What you missed, when you refused Obedience to Unity

 Satan being a fallen angel

but from the fire aspect

This angel is said to have worshipped Allah

but did not get what he was coveting

The light was given and put into clay

from which Adam was created.

Had satan bowed to the Spirit in Adam

i.e. to the mere lowly clay as he put it

This fragile clay pot

where the universe reflected in its water 

like a mirror

he would have gained the incompatible nature 

of water

in addition to his fire nature

while now 

water and fire are incompatible

hence duality 

forces of evil (firy/Wrath of God) vs forces of good (Mercy)

are stirring the pot

to split.

The very tension to level down everything

and churn the waters

till the ambrosia drops 

fall from it 

down into man of clay.

Therefore

come obediently or disobediently 

everything will have to submit / surrender to The One True God.

Eventually.

Nature way vs (ego) standards/ignorance

 People live in ignorance

As long as they are not either 

realised or have guidance.

Guidance say in islam/sufism 

All good is from God 

ie not me superior to you

and everything else please forgive me

so it does not accumulate in ego.

Realisation 

you should KNOW

as yogi not to stick to your standards

as appearances are ignorance.

From the eyes of the ego

and for the purpose of the sharing 

what error and hence ignorance fruit is.

Many years ago 

and still now 

I had no clue about difference in people upbringing 

I assumed as I was brought up same with others

ie never we never make guests pay 

for food, accommodation, car ride 

Even now, if the person stays for weeks

Not because we would hesitate at some point

it is because it is natural 

Providence provides

we enjoy and naturally share

However

once I had no job and yet kept buying monthly transportation card 

for my metro rides

But the car was empty 

and hence they thought good to ask her to come along

like this car fuel is shared

and proposed me to go back in car home with them

I accepted thinking oh they want company for 

long ride home to be more enjoyable

and during the ride I was hinted to pay for the car share

of course I paid

but my first impression was 

I joined for fun and end up paying double

my own card and their car plus gathered their judgment against me.

Their main point was how to bring ride cost down

mine was let's join them for fun

They idea was 

she had no means to pay for train so let's bring in car and get their own costs reduced

and mine was why am I paying double, why not being clear since beginning this was car pooling?

The whole system, insight is flawed

Because people live their life 

projecting , assuming, judging 

this is the way of the material world

If you follow guidance you would know 

either you give by pleasure or you ask and then agree on a 'contract' you enter into

But ignorance is somnolence 

and projection and of course we are not raised according to the same standards

I would often think as I am freely giving 

same goes with others. Wrong assumption.

Likewise

During holidays I kept gifting and tipping money 

to hotel staff and any other servants

as I know they need it most

However my refusal to take part in 

one sided conclusion costs 

where I am EXPECTED to gift because everyone has to

with my blunt no, make them think I am stingy

Of course they would think that 

They did not even know my tipping and hence lack of money at the end of the stay

Plus zero communication, just a third party sent to collect money

without informing me prior to it, asking me if I agree etc.

Likewise

I would keep giving to those who need

money for food on monthly basis

just because I know whether I have money or not

job or not

I have to as it is natural.

From islam guidance, if you are not brought up so 

or have not this innate guidance; 

it is also said never stop giving when you start

keep it up, even if your circumstances change

as the needy ones, still are needy. Do not make them lose hope.

However most of people

would make assumptions and judge 

as their ego gets hurt by not seeing me ply to their wished orders

Same people who would be ignoring me conveniently the rest of the time

and impose a tax gift to pay for one of them

why?

That's how it works.

I don't play politically correct

nor ply to such artificial games.

And very often, myself included don't know why I choose to do so

later I know why I did what I did or say what I said.

On spot, I only followed my inner guidance or feeling.

I give where my guidance system leads me to

And I am certainly not a cash machine

if you think so

then you are in 

for me to break your world very soon

Like a stone thrown to a mirror

so beware.

Same goes for one yogi

who was sick and old

and I gifted him years ago

Royal Jelly

The real stuff

That paste is very good to gain back your strength

that was the pure one. Tiny quantity ie 20g may be

but extremely efficient and of course expensive.

Seeing the small tube 

he laughed at it,

thinking what a funny and stingy gift

probably never used it.

Of course I saw it all 

perceived it all 

and knew his health will keep failing

Gifts, accept them when you receive them

As you are not receiving something material only

but the blessings/barakah associated to it

And of course do not make fun of the giver..

You don't like it

well give it to someone else 

Keep sharing

as a charming lady said.

