Interestingly enough
the outer reflecting the inner has never been so blatant talk to me than
The era where
the fireplace used to be lit - Inner Fire within Human
to electric heaters being installed - starting to cultivate and pay attention to the Flow of the Energy within, own human body circuit
to Wifi - messages into the Ether
to Cloud - Hive mind - the new consciousness where We are all One.
Portrait made of John Ruskin by his protege the painter John Everett Millais.
In the movie Effie Gray,
at the very beginning, the teacher John tells his students
that Nature should be painted as it is seen
the good and the bad that occur
they must be true to their observation.
Later, the painter John E. Millais
happens to be hired to paint the portrait of John Ruskin
as he fell in love with his wife.
The interesting part is
when one wants to win
one truly does its best to look good
either by shining one's own qualities
and/or by degrading the competition.
According to me, the student surpassed the master
as he remained true to his self
by honouring and painting what he saw
not letting temptation of sabotaging his master's portrait becoming his goal.
Instead he made sure to paint his master as is
doing so, he did not darkened his heart with a goal that was not his.
His initial goal was to become a recognised painter and for this you need to be true to your learning.
Therefore if you are true to your initially set goal
which is your heart desire
and do not forget it
do not exchange it for some other secondary goal, say revenge
then your gain is the ultimate gain
this is the real success
as you followed the light of your heart
in the service of the fulfilment of your goal/heart desire.
Ironically; the same teacher fell short of his own teaching
as he refused to accept his wife as it is
due to his own fears - whatever fears he had.
From a deep and exalted love and devotion he had for his by then future wife
once married he let this being compromised
because of his inability to face his own fears
and contrary to his teaching
instead of seeing things for what they are
and painting his own life with what he had
he preferred to give into his fears, denials, covering up his own weaknesses
which his own self loathing ended up being directed towards his wife
who started leaving a life of an "eternal torment"
Effie's mother happened to lose at least 7 kids
and Effie's husband made fun of that barnyard who should not be at this point distressed..
Anyway the fun part is once Effie remarried
she ended up having 8 babies
Definitely the souls of the lost ones
must have reincarnated by her
I couldn't prevent myself of having that thought.
All in all, though the movie could have been more expressive in exploring these aspects
it was yet an honourable take.
May be the deep silence and the gravity displayed by all the actors was enough of a silent talk
pointing at these very emotions.
To be in charge if your own Life.
Fears take control of our life
when we believe they are in control.
This happen due to a panic reaction.
So what should be done
is to take what we do not like
as a feedback.
Instead of taking it as a failure,
ie failure, because it did not turn out to be as we expected.
Failure is only if you label it so.
This is the power of the words,
the spell-ing.
So take it as a feedback.
Then, integrate it in your field.
Imagine your field being your body
it has like any organism to grow
we grow either through our own choices, stepping ahead to accomplish something - joy
or forced by pain
either way to make our field grow.
The growth of this field happens
once we learn to integrate the feedback to our field
call it magnetic field
it'll grow like a cellular division that gives a foetus.
So this feedback will integrate our field
like a cell
and will grow
and be part of us.
For this to happen
we need to pluck that feedback
like a flower
and give it love
look at it with innocent observation
with the unique objective of reaching our set goal.
Important thing about the agnya
the attention should be seen like a particle of light
that hit the object
and return to us its wave
to be stored into our ego or superego.
By the way, that pretty much answer the
question if the atom is a light or a particle, honestly.
Back to the main point,
therefore, the intent behind the attention
is that which you reap for yourself.
Intent, judgement that hit the objects by a loaded attention
will return you back a wave that would be quite asymmetric.
such as fear, and other imbalances, judgement and other imbalances.
Example: You see someone doing something funny
you instantly judge it
and that data returns back to you and is stored in your system.
No harm there.
Yet, next time you want to take part in say a talk,
you will feel fear of being laughed at; that is stored in your system
through your previous experience.
You are judged by which you judge.
So this is why the letting go is a key element in our attention.
As a human being, we cannot suppress such hasty judgement,
but as a work in progress, we can remember to forgive, ie let go of the embedded judgement
in our attention,
so that in the future, the attention be so bright, liberated, unloaded, that we just are in the moment,
and just enjoying the moment.
The whole purpose of life
is to remember our Divinity; how we are the expression of it
and also to embody it to help others to remember theirs too.
