Kundalini Fire at Agnya & Computer Download

Amazing happening 

Yesterday night

all of sudden I got awake

and as soon as I opened my eyes

I got an intense extremely quick flash of light

it was all red in my vision in the background.

And then there were a non stop succession 

of rapidly scrolling images on top of that 

I would say may be thousands of them!

I couldn't even see the images, so fast the speed was!

It was like thousands of computer files being downloaded!!

Impossible to have time to view one single image

so incredibly fast that download was..

This lasted at least 15 to 20sec (?) or less or more

no idea but that was my first time having such experience.

After this I could also feel electricity going down towards the heart 

due to me going back to sleep there were couple of occurrences 

where I could feel this electric activity 

I even saw myself sending messages lol on WhatsApp 

and then once I woke up I did not see any message sent 

and got panicked what if I had sent them to the wrong person 

describing the happening!

Anyway at this point, dream and reality were one I believe.

Luckily, nothing sent in the middle of the night hahaha

but the senses were for sure extremely heightened after that during the sleep.

The spirit explained that the red background I saw was the Kundalini Fire

and that is very rare to see that 

as very few people have seen it

also the images were all of my past and future

and I could see them, as the Kundalini passed through the Agnya.

Now that I think of it,

it is true that Shri Mataji explained 

that thoughts are like waves 

and when kundalini passes through Agnya 

it straightened the waves!

Also it makes even more sense

when you are your thoughts

you are into them

meaning you are identified with them.

How ?

it is like when you are riding a car

you cannot see the car from the outside.

This is the most close example, I can come up with the thoughts identification.

If you are identified with your thoughts,

you are in them

you can't see them

meaning you can't observe them from the outside

only then you see that for what they are

and are not limited or confined by them 

so here in my nightly explosive computer download 

I'll call it so

thoughts, of the past and the future where seen, from the exterior.

And this time, 100% seen from the exterior, as in pure awareness.

First point being; the pure Awareness of my own thoughts - which I experienced.

The second point, I'd like to highlight is the Power.

That is a mix of electric feel - no element of pain involved - with the sensation that it is so vast and alive.

Incredibly enough, in it located in a human being!

what a hidden wonder!

Lol a bitliek Dr Who phone box, where the inside is bigger than the outside.

No wonder that a human being in full power 

would be more powerful than any nuclear technology.

The third point I'd like to mention

is it is independent from you, the you as your usual day to day self.

so it is indeed a power that is in you and yet not dependant of you, the personality

while being the true you at the same time.

So the only part is the mastery of awareness that is missing.

Once you are freed from the bondage of your thoughts,

then with that Risen Power

where you direct you awareness, 

you can direct and move mountain of power I feel.

I think this is the meaning of reference by Jesus 

when he said you can move mountains if you have faith.

and faith should be understood as a Being in you

to have Faith

is to have the Kundalini Awakened

Once you have it Arisen 

like in Quran in chapter Muzzamil

it says O you enshrouded; Arise in the Night

The meaning in that verse is the command to the Kundalini to be cultivated 

at night 

the vigil at night 

will help it arise

you can't force a seed to arise 

you need to make it grow by watering it 

same here.

Also, the redness of the vision

reminded me of Surah Ar Rahman 

1. When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
2. Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

This verse came up in my mind.

One should understand that scriptures are meant as a coded text for all levels

from the average man understanding to metaphors which height matches the height/source of revelation.

So it would be unnecessarily fussy to explain the meaning to masses

and nor would it serve any purposes as even then it has to be experienced.

So no point in talks.

Scriptures are also more like rain that water your breakthrough

and also a roadmap to check where you are going through.

Lady Fatima (pbuh)

In the little fire lit house I could see Fatima (pbuh)

it was said "She is not the Queen of Heaven for nothing".

Though her destiny was to marry Ali (pbuh),

Had she not guarded her virginity by being cautious of the man/suitor who presented himself 

in front of her door

the marriage with Ali would not have materialised.

She kept the door shut to him.

From there the lesson that applies is that spiritual people 

should guard their spirituality

when at their door any worldly suitor shows up.

Spiritual people marry the heavenly chosen one,

and guarding one's innocence is one's own responsibility 

till the promised auspicious match happen.

Going for a person who does not cultivate what I would. call an earthly marriage, 

however nice the person is, would be signing one's own spiritual death.

Kiss

The Crown and the Furnace

 Right after meditation yesterday 

I was going to sleep and in vision 

I saw a diadem 

surely on head of shri mataji 

but weirdly enough,

this time focus was on the crown 

not on She

instead she was a bit like faded 

so focus was brought on the crown

zooming on it

there was a red stone 

and in it I could see 

the reflection of a fire 

a bit like when you look through glass and see the fire burning behind the glass

and just before seeing the fire

I saw the light 

the spot of light was travelling to the forehead 

The crown representing the sahaswrara

now that I think of it

the crown forms does represent flams leaping 

just forged now in some gold metal and fixed.

And the light spot ascending

ported by the kundalini at its end,

is the soul from the belly 

which when meeting the spirit in the heart

got en-lightened

Noor 'ala noir

light upon light

ie

light of the spirit upon the light of the soul.

and the process of this soul being purified

goes through the fire purification 

at the fireplace of the Agnya,

hence the red stone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VR5dlAfgn5I

Right attitude in cultivating righteousness

 Best summary of key basis to self purification - from the intent perspective

Letter: 24/The Trap of the Opposites 
  
 

        beloved bhakti, 
  
    Love. Anger, violence, greed or envy cannot be overcome 
    by the cultivation of their opposites. 
    Because anger itself will cultivate its opposite. 
    And violence will be present in its cultivated non-violence. 
    So always be aware of the hypnotic spell of the opposite. 
    It never solves any problem. 
    Because it is beating around the bush. 
    Do not fall into the trap of the opposite. 
    But understand anger, violence or greed or anything else 
    directly. 
    To seek the opposite is a way of escape. 
    To seek the opposite is cowardice. 
    Live with your mind as it is. 
    Do not try to change it. 
    Be brave to face it and to understand it. 
    When the light of awareness falls on anger, or greed, or 
    envy, there is a change. 
    Awareness acts as a catalytic agent. 
    And then anger does not change into its opposite. 
    It is not that violence becomes non-violence. 
    But there is no-anger. 
    There is no-violence. 
    And when there is no-violence, there is no-mind. 
    And an altogether different dimension opens its door. 
    The dimension of the spontaneous. 
    The dimension of the Divine. 
                                                                       22-5-1971. 
  

source: http://oshokala.bizhosting.com/ol24.htm

Sun Disk and creation

During meditation I saw shri Mataji in a white sari

Then I saw a black thread necklace with a Huge golden disk - like sun 

Spirit said that the black thread represents the blackhole 

and the disk the sun

suns that got created and scattered into the creation, 

representing thus the Big Bang.

At the end of meditation, I again saw shri Mataji face 

in the white clouds.

