Paris meditation - part 3

When i went to the meditation center
the second day
i found it absolutely amazing
the fact the new guy
put chairs in circle mode

it looks like less of a classroom
more like everyone is EQUAL

and mostly...

that the circle ENABLES energy to circulate...
it enables you to FEEL it IN THE CENTER of the circle

they should keep it up like this every day
somehow they don't

anyway i met there back
new participants
i had met a year before

the talk of the day was amazing
for once ... no more old talk
always put on screen
usually old yogi always put old talks there
because is their comfort zone
nothing shocking
for new listeners

but it becomes their OWN conditioning
own limits..
so many talks of Shri mataji
one needed a NEW yogi as teacher
to put FINALLY - God may BREATHES - a NEW talk

best talk of shri mataji
are those in her early years
as she gives you a map of WHAT serves your BEST INTEREST

I read ALL OF HER TALKS
INCLUDING THE ONES IN HINDI with NO translation

i can TELL YOU
much is MISSED by current yogis

no wonder
that most of them i met
did not progress except one or two

just look at their eyes
and face
as last ressort check their chakras
all hot

even the sweetest yogi girl i used to know
has developped so much hatred
don't know due to what
anyway she didn't flush it out of her system
she became such a sour face

this is the one that pained me most
she lost her sweetness, warmth, and innocent smiley face she had

went all the way 180° shift
from sweet to sour face
what can i say?

then
i laugh when i heard from her
comments
"dear i thought you left collectivity"

i told her
"and you? you were IN collectivity
yet look at you, what happened? why are you so down now?"

actually
her soul was severed from her spirit
apparently she says she meditates...

either she just close eyes and night dream
and play with her thoughts
hence no fruits of meditation are seen on her face
and this explains why the path leading her soul to her spirit is broken

or she does not meditate at all

so see 
is NOT because you are PART of a collectivity
that you are saved

UNLESS you are CONNECTED to your disciplined practise
with a REAL meditation
EVEN IF ALONE
as i was or with limited company for meditation at best

don't dare to patronise me
with your "she left collectivity"

the only good guy who died
and who was yet alone
reached spirit

NOT because he was AVOIDING collectivity
or because he was PART of "collectivity"

but because he HAD SINCERE PRACTISE

so anyone trying to peek at me
behind my back
let me return him the favor
and let him know

unless he heals his knee cap
this will spread to his spine
and is no good

on this note
i will try to write next post
about the fabulous mataji talk i heard
which is about DEVELOPPING YOUR POWERS

KISSES to you
and yes stop backbiting with arab girl
heal your knee
my intuition has indeed grown