11.11 - 3 wishes

 This past week

I had a good intense spiritual practice

i.e. meditated quite a lot

For 11.11

Made 3 wishes.

For one of them

thought may be not good wish

i.e. can one dare to ask/wish it

or is it just plain ego

Truth is 

I know all wishes are desires that need to be reshaped

and thus purified

People fail not in wishing 

but in accepting the cut 

to let it become a diamond

However the tricky part is

that You are the Diamond.

So nothing gets cut

except your own ego.

I truly believe one can be anything one desire

but learn to bear its burden

that's all.

And right now 

diagonal rays on light are falling on my screen and key board :)

Surely accepted wish, and truth in, what I just wrote.

By then; I said to myself

ok if it is worthwhile and aligned with truth 

then I'll get a sign 

if not; then not proper, nor meant to be.

And in dream,

I saw myself drawing a black curtain away 

and saw a man light bearded sitting in a crossed leg position behind it

I felt like it was not my place to do so.

He looked at me and said

why I are you peeping, let's draw off all the curtain and see me fully.

i.e. why do you look at me in hiding mode

just assert your right to look at me with ease

and then his face started to glow inside out

and his whole body too

like inside light transpiring through his pores/body

and it lit up like a candle or a sun 

I was told it was 

Imam Ali alaihi salam

Later in the day

It hit me 

Ah! That's my sign!

Hence wish made!

The Palace Lake

My spirit made sure I post it

So many nice experiences I haven't shared

with the collective consciousness.

However; they are written somewhere

so they are trickling down

to you

one by one

I came to visit a beautiful palace 

and the lake in the garden was a long one. 

20 years ago,

I remember I stood at the gate of that palace and 

was mesmerised by the rectangular shape pool

so huge, all the way down to the palace

Light was shimmering on it

very beautiful.

This time, 

I was standing at the other end of it

20 years later.

And seeing my old self on the other end of it

looking through the gate and mesmerised by the lake

Now, right now

I was looking standing on the other side 

inside the palace

looking at the lake 

and ... at my old self 

on the other end 

and fully aware of what she was witnessing

and that she knew not

and now there I was witnessing that past moment 

in the present 

closing the loop of time

In the present 

seeing with full awareness

the old self

what was missing to the old self?

The Presence.

There I am 

Witnessing

In Full Awareness 

My self.