Fire Kundalini

 Since three days, 

whenever I close my eyes

I just see a huge fire

yellow flames in the center

and red one on the outside

flaming the whole time

myself I am sitting in front of it

at some point 

last time

it dawn on me 

after I felt a big hit in the mental space

that with fire we carve images in the mind

these are hypnotic 

we live in these images 

another world is a dream

the life we live is in an hypnotic mental state 

where we have created these images and this dream 

but we, as attention, got so much sucked in 

that there is a symbiosis between the mind and the image in the fire

once I jerked back out of it

then I had a good headache

imaging being plugged for years

once you are unplug 

how do you think your mind will feel?

that was like this.

This is why the more you look for something

you will never see this thing

because you are it

once unplugged

then you can see the fire

and that thing will be in the realm of the fire

from there you can see it

Underworld and the Higher Self

 At the beginning of my meditation 

 I saw myself sitting in meditation with the root chakra in touch with the earth 

I could see the earth from a vertically sliced perspective

there below a drop of water was engulfing a hell like realm in it

and linked back to the root chakra

Before flushing it

with attention I made sure that it remains contained in the plasma drop 

like the foetus is in a plasma

then I enlarge the plasma to get a bigger bubble around it

so that when I flush it, it does not disperse but remain contained.

At the end of my meditation 

I saw the Space 

the stars 

and the outlined body of a meditating Buddha 

sitting in the above

in the constellation 

as his body was all made from space and stars 

and the outline was made in a shiny silver like colour

lent from the star light surely

I feel like calling it my Higher Self.

Progress in meditation

Finishing my morning meditation:

I got a the vision of a fire that was lit and grew so high, meters high.

Then, scene shifted to tibetan monks meditating in a cave, but their back were screwed with fake metallic squeleton on top of their spines, like in the movie Equilibrium.

Spirit said, this is symbolic of their rigidity, as they use their right side to cultivate, the mind.

Then scene shifted to a huge Cobra standing in its tail, and coming out of a cool breezy fog.

Again, was told is a very good sign about the growth of my kundalini.

After, I saw some symbolism about the laziness of mine, just saw white bed which split opened in two like a door.

I guess this is the next purification of the entity in me.

Haven't seen it yet. 

Was told like for laziness, to purify laziness you need to go slowly.

True, I'd say like a seedling that makes it way through the rocks to the sunshine.

Be persistent and constant. Little by little and lose not the vision of the goal.

Oh at the end, I was told 

Why I do not read the bible, as I (Spirit) did read the whole Quran.

So now am on read gospel of Thomas.

At the end, it was said:

"Water still by 28. I need to go now. End meditation".

Lol I didn't get it first what it meant.

Then, when I opened eyes, saw the clock, it was past 27.

Then, I realised, end of meditation now as attention/connection with spirit comes to a  standstill for now.

The Firmament and the churning

I saw there were curtains folded up on side of the window.

And this is the agnya.

The both channels are covering up the agnya this way.

Some people play with agnya to see in astral. But know it is only the window.

Go for the door/exit instead, in the sahasrara.

This exit on top of Sahasrara is directly linked to an Axis in the upper Spheres, I call it the Firmament. As it is beautiful.

The constellations in there rotate like a disk and turn your axis in the Sahara and this in turn, spirit said, opens more nadis.

It reminds me of the churning of the sea in indian scriptures.

Also, this is awesome when I saw that!

All my upper body is cool now lol 

While writing this.

 Sahara ra is cool and i feel silence in head and it is flowing till elbows.

Time to meditate for lunch break i guess!

Kiss 

The fighting gods and the Matrice

 The dream.was real, I felt it as if I was living it, like in a day. 

I could touch, smell, feel the actions of the gods, of the fighting gods.

For I saw what happened eons before, in space, there were like 3 gods which were fighting.

But their fight was particular, I would call them Titans, Huge, Powerful gods.

They were throwing at each other their own sun.

Formidable blasts were occuring!

After the dream, I asked the Spirit, it said that this was the war in heaven, the big bang.

Power. 

They were tied and one to their environment.

The sun was not an outer sun only, it was a star tied to their VERY OWN being, and they were so deftly MASTERING AND STIRRING IT and throwing it. It was a POWERFUL MASTERY.

But oh so destroying, not to say stupid, as it seems story repeat itself.

 Today, during my yoga session, all of sudden I felt SO POWERFUL, i mean i felt a rush of power that explained me, rather gave me the above insight about being one with your environment and mastering it at your will.

Humans now are unaware 

Yogi know have little awareness but still,

I was given this insight during the yoga,

THE POWER is not power, as you think of this word, lol it is so corrupted word as people take it subjectively.

No. 

Power is the PURE BILLION WATTS OF ELECTRICITY going through you and THEREBY HEIGHTENING YOUR SENSES!

THIS IS HOW WHAT YOU KNOW OR FEEL AS PER YOUR HUMAN ABILITY is let's call it water colored vision of the world, it reflects your already fainting power of perception.

But,

Once the Juice go through, this is an ATOMIC BIRTH OF A STAR! WHICH EXPLODES YOUR CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM IN A GOOD WAY!

YOU CAN FULL FORCE SEE, SMELL, HEAR.

IT IS YOUR SENSES, BROUGHT BACK TO YOU!

BUT THIS TIME, it is vivid colors, and it is moving flow of images and life itself.

IT IS 

IN BRIEF,

THE LIFE YOU NEVER EVER LIVED!

And YET WHICH IS YOUR BIRTHRIGHT!

BE GOD. 

YOU ARE IN GOD, and you don't know it.

And GOD is in you and now you know, but just needs to FEEL IT FULL FORCE. That will be the real vivid color painting with all of your senses mastered and engaged.

After this dream, I got another vision where i was feeling how the snake like energy was entering in me from the root chakra and there is no stopping. 

You can't stop it. I got afraid and tried to stop it like pull it away, but it was like a magnet being aspired upwards.

Later spirit told me this was the inception.

Need to inquire more about it.

Apparently, this is how the kundalini got merged with mankind. 

Remember that you are god within

 Waking up today for meditation at 3.30 I saw in vision,

How in space a god was taken by a symbolic huge hand/fist and thrown like a slingshot on Earth 

And there, that god was covered in a white like shawl and was wandering the earth.

That's when the voice said and now you wander there, like a beggar.

The spirit said this means that we are gods

and have been sent on earth to reincarnate there.

And wandering like a beggar means being unaware, lacking this pure awareness.

This makes sense,

especially that if you know not your power,

then you are a slave and are thus in a position of a beggar.

Real Food/Sustenance is from God.

And you can get it only once you get the breakthrough for your awareness. 

And thus remember who you are.

Purification 1 & 2

 

Once the meditation is set into routine

the natural fruit 

should be to follow what catches your attention in yourself.

And then, where your attention goes, energy goes to purify.

Only if your intent is so, of course.

The good thing, is the self purification

hardly no one really talks of it

because there is shame

why shame if you are not that which you observe?

If you are the Spirit within

then who. cares of your past

and who cares of your defects?

But you should care of one thing though,

am I willing to pry into myself and get it purified?

Only this desire will move your Shakti to purifies you

as you are giving her the green light, saying

I am ready, go ahead show me my dark secrets I swapped under the carpet

as I couldn't face myself.

Blaming someone else for some misfortune, doing it once; why not.

Because we are human after all. 

Besides, self controlling anger as a habit, will only hurt you down the road.

As you are refusing to face your inner frustration.