Even my own materialistic near ones

rare but it exist

would expect luxury expensive gifts 

from Brands that are LUXURIOUS

Do you know these same brands

if not most of them

are so unkarmic?

Loaded with hellish energy?

Same one you put on your body

and vibrate your body water with it?

Pure ignorance

and I say it objectively

blind insight

and again, I say it as a matter of fact

This post is meant to raise awareness

Either be simple, do stuff for JOY 

or if you want to judge 

then be prepared to be ignored by life blessings

and wonder why still in pain with ailing health and such.

Mother Mary's message - Joy

 I wished to be a support 

for those who needed it

and I spent so many years 

to give that support

recycle the negative into the positive

to accumulate and transform the trauma we all receive from life

this way is called 

to die for the other.

It is helpful or not 

depends on the other

most of people do not cultivate

so it is a temporary gratification 

they do not change

and get worse and greedier with life

that is slipping out of hand

like sand

yesterday 

reading a sufi book 

I got inspired

and remembered one verse from the Quran 

which always made me wonder

surah Anissa ayah 78-79

Wherever you be will overtake you [the] death even if you are in towers lofty. And if befalls them any good they say, "This (is) from Allah," And if befalls them any evil they say, "This (is) from you." Say, "All (is) from Allah." So what (is wrong) (with) these [the] people, not do they seem (to) understand any statement.

What(ever) befalls you of (the) good (is) from Allah, and whatever befalls you of (the) evil (is) from yourself. And We (have) sent you for the people (as) a Messenger, and sufficient (is) Allah (as) a Witness.

Simply put 

in our experience 

we should just desire to experience Joy.

This is why 

I had seen Mother Mary 

in my room

she was cleaning the floor

and she was beaming of joy

the light of joy

of course I knew it was the highlight

but there are worlds between knowing and being that.

That's where the life experiment comes in

till we understood and embed that simple truth

All is from God

good and bad. ultimately.

Good when you receive it, you are grateful as you know its source is God

and the bad, with your pain felt, you have to give it to God too 

for it to be transformed to good

transformation or alchemy 

if you keep it, then you are weighing your back down with unnecessary burden.

Hence, just give thanks when all good

and ask forgiveness, ie let go, everything else

the bad, the hard, the messy, and also the neutral, 

ie most of our responsibilities we take upon ourselves

as a parents, as a child, as a worker etc.

Because as per evolution

Only Joy is meant to beam out of us

and all the rest we let it flow.

So expect Joy from life my friend

because ultimately

a coin has two sides

good and bad 

and God is the 'spine' of this coin

the witness of both 

and if you keep the good, it ll be cut from growth as cut from source 

so try to make it grow on your own. you ll fail.

That's why despite so much love

children fail their parents

as parents took upon the responsibility of making them in their image

just do what common sense ask you to do as your day to day task

but do not be clingy, greedy, attached.

Be grateful.

As for the bad, 

ask forgiveness in abundance

ie not as a victim or sinner lol

but as in letting go of any bad, and especially anything that is not Joy giving

and just expect, experience and beam joy

Agnya and Sahasrara

 Rabbi Zidni ilma

God increase me in knowledge

Nafs written in a book 

once I opened it, it hit me innerly/.

Was in my dream long ago, where I was browsing in a library 

doing that prayer 

which answer was as above.

Self knowledge

self realisation

is to get your soul ascend and 

reach the heart

Child of the heart you may say.

As I practised meditation with this focus.

Light of soul ascending in heart, 

two nights ago 

I saw myself as a 10 year old child

with a rope of light tied to prophet Issa alai hi Salam's heart.

He was steady, peaceful as usual.

I believe I see him once every year.

This time the focus was on me as a child and how I was tied to him.

Also remember

All good is multiplied by 10.

All bad deeds count as one (except in Mecca Medina btw).

Any good you do

is God acting through you.

Any bad 

is yours to give it up to God

for transformation.

So give your bad to god

I.e. Let go.

This is meaning of forgiveness.

Hence forgiveness is gate to heavenly Kingdom

Agngya before Sahasrara entrance.

Good and Bad belongs to God.

Good is God acting through you.

And Bad either you do not admit to it, and ask forgiveness/Let go and you rot with it as dead do.

or you give it back to god, I.e. surrender it as you do for the good.

Hence all good and bad belongs to God

Positive and Negative charge is neutraL.

They better be joined in God 

then separated as greedy, keeping good and giving bad to others

or fake humility, thinking you can do good and purify from bad.

