Alexandre Astier

A very quick post
for my preferred drama and movie producer - Alexander Astier.

the whole video is in French.
why i posted it?
because he shares what his underlying motivation is
why he does what he does

i like his way of being clear with himself
of what his desires, and goals are.
of being able to articulate them,
with lots of care of not giving into the temptation
that a high status may give you in sounding at times pretentious and thus empty.

well i like him for his educated and articulated and sincere
way of being himself
and of discovering the inner intricacies of what draws his attention

of separating what he wished from what happened eventually
for instance, what we want sometimes does not happen according to our initial desire
but to look perfect
we say stuff happened as we wished
but doing so we dilute and detach ourselves from our true desire of creation
therefore we forget our true desire leading to our true self discovery

so i like his "répartie" and the assumed one.

also, well i like his inner introspection
which leads him not only to have a job and a life with two sets of principles for each
but ONE set of principals for both.
that is being sincere to himself and true to himself and thus to the others.

and the summum of his talk was when he said the last sentence that i post here.
preceeded of a few others in french.
(english ones being my translation).

i just really find this guy interesting, full of acute self introspection
and very much practical and realistic.

few quotes of him, that i whole-heartedly agreed with
as if i recognised them being from me
making me innerly jump on my seat and posting them here :

"c'est la partie musicale de la chose, et donc celle qui se réfléchie le moins" :)
=
it is the musical aspect of this topic, and which requires less reflection.
meaning,
he was being praised for his capacity of making jokes in his written comedy
and he told
he never focuses on writings jokes,
for he only focuses on the structure of proving one or two points
and the joking aspect
arises by itself
due to the natural effect produced by his preliminary reflection
and because he exploits the topic to the deepest
following his inner drive to analyse more the potential of each actor and situation
that naturally without effort the jokes arise.


and he so beautifully accepted this praise
without feigning to not accept it
i mean it is not calculated

he just said the truth about himself
you don't make effort to give birth to what you are being praised of
for that which is worthy of praise
is like music
it flows as freely and graciously as it is unintentionally willed.

by the way,
yesterday myself i learned
that i can desire and intend for a wish-
but i cannot will it.
for only the God within without allows it to happen
and thus Will belongs indeed to God
but the desire and intent is ours.
without it we cannot plant the seed into the Mind
and no seed means no plant and no fruits ie not seeing your desire fulfilled, if allowed by the God Mind.


second saying of his

"en fait le plus important là dedans c'est ce qui ne parait pas l'être. c'est le bonheur des deux, trois, quatre acteurs qui viennent pour jouer et mettre leur talents." c"est qu'"ils soient pénétrés par la grâce du moment".

it is first time i hear a realisator
whose main concern is the joy of his two, three or four actors. who come and perform and share their skills. because they have been given the space to be penetrated by the Grace of the moment.


really beautiful.
it is altruist without being purposely altruist.see?
it is only because this Alexander Astier by his some inner reflection, self introspection of what his job brings him and moves him
reveals him that his joy lies in giving space and time for his actors to be in joy...

that is real Love for others, really.
not forced,
but emerged in a realisation of yours
because you did some of introspection.

Alexandre Astier is famous for his series "Kaamelott" broadcast over the past few years on the 6 channel in France, which is about the King Arthur and the Knights of the Ronde Table; which leads to the quest of the Graal.

He still did not manage to make the movie, as he wishes to make it according to his terms,
i.e. keeping rights over the production as he intends not to sacrifice the 15 years of his life for this project due to financial strains.
so i guess he waits for the right producers ;)

Good luck to him.
he is a great artist.

Testing life

Today i met new people
when they were talking
i could feel their emotions
those that were hidden

it startled me
because i felt them strongly
i think i never felt people's emotions so strongly before

most of their feelings were filled with sadness
for one there was hidden anger and frustration

on top of that
i felt sad for them
i was sad because i knew they were sad
though it was hidden
and wished to tell them
"don't be sad"
and i was also frustrated,
because i knew how they could be so awesome
but as they don't know they could be so awesome,
i felt like they were cheated by life, by their ignorance of their potential,
of themselves.

