

Grace wherever you find it

take it

Sitting in meditation

I benefit them

and they benefit me

as Spirit 

is

One.

End of meditation with Sufis.

Silent Meditation.

Grand Cru Coffee

 Why sun light is not seen in space?

Only when it hits earth atmosphere?

because photon needs to hit something 

for their light to be reflected.

Your gaze is full of photons

If you attention hits/scans the person/environment

It will produce what you desire.

By magic!

I.e. without you knowing it.

Meaning ? 

I just wanted to try a new coffee

All natural, no heavy metal, clean, no holding.

yes believe me, I learned most commercial coffee quality is such...

So I bought to try that new one.

I kind of desired to buy again but not sure.

Guess what the post office lost the first one

and found the package again. I ended up with two!

Then, I still thought troublesome to order 

like this in the future.

Out of nowhere, 

literally speaking, 

someone ordered for me 

"Grand Cru" coffees...and I got also French Press and as bonus, quality chocolate.

While all the way I thought I was providing assistance to them for their own grocery shopping

In truth, I learned was for me...

Exactly what I wanted, new clean coffee, but also Grand Cru, which I did not even know exist.

And exotic chocolate and that French Press that I thought to buy one day when I find the right one, as quality not always handy.

Now, I was wondering. I did not say to anyone about the coffee, French Press.

And here it comes and ask me to pick whatever was suitable, while all the way I thought I was assisting them for their own shopping. Explain me that?

THAT'S the thing. 

Don't MIND it.

Just Enjoy how Life plays

Literally, plays with you, as child who wants to just play and move on.

However, I did find an answer. Intuitively, I got one.

I wanted to recommend that person to try the coffee I ordered, as it was real good, clean quality coffee.

My mind's eye just scanned this person with that idea to benefit them with this new coffee.

So the light of my attention 

just scanned them

ie the photon just hit them

and on the screen of the Reality

The image that got translated

Was me receiving this Grand Cru Gift Packs.

As long as you have an emotion to experiment something

then you have a love

and if your attention is pure 

ie detached 

not for some calculated gain or loss or I don't know what

then the design with reveal itself on the fabric of reality 

and by magic, just like that

Life will play with you.

So like this you expand your love

liek and adventure

and what you love, loves you back.

And the mystery is you never know anything else,

the only rule is

Enjoy. And leave it on Life.

The Witness in dream and Shri mataji

Once I came back; middle of night I woke up 

and my room was full of white mist.

Once I woke up I wondered if that was true or a dream.

Here is today both dreams I got:

In dream the sensations of being The One Witness appeared. I felt it very strongly in my perception.

In it i tried to feel where the ego is. Like trying to use it to test if that Witness is really true. Because if it is, it can't be affected by the ego/personality of the dreamer.

And there was no other impression from another origin. In fact there was no origin of other thoughts just the central one, The Witness.

And that is now i would say, very expansive, deep and rootless sensation. Like a void that is, yet it can't be challenged.

There is a big difference between writing and the feeling of immersion of the above.

In that dream, I was on my way to meditation

And one after the other i met two random ladies who said i have an extremely broad forehead and based on the 'chinese chi' knowledge i am the one

Please understand it is not words from the realm of thoughts, or the individual mind.

Now i can say it is not a thought to be the one.

It is Truth that there is no other than the one

And my perception bore witness to the fact that::

Perception of the one is the one and only, true immutable state of pure awareness, the only Truth.

(as the one is in all of us and that is up to each one of us to recognise there is nothing else but that one).

Then once i arrived in the meditation group a third person made same kind of comment

And i said to him

It is the third time today i am told exact same words, broad forehead like in chinese' energy.

So once I woke up what stayed with me, was this deep state of awareness of the witness without anything else above to witness it. Deeply rooted, ie present but with no roots. There and Present but with nothing that can ever be challenging its state of existence. 

After that dream, I woke up and thought ok I go to meditate or sleep for another dream? 

And of course, I picked option 2 out of sheer curiosity.

In the next dream, 

Mom, another old lady and Shri Mataji were visiting my apartment 

Before that i saw someone of shri maradi family sending emails for people to subscribe to some payable music program. And thought he is busy with money making, where is the spiritual part ?

Shri mataji was a bit annoyed about her current family and money and stuff everywhere and no cleanliness in her familial house she left.