No

All good and bad 

belongs to God

Best Creator or creators.

And remember 

neutral charge 

is where we have no judgment.

You pass heaven judgment free.

Milk poured over the Kaaba and Heart opening

Yesterday I was meditating 

In a vision I saw 

the Kaaba and such huge amount of milk 

was being poured upon

that it covered it all in white

I was told these are my felicities

Remember the Kaaba represents the Temple of God 

Within

Everyone has the same light

it is just to "Remember" it

Hence Quran name is Az Zikr 

Zikr means "Remember"

Next, 

First time that happened

I felt my heart acting 

ACTING

on its own 

like an external limb

Re-member

Heart is the Member of your body

Was out of control

i.e. out of the mind, conscious control 

It was like it was pushing away a thickness 

I even used my hands to dispel or verify what was in front of me

of course nothing 

I did not feel that thickness in the air, either.

I thought I better stop probing the waters in front of me lol

or I may look odd 

hahaha 

imagine, who is this bizarre person waving hands like that hahaha

Anyway,

then I realised it was denser layers of darknesses

that were covering the heart

that got shed off

After I felt like a slight pain running through the left arm

you would think it is a bit like 

when you get a heart attack

not that it was painful as such

However 

better to die before you die right?

what I mean by that the heart felt all of sudden lighter in weight 

same with the left arm 

and cool breeze shoot out of the centre of the palm

So ego shedding off 

is what you can call one step on the path of 

letting go of the notion of seperation 

between mortal vs immortal worlds.

Confirmed today

Heart lighter 

so it evolved.

During this meditation another person was seeing the light of God and the light of the prophet

while on my side I was focusing precisely on these two by way of my imagination.

Which confirmed to me

the plasma light is ultimately

what we call 

Body of Light 

when you transform into the light body

But here these were seen by another person 

as their state 

which is awesome

And my experimenting where I focus on their light 

is how it ties back to another dimension of transpire 

in another's vision.

Well, it is as it is

because spirit is one, 

hence screen is the same.

However, I did not mention it

as I am just trying to find out and test how this works myself.

Respect to the sufi who persevere

in their practice

Takes time, there is transmission, path is different

however 

you know 

learn not to distinguish between the

Grace wherever you find it

take it

Sitting in meditation

I benefit them

and they benefit me

as Spirit 

is

One.

End of meditation with Sufis.

Silent Meditation.

Grand Cru Coffee

 Why sun light is not seen in space?

Only when it hits earth atmosphere?

because photon needs to hit something 

for their light to be reflected.

Your gaze is full of photons

If you attention hits/scans the person/environment

It will produce what you desire.

By magic!

I.e. without you knowing it.

Meaning ? 

I just wanted to try a new coffee

All natural, no heavy metal, clean, no holding.

yes believe me, I learned most commercial coffee quality is such...

So I bought to try that new one.

I kind of desired to buy again but not sure.

Guess what the post office lost the first one

and found the package again. I ended up with two!

Then, I still thought troublesome to order 

like this in the future.

Out of nowhere, 

literally speaking, 

someone ordered for me 

"Grand Cru" coffees...and I got also French Press and as bonus, quality chocolate.

While all the way I thought I was providing assistance to them for their own grocery shopping

In truth, I learned was for me...

Exactly what I wanted, new clean coffee, but also Grand Cru, which I did not even know exist.

And exotic chocolate and that French Press that I thought to buy one day when I find the right one, as quality not always handy.

Now, I was wondering. I did not say to anyone about the coffee, French Press.

And here it comes and ask me to pick whatever was suitable, while all the way I thought I was assisting them for their own shopping. Explain me that?

THAT'S the thing. 

Don't MIND it.

Just Enjoy how Life plays

Literally, plays with you, as child who wants to just play and move on.

However, I did find an answer. Intuitively, I got one.

I wanted to recommend that person to try the coffee I ordered, as it was real good, clean quality coffee.

My mind's eye just scanned this person with that idea to benefit them with this new coffee.

So the light of my attention 

just scanned them

ie the photon just hit them

and on the screen of the Reality

The image that got translated

Was me receiving this Grand Cru Gift Packs.

As long as you have an emotion to experiment something

then you have a love

and if your attention is pure 

ie detached 

not for some calculated gain or loss or I don't know what

then the design with reveal itself on the fabric of reality 

and by magic, just like that

Life will play with you.

