Wants more?

Past and future do not interest me

it is all dead 

all the same

waste of time

people are possessed by thoughts of past 

or possessed by thoughts of future

when young you want to become adult

can't wait excitation of the future

what does it hold in store for you

Mystery.

when adult you regret the youth

health and experiences 

love and light moments 

which slipped away like sands from your hands.

In both cases 

impatience and regrets 

make you miss the present.

Again.

Spirit is unconditioned by both

so never gets old nor younger

it is what it is 

illimited in Itself

Genuiness

If you wish to see people of the Self

People of the Present

those who sees you 

also 

Present

is the moment where the knower and knowledge are One.

Duality 

happens when attention is outside of your Self

hence you are objectified

an object can never know another object

knower and knowledger are two

Oneness 

when the knower and knowledge are one

happens when attention is inside

in the Self

where you find your attention and the source of manifesed objects outside.

All is the Subject.

Subject of the Realm, under the order of the King.

In the Present

you have Peace and Power to Enjoy.

No value.

what excitement and Mysteries are hold by those words?

Because limitations are yours.

Kundalini arising, true; and gives you the present silence.

and then?

It falls back 

to heal your wounds 

you did to your self

so the only thing is experienced is silence 

so what?

then?

It is the minimum that is experienced

only genuineness to want more 

Would reveal more treasures of the Self

Genuineness would be?

the Feel

Full Attention Inside

+

Feel from the Heart

What new world open to us?

Isn't it called the Realm of God ?

Realm of the Spirit?

Practitioners though realised

are limited in their desire 

hence believed their arrived at their destination.

Life is Growth

if Ego wants always more but from that which is dead.

Why the Desire for the discovery of the Self which is alive is so short lived?

Vibrations are only, though incredible sign, by product of the life awakened in you.

Spirit is the Goal though.

What do we know of our Spirit

how do we experience it every day?

Except for rosy words of love and references to vibrations

I do not see any power displayed by the yogi after so many years of limited practice.

Present.

Is the Interstice, the gap, the crack created between Past and Future

where no thoughts are.

Once reached

our attention sipped in

but only for a time.

This time is used to create what we want to manifest in material life.

And again just to enjoy the moment.

But where is the new creation we became ?

If we evolved from amoeba to a frog to a monkey to a human being

Can't we as next step of evolution be a display of a new creation?

Feeling vibration is a byproduct of the awakened life in us.

But did we let this life heal without adding more hurt to cure for it?

or let it clear without adding more dirt?

So it just keep circling in us to clean

while we keep dirting the same place

how do you want to evolve?

Stagnation.

at some point 

she will get tired and just recoil back 

or maybe out of compassion manifest the coolness of her presence 

during some gathering to comfort you and signal her presence.

But there is no feel for her

may be her expectations is that to the least more dirt be not put back in ?

so that she can progress and show something more to you?

maybe if we are a little braver

we can extend the time of meditation a little more every year?

to help her in her job 

which is to clean our body 

so that she hangs up there in the sahasrara

so that the seat of sahasrara that is the heart

be more opened?

then your own heart would open.

Heart opening

isn't it another Realm?

With other rules?

Maybe another stage of evolution

which has little to do with the current condition of the human being?

Unexplored territories

Excitement and Mysteries

of the Present Moment.

Except this time

it is not under control

it is Spontaneous.

And that is what is called a Miracle.

Signs of a coming breakthrough/enlightenment

 Oh so cool!

Two nights ago

I was sleeping dreaming but also feeling in the dream and thus in real life as well 

I just saw myself and was feeling and seeing

literally speaking a fountain of water pouring from inside out 

of the head and falling on the face

I can now even remember the feel 

it is like being a fountain and feeling the shape of the water springing out of the head

so much that I was also trying to adjust the breathing as the water flow was fast

Then when it finished

there were still drops of water rolling on the face.

