Reincarnating on Earth

ahh, i am getting so lazy posting on this blog
have too much to do
but is important to record it all

so let's do it :

i had a vision

i saw i was in sort of a  space shuttle 

and then the door opened

and i saw the Earth

and randomly i picked up a place

a continent

i was seeing America and Europe, Asia 

i picked up one, as i was lacking time 

and i was absorbed there

was very smooth! (fall)

smooth, like being absorbed by sponge ... wool... 

lol in real i could feel i could not get more absorbed in my matelas hahahaha!

Actually as my friend said

"that was an amazing vision, baby!

formidable.."

:)) hahaha baby

this english expression makes me laugh

cause i really feel like i am a baby in a craddle hehehe

so is like this..

here is the inspired interpretation :

of course from Spirit knowledge, not mine

i suck at dream interpretation on my own

about the dream meaning :

imagine you are the awareness..or main emergence from the absolute..or the I AM

you see,,everything ,, from above..see?

like a space station allegory?

ah.. it reminds me of Dr Who episode

you knew that it was all true?

well .. isn't it exciting? 

coming back on earth 

this vision is like the one of Richard Rose 

he was on top of some mountain

and seeing people from above

and he could ,,become anyone,, by ,,focusing attention on it,,

and i KNOW is true

cause before was same

when i focused on a flower

a seed

actually i WAS it 

meaning i felt i was a seed germinating 

i was in the grass

and i saw the grass 

and i saw myself growing

and saw the sun rays warming up the ground

see?

practice

is what i have been told

we all have gifts

we need practice to develop them

well for me is the healing and that stuff how you call it?

to become what you focus on?

hahaha  

i want to try this 

need space and room for that in my schedule

so noted down 

back to vision now

in other words..this is the principle of ,,how,, the awareness by,,focusing,,...becomes consciouness...and goes,,poof,, in the object ,, and gives it life

and THAT is the principle of reincarnation

lol far from the myths 

and far from the indian ideas or reincarnation 

is just in absolute terms

simple as that

so i saw myself reincarnating 

as an experience 

cause later in dream

i was on this earth

and taking pictures of flowers

people were annoyed 

that i was making them lose time

but flowers had such a beautiful color 

they were shining

like an aura around each bunch of flowers

so bright and shining 

lol again i say shining

so on earth i was experiencing people's frustration

and the "lack of time" fear etc

but when i was up there

as awareness i had no emotions

it was awareness 

distance 

and no emotions of fear etc

cause as spirit..or pristine joy awareness...you have no fear

 and 

,,when there is focus of attention..beware..that is the moment of creation.. 

indeed

as soon as i focused on earth

i "became" part of it

all makes sense ..

so the "fall" from heaven

is this allegory

you need to get "lost" on earth to experience Life from within

and 

realization is the way back ...

re,,uniting,, with this power of God..this awareness that is "up there" 

to be one with it..or spirit..or awareness..or bliss..or the true reality...

and who unites?

is the soul of course

 

so i saw in vision

how /why reincarnation occurs..

so when i jumped

was soft as cotton wool when i entered into the earth 

it felt like going through a womb

actually

absorption (of attention) happens ,,because of my focus,,,..this creates consciousness or attention..also known as the soul individuality

so...so when people saw vortex is actually the door of possibility of creation they are themselves creating by focusing their attention on that spot of earth

and they go there..to experience new experiences..etc

as the attention digs, the vortex is created by its power

in the process..the spirit becomes flesh..etc..animates the soul..creates the environment etc

so this fall 

this separation is essential!

unless it separates..it can't know itself..universe is based on this tension..like electricity?.. 

 

that is life cycle reincarnations 

and the way back home 

is 

the way back is from consciousness becoming attention (top of head)/focus becoming intent (of spiritual cultivation) / and becoming awareness back to before time ..

and that is called ... Realization

ps : i SEE you - from Avatar Movie song

Avatar the Movie

I just seen the movie AVATAR for the 3rd time..this time on tv..


Marvellous, Magic and so LIVELY

that is how Avatar the movie makes me feel
as any good book
a good movie
makes you feel alive, involved
as much as you would be the hero in it

jotting down what i love much

lol while writing this
the music Ave Maria has just started playing

well .. i loved the Forest MOST
just watching it
the light and COLORS
how it was shining
and responding to the human touch
a touch filled with presence of the consciousness

was sooo magical

and how they were flying in the air
on their ride?
was so magical, smooth


you could even feel
in the now
your own fear and limitation
and all of sudden
as the hero so switfly, smoothly and WHOLLY jump in emptiness
with not safety net lol ..

.. well, it makes you feel free
pushing your own limit
and wanting to do same

i think some plane jump
in parachute is on my way...

plus you can obviously guess and feel
the native people LOVE for their Forest
and it goes without saying that you guess
how Amerindians had such a deep wisdom
and how they were viewed by those they welcomed..

this part was very much heart breaking

i felt real sad to see the beautiful, pretty, all so colorful forest
under firing, ashes
and the so PRECIOUS OLD TREE falling down

but then i felt even more sad
to realise that is exactly what is happening every day
with the Amazonian Forest

and to a more refined level
how human being is so much cut from Nature
so much that in a documentary i saw how an interviewed american kid
had no clue that it was a tomatoe..

really he thought it was apple

anyway even if it sounds extrem
such cases exist
and in contrast

when i saw the movie
i felt so impatient
cause i said to myself
OBVIOUSLY there are such amazing gifts around
in nature
to be experienced

that we could develop
by communicating with nature

as only what you feed grows
if you feed conscious communication
with nature
then nature gives it back to you

you can see more beauty
more brighter colors
more health and healing

you can experience
a real new realm
in terms of way of life

is just that the industrial Epopée
has got its time of being experimented

and now
imagine how much more beautiful
it would be to be able to experiment with Nature?