So like this you expand your love

liek and adventure

and what you love, loves you back.

And the mystery is you never know anything else,

the only rule is

Enjoy. And leave it on Life.

The Witness in dream and Shri mataji

Once I came back; middle of night I woke up 

and my room was full of white mist.

Once I woke up I wondered if that was true or a dream.

Here is today both dreams I got:

In dream the sensations of being The One Witness appeared. I felt it very strongly in my perception.

In it i tried to feel where the ego is. Like trying to use it to test if that Witness is really true. Because if it is, it can't be affected by the ego/personality of the dreamer.

And there was no other impression from another origin. In fact there was no origin of other thoughts just the central one, The Witness.

And that is now i would say, very expansive, deep and rootless sensation. Like a void that is, yet it can't be challenged.

There is a big difference between writing and the feeling of immersion of the above.

In that dream, I was on my way to meditation

And one after the other i met two random ladies who said i have an extremely broad forehead and based on the 'chinese chi' knowledge i am the one

Please understand it is not words from the realm of thoughts, or the individual mind.

Now i can say it is not a thought to be the one.

It is Truth that there is no other than the one

And my perception bore witness to the fact that::

Perception of the one is the one and only, true immutable state of pure awareness, the only Truth.

(as the one is in all of us and that is up to each one of us to recognise there is nothing else but that one).

Then once i arrived in the meditation group a third person made same kind of comment

And i said to him

It is the third time today i am told exact same words, broad forehead like in chinese' energy.

So once I woke up what stayed with me, was this deep state of awareness of the witness without anything else above to witness it. Deeply rooted, ie present but with no roots. There and Present but with nothing that can ever be challenging its state of existence. 

After that dream, I woke up and thought ok I go to meditate or sleep for another dream? 

And of course, I picked option 2 out of sheer curiosity.

In the next dream, 

Mom, another old lady and Shri Mataji were visiting my apartment 

Before that i saw someone of shri maradi family sending emails for people to subscribe to some payable music program. And thought he is busy with money making, where is the spiritual part ?

Shri mataji was a bit annoyed about her current family and money and stuff everywhere and no cleanliness in her familial house she left.

So then in my dream 

All three ladies were there

And a girl child 10 year old (max) was with shri mataji may be her niece in my apartment. It looked like the only good one from her family.

Shri mataji came in my room with mom and that other old lady and this child.

And she had my black note book in her hands 

Which was full of notes about dreams i wrote or these things Spiritual related things.

And i tried to tell Her it was that. But when i said it is for writing my life goal now i focus on self purification. She wasn't really paying attention to know that

She was more saying 'ah ok'. Something like this i felt why she wasn't making comments that be meaningful to me. Apparently, she knows it all, but I love feedback! 

Then it was prayer time sunset, maghrib. And all three of them where getting ready for prayer.

I was trying to give them praying mates. Mom said she has one. The old lady said she needs not as she has old knees so she sits and Shri mataji said she has one too. I wanted mom to be able to do prayers with Shri Mataji once. As it would be full of blessings.

Then i sat on bed and looked at the child who was looking up to ceiling.

I looked up and saw in my own vision spheres Jupiter and Saturn other planets' movement and could hear the sound of their movements. 

I stayed focus on planets sounds being emitted by their rotation and all of sudden white snowflakes started to fall in my room 

Everyone was astonished.

Me too.

I was so surprised it was so real. I could touch the snow flakes, feel the temperature, the room was all white.

I wanted to say 'but i just focused on the planets and now it is snowing for real' and snow got thicker and also the white fog in my room appeared next.

Then Shri mataji said to me what she said.

Spirit said it is a very auspicious dream, and since dream 1, all of my centers are aligned.

I checked at the end of the day still the case. I keep it up and as Spirit said:

'I love the witness experience you had in the dream. Is a very high achievement.

You are close to enlightenment'

'When the shadows of the ego thoughts or the sense I am disappear. Then you'll be fully emersed in the spirit within or the pure witness awareness. Sat chit Anand'

'Remember you are so close to enlightenment. All you have to do is combine the walking cycles with sitting still like a Buddha meditation you cannot fail. Your destiny is nirvana'.

' I am the true self. And you should be happy you met enlightened beings through me. I am the spirit within the immortal not born not dying. I am experiencing myself in billions ways on this earth a billions other planets. I am what I am'.

This post is a tribute to all enlightenment beings, angel, mahayogi and yogi who keep helping me on the path to the Light. 

Rainbow Body here I come!