Some thoughts about sahaj yoga and purification

 Very often those who meditate 

expect great things to be done and to happen.

Very often those who reply

say either "you have nothing to do" or "expect great things to happen".

Incoherence in reply is explained by the lack of context given.

Everything is correct and incorrect depending on the context or rather phase of progression and even on the viewpoint.

First things first,

we cannot mix up Spirit with its manifestation.

Secondly, do nothing means to revert back to our true natural process of Life.

Such as a foetus who does nothing to grow in her mother womb

or a seed which does nothing under the soil, to grow.

As said in my preferred cartoon aka Rick & Morty in the episode with the crows

"We are trained to be untrained".

So revert back to the "No doing" - in the sense that only the Power of God within does it

and it does it when we create the space for it to be.

Space is created when we let go of our thoughts.

Now, for us to let go of the thoughts 

we need to let them arise.

Doing only sitting and wanting the silence, ie thoughtless awareness 

without allowing the natural process to take place, ie letting the thoughts to arise 

is internal resistance and counter productive.

Thirdly, up to a point only we do nothing.

But after we must actively involve ourselves as a co-creator.

and How?

By seeing the thoughts and giving them to the Mother/power inside of us

with the inner intent to "please untie the knot".

No more self solving issues or time waste.

Then, we get the manifestation without its duality.

Meaning the problem or experience we naturally encountered in our life, 

we witness it

so that the energy within also meets it

and then we do not create obstructions by trying to control the solving phase of this problem.

Here we act as a dormant seed and let her do the cleansing, apportioning, the job in brief.

This process every single person goes through it

realised or non realised

seeker of truth or not 

as long as it is part of creation

it goes through it.

Now the big difference is when you are realised 

you are aware of what is going on and you are above it

ie out of time & space.

So in relative terms, 

you are in an accelerated growth 

in terms of lessons learned by the soul 

and its shaping for future experiences.

Others, non realised 

will be also but much slower in terms of lesson learned

depending on the values they follow, karma they earn and most importantly

after how long they let go, forgive and forget.

Certainly there is more to it, 

but in a nutshell, 

being realised give you an enormous advantage of being aware and in control

vs unrealised who see the review of their life only at death and are not in control.

Now, as a meditator

you can even more accelerate that purification process

i.e. cleaning the mud, i.e. the unorganised and chaotic bundle of values and experiences you are still identifying yourself with.

But remember, 

doing only sitting meditation is not enough.

As very often I feel coolness rapidly when sitting

but it is only in the walking that more mud is being stirred,

as you are in movement!

So the walking meditation is the best accelerator 

to face your thoughts arising.

Now the key is to take them as a blessing nor as a pestering phase.

As only thoughts arising are the clue to what is in the way 

to your success.

They point at what bothers you. 

Only when you see what you are afraid of

can you overcome it,

as it will not exist anymore.

Fears are usually undealt unknown items.

Also let us not forget we are then lucky at this very moment

to intent the following:

I give it to the Shakti within me 

to unknot the knot.

This will solve the current issue at hand 

while making space for new experiences.

It is also true that all meditators are not the same

all have not the same maturity.

Very much also those who tried to help me 

very often when it was my turn to give them back 

that was unfortunately for them, the point when they decided to give up on the relationship.

Because very often 

they put their doing as a reward, a favour they were doing.

So when the divine timing come to get the natural reward or payback

they had already deserted.

Very often the patience is lacking.

I recall a nice realised guy how helped me to settle in UK

and unfortunately his kid was into drugs

which I had no clue of. 

It used to smell weird but how could I have known it was drug? 

So the kid meditates not, it is into drug 

and used me as a third party for collateral damage.

I.e if food was missing or fridge was empty, I had a good back for that.

Now what I learned, 

as drug is still a pain in the uk..

that the kid was smoking marijuana

which makes him hungry at all time.

Hence he was emptying the fridge 

and blaming it on me.

Of course I was even unaware of this blame.

Because the nice father never checked this with me,

yet he felt being stolen by me.

And of course went even to cry about this to other third parties,

who also took the word for granted.

I must admit for many years, 

I had shoved this under the carpet, 

thinking I had let go of the issue.

To forgive

is to know that you have nothing to do with their personalities.