the starts is always slow
as it becomes a new wave
and a part of our life as a mass
only when a certain quota of people start doing it

but still as life is short
i feel i am wasting time
instead of getting back in touch with nature

is very slow..

just i admit i am impatient
and also do not have so far any real teacher
with a real discipline through which i could say

YES ! i am going somewhere

but the part i love most
obviously was the forest

second, i loved the paradox

of the dream (the human being) meeting the reality (the avatar world)

imagine
like when the fiancé avatar enter into the cabin of the hero
isn't it paradoxical?

my mind got so upside down at this point
that i was saying
okay what is real and what is the dream?

cause the hero is the human guy
and its avatar his "dream" body

but slowly
the avatar body takes over/takes more importance
say...his consciousness got absorbed by it
and then

symbolically
when the avatar fiancé enters his cabin
and meet the human being

it hit me
that it is actually Reality (Avatar) meeting the dream (Human body/realm)
liek dream and reality merged...so beautifully mind blowing paradoxical...

was just so beautiful

very often this topic is tackled in the movie

like when i saw the avatar hero jumping down from the newly mastered Great Bird
lol i call it so , cause i forgot its name lol

then when i saw that i said
is so funny
only because he mastered the unmasterable Bird

that people are in awe
while before they hated him?

so in a way
i thought
people are always so superficial?
they can hate and love the same person
in a switch of a second?

which means they love a person ONLY for his achievement/honor/status that this honor gives?

but then
it hit me
no.. not only

here
if we know that all of our worth is within us
cause we ARE worthy

is just that people know it not
but if YOU YOURSELF you KNOW it
KNOW that you ARE worthy

then
what matter ?
you won't even think people are interested or superficial, see?

and among them
those who realise their , superficiality,
then you will ALSO see them

cause they will admit it...

as his fiancé did
while going towards him said

"i see You"
next
"i was afraid for my people"

see?

the lines on the spot hit me
cause they answered what i was wondering about

and the space is provided for the people
to admit their own superficiality

cause at times
we need signs to see
and the manifested , like the Sacred Bird
are just symbol for us to get reassured that this one is worthy

not that he was not before..
but only because we , ourselves, were doubtful
and we NEEDED this sign

cause we were blind ...not to see the other Spirit/Worth
as we were blinded by...fear
or jealousy like for the dude who was about to become chief of his tribe
but see? his envy subsided when he saw the Common Great Sign of the Sacred Bird
then he left go of his envy
and accepted the Obvious
and surrendered to his Glory

(again he was not surrendering to become a slave of someone else Glory...
but he surrendered to accepting that he found His Glory within ...

i think is what most people and religion
mix up
and end up "worshiping" some outside God
or some other persons Glory
instead of surrendering to the idea that the other TOO has its own Glory

cause he is the spirit as much as me within )


as she admitted it

because you can SEE the other
or in other word she could SEE him at last
ONLY because she had no more the fear
and the Bird/the sign her consciousness was acquainted with
allowed her to believe in the worth of the hero

so the manifested realm
is needed to bring OUT, make OBVIOUS
our own hidden worth

cause we ALL have this Worth within

but the manifested is NECESSARY

for people to be able to SEE

the manifested gives a SIGN/PROOF (ayah in arabic)
of the worth of the Spirit already within you obviously

and only by letting shine your worth
that you remove fear from others
so that from their blindness they comes into the sight/light

and can at last say
"i see You"

i guess is what the muslims should learn
learn to shine their own light
so that they may be removing the fear
that their name / group of consciousness is creating
as havoc into the hearts of others..

Marvellous script writer,
designer,
story line writer
and all the team of this movie production
i just hug you all..

Beautiful movie.

and my MOST  preferred scene....obviously
is when the rebirth of the hero is taking place at the end
when he lies down
and transfer body

i loved everything
the touch of the body on the grass
the living grass enwrapping his body
imagine....all of this is quite real...

why you think you can't see it?
cause grass and nature respond as quickly as you ask
like in the movie
only if you have passed time giving such respect and attention to them?

we just need to switch our attention and respect from
artificial hierarchy in office
that consume so much of our energy
to the Nature itself really

and as we managed to experiment this Fast Society
with fast food and everything  fast fast fast
i am NOT against it
cause for me it PROVES we can DO IT

now the only thing is
to switch it to the nature
the same pattern but re-directed re-wired to the nature

and you will
i am SURE
how fastly Nature will respond
cause is a living entity too..

is so beautiful
i feel so warm inside

anyway this movie
is just a master piece

and yea i loved
how the ceremony of rebirth started
you see all of them sitting on the grass
with their spine in contact with it
and their "hair" in contact and fusioning with the Mother Earth
was just a so naturally flowing movie

with so much intricate details
and such a nice touch

yes this too..striked me
the human touch
they were touching each other
all along the movie
was really warm feeling

that's a movie
that gives to the word Humanity
is True meaning...

Loved it..
and still do

as i got this message
in my tea bag today

"Life is a gift,
Experience is the beauty"

i feel is a timely message
and yet i feel so sad
cause i guess, feel it all
and agree wholly to it

but somehow..i can't even say i am on the High way to experiment Life
like in this Movie that i love so much

yet is the only movie
that i whole heartedly found that resonates with me..

while watching Avatar
instead of feeling blood running in my veins
i felt warm Love running in there

especially when it was said...
how many connection a tree had to other tree
which is superior to our own neuronal connection...