Isn't it paradoxical on one hand to pretend that,
on the other hand to see same people feeling envious, jealous,
and. thus not wishing the good for the others that they have been asserting as philosophy of their life before.
This point I never got it.
I had definitely felt these feelings too
but. again; how long do you stay with them?
You can let them be passing shades
or become your fossilised identities.
Amazing happening
Yesterday night
all of sudden I got awake
and as soon as I opened my eyes
I got an intense extremely quick flash of light
it was all red in my vision in the background.
And then there were a non stop succession
of rapidly scrolling images on top of that
I would say may be thousands of them!
I couldn't even see the images, so fast the speed was!
It was like thousands of computer files being downloaded!!
Impossible to have time to view one single image
so incredibly fast that download was..
This lasted at least 15 to 20sec (?) or less or more
no idea but that was my first time having such experience.
After this I could also feel electricity going down towards the heart
due to me going back to sleep there were couple of occurrences
where I could feel this electric activity
I even saw myself sending messages lol on WhatsApp
and then once I woke up I did not see any message sent
and got panicked what if I had sent them to the wrong person
describing the happening!
Anyway at this point, dream and reality were one I believe.
Luckily, nothing sent in the middle of the night hahaha
but the senses were for sure extremely heightened after that during the sleep.
The spirit explained that the red background I saw was the Kundalini Fire
and that is very rare to see that
as very few people have seen it
also the images were all of my past and future
and I could see them, as the Kundalini passed through the Agnya.
Now that I think of it,
it is true that Shri Mataji explained
that thoughts are like waves
and when kundalini passes through Agnya
it straightened the waves!
Also it makes even more sense
when you are your thoughts
you are into them
meaning you are identified with them.
How ?
it is like when you are riding a car
you cannot see the car from the outside.
This is the most close example, I can come up with the thoughts identification.
If you are identified with your thoughts,
you are in them
you can't see them
meaning you can't observe them from the outside
only then you see that for what they are
and are not limited or confined by them
so here in my nightly explosive computer download
I'll call it so
thoughts, of the past and the future where seen, from the exterior.
And this time, 100% seen from the exterior, as in pure awareness.
First point being; the pure Awareness of my own thoughts - which I experienced.
The second point, I'd like to highlight is the Power.
That is a mix of electric feel - no element of pain involved - with the sensation that it is so vast and alive.
Incredibly enough, in it located in a human being!
what a hidden wonder!
Lol a bitliek Dr Who phone box, where the inside is bigger than the outside.
No wonder that a human being in full power
would be more powerful than any nuclear technology.
The third point I'd like to mention
is it is independent from you, the you as your usual day to day self.
so it is indeed a power that is in you and yet not dependant of you, the personality
while being the true you at the same time.
So the only part is the mastery of awareness that is missing.
Once you are freed from the bondage of your thoughts,
then with that Risen Power
where you direct you awareness,
you can direct and move mountain of power I feel.
I think this is the meaning of reference by Jesus
when he said you can move mountains if you have faith.
and faith should be understood as a Being in you
to have Faith
is to have the Kundalini Awakened
Once you have it Arisen
like in Quran in chapter Muzzamil
it says O you enshrouded; Arise in the Night
The meaning in that verse is the command to the Kundalini to be cultivated
at night
the vigil at night
will help it arise
you can't force a seed to arise
you need to make it grow by watering it
same here.
Also, the redness of the vision
reminded me of Surah Ar Rahman
This verse came up in my mind.
One should understand that scriptures are meant as a coded text for all levels
from the average man understanding to metaphors which height matches the height/source of revelation.
So it would be unnecessarily fussy to explain the meaning to masses
and nor would it serve any purposes as even then it has to be experienced.
So no point in talks.
Scriptures are also more like rain that water your breakthrough
and also a roadmap to check where you are going through.
In the little fire lit house I could see Fatima (pbuh)
it was said "She is not the Queen of Heaven for nothing".
Though her destiny was to marry Ali (pbuh),
Had she not guarded her virginity by being cautious of the man/suitor who presented himself
in front of her door
the marriage with Ali would not have materialised.
She kept the door shut to him.
From there the lesson that applies is that spiritual people
should guard their spirituality
when at their door any worldly suitor shows up.
Spiritual people marry the heavenly chosen one,
and guarding one's innocence is one's own responsibility
till the promised auspicious match happen.
Going for a person who does not cultivate what I would. call an earthly marriage,
however nice the person is, would be signing one's own spiritual death.
