Islam and not islam

i noticed
when you read salah/prayer
why you start thinking about other stuff
people say is shaitan/the devil/satan

but actually
is when you go into some
mantra/zikr mood
you are trying to calm down your lake
so what happens
you can actually HEAR your thoughts
that you are just NOT aware of during your day

even one imam
imam abu hanifa
i think
he said once
to someone who forgot
where he had put his keys
(some stuff like that)
start reading your salah
and you will get the answer

it happened so
he came back
and asked him
how you knew i would remember so?
because i did as you said
and i remembered it while doing my prayer

the imam answered him
is because when you get into
"the prayer mood
(the calming of mind)
then shaitan (which are your inner ego/thought forms)
arise"

so you remember stuff
while precisely
you are trying to get into
no thought mood
in order to focus onto
your prayer
(lol this is my explanation of course in bracket and next)
see?

this story
i used to know it before
but now
with meditation
i realised

the word "shaitan"
or even the "whys" of thoughts popping up
while precisely we are trying to
focus and pray
is merely
to be understood

as the calming down of our mind
which is like a lake
which is first agitated
and thought forms are surfacing

not that you were not thinking before
but before you had plenty of thoughts
while now
into prayer mood
you can actually HEAR your thoughts
why?
because they come one by one....

because
if we take one step further
when you meditate
really
the space between two thoughts
is widening
and thus
the frequency of thoughts
is decreasing 

which enables YOU
to actually hear your thoughts
and you think that
"shaitan" is bothering you
LOL

is just that
these are key words
in all religions
used by then because mind was gross

but over centuries
the human being understanding
has become more refined
and he can grasp even more stuff

and less interpret them
through ignorance
and fear

but more through wisdom
and flexibility

thus those
who have given up the spirit of islam
for the letter of islam
as rigidly as some wannabe salafi thug
defaming islam name are doing now

are going nowhere
except creating more hell for themselves

for you have to remember
the prophet words :
in His last sermon

"All those who listen to me shall pass on my words to others and those to others again; and may the last ones understand my words better than those who listen to me directly. Be my witness, O ALLAH, that I have conveyed your message to your people”. 

see?
i had always thought
how come we have to repeat history?
what is the meaning of being born 
to just practice rituals
that past muslims did?

then this key sentence

All those who listen to me shall pass on my words to others and those to others again; and may the last ones understand my words better than those who listen to me directly.  

THIS
is the real meaning

you GOTTA use your 
God Blessed intelligence
and SEE by yourself 
HOW to UNDERSTAND
what TRUE islam is

True islam 
is about Submitting 
to your INNER Light of God
THE WITNESS
as the Prophet said 
"o Allah be my witness"

what you think?
is some fancy expression?
is about REALISING 
THAT witness state of God..

and this is what this 
WHOLE blog is about

as for those who think
that they are a better muslim than me
because i wrote once i ate pork
lol

let them know
that i am speaking about 
the Heart of Islam
i.e. the Spiritual Islam
the one that the prophet taught
for the individual progress

the one that the more close to it
are the Sufi 
among the average muslim

so is not because 
i started to practice
yoga that one day i said
ok lets eat pork!

my own sufi teacher 
ate it
and i was appalled when i saw him
doing so

but this is my OWN personal 
experience
and path of progress

and not because 
i am a "bad muslim"
or because i am a converted "hindu"

is because is MY OWN path
and i wanted to KNOW
and get over my OWN limitation

but what i tolerate NOT
is some wanna be muslim Hypocrisy..
like such muslim 
who sleep with anyone around
and think and even allude to me
of being a bad muslim lol

let me remind YOU
that sleeping with men
out of wedlock
is prohibited in islam...


so what is worst
according to your own "islamic"standards?
eating pork 
or living an adulterous life?
hmm?
who is the bad muslim now?


now,

if not on the spiritual level
cause is out of their grasp, 
so let's consider the basic level of islam
i.e. EVEN on the ritual terms
to those i ask them

have you ever for 
at least 1 year
prayed your 5 prayers a day?
have you eaten only Halal Meat as a basic rule
have you fasted the whole month every year
for ramadan?

this islam pillars
that is written in your OWN book
have you ever devoted yourself to it


if you are a real muslim?

is muslim
just about bearing a cultural tag?
i am arab so i am muslim?


so how come
that you think you are
a "better muslim" than me?

is it the fact 
that you are SO conditioned
to your tribal background
that you think others are fake muslims?

usually arabs think
they are best muslim
even if they pray not
and just wear hijab 

this is NOT so

after 
you can be a muslim
and sleep with anyone who comes 
your way 
literally

this i care NOT
nor i judge

but be SURE
i judge you back 
if you judge me

this i call it a boomrang effect
what you send ahead
you receive it back

what you judge
judges you back

and for those crazy 
imposters
and rigid guys 
who think themselves as muslims

i asked them
to think twice before 
calling themselves muslims

because this is a shame 
to what Islam is

and is Shame for Humanity

as if you recall
Islam is for Humanity

but not the Islamic religion
that your ego wants

but the Islam 
which salvation is Brought by Shakti
 which is the Queen of Heaven

but this 
your sour mind can't encompass
see?

this is why 
in early islamic history
the very Daughter and family 
of the prophet
and even sufi now
have been persecuted and killed

and ANYONE
trying to usurp islam
will be judge by his own deeds

and of course 
hellish deeds
lead you to hellish life
in this life and the hereafter

but those
who have some common sense
self honesty
and sincerity 

in the search of truth

to them 
i say 
may your path be blessed!

and judge not others
lest you be judged

for if you judge 
my food diet
let me judge your sex life
for i believe in islam ...

adulterous life
binds you to hell
and is a BIG sin
no?

what do you think of it?
cause yea
you are a better muslim
than me


on that
don't forget
i love you all
regardless :x

kissi:x 

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

... ah, me... ah, me... ah...

Writer(s): Ben Moody, David Hodges, amy lee
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