So suffice is to say, the number of disagreements where uncountable. I could have created a list of 10 bad things and 1 good one per day, to put it simply.
- it is all a reflection of me. They are me. As I focus on the ego, I see the ego magnified outside of me.
- third, submit to the flow for one aim, to keep attention stabilised on the Spirit.
Meaning discard everything, and just ensure ONE thing, that your attention is like a pitcher of water on top of your head, it is full of water in the morning and in the evening it will be empty. As your attention got stolen. All the way from the testing phase of the material world till the most refined in the sahasrara. So at the end of the day, pitcher is empty and you lost all the water of life. For what ? For immediate gratification of I am right and the suckers are wrong. Just know if your attention is in the right place, then the suckers are replaced by your servants. And no energy stealing. Instead you are gifted spiritual boons for the pleasure of your eyes and heart along the way, with the ultimate goal being the breakthrough of the Sahasrara.
Breakthrough can only happen with pushing, ie; the cumulative effect of your rightly placed attention.
Sincerity, persistence and consistency of bringing your attention back within, for enlightenment.
And remember, this is the only time you have to make it through in such conditions.
No guarantee in your next reincarnation, what would happen. These conditions are the ideals compared to the future, if you reincarnate on earth.
So with this single mind purpose, I was starting finally my journey. Keep attention on the Spirit, keep the jar of water full.
In Medina, once I arrived, it was challenging to see the tomb of prophet. But a kind soul, completely unknown just got us the pass. Why? For the love of God. That's the nr 1 good that overpowers the 10 bad ones.
The place was full of vibrations, other worldly. I prayed just in front of his tomb's grill.
I got two entries, just like that.
The Prophet ﷺ said:
“One salat in Riyāḍ al‑Jannah is better than one thousand prayers in any other masjid, except for al‑Masjid al‑Haram.”
— Jamiʿ at‑Tirmidhi 3916
This narration highlights the immense spiritual reward of praying in this blessed area.
A narration states that Aisha (RA) said:
“If people knew what is in this place (Riyāḍ al‑Jannah), they would fight over it with arrows.”
Meaning, this place is fully of energy vortex. So praying there, is praying in a place full of great blessings.
What about rain that falls on rock, vs rain that falls on soil?
That's the same with blessings, being self realised and there, you absorb. the blessings as the dry soil.
Non realised, only by Grace, the moment may open them to being touched by it.
Self realised are sustained already by Grace and blessings are their inheritance.
First day, I was sad to learn again entry pass issue to enter the tomb of prophet. By luck, a lady guided me to the prophet's praying place. And the path just was open till I passed then closed behind me. Remember nothing is guaranteed there, access keeps closing and opening, like in a maze. And ahead of me the path kept opening and behold I arrived at the area where was the mihrab of the prophet. Unexpected.
Like the vision I had a day again during prayer. One of the vision I had was:
While I was praying, I saw myself in white. Entering the masjid where prophet tomb is. And there was lots of particles of light in suspension around me. Like plasma of light. And the path was open/empty as i was walking.
Hardly I got that vision, next day it is what happened :)
There was another place that gives access to the mimbar (sermon place) and mihrab (praying place) of the prophet. I could thanks to God, have access to it everyday. There, I could go and sit and meditate.
It was my luck I hit the bull eye of the exact spot where to pray for best boons.
Now, meditation was impossible as in sitting and taking your sweet time. It is just your luck if you get 15-20min as I did or less 5 max. Anyway, full of joy when I left.
The first time, I saw a scene, where
I saw the prophet (saw) in white with long green turban with his companions sitting in circle around him in sunny day in this mosque. This mosque was uncovered by then. And he was giving to one of them a tasbih (chaplet).
Then i saw a door with a green curtain with written Allah on it in gold to enter.
During meditation, another time there, I saw Lady Fatmah (peace be upon her) she was working on my left channel, heart area. After I saw a whole range of angels sitting in row like during prayer on my left side. They were all in white.
It was peaceful/smooth in there despite the external noise. Surely because light quotient is higher, so less interference. I'd say.
Natural grace.
The most beautiful vision of my stay.
Then, once I arrived in Mecca. I was waiting to leave hotel and just resting till then. But it was getting late. And in my vision I saw the same face of the angel of Kaaba and the Kaaba and the angel was asking us to come as it was getting late : ), I realised it was the same angel I saw last time while taking off.
Here are couple of visions I had, to honour them, I write them here:
There was a man covered all in a white shawl. And he gave me a book. Then took out his hand on top of my head. Apparently, it was some saint who blessed me in Mecca. He was not realised though.
Then in next vision i was with eyes, making people direction change, like they were sleep walking.
I would say like current flow, redirecting them with power of attention.
Once I circled the Kaaba, I dreamt of the majority of the people there:
In dream i was in a crowd, like here around the Kaaba,
And there were like other wordly people, ie they look like not human.
