Above Agnya

In dream i saw a monument where people used to go
and later on top of it
i saw another monument
liek its exact replica
being set on its top

so below was light color monument
and above dark color one
and the light had a door where people flooded
and was related to jesus
was jesus feel

later i was told
the dream is about agnya
now it makes sense
when i think of it
while the feel was of jesus
when people flooded there

and the top part
ie above the agnya
was dark
cause is the unknown
is the realm of "total surrender"
so it looked black from my perpective

is like death
to find out what it is
one should totally surrender

and that is why was all black
cause one can't use the mind to see above the mind

I am the Greatest Star ..Happy Easter Holidays!

When the Universe talks to you

• or are you the Universe reminding yourself who you are :

BARBRA STREISAND LYRICS
Écoutez "I'm The Greate…"
"I'm The Greatest Star"

[Fanny waits for Eddie to come out of the theatre and tries to explain that she doesn't fit into the chorus because she's got star potential.]

[Fanny:]
Listen,
I've got thirty-six expressions-
Sweet as pie to tough as leather,
And that's six expressions more
Than all them Barrymores put together.
Instead of just kicking me
Why don't they give me a lift?
It must be a plot,
'Cause they're scared that I got
Such a gift-well, I'm miffed-'cause
I'm the greatest star-
I am by far, but no one knows it!
Wait, they're gonna hear a voice,
A silver flute-ah hah, ah hah-
They'll cheer each toot (Hey! I hear she's terrific)
When I expose it!
Now, can't you see to look at me
That I'm a natural Camille?
As Camille I just feel
I've so much to offer.
Listen kid, I know I'd be divine because
I'm a natural cougher.
[Coughs]
Some ain't got it-not a lump,
I'm a great big clump of talent!
Laugh!
They'll bend in half.
(Did you ever hear the story about the traveling salesman?)
A thousand jokes:
Stick around for the jokes,
A thousand faces.
I reiterate,
When you're gifted,
Then you're gifted,
These are facts-I got no axe to grind.
Hey, what are they-blind?
In all of the world so far
I'm the greatest star!
Who is the pip with piz-azz?
Who is all ginger and jazz?
Who is as glamorous as?
Who's an American Beauty rose
With an American Beauty nose,
And ten American Beaty toes,
Eyes on the target, and wham-
One shot, one gun shot and bam!
Hey, Mr. Ziegfeld, here I am!
I'm the greatest star,
I am by far,
But no one knows it!
That's why I was born-
I'll blow my horn
Till someone blows it!
I'll light up like a light
Right up like a light
I'll flicker, then flare up
All the world's gonna stare up
Lookin' down
You'll never see me-
Try the sky,
'Cause that'll be me.
I can make 'em cry,
I can make 'em sigh,
Someday they'll clamor
For my dram-er.
Have you guessed yet,
Who's the best yet?
If you ain't I'll tell you one more time.
You bet your last dime
In all of the world so far
I'm the greatest, greatest star

source: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/barbrastreisand/imthegreateststar.html

Man is a wolf to man?

Difference between nice and evil people
really nice quote

someone may do bad things like cheating, stealing etc.
but as long as he looks after people around himself
then there is still hope left in him

but those who are ready to fall/prey on others
ready to eat them
they are the evil ones

when i heard that
i found it interesting
that is like in food chain

eat or be eaten
is the law of the society

as as Hobbes said
Man is a wolf to man

and it all of sudden
reminded me
of relationship in society

why some people are considered as vampire
as they do some good - in apparence - to tame you
and make you believe how all good they are

and is a calculated good call it "n"

as they are eyeing to get back from you "n+1"

call it sneaky or calculation or forward thinking
or "if i spend on people, life always gives it back to me in some way"
whatever fancy word to make it sound beautiful

Truth is
GENUINE CARE
either you have it or not

if you have it
is for you own good
you are someone who has some hope left in you

if you don't have care for others
then you are just -evil- as the guy put it

i went to a seminar
and to my astonishment
i saw how the way of thinking and finding solution even managing team is changing

the speaker is no more considering himself a teacher
the Mr or Ma'm know it all

but a facilitator for group exchange

and the group composed of a few people
say 10
are a mirror to each other ...

