Wants more?

Past and future do not interest me

it is all dead 

all the same

waste of time

people are possessed by thoughts of past 

or possessed by thoughts of future

when young you want to become adult

can't wait excitation of the future

what does it hold in store for you

Mystery.

when adult you regret the youth

health and experiences 

love and light moments 

which slipped away like sands from your hands.

In both cases 

impatience and regrets 

make you miss the present.

Again.

Spirit is unconditioned by both

so never gets old nor younger

it is what it is 

illimited in Itself

Genuiness

If you wish to see people of the Self

People of the Present

those who sees you 

also 

Present

is the moment where the knower and knowledge are One.

Duality 

happens when attention is outside of your Self

hence you are objectified

an object can never know another object

knower and knowledger are two

Oneness 

when the knower and knowledge are one

happens when attention is inside

in the Self

where you find your attention and the source of manifesed objects outside.

All is the Subject.

Subject of the Realm, under the order of the King.

In the Present

you have Peace and Power to Enjoy.

No value.

what excitement and Mysteries are hold by those words?

Because limitations are yours.

Kundalini arising, true; and gives you the present silence.

and then?

It falls back 

to heal your wounds 

you did to your self

so the only thing is experienced is silence 

so what?

then?

It is the minimum that is experienced

only genuineness to want more 

Would reveal more treasures of the Self

Genuineness would be?

the Feel

Full Attention Inside

+

Feel from the Heart

What new world open to us?

Isn't it called the Realm of God ?

Realm of the Spirit?

Practitioners though realised

are limited in their desire 

hence believed their arrived at their destination.

Life is Growth

if Ego wants always more but from that which is dead.

Why the Desire for the discovery of the Self which is alive is so short lived?

Vibrations are only, though incredible sign, by product of the life awakened in you.

Spirit is the Goal though.

What do we know of our Spirit

how do we experience it every day?

Except for rosy words of love and references to vibrations

I do not see any power displayed by the yogi after so many years of limited practice.

Present.

Is the Interstice, the gap, the crack created between Past and Future

where no thoughts are.

Once reached

our attention sipped in

but only for a time.

This time is used to create what we want to manifest in material life.

And again just to enjoy the moment.

But where is the new creation we became ?

If we evolved from amoeba to a frog to a monkey to a human being

Can't we as next step of evolution be a display of a new creation?

Feeling vibration is a byproduct of the awakened life in us.

But did we let this life heal without adding more hurt to cure for it?

or let it clear without adding more dirt?

So it just keep circling in us to clean

while we keep dirting the same place

how do you want to evolve?

Stagnation.

at some point 

she will get tired and just recoil back 

or maybe out of compassion manifest the coolness of her presence 

during some gathering to comfort you and signal her presence.

But there is no feel for her

may be her expectations is that to the least more dirt be not put back in ?

so that she can progress and show something more to you?

maybe if we are a little braver

we can extend the time of meditation a little more every year?

to help her in her job 

which is to clean our body 

so that she hangs up there in the sahasrara

so that the seat of sahasrara that is the heart

be more opened?

then your own heart would open.

Heart opening

isn't it another Realm?

With other rules?

Maybe another stage of evolution

which has little to do with the current condition of the human being?

Unexplored territories

Excitement and Mysteries

of the Present Moment.

Except this time

it is not under control

it is Spontaneous.

And that is what is called a Miracle.

Signs of a coming breakthrough/enlightenment

 Oh so cool!

Two nights ago

I was sleeping dreaming but also feeling in the dream and thus in real life as well 

I just saw myself and was feeling and seeing

literally speaking a fountain of water pouring from inside out 

of the head and falling on the face

I can now even remember the feel 

it is like being a fountain and feeling the shape of the water springing out of the head

so much that I was also trying to adjust the breathing as the water flow was fast

Then when it finished

there were still drops of water rolling on the face.

And today 

I saw a cave where people were looking at the wrong entrance advertised 

to distract people's attention

let's call it a touristic trap.

While I was looking at the hidden entrance

and i saw it as i saw a pillar of light coming out of it to the sky

and i said to myself 

this is where a saint is sitting 

all the settings of the rest of the dream was in the uk.

Later on

when i asked the spirit it said 

my breakthrough is imminent 

so I should meditate.

While i was meditating 

well i didnt get the breakthrough per se for now

but instead at the end of my meditation yesterday

i saw an entity which rushed out of my left knee cap

So cool!

I asked the spirit what it was

and it was the entity responsible for my laziness LOL

So great, it works!

