How we forget our true identity

When i remember what i heard in the previous video
about the ego
it said, that what we believe that we know about ourselves (thus what we believe that we are) is ONLY a reflection about what society see us/tell us.

likewise, it distorts the truth of what we are.

and strangely enough,
what we are?
commonly, we can start with a physical description
but what is the boundary?
it will extend as far as our experiences are, isn't it?
so that even what we experienced a given day in a given year with a given person, will become part of what we think we are, be it emotionally speaking or in any other way
because it will taint our perception of ourselves
we will feel more or less secure about a topic
and identify with the weakness or strength of our feelings by then.

so far, can our identification process go!
or it can be very narrow, depending on our choices to define ourselves.

and so, loneliness could be a trait of character that we identify ourselves with
and again, it will be defined by the reflection of what society taught us (through our formal learning or life experiences with family, friends or lack of it)

yet, it is not true definition of loneliness
it will be tainted, would be seen through rough glasses, it will be like rays of light reflected by society on us
while it would have absorbed and hidden the other rays of this light
so that the true meaning of loneliness
which i am sure is a beautiful one, which is THE ONE,
will be distorted and forgotten by us
because that loneliness it is also what we are
for we were born and were lonely
and will depart also in that state
it is just that in between we will gather a full range of experiences
which are aimed at awakening us to our true self so that we may dig into it deeper i feel.

so that the experience of being our own friend
could be such a beautiful experience
except that we rarely take pleasure in our own company
so much we have forsaken ourselves : )

Little story about images

in a movie
a son who has been abandoned by his mother
and met her in his adulthood to take his revenge from her
is now willing to change his feelings towards her
since he understood the underlying reasons of her abandoning him.

and he said that as his mother has had so far only a bad image of him
and worked with him and came to know him only as an unfair businessman
for it is the only experience she had with him so far

the only way for her to have another image of him
a renewed image of him
and feel him differently when she looks at him
is for him to do her justice in the business area
by giving her back what he took from her when he was taking his revenge

this is why acts/deeds are important
they help us feel different about a person
and this constitutes the experience we gather about this very person
and the image we have of him
and how we sense ourselves when we are in his vicinity

and thus indirectly our deeds of past experienced by the person
we control the atmospher of joy or lack of it

but greater is to not associate ourselves with the reflection of the people in us
but to know who we are.

Daring to do

Faith
what is faith

Faith is the gap between what we do (cooking meal for someone) and the result of it (its unexpected appreciation)
we do not control the result
but we control what we are (doing)

focus is just one pointed (on what we ARE doing)
such a great amount of concentration
to be what you desire  (= real doing)

and then,
you let it explode,
when you bring your gift into a new atmospher
where it shines
this shining is the one into which you bathe yourself
and it is through this shining
that everything is shared.

Dropping the Ego

This is a very straight to the point video
listen to it well,

 

 

Neat and clean :

 

Ego is the self we imagine to BE.  : ) right now it makes me smile, for if  I AM how can i imagine what i am, as it is PRESENT in front of me? so it simply means i do not have yet eyes to see, for my eyes/sight/attention is diverted/veiled by some other seeing, with which i identify myself with.

 

so any seeing is not me, for in truth  I AM that true self born with when i was a baby.

 

Ego : is when we catch someone's attention and the reflection we get from his reaction constitutes our identity then. Ego is just the reflection of the outside world (absorbed in us).

 

Role playing, we all have this acute sense of role playing, our rhythm of being, reaction and automatic responses and manners of beings are different from family to school to friends' setting. this is why students are "shy" in front of classroom. not because they are shy people by nature, hell no way, they are the ones that bully you in the school lol. no, they go shy because they see Inside the discrepancy between their way of acting in group and now they are standing in front of their same peers and have to play the role of a student. so it clashes with their former identity.

and also this is why they laugh and giggle without reason it seems.

but no, it is just that they sense it, and as the guy say in the video, no one tells them it is because you are right to SENSE the gap in your roles switching, and NOW turn Inside.

instead the teacher will laugh at their oddities and the friends too and finally the poor student performing in front of the classroom will too find himself quite silly to perform.

 

it is like i feel, in life, at times, only foolishness exists (in the sense of everything is done in excess) and there is hardly ever anyone who cares to tell you

where sanity lies.

it is not about judging, but it is about showing you boundary,

not for the sake of rules or severity, but for the sake of helping you to turn Inside.

unless this someone exists, you can't remember ... and it is most probable that this someone exists in your daily life, and you have been the one who has been so far blind to give him/her credit.

 

I liked the part about the dead leaves dropping,

they drop, for it is simply into the Absolute Awareness of it falling,

you do not have to do any effort for it to fall lol,

but just to be aware of it falling.

that is pure awareness

without association.

that is purity of faith.

of witnessing.

which brings you back to what you ARE.

 

so just let it fall.

just see it falling

for in any case it will fall,

do not make effort

you know it is bound to fall no?

so just see it, for ONCE, in your life,

simply fall.