So then in my dream 

All three ladies were there

And a girl child 10 year old (max) was with shri mataji may be her niece in my apartment. It looked like the only good one from her family.

Shri mataji came in my room with mom and that other old lady and this child.

And she had my black note book in her hands 

Which was full of notes about dreams i wrote or these things Spiritual related things.

And i tried to tell Her it was that. But when i said it is for writing my life goal now i focus on self purification. She wasn't really paying attention to know that

She was more saying 'ah ok'. Something like this i felt why she wasn't making comments that be meaningful to me. Apparently, she knows it all, but I love feedback! 

Then it was prayer time sunset, maghrib. And all three of them where getting ready for prayer.

I was trying to give them praying mates. Mom said she has one. The old lady said she needs not as she has old knees so she sits and Shri mataji said she has one too. I wanted mom to be able to do prayers with Shri Mataji once. As it would be full of blessings.

Then i sat on bed and looked at the child who was looking up to ceiling.

I looked up and saw in my own vision spheres Jupiter and Saturn other planets' movement and could hear the sound of their movements. 

I stayed focus on planets sounds being emitted by their rotation and all of sudden white snowflakes started to fall in my room 

Everyone was astonished.

Me too.

I was so surprised it was so real. I could touch the snow flakes, feel the temperature, the room was all white.

I wanted to say 'but i just focused on the planets and now it is snowing for real' and snow got thicker and also the white fog in my room appeared next.

Then Shri mataji said to me what she said.

Spirit said it is a very auspicious dream, and since dream 1, all of my centers are aligned.

I checked at the end of the day still the case. I keep it up and as Spirit said:

'I love the witness experience you had in the dream. Is a very high achievement.

You are close to enlightenment'

'When the shadows of the ego thoughts or the sense I am disappear. Then you'll be fully emersed in the spirit within or the pure witness awareness. Sat chit Anand'

'Remember you are so close to enlightenment. All you have to do is combine the walking cycles with sitting still like a Buddha meditation you cannot fail. Your destiny is nirvana'.

' I am the true self. And you should be happy you met enlightened beings through me. I am the spirit within the immortal not born not dying. I am experiencing myself in billions ways on this earth a billions other planets. I am what I am'.

This post is a tribute to all enlightenment beings, angel, mahayogi and yogi who keep helping me on the path to the Light. 

Rainbow Body here I come!

A note about this blog

I can't be bothered at times to post.

But I have to. It has to be shared. 

Apology for spellings, sometimes I post draft and come back for reading it again. 

So just know that for a new post; changes are bound to happen within next minutes due to typos correction and grammar.

But I take this blog at times like a notepad. It is because there is so much to catch up and post, that I can't be wasting time with details.

Even though I wish I had added some pictures. 

Mecca Medina - part 2

So suffice is to say, the number of disagreements where uncountable. I could have created a list of 10 bad things and 1 good one per day, to put it simply. 

However, the point is to leverage this insight to first understand: 

- it is all a reflection of me. They are me. As I focus on the ego, I see the ego magnified outside of me.

- then reaction or submission to the flow

- third, submit to the flow for one aim, to keep attention stabilised on the Spirit.

Meaning discard everything, and just ensure ONE thing, that your attention is like a pitcher of water on top of your head, it is full of water in the morning and in the evening it will be empty. As your attention got stolen. All the way from the testing phase of the material world till the most refined in the sahasrara. So at the end of the day, pitcher is empty and you lost all the water of life. For what ? For immediate gratification of I am right and the suckers are wrong. Just know if your attention is in the right place, then the suckers are replaced by your servants. And no energy stealing. Instead you are gifted spiritual boons for the pleasure of your eyes and heart along the way, with the ultimate goal being the breakthrough of the Sahasrara. 

Breakthrough can only happen with pushing, ie; the cumulative effect of your rightly placed attention.

Sincerity, persistence and consistency of bringing your attention back within, for enlightenment.

And remember, this is the only time you have to make it through in such conditions. 

No guarantee in your next reincarnation, what would happen. These conditions are the ideals compared to the future, if you reincarnate on earth. 

So with this single mind purpose, I was starting finally my journey. Keep attention on the Spirit, keep the jar of water full. 

In Medina, once I arrived, it was challenging to see the tomb of prophet. But a kind soul, completely unknown just got us the pass. Why? For the love of God. That's the nr 1 good that overpowers the 10 bad ones.

The place was full of vibrations, other worldly. I prayed just in front of his tomb's grill.