really even now i feel for them
it is like you could see someone turning in circle
like in a jail
and you know that this condition won't change
unless he changes his ways
and you know also that never he will change his

people are very strange
they expect change without willing to change their usual ways
if you have no success with your current method
then drop it
and try a new one
this simply means your method failed when you tested it with your life

but it is like people become amnesic
once they tested it
why they do not move on?
it is like they know they are testing life
don't they say that "it is a test from God"
but they forgot the meaning of "test".
they think it is a continual test from God.
like a fatality
but if the test has a beginning, it has an end too.
and you decide of its end
as you decided of its beginning by allowing yourself to be as you have been
now allow yourself to be otherwise...to end it:

by concluding "ok the method tested failed."
be honest with life
as soon as you admit this conclusion to yourself
you will see
life will be challenged
and will bring you a new method to be tested with.

(by the way, when you can say that
it proves already a certain degree of detachment
you feel it when you say it?)

it is what happened with me.

ok it is a test
but now once you get the result of the test
YOU decide your test is over
and you seek for a new one
which will be successful, no?

WHY they forget to acknowledge the result?
and MOVE ON?
no they have to standstill and blame others and pity themselves till they die
instead of moving on.
now, i am really feeling angry at them.

i know why they get amnesic,
it is because they become so identified with the method
because remember,
we put our life in it
time, effort, emotions,
and that defines us

this is our ego
part of it
and you need to label it as "failed"
who would like to hear that his past 30 years
resulted in a "failed" mention? who?

it is like you hear your death sentence
like one day someone comes
and tells you
sir, you wasted 30 years of your life.
well don't be sorry
success will come despite that
trust in the unknown wisdom of God
which lies in your (ego) death.

he will laugh at you,
after having slapped you lol

and yet in this simple step
i am sure lies the Mercy of God
whoever honestly surrender his ego to God
means
he should admit that his method failed,
and he surrender to a new method
he has no power upon
and which will be from God
an "infaillible" method
and this "infaillible" method
will become the new life of his

i found this now so beautiful

for i just understood
why the shia call their imams
the "infaillible" ones

they are the descendent sons of the prophet
in leadership
i bet these were all realised
but they are infaillible not because of their own knowledge
or some inheritance of prophethood as we can naively understand it

they are infaillible
because of the "path" / method they followed
which is a path that bears the weight of the test
a path that is unshakable whatever the test is



so, i don't understand
why people don't come to this logical decision?
if only they would, then they would be alert and thus open
for new God given methods/helps

if you know that Life is a Mercy from God
then, why you don't open to more of His Mercy?
why you cut life in two :
with one area which is yours and is temporarily lacking blessings
(so you wait and wait and wait while not changing)
and the other which you consider not yours and thus you suppose it is unblessed
and you remain closed to it.

therefore, you just keep regressing in receiving blessings from life
till there are no more
and you think that God left you
but in truth
it is you who stubbornly remained separated from the Whole, from God
by separating your life in two or more groups
with one sacred and the other not
with one useful and the other not
with one blessed the other not
with one higher and the other not

by extension
it is what we do with our relationship
with anyone
everyone thanks to his spirit within
if it has crossed your path
has been bringing you
the opportunity to unify your vision of Life to One Part

i find that beautiful
of course is hard
because we get amnesic
and we cling onto our emotions
instead of letting them go

but as long as we KNOW
we have to "return to God"

inna lilahi wa inna elahi rajeoun
to God we belong to to Him is our return

then, we cannot forget, nor fail.

the thing is muslims only remember this sentence
at the time of death
but it is about the death of ego
at each moment when you encounter suffering
and like this bits by bits
you get ready
somehow
for the Great Remembering
of your true nature
of who you are



finally, on the spot, while listening to them,
i chose deliberately
to listen superficially
i mean i did not keep my usual deep focus when they were speaking
because i just felt too sad already

Living Light

you know
alive?

