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I was in the metro
and suddenly someone grabbed my hand
lol
it was a kid
hhehehe

he was actually in his push chair
and all of a sudden he grabbed my hand
and then my finger
and the guy standing next to me
lol himself got surprised that he watched my face
to see my reaction

well
i was laughing
and sure ended up playing with the kid
ah so cuteeeeeee he was

it is about the innocence
the child recognised the shakti in me

hence the grabbing and the smiling and the playing

of course,
i know if i have no discipline for morning meditation
then i have nothing

oh God,
is my plea
please make my meditation
truly disciplined ray

ameen!and so be it
as one says lol

The Feeling of True Humanity

:)

i had a very meaningful dream
i had been told once
that part of dreams we have are like our past lives coming at the surface
and we only have to let go

very easy cleaning :)

but true, at times if you have nightmare
it won't be that easy
i can guess

anyway
in my today's dream
it was about some life of mine in middle age
of which i saw détails
precise détails that were blocking me
and instilling fears
in this very life

hm can't really go in détails now
as myself i have to work this out

but main point is
there was the Healing!

which took place in the dream
and that i felt in real
while i was sleeping

i saw a woman and she was from her forehead
emitting a ray
and this ray was showing this past life trauma
to a guy
from forehead to forehead
i must say very precise and fast way to transmit info!
and is true
it exists!

anyway, this very guy who was my good helping friend
saw the issue i got in the past
and somehow in the dream i was this middle age lady seeing
this current scene too

so odd now i write it
it is like the past was witnessing a present
the past : the middle age lady with her in the "now" trauma

and the present : the guy and the lady with the current knowledge and Healing
at hand

you see the past middle age lady
she was actually just in the "now with her past"
because she was reliving , i feel, constantly this very trauma again and again
like a tape

and me the true actual person in this very life
was not knowing this
and was thus with a background noise
which was this past tape
just living it again and again too
BUT without knowing it
and without knowing the solution, the Healing
and thus being tied up to it
and not being free of following my own flow

my feeling is this lady transmitting from her forehead
was my Higher Self

for i already got this experience
far before my self realisation
and i know how true it is
this forehead to forehead info
and i had been told already
that this very lady was me

and somehow there was happiness in the air
but as by then i had no clue
of vocabulary such as Higher Self
i guess it would have had been of no help to me
to know that

anyway
back to this very dream

how the Healing took place

so in the dream
my old self
was crying out
how she could NOT be free of a certain trauma
that it was impossible for her
for she was tied by this certain person impact
and could not get rid of this hurt
let's call it so

and in the second scene
my Higher self was transmitting
this very past self scene to a guy
lol let's call it my knight lol
for it was his role
to help me be free

and there was the actual me
the one sleeping dreaming
and witnessing all this
and now writing it

beautiful play
when one think of it
very astute
Life is a real mysterious engineer
i tell you now lol

now the beautiful thing happened!
the Healing

the guy who was witnessing the very info
by the mental transmission
was also reliving my life context
in which this hurt happened

so he knew truth
truth here
was to know the hurt in its context
that is life

and while he was witnessing it
he was also KNOWING the feelings
that i was feeling

therefore
he developped "empathy"
and all the way he was holding my hand
during this past life transmission
and in my very own heart
i was feeling that this very empathy
was Healing me
because there was no interruption
by some judgement, question, laughs
and so on
as people do in this very life

it was plain EMPATHY

ah !
even writing it
i feel so good and happy

and in the very dream
when i realised that empathy feeling
i realised that it is the key to Healing

that the human touch
the skin to skin contact
with real empathy

is a Healer in itself

you know why?
because it is REAL
the skin to skin contact
even by holding hand
is an act of PRESENCE

the present BELONGS to you
and in it
you are thanks to the correct, SINCERE, attitude
of EMPATHY

just making space for the other
which is in hurt
to let her know that you know
and that you are there
and so she can too let it go

of course she can let it go
why?
because you being there
= you as LIFE you prove you are there
and you have to do nothing
the error is to be in the judgement
the judgement kill all of our dreams
and add load to the past hurt/karma

one just need to be there
for the other
to feel our presence
(for she had forgotten the present as she was only reliving the past
so she only needed room to be made for her to have the opportunity
through the empathic silence = which is a bridge
from past (thanks to the role of the feeling) to the present (hence the ABSOLUTE
need of SILENCE, SO THAT this transition HAPPENS for her to come back from her
coma to the present!)

and i mean it
our pure presence
will provide this SPACE, ROOM

to enable her to FEEL the PRESENT , the NOW
for the person was STUCK in some PAST without knowing it

so you JUST need to be PRESENT YOURSELF
so that she too MAY BE PRESENT
like waking up from a coma

there is no other solution
than

THE KNOWLEDGE OF THE HURT
+
THE EMPATHY ONLY (no judgement for ROOM is needed for the person asleep to transfer herself from past to present this lost part of her soul.***)
+
and the most essential one for the transmission of this Healing
THIS HUMAN SKIN TO SKIN TOUCH

i guess i just learned
what is TRUE HUMANITY

ah bring me tears in my eyes
so beautiful it is


***a soul is lost
because it is not in the light
and is like a soul has different parts/lifes it had in the past
and one by one
you have to integrate them to the light of the spirit
this is HOW soul remembers that it is only the Light

and indeed
in the end of the dream
i saw how slowing
the bits of my heart who were black
i.e. in darkness
i.e. in ignorance of its present light

were shining

and that is
when awakening takes place
bits by bits


pps :
this is WHY when people JUDGES the others
now it makes me laugh
for NOW i KNOW
they are FAKE

why?
because they are ONLY projecting
their OWN inner limitation, hate and frustration to the other
"Under pretext" of wishing the other an improvement that he or she is not doing