But this is only on spot reaction; that is say justified.

At the same time the opposite is also true.

Under the pretext of letting anger out, 

you make it a habit.

Then, you turn into evil.

What is the common point of both?

Habit.

Both are extrems once they become a habit.

So one should learn to cut ourself some slacks,

while ALSO learning to self purify, self correct oneself.

As there is no habit, but only Present enjoyment.

And present is never the same.

Personally, I applied this method and to this day; in less than say two months, 

I saw I got two entities/possessions/negativities out of me.

LOL

some people are dramatic thinking of possessions,

as if they don't have any.

If you have none, then trust me you won't be reincarnated there..

Even prophets got their heart blackness kicked out of their nadis - cf prophet Muhammad childhood story.

Passing by much can be said about this, but not the point here.

Point is,

If your attention is away, 

then, I ask you,

who is IN?

Your Attention is all you have.

Spirit is in your heart, 

yet your attention is outside,

so who is ruling your body, emotions, 

when you are away from your temple/home?

These energies, are the possessions in you

you are possessed

all to some degrees.

Only once you are 100% the Pure Spirit Within,

then trust me, 

only then you are FREE (from these entities, possessions).

Now, space to my victory,

in October, I went through real challenge during my trip,

which is due for another post,

and this challenge brought all of my anger inside out.

Trust me. 

That was good stuff.

All accumulated anger, can I say from this life time at least,

if not from past life included, god knows...

But the good part to it,

this straightened up a situation where politics was involved,

happy to say, that the anger combined with the Shakti, 

straightened up the situation.

But that was on spot.

Nothing to dwell on.

I forgot about this happening.

But the second good thing was,

I kept my meditation practice,

and the intensive stuff.

I.e. I kept observing.

Once back from my trip,

at the end of some meditation,

I got a vision of a fabulously ugly entity

with tooth as sharp as a shark.

And then, after it popped into my vision it left.

So that was the anger in me.

Now, can we praise Ange and say it is divine ? no.

Can we hide the anger and self force to some artificial behaviour? no for me

But if yes, then you stay with it; Because that which you hide; and refuse to face, you will keep giving it shelter into the darkness.

Can we be complacent with our own anger and go to the extent of self admiration and self praise? no.

So neither can one self beat, nor self praise; ie no judgement.

Just let it be, let you feel it honestly in the moment and just by intent of self purification, through observation (as the light in your vision is that of the spirit),

this entity is seen

brought to light

then you see it,

and it has to leave your body, your nervous system.

Because

I AM BACK in my own temple.

This is how you glory God within.

You kick out all that other entities from the house of God that is you.

The sooner; the better. Trust me.

Second entity; 

next month, in November 2021.

Days before, I was just feeling love while looking at a pencil.

And challenged myself, let's see if I am healed, ie can get it as a permanent state.

Of course next day; I got, I don't even remember why lol, all sad and depressed.

Out of Nowhere. 

Just remember to increase my meditation when I felt so.

So this means it got caught on spot by the inner vision of light.

What I saw next?

Another entity, sitting on a bed in a dark room, 

face triangular, dishevelled so sad, depressive and gloomy.

And gone.

Now both times, the timing count, you catch it on spot

with no judgement against yourself, as you are the Pure Spirit Inside.

But you shed light there was none before.

And you can never do it at will, unless like the firmament that keeps shifting in a circle,

when comes the time and you feel the pressure of the negativities,

just know it is in you, it is the right time.

And just observe,

and let it go.

Now, as I got it; I asked the spirit, how many left?

12. was the answer.

Must say, I wasn't expecting so much. 

Depending with comparison to others, so little.

All is a question of perspective really.

The auspicious dreams though like the one of this morning,

are good as they tell you, you are ok, you are on track.

That dream, I got it; once last night I remembered, as I keep forgetting like a good human

that I am not my thoughts 

so the image, analogy is,

Be like a Teflon material,

let thoughts slide on yourself.

You are not them.

Then, I can remember, not fall into the trap of identifying myself with new thoughts.

Finally, I'll be able to sense what is the next emotion that keep sticking to that teflon.

There I'll catch it and shed light on it.

See when it is next.

so far rhythm was one per month.

Light Body Ascension

 Waking up this morning for the 3am meditation,

I saw in a vision; a chair lit with a spot of light, all around darkness

On the. chair; there was a woman sitting, covered with a beautiful long brocade shawl falling to the floor.

May be golden brocade with blue fabric. Very honourable design.

She had no body nor face to be identified.

It was plain shining particles forming a body of light under the shawl;

And the shawl was sagging little by light, 

as the light body was streaming upwards like a 

a river of light sucked up.

I was told after this is the ascension of the Shakti.

Glory and Patience

 In dream, I saw a baby soul (someone I gave self realisation to) that I was taking care of

she said "all glory to me"

I told her no; and showed her my two fingers (index and middle fingers - representing vishuddi and nabhi)

and told her,

"it works in pair

All glory is to God

and yours is patience."

And then, put her to rest.

Desire, love and growth

My desire is to study.

My love is to share the knowledge.

My growth lies in the Silence that feeds me,

With the 3D images of another Reality.

Bless be the River that flows in me.

Think not, but Know

That which is the floor to you 

is the ceiling to another.

That which is a 3D image to you,

once written,

is a poem to another.

That which is an atom to you, (atom)

is an agglomeration of molecule to another. (eg cloud, collection of atoms)

Likewise,

if you point at an idea,

it is an image to another.

If you point at God within you,

it is an image to be worship to another.

Living on different levels,

does not make communication easy.

This is why only, personally experienced Truth, is Truth.

Because mind looks for words,

hence gets the images.

Instead get the silence in the mind,

look at the images,

and get the coded message.

Do not think,

but know.

This is the right way.

Attention is all you have

If your Attention is all you have.

If your Attention is outside, here and there.

Then, who is ruling your Temple, 

when you are away?

Prayer: All that is impure in me

All that is impure in me, Mother I give it back to you, for You to purify.

All that is pure, I give it back to the Whole for me to keep growing.

Growth happens when you give back, the best of you, ie that which is pure, so that your cup be emptied for the next refill.

Hate, Love or both?

Striking the balance between what is in your hand (creation) and what you shall not judge (destruction), otherwise you will be judged in return.

If you are in conflict with someone and take revenge. 

As a wise friend said to me, 

No one attacks another, unless they love doing it in the very moment. 

Because truly, you will never do what you like not, you will find a sadistic emotional satisfaction while hurting back, taking revenge. So why not continue on that line? 

Because hate can never be sustained. 

True. 

To fight, and sustain the hate, you need much energy, and it is how you feel wasted. 

Love, instead is your friend. 

It is the one that Self Sustains Itself. 

One of Allah attribute, muslims know them, but do not yet see it is pragmatic teaching for a daily life. And not just a rot learning with a nice faith to be framed on wall for display and proof of your tenets. 

God is pragmatic, is real, is Life. 

So why your teachings are still dead in your life? 

Do not try to hold people accountable for what they did against you, as it is said God judge their action, will not ask you about theirs but about yours. 

Which means also, this is where you can strike the balance. 

Creation is based on Balance. Cf surah Ar Rahman 55. 