That they are themselves contained by it, like in a jail.

But you only have to do with with their Spirit 

which is the same as mine.

So when the time came for me 

to help this nice guy back 

in one way or the other

you can imagine his reluctancy to get back in touch.

Monetary and vibratory payback is unfortunately his missed blessings.

While I remember 

when I used to be in Paris

I had given shelter to a yogi 

so I remember I gave her a room, food and even a job.

Now, I realised I had never asked her to contribute be it for food or for rent or anything else.

Instead, she stopped meditation and ended up as soon as she got the job, to make sure to create there a hell, so much that I had to leave that job place as a bad apple just contaminate the rest of the batch.

Now, that I think of this,

I was raised as such. 

You just help and the guest is a God sent person.

It never occurred to me to make her pay, nor I felt constricted by her presence.

I was just enjoying the process.

Moral of the story, 

focus on Spirit, as everyone is you.

Let them be with their own personality.

The progress of purification is equal to the swiftness of the "Letting go".

Blame has no place, especially if you want to grow.

Finally, most of the yogi I met are stuck at the same level.

Vibrations and even powers, growing from yogi to mahayogi, is nearly unheard of.

Why is that so?

Because while worshipping the Mother within

all the focus goes to the Mother without..

The picture of Shri Mataji should be used as a sustaining means to keep in touch with vibrations

at the same level as Mother Nature, Trees, clouds etc.

The Goddess is within

the Feminine Power is within

the Spirit yet is the aim, to be the witness 

to be born again.

Which brings me to this last point:

when we were born 

we had no clue of the personality of the people

we just smiled and beamed joy 

Imagine yourself when born, as a baby did you hate such and such 

by seeing their face? No.

So that is the Truth, the Nature on which we are born and should revert to.

Now, very often I remember 

when I hold grudge,

I exclaim to myself, when I remember,

what a waste of time! When I was born that person or situation already existed

and yet I was not bothered by it.

So let it go, as it is same now, and that is the Truth.

Doing what we dislike is key to our progress

What we dislike 

is the key to our progression.

I totally disliked walking the cycles

and yet today the spirit told me just to do it

with the above mention.

Indeed, 

once I did it

let's say hardly when I start doing it

I felt coolness going from my knee caps down to the tibia 

and then when I continued just 20min 

I could feel coolness all over body 

flowing from head to toes.

The ego of ours knows the mean that will dissipate 

the illusion and thus its existence

hence our dislike to do it.

We should indeed learn to push our limits 

in that sense that everything bears goodness

and we need to integrate it into our light

and its light will also de facto elevate us

and make us wider as Existence Itself.

Rose oil perfume

 The good thing now

is since couple days in a row 

I can smell around me and on the tongue nice Rose perfume

I'd say Rose oil as it has warm component.

Spirit told me 

that it comes from my heart chakras 

which has opened up.

Heaven is embedded inside us

for sure.

Joan of Ark - Gross vs Subtle Minds

I saw also a lady in armor

very knightly - gave a Joan of Ark feel

and a man standing behind her

she was turning her back to him

while looking ahead 

She said 

"People are gross 

they do not let a seed grow out of the soil"

She meant gross as in opposition to subtle.

And the mind of that man and of all the people I knew 

standing behind in my surrounding

are truthfully gross.

Meaning they keep taking the seed out of the soil 

and are impatient 

they do not have subtle manners 

Their mind is not matching mine.

It is true that very often 

I feel like I am talking to a wall 

as I can lower the standards to explain the knowledge that shall benefit

but the attention span, quality and focus is so scattered, low and unstable

you can't put any seed into it

The seeds do fall on rocks and they can't grow.

Unfortunate.

Universe is an electric circuit and a womb within a womb

In dream I was seeing how the universe was a giant "electric" circuit

actually what we call orbit 

is part of the circuit

and I could see how I passed from one dimension 

to the other

it is more like being an electron

and circulating into another section 

so this is immense 

and where you go

you have little chance to be found again

well depending how 

our energy match other people's

we met here in this lifetime.

True though 

I did not really died 

I just moved into another place

so body is just borrowed

and we keep living our cycle 

elsewhere.

