Expansion of the Light of the Sun Within and the Reintegration to the Whole

I was listening to a talk of shrit mataji about cancer and from it this is the conclusion i draw 

for the self healing and growth.

For the healing is when we as an individual outgrow our current selfish, seperated state and reintegrate into the whole, this is by the way what sahasrar is about, the full integration of the light that is scattered here and there.

The Light in you once vibrated

Expands

and by its expansion 

it draws into it by touching the other cells into its spread 

and thus bringing them back under the authority of the deity (call it angels or being of authority) 

the deity who is linked to The Source then re-establish the order where before was the chaos.

Isn't it beautifully reconforting that changes ARE happening in us for our reintegration to the Light of the Spirit?

I suppose if we only limit our sight, to the vibrations being a tool, then our perspective limit our growth.

Which I was never into it. 

As I am more interested in seeking the state where we just know, and that happens when you, namely your attention and love, are fully integrated in the sahasrara.

This reminds me of my early days when I had asked a yogi in Paris, 

that I wanted the true knowledge; aka i was refering to the knowledge to just know it.

But he told me you are already there, aka he was refering to the vibrations.

I felt so disappointed by the insights, which is ok, as we are all growing differently and we all have a different awareness.

But if you are to listen to the early talk of Shri Mataji; which are the best, before she had to water down as of the 90s to adapt to the level of the masses, She does say that vibration gives you the knowledge through the feel but at the sahasrar you just know it. 

And I must say that even as yogi people limit themselves so much, 

while the field of experimentation is so wide.

Again I do not want to complain because thereby I would be chosing a script where I look own upon what dissatisfy me and I rather want to look up on what elate me, such as the Light of thqt inner Sun thqt draws the cell under the authority of the Source.

I found that so poetically beautiful, i am sort of recovering my dreamy state when i was a seeker of truth and was precisely feeding my mind with such intuitive images, that was my best lofty time.

Then came the hardship when as a seeker of truth you end up on wrong hands 

then come the healing thanks to the meditation and growth 

now that i see again the beautiful horizon; 

i hope to make the most of it :)

Witnessing the Collective Consciousness

 Expansion of the consciousness

Each time I feel bored because I feel I am not progressing

then I do not remember how to get started.

So now that I am aware of the solution 

I better write it for time of need 

by then remembrance benefit.

Starting point

is the FEELING.

steps:

1. Hear the silence

2. Feel your current question - ie with all emotions related to it

3. you will just have to wait to see or feel the answer 

In my current case, question was about how to go out of the selfishness as an individual 

to go into the collective consciousness.

Since couple of days, this is how it went:

First throughout the day, I had a feel that I do not feel myself

meaning that a feeling of expansion

the static image of the self

the one we behold into our mind or see in the mirror was like beign erased.

Like design on sand erased by waves of ocean

again that is only a temporary experience

it does not mean if i were to be challenged to my core 

the ego would not retaliate

it is just for the sake of experimenting or getting acquainted or getting insight into that state.

Also true growth is when you outgrow your current state and there is no going back

you cannot brign a fruit back to its blossoming flower state.

the next step, was throughout the day I could see people acting like bees

so working more or less knowingly for a bigger common goal.

That part i could witness it so

because I had made up my intention to forgive, let go of the people whom i hate 

specifically people who do horrendous dead and distrub peace of others.

Even that is not helpful to hate such people, as it let us stuck in the problem and we are unable to fly above it. And if we can't then high forces can't protect us from them.

And the deal for high forces to give you their powers and protection is for you to be humble

not humble as people call it now. Humble by accepting there is only One Spirit, even in the people who deny it and commit hateful deeds.

If they deny spirit and you also deny spirit by hating them, then how are you better than them?

When Christ says to give the other. cheek, which now i understand

it means if you got slapped, then go till the end of the game by turning the other one too.

meaning that you need to have to let go of that battle ground. It is not the correct one. Nor it has to be your battle ground, the one of the forms.

So when you let go, you arise to the formless, where the spirit is; and then the higher forces take over and can protect you.

If you take the battle of forms into your hands; then you can more or less going for an exhausting and time consuming battle. 

So waking up from the dream is more powerful solution. 

4. the letting go principle as explained above; so I just say, I let them to their Script, and I forgive for they do not know (they are the spirit within); I even went to the extend of saying I love them in Spirit.

As you make a powerful intent and act on it from within, you get your state shifted and of course you shall experience a new reality and get insight only because you are at that level to be trusted with it.

Imagine you get insider information and end up harming the other? It won't do. 

For there is no such things in Kingdom of God; and if your intention darkens then for sure you go down.

This is how you get kicked out of it.

So lately, the very people i forgave i could see them in dream and hear that thoughts and their current state of mind and needs. 

I also happen to see people of my neighborhood, and what they were doing.

Spirit said that I was tapping into these people consciousness.