If you meddle with others affairs/revenge, you will not create, but destroy. 

And you can never sustain destruction. 

The well will dry out anyway. 

Plus, the kundalini has the safety clip, not to be able to ascend if you block her way by new obstacles/burdens. 

As your energetic centers reduce when depleted or blocked by extreme actions that need to be purified, if it is your will. 

This is you being judged in return. 

Also, in Spirit, if you let it go, by not trying to take the other accountable and taking revenge, 

you will gain mercy instead of justice/judgement. 

And what the mercy is? 

It is to grow, as gardens do. 

Growth brings with it new opportunities to be experienced. 

Garden under which rivers flow. Surah Ar Rahman. 

How would you have Gardens unless you are watered by the kundalini? 

And we can not dodge the Judgement part. 

Secret is... 

My inner Mother is the same Mother in you. 

My Spirit is the same Spirit in you. 

You can thus bet that this won't be forgotten. 

But your role is not to focus and wait on the revenge. 

The sadistic part is where you secretly wish for the fall of the other on one hand, while you advocate on the other hand Love..? 

How is that sincere? How can you preach love and yet, when someone wants to improve, you want his or her downfall out of revenge, envy, jealousy or just because you can? 

Women are best for that. 

They are, in truth, each other enemies. 

Friendship lasts the time it lasts, the common temporary enjoyment of the hour they are together. 

But once the warmly chit chat is over, the dark face of the moon appears in its full glory: in its full darkness to be exact.

Again, it is good, as long as you see it and resolve to let it go. 

But when it becomes a habit, because no one sees you. 

Know that you only have the choice of one attention. 

You intend to experience destruction, degradation of the other, you will. 

And the pleasure will be so long. 

You intend to experience an ever lasting bliss? 

Then, keep to your course, as it is a reward, once your spirit is watered enough to be awakened. 

But if you waste your water, even 40 years wandering in desert will not be the end, but your ever lasting loss. 

The tragedy is you will not even remember what you were looking for in the first place,

when you in-carnated on earth. 

As the rainbow below in the video, we are made of water to shine. 

People wonder about this being the creation of God, 

I say you are also made of water and you are also the creation of God. 

We do not see our own , literally speaking, rainbow, because we made a series of choices to experience more the clinging onto the judgement than on the mercy.

Choice between good and evil. 

Attention is one, ie you can only experience one thing in the moment, the revenge or the grace. 

Never both at the same time. But because of our free will, we think we are free to get the revenge and yet also expect such rainbow-like reward from God 😅  It is one or the other.

 

There is no pencil ✏️

 Just got reminded about the pencil, feeling love about the pencil.

There is no pencil. 

Like in Matrix, there is no spoon.

Because, there is no more God in me than in a pencil.

The only difference is that I have a consciousness.

Didn't it say in Quran, something of this effect,

We gave the Trust to the Heaven and Mountains but they refused it, yet Human accepted it.

This is it.

If there is no pencil

Then, what is the pencil?

It is you looking at yourself.

So by extension, everything you experience good or bad, is you throwing yourself at yourself to catch your attention for receiving the love.

Attention grabbing is for that purpose, the items or beings, entities that cannot self produce this Attention/Energy/Love, therefore they need ---It--- to be able to live, grow.

It is also where you see that It had God in It.

Simply put, they need life to be a-live.

It is how when you do not give attention to some items and leave them in a corner, they are broken, rusted etc.

While if you had just used them, they wouldn't have been so.

Why?

Because you gave no attention to them, to the dead. Lack of attention means the particles which are being seen aren't gonna change their course as you know that famous scientiific experience.

So unless you watch it, give attention, it will not move.

When it moves not either it ascends or descends. Never remains still. So it'll degrade in that case and die.

So the dead became even more dead and Couldn't be brought back to life.

Attention itself is Creation.

Only in its purified form.

Eclipse of the Heart

I forgive you.

Because you were the moon that eclipsed my sun.

The emotion that clouded my Attention.

It is said, during the eclipse the moon and sun are being judged.

True.

Moon re-present (bring back again in a cycle) the unsettled emotions that darken the sun.

The sun represents the action that couldn't alone shine through these clouds of emotions.

Choice is either of Mercy or of Justice.

Justice, destroys both entities course, harsh restart. So if you render justice, don't break thr Balance.

Once Justice is given,

God knows on which footing you will restart, depending on your provision at hand after this war.

Yet, Mercy is the best judgement. It is that which arises after you forgive. The Motherly Care that bypass all kinds of judgements and justice.

Yes God is merciful, only if you are so with your Self :)

The eclipse lasted 10 years,

Now, let it shine!

Inner kid growth

 

Kids are here to give us the pleasure to our eyes.

What if, instead of being tied to an "exterior" kid, you get the advantage of a kid without its attachment?

What if, they were a reminder, for you to find the same kid, within?

By kid, I mean Innocence, new fresh skills, faculties, that an average adult doesn't even have?

Because new born now have skills that are out of the ordinary, amazing ones, born with faculties to see auras, born with even more skills that would become the future norm.

So, what if, you truly take it, even now, as a solid reminder, that this supernatural kid is in you too?

Being born again, is not just theory, it is, if you limit your daily belief to "ok now next, let's go back to daily chores".

Being born again, should be accompanied of the desire to see your inner kid, to discover it with all its supernatural abilities.

Super natural, not because they are supranatural, but because the Nature has Super Power to offer to you, once you are reborn and once you believe in more, and remember it in your tinest thoughts and in every single daily chore.

Hardly, did I thought that, that i read next message:

It is only through the exercise of the greatest freedom that the greatest growth is achieved - or even possible. (Neale Donald)

If you can be detached, freed from external kid play/drama, and rear your own, inner kid, with the same melting, love, care and awe,

Then in your greatest Freedom, detached from all dependencies and ties, your inner kid will become your Greatest Achievement.

Superiority

Who doesn't want to be seen?

Who doesn't want to be/feel superior?

At some point, everyone got this momentary aim, feel, desire and has been acting on it.

But it is bad.

It is a sin to want that, it is not humble etc.

That led to self Judgement for self correction at the service of self improvement.

Nothing is wrong in that attitude of wanting to be superior, nor nothing is wrong in that self correction.

Yet the mistake is to make it a habit.

Again Life is not frozen. As long as you grow and evolve, as a tree. Your color, perspective, means to achieve a goal, change.

A jugement set in stone, leads to your death.

You dig your own grave, unless this too you forgive and let go. 

Because there is no good but God.

Good is not higher than Life itself.

The feel of desiring superiority is a desire that should be entrusted to the Pure desire so that light be shone upon it.

You make room for Life Itself to act, or re-arrange, re-Order its course, re-atomise it.

This is the great magic, the Al-Chemie.

This is the melting, or the Love you feel.

Is not the love you know, yours is a try, unless you felt the melting. As it is a transition in you. Where your idol in you is being melted back to where it belongs, ie to a flowing river.

The desire of being superior, is taken as the image of the self, as a physical event on a timeline.

Which goes to the ego, which is an action of the dead. You fill up your graveyard with lost time, where you never lived.

Do not carve, en-grave image of God. It shall become your grave, indeed.