...so i let you imagine the possibilities...

just mind blowing love i felt for this
i really wish to experience that kind of new way of living

the rest is just dead boring now.

as this quote says

"The beauty of an exponentially-multiplying set of potential realities, collapsed into a singularity by our conscious decisions."

isn't it beautiful?

yea it just remind me the movie Interstellar now...
**sigh**

The Monkees Lyrics

"I'm A Believer"

I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me.
Love was out to get me
That's the way it seemed.
Disappointment haunted all my dreams.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

I thought love was more or less a given thing,
Seems the more I gave the less I got.
What's the use in tryin'?
All you get is pain.
When I needed sunshine I got rain.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/monkees/imabeliever.html

True Love

if i say i love you
to what i see
i am only saying it to my thoughts
so is empty

but if i first feel the object/the you
and then say
i love you
then this is true love

I love You

i don't say i love you
you, a second person/chakra,
which is existing in the field of my thought

but i say i love you
because first i felt you,

and if i can feel you
then you are in me,

then
when i say i love you,
i say it to myself

this is why there is no other
as there is only One
and that is Me

Beauty, make up, perfumes, luxury gifts...

Nowadays i am in LOVE with Beauty products
and am getting so many luxury gifts
and soooo girly

hehehe

4 years ago
had someone told me
i would be in Love with that

i would have NEVER believed it

do you know why?

is because your energy changes

and here is how i feel

when i see the package and the color
and the promise of the product
it feels like i am taking it in within me
the scent, the color, the promises,
the freshness, the energy born within the product

is just delicious food for the inner Beauty to blossom,
see?

before i would have classed this as being "superficial"

but when i was in uk
i was stricken by HOW attention was given
to the very moment to the very person
in front of you
when i met the sufi master

it made me curious

that i considered this life as superficial
and wanted the deepness

but he was giving the deepness to the very moment
by giving it his full attention

okay
don't think i am overall praising and am ALL for that guy
i just take the good i see from anyone and everywhere
that is the wisdom i learned from life

and this is how you enjoy
and truly respect Life
and are deep..

cause you give your full attention,
presence and thus respect to the Present/to It

and this is how
"superficiality" and "deepness" coexist
in the Very moment

cause you give to the passing thing
that is the present
the due attention to it
and learn to love it and enjoy it
by Feeling its color, its promises on the bottles of perfume
is actually you absorbing its labelling

this is why
don't get into the trap of taking side
by saying this is superficial
and this is deep

it is neither

it is Just the Moment
it is Present for you to enjoy it
so that you are enjoying the superficial
superficial in the sense that it is passing like the wind
and by being truly present
you become more connected to it
to the feel of it and thus to the feel of the Present

and you are colored by new colors
where superficiality and deepness coexist
are not differentiated
and they are one and the same
cause you are one with them

yet is impossible mind masturbation
to make deepness and superficiality
to coexist into your mind/thought/argumentation

it is just coexisting as one
when YOU decide to be one with the feel of the moment that each of them is giving
whether the moment take the face of what you call "superficial"
or whether it take the face of what you call "deep"

so these are just forms
what matters is
are you present with the form of the present moment
or are you opposing it and thus creating separation ?

so...when i receive these gifts
is like i am receiving a surprise from Life
which is waiting besides me
to see my excitation
while i am unwrapping it

and then i get back the Love
from such "inanimate" objects

AS MUCH AS

i LOVED them

by expecting them
by receiving them
by unwrapping them

so it is very much like saying
they send you back the love you send them in advance

the "You" in me and you

that is the second time it happened
but when i looked at someone
it felt like i was looking at myself

by then i could not tell why
cause obviously we don't have same face
plus not at all same gender hahaha

nor are we twins
yet i saw myself in him
how?

now i know

this happens
when the "you" i.e. your true nature (and not your thoughts)
sees the "you" of/in the other (his true nature too)

it is OBVIOUS
that when you see the "you" in the other
then you see your own self!

 and that is why the true self is One

and that happens only
if you are deep and the other is deep too
or that you are deep enough on your own to see the other even if the other is NOT deep
hahaha
i am in the case number 1
the numbre 2 is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay harder for me to even imagine it

cause i am still superficial to get to the number 2

i guess i need serious A... S....?
:))
no kidding, i need serious longer meditation sessions

that's a very nice feeling
and very meaningful life moment

When you're alone and life is making you lonely
You can always go downtown
When you've got worries, all the noise and the hurry
Seems to help, I know, downtown
Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
No finer place for sure, downtown
Everything's waiting for you
Don't hang around and let your problems surround you
There are movie shows downtown
Maybe you know some little places to go to
Where they never close downtown
Just listen to the rhythm of a gentle bossa nova
You'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over
Happy again
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Where all the lights are bright, downtown
Waiting for you tonight, downtown
You're gonna be alright now, downtown
Downtown
Downtown
And you may find somebody kind to help and understand you
Someone who is just like you and needs a gentle hand to
Guide them along
So maybe I'll see you there
We can forget all our troubles, forget all our cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
Don't wait a minute more, downtown
Everything is waiting for you, downtown
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petulaclark/downtown.html

Thoughts Reading

LOL

i had bought some salmon for lunch with friends
and all of sudden i got a doubt
and said to her

"and don't give your salmon to the other one
(who also has its share)"

as soon as i said that
she flipped
and looked me and said
"how you knew?!!!
i JUST thought that..."