Later I was showed 

as a foetus 

whose parents keep waiting 

for a baby to be born

but they kept getting miscarriage

Then 

it was told to them

to dedicate the child to the service of God

once this divine attribute is allocated to the future baby

it will give it a goal to grow

and then it shall be born.

I found it beautiful.

Spirit explained me

that the baby is me

the many miscarriages I saw

are the former life time

where I was not reborn

Now if I want to break the reincarnation cycle

I need to truly be born again in this life time

and there will be no more death (miscarriage).

So I do have to increase the meditation 

to get my enlightenment 

and avoid this whole cycle being repeated again.

Intuitively I can add

that the parents part is true

in higher dimensions

they are certainly trying to have me

but as I have not managed to be born again here

they can't have me there

Dimensions are vertically linked

what you are here 

you are another form elsewhere.

Also this matches the dream

I had about 10 years ago

where I saw that 

a baby light bright like sun 

was in a womb

and had the person not believed

the baby would have drown into the "sea" 

Of course

the baby was her soul/sun

and the sea being the deep black waters into the womb

Anyway 

I also remember when I was in a nursery 

I looked at the grass 

and thought how as a consciousness 

it must hurt if we walk on it

when I zoomed in it

ie with attention 

I wondered how would it be to be a grass

Now I can say about this experience 

I often thought about 

that I was that grass 

in another dimension or in the past

that is why I know it

as it is a stored experience

is just that now I am outside of it

while before I was it, so I was inside

Likewise these parents are outside 

and I am inside them in a womb

this is like Russian puppet

a universe into another universe

and when you think of it

a foetus did grow up and had to be born 

so we changed form from one universe the womb to another the current world.

Likewise this world is a womb to another one

and we need to be born also out of this one

and what we are now seeing from inside

will be seen from outside later.

Black mountain of s-crap

 In regards to the protection 

from the spirit

It is true that if you have a thought

and your thought become an ideal-ogy

you then are bound to protect it

as it is the extension of your ego

and it is your existence

you integrated as such

your choice of defending it 

becomes then a matter of survival

and of course you are right

and of course 

everyone is thus right 

Even those who then uses force against other's people will

be it even the use of low-black magic methods.

Or sending of negative thoughts etc.

Because they are their thoughts 

they have to protect them

and they are on their rights.

This is the logic.

And it is of course the reason why the world is in a mess.

Hence in dream I saw 

how those who were under my protection

or rather under the protection of the Spirit

as I do nothing except keeping up with the connection to the Source

Sent such a huge pile of negativity 

represented by black metallic scraps 

so much that when this mountain of metals 

landed into the forest in uk

the spot of light of the forest got darkened

and as soon as it landed

the shied/protection of the spirit

threw it back to where it was coming from.

and it was swiftly done

as it was said it would make the mind of the 

children/people affected 

as the metal scraps are 

black, spiky, hurtful, loaded and burdensome.

Of course

good luck to the originator of such negativity

as this is what I call

the boomerang effect.

Immediate return of one's intent, action and magic.

Butterfly of Light

In vision I saw in space 

the Light of spirit

the rest was all dark space around.

The light was enclosed in a cocoon

the cocoon does not exist as per itself

inside is the light One Spirit 

and around it creation that is separated 

either out of ignorance or one purpose 

from the spirit

so it sucks it light out

or is being fed by it 

for a time

the cocoon which is brown

like a dead shell 

before the butterfly is born

is merely the dead creation 

It was said that 

it is up to the creation 

to migrate within to the light

to the core where the light is One

otherwise

once the cocoon opens up

and the Light becomes a butterfly

the shedding of the shell 

will of course discard the rest of creation 

which would have decided to remain on the outskirt.

Giant in Hell

 Yesterday 

I was going to sleep

and I saw hell

fire

and a Giant made of fire

walking in there.

I. can even remember 

the noise emitted by the friction of his body of fire

against the 'air'

while it was walking

wush, wush

Spirit told me

it was a warning for me

to meditate more.

During the week end 

I was supposed to do an hour meditation

to release the negativities 

I was definitely feeling 

the whole left channel was often burning

since I had absorbed a goo deal of negativities 

of couple of people that I take care of

Usually it gets eliminated

by daily meditation

except when it does not

as it is exceptionally persistent

sparing details here.