Currently, social media, inflencers must be feeling, as a public figure, the limitations, not to destroy themselves to some degree as an idol, isn't it?

Set in stone, your own jail, your own grave.

The Absolute Superiority, you are entitled to, is you being the still lake, where your Higher Self reflects in It.

High Self, Pure Superiority is your birth right, always there.

Just waiting to be seen.

For this, the small you, needs to be calm and silent, and let the Sunshine reflects in it.

The calmer, the deeper the rays reach.

At some point, they hit the settled dust in its depth and can no longer shine there.

The Moon then, stir your hidden emotions, tides upon tides.

Depends, if you remember to let them go.

If you do, congratulations!

As above, so below. Your lake becomes a mirror, where a beautiful painting from the Firmament shines eternally.

All that life I engraved in me, let it be freed.

So that no time ever has been lost.

And you reverse time, and this is how you place yourself above time. As the Self has always been above Time.

Yet it is also the Time though, when instead of experiencing and letting it go, as the rule of the game, you ended up like Ovid be-lie-ving is you.

All is a lie from this perspective, yet it is also the misplaced Truth. 

You just forget it in the experience of your Free Will.

You are hence your own crime, 

Your own criminal,

Your own judge,

Your own victim,

Your own jailer,

Your own torturer,

And finally, your own executer, from one in-carnation to the other.

There is in absolute no good higher than God,

Nor lower level of good, ie bad, (good for one, bad for another) higher than God.

The only good is God. This is why god is not greta, he is Great-er, ie of what you ascribe, image, ie in movement, in flow. This is why you can never de-scribe It, if you do, you die by your own hands that carved an idol of It.

The earth, you soil it, by making carved images of your time-line (space and time- life given to you). 

Use the air, cool breeze to purify yourself.

Let the ether gives you the instructions, as all is information. We live in a. World of data.

Let the fire purifies you, and let your idols melt.

Throughout the 4 seasons, manifestation of the sun course. In that respect, muslim calendar follows the moon, superposed on another calendar by the daily prayers that follow the course of the sun. Two time-lines.

It is needed as in previous life you carved image by night and by day. How you want to wash them now? By night and by day, throughout each season but with new challenges as constellations are no more placed in the same way. But they have the diligently kept records of your past light that needs now to be brought up to the Light.

That is the real Judgement, and that is always, Now.

(Yet most of them know not, and non muslim as well know not lol, what a Babel Tower indeed. What a jolly Mess!!! Hahaha).

Let the moon shake your inner dirt, let it resurface, let it go.

The melting you feel is your new spring (water spring, though your new season too).

Let yourself drink from that well, and you will be well.

Ameen.

And that is the only True Freedom, to he only Truth.

Hate has no power but Love does

Nothing is lost, everything is recycled.

This is why you cannot destroy, you cannot hate.

This is why only Love is the true power.

As love transform (create by purify ing).

Let's keep the balance.

Let the good and bad strike the balance.

The cooking, the purification of both will create that zero point.

This is why good is rebalanced with bad.

One is not a physical entity,

But both are dimensions

Di-mansions.

Their respective house should be purified for the inner House to be void and empty.

The Balance at the zero point is the ultimate aim of both 

The good is not good by itself.

The bad does not stand by itself.

Both are the mirror to each other as long as they are separate.

The good by itself becomes dark/the ego.

The bad by itself needs to keep sucking the light to grow.

None stand eternally on their own.

Yet, if they are purified, and brought together by the way of al-Kemia, they just peel off, as the petals do,

Makign way for the Fruit.

 

Looking in the mirror

 If I knock on the door of my inner being

With the whole attention of mine that is still frozen in a grave 

Then the door opens, litting up the very inner world i brought to its porch!

Behind the door, is Me 

In front of door is me

me is in the way 

Yet Me is the way

The writer and the reader, is not the same.

Prayer for Guidance

I submit the faults I see to 

the Ocean of Innocence within me.

I submit the desires that arise in me, to 

The River of Pure Desire within me.

I submit any want of attention and love arising in me and reaching for me, to,

The Unconditional Ocean of Love within me.

I submit my thus freed Attention to Thee,

The Keen Observer, the Ever Present Silent Motherly Companion, so perfectly measured in its Giving and Holding back, 

perfect in its creation process, who knows how to water a seed, neither too much so that it does not rot, nor too little so that it does not become dust,

Who taught me, patiently, silently.

Who never rushed me, nor pressed me. Was just silent and just patiently waiting for me just to recognise It, Her.

So Remember me, when i fail to remember You 

Ameen.

For I haven't been created in vain.

So I felt and thanked Mother Earth in early 2000.

So now, I remember again the same feel, today, in 2021.

Inbetween, the flower died and evolved into a fruit.

Let it mature, and let it go too.

Purification process - completion

 

A flower has to die, for the fruit to become.

Loss of everthing, is not an end. Not a dead end.

It is the new beginning. Phoenix rising from the ashes.

Let people rejoice when hurt affect you. And forgive them. Becquse they don't know.

They don't know any better, they don't know the Spirit, so close to them, within.

Or if they know, they forget to accept they have these hidden thoughts.

Hidden by the choice, as everything is led ooen, as soon as you feel it.

Covering up, to create an image of perfection.

Only God is perfect.

Your end is not a dead end, it is a living process.

Fruit after flower dies.

Foetus after the cell dies.

God after the human dies.

Die before you die, all masters said.

Living death is not a dead end.

Fruit is created from Life (flowers)

Chair is man made, creating dead object from dead wood.

Firstly, recognition, then submission to the living process. Is the beginning to become a fruit.

After death, know there is life. This is truth. This is true Faith. 

Secondly, know God is perfect.

I.e. not as an image to be worshipped. All scriptures warned not to create idols.

But perfect as in a living intelligent process, which knows its continuous, spontaneous course. Flowing like a river in you.

Thirdly, your perfection lies in not covering the truth. Your perfection lies in the remembrance of this perfect living process that you have to ride, like a boat on a river or a train on its track.

Unknown, mysterious yet self sufficient.Perfectly wired to growth.

Fourthly, what is to not cover and to remember?

Not to cover what clouds you see, feel in you, not cover the limitations you see and feel.

Such as anger, jealousy, envy, seeking constant attention, approvals, praise, love even.

Feel each emotions as they surface on the lake, when the dirt is stirred in you.

Life, its manifestation, ie people are your teacher. The perfect living process, remember?

Once you feel them, do not deny them. Do not turn a blind eye to it, as if you hadn't seen them in you. Do not reject them. 

Instead Bury your dead, with honor and love.

See them, and forgive them, let them go, entrust them into the Ocean of Innocence.

For heart to open up, the four rivers have to irrigate It.

Ocean of Innocence.

Ocean of Love, detachment, love for every feeling/unconditional as explained above no covering.

Pure Desire, let your desires arising be iffered to thr ocean of innocence within to be purified

Once you bury your dead. Silence.

The fourth river will arise, and open the other four in your brain.

Lastly, Remember. 

For each clouds passing by on the acreen of your mind, unload it, forgive, let it go when it arises in meditation or in your life on spot. Life is also meditation, once you have grown from sitting to standing and walking meditation.

This purification 

You can feel the nerves knot unknotting themselves in your heart, in your back of head.