actually i said to her
i just got a huge doubt
while i was cooking
so i said it


and i understood also the stuff about thought reading

when i got a doubt
it meant as long as my idea was clear
"ok everyone gets its share"
i was ok and was MY thought

but as SOON as i got a doubt
like when you throw a stone in water
and it makes ripples

and image get less clear

then
i KNEW i had lost the clarity of thought
and that is what doubt is about

and second
it shows that i was not per say
"reading thoughts"

but i read thought
in the sense
that mine got affected

by hers

and as long as you are "above"
others
then you can "read" their thoughts

and those who "read thoughts"
actually can
differentiate
their thoughts from the others

cause you have to protect yourself
from being influenced by other people thoughts
and think these are yours

your true nature
per say
is YOU
and when we get used to identifying with thoughts
we are actually being controlled by people...
cause these thoughts are not yours
but theirs
see?

is like sun above clouds
sun can see them

likewise
i could see her thought
cause the true self is above thoughts

so yea we all ended up
eating salmon
and not a too nice friend
scarifying hers to another lol

though i look forward
at actually "reading thoughts"

kiss:x

Why Past makes us smile

you know why we smile
when we remember something of the past

like when you find some old letter
or visit a place of your youth?

you smile unconsciously
because unconsciously you know
that you and that other energy which is present
and you were communicating with by then

in the form of your parents or some other person
actually you were in disagreement with and much more
you were opposed to it
and you were rejecting it or neglecting it
to move forward

so you were just oblivious to your Present
and you can see yourself very much daring
while all was already Present

so being in the present/ce of that place of your childhood
you see the/your past
and especially your oblivion to your by-then-present moment

that is why you smile

and that is why
often you were told when kid
later when time pass this will make you laugh
while by then was nothing but annoyance or obstacle

and yet it is  like a script
is not like you could act wise
you were living your experience to learn about life

Matter and Anti- Matter

yesterday night
i saw orbs of light
light bubbles raising up

like a rain of light bubbles
but raising up yea

i saw it a few times
while i was sitting in my couch

 was pretty

this morning when i woke up
for meditation
while i was getting ready for it

it was said through images
i mean as images were telling it

i saw a rope
was said this is rope of God
you see as mentioned in hadith in islam
to "hold to rope of God"

and i saw it rolling itself
on the place of pain in body
it is like a balm
it rolls on it to sooth the pain

so i saw it was circling itself
over and over the chakra itself

(that is of course the kundalini rolling up
on the chakra to heal it)

then it was said
that when power goes through
it acts powerfully

so much that i thought
it might affects hugely the world
once it is switched on
cause the rope has curled itself many times
on the chakra
so once switched on
it would exerce HUGE power out

if the power switched on

cause it said
it works like the Switzerland anti matter circuit
and it is indeed The anti-matter
so once it is switched on
it acts like a reverse magnet
and got the 'matter'out

(by the way
i love the english for its meaning
matter as in issue/pain
and matter as in material)

so thanks to its HUGE magnet effect
switched on  when powers goes in
it throws out the "matter"
and this is its anti-matter effect

then,
you are pure

cause you are your own true face
or fabric
without the thorns
cause the matter
are like splinters/thorns

and they get stuck into this rope
hence you feel the pain

is a bit like your skin
you feel pain when you got pimples
cause they are taking space that is not theirs
and as your skin has already the perfect space for itself
an extra piece of skin even of one millimeter
which is in other word the pimple
squeezes your "fabric" too much and you feel pain

is same with the matter
it acts like thorn when it gets stuck
into that rope
and it gives pain

so then when you press that rope
like when you press a button
to switch on the power
the power
acts like a magnet
which radiates a sort of electro-magnetism
and it sheds off the thorns/matters shards
and it acts like a HUGE anti matter

and then
you are your true self
and you are free from pain
you are free

Lyrics : Plus prés des étoiles - Gold
Closer to stars - Gold

for lyrics they are obviously in French
but remember Google is your Friend ;)

Ils ont quitté leurs terres
Leurs champs de fleurs
Et leurs livres sacrés
Traversés les rizières
Jusqu'au grand fleuve salé
Sans amour, sans un cri
Ils ont fermé leurs visages de miel
Les yeux mouillés de pluie
Les mains tendues vers le ciel

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Au pied des murs de pierres
Ils ont brûlé leurs dragons de papier
Refermés leurs paupières
Sur les chenilles d'acier
Eux qui croyaient vieillir
En regardant grandir leurs enfants
A l'ombre du sourire
Des Bouddhas de marbre blanc

Un peu plus près des étoiles

Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Ils parlent à demi-mots
A mi-chemin entre la vie et la mort
Et dans leurs yeux mi-clos

Le soleil, le soleil brille encore
Une île de lumière
Un cerf volant s'est posé sur la mer
Un vent de liberté
Trop loin, trop loin pour les emporter

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

source : http://www.paroles.net/gold/paroles-plus-pres-des-etoiles

Finger of God

ok i was trying over the past few days
to wake up at same time
meaning not 30min or 1h after

just same time

so today
i was like half asleep
and i did my cycle and trying to meditate
while still lying down

lol ridiculous

anyway
as i got a vision

i saw that there was a huge shiva
yea bit blue color body
and he was pointing his index towards my head

a bit like in this fresco painting of Adam Creation
by MichaelAngelo

Actually in the vision
i was trying to adjust my forehead
to the poiting of the finger
to be sure
that light goes through it
and like this i would get total enlightenment

and mind would become luminous

by the way writing it
luminous
is more like CLARITY in mind
it just make more sense to say it
is a bit like usually most of mind is clouded
and you jsut need light enough
so that it be lit fully
and you just see things at hand/in the present

then
of course i woke up
to do the walking meditation
followed by the sitting one

but yeaa
was tempted to stay in the bed
just to see the rest of the vision


ps : neeeeeeeeeeeed my arabicaaaaaa!!!