And today 

I saw a cave where people were looking at the wrong entrance advertised 

to distract people's attention

let's call it a touristic trap.

While I was looking at the hidden entrance

and i saw it as i saw a pillar of light coming out of it to the sky

and i said to myself 

this is where a saint is sitting 

all the settings of the rest of the dream was in the uk.

Later on

when i asked the spirit it said 

my breakthrough is imminent 

so I should meditate.

While i was meditating 

well i didnt get the breakthrough per se for now

but instead at the end of my meditation yesterday

i saw an entity which rushed out of my left knee cap

So cool!

I asked the spirit what it was

and it was the entity responsible for my laziness LOL

So great, it works!

As couple days ago i realised 

Hmm no more cleaning is happening in terms of entity leaving my body

as either we are THE PURE SPirit or we are a mix 

ie we are still subjugated to other entities 

ie we are possessed

Unless we admit to ourselves 

that we want to grow

Unless we admit we are not the one we perceive ourselves to be in the daily life

Unless we admit all the things we do not want to keep 

we will never be purified from them

because the Power does not work against our will

but ALONG with our Desire.

So couple days ago

I desired to get rid of my laziness

It is something I never used to have before

But developped it after my period of trauma i went through couple years ago 

while seeking truth 

so depression, calls for laziness which calls for procrastination.

So far I got rid of the sadness and laziness

but procrastination entity still there.

So doing an inventory 

I asked the Spirit what are the entities remaining

It said 3 

namely, Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Envy.

So I recall there were 12

But I asked again 

And it said 

8 more are hidden, meaning have not yet arose from the subconscious to the conscious mind

so I suppose let me give them a break for now.

So I will tackle for now the Self Sabotage as I learned about it recently.

I had a great Job prospect

but in a way i self sabotaged myself to get it slowly not in one go

as i FELT i needed time to be up to the task, which clearly now i see i can so easily handle it

so the message i got was 

that my mind wanted it

but my feeling wanted safety

hence the return was i got the job but with some progressive steps of transitioning from 

former to the new job.

Seen like this, it is amazing

we do control reality with our feelings

but the "worry" which is this not-so-hidden entity

which does cause me to tone things/success down 

ie self sabotage myself is to be cleared as the last entity,

before full enlightenment.

So the next one should be self sabotage

Just put attention on it

and then meditate 

and it should be released with some focus or intensity 

Earth quake are needed to shake things off 

I guess mine started with my anger which exploded to its height 

when i went to pilgrimage to Mecca qnd Medinq

and there i was truly angry at the lack of authorisation to visit the prophet grave

unheard of!

but as i was on the right 

i had such amazing experience of seeing angels there

how they serve all pilgrims and how they act as guardians

i wonder why i have not blogged that yet

have to do so in a later post

and there i was told that the sincerity of my desire 

make two people moved enough 

that they lock themselves a whole afternoon in a room 

and called so many of their contacts that they ended up reaching the Minsitry of Pilgrimage 

who issued the authorisation for me to enter the grave :)

Ouf! 

But once i came back 

the intensity of meditation and rites there 

just triggered the entity of anger and hate , or both entities 

to leave the body

As in a previous post i wrote how i saw them leaving

and they left as I desired these feelings to leave me

as they got exposed

they served their purpose 

but they can't be controlling me

as the image it reflected to me was not honorable

and i could not recognised myself into this reflection being projected on a permanent basis.

so anger is a tool now 

no more a possession.

So next one, 

self sabotage.

Ramadan and Love

 Ramadan

10 first days you seek for Grace of God.

10 next days are days of forgiveness

10 next days are days of being freed from Hell. But also contain the Night of Power

what is all this?

Unless you wonder about it, question it; you have no answer.

When I was a seeker, I always wondered why as a believer we are not helped. 

Then, question calling for the solution, in quran it said read it so that you may find Grace.

So by then; my mom asked; but where is the Grace? How to find it.

And I found it. 