Hence traits of your face change.

Auspiciousness is seen on your face. Flawlessness.

Because the living process is perfect.

So, you have sacrificed and entrusted to your inner Ocean of Innocence, Love and all That is.

I am what I am.

Ameen.

As God is the beginning and the end.

All e

Problems and Solution

 Problems come from within.

Solution, R-evolution has to come from within.

By upgrading consciousness.

Fortify your Attention

Laser like focus of Attention.

Needs training, everyday.

To anchor it, to let it grow.

Unload your Attention from this and that, and whenever you see clouds hovering on it, let it soak it into the Ocean of Innocence, within.

Condemn not, instead be KIND to yourself.

All and Everything is within.

Life, in me

I am just an electromagnetic field.

Like a lake of plasma, where the gods are being projected

Whatever they project, ugly or beautiful, it is not me

It is not me, it is not me, it is not me.

I am just a mirror of creation.

Who am i

Me, the mere mirror

Has been given the blessing of life

To Self Reflect

So judge me not, for what you see, is not me.

Life has poured Its Self into me, created me.

Though a creation from there, myself I became, here,  a Creator...as the elixir of Life has touched me.

Neither this, nor that

I am what I am

From creation to Creator

Still, Life, is the Best Creator of creators.

Noble Nature

 "There are some natures too noble to curb and too lofty to bend" - Little women 

Gracefully said.

The lenient way of acceptance. 

This is  a very loving way of giving space to that which the society tries to put in a box.

And if you don't conform, then you are condemned.

Truth is, this sentence found its echo and has stricken a chord in many.

Why so?

Because that part of our true nature found at last some recognition.

The beauty of Nature lies in its silent, ever-giving creative force.

Usually, we love to make noise to attract attention.

The louder, the better. Even more in our current society. 

Making a name in the society, having a title, making a show of oneself, being anti conformist etc. To leave a mark, to make a distinction from such and such.

Everything, whatever the form is, aims at one thing truly... To be seen. It begs for attention. It begs, in truth, for love.

Why Christmas time is so happy?

You go to a store and you feel like buying everything you see 😉

Why is it so?

Same store, once closed, drama is over. You'd run away from it at night time when it is empty.

Because the human warmth is gone.

Humans emit something joyful, even if themselves they don't know it.

So, it is not really the object you want to buy, but the experience of feeling the warmth of humanity, reflected on these items that gives you the joy and pushes you to grab hold of it.

Attention is the food that each soul, in truth, thirsts for.

Yet, with attention being such a valuable curren-cy, where does it flow?

Who's land do you irrigate with your attention?

You irrigate a land that is not yours, which fruits will never be yours. To eat.

You'll end up thirsty and hungry.

Lit the light inside first, grow in depth, then let it spread around.

Do not borrow someone else's light by mimicking it, because you think it is what the standard is.

Nor give your light to someone else, while you need it most.

Instead, forgive in yourself all the limitations and pain you feel,

So that your own light be allowed to shine and thus truly be seen.

To me, our true Nature, our true Essence is so noble that it just wait in silence for us to recognise it.

Our attention to it, will allow it to grow strong, straight and high, like a pine tree 🌲🌲🌲

So, it is more correct to say,

Our Nature is too noble to curb and too lofty to bend. 

It is how we came in this life when born.

Then, why do we leave it so ugly looking?

Mother Mary

 There was such a nice vision/ dream.

In which I saw a white space, where couple of people were doing their activities.

And I was seeking something else, that's when the scene shifted and I found myself looking at 3 women closed to God.

One of them, that i only remember, was the first.

And it was mother Mary. She was standing in her mihrab, or praying niche.

And I remember to have seen them all 3, and exclaimed, 'Oh they are so closed to God! I need to slow down the time, to catch them up'.

Energy goes where Attention goes

 There are dreams, where it is water color scenes on the screen of my mind.

There are also real dreams; where my senses, are partly or fully engaged, i tend to call them visions so real they look.

And there are visions; while i am awake and see it happening, day dreaming?

Yesterday it had a vision, in which i saw Shri mataji sitting on a golden chair, i was facing her and the exchange was telepathic.

I saw that she sent a beam of vibrations , you know like when you hit a gong? just using her mind intent and it hit me on top of my head and i felt both balloon resonating to the vibration hitting on them.

I can still recall the feel. It is really like you hit a gong and it vibrate at the impact of the stick.

I felt them shivering to the vibes. 

Then She said "Now let it go".

 

.......

 That was quite real. today i was thinking about it and when you realise that emotions are stuck into our system, as they are unseen, if you are being hit, it is to help you see them in you. to help you see even there location in your body, where they are still stuck.

The hit, helps you locate the stuck emotions, this pressure point is called pain. 

And then you let it go, it is your liberation.

If you keep making a drama out of it, it is your choice, but it serves no purpose than you experimenting what next as part of the running drama, well it is a fun for a time. You like to be the victim, you like revenge, you like the satisfaction of going through a wide range of emotions, experimenting them blaming here and there, such and such and inside enjoying the whole process.

 

But then you end up believing that the drama is real and you can't let go. 

 

Enjoy, experiment and let it go. 

 

Body should be full of running energy, fluid. Stuck up emotions just stagnate there and you don't know they are still there, your system becomes clogged and it starts putrefying, attitude and manners change, you traits become rough and your behavior grosser, you develop eventually disease and you believe it is human fate.

 

It is not, you can be a perfectly higher being. You can be full of living stream, running rivers of pure water in your body, imagine what new fruits these running water can bring to you?

 

Like Bruce Lee said - Be like water my friend.

 

Sometimes just a beautiful word said to your friend, make them shine with beauty, because their spirit inside them was happy to be seen, recognized.

 

Everything beam, respond, resonate to its alikeness. Spirit resonate to Beauty. 

This is why people beam with joy if you say nice words to them.

 

There is no need to make it specially a method, a social convention or a management practice, but just to time it when you feel it, it is what it makes it real.

 

I am resuming blogging after i recall now quite a few years, even though i feel it has just been yesterday i had blogged. 

Truth is i look back and see how a wonderful life i have had, beautiful and unique experiences and people i met. Yes i was very little versed in human being social behavior, sounds funny to say this. But it is true.

I have learned a lot about how a human being functions. For the sake of the experience i chose to dwell on some unexplored emotions that i had never tried before; such as understanding the why of certain behavior, digging into it till its bone marrow and getting to understand why so and so did what they did, why they had these feelings, why they acted the way they did.

 

I realized it is good for me to understand the mechanics of how human being feel and act on their emotions when alone and when in social settings. 

For a while it taught me a lot, but overall the only conclusion i came to each time at the end of the experiment was that only Love solves everything it; only love is the only working option, and love is not an emotion, love is above your thoughts to start with, but love is intelligent, love is not an emotion, but it is a power that moves mountain of complexities around you.

 

Love is independant, it is well rooted in your sacred chakra and it takes it time, the time it takes it takes, to grow through you. Like a seedling , then this seedling becomes a plant, and a young tree, and its bark become as thick as it can get, till you realise you have been nursing a tree inside you, that has spread all over your nervous system, these nerves are its branches.