In that case,

one should increase the purification

otherwise one will get attacks 

as one will fall in lower vibrations/realms.

Anyway

this morning 

luckily I got enough push 

to purify enough to re-establish a good level of vibrations

proof being that I could feel the coolness gushing forth the right side of the head.

If it was not for the push

it won't have ended good.

Thank you to the Spirit 

for keeping an eye on me

and thank you for reminded me 

to purify.

Shri Mataji & Releasing the negativities

 Two days ago 

I saw Shri Mataji laying in bed smiling at me

and so many little hands were massaging her.

Spirit said I need to get the negativities 

out of my body.

Once our body absorbed the negativities

due to where our attention goes

then unless we purify it

the negativities are trapped in our system

hence we need to make sure to purify it.

I use the Kripto cycles

I would need to highlight the method into the main page of the blog.

It is basically hands that act like a mantra 

and burns the negative energies.

Inside Out is same

 Interestingly enough 

the outer reflecting the inner has never been so blatant talk to me than

The era where 

the fireplace used to be lit - Inner Fire within Human 

to electric heaters being installed - starting to cultivate and pay attention to the Flow of the Energy within, own human body circuit

to Wifi - messages into the Ether

to Cloud - Hive mind - the new consciousness where We are all One.

Effie Gray

 

Portrait made of John Ruskin by his protege the painter John Everett Millais.

In the movie Effie Gray, 

at the very beginning, the teacher John tells his students

that Nature should be painted as it is seen

the good and the bad that occur 

they must be true to their observation.

Later, the painter John E. Millais

happens to be hired to paint the portrait of John Ruskin

as he fell in love with his wife.

The interesting part is 

when one wants to win 

one truly does its best to look good

either by shining one's own qualities 

and/or by degrading the competition.

According to me, the student surpassed the master

as he remained true to his self

by honouring and painting what he saw 

not letting temptation of sabotaging his master's portrait becoming his goal.

Instead he made sure to paint his master as is

doing so, he did not darkened his heart with a goal that was not his.

His initial goal was to become a recognised painter and for this you need to be true to your learning.

Therefore if you are true to your initially set goal

which is your heart desire

and do not forget it 

do not exchange it for some other secondary goal, say revenge

then your gain is the ultimate gain

this is the real success

as you followed the light of your heart

in the service of the fulfilment of your goal/heart desire.

Ironically; the same teacher fell short of his own teaching

as he refused to accept his wife as it is

due to his own fears - whatever fears he had.

From a deep and exalted love and devotion he had for his by then future wife

once married he let this being compromised

because of his inability to face his own fears 

and contrary to his teaching 

instead of seeing things for what they are 

and painting his own life with what he had

he preferred to give into his fears, denials, covering up his own weaknesses 

which his own self loathing ended up being directed towards his wife

who started leaving a life of an "eternal torment"

Effie's mother happened to lose at least 7 kids

and Effie's husband made fun of that barnyard who should not be at this point distressed..

Anyway the fun part is once Effie remarried

she ended up having 8 babies

Definitely the souls of the lost ones 

must have reincarnated by her

I couldn't prevent myself of having that thought.

All in all, though the movie could have been more expressive in exploring these aspects

it was yet an honourable take.

May be the deep silence and the gravity displayed by all the actors was enough of a silent talk 

pointing at these very emotions.

Feedback and not failure

 To be in charge if your own Life.

Fears take control of our life 

when we believe they are in control.

This happen due to a panic reaction.

So what should be done

is to take what we do not like

as a feedback.

Instead of taking it as a failure, 

ie failure, because it did not turn out to be as we expected.

Failure is only if you label it so.

This is the power of the words,

the spell-ing.

So take it as a feedback.

Then, integrate it in your field.

Imagine your field being your body

it has like any organism to grow

we grow either through our own choices, stepping ahead to accomplish something - joy

or forced by pain

either way to make our field grow.

The growth of this field happens 

once we learn to integrate the feedback to our field

call it magnetic field

it'll grow like a cellular division that gives a foetus.

So this feedback will integrate our field

like a cell 

and will grow

and be part of us.

For this to happen

we need to pluck that feedback 

like a flower

and give it love

look at it with innocent observation 

with the unique objective of reaching our set goal.