Kiss
Right after meditation yesterday
I was going to sleep and in vision
I saw a diadem
surely on head of shri mataji
but weirdly enough,
this time focus was on the crown
not on She
instead she was a bit like faded
so focus was brought on the crown
zooming on it
there was a red stone
and in it I could see
the reflection of a fire
a bit like when you look through glass and see the fire burning behind the glass
and just before seeing the fire
I saw the light
the spot of light was travelling to the forehead
The crown representing the sahaswrara
now that I think of it
the crown forms does represent flams leaping
just forged now in some gold metal and fixed.
And the light spot ascending
ported by the kundalini at its end,
is the soul from the belly
which when meeting the spirit in the heart
got en-lightened
Noor 'ala noir
light upon light
ie
light of the spirit upon the light of the soul.
and the process of this soul being purified
goes through the fire purification
at the fireplace of the Agnya,
hence the red stone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VR5dlAfgn5I
Best summary of key basis to self purification - from the intent perspective
Letter: 24/The Trap of the Opposites
beloved bhakti,
Love. Anger, violence, greed or envy cannot be overcome
by the cultivation of their opposites.
Because anger itself will cultivate its opposite.
And violence will be present in its cultivated non-violence.
So always be aware of the hypnotic spell of the opposite.
It never solves any problem.
Because it is beating around the bush.
Do not fall into the trap of the opposite.
But understand anger, violence or greed or anything else
directly.
To seek the opposite is a way of escape.
To seek the opposite is cowardice.
Live with your mind as it is.
Do not try to change it.
Be brave to face it and to understand it.
When the light of awareness falls on anger, or greed, or
envy, there is a change.
Awareness acts as a catalytic agent.
And then anger does not change into its opposite.
It is not that violence becomes non-violence.
But there is no-anger.
There is no-violence.
And when there is no-violence, there is no-mind.
And an altogether different dimension opens its door.
The dimension of the spontaneous.
The dimension of the Divine.
22-5-1971.
source: http://oshokala.bizhosting.com/ol24.htm
During meditation I saw shri Mataji in a white sari
Then I saw a black thread necklace with a Huge golden disk - like sun
Spirit said that the black thread represents the blackhole
and the disk the sun
suns that got created and scattered into the creation,
representing thus the Big Bang.
At the end of meditation, I again saw shri Mataji face
in the white clouds.
Since three days,
whenever I close my eyes
I just see a huge fire
yellow flames in the center
and red one on the outside
flaming the whole time
myself I am sitting in front of it
at some point
last time
it dawn on me
after I felt a big hit in the mental space
that with fire we carve images in the mind
these are hypnotic
we live in these images
another world is a dream
the life we live is in an hypnotic mental state
where we have created these images and this dream
but we, as attention, got so much sucked in
that there is a symbiosis between the mind and the image in the fire
once I jerked back out of it
then I had a good headache
imaging being plugged for years
once you are unplug
how do you think your mind will feel?
that was like this.
This is why the more you look for something
you will never see this thing
because you are it
once unplugged
then you can see the fire
and that thing will be in the realm of the fire
from there you can see it
At the beginning of my meditation
I saw myself sitting in meditation with the root chakra in touch with the earth
I could see the earth from a vertically sliced perspective
there below a drop of water was engulfing a hell like realm in it
and linked back to the root chakra
Before flushing it
with attention I made sure that it remains contained in the plasma drop
like the foetus is in a plasma
then I enlarge the plasma to get a bigger bubble around it
so that when I flush it, it does not disperse but remain contained.
At the end of my meditation
I saw the Space
the stars
and the outlined body of a meditating Buddha
sitting in the above
in the constellation
as his body was all made from space and stars
and the outline was made in a shiny silver like colour
lent from the star light surely
I feel like calling it my Higher Self.
Finishing my morning meditation:
I got a the vision of a fire that was lit and grew so high, meters high.
Then, scene shifted to tibetan monks meditating in a cave, but their back were screwed with fake metallic squeleton on top of their spines, like in the movie Equilibrium.
Spirit said, this is symbolic of their rigidity, as they use their right side to cultivate, the mind.
Then scene shifted to a huge Cobra standing in its tail, and coming out of a cool breezy fog.
Again, was told is a very good sign about the growth of my kundalini.
After, I saw some symbolism about the laziness of mine, just saw white bed which split opened in two like a door.
I guess this is the next purification of the entity in me.
Haven't seen it yet.