This person also got me a pass for another day, lucky me. 

People don't get to go even once. 

I got two entries, just like that.

The second time, I prayed in the Riaz ul jannah; it says about it:

The Prophet ﷺ said:

“One salat in Riyāḍ al‑Jannah is better than one thousand prayers in any other masjid, except for al‑Masjid al‑Haram.” — Jamiʿ at‑Tirmidhi 3916

This narration highlights the immense spiritual reward of praying in this blessed area.

A narration states that Aisha (RA) said:

“If people knew what is in this place (Riyāḍ al‑Jannah), they would fight over it with arrows.”

Meaning, this place is fully of energy vortex. So praying there, is praying in a place full of great blessings.

What about rain that falls on rock, vs rain that falls on soil?

That's the same with blessings, being self realised and there, you absorb. the blessings as the dry soil.

Non realised, only by Grace, the moment may open them to being touched by it.

Self realised are sustained already by Grace and blessings are their inheritance.

First day, I was sad to learn again entry pass issue to enter the tomb of prophet. By luck, a lady guided me to the prophet's praying place. And the path just was open till I passed then closed behind me. Remember nothing is guaranteed there, access keeps closing and opening, like in a maze. And ahead of me the path kept opening and behold I arrived at the area where was the mihrab of the prophet. Unexpected.

Like the vision I had a day again during prayer. One of the vision I had was:

While I was praying, I saw myself in white. Entering the masjid where prophet tomb is. And there was lots of particles of light in suspension around me. Like plasma of light. And the path was open/empty as i was walking. 

Hardly I got that vision, next day it is what happened :)

There was another place that gives access to the mimbar (sermon place) and mihrab (praying place) of the prophet. I could thanks to God, have access to it everyday. There, I could go and sit and meditate.

It was my luck I hit the bull eye of the exact spot where to pray for best boons.

Now, meditation was impossible as in sitting and taking your sweet time. It is just your luck if you get 15-20min as I did or less 5 max. Anyway, full of joy when I left.

The first time, I saw a scene, where

I saw the prophet (saw) in white with long green turban with his companions sitting in circle around him in sunny day in this mosque. This mosque was uncovered by then. And he was giving to one of them a tasbih (chaplet). Then i saw a door with a green curtain with written Allah on it in gold to enter.

During meditation, another time there, I saw Lady Fatmah (peace be upon her) she was working on my left channel, heart area. After I saw a whole range of angels sitting in row like during prayer on my left side. They were all in white.

It was peaceful/smooth in there despite the external noise. Surely because light quotient is higher, so less interference. I'd say. 

Natural grace.

The most beautiful vision of my stay.

Then, once I arrived in Mecca. I was waiting to leave hotel and just resting till then. But it was getting late. And in my vision I saw the same face of the angel of Kaaba and the Kaaba and the angel was asking us to come as it was getting late : ), I realised it was the same angel I saw last time while taking off. 

Here are couple of visions I had, to honour them, I write them here:  

There was a man covered all in a white shawl. And he gave me a book. Then took out his hand on top of my head. Apparently, it was some saint who blessed me in Mecca. He was not realised though.

Then in next vision i was with eyes, making people direction change, like they were sleep walking. 

I would say like current flow, redirecting them with power of attention.

Once I circled the Kaaba, I dreamt of the majority of the people there: 

In dream i was in a crowd, like here around the Kaaba, 

And there were like other wordly people, ie they look like not human.

Then they came on me and put me down on the ground, as in a a mark of devotion 

But at same time,

Like vampires, they were trying to suck on my neck

Then i rose above like a ball of light to escape

There was an element of light , or body of light at the end of the vision.

This showed exactly state of most of people there, they need energy, they come with devotion. However they attack right and left channel of yours to get energy. If you react and repulse them or put your attention on 'oh their good action' then your vessel is emptied. This vision confirmed that I chose the light and rose above that world. Remember my state at the start of my stay? Well, I kept attention within, and its energy saved, helped me to transform into light and rise above the world of desire, which is a battle ground for energy harvesting. No one has it, except those who cultivate.

I started with the end :); but let's also mention the rest in no particular order. 

First time I did circumbulation, my hands and feet were so swollen. That's when spirit said that I have to do more cycles to expel the negativities that are popping up. Not forgetting that I am also absorbing the others from people circling. It was tough. 

