Welcoming of the Spirit

today i dreamt
that i was dancing in a circle
while holding hands with other girls
we were dressed indian style
i was wearing a yellow-orange fabric
and saw myself with bindi on forehead

there was a nice music behind
very eeric
the girls were singing in circle
the mantra ham
while they started turning clockwise



so i broke from their circle
and started to chant it
while ascending the staircase
and there
the spirit was embodied
in the form of Imam Ali
as was told
i could not see his face
was full of white light
and he had a white piece clothe
as garment
topping a green one

so i chanted while ascending
the little staircase remaining
3 or 4 steps
and i joined him on the stage
where he was standing and waiting for me:)

and i was told
that i broke from the circle

because the problem was that
they were rotating clockwise while chanting the mantra

so there was a misuse of mantra:

when you rotate clockwise
from the vertical point of view
you force the "upper" pure and divine energy
to go "down"

see physical law of the screw principle

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Right-hand_rule

so as i sensed it
i departed
and i was greeted by the true spirit

indeed
rotating clockwise lower the divine energy
this is why all sufi dances
eg the dervish
are dancing counter clockwise
even the muslim turn counter clockwise
around the kaaba
same for the amerindian and their traditional dance
counter clockwise

for they do NOT force the Above

counter clockwise
allows the energy from the Earth to arise
up to the legs
and does NOT force the "upper" energy to descend ...


that is respect towards the upper energy
you don't lower it
to serve you
but you raise yourself to IT
to serve it
ie your serving
is to know you are
and so are the others
the Pure Spirit within

and this is the meaning of Ham in hindi
"know thyself"
so i was chanting it while ascending

and broke from the circle
when i perceived it was being chanted
against the spiritual movement

and it makes sense
to know thyself
is to know you are the pure spirit
so you "merge with it"
by rising UP
and NOT by bringing it down
to your level...

and was said
that using mantra
to try to use Shakti
and refusing emptiness in meditation
all of this served not
the true purpose
that the pure spirit welcomes

so the problem
is that they "force" it
they force it by the use of mantra
the divine to come down
instead of raising themselves up to it
by cultivating their emptiness
and abiding into it

so cultivate the emptiness as much as you can
and abide with it...
meditation is everything you need
to be One with the Spirit.
Truly.

kiss:x

Prophetic Light of Grace

was monday
so three days ago
was a particular night
in islamic calendar
is called the 15th of Shaban
is the night of the decree

is one of the most special night
of the year
and preceding ramadan

is th night during which
the muslim consciousness
strives for special purification
and put forward the inner desires
to God so that those desires be fulfilled
if God will

of course
it is a mental level of worshiping
far below the spirit level
but still is devotional
and as long as you mix not
devotion with purification
and when you are into devotion
you worship not an outer God
but the God within
is right

for when you profit
of the devotional time
be it christmas or islamic month
as their is the worshipping power behind
of that very consciousness
you can use it
to boost your own devotion
in that very time

so monday
when i was about to sleep
i had such a nice vision
that i have to describe it now
but again the writing of it
has no equal to the softness of the vision itself

because now that i write it
is very mental description
of what i remember

but the very vision
was alive
like for a movie
it just flows
is so natural
that i even wondered
if is real and meaningful
so easily it flows

is a bit like
when you attune your antenna
to some tv station
and it just pops up
on your screen
and you do no effort really

plus
i loved the energy of it
was a soulful soft and light energy
very agreeable
and delicate

so it was showing me
an alley of trees
and how the light expanded
as a waft of light from imam Ali
to the trees
and how the trees bent themselves
to this prophetic light

this reminded me of a true happening
in hadith indeed
there are testimony of trees
bending themlseves
bowing over the prophet
when he used to walk under them

so the prophetic light
when out of Ali
and its waft touched the alley of trees
and they bowed

and i was told
it is this Grace that i was feeling
and witnessing
that is true meaning of humility

and that it has nothing to do
with what people "asks" you
about
when they requires you to be humble

for that one is a human humility
a mental one
the one that dictates over you
that is a hard one energywise
and has no truth in it

compared to the Divine Grace/
or Divine Humility
the divine humility
is like a waft
that comes inside of you
and expands around
and touches

now i see
it touches the tree of life
in others
and makes them bow to you
in terms of respect and love

so that which is inside you
indeed
and literally speaking
resonates outside
and the universe is bent
for you
to serve you

