The one i was waiting for...

   i just got a dream 2:30 am :) 

   i woke up so i write it here

   so special it is

   i had a number of packets on my hands like horizontally disposed

   and i put them on a table when i arrived

   they were all mutlicolored

   and is like i knew all of them were gifts packets

   and there was this same voice of a woman

   the same i had in vision yesterday who was showing me some future stuff

  

   and now it is like she was answering a question of my dream

   about myself

   like an unspoken question

   like i was seeking an answer

   and she said

   "it is you, you, YOU, the person you are waiting for"

    

   and each time she said you

   i felt it being hammered on my heart

   and i believed it on the spot at the third time she said you

   and i felt my heart warm and opened with love

   warm love

   and at the third time there was one packet who was like unknown to me and became known

   it was special dream and vision

   becausei felt it in real on my heart 

    this is why i am up now writing it

   also in dream i felt warm opening of my heart

   with love

   like i remembered

   and i accepted gracefully it is ME

   yes i felt a spoof of warm love at the heart

   and i welcomed the me

   it is like i remembered the question and got the answer

   both at same time i was aware of both

   but now that i am writing it i only remember the effect of the answer

   i forgot the real question behind

   and will forget once i wake up

   dream started with unspoken but convened question

   but i knew not

   the answer

   then i got the answer

   and i knew the unspoken question

   as if i was waiting for someone

   adn that very special person awaited was me

   and then now, is like the question is fading away

   but i know the answer

   at the third you

   i felt like i opened my heart to it

   and i accepted it warmly

   and i felt this warmth in my heart

   and joy in the belly at same time

   i just know right now

   that i am happy that it is me

   though i now forget who i was seeking for

   or waiting for more exactly

   it is so strange...

   right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

   i forgot who = like the role of this who

   i can't word it

   it is like someone who should arrive

          but i know it is me, like the me for which my heart felt warm love and joy

end of impression on dream,

          this is what is called  pinnacle of wisdom
          to know that The One one was waiting for is me
          

good timing to copy paste this here :

to say that one is spirit and joy
is not true
till one does not experience it 
like in this real dream and happening

because by then, i really felt entirely i am the one
and was just -wholly- happy

and doubt, now i know, 
is when you know not -wholly- that you are the one
and to know it is to feel it entirely
and to BE it 

it is not a mimecking of what one knows what love is
or what a loving action is
but is the I

right now, i know, i was seeking for someone, but i forgot who; but i know now, that it is me

and i learned, that 

At this very moment, one can see through the one who sees through..

 yes, it is true, 
 i, the answer, could see through the other i, the question, 
 that it was me all the way
 the question and the answer 

 were one 
 and could see each other
 and that is full and complete belief 

 it is like in the book i read, 
 i need to write the proper reference 
 from Alain Danielou

 who said, 
 that most people knows not
 that Mind Bliss is when the passion of the Heart is removed, 
 so that you can see your own soul felicity 

 this is why he said people 
 think the other is his or her love
 for they see their soul light
 and are in love with his soul light

 like in the story of yousuf 
 when all the ladies are literally ready to rape the young youssef 
 who is not yet a prophet

 same there
 if you see the other soul light
 you are in love with it 
 and naturally you wish to enjoy it in 3D
 this is stuff is ALL OK 
 PROVIDED you KNOW 
 that what you are in love with is not the other
 but you
 as spirit

 that is the true love
 where indeed
 as sufi says 

 the love and the beloved are one

 may be more could written by me right now on it
 but so far so good
 as it is intuition based
 and not mind 

 as soon as effort is there to recall
 even if words seem true
 it is no more true to me


 kiss:x 


 ps : 

oh..holy of hollies..I have searched for your god's name everywhere..and now I know your name..It is Homer Simpson...and it always was...(from Homer Simpson cartoons)

or..I have searched for God everywhere.,..and now that i found it..I realized that was me all the time..Homer Simpson? 