 The more you let the sap flow into it, the more it cleanses, unclog and bring nutrients to its leaves and when it rises above your brain, when it break through the marasm of your thoughts, as it is said, "higher powers take over" vs the power of your thoughts.

 God is Great, greater than what your thoughts, than the power and scope of action of your thoughts. 

 

You wish and you let it go. Then you wait and see what Gift life will bring back to you. As the whole Universe conspires to nourish a seed with its nutrient, so does Life for your wishes.

 

Life itself is a metaphor, babies are born to remind the parents of their own lost heavly state of innocence. The baby birth to its growth all is a metaphor about your own soul.

Your soul is this unknown treasure within you, asleep, once it wakes up by the Grace of the kundalini, only a tiny portion of it awakened. Even this tiny portion needs to be nutured in your nabhi, start its ascension, growth and breakthrough your sahasrara and connect to the whole.

Its connexion to the whole make all the other be like your extended self, though i do not feel it so, i do see how at times the universes conspire knowingly or unknowingly into helping me, by gathering all the elements i need for things to work out.

Finally, learning to celebrate and feel the joy by doing any simple task, is i learned the reality.

Being anxious for the next step, behind stuck in past pain, none of it has light, as it is just no more nor will be. But that celebration in the present, that joy is the only moment that transform your past pain, submit them to the natural state of joy and like a river it will flow its course, you have to do nothing.

The path flowing is itself a living river that follow its natural course. Future is also created without you doing anything,  except feeling your desire fully in the present.

As my friend danny, reminded me, 

Attention is the only thing you have.

It is true.

Where is your attention, and what you do of it, how you focus it, how you purify it, how you train it, all of this matter.

Where attention goes, energy goes, so imagine, the quality of your attention, the more refined it is, the more wonderful the sparks it'll create as soon as Energy is laid upon it.

The Worth of your Attention

 The Attention

We do not know its value and hus cannot realize its power or even what we may feel as being miracles.

In a vision, i saw a deep well.

Noz if i see a well in real life; this well will be dead to me.

It is as if i would be looking at the well in apparence

but in reality i am looking at the image of the well in my mind.

Vs 

This vision of the well, which was "alive".

Like it has other dimension to it, than a simple print of an image on my mind.

I could feel its depth, I could feel also awe as it was so dark and though silence could be heard 

it was "talking" and the message was (not in word) but as in telepathy or can we say the silence is not emptiness but full of vibration higher than those you can hear and call thoughts.

Silence or object have their own vibration if you are attuned to them, you are connected and communicating, receiving and sending messages.

 

Such was the well message, it is to keep developping deepness in myself through the meditation so the power keep arising.

 

In some tradition, also in Abrahm story, or Prophet Yusuf story the well is also a symbol for this power. 

But it is not the object of this post.

 

The point of this post is, how i remembered that even if i see object in real life, i cannot attune myself and connect myself to them, they are not "alive".

Because my attention is stuck on the past image of it in my mind or jumping to the near future step, say what i ll do next to it.

Hence present is missed, and though the universe is talking to us at all time, we are just dead to it, not attuned, not in the present, not in the same wavelength.

 

In a hadith qudsi it is even said that walls can hear you; and they talk to you.

 

Now i experienced it and i know it is true.

 

Before i knew it but having not experienced it myself couldn't have said that i bear witness to the truth of this statement, now i can.

 

Second point being; being present make your being so much bigger, as you can extend yourself and reach as far as your attention goes and can hear and talk to these seemingly inanimate object, which in truth are also made of pure energy and are alive;

 

Funnily; a well made of brick and mortal, stones, is more alive than me when i am not present.

And i am not present 99.99% of the time.

Wondrous world.

Happy Shri Mataji Birthday - Adi Kundalini purifies so you realise you are the Spirit

 

If you exist, if you are alive, if you have the cool breeze, if you purify yourself with it, morning and evening, then you evolve.

You go through stages; you are your past; and at the same time no more, as you are the present. You cannot thus linger on a (past) self praise, nor have time for ego praise, as you keep evolving and growing thanks to the vibrations.

 

But beware, if you leave your practice, this is when you are like any other; in no time. A mere frozen image in time. That time even discards like dust.

If you are a sahaj yogi; then you should not recognise yourself after a year, two years. Because you have outgrown your old skin, shed it off and naturally moved on; as river flows and never stands still.

 

Praise be to the Adi Kundalini; the Reality, that if you recognise; is reflected in your own water and is all yours.

 

Then, ask for a pure heart. This is the second steps.

 

Then, forgive everyone because they do not know.

Then, Love them because we are all One Spirit.

 

 If they still don't get it and persist in wrong; because they do not know, then Higher Forces will take over.

The Virata, spin like a wheel, and throw out the dirt outside; and let you with the bliss inside.

This is how the sorting out happens.

And you arise like a Lotus from the mud.

Praise be the Highest of the High.

Peace and Bliss.

Ameen.

Now; in Mataji talk, early talk, she was very clear about people growth, about pure desire, pure sincerity of your own ascent.

From a yogi; you master yourself and your own reality and become a Mahayogi.

When I felt the coolbreeze the first time, i googled everywhere to see what is the next step.

What these practitioners became, what powers and amazing personalities they became. 

I found nothing. 

Except this perfect exemple of a sahaj yogi; that earnestly practised and purified himself and as shri mataji mentioned in her talks; " for now you are sitting facing me" in the future i want you to sit where i am sitting, next to me facing the world"

So for now, you take your vibration from Me, once you grow, you set yourself the exemple.

You become your own Master and start fixing the Reality where you live, no doubt.

The Only Yogi I found that matches that description is there:

www.kriptodanny.blogspot.com

Truth -

Belief

Beauty -

Nirvana Shatakam

by Shankara

English version by Ivan M. Granger

I am not mind, not intellect, not ego, not thought.
I am not the ears, the tongue, the nose or the eyes, or what they witness,
I am neither earth nor sky, not air nor light.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

I am not the breath of prana, nor its five currents.
I am not the seven elements, nor the five organs,
Nor am I the voice or hands or anything that acts.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

I have no hatred or preference, neither greed nor desire nor delusion.
Pride, conflict, jealousy -- these have no part of me.
Nothing do I own, nothing do I seek, not even liberation itself.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

I know neither virtue nor vice, neither pleasure nor pain.
I know no sacred chants, no holy places, no scriptures, no rituals.
I know neither the taste nor the taster.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

I fear not death. I doubt neither my being nor my place.
I have no father or mother; I am unborn.
I have no relatives, no friends. I have no guru and no devotees.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

Free from doubt, I am formless.
With knowledge, in knowledge, I am everywhere, beyond perception.
I am always the same. Not free, not trapped -- I am.

I am knowledge and bliss.
I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

Truly, I am Shiva, pure awareness.
Shivo Ham! Shivo Ham!

Source: https://www.poetry-chaikhana.com/Poets/S/Shankara/NirvanaShata/index.html

-- from The Longing in Between: Sacred Poetry from Around the World (A Poetry Chaikhana Anthology), Edited by Ivan M. Granger

Onsen and revelations

My journey started with Frankfurt airport
where there was an exhibition about pendulum.