***sigh***
was such a delightful
waft of Grace/Light/Humility

even my belly feels all relaxed
when i am writing this

so to honor the imam Ali
energy
the night of devotion
i read a bit of his sermon
and as always i am astonished
about his testimony about the beginning of creation
and the details
that only now science let us know about

then the rest of night
i meditated

lol and of course
did not get up for early morning meditation
hahahaha

these two days
i opted for fasting

the fasting
if practised correctly
opens up/purifies your chi channels

i would deal with that later
in another post

and indeed
today as i was working
suddenly i felt a a little tiny
tube like outlet popping out
on the right side of my head

a bit like for a pressure cooker?
when you let the steam go out?
but this time was cool breeze going out
in that way
and at the same time
i was feeling a new scent on the tip of the tongue
so i stayed with it
and put hands on both sides of head
to help the opening deepen
indeed
it was even more flowing
then i stayed a bit in meditation

ah!
it feels good:)

kiss:x

Synchronicity!

is incredible
prior to start blogging

i would like to give special thanks
to my US readers
guys you are hitting my all time charts record
always topping lol

myself i am astonished
i would have bet on European readers
but no is you guys
so kisses to you :)


two days ago
i was driving with a family member
as we went out of the business center
he called me by my nickname
which is the name
i was given and called by
by my family mostly

thing is
a few weeks ago
i told them to just use my real name
the official one
the one that everyone uses

why?
because is very important
to be called by only one name
for the name which is being used
bears your soul identity

so if you happen to have two names
and a switch from one to another
then you have a split of personality
and part of the strength linked to your real name is lost

so when i am called
by the family cute name lol
let's call it so
i DO feel another person
but when i am called by my official name
it feels different

so even my family
have hard time remembering
to call me by my real name
and when they do
they DO feel
that it impresses a different
personality of mine into their mind
and i feel it too

besides the meaning of your name
shapes your attributes
this is why a great care is given
when giving a name
as it definitely affects the personality

so, if you have two names
you will definitely get a split of personality
and a loss of your soul light

choose ONE name
and stick to it
and let your light shine
therewith

:)

so the miracle that happened that day
we were going out of the business center
and of course
he called me by my nickname
and i told again
noooo call me by my true name lol!

and guess what!
hardly we turned in the street
getting off from the parking
that we got stuck in a traffic jam
with a van in front of us
and guess what?!

on the van immatriculation plate
was my name written!
correctly spelt!

incredible!!
hahaha
i laughed so hard!
and i told him
LOOOK!
as me saying to you
to call me so
was not enough
EVEN GOD is telling you
READ and hehehe use my correct name
ah! too cool
it was FACING him
and right in his face!

so see?
this is called synchronicity
is when the universe adjusts itself
to support you
and show you
that you are right!

and ONLY the universe
can do it
so imagine
the probabilities involved!

ah a quote has to be quoted at this point
this always strikes a chord in me
let's call it my all time quote :

"is the stuff that the dreams are made of!"
is always incredible when it happens!

so if people
pay more attention
they would understand the magic of creation
really!

the universe ALWAYS
gives clue
is just that people do not see them
because they think
the "outside" experiences
are not their own "inside" projections


hehehe
he was all smiling
and gave up
and agreed
a bit more convinced
but habits are hard to change
but is fun !

just another remark
about the being-more-aware-of-the-inside :
when the universe allows it
the outside changes too
and when you witness it


is what one calls miracle

for example
for some interior design project
we convened to buy some carpet
and of course the wrong size of carpet was bought
and of course
is easier to remain with it
and adjust rest of room to it
we tried
but it won't just do it

so as the seller habit is not
to pay back
one just had to find the right size
YET he had it not

so inside first
i assured myself
to just KNOW what i wanted
then
i assured myself to feel GOOD about it
meaning
the center of your mastery
and well beingness
that is the belly should feel good
if not just rotate it

then,
once i knew what i wanted
and felt good about it
i precised my solution
ok i want carpet of half size
even if he has it not
and of course cash back
as is a lesser carpet size

and we went there
and miraculously
i use this word
because one can witness
what one has asked inside
outside
when the universes decides to give it

he guy was allllll meek
and by magic he got the carpet
with half size
and what is AWESOME
was EXACLY the SAME design
i wanted
tell me where he got it
OVERNIGHT?!

in times like this
i wonder
is it a fairy that knitted
the carpet overnight?
just tell me
because i don't get it!

and guess what?
he gave cash back!

perfect!
just perfect!