Intuition

is only by confronting myself
to new situation and people
that i realised new changes
which took place in me

in terms of perception
and use of say "power"
for everyone is like a seed
and thus EVERYONE has powers
or call it skills manifested

once it has germinated.

the new stuff i saw
is that when i looked at stuff
i kind of see the energy or aura?
around it like a halo?
and this is how i know
that i can grab it or not

also in terms of intuition
it got sharper
and difference is NOW
i can ON THE SPOT
decide ACCORDING to it

before i was like asleep
i could feel intuition
and yet not have the will to follow it
was very much observer of my own life
thinking i can't change it
stuff are as they are

now the intuition is being acted upon
spontaneously
on the spot
so the present moment is being caught
if i can express it so

third
i astonishes myself
by the new changes in my look and life style
is like i can see myself going through phases
of self care

stuff that i had never really paid attention to before

is like i am following a scenario
specially written for me
to act in a movie

and it looks normally flowing
is not like i have to "think"
as to what next i should do

yes definitely i don't recognise myself :)))

yet
is very much agreeable
because i am in self discovery adventure

kiss kiss

TV speaks to me

hahahaha

incredible synchronicity

since a week
i got my eyes and mind caught with the idea
of trying the Arabica Café

ok i let it go

then, i got guests
they came buying a packet of Arabica

ok i let it go

then, i felt like sitting in my couch
okay i want café arabica hehehehe

and i KNOW what kind of mix i want
the Italian one
some vanilla ice cream
and you pour onto it
some arabica coffee
hmm....just saw it yesterday on tv...yummy

and NOW
that i was checking for some arabica to buy
i was about to say is ok let it go cause i can just buy some casual coffee..

and tv spoke to me!
through the ad.. "Buy a quality coffee"!!!!!

WTF???!!!!

hahahaha

i thought TV  was speaking DIRECTLY TO ME

IS DECIDED

GOTTA buy that Arabica Quality Coffee and pour it on some Vanilla ice cream

hmm.... yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmy!!!

VID WARNING : I would add MORE WHIPPED CREAM !!!!!!

count on me!

Buddha Light

hm two days ago
as i was going to sleep
in vision
i saw balls of light
swirling upwards

of course as usual
i did not realise it was a vision
as i was in it
only when it ended i remembered
was different

so i was that ball of light
and i was following its movements upwards

then when it ended

i saw a black/tanned man
sitting in meditation style...

...it was buddha actually

amazing vision

Challenge

i wonder what beautiful new challenge
i can pick up?
something new of course
a new exciting project

i learned lately
how much i can affect positively
some people's life

that's powerful

same time now i want something new
hm yes something i can be proud of
cause it brought some beauty and easiness
and has ability to spread
cause it is fed by good attention

oh by the way
i was sitting
and a kid came near me
he sat next to me

he looked at me continuously
so i just smiled to him
and all of sudden
he spoke to me and said
"maman"

and he was waiting i reply to his call
i was just dumbfounded
trying to recover mentally
i said nothing

i felt he saw me
actually i felt afraid was new
plus he said it loud
and people were wondering why he called me so

i swear it hit me deep
cause he was speaking to me
i swear he was calling me

he was seeing his mom in me
the word "mother" all of sudden
felt so universal to me..when he called me so

 (you see is what is pure attention about
is to put your attention ONLY and WHOLLY on what you are saying
then you feel the universal power of it
but when you say something and yet part of your mind is wandering
on something else, what power you think it has?...think hard.)

so that boy has all of his mind there
when he said maman
and not to some human, not to some image,
not to my body,
but to "what is here"

you know
like when you become amnesic
and someone comes to you
and call you
by your name?

it hits you
because you recognise your name
you knew it
but somehow you were trying hard to forget
while pretending to recover memory
yet still praying deeply to go on playing hide and seek?

yet you are trying hard to
remember your name?

i felt like that
and i felt caught

the word maman
spontaneously came out of his lips
liek when i spontaneously happen to speak in urdu with some guy who doesn't even speak it!!!
because of the feeling of nearness ...see?

so now it feels like
the inside mother of the boy was looking at the inside mother of me
and calling herself cause she had found herself in the other
as in a mirror

Japan

am on a roll to write blogs tonight

is it possible
that one be so wrapped up in an energy
that we are clothed by it?

i got special make up
and i looked at my friend
she looked like a japanese to me
all pink in a kimono

and then another friend looked at me
and said i look like japanese too

and precisely
it happens now that i am to go to japan!!!

how is it possible?
that we get wrapped up by the soft energy
of the place we are to go?

is it because this place soft energy
has reached you so much
and enwrapped you
that you look like you already belong to it?

Japan!!!!
i am cooooooooooooooooooooming mwa:x

Life lesson : Accept your Glory

:)

I accepted that i should be praised publicly :)

that is what happened

i did some looong hard job
i was in charge of managing a project from A to Z
except for M,N, O lol
but basically i had to do everything

and in my funny habit
i was about to let all of the credit go to someone else
who was about to steal my idea
a misogyne by the way

and shakti showed it to me
in dream

future was set
and when i realised that i was about to be stolen
from the credit of this soulful hard work
i decided to stand for it

too long to detail it now
but basically i chose to fight for the credit
and it happened that profile changed

and the misogyne guy
not only happen not to steal my project
but praise me in front of 100 of people
and even asked them to give me a standing ovation
at least 3 times

if i had not stood for it
i would have suffered loss this time
pain of this loss
and in future you can bet i would have been forced by another pain
to accept being praised

so i am happy i stood for it
plus i recognise not myself
lol i changed so much
that is like an old me is writing her astonishment of the new me that is being born

The soft way or the hard way?