As couple days ago i realised 

Hmm no more cleaning is happening in terms of entity leaving my body

as either we are THE PURE SPirit or we are a mix 

ie we are still subjugated to other entities 

ie we are possessed

Unless we admit to ourselves 

that we want to grow

Unless we admit we are not the one we perceive ourselves to be in the daily life

Unless we admit all the things we do not want to keep 

we will never be purified from them

because the Power does not work against our will

but ALONG with our Desire.

So couple days ago

I desired to get rid of my laziness

It is something I never used to have before

But developped it after my period of trauma i went through couple years ago 

while seeking truth 

so depression, calls for laziness which calls for procrastination.

So far I got rid of the sadness and laziness

but procrastination entity still there.

So doing an inventory 

I asked the Spirit what are the entities remaining

It said 3 

namely, Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Envy.

So I recall there were 12

But I asked again 

And it said 

8 more are hidden, meaning have not yet arose from the subconscious to the conscious mind

so I suppose let me give them a break for now.

So I will tackle for now the Self Sabotage as I learned about it recently.

I had a great Job prospect

but in a way i self sabotaged myself to get it slowly not in one go

as i FELT i needed time to be up to the task, which clearly now i see i can so easily handle it

so the message i got was 

that my mind wanted it

but my feeling wanted safety

hence the return was i got the job but with some progressive steps of transitioning from 

former to the new job.

Seen like this, it is amazing

we do control reality with our feelings

but the "worry" which is this not-so-hidden entity

which does cause me to tone things/success down 

ie self sabotage myself is to be cleared as the last entity,

before full enlightenment.

So the next one should be self sabotage

Just put attention on it

and then meditate 

and it should be released with some focus or intensity 

Earth quake are needed to shake things off 

I guess mine started with my anger which exploded to its height 

when i went to pilgrimage to Mecca qnd Medinq

and there i was truly angry at the lack of authorisation to visit the prophet grave

unheard of!

but as i was on the right 

i had such amazing experience of seeing angels there

how they serve all pilgrims and how they act as guardians

i wonder why i have not blogged that yet

have to do so in a later post

and there i was told that the sincerity of my desire 

make two people moved enough 

that they lock themselves a whole afternoon in a room 

and called so many of their contacts that they ended up reaching the Minsitry of Pilgrimage 

who issued the authorisation for me to enter the grave :)

Ouf! 

But once i came back 

the intensity of meditation and rites there 

just triggered the entity of anger and hate , or both entities 

to leave the body

As in a previous post i wrote how i saw them leaving

and they left as I desired these feelings to leave me

as they got exposed

they served their purpose 

but they can't be controlling me

as the image it reflected to me was not honorable

and i could not recognised myself into this reflection being projected on a permanent basis.

so anger is a tool now 

no more a possession.

So next one, 

self sabotage.

Ramadan and Love

 Ramadan

10 first days you seek for Grace of God.

10 next days are days of forgiveness

10 next days are days of being freed from Hell. But also contain the Night of Power

what is all this?

Unless you wonder about it, question it; you have no answer.

When I was a seeker, I always wondered why as a believer we are not helped. 

Then, question calling for the solution, in quran it said read it so that you may find Grace.

So by then; my mom asked; but where is the Grace? How to find it.

And I found it. 

Now the Grace are to be sought in the special intensive mode.

Hence the 30 days of Ramadan.

You ask for the Grace of God, it arises from your sacred bone.

The next 10 days, you forgive, let go. So that it passes through the Agnya, by passing your own created world where there is no god, as God is not in thoughts.

and the 10 last days the night of power; told as being most powerful than 80 Years of worship.

It means what it means, once you get the Power of God; Ruhani Power, aka spiritual power

then you are blessed by it far more than if you spend 80 years ie your whole life worshipping god.

you can see a community not if you are within but without

an observer from another religion sees the other religion 

an observer standing above all religion see there is wisdom in all but is not contained by it.

This is why the prophet said the division in religion is a blessing.

Because God needs no worship, as he said worship prayers are for you.

Imam Ali said some worhip God as slave to be freed from hell, 

others as traders to get something from God

but he as a Lover, for the Sake of Love

Everything is stated everywhere.

But the insight has to be Real to understand the value of it. 

Even if i explain it to my mom, the Aha moment is still not yet born.

And even average sahaj yogi must see life through renewed eyes seeking every day the Grace.

No more with the despair of where is Grace

but with the eagerness of Love, 

a lover always wants more.