so
once it happens
don't forget to thank the universe
and let it go
so that you may move on
and keep witnessing some more magic
in your everyday life

kisses:x

Special blog in honor of my bugging teachers

Special blog
to praise special people

i thank all those who angered me
and gives them hugs and kisses lol

hahaha
you will wonder why

simple
because is a MUST
you should really thank those who bug you
ah the word bug bugs me now
story for another time lol
for now is praise time for my buggers

hahaha


because as you know
we are the pure spirit within
such as in our true identity is the pure spirit

and in the example of the cyclone
the center of the cyclone
where is silence
is where your shakti abide
is where you abide in silence when you are with Her
is the path that leads you to your TRUE identity, ie the Spirit.

now,
ever thought what is around this central silence path?
is the peripheric whirling of life experiences
of love and anger
in brief all of our past lifes experiences

now what's the deal?

if we wanted to say no no
i have no anger
would be false and a wanna be attitude
for we all have past life trauma which are unresolved

this is WHY we reincarnated
to SOLVE them
unless we solve them, here and NOW,
we WILL reincarnate ...

so
i talk of my own personal experience
as always
each and everyone having his

i know
that two things angers me
real deeply
first is obsessional on purpose stupidity
second is betrayal

well,
i have to be honest with myself
if i am not
and are unable to pinpoint my weak spots
what anger me
and thus with what i am identifying myself wrongly

how will i be able to purify myself from it?

see?
the Shakti
never ever forces purification upon you
but unless you admit to yourself what is wrong with you
and once you PINPOINT IT
then, ON THE SPOT
you should purify it
by right away meditation

for you will allow Her
to bring you to the silence
and THUS thereby remove your attention
and thus identitification with the peripherical area of the cyclones
to the one of the spirit within the cyclone
ie the spirit

and it makes sense
for we need not to "build" love
as spirit is already love
we need JUST to get rid of
our false identifications with other than spirit
and these identifications are with our unresolved past trauma

knowing that i have pinpointed mine
this means
if i am able to pinpoint them
is thanks to my teachers
which are those who bug me
and make me angry
ok?

which means
they are doing me a favor
(themselves knowing it or not, well not of times. for, you need to be a mahayogi to know that you bug the other on purpose while still being loving lol)
and i should be the one who should thank them
for they help my past trauma to erupt
while before they were UNKNOWN to me
and hidden

so hidden is the issue
unless your anger is "observed"
and observed like in meditation
not like in mental observation
you can never heal it

so concretely
two days ago
i literally started to fume with anger
and i thank God
that ON the SPOT
i started to do my walking meditation
for the walking one is so powerful
why?
because the chi which is being purified
goes out from the feet to the ground
and the ground absorb it
the more you walk while being in meditational state
the more it absorbs
so is very fast purification

and without realising
time passing
i did it for a whole hour

don't ask me about my organisation
my boss knows i do my work on time lol
so i am free to have my personal time for my cultivation
whenever I wants
that's our deal

result :
i was totally at peace
to be honest
i had even forgotten
why i felt irritated in the first place
i could have laughed really
but i still had the knowing in the heart
that what that person did was bad

see?
so this means
the seed was still there in the heart
ah, i regret now
had i known on the spot
i would have done another session
of walking meditation
just to crash this seed to dust!

and it would have been over
once and for all

but no
i knew not
so i know is still there
that's the bad news

but is ok
i am ready for the next time
i can already see myself
i will get extremely angry
will vent my anger
for my policy is never hide it
nor pretend to be loving when i am not
because is not doing me favor in my self knowledge

then i grab that precious moment
when i am all heated up
to meditate

lol
can you imagine to sit down
and meditate when angry?
hahaha
i can't!

is just impossible
qualitywise
why?

because your chi channels are
so much overloaded
that you NEED fast releasing
so purification does NEED
you to eliminate through your feet


and then
i let the Shakti purifies me
but i MUST let go this anger
this is phase two

Letting go of the anger
by coming back on your cool vibrations
and with the intent to let these thoughts
being purified by the shakti

see?
if you don't allow yourself
to see what your trauma are
you won't be able to face them
and only then
you can choose to sacrifice them
on the altar for purification
to God

so this sacrifice
is that of your false identification
when you are stuck in the peripheric of the cyclone
and once your purification is over

then you gain in centering even more
yourself
into the center of the cyclone
which is the place where
the Silence of the Spirit abides
ie your True identity.