From my perspective, I do not see the point of knowing what the neighbors are doing.

Nor I am interested in knowing what the people I used to hate are thinking.

And today, I could see in dream also the life of a yogi and see his marrital issues and how there was disappointment as the partner was not really at all into meditation so that was causing him pain.

All in all, such insight in the consciousness of others teach me, that it is a trust. 

Information is there from the perspective of the Spirit to Witness for me also as part of the witness to witness.

When you know what the current state of people is, you know they are all in a scripted drama of their own and surely the individual me too. 

But seeing it from above, helps you to reapportion your deeds and thoughts.

The less you "mind" the quicker you can more onto higher grounds as long as you have the firm attention of your goal ahead of you. And in the process you can enjoy to take easier and sunnier path which are more flowery and you can play in the gardens while moving ahead.

Why choose pain, when you can choose joy on the journey?

All I have to remember is not to mind, to let go, as everything that bothers me is in a script.

And I do not have to take part into that script, I just have to let it go and remember they are all the spirit within. And then you can test yourself:

Try saying I love you, to the Spirit within the people you scorn..

I did it and now i laugh at it when i remember it was hard to do it

tight lips trying to say it as if they were gonna feel pain to say these words

this is also a good proof of how i was believing more in their script than in the simple truth of the God within which is One.

Onboarding for the I am what I am

 I was walking my cycles 

and attention went on the question of "to which degree can I be honest?".

Firstly, unless we ask a question 

we do not get answers.

Because asking question is just hooking the attention 

and then anchoring it there 

till the answer from the waves of the sea arrive.

The wave of the seas are the intuition

and unless I write it

it will be forgotten.

Because if sea are the words

written on the mind then 

once the waves leaves 

the words leave too.

They are not engraved like carved letters on a stone

they are amazingly enough just waves passing by.

Purpose is never to create an image

but give the color, the flavor and the scent of the insight needed for a moment 

so that it can enter and go out of your body 

without carving any image and without any hoarding.

Another topic the one of writing and knowledge.

Current topic 

is the Collective.

I have written a book 

and many people ends up asking me how to now.

Being honest with myself 

I can see the old old me say before I had met the yogi - how it would have reacted by then

I can see the old me say before my spiritual cleansing 

and now I can see the current me

and the future me.

Makes lots of perspective in one go.

Insight I got is deep and fleeting like waves, so I hope I get it written before it leaves me.

Wave like insight; this is why it is said it is signs: ayah in Quran. 

Because everything is fleeting timely symbolic knowledge. 

As it can never be permanent; hence the word symbol or sign is better than the word knowledge or writing i believe.

The first one is timely insight to make decision while the latter is about hoarding power and controlling masses.

Now,

The old old me was the Innocent kid who before having me the yogi in paris 

just spontaneously used to help people fully just because I could, just because my mother and family taught me to be so. 

I do not praise my mother enough, but she is the sincerest mother and wife I ever saw. And no not a bride as women are currently life long brides haha. Closing this topic now.

So this old old me was an innocent kid. The help I gave can be seen; insight to it can be given through the filter of the root. chakra. 

I just did it spontaneously, as Innocent just is. 

Now, the old me, is the one from paris when i met the yogi.

This is not to blame anyone but serves the experience and self learning, as flowers grow according to their rhythm, so one cannot blame the yogi of Paris, but I have the advantage of learning from these experiences, so I share:

The yogi there were doing their best in embodying the teaching of shri mataji.

Sure there need to be a starting point; but once you keep on the same road at some point you are being challenged and either chewed and spit out or digested and growth happens..

So I recall a girl she smoothed her talk with love 

and tried really consciously to be an ideal yogi

but always had fit of jealousy and anger.

Why?

Because when you do so 

you claim that you are ready as a drop to be integrated into the Ocean

yet yourself once extended is so exerted like a rubber stretched to its limit that it snaps

so the ego still cannot integrate the HIGHER COLLECTIVE SELF aka THE OCEAN.

This is why there were so many dramas in the collective yogi there

now i understand.

And this is why also it was the natural end for me. As from this point onwards I realised I was being used for material purposes not appreciated for spiritual ones.

So funnily enough, I had the green light from the spirit to experience the selfishness.

Because I was always serving and was always taught to be at the service of others that I had never allowed to serve myself.

So starting this selfish journey I of course started from guilt to enjoying my selfishness to till today feeling I am at the end of this experience. Because I saw the growth above the selfish, individual and egoisticla (not used as a negative word rather as synonym of individual).

Isn't it also beautiful to have the control of our experiences?

I mean who on earth say at some point: OK I experienced enough of selfishness now let me move on?

It is like you change experience and perspective and behavior like you change clothes.

Very swift and in control. This impression being shared let me continue now about the end of that experience.

My old self which experienced the selfish perspective; again not negative word, learned to have an insight into what it is to act and live giving oneself priority.