Life works NOT like that

jugement is the PROOF
of your OWN VERY OWN UNRESOLVED INNER ISSUES
and you use the pretext of SERMONING the other
to CONTROL him
INSTEAD of settling your OWN issue

as for me
i learned a few days ago
how some people had
let's say it plainly sex out of marriage

i give this very example to be concrete and plain

on the spot
i judge it
for i am human
and i said is very wrong
for it is NOT my standards

BUT
after i stopped judging
and let it go

the reason?

because it is NOT my affair
if i had gone further
it would have meant
my initial judgement which was human
(because i was merely applying my own life standard to see the other's life
through the lense of mine)

would have been transformed into a dictatorship over the other
by keep judging him by my standards

here the key word is KEEP judging

where is the let go?

the KEEP judging
transform a natural human judgement into a dictatorship
a controlling attitude over the other
for some inner personal gain that one harbor in a hidden way
that one admit it or NOT
is ALWAYS this.

so up to you
to let go
if you want Healing in yourself to take place :x

have a nice day!

ppps

and if you really wants to help to improve
the state of someone that you deem is lacking a quality
is not by judging
or sermoning in a dictatorial way

for that is FAKE
not for the other
but you are doing it for yourself
even if you are not aware of it

but true help
is through empathy
and you can do this
only
if yourself you have the correct and sincere attitude
with yourself
than
you just KNOW how to apply it to the others too

My Beloved cousin

I have some very funny encounter


I was going out to cinema with a long no see cousin
he came from abroad
like a sun arising

lol as mom said

anyway,
the very night
i received a phone call
of a very curious couple
who asked me what 's up

and as i am quite a sincere person
i told the surprising encounter i had today

but you see
the lady was NOT expecting me
to speak of it
for

she and her friend
expected otherwise

especially because
they happend to see me at the cinema
with that guy

lol
that they were
trying to categorise

why?
why is it so important to categorise a he?

what the challenge is here at stake for them?

when i see one of them
with some other guy or girl
do i categorise their 'partner'

so they calculation went
as such
a brother?
no way too old
a father?
let's see no, not old enough

a secret lover?
you mean another one than her fiancé?!


bingo!
this is how human mind works
PROJECTION

we project on others
OF WHAT WE ARE

if our mind is unclean
due to our OWN weirdo
experience of crossing limits of morality
then we are SUSPICIOUS of the other

indeed
for we suspect from the other
the worse
especially if we don't EXPECT
the other in a new situation 

why?
because it reassures their inner guilt :
oh yea!
then i am not the only one
to have a "romantic affair" after cinema

hahaha

so that is what they were thinking

ONE ALWAYS PROJECT ON THE OTHER
ACCORDING TO ONE'S OWN LIFE HYGIENE
MORALITY
AND ETHICS
SPIRITUALITY IN ACTION

and so on

remember the story of the saint and of the sinner?

two guys at night time met
one was a sinner going to night club to have some "romantic affair" after lol
and the other a saint going to some prayer retreat

the latter seeing the other
thought
"what a good guy,
look at night time going to pray to God"

and the sinner
look at the other
said
"lol, look at him
playing the saint,
i caught you
are you are no more worthy than me
you are planning to chase women
in a hidden way
under your priest garb"

see?

same here
world is a mess
because of the JUDGEMENT of people
which most of the time is ERRONEOUS
and ONLY a projection of their OWN

life ethics, hygiene, moral and low level of spirituality

on the spot
i laughed
after i was seriously angry at such a behavior
but after i remembered
me too i would be judging if i linger on that feeling

therefore i chose to laugh them and let go

so what count for me
is that i had a fun time with my sun
my dear beloved cousin
not seen since so long

he was so happy from me and my family warm welcome
that he invited me to join him
whenever i plan to

you bet my dear cousin
you touched my heart with your heatfelt thanks email
for you are one of the rarest person
whose heart is touched by feeling of appreciation

for very few people
have the ability to receive that which is below the surface/the material
that which is deeper
and that is called a loving feeling of the heart

just to be able to FEEL
this warmth from the other
this ability
to catch the feeling and care

secondly, to admit being touched by it 
and to appreciate it
and merely thank the person

is one of the most beautiful gift of sincerity i have ever received lately

because THAT IS AN AUTHENTIC RELATIONSHIP

such people
when they will get their self realisation
will be WAY further than those who have it lately
why?

because they cultivated below the surface
by using heart for authenticity
than for just being material
under PRETEXT of imposing high standards to others
while themselves being low in spirituality
and even fearing its deepness
due to their western conditioning

the LAST will be the FIRST :x