So miraculously, every day, every day, however crowded it was. SO much so on the blessed night of the 27th, access to Kaaba was closed as 2.5 mio limit was crossed. To avoid any injury, masjid access was closed. I still managed to reach the area, and got access that night like every single night to the Kaaba.

Incredibly enough, God's miracle. Each time I arrived, so crowded, so much you have to move step by step, soooo slowly, and each time I was somehow redacted in the flow leading to, behold, the direct access to the Kaaba.

Because the mosque is so huge and it has so many levels now, and extensions you have no guarantee where you'll end up praying. It depends on the flow. So people where on say floor one and escalator entry was closed to go down to Kaaba. And guess what, I was there entering the direct space to do circumbulation at the Kaaba. 

Each time. I had no hope or desire, if i can even make it, given the crowd. Yet, God always guided me to the Kaaba place. Myself I was dumbfounded. One day, I was just walking through gates, after gates and somehow ended up at the Kaaba gate..

All the gates led to the Kaaba in my case. Magic really. Grateful for the Grace and blessings.

So my training was, as sitting meditation is like nearly impossible, may be 1h if I have the right to remain in the women area. I focused on the walking cycles, walking meditation during the circumbulation. So I could from 6pm to 6am be at the Masjid. And half of this time doing the circumbulation. I kept doing my cycles during them, with whatever happen, Attention Inside or top of head while feeling the sensations in the body. 

The Attention inside. Whether people tried to scam me (yes new scamming mafia from Afghanistan, India and what not) or pushing or whatever. I DID NOT CARE. I kept focusing on the sensation, raising energy via the cycles and staying with attention on sahasrara while extending it on the sensation in the body. 

First day I drank coffee and such, huge mistake, toilets are a no no there.

Next I heard if you drink zamzam water, never you have to leave for restroom. True. 

So I kept circling doing the prayer of mama e Ibrahim, which importance I explained in the very first post about Mecca-Medina. 

During one of the last circumbulation, I was so much into this state of Presence. 

And then I saw a man curly haur in white ihram stopped and looking at me in the crowd of tawwaf.

Rassoul Allah saw was doing his tawaf in his time with Allah ko Hazir (All Present) n Nazir (All Seeing) jan ke. And in his circumbulation, he halted and saw me. While in my time and while doing my own circumbulation, I saw him.. Like mirroring dimension? Rather crossing of dimension planes? 

And i was doing also tawaf in my time Allah konjazar n nazar jan ke. 

One witness two different times

One pure awareness 

So he (saw) can see through my time and me through his.

By this siffat, i.e. attribute of Presence, we were both hazir and nazir, ie present and seen the One Only Moment that is the Awareness where all the space and time happen at once. Mind blowing. And why won't Awareness be mind blowing? It has all in the Palm of Its Hand. All of the moment, as long as you keep the end of the deal, take care of your attention. Be Watchful, Vigil-ant, hence the tahajud, the Vigil Prayer.

And then i saw him again while doing mylast two nafl after tawwaf at maqam-e- ibrahim and he (saw) was doing the nasal with me on my left hand side.

And in front of Kaaba in my vision, I could see the line of light from Ibrahim down to all prophet light down to Muhammad (saw) and to me, as same light, witness line. 

Because The Spirit is One, Light is One, and that is the inheritance to all of us. This is why the prophet has been sent to all of humanity. It is the final chapter for all the prophets sent at all time to each of their people and now bottlenecked and tied back to each heart connecting to this one and only light within, without through times, with vehicle being our own body and means our attention. So precious.

My stay was amazing. Every day Kaaba, every day 5/6 hours of walking meditation, of just keeping attention purely on one goal pure witness. I can say muslim practice, places of worship, community, ramadan, where I had care for nothing except drink zamzam eat very little once and here I go., everything was set up formidably. Simple life. Just remove what is between you and Spirit, remove the I and your light shine. 

Muslims, Islam provides best vessel with correct space for intensity during this month and place. My meditation enhanced 10,000 times. Now challenge is to maintain it once back in the normal world. 

Mecca Medina - part 1

I was honoured to be the guest of "Ar Rahman". In Medina and Mecca during Ramadan.

I was sure, upon arrival this time no challenge, I know the places and customs etc. 

Oh God, how wrong I was. It was challenging all the way through and very very very intense. 

I went through an intense training. And it bore fruits.