they hold each other in a way accountable

..and i was amazed
that the facilitator warned us
saying...
if you hear some good words as praise
good for you
but when you are confronted by those that pain you

then
learn to take it in
face it
don't shrink from hearing it nor have a hostile and defensive position
but take it as a challenge to get the good out of it for your own self
is your "new Horizon"

very fast forward thinking
even some deepness and insight
yet .... was a business seminar

i was very impressed

in current capitalistic model
Man is a wolf to man
applies very much

actually is the downside of Globalisation
who can eat more and grow

but that way to see people
as the link to a chain
who are interdependent on each other

is very fast forward  thinking
and may i say
very human view of life

Human are characterised as being linked to each other
aren't we family members
or colleagues or friends etc

there are always labels to qualify relationship

is because as a human being
our strength is to be part of a chain

is true so far
individuality was the focus
now the Group as an Entity not as a team only
is a new kind of emerging consciousness

i found it fascinating

Man is a wolf to man
in a denser world
but in a more subtle one
Man is a link to man

Awareness and illusion - vid and comments

Quotes from the movie below
which i really agree with
and are worthy to be highlighted there:

the ego construct is nothing more than the impulse to repeat
is simply the path the energy once stuck (in our body - hence importane of purification that erase it)
and the tendancy for that energy to take that path again
whether it is positif or negatif for the organism
end of quote

this is why the "let go" notion
is the one that helps to "purify"
let go of money like by paying alms/zakat
let go of your precious stuff by gifting to people what they like when they look at your belonging
is why arabs of middle east (lol not of north africa) are for some
known to gift their belonging when they get praise for them

initially is meant for you not to stick to them
as the more people praise the object
 the more you will get attached and finally identified with
hence the giving of it

is what i feel is the meaning behind
such now cultural mannerism

another quote :

eyes of child
have no trace of self
only luminous emptiness

in an awakened person consciousness shines
through the personality

i particularly like this quote

as is what i had experienced in life

the prison is your current limited belief of self
and prison is an illusion
if you identify with your illusory self
then you are asleep

once you are aware of the prison
and if you fight to get out of its illusion
then you treat illusion as real
then you are still asleep
except the illusion becomes a nightmare

very on point quote
because is exactly how i felt
before i had self realisation
as i wanted not to receive an injection
to get asleep and live a life of work-marry-sleep

i gave it up
to get out of it
part of seeking was mainly blurry
as i knew what i wanted not
but knew not what i sought

and once i came to a dead end
and was jerked back into "you must live as others do and stay asleep"
that i fought again
and literally speaking life was a nightmare
so were my sleep time full of nightmares

so what the author of this vid said
is very on point


now.. i must also point
there are  good stuff i quoted not
but it shows how much is for an open minded muslim
if he listens to it .. its true islamic spirit /religion can become clearer to him
and am sure if a christian listens to it, he would also find this vid confirming its true christian teaching
about being reborn
same for an agnostic etc.

here i take two examples for muslims
in hadith it is said
"die before you die"
this topic is being treated in this vid

but when you look at the islamic teaching and hadith
how much the average muslim knows about the meaning of this?
yet is so openly laid in this vid
may be too much for an average muslim to get it
yet is where he can see the way pointed by islam
to its true self

another example
hadith : every child is born in true religion (fitrah) only his parents, society corrupts him

in vid the quote about the child eyes
when you look at them
what you?
luminous emptiness

is the hint about the true self

again
could the average muslim
see what the quran made of aya points at for him to seek?

did you know
if you are a muslim
that the word ayah..translated as verse in english
means in truth "signs, evidence, that are pointed at" for the belivers to look at..?to find truth..

same another example in the vid
metaphor of prison is given

in hadith it is said
the world for a true mu'min/believer is like a prison...

