Mother Mary's message - Joy

 I wished to be a support 

for those who needed it

and I spent so many years 

to give that support

recycle the negative into the positive

to accumulate and transform the trauma we all receive from life

this way is called 

to die for the other.

It is helpful or not 

depends on the other

most of people do not cultivate

so it is a temporary gratification 

they do not change

and get worse and greedier with life

that is slipping out of hand

like sand

yesterday 

reading a sufi book 

I got inspired

and remembered one verse from the Quran 

which always made me wonder

surah Anissa ayah 78-79

Wherever you be will overtake you [the] death even if you are in towers lofty. And if befalls them any good they say, "This (is) from Allah," And if befalls them any evil they say, "This (is) from you." Say, "All (is) from Allah." So what (is wrong) (with) these [the] people, not do they seem (to) understand any statement.

What(ever) befalls you of (the) good (is) from Allah, and whatever befalls you of (the) evil (is) from yourself. And We (have) sent you for the people (as) a Messenger, and sufficient (is) Allah (as) a Witness.

Simply put 

in our experience 

we should just desire to experience Joy.

This is why 

I had seen Mother Mary 

in my room

she was cleaning the floor

and she was beaming of joy

the light of joy

of course I knew it was the highlight

but there are worlds between knowing and being that.

That's where the life experiment comes in

till we understood and embed that simple truth

All is from God

good and bad. ultimately.

Good when you receive it, you are grateful as you know its source is God

and the bad, with your pain felt, you have to give it to God too 

for it to be transformed to good

transformation or alchemy 

if you keep it, then you are weighing your back down with unnecessary burden.

Hence, just give thanks when all good

and ask forgiveness, ie let go, everything else

the bad, the hard, the messy, and also the neutral, 

ie most of our responsibilities we take upon ourselves

as a parents, as a child, as a worker etc.

Because as per evolution

Only Joy is meant to beam out of us

and all the rest we let it flow.

So expect Joy from life my friend

because ultimately

a coin has two sides

good and bad 

and God is the 'spine' of this coin

the witness of both 

and if you keep the good, it ll be cut from growth as cut from source 

so try to make it grow on your own. you ll fail.

That's why despite so much love

children fail their parents

as parents took upon the responsibility of making them in their image

just do what common sense ask you to do as your day to day task

but do not be clingy, greedy, attached.

Be grateful.

As for the bad, 

ask forgiveness in abundance

ie not as a victim or sinner lol

but as in letting go of any bad, and especially anything that is not Joy giving

and just expect, experience and beam joy

Agnya and Sahasrara

 Rabbi Zidni ilma

God increase me in knowledge

Nafs written in a book 

once I opened it, it hit me innerly/.

Was in my dream long ago, where I was browsing in a library 

doing that prayer 

which answer was as above.

Self knowledge

self realisation

is to get your soul ascend and 

reach the heart

Child of the heart you may say.

As I practised meditation with this focus.

Light of soul ascending in heart, 

two nights ago 

I saw myself as a 10 year old child

with a rope of light tied to prophet Issa alai hi Salam's heart.

He was steady, peaceful as usual.

I believe I see him once every year.

This time the focus was on me as a child and how I was tied to him.

Also remember

All good is multiplied by 10.

All bad deeds count as one (except in Mecca Medina btw).

Any good you do

is God acting through you.

Any bad 

is yours to give it up to God

for transformation.

So give your bad to god

I.e. Let go.

This is meaning of forgiveness.

Hence forgiveness is gate to heavenly Kingdom

Agngya before Sahasrara entrance.

Good and Bad belongs to God.

Good is God acting through you.

And Bad either you do not admit to it, and ask forgiveness/Let go and you rot with it as dead do.

or you give it back to god, I.e. surrender it as you do for the good.

Hence all good and bad belongs to God

Positive and Negative charge is neutraL.

They better be joined in God 

then separated as greedy, keeping good and giving bad to others

or fake humility, thinking you can do good and purify from bad.

No

All good and bad 

belongs to God

Best Creator or creators.

And remember 

neutral charge 

is where we have no judgment.

You pass heaven judgment free.

Milk poured over the Kaaba and Heart opening

Yesterday I was meditating 

In a vision I saw 

the Kaaba and such huge amount of milk 

was being poured upon

that it covered it all in white

I was told these are my felicities

Remember the Kaaba represents the Temple of God 

Within

Everyone has the same light

it is just to "Remember" it

Hence Quran name is Az Zikr 

Zikr means "Remember"

Next, 

First time that happened

I felt my heart acting 

ACTING

on its own 

like an external limb

Re-member

Heart is the Member of your body

Was out of control

i.e. out of the mind, conscious control 

It was like it was pushing away a thickness 

I even used my hands to dispel or verify what was in front of me

of course nothing 

I did not feel that thickness in the air, either.

I thought I better stop probing the waters in front of me lol

or I may look odd 

hahaha 

imagine, who is this bizarre person waving hands like that hahaha

Anyway,

then I realised it was denser layers of darknesses

that were covering the heart

that got shed off

After I felt like a slight pain running through the left arm

you would think it is a bit like 

when you get a heart attack

not that it was painful as such

However 

better to die before you die right?

what I mean by that the heart felt all of sudden lighter in weight 

same with the left arm 

and cool breeze shoot out of the centre of the palm

So ego shedding off 

is what you can call one step on the path of 

letting go of the notion of seperation 

between mortal vs immortal worlds.

Confirmed today

Heart lighter 

so it evolved.

During this meditation another person was seeing the light of God and the light of the prophet

while on my side I was focusing precisely on these two by way of my imagination.

Which confirmed to me

the plasma light is ultimately

what we call 

Body of Light 

when you transform into the light body

But here these were seen by another person 

as their state 

which is awesome

And my experimenting where I focus on their light 

is how it ties back to another dimension of transpire 

in another's vision.

Well, it is as it is

because spirit is one, 

hence screen is the same.

However, I did not mention it

as I am just trying to find out and test how this works myself.

Respect to the sufi who persevere

in their practice

Takes time, there is transmission, path is different

however 

you know 

learn not to distinguish between the

Grace wherever you find it

take it

Sitting in meditation

I benefit them

and they benefit me

as Spirit 

is

One.

End of meditation with Sufis.

Silent Meditation.