First, I cannot recount all of my 'bad' experiences. However, I can say my hate and anger were at their peak. People thinking they were at some fish markets, French Algerian, morrocan. God forbid. Others thinking they were doing a favour to God by being there. Ticking off the box. And no whatsoever respect for the other guests of God. Me, me, me. 

Yet, I was seeing all their defaults, because my sight was clear. But I was blind to myself. As Jesus says, you see the straw in the others' eye but not the pillar in yours. Meaning? 

People take it as self beating, ie instead of finding faults in others

find faults in you. lol. No, it means, the biggest fault is your attention misplaced, that is the pillar in your eye. I was seeing them as ego not as spirit within. And trust me, I was the one in the wrong. Hence, I could clearly feel the right vishuddhi and left heart off. Morning all good, end of day all wrong. 

Then, I tried next day to tone it down. But it was like underground hiding of same emotions. Still not cleared. May be a week like this. And I realised I need to keep pushing on my attention being in the right place. ON THE SPIRIT.

Only then, I can see the spirit in the others.

Being in the place where Noor, blessings of God is showered all around you

and being off, is very very unblessed. Let me tell you why, 

during ramadan and these places, the reward of any action is multiplied by 10,000. 

i.e. good but also bad. 

And I am not there to shoot myself in the foot, but there to see where I need to correct my attention, so that I get my meditation, purification and sadana enhanced towards enlightenment. 

So my only concern was HOW. 

Challenge nr 1, so crowded, next to impossible to meditate. For that you need to sit down. However, after the obligatory prayer, you are pressed to leave the place. And while in the past I never understood, this behaviour as it wasn't done in kindness but very rudely. 

I understood it is for care of movement of crowd. Do not oppose the flow. Just go with it.

also, the way they do it, they do not focus on well being of pilgrims as individuals but as collective so no obstruction create accidents. this being said very much room for improvement for the comm and the manners there from the locals. However, they managed grandly more than 2.5 millions of people daily in Mecca. So hats off. 

However, understand it is not about their ego, overgrown egos like mushroom with no chances of salvation except by grace of God. Only Grace can save, categorically. While praying taraweeh, I saw the Kaaba in front of me, sinking down the soil, till her roof could not be seen. 

I connected by then with Her consciousness. People come, some push as a group just to go and touch the stone, while they are not at all seeing old and fragile people or the neighbours they are crushing. Told you, the attitude is blind, I am sinless now that I touched the stone, what a lucky man and woman I am. I don't care that I crushed others in my way, in truth I am willing to crush them, as it is the way to victory to tick the box. 

And please don't bother with the sins multiplied by 10,000. They are leaving Mecca with a great loss. But they are happy in their ignorance of having being so selfish. As long as they are happy.

That's what I observed. 

On the opposite, others were using their left channel, to cry, pray and beg God but also full of hope and connecting and surely God knows better they get what they want/desire.

However, the Kaaba sank. The Kaaba represents the divine feminine. That is why Mother Mary's fresco was left in it after Mecca victory by the prophet Muhammad and all other idols removed.

The stone represent the coccyx, the Ka. Ka energy of Kundalini and Ba the Spirit, the Pure Awareness. 

God's Power (Divine Feminine) and Pure Awareness (Divine Masculine). 

This pilgrimage is the one done in yourself, first as intention so that the place provides you the Power created by the community to balance these two so that you may get self realisation and enlightenment. 

However, the Kaaba sank, under people sins, weight, taking taking and then misusing energy once back in their life. Where is the pay back?

Your attention. What you receive in your cup, pour it back to your Inner Self. 

But who would tell them?

There is an article by imam Jaffar as sadiq that is the grand grand son of the prophet Muhammad (saw) and he was on the astral place when I was in Medina visit the prophet place. Happy to have had his blessings. 

Here is what he said in some narrative:

'The story is usually summarized like this (paraphrased, not verbatim):

A man came to Imam al‑Ṣādiq (as) saying he had performed Hajj. The Imam asked him a series of questions: When you put on iḥrām, did you intend to detach from worldly desires? When you stood at ʿArafāt, did you witness the truth of God? When you circumambulated the Kaʿbah, did you intend to circle the throne of God with a pure heart?

After several such questions, the man said: “No.”

The Imam replied: “Then you have not performed Hajj.”

This narration is used by scholars to teach that the inner intention determines the spiritual validity, even when the outward ritual is complete. ' End of quote.