So I learned about the concept of priority and individuation 

how the human being exists as an individual. As prior to that I have been existing as a kid for a collective the family or the wider collective with hardly no sense of self worth and indivudal goal.

Very funny to speak like this now that I am reading it. 

So the experience of selfishness helped me to see myself as a body as an individual and I must say the individual has lots of enjoyment in squeezing out the juice of life and enjoying the moment.

But that I just lived from one experience to another and get bored very quickly too. 

And I couldn't really see how it is charming to just see life from an individual perspective.

Anyway; during this time the trunk of the tree grew and became thick enough.

And recently it got its make out and thorough cutting of useless branches and got pimped up.

That is the self purification I refer to, since I definitely got. the anger, hate and sadness purified meaning that they do not control me but I control them. So that is real mastery and self purification that I definitely witness to it.

But as I am not lying to myself 

I keep abreast and listen to the signals of my self

and the current self saw that many people wanted my help and guidance on book writing and publishing.

So my individual self felt not at all in sincere and full service mode.

Because it serves itself, it is is program. So why it would be so dedicated to serve others?

So i noted it. 

Insincerity would be to note it and turn a blind eye to it.

Which is also ok. Why? Because this reaction would merely proof the sap of the tree has still not reached the throat chakras so no need to push it; it shall in its own time.

So it is my time. 

Because I asked myself the question 

while walking the cycles - and that is key - because the cycles purifies your energy while you are walking, it stirs up the mud and you let it go and you feel more and more the cool breeze and hence your insight deepen and your vision clear out and you become the new you..

So I asked myself why I do not want to help others as sincerely I did help my self to write the book?

Then I felt the words such as: well i got no help, i did it on my own, I do all the job and now freely give it to others and again no appreciation just being used.

And yet I hit a wall within as i felt but i do not want that, ie i do not want to remain like that.

I want to grow, as i feel bore with that cycle of me vs others, doesn't really help me to grow if i don't change my way, ever.

And of course the divine never blame nor judge but i delay myself in my growth

and my growth is up to me, it can happen overnight or in three years etc.

So then keeping up with the cycles

I got that insight such as a clear vision and image of - not a notion nor theory nor thoughts - 

but the vision of the Higher Being not being a concept of being me.

I realised that the other is Me.

That the other and i are the I 

and that my experience shared is helping the I to grow and transform as it helps me the i to grow and ends up as a drop joining the sea.

But not as concept 

I saw it

Like a sea of particles of light 

that merge into one Light and it is the Higher Being the Collective consciousness and THAT is the filter to see life through the throat chakra.

So then I realised the old old me the kid saw life and served automatically based on the automatically ingrained innocence in me - i saw life through the filter of the moodhalra chakra

as and individual who picked a selfish path to experience it - the sap grew in the tree with its good and bad but as it remain stuck in mud - the purification cut off the bad dead branches and pruned the tree so that it became tall, continued its growth and then once it accumualted enough sap and thus experience it could get pruned thus purified.

The tree is in control of itself, as an individual wave, it is a wave because it is purified no more stagnant water as it has let go of extrems such as anger and hate and irritability and sadness, especially.

Now, the wave can become again stagnant if does not keep moving in and out.

This is the art of receiving and giving.

So the Spiriti is at the heart, you don't have to do anything there. SPirit or Light of God is perfect.

You just keep it as Goal. To get the Insight. But nothing to do here at the Heart Chakra.

So at the throat chakra I am working on it, naturally speaking nowadays.

As lately I just remember that the other are not to be blamed nor am i.

But the word other still is there, which means I am still in seperation mode.

Hence the limitation is wanting to sincerely help.

Then while I was for my own problems using the communciation between my spirit and the others'.

I struck me, if I draw upon the help of the spirit within the others and that their spirit serves me while their ego does not. 

Then me too I can as spirit help them!

BUT THE BIG DIFFERENCE WITH THEM IS...I CAN DO IT IN FULL AWARENESS.

While their spirit helps me when i ask it as telepathy;as we are one in spirit as the hoponopono method suggests it

I too can return the help on the gross level; as I am asked for the help.

But now the big difference is I am doing it in full control in full knowledge in full consciousness, it is now my new choice.

So Now as I had in the past picked up the path of experimenting selfishness which helped me to grow my tree and gain insight about myself as an individual energy.

Now I consciousness picked the path of experimenting the Higher Self and Be the Collective Consciousness.

Isn't it exciting? Isn't it there the new growth? 

This also dawn upon me that law is same everywhere. 

Be you a non realised or realised or advanced yogi or mahayogi etc.

The enlightened people always clash because they are under the same rule than the non realised

the refusal to grow, of course the topic are not the same, nor the scope nor the impact, and yet it is.

What differs is the subtlety of the fight 

but the law is the same

how fast you let go is what condition your fusion with the infinity, in other words with the light; ie with the Collective Consciousness, with the I am what I am.

