Ah thank you to God for His Good Grace
i feel sooo good now
a few days ago
i was laying down in bed
and suddenly felt such a strong downpour of wind
ouf of my fontanel area
that i stayed literally scotched
to my bed and
my attention scotched to my fontanel
soooooooooooooo pleasant it was
soooooooooooooo relaxing too .... ah so good it was
i REALLY relaxed
ENTIRELY
(well nearly)
but most than usual
at the very beginning
i could only feel coolness here and there
let's say hands and/or head
now i am happy to say
after a semester
i could feel it flowing on both arms
till inside of hands
and feet too
after a year
i could literally feel
at times
not always
a whole shield
from head to toe
but now
even during the intensive meditation period
i felt "bored"
well i knew not why
but i felt bored
even though i was still feeling this coolness
all over body
and in the best times
as a unified field of oneness from head to toes
but i felt "bored"
no clue why
but yes bored
should i say it again?
BORED! :)))
now i know why!
it is as i read it
it is because ....
i wanted more lol
and because more joy exists
then this stagnation was starting to bother me
so when i felt this strong wind
out of my fontanel area
really
i was all relaxed
and yes
how can i forget writing that
sooo much relaxed
that i was BREATHING THE VERY COOL BREEZE
THAT WAS COMING OUT OF MY FONTANEL
right into my nose
hahaha
sooooo heavenly time it was
this is true relaxed meditation
and joyful state DURING it !
ah soo cool
and right NOW
twice i felt same
while i was working
so cool
that i stopped what ever i was doing
and just stayed with it
ah
and yes it was as strong as the one
when i was laying down
may be a little less
but what was GOOD
and this i NEVER felt so before
LITERALLY SPEAKING
i felt as if my INSIDE BRAIN MUSCLES
WERE BEING MASSAGED
ah God!
hahaha
ah ! i am wanting more
imagine!
we feel so good when we get a massage right?
well i rarely get one
but you get my point
and imagine!
brain is THE PART of body
which is ALWAYS working
EVEN WHEN SLEEPING
and how COME
this muscle NEVER gets a massage?
ah my Good GOD!
i GOT an INSIDE BRAIN MASSAGE
that was VERY pleasurable
that i can say is
my DAY 1 of really PLEASURABLE MEDITATION
MARK THAT DAY
DAY ONE OF BRAIN MASSAGE
yes,
i am trying to practise the attention
in such a way
that first when i feel the energy UNIFORMLY
from head to toes (shield)
then
i try to observe it from afar even more
till result be an empty body
to be honest
i am trying to get the hang of it
so not much on this today
once i really get it
point is
once we feel THAT joy
and THAT unified field
and THEN we put our attention
on events that are so dire like in France nowadays
THEN we can send LOVE
to such criminals
and situation, circumstances
so that it CHANGES for the GOOD
ok
it is SO contrasting
from my anger and hate of yesterday
but it is because i MUST be HONEST
with myself if I WANT TO SEE CHANGE
and we canNOT change something bad into good
UNLESS we PINPOINT IT
and for this you NEED to admit it
anyway
we are human
anger is ok
but the AFTER is most important
so those who laugh at angry yogis
well i laugh at their uptight ass lol
hahaha
and i laugh all the more to angry yogis
ie to myself too
for the times i was angry
and DID NOT follow up ENOUGH
to change anger into LOVE
NOW
LOVE
don't GET WRONG ideas
it is NOT what YOU call love
it is
ah i feel like saying
"celestial love"
"Love born from God grace"
this means
you do not control it
you cannot make it born
remember
like He begets not nor He is begotten?
same here
Love
God IS LOVE
so LOVE comes from HIS GRACE
before
i used to wonder
well how to attract this Grace
and now
yes this COOL WIND
IS THIS OUTER PROOF of
HIS AWAKENED GRACE
for Grace NEEDS to be MANIFESTED
to SHOW us that IT exists, right?
ONCE we feel it
it is ONLY the SIGN that
LOVE within you HAS AWAKENED
BUT
it does not means that
you can FEEL LOVE
for still your hearts needs to open more
BUT it is there
so VIBES are ONLY PROOF of this INNER LOVE
which is PRESENT IN YOU
and ONCE your shield is UNIFIED
then SOMEHOW
WHERE you PUT your attention
THEN
this LOVE follows
and as God Grace
is NOTHING except LOVE and COMPASSION
this very Energy of LOVE
will TRANSFORM the object of your attention
into more love filled being/behavior etc.
because i learned
that hate is NOT a power
it is the choice of your personality
in terms of behavior
but on the power level
only LOVE is (the power-the transformative power)
and a criminal
you cannot change it with hate
nor you (as personality) can "love" his acts or him lol
that would be insane from you and me
but you as BEING OF EMPTINESS CAN LOVE him
yes!
while writing i got it
LOVE , divine LOVE comes from our Being of Emptiness
which is us, on the upper plane (divine plane)
but we as individual being/manifested being/personality
are not a being of emptiness but a body with thoughts etc.
and from this plane we can NEVER
and besides should NEVER love such people
well unless you be insane
so
if i sum up
Divine Love is Power
and this Power can ONLY stems from us
WHEN we are a Being of Emptiness
and we can be it
ONLY when our field is UNIFIED
from head to toes
THEN our whole body is EMPTY
hm,
anyway for the moment
i say :)
Praise be to God
for my SO GOOD BRAIN MUSCLES MASSAGE
HEAVENLY! :)