see?
never i had understood it
till i got self realisation
so this vid is pretty good material
for any seeker of truth

whatever its religious background
it helps you to fathom your own references
taught by your religion

again
as the vid pointed at

your aim is not to fight the illusion
as you create a hell..as terrorists do
not only eternal hell for themselves
sadly enough is what happens to each single wannabe terrorist
but also engulf in hell other victims along with him

is why also in hadith
was told that in end of times
people will kill and other will be killed
while both of them won't know why this happen

when i look 5 years back
is true that situation has become so precarious
and unsafe as violence spread in europe and intensifies like never before in middle east

but also
what is incredible to me
is that is the time
when the human being was the most at its technological peak
and mistakingly religious people think they are the most near to truth
while they have never been so far from it
when you look from the point of view of awareness in humanity
the teaching are so much distorted
that what was meant to help and guide
such as religion
is what is being used as an excuse to push even more towards destruction

another last quote of vid
see things as they are

isn't it what you can read in hadith
the prophet prayer being often
"Allah let me see things as they truly are"

so this vid should be just enough for any seeker of truth
even for and especially for muslims
provided they seek truth
but if you think
you have it already
then you are doom to never get anything beneficial from life or even this vid lol


Good vid for those who want to have a good overview of their situation :

source : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bw9zSMsKcwk

I love to be in trouble with you!!!

Hahahaha!!!

when you realise that you are
like any human being
in love and fits of anger

but you love most to be in trouble with the one you love!

hahahahahaha

I have all the reasons in the world
to love being in trouble with you!

;)
hope you like the music ;)
mwa:x kissi

Lyrics

Let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
You got the healing that I want
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
We got this king size to ourselves
Don't have to share with no one else
Don't keep your secrets to yourself
It's karma sutra show and tell
Woah, there's loving in your eyes
That pulls me closer
It's so subtle, I'm in trouble
But I'd love to be in trouble with you
Let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
You got the healing that I want
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
You got to give it up to me
I'm screaming mercy, mercy please
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
And when you leave me all alone
I'm like a stray without a home
I'm like a dog without a bone
I just want you for my own
I got to have you babe
Woah, there's loving in your eyes
That pulls me closer
It's so subtle, I'm in trouble
But I'd love to be in trouble with you
Let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
You got the healing that I want
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
Let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
You got the healing that I want
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on, babe
You got to give it up to me
I'm screaming mercy, mercy please
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on
Just like they say it in the song
Until the dawn, let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on

Written by Julie Frost, Nick Seeley, Jacob Luttrell, Charlie Puth • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

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The magic of miracles

Indeed Universe Loves me..
I just heard a cute phone tone
and wished to get it...
and guess what appears on my screen?

someone answering the question i just thought
only in my mind
not even voiced it

and was told where to get it

I was told also within same time span
though both events are unrelated

the more mysterious something is
the more our mind take it for granted
that it understands it


see
is so weird
i have different people
unrelated
yet is like each one complete each other sentence
thus
i call it
Universe talking to me/ conversing with me

i think i won't like to understand a miracle
otherwise it would cut me from the expectation/excitation
of expecting a new one

and so i now understand
that indeed
"mind" or "thinking about it" cuts the flow of magic

Magic exists as long as you are a witness to IT
and moves on
gratefully
..or gracefully? should i say

Sun Rising Movie - by Petals1000uk

Powerful Mood lifting soundtrack and vid combined!

Check out my new Movie!

Kiss;)

Universe talking to me!

After having resumed my meditation practice
to a new rythm once back to France

Universe started talking to me!

Morning i got the following sms
'Always pay attention. You don't meet people by accident and things don't happen by coincidence'

I said ok let's see
what happens then
I theoretically agree, but practically don't feel it so far
since am back

and right now,
as i was watching  some awesome dating goals!
i said aaahh not sure i can enjoy these
my husband is rather Mr I-am-angel-not-human-mood
no wonder though his feet are on earth, mostly his head is stuck in heaven

contemplating the fate of having such a husband
i received the following message ON SPOT:

"Go to  sleep
knowing some of the best days of your life
are yet to come"

Tadam! Hit my feelings!
THAT's the moment I said
WHAAT ? ???
IS IT A HIDDEN CAMERA
Universe is answering my thoughts
talking to me

now,
i look forward to more talks from It

Hey i should thank Universe
for having treated me like a Queen in Lahore
hmm.. i should have desired to get the Honda City Car
Class A
am sure It would have given it to me
shoot! 

Anyway... that car...loved it so much
haaaan am missing my personal driver routine

Another Flashnews...Got Finally!!!
My Genealogic tree book going back to prophet muhammad time...