So the whole point is to see oneself and to have that insight of the Collective being as Light 

that is a becoming an insight 

what help i do to the other i do to myself

I am a collection a sum of all the other individual energies

Isnt it amazing if i was just one i would only expereince me

but i am many and i can thus expereince so many in one moment

hence the beauty of relationship

hence the beauty of the collective

and it is the experience of the unconscious and conscious collective at the same time while you are conscious of it.

This is the new adventure and it is now seeing life through the filter of the Vishuddi Chakra; the i as part of the collective consciousness now i am onboarding for the growth of the I.

Bride but not wife

The funny thing about this era is 

that women want to be a life long bride

and embarking upon a life long honey moon.

Bride but not wife.

Again, nothing wrong.

Except that men expect a life long wife, for other scenario a life long servant.

Now if both were true to their expectations, they would both know what they are getting out of the deal.

Though the current life offers enough scope to be independant and find one's own dream and be on its own.

This is because the current time is set for the growth. 

Individual Growth.

Search for security and thus use of a partner is motivated based on reasons that are no more the glue of current society. 

Because the average human being can have all of this on its own.

So looking towards one's personal growth is the key element of this era.

As in some near future say from 50 to 100 years onwards the society would be in an AI jail.

As per what I saw, I liked it not.

I was told I won't be there anymore so it does not concern me.

This is true but then I am all the more convinced that sensible people should not marry nor have kids for this world. 

Given it is a place that is being transformed into a hell for future generations. 

This is unfortunately true. This scenario may got delayed but will happen.

I was also told there are better worlds out there. Better than here.

This too I believe it.

So if this Earth is a ship which is wrecking and being transformed into another hell.

It makes all the more sense that the sensible seeker of truth should just do their best to get their self realisation and be advanced enough to pick up their next place of reincarnation.

This is the most sensible thing they can do for themselves.

Earth is a buffer zone; where we are transiting and depending on what we make of our time there

our next place will match our energy.

As for me, I better be sure to awaken enough to be able to pick mine in full consciousness.

How to get rid of problems

 Spirit said in a quicker and briefer way, but I write it now in my own words, to break it down so that logic be felt.

You find you are in a hellish situation, how do you free yourself from it?

In other words, you are in a nightmare

How do you win if you are stuck into it?

Some will invent weapons and start to win the battle.

But the wise, will remember this is a nightmare

and the only way out is not by engaging in it.

The only way out is by WAKING UP.

In other words

You let go of the very thing you are disturbed with.

You let the light of the Spirit shine on it

and this flushes it out 

you forget about it 

it burns down the bridges 

and you are free from the very thing that has mesmerised your attention.

the very thing that has created the dream.

which exist because like a leech, it is sucking the energy from your attention and from your fears.

As your attention is hostage of the fears, images you are presented with.

The more you want something, the more you engage it by going towards its opposite.

Because the bridge is there, the positive and negative attracts.

Let go

and you are free.

The Spirit's light is already perfected 

so it can't be a dream 

if it is not perfect 

it is a dream 

and you have to wake up from it

by having the CONSCIOUS INTENT TO LET GO.

Now from me,

Then you will wake up to the next strata which may be still a dream 

I suppose when it is no more a dream, you will know. 

"Aap bohot kimti ho"

After my meditation 

I heard in urdu my spirit said to me

"aap bohot kimti ho"

In english it means "you are very precious".

It is the God within who spoke this, Spirit within.

That is such a Good Word! It does make me feel I am on an auspicious journey and lots of care is taken :)

War in Ukraine

Yesterday while sleeping

I could see two soldiers laying in an airplane

And I could hear the thought of the one laying there.

He was afraid to die

He was to be parachuted 

and felt those left behind where lucky

as they did not have to go through this.

Himself he could not desert the army

or he would be in danger for the rest of his life.

Once I woke up I kind of knew what I witnessed - I being here the awareness of the Collective consciousness - 

Spirit told me it was the scene linked to the war in Ukraine.

A night before that

I had seen a whole building half way standing, half calcined.

The whole collective is definitely being damaged by this war.

I do not watch the news, but still I could see what is happening.

Current governments in place are of an old age, very immature. 

They do not know that above the physical damage, what damage is being done to the collective mind.

The return to true Innocence

Yesterday I ended up witnessing a conflictual situation 

Not agreeable at all

I could find and see the sincerity of both parties involved 

while both of them could not see each other good intent for one another 

a bit like a conversation between a mute and a deaf.

Both not seeing each other sincerity 

because both are insecure and try to protect themselves 

from one may one say.

Anyway 

Later when i was reminiscing this 

I could feel the heart chakra being in pain 

and also I had out of nowhere tears in my eyes.

And for sure I can say they were not at all my feelings

as I was not at all sad.

So I ended up understanding it was empathy 

and thus I was feeling the heart and emotional state of another.

