Breakfast time

during breakfast time
i was drinking my tea
and when i lifted it up
and drank it

while drinking it
suddenly i got the impression of nearness of the energy within
as if it was not me , the thought, who was lifting it up and bringing it to my lips
but the interior energy

while the thoughts was the witness to that
and could be witness to it
because information passed through it
that : this is my need, to drink something

it is so strange
especially if i read this few days later
i may not get why i felt this moment so special
because it all depends where my attention is
if it is inside and deep
then i can catch this very impression while reading it
otherwise it has no meaning no pertinence

besides
this proves also
that only when we are simple
that we can be deep
otherwise it is impossible to be so

so we have to learn back
to become simple people

what we like, we take it
what we dislike, we leave it
and we settle things as much as we can
according to our ability on the spot

so that we don't be overloaded
in our thinking


this very feeling of nearness
i only got it once in my life
may be 10 years ago
when i was praying
i suddenly felt
that closeness
of a presence, of an inner presence
and on the spot while i was praying
i understood
no rather this energy made me witness its closeness
this is how i understood
that if i am standing, then it is not by myself, but because i am being supported to stand
and if my clothes are hanging so naturally
not too tight not too messy in the atmospher
lol like in the space
but rightly adjusted to the body
it is because of this intelligent presence
who knows it alls and do it

but it acts according to the needs of our soul
and if we are not in touch with our soul
then the energy can't do much for us
because it only serves (our needs)
therefore
if we are in touch with our inner self, soul,
and thus with our needs

then, our attention is rightly put
and then, the energy follows


incredible
but truly now i understand
why my uncle used to say
"your energy goes where attenion goes"

therefore,
you have no more to "care" for the effort
that you should initiate
but you have to only put your attention rightly on your soul
so that your energy follows
and care for you


one should learn that gradually
otherwise a great leap from meditation state to active life
is quite impossible
at least for me

Glorious amber

so wonderful light!

the sun light is soo beautiful since past two days

sunrays passing through amber color like leaves

that is really glorious!

pictures to come :)

Dance practice!

we have been preparing an indian dance
for about 3 weeks?

it is the 4th time in my life
i am learning a dance show

so i tell you
i am BAD lol

my coordination sucks
and body attitude
and all that goes with it
like the right timing to direct eyes


BUT
i enjoy the dance
somehow

of course
i was very happy from
our teachers
yes i call them so
for they taught us


i saw the difference
from day 1 and this last day

lol
night and day!

also it is so incredible
so many points

in a brainstorm
i would say

teachers help us to see ourselves
same in dance
same in any thing else in life BY extension

people act like a mirror

of course
i saw them preventing themselves to laugh
at times
to all of us when we pass under x-rays for checking our steps lol

but that was all fun!
if i had made a movie of myself
when i was training
even now i can't stop laughing
SO MUCH WEIRDO i was !

so yes,
first BIG thanks to the teachers!
and of course to the group
because it is what it makes the atmosphere of joy

1-yes the mirror
i was talking of
it is like you can be TOLD actually what you are doing WRONG

and of course like in life
if you are willing to listen
then you can CORRECT yourself

 2-the body language
of course this thing is known to most of us
especially we are taught all of this at school
but in dance
it is even more FINER
for you have a SPEED
an accumulation
NOT at your rhythm but at OTHERS rhythm!

that is what makes you learn more
HOW to adapt to your environment

like, for instance
what made me each time pouf with laughter
at myself
was my TOTAL lack of coordination

hehehe
like someone rightly told me
my mind KNOWS the move
but my body follows not !

it is because as in italy a teacher told me
i think in martial arts
"you think that your body is following you
but it is not,
it is still in the same place"

true, why?
because of the HABIT
the body habit is in the beginning (when you try to change it)
RESISTING you
for it has acquired in its memory a way of acting
so in mind you are thinking you are doing this
but in truth
it is ONLY in your mind
your body is NOT following!