In Big lines...am proud to say my dreams were true

My ancester was the personal helper of the prophet and used to prepare his seating area
and had sworn to follow the prophet grandsons Hasan and Hussein
wherever they would move to their service

So.. he was from the Al Ansar living in Medina
then, went to Iran
there my family Branch married the Iranian Princess
and moved to afghanistan
and then India

on my Mother side
her Great...Great...grandmother married the member of prophet muhammad family

I even saw their wedding in dream
the one i discovered only now in this biography
premonitory vision :)

so elegant and honorable
white clothes
and decent simple people

hmm...now i hesitate
initially i wanted a simple ceremony
but am getting passionate about partying..i think i would go for the Grandiose Celebration

back to family..
no wonder my cousins and brothers well..no wonder
that my family has such auspicious faces

yes they are worthy of praise
though some of them could be worthy of a few slaps too hahaha
cause is not all about genes is also about self improvement
once you feel self sufficient you become a pain in the foot of others
so you better be grateful for those Genes and be able to move on

so ... Fatimah (as) is my greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat grandmother!!!:)))

and then settled in India in fine
and then are from Rajput line

hmm... i discovered Punjabi people
in old time
before the colonization wipe this customs out
as the British were following the wiping out plan of Indian strength

Punjabi used to give to their soon to be married daughter
the Quaid-e-Punjab ... the book as inheritance teaching Punjabi and its culture
PLUS a sword..cause the punjabi ladies were ... actually...true to the movie...Jodhaa Akbar...
taught swordmanship

imagine...no wonder why i love fencing
and my heart beat when i watched Jodha Akbar first time
is in genes
now i found out the origins of my likings

isn't it an adventurous, poetic and yet passionate view to know about your roots
fantasizing about how life was by then
feeling the taste and honor of it passing in your genes and recorded in there?
somehow..you can ACCESS it


while remembering is all past
and now is all about how MUCH you can make the MOST of it...

The Past which is Present and wishes to be Discovered as a Pure Mystery in Future... 
In other  Word is God who is a "Mystery and created its creation to be Discovered" (Hadith)

From that point of view is an exciting Mystery to be discovered
what  the BEST days of my life are now holding for me...???

For this gotta sleep...
woooooooooush! in bed!

Morning Meditation

Celebrating Nice Morning Meditation

Enjoy song and pictures

Story Behind the pictures :

"
One of the most important religious holidays along with Makha Bucha in many Buddhist countries, Visakha Bucha (pronounced Wisakha Bucha in Thailand) celebrates the birth, enlightenment and passing away of the Buddha, which according to the Theravada Buddhist traditions, all took place on the same day of the year: On the full moon of the Indian lunar month of Wisaka.
The sixth lunar month, usually falls in May, or beginning of June. This year, it was on the 4th of June in Chiang Mai.
In most Buddhist countries, including Thailand, it is an official public holiday. Like many Buddhist holidays, pubs and bars are also closed and no alcohol is served anywhere during the whole day.
On this day, devotees, usually dressed in white, visit temples, bring offerings, meditate and listen to sermons. In the evenings there is often a candlelit procession, and the devotees walk around the main Chedi (stupa) of the temple three times, celebrating the triple jewel of Buddhism – the Buddha, his teaching (Dhamma), and the monkhood (Sangha)."


Text & Pictures credit : http://www.canvas-of-light.com/2012/06/visakha-bucha-in-chiang-mai-thailand/

Organize vs Organic

There are some people
who are attention seekers
Power hungry

they feel excitation
in managing people
as if they are playing chessboard

There is a time when a person seems "useless"
to them
so they didn't want to be colored by her color
say qualities, fame, money, power etc.
were - in apparence - lacking in her
then,
of course, let's make fun of her

but if ... all of sudden
some USEFULNESS is seen
let's say some mass self realisation at muslim level is FEASIBLE
then let's organize meetings and ORGANISE all of that

under a NAME

cause you know ORGANIZING
is so much more SELF-GRATIFYING

I see You
Remember it

I say
Be colored in the color of God
is way better than trying to dye yourself like a cameleon
with someone else's light/color
find your OWN

and remember
What matter is to follow your Inner Gut feelings
and give self realisation be it in mass or not
be it in group or alone
yet it MUST BE
TRUE TO YOURSELF

so if your GUT feelings say
Meet people who have a PAST PROVEN record of SINCERITY
then honor them
but if they are on a Power Trip of self-importance
then let them be happy as they are in their own world

cause it is not yours...