Thus before sleep I was advised just to let this happening go.

For that I just said with full intent that I forgive and let go of everything I witnessed.

Despite the fact that I was not at all part of that argument, it did take a toll on me witnessing it.

As soon as I said that, 

the mind went black 

and I could hear the water in the womb 

Like for an echographs

Then I could hear the heartbeat of inside a body 

and finally, I could hear the sound made by the blood flow in the body.

Later I asked the Spirit what this was

And I was told it is the return to Innocence.

Like when one is being reborn.

So this is good sign of good progress and direction.

It is true that Truth is simple

but the delay in fully self realising it

and maintaining it is of our own making.

We like to play so long that we end up forgetting that we are ourselves standing between Truth and the current self.

Humbleness is not an attitude

it is not mannerism 

it is not even to be looked for outside of your self 

even less fruitful to witness it in another if not just for the sake of distraction or remembrance

depending where your attention is while witnessing this quality in someone.

Humbleness is the return to simplicity 

as a new born is.

For this you can't gain it by imitation

but simply as in the above exemple by letting go.

Because then you truly do a favor to the Holy Spirit 

who can keep growing in you 

instead of keep waiting that you unblock the way by forgiving, if one day you remember to do so.

And again forgiving is a loaded word now 

I would rather say by letting it go

just erase the slate in your mind 

and you return to your Self.

Human Map - Setting the record straight

 The Holy Spirit or Ruh or the Shakti is the Power of God.

This is in the central channel.

The Attention is on the right channel.

The Subsconscious or the soul or the accumulation of our past lifes experiences and current ones is on the left channel.

Both channels are the manifested channels from the Source, The Spirit.

The Spirit is in the Heart.

The Spirit is set there as a Reminder.

The both channels once they are PURIFIED, they EXPRESS their POWERS.

The right purified channel expresses all the power of the PURE attention.

The left purified channel expresses all the power of the subconscious, 

which is...LOVE.

What is the power of LOVE? It is to gather to ONE, to unify, to transform the scattered lives, in our subsconsious and gather them under the flag of Love. 

In brief, it is HEALING.

The power of LOVE combined to the Power of Attention, 

is when one becomes a vicegerant on earth, what is called in islam as Caliphate; you rule not others; but your own body in the Name, by the Power of God. You are your own true master.

Attention can fly 

and Love can heal

it is like magic dust being spread over issues to be fixed.

My Aim is to awaken every single cell of my both channels 

and thus awaken the ultimate powers in my body 

so that I become the manifested proof that this is the next evolutionary step of what a human being can be.

A Maha yogi. That is the ultimate actualisation of our whole being that is part of the collective.

As there is a scale in our body to balance both channels so that the third one may arise, 

likewise there is a collective scale that shall tip.

Whether people are ready, matured or not, the scale will tip as the minimal ratio will be reached.

Spiritual Training is starting,

Now. No weaseling out of it.

Mcmc let's do it!

Kissi.

New evolutionary Human State : Awareness of the Collective consciousness

The anchor of a ship is say the shackle that holds our Attention.

Till the anchor is used when they ship is at bay, it is good.

But a ship that stays for ever there will just rust, its function is to navigate.

It is exactly the same for Human Being.

Our attention is like the anchor.

It is thrown in the sea, when you want to dwell upon something for a particular purpose.

Yet, the attention has become rusted.

Because it remains fix to the body.

An individual attention stuck to the individual mind, 

has limitations.

An individual attention having risen, will have a larger view.

And can fly, sail where it is directed.

Remote viewing, telepathy and all other 'out of norm' capacities

are considered in the past either as magic or as super powers or miracles etc.

But they are only the manifestation of the qualities of the attention.

Which are AMAZING.

As a human being stuck at an individual level, 

the growth happens when it reaches the collective consciousness level.

Like the ants do.

Yet, I asked the Spirit what then differentiate the collective consciousness level of the ants 

to human being's?

Awareness.

Awareness of the collective consciousness.

This is what the next stage of human being evolution should be.

Yogi practisioner keep forgetting the main aim.

The one of the Spirit manifested in us.

And the Pure Awareness cannot be, unless we have outgrown the throat chakras where the collective is.

Therefore, the collective should be viewed in its real nature, ie the Spirit within manifested through creation.

Till we are separated from yogi AND non yogi.

There is no way we see the collective as One.

And no amount of rituals in the name of whatever deity, however powerful and auspicious it be, can work on an individual commitment of simply forgiving and letting go.

Finally, the Spirit Awareness of the Collective can only be realised by the Spirit.

And the Spirit. can only be awakened - as an established state, not only sprouting as vibrations - once it is manifested through 

the eyes that see with no eyes

through the ears that hear with no ears

and through the voice that speak with no sound

Later on the following post.