This cartoon is great

truth given right in the middle of the mud :)) 

aren't lotus from mud?

thanks to this real vision, i got it, i was seeing myself (the i as question that i forgot) through myself the i as answer that i realised.

to SELF REALISED 
is that !
is to see different SCATTERED and DIVIDED part of your soul
as  INTEGRATED AS ONE in the spirit 

well i guess :)

Both feet on forehead

:)
it is small note
just to remember
yesterday or so,
while i was meditating i saw shri mataji on her seat
sitting
because it is a richly decorate seat

and i could see both of her feet approaching
on my face
and then they rested on it
forehead
so is funny is like i see the whole scene
and i also see that i am a precise part of the whole scene
like to different i

anyway i need a good serious long deep comfy meditation
like a bath of meditation upside down
:))

Giving and Receiving gifts

i like making gifts to people around me
because when you make a gift
it is a token of yourself that can be seen
in the eyes of the receiver

so in a way you materialise yourself
to the other in a way that matches his level
while when you are a whole person lol
it is so funny to write it
but when you are a whole person
you can't really be seen as you are

so gifts bring people closer
so that they be able to see each other

second, it makes me feel fulfilled in the belly
when i can create the dreamt reality of the other
that gives me real joy
that they can believe in their dreams
and verify their belief

this is appreciativeness
which is always  there for the observer
be he the giver or the receiver

but when this becomes a habit
a tradition
an expected order
then it is no more sincere,

because it is no more appreciable
yes you do not have anymore the SPACE
to create your joy ahead of time
while preparing the gift
nor you have the joy to receive it
because you have lost the value of it
and you only expect it your right to have it
so when you already know
being the receiver or the giver of the gift
then, there is no more joy

so the key is in being free
free of giving and receiver whenever you wish
based on this simple rule
it can change greatly yourself

not only in terms of "material" gifts
but also a word, a behavior, an attitude
all of these are gifts to the other
on a more subtle plane

so if one follows this rule to the end
just this one
it makes one automatically see
that life is a challenge

for this will lead you
to go against your own
tradition, societal rules and so on

and your life can change
as quickly as you are ready to change
just to follow up one rule

to give gifts
only when it serves your joy

:)

Exodus : Gods and Kings

Very cool interpretation of Exodus

Luckily i had read a review before going
otherwise i would have been bewildered by the movie

which is a interpretation, re-adaptation of Moses and the Pharaohs story

what i liked :

- No magic as a naive mind would believe it
naive, is to think that magic is something you acquire and show off to surprise weak minded people
while magic is to be able to SEE magic all around you
ONLY because

-you developed faith in YOURSELF
so the development of the personality of moses
was his self work
his capacity to be honest to himself
reflected by his application to be upfront with others
like not to say what others expect you to hear
but stand on your own feet, be grounded enough to speak your truth

-this leads to the interpretation of magic
which is in other stories too far away from our reality
which means our mind attribute the God's help in such a disassociated way
with our own deeds and environement

that this movie gave back credit to the "scientific' explanation of the seven curses
BUT
this is as i say the HOW
not the WHY of the WHAT
which is not treated except referred to as being Moses God

so i deepen here the WHY saying that this is because
Israelis and the Egyptians consciousnesses were linked
and was in struggle
hence is the balance of fairness and justice is broken
then curse comes

and YES it is from God
as we are ALL bearing God light within
YES it is centralised by the Supreme God light
which is like a Living Intelligence Overpowering fights of two group of consciousness

which leads me to the personality of Moses once again,

-as he said to his people
you honored me with your trust
i honor you with my faith

before asking them to follow his order to cross the sea
for people were rebelling in doing so, implying they are no more slaves

literally speaking,
till they cross not the sea they remain slaves
because Pharaohs army is coming from behind

and symbolically,
as our body is indeed the recorder of the WHOLE history of Mankind
the sea is the nabhi which once crossed BRINGS YOU TO YOUR MASTERY

sure,
slaves still talking of being free makes no sense to Moses ears
but it was nicely put in this movie
this focus, zoom on Moses personality
not only in terms of rhetorical effect
but in terms of TRUTH

freedom comes only when you are no more in fear
and cross this sea of illusion
then you can really speak of Mastery

-i loved the embodiment of God in a child
totally unexpected
again i don't say i would agree strictly speaking that God is a child

but as much as God is not a fire
lol
HE is not a child as well
but it was pointing at the symbol of Innocence

or again the Child in Us that we call so in westernised way

though i would say the child was a brat child lol
for he wanted to see Pharaohs on their knees begging for his mercy

God to me is a Loving God
not a brat like angry God
so to me this part of the child speech more refers to the israeli consciousness of that time
than the Glory of God itself which is Shining Peace for me.

back to the miracles lol
yes the scientific rendering is cool
because it enables you to see that what you may find as coincidence is a miracle
when it happens with the right timing for you

but what is the probability that you encounter miracle in your daily life?
very few
so even less when it is a question of life and death on a mass scale

which means
when miracles occur
then let's have eyes to acknowledge the SOURCE/WHAT after having acknowledge the HOW
the WHAT gives APPRECIATION to the HOW

and appreciation is all that is needed for a blessing to remain
without it,
well you end up like the pharao : with no more blessings (no more family, city, army ...)