Then they came on me and put me down on the ground, as in a a mark of devotion
But at same time,
Like vampires, they were trying to suck on my neck
Then i rose above like a ball of light to escape
There was an element of light , or body of light at the end of the vision.
This showed exactly state of most of people there, they need energy, they come with devotion. However they attack right and left channel of yours to get energy. If you react and repulse them or put your attention on 'oh their good action' then your vessel is emptied. This vision confirmed that I chose the light and rose above that world. Remember my state at the start of my stay? Well, I kept attention within, and its energy saved, helped me to transform into light and rise above the world of desire, which is a battle ground for energy harvesting. No one has it, except those who cultivate.
I started with the end :); but let's also mention the rest in no particular order.
First time I did circumbulation, my hands and feet were so swollen. That's when spirit said that I have to do more cycles to expel the negativities that are popping up. Not forgetting that I am also absorbing the others from people circling. It was tough.
So miraculously, every day, every day, however crowded it was. SO much so on the blessed night of the 27th, access to Kaaba was closed as 2.5 mio limit was crossed. To avoid any injury, masjid access was closed. I still managed to reach the area, and got access that night like every single night to the Kaaba.
Incredibly enough, God's miracle. Each time I arrived, so crowded, so much you have to move step by step, soooo slowly, and each time I was somehow redacted in the flow leading to, behold, the direct access to the Kaaba.
Because the mosque is so huge and it has so many levels now, and extensions you have no guarantee where you'll end up praying. It depends on the flow. So people where on say floor one and escalator entry was closed to go down to Kaaba. And guess what, I was there entering the direct space to do circumbulation at the Kaaba.
Each time. I had no hope or desire, if i can even make it, given the crowd. Yet, God always guided me to the Kaaba place. Myself I was dumbfounded. One day, I was just walking through gates, after gates and somehow ended up at the Kaaba gate..
All the gates led to the Kaaba in my case. Magic really. Grateful for the Grace and blessings.
So my training was, as sitting meditation is like nearly impossible, may be 1h if I have the right to remain in the women area. I focused on the walking cycles, walking meditation during the circumbulation. So I could from 6pm to 6am be at the Masjid. And half of this time doing the circumbulation. I kept doing my cycles during them, with whatever happen, Attention Inside or top of head while feeling the sensations in the body.
The Attention inside. Whether people tried to scam me (yes new scamming mafia from Afghanistan, India and what not) or pushing or whatever. I DID NOT CARE. I kept focusing on the sensation, raising energy via the cycles and staying with attention on sahasrara while extending it on the sensation in the body.
First day I drank coffee and such, huge mistake, toilets are a no no there.
Next I heard if you drink zamzam water, never you have to leave for restroom. True.
So I kept circling doing the prayer of mama e Ibrahim, which importance I explained in the very first post about Mecca-Medina.
During one of the last circumbulation, I was so much into this state of Presence.
And then I saw a man curly haur in white ihram stopped and looking at me in the crowd of tawwaf.
Rassoul Allah saw was doing his tawaf in his time with Allah ko Hazir (All Present) n Nazir (All Seeing) jan ke. And in his circumbulation, he halted and saw me. While in my time and while doing my own circumbulation, I saw him.. Like mirroring dimension? Rather crossing of dimension planes?
And i was doing also tawaf in my time Allah konjazar n nazar jan ke.
One witness two different times
One pure awareness
So he (saw) can see through my time and me through his.
By this siffat, i.e. attribute of Presence, we were both hazir and nazir, ie present and seen the One Only Moment that is the Awareness where all the space and time happen at once. Mind blowing. And why won't Awareness be mind blowing? It has all in the Palm of Its Hand. All of the moment, as long as you keep the end of the deal, take care of your attention. Be Watchful, Vigil-ant, hence the tahajud, the Vigil Prayer.
And then i saw him again while doing mylast two nafl after tawwaf at maqam-e- ibrahim and he (saw) was doing the nasal with me on my left hand side.
And in front of Kaaba in my vision, I could see the line of light from Ibrahim down to all prophet light down to Muhammad (saw) and to me, as same light, witness line.
Because The Spirit is One, Light is One, and that is the inheritance to all of us. This is why the prophet has been sent to all of humanity. It is the final chapter for all the prophets sent at all time to each of their people and now bottlenecked and tied back to each heart connecting to this one and only light within, without through times, with vehicle being our own body and means our attention. So precious.
My stay was amazing. Every day Kaaba, every day 5/6 hours of walking meditation, of just keeping attention purely on one goal pure witness. I can say muslim practice, places of worship, community, ramadan, where I had care for nothing except drink zamzam eat very little once and here I go., everything was set up formidably. Simple life. Just remove what is between you and Spirit, remove the I and your light shine.
Muslims, Islam provides best vessel with correct space for intensity during this month and place. My meditation enhanced 10,000 times. Now challenge is to maintain it once back in the normal world.