En Masse Self Realisation

Tonight after the 3am meditation

I saw a huge endless crowd of people sitting in an open park 

The weather was sunny

It was in a park, open space area with green grass and hills 

and there were so many packed group of people sitting 

rows after rows 

sitting for getting their self realisation.

A bit like at an open air concert 

Woostock type 

Except that it was here orderly and many times such a crowd!

I think i saw at least that endless screen being swiped in front of my eyes couple of times.

After I saw myself sitting in front of Shri Mataji 

and She was pulling me in and asking me to put my hands open towards her 

and was working especially on my left channel.

As currently this is the one which is really very much absorbing too much of negativities like a sponge.

And extra help to get this unloaded is most divine timing.

The endless crowd images are truly impressive. 

The Mariage of True Minds

 Decidely

Unless we speak from experience 

then it is only words or theory.

But when one shares in words 

about the experience of our own

it is still theory for the reader.

Anyway,

with clarity yesterday it dawn on me

the importance of quickly Letting Go, ie forgiving.

Life is short

Time should be used as it is gold 

only on that which matter to our growth 

mine is on creativity nowadays.

Yet when I keep thinking about the whys and why nots 

of extended family members which are not really behaving in a loving way

then I am putting in myself a block.

Firstly, by not using time for something creative and valuable to me

Secondly, by wasting my power on petty matters which would drain me of my time and energy 

which obviously won't be allocated to the above.

This is not by all means a petty matter.

Because then, this attitude becomes a habit and a bad mannered obsession.

Even though we know initially, we are just toying and playing with thoughts,

at the end the thoughts become our box and we are jailed and limited by it.

As density definitely jails us.

That feeling being considered.

I quickly let go and forgave.

Which creates a space in mind and emptiness.

As the other party is forgiven 

it cannot hook onto me anymore

as it exists no more in my fractal universe within.

And as it is incapable of pure love

then there is nothing for it to hook onto.

Either way.

This is how forgiveness is your best protection.

Not forgiving creates a bridge for the other party to send its thoughts to you

which are not fruitful to you.

And love being rarely existant, you can't expect anything good coming.

Hence you are free to look for that elsewhere 

as your attention is free.

Finally; the second insight which dawn upon me

is that each era has its building block and focal point.

In this era, family, mariage and children is the last of them.

Expansion is the first and foremost.

People marry for a lesser gain 

than if they were to cultivate themselves for the ultimate freedom.

In no way, I can see, in this era, a greater benefit in marriage which is more like for most people

trying to fill up a void or just follow the tradition.

Hence even in this era, benefit is mostly found out of family

Family being karma

after a while and stage of growth 

you need to expand your branches out 

to exchange and water and be watered by such wondful creative people

the world is filled with.

Only self created shackles to cater for comfort and security 

have become the very means of our slavery to a very boring an dull routine 

in the least or of useless headaches in the worst case scenario.

The blessings of a true marriage of souls exist

but does not need the form to exist

as the Spirit does not need the body to Be

though it is necessary for Itself to be expressed through it.

Likewise Spirit does not need a paper; religious, ritualist mariage to exist

as it is neither a cause nor a consequence of forms 

and always pre existed and will continue to post exist these

Yet it is the Key to the growth and sanctity of a mariage.

But if you lack the sanctity and the intention of self improvement 

based on the Let go/forgiveness which is the ultimate condition for final purification 

you cannot benefit from any form be it mariage or family

they too would fail despite having initially taken the Spirit as Witness to their form.

Because Spirit is not bound by the forms

but is there to bless the forms.

And if we take no responsibility 

to clear the way by forgiving

the path will always remain blocked

and the mud will keep accummulating.

Two pools of mud getting married 

can only create more mess really.

Again, this is in worst case scenario; 

In the best scenario, they would be blessed with growth 

if the above is followed.

Unfortunately, I never saw two people 

being identified as Spirit after mariage

but rather being identified as husband and wife

as parents as other one or two roles at best if they have grown wider.

But it dawns now on me

wouldn't it be beautiful 

to witness a mariage of True Minds?

as Shakespeare would say.

Let it be no impediement to the mariage of True Minds.

.....

Sonnet 116: Let me not to the marriage of true minds 

BY WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

Let me not to the marriage of true minds 

Admit impediments. Love is not love 

Which alters when it alteration finds, 

Or bends with the remover to remove. 

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark 

That looks on tempests and is never shaken; 

It is the star to every wand'ring bark, 

Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. 

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks 

Within his bending sickle's compass come; 

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, 

But bears it out even to the edge of doom. 

If this be error and upon me prov'd, 

I never writ, nor no man ever lov'd.

When I think of it

That Sonnet I did bear it to the edge of doom.

That definitely, the Spirit knows.

But as a Phoenix I have risen ... again.

That I can say, 

I was truly reborn and given a new life.

Waiting now; for my ultimate rebirth.

The Bardo - Barzakh

 Yesterday before sleeping

I was thinking about death

and it was a bit too late.