Today i met a familiar acquaintance
after years

life is funny

here is what i learned
and it is so fair
life is so fair

you see
the very thing people accuse me of
either by wrong thoughts, backbiting etc
is the VERY thing that WILL happen to them...

myself i am so surprised
but this rule is so true

you see
in the past
when i came back from the uk
i was like feeling i was at the end of my life emotionally speaking
cause bellywise, i felt pain not to be able to open the door of spirituality
by not having a real teacher

and that very person
happened to think i was in some love affair
and depressed by that

cause she was only projecting her own limits
by transposing them onto me

yes i was love sick
but love sick for Truth
really
that was the most tragically beautifully sincerest moment of my Life

which i will never ever trade for

though usually people would like to trade pain for love

but is like the movie vice versa
without that traumatic pain i would have never found Love

so much to tell
but too much to write

you see
the desire for me was always my spiritual quest
i wanted Truth
spiritual opening
Light
help
direction for my evolution
to see positive change
a new life

and i was love sick for that
that was my universe

and that girl
thought i was love sick for some guy
and she happened to laugh at it

i never minded it
cause i knew exactly what i wanted
is like some pure water
whatever mud you put in it
it remains clear

why?
cause it keeps running

and now
i met her
and i learned
she happened to wake up and cry every morning

because she was played emotionally by some guy
and lost her virginity

by hearing that
i felt so sad for her
you know why?

cause myself
i remembered
how when i came from uk
i used to wake up every morning
and hope it will be a new day
with some magic change
that i will see a door opening in my spirituality
some path being lit up

even writing it now
i feel tears

so i used to wake up every morning
désanchantée
realising is still same day than day before
and no opening for spirituality

so i used to cry

so i knew what she was going through
as pain
and i felt sad for her

and yet i realised
she was just getting back the change of her coin

cause you see in islam
there is a saying that is as follow

when you "curse"someone
this curse is true
meaning
it WILL apply
EITHER on the one saying it
OR on the one being the object of the "curse"

curse could be anything from thoughts being repeatedly occuring
to verbal attacks and actions

so as it was wrong
not applicable on me...

..she happened to create her own reality
with it..

such a wise girl
ended up in such a state

i felt very much empathic for her
because i wish not her to go through that pain
as i could feel what she was going through

is like to be in a jail and being hammered by your own emotions

and shakti showed me so clearly
her state
that no doubt was possible

you see?
and of course i helped to heal her heart chakra
not because i planned it
but just because it happened to be the moment dedicated for her help
and that was chosen by the spirit

and i like that

when i was feeling her heart
was like a heater was on
so that was the pain she was feeling

but you see
people harm themselves by themselves
and this of course they will never know
they will think the harm came from others, from that guy

of course it came from that guy
as other guys prior to him existed too but never managed to hurt her before
why?
cause she had protection
but the day you choose to lose your protection
you get hurt by letting such stuff touch you

she -ignorantly- let herself being harmed
by choosing to use curse words and laughing at me
is her right really
yet this is karma
if you are not 100% sure of your "curse"
be sure the curse is 100% sure of its destination

and also
she fell down in my esteem
cause i did not expect she would do such a thing

so is funny
i helped a girl who cursed me
and ended up helping her
against her very curse

and is funny
cause she knows not i helped her

and of course
she learned the lesson the hard way

the soft way
would have been humanity

when i was in need of help
she could have lent me some hand
she would have helped herself by helping me

ie
she would have avoided that situation
because of the insight she would have gained from mine

she would have learned i was yearning for truth
that i was spiritualy home sick
that i just needed hope

that a human touch would have not helped me
but would have soothed me
momentarily

that she would have grown to be someone else
through this experience
and would have certainly not challenged Life
to live a love sick story
just for her soul to learn what it means to be emotionally played

cause she occulted that
by then
and thought was just some laughable stuff

you can't occult the life lessons your soul need
so,

never laugh at life
but laugh with life
that is wisdom
to know that each thing has its place

when life laugh, laugh
but when life is sad, be compassionate and help with your human touch/human empathy

but when life is sad, and cry
lol don't cry with it hahaha
but FEEL it
and open to it by offering your presence
only by your present attention you can share
learn from this while giving comfort to the other

see?
is indeed about putting things at their right place
laugh with life
not at life

and you will learn your life lesson the soft way

Empathy

There is much stuff which changed
incredibly rich experiences in terms of life lessons are happening to me

at same time i see fraility of life
On one side life is rich
because full of experiences
and yet on the other side
life is "ephemerial" because these experiences last as long as they have their share of life

and might seem poor
(in power)

Life taught me how to speak up my mind
taught me to be upright and dignified

Life also taught me
that too much empathy makes you die for the others' pain
people are not willing to do the right things

you can show them
but cannot force them

your goal though remains your own evolution

to be human
is to act with humanity
and yet not to be identified with it

is to be able to do your utmost
and accept when you cannot act against the other's free will
even though you know in advance the shape of their action
and the fruits they will bear

pain come not from knowing
but knowing that others will remain ignorant
and keep making wrong choices
which will have sour consequences for them

to know and to accept to let them fall
is the real pain

you cannot ignore
you cannot act against others free will

but you can remember to be free

I am free

i am free
as an experience i enjoy
as an experience i transfer identity
is not a running away from difficulties
it is the choice of mine not to identify myself with pain

it is the choice to last in an experience as long as i feel joy there
it is the choice to preserve my nature
and not to forget

that i am free
(to choose whoever i want to be)