Now the Grace are to be sought in the special intensive mode.

Hence the 30 days of Ramadan.

You ask for the Grace of God, it arises from your sacred bone.

The next 10 days, you forgive, let go. So that it passes through the Agnya, by passing your own created world where there is no god, as God is not in thoughts.

and the 10 last days the night of power; told as being most powerful than 80 Years of worship.

It means what it means, once you get the Power of God; Ruhani Power, aka spiritual power

then you are blessed by it far more than if you spend 80 years ie your whole life worshipping god.

you can see a community not if you are within but without

an observer from another religion sees the other religion 

an observer standing above all religion see there is wisdom in all but is not contained by it.

This is why the prophet said the division in religion is a blessing.

Because God needs no worship, as he said worship prayers are for you.

Imam Ali said some worhip God as slave to be freed from hell, 

others as traders to get something from God

but he as a Lover, for the Sake of Love

Everything is stated everywhere.

But the insight has to be Real to understand the value of it. 

Even if i explain it to my mom, the Aha moment is still not yet born.

And even average sahaj yogi must see life through renewed eyes seeking every day the Grace.

No more with the despair of where is Grace

but with the eagerness of Love, 

a lover always wants more.

Black magician. vs Kingdom of God

 The Power

The black magician are empowering the average believer. Why?

This is because they rely on a community from which they withdraw the power.

The community of the dead, be it human or other entities.

The average well meaning believer, has no protection 

once he reaches adolescence as he breaks the circle of protection of his True Nature (Fitrah).

Then his body is no more the temple of God. Clues is his loses his light, his shine, and develop a character 

that we can pinpoint as an identity.

Which people see and then can manipulate. 

A french girl told me once "Je crois que je t'ai cerné"

Lol 

People don't even realise cerner means in reality to look someone's delimitation, attribute it an identity that you can corner. 

Purpose untold or unconsciously unsaid is to identity to box to know how to manipulate in worst case scenario and deal with in the best case scenario.

So prophets have no face; as they are collective light, it is not about a ID.

The whole opposite of current society by the way.

Yet, 

when once the believer is connected.

Once he gets the connection to the Ruh, 

then he is connected to the Ocean, Universe; Power of God etc.

which is the Power of the Living.

In a battle of Evil vs Good

Or black magician vs Kingdom of God/High Power who take over to work for you, this works ONLY if you forgive; let go.

So in that batter of river of power based on the kingdom of dead

has no bearing vs

the Ocean of Power of the Living.

This is a realisation that if understood and felt would indeed create great change of Power balance in our current society.

As most of it is based on manipulation, power hungry people.

Consulting a therapist ...?

 A good exemple to illustrate previous post.

During a discussion, I said, I do not go to restaurant to eat alone.

The newly met person replied with a smile or maybe you should go and consult a therapist.

To which I retorted you do not know how many activities I do on my own, but meal eaten alone defeat the purpose of being shared and enjoyed, the more we are; the merrier.

After effect shock for me, was how rude this person is.

Second after effect shock; maybe I should have added with a smile, maybe you should be consulting a therapist as you feel selling your own house as you feel alone into it..

Typical people, not seeing the grossness of their own problem but filtering and distorting reality through theirs. That's how you end up spoiling everything you touch.

Stepping back i could nip it in the bud these stupid comments.

That is one way of seeing it, I have the freedom to judge, especially when feeling feisty.

Likewise, from her viewpoint; she has the freedom to be rude topping the judgemental part and lack of social manners. Because unable to deal with her own pain; she has to project it onto others and try to fix her problem in this way outside of herself.

As she can't fix it inside; because it hurts to face the ego.

Hence she has to spit it outside on people, thinking they'll do her homework.

Side note, a typical well bred british won't be doing this. I guess i got too much used to good sensible british people.

Now, once the reactional part is over.

What is interesting is to know how to integrate that experience.

