When in nursery
I had a 'real' nightmare
where a white thin with light energy lady
was stifled like a stem
by a male energy not human
that would stifle her by wrapping itself around her
and she was like drowning
like when you know you would die and no one will know
of that calamity and you are on your own.
Of course I would surely wake up the dormitory by screaming
and then inside would feel a little bit relieved that it was a dream
and I would see two nurses/assistant taking care of me
trying to dissipate the nightmare.
Even less may be only twice in a trance like state I would remember that feeling
too vague to remember where it came from and then it would strike me it was same like in that dream.
Today while I was meditating
it is what I saw
Remember the meditation
Spiralling Kundalini awaken like a dragon
raises from beneath the lake
Lady of the Lake
and in its trail all the dust from the mud
at the bottom of the sea
would arise
and you the awakened one (at least partially)
would just see
but this seeing is magic
with no other duty that to see
the light through you eyes is dissolving these particles
atomising the past impressions, trauma and illusions.
And today
I felt and saw in details that same feeling
and finally understood what that nightmare was.
I saw the light thin energy of this white lady
she is like a stem of a tall flower
this energy was growing in between a rock
cleaved in the middle by this stem
both sides of the rock are the right and left channel
denser energy
far denser than the lady's
who is the Kundalini
When I was born
I felt stifled by the male energy that is overbearing
on this earth
too much dense
What a calamity
when the waters surrounds you
and you are born in them
you cannot pinpoint the illusion
as it is all around
no contrast for you to point at the dualism
and find your way
Like an external witness looking at that movie
could say
No chance of salvation no hope
if you cannot even have the chance to see you are in an illusion
the Land of Illusion
but the spark of Light
Spirit within you is there
just asleep but this is the box of Pandora
with the left over
Hope