As I dwelt into the insight it gave

it did make me feel afraid 

how alone and on my own as soon as I die!

In dream I entered a place 

where it was a very old forest 

with a huge tree with creepers falling from it.

I came into it once.

Not remembering what happened.

And again I came back and I could see myself 

opening the curtain mad of the old creepers 

hanging surely from the same tree.

The creepers were greyish and very old, 

no age really so old.

On the way to it, 

I saw people walking straight to it.

I even remember the face of one famous actress 

and I was trying to shake them to wake up 

by grabbing and shaking them by the shoulders.

But they were in a trans like situation.

More like somnambulist though eyes were open.

Spirit told me

that this was the Bardo, Barzakh in islam.

It is the place where souls transit once they die 

and before they wake up.

And as I was in control there, 

this means I have defeated death :)

This sounds so reassuring.

I recall that I had read that if you can direct your attention

when you are asleep and yet in control 

this means you will be also once you die.

But this is not any dream, 

this was in the Bardo.

So I am glad and I hope I'll be in control once I die.

I also have been told 

that depending on our level of enlightenment 

we can choose where to reincarnate.

As there are 3 worlds.

The desire, the form and the formless.

Currently, we are living in the world of desire.

And there are better places than this Earth, 

which is not a so ideal place.

Well no kidding...

I will definitely never choose to reincarnate there.

PS: Though I do not remember most people I saw walking towards the place of death.

I remember one actress, she is young and I wonder if she will indeed die soon.

It won't astonish me, as she is decent. I find.

And people who are decent and got their peak time and yet can't keep being themselves in

this corrupted artistic world, may just not see their desire fulfilled and end up giving up.

True Knowledge is smooth

 FOUND IT!

The knowledge taught in the mind 

is so smooth 

very often I couldn't describe it

because it is like no noise, no edge, no spikes,

as one can feel that with worldly knowledge.

It is smoothly coming and once it leaves

it leaves you an impression of ease and simplicity.

Now, I found its equivalent,

it is fractality in motion.

You do not see how it comes or leave,

but the pattern is seamlessly flowing.

The End of Time and Time Travel

 In dream I was showed the constellation of the Hunter a second time

but this time I could grab the knowledge.

A word about this knowledge grabbing.

It is easy  and natural because it is there.

And when it is not, it is because I am not easy and natural, so the I is in the way.

Very cliché to say it, but the cliché should not be dwelled upon

what should be felt instead by contrast to it

is the softness and easiness of the access. 

Unless felt, we do not get into this vortex, and I learned today 

that we are thrown out of it, even if we try "hard".

The vortex is like a cyclone

the one who are pure; i.e. who are in the centre

access the silence of its own centre

the void

where everything is.

and that is easy, no effort to be done from your side.

Just ask question, feel the depth of its sincere needs within 

and you are answered de facto

because where there is a need, there is a sustenance

where is is a question, there is an answer.

For now, it is easily done when I go to sleep.

As the mind is not in the way.

If that state is consolidated for the day

would be perfect.

This being said, 

the Orion or The Hunter is made of two upside down triangles.

This is at least how I saw it; 

either it is in the past or in the future. 

The constellation is in movement over time and not static.

The upper triangle with base facing upwards and summit downwards is the energy that reincarnate from Orion to Earth - it is sifting through the centre.

I believe it is where from we are propulsed into the Earth Womb.

Then, once we leave our body, well it was said; very few make it back there.

The lower triangle represents those who come back from Earth, represented by the base of the triangle

numbers of those who are suppose to come back are many.

But very few make it to the summit of the lower triangle.

Those who do, I believe reach the meeting point of the summit of the both triangles.

I do not know about there.

What I saw though was when at the time of my death 

I could see myself from outside of my being, not only of body but of the energetic body.

My perspective was the one of pure energy.

Which was plain light filling up one third of the triangle.

When I woke up for the 3am meditation, 

I still had the feeling of being that energy 

and had no perspective of my individuality as I know myself by the current name of mine.

It was also difficult for me to make a sentence or more exactly to grab the grammatical pattern.

Because grammar or thought construct is not a wave that is embedded into the pure energy.

So it is not recognised by it, as it cannot be constricted by such pattern. 

The Energy just is.

Also, what makes us access the grammar and all the language tools,

it is the gravity of the waves, 

that are waves which are being embedded in us, like a footprint.

The metaphor given was the one of a pottery of clay.

the potter can make a design onto its soft clay by making it turn.

This wake of the design has created a path, where the energy takes form and is being defined by it.

What become our current personality as a human being with language and other tools to manifest and interact.

So the best construct for me

is the one of desiring first, get the question, feel it.

Then dwell in the silence

To receive the answer. 

This is where the void is, and from there the key to the answer is the question.