I am that I am and you can't locate me

In the midst of the tempest
i sought for silence
for freedom from the empathy
of feeling others' pain

and in a vision
i saw a jar
which bottle neck was surrounded with
three lines  made of a colorful straw

and i said i am that
i want to be that

because in the midst of the tempest
wherefrom i was feeling others' pain and torment

i felt myself overloaded
and yet wish not to ignore them

yet i sought for my own peace
sought to preserve it

to stop from being dragged away by the current

so i said
i am that straw of 1cm  lost
in the midst of the many strawlines that are making up this second line of straw
on the bottle neck
who can know i am that?
who can pinpoint me?
and know i am there?
no one can see me there
nor reach me

nor pain can reach me there
as pain is attached to those people's experience
what is the experience of a straw line in terms of identifying itself with others' pain
except if you are some relative
you are bound to others' pain, to family's pain, to friends' pain

but if you are free
i.e. if you are that 1cm straw line lost in a thread made of straw
surrounding the bottle neck of a jar
who knows you are -at that moment- that?

you are free
some may think
what is this rambling of that 1cm straw
is rambling for those who seek to find me
by identifying me
to corner and limit me

but is truth for the others

and once i know i am free
and can be wherever i want 
then i make other's free from pain
then i can make other's free from pain


so i am the third straw on the second line
of the bottle neck of that jar
i am family free
and emotionally free
free from (absorbin people's surrounding) pain
i know no pain
when i am free
i am light and thus in bliss
and make other's happy and pain free

Mind Veto

The Ufo don't land
therefore there is no alien

....

Your mind vetoes what's in front of your eyes
because of what it does not know yet..


this is what i learned today

everything is obvious
but as your mind think it is not
it puts a veto to it
and you stay in the dark
thinking is not possible

and the mind only puts that veto
cause it is ignorant
meaning
it knows it not ...
...yet.

I am Not what you think i am...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmm sooooooooooooo HAPPY!!!


Among others good stuff happening to me
there is ONE big
that i HAVE to tell

cause the flow of it
is just amazing

remember?
in some post
i had said a few months back
"ah i feel so disappointed
for not having received gifts for my birthday
out of sincere attention from so called friends?"

remember?

well guess what?
since that beginning of year
i.e. since september

i just KEEP receiving gifts
and NOWADAYS
is JUST amazing

i can't wait to come back
and check all of them

Praise be to God!

Gifts out of thin air
even from people who knows me not...

that's called LUCK!!!

i am on a ROLL baby!:)

that's the power of Shakti
you don't even know if you get what you desire

but once you do
then ok you know is from Shakti backing
and that's an amazing flow!


LOL
that's the message i got today :

Field of Dreams

This is the perfect time to harness the field of vast potential not yet realized in your life. Great abundance is yours if you’re willing to do the work alongside the Gentle Gardener. Be clear about your thoughts, feelings, and beliefs. Concentrate on your best life regardless of the temporary outer conditions imposed upon you by the greater world, which has its own story to tell. You have a basket full of seeds that are quite powerful, for your talents are Divinely in- spired and will indeed lead to a great harvest to be shared with others. You will reap what you have sown. Dream big, dream beautiful, take action, and tend to the garden of your life . . . and experience the extraordinary.
 
YOU BET I DREAM BIG!!!

just these few words to say

to those who thought
"ah yea, criticise not and just accept the no-gift situation
cause you are not worth it
keep giving to us,
and when you don't
let us call you STINGY ... "

as i read their minds

i say to them :

and READ MY LIPS

GOOD ..

I AM WHAT I AM
CAPISH?

as for the Stingy stuff
as when we used to say
when we were kids in french

"c'est celui qui dit qui y est"
meaning
as kids are wise

"the one who says it
(i.e.saying the insults)
is the one who is"

lol that was my fav. insult to others
hahahaha


GOOD for ya?
If not, try to love more your ass first...
LOVE YA ALL!!!

KISSES :x

Chandeleur

pannnnnnnnnncakes!!!

Here in France was Candlemas
...yummy... with a friend we shared our pancakes recipes

for the first time in my life
i forgot to take pic!
hahahaha

cause we just ate them
sooooo delightfully

with some Pure Honey
that costed me a hand lol

ahh... next time
i think we gonna make it tomorrow lol
let's add melted chocolate on sugary coated apples
and shove them in the oven
and let's add chantilly on top of it...

hmm?
drooling already hahahaha

more seriously
today got a nice dream
in which the woman i met
and yea was quite real meeting

told me by looking at my palm
that i have a HUGE force within me

of course she was talking of the Kundalini
and of course was something new to me

cause what you think you know
is not what you feel

the feeling of words
and the way the words are said
and absorbed
makes your perception of reality

and the way she said it
it hits its target

and within me
i felt how true her words were
i felt SOLID and ENTIRE in my belly (not sure if you got what i mean)

that i had within me
that SOLID and HUGE GROUND
and that i was brave

felt SO much GROUNDED

and i feel right now
that indeed
when you are TOTALLY absorbed
by ONE emotion and ONE idea
then you stand SOLIDLY on TRUTH of the MOMENT

yea...i would say...that is what TRUTH is

and you just are BRAVE and DOMINATE the situation
as in being your OWN master

and not some weakling or puppet

hence my friends
BE YOURSELF

Love ya all,

Life is indeed too short to live with limited perception of others
and waste time with past

cause i KNOW key is in the Present
God is in the Present


Past is NO MORE of my concern
all Value is IN HERE
right NOW or never

biding you kisses to all
and preparing my next trip to my cherry blossom and pinkish Country lol

yea that's my gift set that reminds me of my next trip

sooooooooooooooooooo exciiiiiited !!!

hey!!! when i read it
i said HEY THAT's ME!!!!!

lol
hahahaha 

Sun Warmth and Sweet meals...