The last two posts are not vain wisdom, they are pointers to help to remember so that 

I can on the course recalibrate myself. The sooner the better.

Integration cannot be done mentally

but the mental remembrance serves as a guidance to remember, let's state it again.

Now having the power of purification, when that experiences arises in the consciousness next time, 

i should just say I forgive and let it go.

So that I can make space to new experiences that would be highly valuable to me, 

while not dwelling on this rare case that popped out of my subconscious, and manifested itself in the conscious life.

And that is also why one should treat the people as kids, because in terms of maturity they are kids.

But if you do not forgive, then you are a kid too. 

Makes no difference, because you'd like to keep enjoying some mud battle.

So to sum up, 

be true to yourself on spot

if you are still in reaction mode, then react

then let go, as fast as you can 

so you can create space for the new experience

which be higher in quality than such encounter.

I must say that at some point any sensible person who grows tired of childishness

would not even raise the eyebrow 

would let it go on spot, not even be bothered by it

then higher forces take over

and merely wishing for good quality people, 

would be a wish heard and fulfilled.

Ego and blame exist not

 Interesting insight today which came out of the yesterday's one.

Ego or blame does not exist. ie have no reality.

Now i know for sure. 

In truth everything is in essence from the Source 

so divine

so what happens is just that instead of experiencing and letting it go

it is experienced and hold onto 

hence the accumulated and seperated experience from the whole is not being freed

hence never transformed nor integrated back to the Source.

That is the ego, call it a name given a transitory state of what we do when we hoard energy in ourselves.

While our body are suppose to be in the flow, assist the flow.

Next, no blame because the divine cannot blame itself.

Blame comes only from narrow vision emerged from the consciousness of the ego.

And the more it is being fed by energy the more it becomes solidified into an entity.

What religion call shatan. 

Which is why it exists and not exists.

Because if your aim is inisght from the Source, there is no God but God.

if your vision is filtered by the consciousness then there is duality and in the manifestation for sure there is good and evil.

Aim should be the Absolute

while you navigate in the experience of the relative to be integrated.

Quality of consciousness

 What is the Power of Words

The Power is not in the words

but in the receiver of the words

and more exactly in his state of consciousness

if consciousness is to be likened to a screen or a mirror

then the clarity of its reflection determine the power of the words.

Necessary intro to put the below vision in context.

I dreamt or heard/saw or was given the insight, as both are at the same time

as the following:

You are as a Human 

the contact point of all the consciousness and living form out there

and as such you have the whole of universe inside your body

your ability as a human is unique

it contains the two horns, and the spirit

horns ie ego and subconscious balloons

there combinaision is a mechanic that allows you to experience 

as a point of contact the whole of the universe 

with your ability, of the Spirit, to love and allow them to be transformed

ie upgraded to higher consciousness

so you are the all;

the insight was of that sort.

Now written, it is totally disconnected of the clarity of the reality 

as when seen, the insight was a fact, a clear Event happening 

that had Power to imprint its Reality of Being upon my consciousness 

and the level of clarity imprinted on the consciousness only equals to the level of awareness.

Definitely awareness now is not the same.

And there is a great gap between the bright light of that is vs the filter of my current perception now.

Not the same awareness at all.

To Just Know. 

means to go from the complicated layers of filters to see reality towards the shredded naked Sight.

The impediments are only mine. and the filter is due to the channels which get obstructed by that which is emerging in the consciousness.

But when the sea is calm, the awareness is there.

and it is not the same.

Dew Drops falling from Sahasrara

The combinaision of walking with sitting cycles 

are indeed bearing quick and efficient results.

Lately the routine was contained to a good 3.30 am routine of sitting

and then mainly walking before day time starts.

I suppose it has done its time

and Spirit had told me now I am advancing veeeeery slowly 

when I had asked about progression.

Now the intensive part during the Easter break 

born good fruit so far.