And the void is the centre of this cyclone where most of people get caught at some point in its outskirt

but if you stay there; you will be ejected. This is where the pain will be felt and confusion, complicated construct.

But if you let it go, you will make it to the centre

it is where Peace is. 

Both centeredness and expulsion are experienced 

the key is to be back into the centre as soon as possible. 

and the feel is the key. 

If you feel the control of your being 

not of the controlling of the outside; 

but the inner solidity, in that case you are good to ask the question, to attract the answer.

Also I believe these two triangles are representing the Hourglass.

And I believe once the upper energy has passed through the Earth and the lower triangle remains empty;,

as not one comes back anymore.

Then, it is the end of the realm of creation; or the End of Time Itself.

The red sundisk shown to me in the Egyptian architecture 

represents the energy harvested on top of our head for our journey back to the Orion which is a portal to redirect to the star you come from.

The snake around the sundisk represent the kundalini actualised above our head

and its energy harvested there. Picture 2

The wings represent the travel possible by the use of this energy as fuel. Picture 1.

This is how we can choose where we can reincarnate, options being as much wider as is our harvested energy.

The Top of the Head is the purified energy of our own, not the stolen one. 

The both corns represent the opening of the spheres which are the ego and super ego balloon.

When both of them are shed off, the Sun of God is born. 

  

I had been told that these are also called the Cows horns 

As we are in the Milky Way, and there on earth the pattern that defines us is the horns.

ie ego and superego.

Interestingly enough, the simple and real purpose of life

which is to cultivate our own energy and purify it to get it as a fuel for our final travel is not taught at all.

Because the slavery is the goal. Not the Freedom.

Stealing others' energy for maintaining this kingdom. 

But the cultivation is way Higher in value of course.

And also, the energy itself in the root chakra is pure.

but the currently circulating energy in our body is a still muddy lake.

So the self realisation allows the ocean to purify the still waters in us

and this is real cultivation and purification.

My triangle being full by one third means I have two third remaining to actualise if I am correct.

I have been told, my energy still need to go through Agnya.

And as it is said in Quran,

God loves those who purify themselves.

Piercing through a rock or not

 The fun thing with rocks 

likened to the state of the heart that is not soft

the energy never forces itself against its will 

yet the likeness of the stem representing the flow of the energy

shows that it surround the rock to pierce through the soil into the light.

And the rock itself becomes the seat and the support for that stem.

It is how one can benefit from every situation.

Time does prove it, if we also learn to be patient.

Giving self realisation to ...

 If you tried to give self realisation to an imam 

and didn't get the positive respond you expected,

despite the mantras, and thus magic you were putting in

to make it happen,

and now you are feeling anger if not hatred, 

because you feel he wasn't worth it 

and he stole you of your time and effort,

Then, this blog is for you.

First of all

do not use magic

never try to bend someone else's will.

This is black magic, as you do it without their approval.

Second point, differentiate between your human reaction and your divine identity.

Your divine identity should now take over 

and see the pettiness of your human reaction, which needs to grow out of it.

Blame and anger is the human prerogative

but forgiveness and the letting go is the Spirit's.

So the faster you choose to let go,

the quicker you will grow.

Because never forget your main aim is not to be a king over others

but be a king over yourself.

Grow into your own Spirit, identify yourself more to it, as intent.

And let Christ light sucks into it the ego accumulated at the agnya.

Sometimes we need to be reminded of this simple path.

But the edges and spike of our ego in reaction to what it considers failure

need to be rounded up and ideally quickly let to be sucked in by the Spirit.

So never forget that your own growth is your priority.

And you giving self realisation to others 

is not a favour you are doing to God...

You are learning to uncover also the immaturity hidden within you.

Anger happens, despite being a yogi

because that very Nadi is closed in your sahasrara 

and is covered by your ego/super ego.

So get connected or renew your. connection.

Also do not forget that you are like the rain to the non realised seeds

and the seeds may or may not crack open 

they do need time to learn about love.

Rain never throws a tantrum when after the shower 

the seeds did not open..does it?

So let it go.

And finally take this so called failure,

as a feedback for you to improve not only your hidden immature manners personally speaking,

but also to modify your approach towards the muslim community.

Methods have to be adapted to their own level,

the system of values is more intricate 

challenging even.

But a seed once sprouting knows its way around while hitting a rock.

Rock must be saved 

with patience and self love foremost.

Divine never forgets, 

instead awaits the right timing to readjust life lessons

so that these people in need of God connection

be ready for it too.

Christ

In dream I was in Israel and or an area which was labelled as Arab area for show purposes

but was Israel.

There I was in a staircase of a building.

At some point I reached a floor 

and I saw a man standing there

dressed all in white

and face also covered by a long white piece of cloth.

Tall, lean and standing out by his presence.

Spirit told me this is Christ 

So not in flesh, but as in energy 

the vision of the Spirit from the Spiritual world.

Auspicious dream indeed.