i said everything is alive
as if i discovered it is alive as of now
but in fact
what i wanted to say
is that i witnessed that it is alive

because my intelligence saw it ON THE MOMENT

this is what makes it alive
the rest of time
my intelligence is only holding onto image of object in mind
so it is as an image is
i.e. dead

but now the present is Ever Alive
all is there
means all that is in the moment
is there indeed, alive.
(not frozen in a past image or anticipated in a future form)

so it means
usually my own intelligene is dead
when NOT illuminated by the kundalini

the kundalini
is like a lift
by passing through the chakras
it takes in it the attention from the liver
then the spirit in the heart
and then passing by the head
it illuminates it
thus the quality of the spirit which is/expresses/maniests itself as love at the heart
becomes a peaceful witness of the present
that is an illuminated attention
which can thus be called a witness

so it acts like a mirror
that enables you to see light of creation
thus light under a multitude of forms
and that is why it is called play of Life

it is like a diamond
which when turned
has many facets
but to see them
the mirror should be polished
so that light be reflected
and you may see it (alive) in its different form

when we can see the beauty of God


the beauty is/means
the secret of God being witnessed in the present moment
secret, i.e. each object is giving out a manifested characteristic
and this is the message attached to each one of it
and in the present it is revealing its beauty, i.e. that which was opaque/secret to our eyes before

when we say we witness the beauty of God
beauty is just a generic term

to say the Light of God in the objects in the present
and as each object has its light
this is why it is said
is being seen as "it is as it is"

so this light
is being contemplated in the present

ah, it is so beautiful

Candle wax

oh this is incredible!
i remember to have written that after a long time of meditation
i could see beauty when i go outside

but also it happened now while i was inside home!

so amazing feeling :

you know the candle wax?
sometimes it just remain in the pot
and you cannot get rid of the remainder
you try hard to remove it and it stick like hell
and you give up

well i had given up since long to remove it lol

but today by accident
i let it on top of the oven
which heat melt the wax on the candle holder !

and then, it was so soft
that i could let it slide and remove it!

but you know what hit me
is strange to say that
but i say it even though

when i saw the wax melted
and so "submissively" sliding away
i found it being "so innocent"
that was such a beautiful feeling for it

i really wish to write it as the impression remains:


one it was like i was saying myself
look ! it is so innocent! and i was so hard on it
thinking it is just a wasted wax unremovable
you know like a misjudgement
lol if i can talk of this for an object
but really there it felt not like an object
but something alive
truly

also
the way the wax got removed
so graciously
i just had to slid it aside with a light finger pressure
and gone!

and then it hit me
it is same with the heart of people
you cannot hammer to teach them some change

but when the right condition
like heat for this candle
are gathered
then
the heart softened by themselves

in real life
you could use the heat of God
the one provided by the vibrations purifying your heart
which is the softer way

or alternatively,
if you refuse to practice
you refuse the soft heat on the subtle level of vibrations

then, it is on the grosser plane
the one of manifestation
that your heart would have to test the heart of the crisis
to learn the hard way its softness

for everything is under transformation
what is solid becomes liquid and then gaseous
and so on back and forth
all is there to get transformed
nothing can remain stable in the elements

so the Spirit gather together the right condition
to allow change to take place
but
if you resist it

as it is said in quran
"come willingly or unwilling"
and the elements responded "we obey"

Then He directed (Himself) towards the heaven while it (was) smoke, and He said to it and to the earth, "Come both of you willingly or unwillingly." They both said, "We come willingly."
quran 41:11

i am right now in love with this verse
i remember in 2006
while i was doing my training in a company
i was just going out of the room
and i saw drops of water hanging on the ceiling
about to fall

and this verses
came alive in my head for these drops of water
and i realised the elements are truly submitted to the Order of God
for they came willingly

by the way
Order is not only Command
order is literally speaking to put order from chaos
and the order of God is both


and when i was removing the last remainders
of the wax
this one was totally liquid by then
so as i was removing it with the handkerchief
as strange as it may seem to read it
i felt love for it
as if i was doing a mix of
thanking it, and healing it in myself

for myself months before
i judged it being worthless and too hard to be ever removed

that was really an alive communication
right now
lol i think i would have even kissed it
as it looked like so beautiful innocent to me

i swear
:) i feel so happy writing it
lol with a bit of tears in the eyes if i keep remembering it

it is really alive

it is true
everything is alive

The most beautiful people

You know the most beautiful people
are those who are themselves
they shine

like the hang drum musician
or the others i saw on the streets today
so cute
4 musicians playing an old music
with trumpets
and an old lady
clothes all in green
and she was dancing

tell me
i said to myself
isn't she beautiful?