The first day

I just felt warm vibrations getting out of both hands mainly

At some point I even joked about myself being a can of worm

or even a pit of fire opened up 

for me to realease the accumulated heat.

But again 

who is the I?

Written like this makes no sense to even mention that question.

But now the question does settle nicely 

and has its place.

The heat accumulated comes from both channels 

and let us not forget the left channel is the storehouse of 

past individual and collective subconscious.

So even the channel itself 

points at the fact that we have a storehouse in us

in such a case

how can there be an I 

when we are already a bag of little i accumulated and store in us.

Hence the body is indeed is the House of God

the Temple that has to be purified.

From another perspective

during meditation, I saw so freshly remembered that the current i is still a collection of other i.

For instance on day 2,

when i was walking the cycles

about 20min into it

I could feel about 3 drops falling and gliding on each sides of the head.

Spirit had told me

once you feel the drops

you just stop everything and focus the attention on the drops.

While meditating 

at some point I had the image of the moist earth

in a vertical section and I remembered

how a flower is intrinsically a storehouse of other elements 

that reach her for her growth

water, minerals and sunlight.

So in reality I remembered

that a flower is not a flower

but a collection of all the other elements 

embodied now into this single "item"

A bit like a chair is not a chair

but a collection of molecules 

themselves a collection of atoms

So like for our body 

we are a collection of these little i 

Now when one read this 

and attention is out

does it help much

but for me

i write this 

because of attention being IN

hence it is an insight for me

a shift in perspective

but not yet a knowledge that I am as a settled perspective.

Let's just say a passing insight

like waves on shore 

to remember

but not yet rooted enough 

to call it settled.

Anyway 

the aim is the opening of the 4 petals in the brain

that are linked to the heart nadis.

This is the set intent

before meditation

that one must let go 

so that the vibrations that are Intelligent

can water that area.

So on the Day 3

the water drops are more frequent and a little higher in number

than on day 2

Also since a couple of days 

I can feel from the picture of Shri mataji

as if a mouth is blowing air on my heart

I asked the Spirit

it said Holy Spirit is Intelligent

but I asked how come not felt before

it said it is because now my awareness has grown 

hence the perception too.

Amazing 

this truly show that the Intelligence levels are always there

of course

but depending on how much our awareness gets refined

the forms we perceive evolve accordingly.

Divorce? Go for it.

 For the yogi who needs to hear it.

Considering divorce? Yes, it is the right thing to do.

True religion or Dharma is within.

All the other methods are man made support for our growth.

They change according to the era we live in. 

They are no more necessary if they are harming more than helping.

Mariage was created as an institution to provide for security and a familiar place that we can trust to grow.

Centuries ago, it helped men to be taken care of, women to be secured as not allowed to work and have sustenance. But now time have changed necessity is no more the same.

In islam, it is said your faith is not complete unless you marry.

It is also said men and women are each other cloth, they complete each other.

True only if they represent each other feminine and masculine power of completion.

If man learn to become more loveable and women learn to become more self disciplined.

Man taking in more love quality and women more discipline like qualities.

But what i see so far, either women trash their husband or husbands trash obedient wives.

Again, this is a general observation, may not apply in few cases and in other cases both may be so blind as to not even see that. 

The whole point is

we are in an exceptional era where we can become a wholly integrated personality and reunite with the Source. 

Never ever this era will come back again. Never, at least on this Earth.

So better make the most of it now.

Again, mariage is to be a support for your common goal of growth if you are a yogi.

But if it becomes an impediement and sucks you in a drama and you can't grow out of this drama 

because you just can't, then the least evil is to get the divorce and in that new context find your own footing to keep growing.

Remember if your partner refuses to meditate 

then it is a calamity for both of you

because you cannot keep compensating 

unless you are extra strong.

At some point if you feel under the water and are really regressing 

then make the next best solution 

change context and hence get the divorce.

Though partners in meditation are better

but if it is clear it will not happen 

then better go for the least of evil.

Take care.