In brief
one pendulum goes back and forth = its numbers allow you to know how long it will last
aka its life time
Put a third next to it
it affects it
and you cannot know anymore 

the number of swing remaining.

Realisation for me
so is same with human being

After a number of pendulum oscillations call it breath in/out
you die
but as you live with others
the other(s) waves affect your waves and thus oscillations
hence the exact number of remaining oscillations is no more known.

This is the unknown factor.
So earth is where all is connected.
No connection means death.
Meaning limitation and thus accelerated death.


In second part of my trip,
In Teamlab exhibition of Japan; about human being and nature
it was said we are affected by our environment and grow out of it
on spot the exact phrase was much full of clarity.

But the concept was that of a submersive experience of your senses
into your environment aka nature,
and how it affected each other
if i find i copy past it here

But then on spot i realised
Ah! continuation of the airport lesson about Life and Time

Final experience being in the onsen
Realising,
that I should do more often
like one every day.
It strengthens your attention
by cleansing the mind

and about it, it was said:

While sitting in the pool of hot water
i was waving the towel in the water
and realised

Water is one body
Towel another one
And towel is graciously moving in the water

Then all the below was said/realised within the moment :

Water is not the fabric
The fabric is not the towel

likewise as a human
you join a group you take its color
you enter its flow and goes with the flow

Yet you do not counter the flow
by making water becoming fabric
nor you are believing you can turn the fabric into water

But you go with the flow
meaning you submit to the nature of the water
that is to let things flow to their direction
and then as water pressures it upside down
when fabric moves
it does reflect grace.

So if this fabric was a human being
it would submit to water property (pressure upside/down)
but will also move according to its own nature (maleable piece of cloth)

So you humble yourself when you integrate a new group
are tied into its color and then you just let shine your features
which is the fabric swimming to its goal
so this is to shine your light by being yourself (fitrah/nature)


Finally,
this is an experience about resonating factors
water resonates in fabric is why
if the fabric was a human being it would resonate
as it would recognise a quality of the fabric which is already in itself - in the fabric
say fabric already containing some molecules of water.

so that which is outside is re-found inside:

it resonates because it is recognised inside
if recognises inside means it already is in us

so as long as we observe
the life is an object of experiment
and the onlooker affects the one being looked at

experiment the water and fabric
attract each other attention

As attention is Love
and Love changes the observer and the one being observed

is why kid hit each other or tease each other
to attract attention
and get more love
and

is how the proton being observed by scientist
gets its direction change just because it is being observed

but once you enter into judgment you enter the experience too

and you keep racing after the next experience
while having not put an end consciously to the first experience

so you think suffering never ends
is just because you let it pile up
like Russian puppets
you keep reprogramming one experience into the other 

once observed
till the end
the object being looked at will change its course.

Likewise neither proton are a point in time nor linear

if you look at it a line is a succession of points/dots

if you look at a cloud
it is an accumulation of molecules of air and water


Depends from your perspective.

if you look at yourself
what are you?

Buddha and Love

Meditation

To feel goodocus on belly
And meditate

So many isues
Mind scattered

Refocus needed as a vague feel
But forgot why

Saw in vision a Buddha sitting
On a surelevted place
People come and put papers / their request
At his feet

As seeds

In His Silence

Problems
Scattered all over the place

(One spirit=one Place
But spirit divided in people
What remajns is their mind with issues
So is like theit problems are buddha s scatered problems/thoughts)

No need to read papers
You meditate
Or Buddha/Spirit inside you does

And problems are taken care of.

With no effort.

Second revelation

Meaning of only Love lasts.

Extrem is hate.
Means as a vibration is short lived
As no fuel of its own to energize it
For it to last

Same for all other vibrations
Such as ambitions and myriads of
Wishes

All good valid on their own to exist
Is why I can mentiin them

But non exist on their own
Last as ling as the initial push/vibe was
In % its fuel of Love

Only Love 100% as push
Can let any of tr above wish be Eternal
Without you doing anything
Without you trying to solve it

As like a foetus
It grows on its own
And is Eternal
More than a human being life
And last forever

Is how you once gone
Can impact Eternity
Once gone

Once i log out of this
I ll forget this

Because is not me who is writing
But the Spirit/Attention within

Once out
Mind cannot remember
As Attention will be outside.

Only readers will Attention inside
Will benefit

The Desire

I desired you
so you will never forget the desire now

and the fingers of your body
are an interface
is what technology teaches you

you as a body are already
what you try to achieve with the ITech

I Tech
I am, already, the tech

The I-core inside
lol like for Dell
is not yet ON

is on sleep mode
let s say in standby mode

so it fules only the body

but the I Core is suppose to be fully ON
Awake to be able to experience life

not as we do now
but as in Lucy movie

This needs to be AWESOME.

SO
I desired it
and I know is DONE now
and I ll get it.
I will not be forgotten.
As I desired.IT.

Eggshell

shield
is like an egg shell

You are being protected
inside
so that you may grow

No one can hurt the embryo
untill it develops to its full potential

only then the egg cracks open

this is a caring auto-security

like a blooming flower
that no hand can unfold
the petals without spoiling them

Similarly the egg shell
cannot be broken from outside
without harming the inside

delivery takes place
only from inside out

we are organically
intrinsic

wiki meaning of intrinsic :
we belong naturally... essential

we belong to no group
but just belong
naturally
essentially....

our true fitrah is nature

Revelation - Part 4

Revelations were given by Archangel Raphael - Israf'il in islam


And he said a MEssage means to be transmitted.
It is once you transmit that I give you new one.


I also saw that Earth from Universe was being drilled from upside down
meaning

Another Supportive angel was appointed to explain the meaning of it

in 2000 years. Earth done. Humans needs to move on before.



Any part of visions I forgot to write will add it here.

Lucy - I am Every Where

Purity has no religion

Allah loves those who purify themselves

Islam
Iman
Ihsan

Submission
Blind faith
Beauty of Who You are

Belly
Heart
Sahasrara -  Crown

Islam, you submit to new life hygien to prepare your self for next level
from base energy to a more purified and refined one

in Heart - Spirit

From Spirit that Energy overflows out of body
You are not Spirit in Body

You empty your body,

You are One and Only
Everywhere

O Allah, place light in my heart, and on my tongue light, and in my ears light and in my sight light, and above me light, and below me light, and to my right light, and to my left light, and before me light and behind me light. Place in my soul light. Magnify for me light, and amplify for me light. Make for me light, and make me light. O Allaah, grant me light, and place light in my nerves, and in my body light and in my blood light and in my hair light and in my skin light.[1]

[O Allaah, make for me a light in my grave… and a light in my bones.] [2]
[Increase me in light, increase me in light, increase me in light.] [3]
[Grant me light upon light] [4]



NEver ever you thought what it means to place light in the NERVES

Empty yourself - Darkness

To Let your Spirit Light shines

I am Everywhere!

Is why in dream long ago i saw there was a box with silk wrap

silk wrap with names of God written on it
and rolling in wind
and i was trying to run after to catch it

but when i looked into the box
it was all dark

I put my hand in it to hold it
and it was like Void

Means

Islam - Submission - Names of God
Iman - You believe something higher exist
Ihsan - You know you ARE that

To be
Unlearn is a must - so empty yourself
Then your Light Shines