this is what Remember means
especially this is key word in islam

remember means
remember to come back
to come back to your source
to your place of silence
to your true identity

and not remain stuck
with your wrong identification
with this or that
be it anger or pleasure
for is not the real you

so come back
to the center
after having been stuck to the outskirt
of that cyclone

and of course
is only possible
when you caught yourself
on that very moment
when you are angry
like in my own example

so to sum up:

seeds are "unresolved consciousness factors
separated from the, "eye of silence".

and this is how people reincarnate.

and 
any anger observed loses its power, 
is a change in power dynamics, 
as we let go after

so knowing this, 
why hiding our anger to ourself?
you need to see it
to observe it
in your meditation.
not with your mental "observation"
 
knowing 
that i don't want to reincarnate
i better be as honest as i can with myself
and apply it 

for life is mine
and responsibility is mine
to save myself

so point is not 
to never ever be angry 
because anger is bad

BUT
anger is BAD
when you KEEP to it
instead of letting it go

and is even more stupid
to keep being angry for the same reason
for it shows
you are still NOT OVER
your past trauma
and are NOT doing your homework
properly

YET anger has ALSO its place in creation
and it is to serve you 
in that way

because each things 
has been created for a purpose
and is to serve you and me

but it is up to us 
to know HOW to use it
ie with good proportion

and what is good proportion there?

is to let go
not to remain stuck 
on anger, on blame, on revenge
on this and this person did this and that to me.

i mean 
who cares?
literally speaking 
which part of you still care about that?
well, it is the part that is STILL identified with it!

ie, that you have still not purified
and if you still care/blame 
then, you know what remain to be done

to move your ass 
and meditate to purify it 
so that even more of you
be brought to the center
and that bit by bit
you realise that indeed you are the spirit within

and with this attitude
you can only Love

for you will love those whom you love (lol)
and you learn to love those whom bugged you

all is working for Love...

well, 
now time for fun 
as usual late 
let's have bubble parties with kiddos now.

kissssssssssssssss:x
 

Tomorrow's Land - 3

"To us all towns are one, all men our kin. Life's good comes not from others' gift, nor ill. Man's pains and pains' relief are from within. Thus have we seen in visions of the wise !." - Tamil Poem-


the visionary city in Tomorrow's Land
is EXACTLY embodying this Tamil Poem

for all people chosen
for they are "special" creatives
are meeting up
in that One City
they can see far ahead
at the end of the field

same as in islam
prophet said "I am the City"

for he was fully realised,
Enlightened

if you read the quran
which version
i have not underhand
you will be struck
for it is translated
by some "spiritual" guy
not the mind-oriented
classic translators
that an average muslim
ie the majority read from

i will write my experience
about it
in another post
but is funny
how before self realisation
i knew not the meaning
of the word "enlightened"
THOUGH
Oh
MY
GOD
it was WRITTEN
SO MANY TIMES
in that translation

but now
i just opened that version
first time
since i got the self realisaiton
and i was struck to see it!

see
even if stuff is all the way
in front of you
you can never get it
unless you have the Grace of God
at that very moment to guide your
inner eyesight

to go on with that Poem :

Life's good comes not from others' gift, nor ill

this is why the girl's father
could not get into that City
when he touched her pin
why?
because the pin is destined
is personal
is for the sake of the movie
personalising your own personal desire

so she cannot gift that vision to anyone
as is hers to grow

nor could any apocalyptic vision
affect her adversely
as she chose to feed her good wolf/desire


 Man's pains and pains' relief are from within.

the whole movie
was about teaching
is all about your own choice
what part you feed in yourself
is the one that brings you
eventually pain or relief

Thus have we seen in visions of the wise !

... lol ... self explanatory
is what the whole movie is about
this very vision

so  my point is
the whole life is a metaphor
some use poems, arts such as photography
other sciences maths, astronomy drive
and others environemental friendly interest
such as wind based energy, planting trees

as the end of movie
suggested
by showing all of the new "chosen" people
as varied as any life circumstance, job, field could be

just to show us
that no form is more worthwhile than another
except that it is just to be found within first
then, recognised
then, fed
and ONCE realised
it will DE FACTO lit the candle
into others
who would also wish to find their own

this is why from one boy and girl
waking up as seed in that visionary field
at the outskirt of the visionary city

lit the flame
of new hearts
which open up like new seeds
in that same field
and on their way
to join that City of the Wise.

and what is YOUR DREAM?

kiss:x