INCREDIBLE i say
INCREDIBLE i repeat

this is HOW we MISS experience of life too
so much we live in mind

besides,
dancing balance me more
for i am naturally a mental person
and the body coordination i shockingly felt
i LOST it

for i well remember
how i used to be free doing these SIMPLE moves
when i was a child

and NOW
i NEED to learn HOW to be natural in body gesture!
lol

i insist INCREDIBLE!

3- the "irreverence of the child"

i love that word
it hit me
when one of our teacher said it

she said
when you dance
one see that you are in your mind
so learn to have this irreverence while moving
as children do :

they JUST do it
without caring for the before and after part
or if it is well, or in the right order

see?
this reminded me
how also
once we grow spiritually
there is no more boundaries
of good and bad

of course one day you will act with this irreverence
and of course people in society
or even those who call themselves yogi
will find you rude
but who cares

it is about you enjoying with the joy of a child
and it is between you and the universe
as long as you are grateful to It
all is ok.

4- the ATTENTION
gives power

yes
even more true in dance
sometime we have had to have PRECISE move or patterns with hands
and what made mine approximate
was that my ATTENTION was NOT TILL the FINGERTIPS!

again,
i say
INCREDIBLE

and then when i put attention till the fingertips
or use the right timing with eye contact

first the teachers themselves could feel
the difference in IMPACT on the audience 
second, ME TOO
i could feel in myself more opening, and joy

5- ATTITUDE
change in body gesture leads to change in our attitude in life
for it works on your personality
and even chakras

like i had the tendency
to always have a hunchback lol
i exaggerate
but i need to

because if i open up myself
i felt it was too much
like unconsciously now
but it refers to my childhood
when i started to grow
i wished to remain unnoticed
unlike to others girls i found were too noisy and look-at-me attitude
so as opposition to them
i acted so

but what was consciously done by then
became unconscious over time
and impeded me

for the way we hold ourselves
influence our readiness to respond to life on the spot
for the way you hold your back will make you more or less prone to act on the spot
and even EXPRESS your joy

lol have you ever seen someone with a hunchback
expressing his joy lol

so this opening up
leads us to more light and light giving

true,
when i hold my shoulders back
and stay straight
i literally feel face lit up
and yes naturally i will smile more
for i am FACING people

and when you FACE people
you unconsciously allow them to speak to you

if you cover yourself up
you will create a barrier for them
and you won't send the message to Life
"here my arms are open to you, come " lol

but that too refers back to my past
when i used to see such noisy girls lol
i had no arms open attitude to them
i preferred to go unnoticed
 so that that "kind of life" gets not on my face lol

but still,
this is very much fruitful to have artistic practise
because it reveals stuff on your personality
you can change on the spot
as you have to re-learn it

and also,
of course
it just gives you joy to be in a joyful atmosphere
with human contacts

6- teachers
we are ALL teachers to each others in real life
if JUST we all had this attitude to learn from others
to see them as our mirrors
we would evolve more rapidly

but what happens is that in real life
teachers are also students
and sometimes brat students lol

so other students naturally won't see them as teachers
even less as mirror to them.

but in truth,
we are ALL mirror to each others.

if you see a defect in someone
and can't let it go,
meaning you are still thinking, talking and even deciding according to it
be it consciously or in a more or less hidden way
then, it means it is no more the other who is a trouble or at fault
but yourself who need to change and correct what needs to be corrected.

this is why i have always loved people who told me
how they saw their mistake and how they changed
because this means they have introspective qualities

of course,
we can from time to time
blame others lol
we are human, it is a process
but KEY is NOT to linger
and know that we have at some point to let go

and AGAIN
the let go is NOT to stop talking of it
this stop talking should be a RESULT
NOT a decision

and the result is THERE
only if we ON THE SPOT
raised our energy and put it on energy SUFFICIENTLY long enough
to get our thought silenced
and thus to get us imbibed by the vibrations
who will transform them into something more beneficial to us

this is the letting go.

may God help me to apply this more systematically!:)

kiss:x