Being the extension of the Spirit or of the Ego of others

"The fifth ascension initiation is the first one that brings a person into the path of true Ascended Mastery. The transfiguration in one’s physical being begins here. It is most easily defined as the “activation” (NOT OPENING) of the heart chakra. This takes an initiate into Christ Consciousness. When the heart chakra activates the light becomes an  intense sensation of LOVE and true bliss which becomes permanent in one’s body. There is NO mistaking it as it feels like a little sun has lit up where the heart used to be."


this is what i have NOT experienced so far
just may be 2 or 3 times
that i can remember to have felt so

like once i remembered
i was standing in metro
and felt sudden love for all people around me

just the joy of seeing them
and feeling warm love
wherever i looked

a second time
was right after a meditation
so much that a yogi
called me after
and said he felt my heart opening
so it confirmed that was special indeed

and a third time
which lol now i remember no more

but see?
it is NOT stable
is just there to show you it exists

as i read in that article
and reformulate it in my way

when you feel God Grace
is like a spark that leaves a trace in you
then as you hang on it, to remember that sparks
that is actually "past" so
you should let go EVEN of this watermark

cause if you don't
then is you who are into it
by yourself
is no more the initial Grace
that you experienced

you are only feeding on its souvenir
see?

next :

"Lower vibrations always find fault. Higher vibrations don’t have that experience as it all has been mastered. That is partly why those masters previously went to an ashram away from all those who are in the lower vibration. They don’t want the crap or need to learn the lessons those others have not yet understood and completed. Do you blame them?"


and this part
really made me laugh
as i remembered an experience:

"As the current ascension begins we are finding ourselves associating with others of similar vibration and on the same path, and with the same awareness as our own. We share knowledge and help each other because we each have different pieces to the puzzle. We are all both students and teachers. As we do we go through the process of increasing the light in our own field and vibrating ever higher. We find ourselves relearning or remembering many things we knew and have always known hidden deep within our soul. Being with others of the same or similar vibrations helps us to remember and to unlock those codes of understanding, bringing ourselves into ever higher awareness and states of ever expanding consciousness. We are becoming aware of All That IS (God, (“ourselves”) as we ascend out of the densities of forgetfulness and the veils are removed. That IS ascension in one description."

source : http://www.shiftfrequency.com/bill-ballard-mastering-holding-your-light-the-ascension-of-mother-earth-humanity/


so we are suppose to SHARE knowledge right ?
for we are both students and teachers
lol
and guess what ?
one day a yogi said to me
"dear, don't be so deep when you speak
otherwise i feel you are teaching us
you should change"

so i asked her
dumbfounded
of her ridiculous and nonsensical request,
"do you want me to be superficial and fake?!"

see?
there are people
who are just envious
and not only they hide it not
or are not ashamed of it
but they OPENLY assert it
as if lowering others will make them superior

second
WHO on earth gives the advice
to be lesser than your true self?

only EGO.

never the Divine
even in the name of "collectivity"
will be trying to put other down
and make them deviate from their natural qualities see?

so the worst in the spiritual quest
is to find people who are pretending to be spiritual
and try to put you down
just to remain superior

incredible
but such people DO exist

and they are so oblivious
to their bad manners
that they glorify each other
for it
and act as thugs
by acting in group against a person they single out

this is why
they call people one by one
to teach them how to do puja
as is a group vs one new comer

never a group teaching puja to a new comer group
why?
cause patronising and manipulation
is what count
and NOT spirituality
otherwise their "spiritual ego"
will lose its reason of existence see?

what i DISLIKE most
is traditions
and any religion or spirituality
once it starts carving you into their group image
is a SECT to me

is FAKE
and has at some point LOST
the real AIM

which is to find God Within
for God gives a flying no-concern attitude
about your rules and rituals that you teach to others

at best applies them to YOURSELVES
but please
don't to others

for you are just trying
to carve people
new comers
to your OWN image
and that is EGO


there is a very interesting episode in Dr Who
which of course i don't remember the number of it

in it
a woman came at the head of the cybermen group
as her mind was strong enough to control them

Dr who gave her the possibility
to leave this earth for another with them
cause he valued her spirit strength to control them
so he gave her the CHOICE to not harm other people free will
on this earth

of course
she refused
as she wanted whole control over others

and what he did?
he disconnected her from the network
she had with those robots

she thought he was going to harm her
but he harmed her not
she just harmed herself
cause
he just removed her connection
that tied her to them

and then
her eyes opened up
to the hell she was in ...

cause she was no more in control
of the hell she had created
she was an observer in a deep shit
thus a victim

see?
is like that it feels after death
once you die
your consciousness dies
so your connection with the WHOLE is cut

but your subconscious
is there witnessing and  being affected
by the hell you created

which you could not see before
as your consciousness
and your excess of confidence
were a veil that prevented you to see
where you are
and you are in "deep hell"

such a beautiful drama is this Dr Who

is same stuff in this life
when you are into a group
you are part of it
you swim into it
you are connected to it
and you are part of its karma

the day you get disconnected from it
you can see what you reaped

and are affected
consequently according to your deeds

same for me
as the natural distance installed itself
i saw that the only thing people where interested in
was the marketing of their sect
through the image of a muslim to aim at other muslims
large scale recruitment
of muslims lol

useless

you don't need to recruit
when is Truthful

you just need to be GENUINE
let your light shine
and it will attract those who are of your vibrations

so if you really care for yourself
you will care to increase your vibes
to shine
and then you won't be the extension of the EGO of some other group, sect, religion

but you will REALISE (self realisation...hm?)
that you are the extension of the Spirit
you, the Soul