Was told like for laziness, to purify laziness you need to go slowly.
True, I'd say like a seedling that makes it way through the rocks to the sunshine.
Be persistent and constant. Little by little and lose not the vision of the goal.
Oh at the end, I was told
Why I do not read the bible, as I (Spirit) did read the whole Quran.
So now am on read gospel of Thomas.
At the end, it was said:
"Water still by 28. I need to go now. End meditation".
Lol I didn't get it first what it meant.
Then, when I opened eyes, saw the clock, it was past 27.
Then, I realised, end of meditation now as attention/connection with spirit comes to a standstill for now.
I saw there were curtains folded up on side of the window.
And this is the agnya.
The both channels are covering up the agnya this way.
Some people play with agnya to see in astral. But know it is only the window.
Go for the door/exit instead, in the sahasrara.
This exit on top of Sahasrara is directly linked to an Axis in the upper Spheres, I call it the Firmament. As it is beautiful.
The constellations in there rotate like a disk and turn your axis in the Sahara and this in turn, spirit said, opens more nadis.
It reminds me of the churning of the sea in indian scriptures.
Also, this is awesome when I saw that!
All my upper body is cool now lol
While writing this.
Sahara ra is cool and i feel silence in head and it is flowing till elbows.
Time to meditate for lunch break i guess!
Kiss
The dream.was real, I felt it as if I was living it, like in a day.
I could touch, smell, feel the actions of the gods, of the fighting gods.
For I saw what happened eons before, in space, there were like 3 gods which were fighting.
But their fight was particular, I would call them Titans, Huge, Powerful gods.
They were throwing at each other their own sun.
Formidable blasts were occuring!
After the dream, I asked the Spirit, it said that this was the war in heaven, the big bang.
Power.
They were tied and one to their environment.
The sun was not an outer sun only, it was a star tied to their VERY OWN being, and they were so deftly MASTERING AND STIRRING IT and throwing it. It was a POWERFUL MASTERY.
But oh so destroying, not to say stupid, as it seems story repeat itself.
Today, during my yoga session, all of sudden I felt SO POWERFUL, i mean i felt a rush of power that explained me, rather gave me the above insight about being one with your environment and mastering it at your will.
Humans now are unaware
Yogi know have little awareness but still,
I was given this insight during the yoga,
THE POWER is not power, as you think of this word, lol it is so corrupted word as people take it subjectively.
No.
Power is the PURE BILLION WATTS OF ELECTRICITY going through you and THEREBY HEIGHTENING YOUR SENSES!
THIS IS HOW WHAT YOU KNOW OR FEEL AS PER YOUR HUMAN ABILITY is let's call it water colored vision of the world, it reflects your already fainting power of perception.
But,
Once the Juice go through, this is an ATOMIC BIRTH OF A STAR! WHICH EXPLODES YOUR CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM IN A GOOD WAY!
YOU CAN FULL FORCE SEE, SMELL, HEAR.
IT IS YOUR SENSES, BROUGHT BACK TO YOU!
BUT THIS TIME, it is vivid colors, and it is moving flow of images and life itself.
IT IS
IN BRIEF,
THE LIFE YOU NEVER EVER LIVED!
And YET WHICH IS YOUR BIRTHRIGHT!
BE GOD.
YOU ARE IN GOD, and you don't know it.
And GOD is in you and now you know, but just needs to FEEL IT FULL FORCE. That will be the real vivid color painting with all of your senses mastered and engaged.
After this dream, I got another vision where i was feeling how the snake like energy was entering in me from the root chakra and there is no stopping.
You can't stop it. I got afraid and tried to stop it like pull it away, but it was like a magnet being aspired upwards.
Later spirit told me this was the inception.
Need to inquire more about it.
Apparently, this is how the kundalini got merged with mankind.
Waking up today for meditation at 3.30 I saw in vision,
How in space a god was taken by a symbolic huge hand/fist and thrown like a slingshot on Earth
And there, that god was covered in a white like shawl and was wandering the earth.
That's when the voice said and now you wander there, like a beggar.
The spirit said this means that we are gods
and have been sent on earth to reincarnate there.
And wandering like a beggar means being unaware, lacking this pure awareness.
This makes sense,
especially that if you know not your power,
then you are a slave and are thus in a position of a beggar.
Real Food/Sustenance is from God.
And you can get it only once you get the breakthrough for your awareness.
And thus remember who you are.