...Mine is filled with Organic Guidance
not an Organized one

Nature is Organic
not Organised :)

Organization? no thanks! I am my Own Successful, Richly Guided, and already Celebrated Organizer!;)

Kissi:x

Free Will vs Slavery

How much of Will is Yours?

When you can FEEL your will behind an action
or even before meeting someone
when you can FEEL it

then is your Will

But if you go and meet a person or an event
with a blank mind
you won't obtain anything
except what your "luck" is

determined by your subconscious
fear, limitation, love or expectations

hence you will be like an empty vessel
which is thirsty for experiences
but let itself being filled
by the Will of others

this is how you can assess
how much FREE Will you have

Look at the actions of yours
how much of intent attached to them is actually felt by you as being Genuinely Stemming from YOU?

if you can't feel it and tell it
if you don't even know about this
then, you are unconsciously a slave to others' will

Just you don't know it yet.
Realising it
is becoming self-realized

Kiss;)

Lahore

Sharing my impression about my trip to Lahore...

there,
people are alive
everything is in movement
nothing is still
nor frozen nor rigid

everything flows

here if it rains
traffic jam and everything blocked

there people and the country as a whole thrives..
despite the constant blackouts and all kinds of pollution issues

Brave people they are

True Fighters for Life

is like they have some inside battery in their bodies
and they keep going on
doing multiple jobs and following their passion
and succeeding ...

is a pleasure to see life thriving

Sun is the Power
that sustains their energy

they are more in touch with nature
though they are more and more racing towards
western models of success

i hope earnestly they keep in touch with Nature

there i felt like swimming in a bubble of water
like walking in a dream
easy peasy

we have all kind of servants
for nearly everything

personal driver
hop and go
personal maid
the new trend is 3 maid per houses

Houses are like luxury hotels
Amazing to sleep in King Size beds

Wardrobes...Awesome
should i speak of Orgasm at this point? hahaha

women are real queens there

and i enjoyed so much
SHOPPING
EXTASE

all kinds of worldwide items at hands
so many colors
1200 colors in one shop
for the customers to find matching clothes...

and still if you are unlucky not to find
the matching thread to sew
they will order YOUR COLOR from India ...
and you have no HUGE costs for such demands

Life is soooo easy to serve you and your desires..

I just had to desire something
not to say it
not even to mention it
but to desire it in my heart

that next day i was brought where i wanted to go...

I was for instance
on a ride
and saw Pak Tea House
and i thought ah i want to go there

next day i met a cousin
and he spoke of the hyped place to go
where journalists or literature lovers go and discuss

and guess what ?! was that Pak Tea House
with a century long story

and third day... another cousin
who did not even know about it..
brought me there
without me mentioning it

same ...
i desired a Jewel set
forgot to buy it

my aunt
God knows how she guessed it
not only bought it for me
but customized the pearls to the color of my dress

i felt truly like ME there
natural respect and honor given to you as  a HUMAN BEING

not like an item

here by contrast
i see how people uses you
as if you were an item

but there
is so OBVIOUS
that you are YOU
and are treated as such


Lahore
i love the trees there
is like light falls from them
each time i go there
i feel i am in a dream
in a bubble where time exists not

my family is very special
i have so many innocent girl cousins

they are of my age range

you see innocence oozing from them
some kind of purity
you don't see here in western countries

is a combination of natural good manners embeded in you
without any artifical mannerism
and an inner glow of light
which makes you feel sweet
looking at them

people living in the moment
and being with you
not chatting with you and thinking about how to use you
or chatting with you with a pre-plan in mind

no
is very much in the moment
is what makes it clean
and Alive

cause is not mental dependent
of some past manipulative plan
or some future profit they could get from you

even...when a few had such intent
their behavior flashed out to me
as it was against the natural glow of others
they were obvious to me when they had some manipulative ideas

but was rare and childish

but in europ
people are like living in a dark cloud of past or future
hanging on top of their head..
no covering all of their head till down their shoulders and more..

not in the light air of the present

which makes their movement slow
hard
like you cut throw mist to live there

over there you are flowing in the current of light
and have smooth flying to your destination

hahaha about destination
my life was in God Hand
people doesn't drive there...
they play video games....