-the far sightedness of Moses
when he says his people won't remain united
as they were only because so far they had a common goal
which was to run away from Pharaohs
and once they fly away from him, then?

very wise saying of his
which myself i realised
yogis are united in meditation
but then, small groups can be identified because of our own common goal/centers of interests/level of consciousness
which is like this France Rally

only because the COMMON WISH for PEACE in the country
all people gathered together under the flag of the Republic

despite the diverging level of consciousness
so the clear lesson is that

thanks to these moments of COMMON GOAL
people gather together
and it enables for HUMANITY consciousness
to get A STEP/'pallier' forward

and once it is done
everyone is back to his own center of interest
this is power struggle after


and only a few go on with the realisation of this STEP taken
to take it further up.

this is why Moses is a Messenger
to his people
because he had enough insight
for himself
to live his truth

that he could lead/guide them (not order)
and show them that mastery of SELF INDEED leads to FREEDOM

TILL the time they, or part of those who have eyes to see
start too
themselves
on an individual basis
seeking for their TRUTH WITHIN
their OWN light of GOD

to gain this very mastery.

hence
Kings and Gods

Thumb up for this movie
again
in few words that i may jot down to describe it :

Realistic though Magic

Moses a Self Realised Man vs Pharaohs a self Made man
God vs King

and yes i always thought
when i learned about the God within
then what is the difference between a guy who knows that God light is within
that he is God within
and a guy who calls himself God like Pharaoh
why one is divine and the other the ego

well timely lol
let's call it a miracle
i learned in a saying of krishnamurti

when you SEE yourself as you really are with all your defects
and try NOT to be better
then this VERY observation of them
will TRANSFORM them
and you will BE beautiful

so he said
truthfully THE key word :

just TRY NOT to be someone else
BE YOURSELF

and that is EXACTLY WHAT the moses personality
painted here did

it simply showed that Moses was HIMSELF

ps : when i write i just jot down strong key moments
so for all the not so english wording and mistakes
and lack of clarity please don't mind

Brain and elongation

Good news

well for me,

yesterday night,
as i could not sleep
i just kept doing the cycles
on the different chakras
each time when i woke up

and suddenly
as i was sleeping
i felt a sort of tube
right in the brain
that was just keeping elongating itself

so much that i woke up
and lol even wondered if
i will get an elongated skull

i guess it is the inside muscle of the brain
that moves
when they are being pushed by the kundalini?

Brain muscles massage :)

Ah thank you to God for His Good Grace

i feel sooo good now

a few days ago
i was laying down in bed
and suddenly felt such a strong downpour of wind
ouf of my fontanel area

that i stayed literally scotched
to my bed and
my attention scotched to my fontanel
soooooooooooooo pleasant it was
soooooooooooooo relaxing too .... ah so good it was

i REALLY relaxed
ENTIRELY
(well nearly)
but most than usual

at the very beginning
i could only feel coolness here and there
let's say hands and/or head

now i am happy to say
after a semester
i could feel it flowing on both arms
till inside of hands
and feet too

after a year
i could literally feel
at times
not always
a whole shield
from head to toe

but now
even during the intensive meditation period
i felt "bored"

well i knew not why
but i felt bored
even though i was still feeling this coolness
all over body
and in the best times
as a unified field of oneness from head to toes

but i felt "bored"
no clue why
but yes bored
should i say it again?
BORED! :)))

now i know why!
it is as i read it
it is because ....
i wanted more lol
and because more joy exists
then this stagnation was starting to bother me

so when i felt this strong wind
out of my fontanel area
really
i was all relaxed
and yes
how can i forget writing that
sooo much relaxed
that i was BREATHING THE VERY COOL BREEZE
THAT WAS COMING OUT OF MY FONTANEL
right into my nose
hahaha

sooooo heavenly time it was
this is true relaxed meditation
and joyful state DURING it !