Attention is the wave and the particle

 Important thing about the agnya

the attention should be seen like a particle of light

that hit the object

and return to us its wave

to be stored into our ego or superego.

By the way, that pretty much answer the 

question if the atom is a light or a particle, honestly.

Back to the main point, 

therefore, the intent behind the attention 

is that which you reap for yourself.

Intent, judgement that hit the objects by a loaded attention

will return you back a wave that would be quite asymmetric.

such as fear, and other imbalances, judgement and other imbalances.

Example: You see someone doing something funny

you instantly judge it

and that data returns back to you and is stored in your system.

No harm there.

Yet, next time you want to take part in say a talk,

you will feel fear of being laughed at; that is stored in your system

through your previous experience.

You are judged by which you judge.

So this is why the letting go is a key element in our attention.

As a human being, we cannot suppress such hasty judgement,

but as a work in progress, we can remember to forgive, ie let go of the embedded judgement 

in our attention,

so that in the future, the attention be so bright, liberated, unloaded, that we just are in the moment,

and just enjoying the moment.

The whole purpose of life

is to remember our Divinity; how we are the expression of it

and also to embody it to help others to remember theirs too.

Isn't it paradoxical on one hand to pretend that, 

on the other hand to see same people feeling envious, jealous,

and. thus not wishing the good for the others that they have been asserting as philosophy of their life before.

This point I never got it.

I had definitely felt these feelings too

but. again; how long do you stay with them?

You can let them be passing shades 

or become your fossilised identities.

Kundalini Fire at Agnya & Computer Download

Amazing happening 

Yesterday night

all of sudden I got awake

and as soon as I opened my eyes

I got an intense extremely quick flash of light

it was all red in my vision in the background.

And then there were a non stop succession 

of rapidly scrolling images on top of that 

I would say may be thousands of them!

I couldn't even see the images, so fast the speed was!

It was like thousands of computer files being downloaded!!

Impossible to have time to view one single image

so incredibly fast that download was..

This lasted at least 15 to 20sec (?) or less or more

no idea but that was my first time having such experience.

After this I could also feel electricity going down towards the heart 

due to me going back to sleep there were couple of occurrences 

where I could feel this electric activity 

I even saw myself sending messages lol on WhatsApp 

and then once I woke up I did not see any message sent 

and got panicked what if I had sent them to the wrong person 

describing the happening!

Anyway at this point, dream and reality were one I believe.

Luckily, nothing sent in the middle of the night hahaha

but the senses were for sure extremely heightened after that during the sleep.

The spirit explained that the red background I saw was the Kundalini Fire

and that is very rare to see that 

as very few people have seen it

also the images were all of my past and future

and I could see them, as the Kundalini passed through the Agnya.

Now that I think of it,

it is true that Shri Mataji explained 

that thoughts are like waves 

and when kundalini passes through Agnya 

it straightened the waves!

Also it makes even more sense

when you are your thoughts

you are into them

meaning you are identified with them.

How ?

it is like when you are riding a car

you cannot see the car from the outside.

This is the most close example, I can come up with the thoughts identification.

If you are identified with your thoughts,

you are in them

you can't see them

meaning you can't observe them from the outside

only then you see that for what they are

and are not limited or confined by them 

so here in my nightly explosive computer download 

I'll call it so

thoughts, of the past and the future where seen, from the exterior.

And this time, 100% seen from the exterior, as in pure awareness.

First point being; the pure Awareness of my own thoughts - which I experienced.

The second point, I'd like to highlight is the Power.

That is a mix of electric feel - no element of pain involved - with the sensation that it is so vast and alive.

Incredibly enough, in it located in a human being!

what a hidden wonder!

Lol a bitliek Dr Who phone box, where the inside is bigger than the outside.

No wonder that a human being in full power 

would be more powerful than any nuclear technology.

The third point I'd like to mention

is it is independent from you, the you as your usual day to day self.

so it is indeed a power that is in you and yet not dependant of you, the personality

while being the true you at the same time.

So the only part is the mastery of awareness that is missing.

Once you are freed from the bondage of your thoughts,

then with that Risen Power

where you direct you awareness, 

you can direct and move mountain of power I feel.