If there is Life and Harkat (Movement and dynamics infused from sun light in you)
the extrem is the MESS!! hahaha
but even that is a joyous mess i would say

here is perfect in terms of discipline
you obey the law
and you are on the motorway of life
you know where you are and where you go

but there is no surprise
no fun
is just motorway of life
where all is frozen
you can't move from left to right
you have to follow rigid rules all the time
and become rigid as well

Nature is "disciplined"
in the way it follows some patterns
mathematical patterns as you know

yet is flowing
and brings you surprise
thanks to its Creativ-ness

Here is what i miss...

we are not riders of Life
but Laws of life ride us
and we are more like donkeys bearing weight of our life

than Masters of our Life riding donkeys..

In Lahore i also had many good experiences
one of which is to have visited the Medical College where Mataji did her Medicine Studies

again i feel time exist not there
everything is like there as a Given Life in Eternity

I loved most the soil there
the nice smell of it
as i said the light falling from trees
and their special surely special leaves
i loved seeing so many pets and animals there too
the magic of desire and all of them being fulfilled
just because i wished for it

Kun Faya Kun!
Be and it IS

Yes... so many saints graves and shrines
i went to a College and it had a shrine in there!
Amazin
i went to a garden
again a saint
i went to an old Fortress
again a century old famous saint shrine

i think the country is still alive and thriving
despite all the issues be it economics, politics, hygien
it is still there and fine...may be thanks to the saints, shrines
which are as much alive place as any other lively café or tea houses

even the cemetry... it is all shiny and emitting light
is so peaceful...

here cemetries feels like doomed and sad and all grey

Jesus is another world there
there is beauty everywhere
Beauty increases when you see it


I miss Beauty

Is not the End that counts but the Journey

Is strange for me to say
what i am going to say
but i only realised it now that i changed...

I used to look at people as a whole
and think why they bother to decorate their house
and invest so much energy to set things
when they know they will eventually age and die

For me was puzzling behavior
i found it being useless, pointless
and because was purposeless eventually
the behavior was childish and even stupid to me
..seen from above..

After 10 years,
only now
i realised

is not the death that counts
meaning people don't live to die

but they live to experience those moments of life..
because they are precious

though i had lived life
because i happened to be alive

time was not precious to me
i just lived cultivating myself,
doing what i had to do
studying mostly
on my own

most on my life
i lived it on my own

and funnily
all this time i never felt i was alone

is only recently
when i experienced that me too
am mortal

that life for me started
and that i could sense that
all this time i had been lonely

but i could not have possibly realised that before
as only opposites teach us the existence of duality
of what is company
once is removed
what is loneliness

so in the past
i used to observe for a second, life
and just saw pattern
people are born, race to live
against time - like a time war - lost in advance
squeezing a boring routine in their schedule
they call life

and die.

but now...
i realised
while myself i immerged myself in It :
we don't live to die

but to experience these important moments

so in a way..
Death or being mortal is a blessing

as it helps you value those moments,
and each moments if you are lucky in keeping such awareness

and my second conclusion
i wonder ... looking back at myself

Am i an alien?

trying to understand human behavior
because i often feel i try to understand social behavior
that are a given for most people
but for me is not

as i feel i am not part of it

Kisses above the Clouds

..Above the clouds...and ready to crash in the ocean...but so beautiful clouds!...it was worth it !

I often wondered am i seeing clouds or ocean waves ... incredibly mesmerizing!