ah soo cool
and right NOW
twice i felt same
while i was working
so cool
that i stopped what ever i was doing
and just stayed with it

ah
and yes it was as strong as the one
when i was laying down
may be a little less
but what was GOOD
and this i NEVER felt so before

LITERALLY SPEAKING
i felt as if my INSIDE BRAIN MUSCLES
WERE BEING MASSAGED

ah God!
hahaha
ah ! i am wanting more

imagine!
we feel so good when we get a massage right?
well i rarely get one
but you get my point

and imagine!
brain is THE PART of body
which is ALWAYS working
EVEN WHEN SLEEPING

and how COME
this muscle NEVER gets a massage?

ah my Good GOD!
i GOT an INSIDE BRAIN MASSAGE
that was VERY pleasurable

that i can say is
my DAY 1 of really PLEASURABLE MEDITATION
MARK THAT DAY
DAY ONE OF BRAIN MASSAGE

yes,
i am trying to practise the attention
in such a way
that first when i feel the energy UNIFORMLY
from head to toes (shield)
then
i try to observe it from afar even more
till result be an empty body

to be honest
i am trying to get the hang of it
so not much on this today
once i really get it

point is
once we feel THAT joy
and THAT unified field
and THEN we put our attention
on events that are so dire like in France nowadays

THEN we can send LOVE
to such criminals
and situation, circumstances
so that it CHANGES for the GOOD

ok
it is SO contrasting
from my anger and hate of yesterday
but it is because i MUST be HONEST
with myself if I WANT TO SEE CHANGE

and we canNOT change something bad into good
UNLESS we PINPOINT IT
and for this you NEED to admit it

anyway
we are human
anger is ok
but the AFTER is most important

so those who laugh at angry yogis
well i laugh at their uptight ass lol
hahaha
and i laugh all the more to angry yogis
ie to myself too
for the times i was angry
and DID NOT follow up ENOUGH
to change anger into LOVE

NOW
LOVE
don't GET WRONG ideas
it is NOT what YOU call love

it is
ah i feel like saying
"celestial love"
"Love born from God grace"

this means
you do not control it
you cannot make it born

remember
like He begets not nor He is begotten?

same here
Love
God IS LOVE
so LOVE comes from HIS GRACE

before
i used to wonder
well how to attract this Grace

and now
yes this COOL WIND
IS THIS OUTER PROOF of
HIS AWAKENED GRACE

for Grace NEEDS to be MANIFESTED
to SHOW us that IT exists, right?

ONCE we feel it
it is ONLY the SIGN that
LOVE within you HAS AWAKENED

BUT
it does not means that
you can FEEL LOVE
for still your hearts needs to open more

BUT it is there
so VIBES are ONLY PROOF of this INNER LOVE
which is PRESENT IN YOU
and ONCE your shield is UNIFIED
then SOMEHOW
WHERE you PUT your attention
THEN
this LOVE follows

and as God Grace
is NOTHING except LOVE and COMPASSION
this very Energy of LOVE
will TRANSFORM the object of your attention
into more love filled being/behavior etc.

because i learned
that hate is NOT a power
it is  the choice of your personality
in terms of behavior

but on the power level
only LOVE is (the power-the transformative power)

and a criminal
you cannot change it with hate
nor you (as personality) can "love" his acts or him lol
that would be insane from you and me

but you as BEING OF EMPTINESS CAN LOVE him

yes!
while writing i got it
LOVE , divine LOVE comes from our Being of Emptiness
which is us, on the upper plane (divine plane)

but we as individual being/manifested being/personality
are not a being of emptiness but a body with thoughts etc.
and from this plane we can NEVER
and besides should NEVER love such people
well unless you be insane

so
if i sum up
Divine Love is Power
and this Power can ONLY stems from us
WHEN we are a Being of Emptiness

and we can be it
ONLY when our field is UNIFIED
from head to toes
THEN our whole body is EMPTY

hm,
anyway for the moment
i say :)

Praise be to God
for my SO GOOD BRAIN MUSCLES MASSAGE
HEAVENLY! :)