I think this is the meaning of reference by Jesus 

when he said you can move mountains if you have faith.

and faith should be understood as a Being in you

to have Faith

is to have the Kundalini Awakened

Once you have it Arisen 

like in Quran in chapter Muzzamil

it says O you enshrouded; Arise in the Night

The meaning in that verse is the command to the Kundalini to be cultivated 

at night 

the vigil at night 

will help it arise

you can't force a seed to arise 

you need to make it grow by watering it 

same here.

Also, the redness of the vision

reminded me of Surah Ar Rahman 

1. When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
2. Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

This verse came up in my mind.

One should understand that scriptures are meant as a coded text for all levels

from the average man understanding to metaphors which height matches the height/source of revelation.

So it would be unnecessarily fussy to explain the meaning to masses

and nor would it serve any purposes as even then it has to be experienced.

So no point in talks.

Scriptures are also more like rain that water your breakthrough

and also a roadmap to check where you are going through.

Lady Fatima (pbuh)

In the little fire lit house I could see Fatima (pbuh)

it was said "She is not the Queen of Heaven for nothing".

Though her destiny was to marry Ali (pbuh),

Had she not guarded her virginity by being cautious of the man/suitor who presented himself 

in front of her door

the marriage with Ali would not have materialised.

She kept the door shut to him.

From there the lesson that applies is that spiritual people 

should guard their spirituality

when at their door any worldly suitor shows up.

Spiritual people marry the heavenly chosen one,

and guarding one's innocence is one's own responsibility 

till the promised auspicious match happen.

Going for a person who does not cultivate what I would. call an earthly marriage, 

however nice the person is, would be signing one's own spiritual death.

Kiss

The Crown and the Furnace

 Right after meditation yesterday 

I was going to sleep and in vision 

I saw a diadem 

surely on head of shri mataji 

but weirdly enough,

this time focus was on the crown 

not on She

instead she was a bit like faded 

so focus was brought on the crown

zooming on it

there was a red stone 

and in it I could see 

the reflection of a fire 

a bit like when you look through glass and see the fire burning behind the glass

and just before seeing the fire

I saw the light 

the spot of light was travelling to the forehead 

The crown representing the sahaswrara

now that I think of it

the crown forms does represent flams leaping 

just forged now in some gold metal and fixed.

And the light spot ascending

ported by the kundalini at its end,

is the soul from the belly 

which when meeting the spirit in the heart

got en-lightened

Noor 'ala noir

light upon light

ie

light of the spirit upon the light of the soul.

and the process of this soul being purified

goes through the fire purification 

at the fireplace of the Agnya,

hence the red stone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VR5dlAfgn5I

Right attitude in cultivating righteousness

 Best summary of key basis to self purification - from the intent perspective

Letter: 24/The Trap of the Opposites 
  
 

        beloved bhakti, 
  
    Love. Anger, violence, greed or envy cannot be overcome 
    by the cultivation of their opposites. 
    Because anger itself will cultivate its opposite. 
    And violence will be present in its cultivated non-violence. 
    So always be aware of the hypnotic spell of the opposite. 
    It never solves any problem. 
    Because it is beating around the bush. 
    Do not fall into the trap of the opposite. 
    But understand anger, violence or greed or anything else 
    directly. 
    To seek the opposite is a way of escape. 
    To seek the opposite is cowardice. 
    Live with your mind as it is. 
    Do not try to change it. 
    Be brave to face it and to understand it. 
    When the light of awareness falls on anger, or greed, or 
    envy, there is a change. 
    Awareness acts as a catalytic agent. 
    And then anger does not change into its opposite. 
    It is not that violence becomes non-violence. 
    But there is no-anger. 
    There is no-violence. 
    And when there is no-violence, there is no-mind. 
    And an altogether different dimension opens its door. 
    The dimension of the spontaneous. 
    The dimension of the Divine. 
                                                                       22-5-1971. 
  

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Sun Disk and creation

During meditation I saw shri Mataji in a white sari

Then I saw a black thread necklace with a Huge golden disk - like sun 

Spirit said that the black thread represents the blackhole 

and the disk the sun

suns that got created and scattered into the creation, 

representing thus the Big Bang.

At the end of meditation, I again saw shri Mataji face 

in the white clouds.