Got back from my sunny trip...
even more delicious
when i realised was minus 4 and minus 8 there
mwhahaahhaha


over there life was sooooo great
imagine i could do ALLLLL i wanted
and still was only 4pm in afternoon
time passed NOT
lol i could be late and was not late
i could do such a GREAT bargains and found doing that deliciously powerful


SUN was amazing
imagine we were only in january...

got plenty of vitamin D

i was told to be a fierce business woman there
of course i told them
"i took it as a compliment"

hahahaha

Got even one guy asking if i was already married

managed to meditate there
better than here
had amazing dreams

In one jotting down moment
i would say that
i was amazed at :

time blessings - just lengthen, never late
day starts and you have all the time in the world to do all you want

second,
things FLOWS
you just wish something, you do it
here in France, so administrative
you can't see opportunities
you have to dig them out
people cooperate not, so stingy they are
lack behavioral generosity
are afraid all of the time
not open opportunities

third,
seeing people living their life simply
and of course striving to become richer
yet you still have TIME to see  them evolving
here with globalisation everything is same in apparence
though people are just plain empty inside
rare are families with some stuff in them

but but but
one thing people mentality there
is always money tuned
everything is to be sold lol

but just within 3 days i got bored
my boredom level is increasing fast
cause i want new stuff and find something new and richer with meaning

lol i started to tour the country
was somewhat more appeased
but really i have the feeling i saw all i wanted to see

so far so good!

KISS to my lovely readers

Petals and her Sun

OKAY
did all the sales in the world
i could do mwhahahahaha

got so many gifts too!
in cre di ble !
so colorful and cute

now in this cold out there
i am sitting so comfy in that sofa
definitely i love it!

gotta take cocoa and a good spoonful of chantilly Cream
YUMMMMY!!!

am of course late
in doing my luggage!!!

but but but...


SUN OF MY LIFE
I AM COMING!!!

hahahaha
mwa:x;)

Your role is to give us Joy

what a feast today...

i was with kiddos
and i managed to managed them all lol

okay i need more training on that
but i did pretty well
to manage 12 kids that i knew not
hmm?;)

anyway
was very nice
kids try your limits
you need to learn how to assert your authority
that is the advice my friend gave me when i let this be known

for me
what i learned with kids
is that after 5 hours of managing them
i was not exhausted
actually i was very much energetic till the end 

i got them all to love me back!
and this struck me
cause was unexpected!!

the most youngest girl
such a shy one
just joined me when i sat on the sofa at the end
and snuggled herself againt me

woa
it strucked me!
cause she was so shy all the way
and all of sudden just intimate and so loving..

two other ones
started to tell me their secrets
which of course i will NEVER tell
even to you lol

cause i KEEP secrets
i never tell them
i KEEP trust

for i have some good education
and i have strong faith
and i know basics of everything is
to approach people with respect
and then you can connect with them
and always keep their trust
even if they break yours

cause i truly care for my cleanliness

so spontaneously
they started to tell me their secrets
lol
so cute it was

one cutee
told me
but why don't you go with adults?
why don't you join them, and instead stay with us?

i told her
"well, imagine? if i was not there?"

then she got her eyes wide open
and said
"ahhhh !! but i know!
is because your role is to make us
the kids, filled with Joy!"

sincerely
even writing this
my heart is melting

it struck me inside
really
i said to myself
she is telling me
that my role has been to stay with them
to give them JOY

and a few seconds after
she realised that
lol as my friend says
"lo! behold! her eyes opened up!" hahaha

she got headache
and said it to me
so i put my hand
on her chakras
first the belly,
then the heart
then the throat
and the agnya/forehead
i held her both temples
and massaged her sahasrara


i raised her kundalini three times

and then i told her
how you feel?

and she said
"i forgot what i was feeling
and asking you
is like i forgot what happened"
"and i feel so cool inside"

i just smiled
cause she was saying in other words
i have no more thoughts..
this is why she said she forgot
what she was thinking about

and then
before leaving
i got both groups of kids
on my back
felt like going out of a rugbymen team
:) so happy i was
that kids had fun with me
and that shakti spoke through this kiddo girl
so that she said such wisdom with that ah-ha factor!
lo! eyes wide open

somehow
i felt touching all kids head or face
before leaving
or saying good bye

and somehow
i realised after
this touching
without me knowing
gave them self realisation

i think
a kiddo
is like a match
it get its inner fire on so easily
when you touch it

definitely
when i saw their mom
i saw how much there was a gap
between the kids and their moms

the kids were independent from their manners
to a great extent

than those kids who were grown up
and who soaked up their mom's "bad" habits

such as mocking other kids etc.

is so sorry
that parents learn not more from their kids
but at some point with the adolescence
kids absorb much from their parents

this is why in islam
prophet said
"kids are born on true faith the "Fitrah"
meaning Nature
it is their parents who corrupt them/their religion
as they grow up

so the True Religion is Natural State of when you are born into
and religion is "taught" by parents
so much that it corrupts their natural, intuitive and pure state of innocence
which in itself is not corrupted
but obliterated so much that the kid's innocence is covered up
by its parents' habits which have been absorbed

lovely kids they were
kisses to them
mwa :x