she was beautiful to me
because she was being herself
just to enjoy what she knows she likes
and she felt not destabilised by the outside
by us those who were observing her
for some were amused of seeing her

but even writing this
i feel my heart so deeply grateful
for such kind of people
they are just themselves
and then their own light shine

what yogis may forget is
that everyone has a soul
and its light shine
when one hears its voice
for it shows the path
that is beneficial to our growth
the one if we follow will help us
to build the experience necessary to grow

and how you know you have grown?
when you are no more stuck in the same circumstances
over and over again
when you do not have the same disputes
for dispute and anger always appear, it's a constant in our life
as we say it is a play, a game
but still
isn't evolution about transformation?
about no more being the same old self?
but growing
this growth is proven
if our external circumstances are changed
if we have changed and emitted light

for some people change
but they are not growing
it is just apparences which change
inside they are all the same
and this is an illusion

but real change
is the one of transformation
where your own presence emit peace, light, joy

but a realised being
may have a connection between his soul and his spirit
that those 'other' people have not
yet, most of them so far i have seen
have not found their life purpose
their AUTHENTIC life purpose
the one that makes them feel enamoured by life
the one that makes them vibrate
and wish them to go on living to create a better world
a PERSONAL life purpose
for automatically
if you find your life purpose
then,
de facto
without your planning
you will benefit the rest of humanity.

during my studies
my interest shifted to spirituality
little by little
till i postgraduated
and i realised that i had lost interest by the end of my studies
in the diploma i had prepared
so funny
and such an awkward situation

because my aim
without me knowing that it was my aim
it was just to follow my inner interest
spirituality and its link with my OWN experience of it

and once i got it
once i got this tiny self realisation
i jerked back again in reality of life
and all went blank for me

how to find interest in life
when you had lost it for something that you found?

so paradoxical

later i learned
before self realisation
my dreams were my guides
giving me clues for what is real

now that i have gotten the real
i had no more such vivid dreams
for remember my dreams were my teachers
thanks to them i could see that this life was not real

but now, THIS very life is REAL
this very life is the scene of my vision
and no more my dreams
why?
because now, i can raise above it
and be my OWN master and CREATE my OWN dreams in REALITY

such a huge discovery for me
i understood it only this week

and yes
i realised what i LOVE most
and NOW i am gonna test this Power of God
and SEE
HOW it can help me in my new found goal?

for on my own
i am SURE i cannot
so much deepness and richness is needed for that
well one will see

till then
i hope everyone will find his or her goal
and honor it
this way you will honor the others
and thus honor Life

i don't know why i have this nostalgic feeling
as if it is the end of a certain time for me
testing time surely
but innerly
and right now
i feel really grateful to everyone
for all the positive and negative experience i had
because without them
i would have never learned
with my life
the true meaning of forgiveness,
of letting go
and of love

how all of these are linked?

well i learned that EVERYTHING has its RIGHT and WISDOM to be in our life
anger, disappointement, liking and disliking
because they exist in us
our role
is not to GIVE INTO THEM nor to HIDE them / avoid them

first i learned
to let them have their place
not to scoff them in me
if i am angry
then let it be

second,
i should recognise
ON THE SPOT
that now i SHOULD LET GO
meaning forgive this anger
by meditating ON THE SPOT
so that the anger be dissolved
and be integrated/grown enough
to be integrated into the light in me

third,
if LATER
i STILL feel angry
this feeling and the person having caused it
i should thank
for thanks to them
i can re start my purification job

of course
as a human being
i will be excessive and be rebellious
and get stuck at times
but VICTORY is when i overcome it
and not because of mental effort
but because of the effect of this Power of God
of these vibrations
the negative feelings will be transformed into light

yet,
if again and again
the same scenario repeats itself
it means that i still have not progressed
and that something is wrong with my practice

there it is
i said it all
and i feel  happy to have shared it

kiss:x
good night


ps :
a sentence came to me
our soul seeks to experience and fulfill
dreams and romance (its desires)
and it is that which gives us the energy to work for it



i.e.
the soul gives us its desire/goal
which is still a dream and it is precious to us
the latter activates our left channel
and it gives us the energy to work for it
that activates the right channel

with this

ONE THOUGHT   -
ONE EMOTION

we create our dreams in this reality
and we become thus our own master!