Evil Eye - Energy of Love and Hate

Evil eye exists
and here it is what it is about
roughly speaking :

A person does not consciously
says ok i wish harm to that pretty stuff you are wearing or possessing

is just she will look at it
and you or your stuff will get spoilt

like once i wore a nice pearly brand new bracelet
the girl looked at it
it broke down on the spot! LOL
and pearls scattered all over the floor
was brand new!

same i was wearing my brand new Bordeaux colored handbag
as soon as a girl slowed her pace to check it
and paff scratched!

third
wearing my brand new
navy blue heals
so impressive
the girls just went behind me LOL
to have leisure to check them
of course i was hearing their comments
and paff! on spot it got unsew

snif..

but today was dangerous

i told a friend
to call me later
as i was driving

already had a list of such experience
with her
but today was too dangerous

was the car ..
i was about to have an accident!


on LAST MOMENT Divine power helped me
cause in NORMAL SCENARIO  i was done!
i just got saved..
cause i literally felt my car being pulled back
and the car in front had the "luck" to intuitively move on left
as he was trying to quickly take over other cars
and i had the lucidity to turn car on my right

but clearly
if i had NOT felt that being pulled back
as my car HAS BEEN MOVED ASIDE
i was done!

so thank you Spirit...

but this friend ...
not her fault
but is her residual
hateful and unconscious energy

here is how evil eye works :

Imagine some past traumas
which happened to you
those are recorded as images
and have some energy
now
the evil eye as we call it
is about projecting the energy
from the past trauma -without the images-
on someone

so is her energy projecting without the images

so i had to purify the car
which was affected by negative energy
as i felt just floating in it
no stability
and felt not clear headed
nor well

As everything is made of God energy
because GOD is everywhere
so God/Love means unity or working together ..see?
so all of sudden the car
good energy left
there was an energy of hate
which was dissonant with mine

no love = no unity= no work together
and indeed no more harmony nor unity
so atmopsher in car changed all of sudden after that conversation


So i was being rejected by my car
which was now full of NON LOVING energy

Everything is made of GOd energy
God is even in inanimate object

so i had to purify the car
i just went out
and put my hand on itand said it like 10 times
i love you car

then i felt GOOD
and could drive it with no more incident
and rather felt so comfy driving it again..

and the amazing dynamic i understood today

is that when stuff works
is because you are one with the object
and that is Love
not an emotion
but the unity in action
see?

all of sudden
my car was filled with hateful energy
just because i drew someone's attention on it
what we call evil eye
again is not a conscious stuff that my frind did
but is just her trauma affecting my car  and me

once i said those words
it stopped the hate from the other which she put in the car


same if you have a stuff you love
just say to it often you love it
so it ll prolonge its life with yours
same for people
say it to yourself
i love you so and so
no need to tell them
and it will prolonge their ties with you

and that working together will last longer

incredible learning

if you SEND LOVE to objects
they will be WORKING with you

and another thing i learned is that Love and hate
are both needed
as Love alone without challenge is no point for universe to exist
and hate without love
there would be no Grace

so another lesson for me
Love and Hate co exist for universe to exist as it is



so yes evil eye is not intentional
but it sucks!

 Love to Hate
and by the way

We are never getting older LOL
lol i should start hiding my age
people think i was 24 while i am 34
but now i was told i am looking 16... twice..
luckily i don't need to show my ID card to buy cosmetics hahaha

kiss
Enjoy the song

The Chainsmokers - Closer

Celebrating the 30 000th Blog Viewing

30 000th pageview was today!
Round figure ! ;) Caught my eyes :)

Today i came to a very profound self realisation

Is  not a thought, nor an opinion, nor a theory
is something i learned and i can count it as a means which has changed my vision of life

Since long
i had the impression
to be holding myself back

waiting for the ideal moment
waiting to improve and be even more perfect
so that i may be -finally- understood by some people

is like i took on me the burden
to be up to their image they wanted me to be
in a word trying to please them

but that was like always holding back my breath

today
after discussing a dream i had with a friend
i realised
there are some people we cannot save

at some point
i had started to please them
so i put on a burden which was not mine
this burden made me harder

exemple
is like when you have a rock on your back
and you are ascending a mountain
so even if the person next to you wants to chat with you
you will snap at him
as you are so much burdened already

so no time for such small talk
nor lightness

one day i heard
that enlightenemnt fruit
is also to realise
that actually
whatever happened in your life
was ok
things are just as they are

and they are good like that

trying and hoping hard to change people
are to bend ourselves to their cherished image they have projected on you
and what they want you to be

is something which is the real burden

if you let go of it
in a way
if you let go of trying to save them
or change them for their own good

then
you are happier
and you can chit chat with them
and just do the small talk they want
on a day to day basis

in a way
you surrender to the idea
that you can't do anything for them
you stop battling for this

because at some point
when i think about the fact
that we all die
what remains at this very time?
at your death bed?

is regrets
ah i should have been more loving
i should have been more kind
i should have been more lenient
and i should have let them be ignorant kids
at least i would have not wasted time from lack of human warmth
from lack of familial warmth
from lack of friendship warmth

cause in reality
a world is made of so many different people
if you try to be so picky
or if you try to shape them in your image
or if you let yourself being shaped into theirs

either you end up with a sour face
and a hardened heart

or

you become stupid ape
mimickeing all they want you to be

to be able to find the middle way
is to live among them
without being part of them

just to be able to Feel Life Warmth itself..

and of course the love we have for them
resurfaces
after we put it on hold..till we became better

so is best to forgive
and send them love

as i feel so much pity for them being ignorant
yet i know is like speaking to walls
they are -in a loving and non judgemental way- ignorant
impatient, and very much weak in truth

so the best thing you can do for a weed
is to give it love

Marrying a non realised person

If i can give a word of advice..
never ever a yogi woman should marry a non yogi

cause at some point
her shakti won't be able to compensate
for his non realised state

at best if she meditates
everyday and more than prior to her marriage
it ll stay AT BEST stable


but living
with a guy who meditates not
even prevent you to go to meditation group
or like not incense etc.

she will lose it within 2 or 3 years
and wonder why she married

well to statisfy her comfort zone
ok i know this guy since long
so let's marry and time to have kids

yet

all that counts when you die
is THE STATE in which you die

one better die
with a better state than prior to one coming into this world..

otherwise you will be slave to your dying state
and reincarnate
just worse
in most of cases

is tough for women
especially their friends should give the right advice

Girl i am your friend
and i advise you not to marry a guy who is not meditating
and if you married
and regret
well God will provide you for a better husband

but don't let your spirituality go down the drain

With Love
Petals

paris meditation - final

Yes now about my meditation
daily with a friend

we used to wake up at 630 every day
and get it right

the very first day
i felt a wind wooshing out of my head
was at the place of the limit between scalp and forehead
i was told is the virata

was amazing sound it made
wooshing out
like a fountain

the next days we did same

i even managed to feel so cool
that i had to take a shower to warm up...
feeling cool in winter time
i abhooooorr it

with indian blood
i have to move to south
or some warm country

can't get so coolnes topped with winter time


was great disciplined
maintained during a week


FIRST TIME EVER
I meditated with a yogi in morning
at a set time

EVEN when i lived in an ashram
NOT EVEN ONCE it happened
i was always meditating all alone

people should care for this GOOD old lady
she met mataji
and meditated by herself for SO LONG
30 years or so of meditation is NOT nothing

so some RESPECT SHOULD BE GIVEN TO HER

BUT most people make fun of her
WHICH IS REVOLTING TO ME

anyway
i had a GREAT TIME with her
meditation wise
otherwise she is a sincere lady
and has like anyone some ups and downs
but is her private life
not to be told here

anyway
a friend who was being bullied
by a group of singer
told me her hard time

so while was saying me this
i imagined she was singing on stage
and her kundalini shooting up

so much that light was emitted
and her so called singer ladies friends
saw it
and shut up

LOL
guess what next day she calls me
and say
hey you know what happened
a singer lady saw my kundalini while she was performing

hahaha
this is when i explained her
about the power of master
your life is liek a book
your erase what you want
and write what you want

call it my moment of insight!

ah yea
this morning as i was meditating
with my fiancé
aboutr 1h
i saw in vision at mid way of meditation
 that an angel all golden
was having an arrow pointed at the moon
and i looked at moon
then he moved clockwise to the starts and i followed it
and at the end he pointed at me

wowhahahaha

LATER
i realised hey !
is like abraham story
he looked at moon and stars seeking god
and at the end he found it!!!!
was INSIDE


HEY WHO KNOWS
I WILL FIND MY OWN FULL ENLIGHTENMENT SOON!!!



kiss