Today i met a familiar acquaintance
after years
life is funny
here is what i learned
and it is so fair
life is so fair
you see
the very thing people accuse me of
either by wrong thoughts, backbiting etc
is the VERY thing that WILL happen to them...
myself i am so surprised
but this rule is so true
you see
in the past
when i came back from the uk
i was like feeling i was at the end of my life emotionally speaking
cause bellywise, i felt pain not to be able to open the door of spirituality
by not having a real teacher
and that very person
happened to think i was in some love affair
and depressed by that
cause she was only projecting her own limits
by transposing them onto me
yes i was love sick
but love sick for Truth
really
that was the most tragically beautifully sincerest moment of my Life
which i will never ever trade for
though usually people would like to trade pain for love
but is like the movie vice versa
without that traumatic pain i would have never found Love
so much to tell
but too much to write
you see
the desire for me was always my spiritual quest
i wanted Truth
spiritual opening
Light
help
direction for my evolution
to see positive change
a new life
and i was love sick for that
that was my universe
and that girl
thought i was love sick for some guy
and she happened to laugh at it
i never minded it
cause i knew exactly what i wanted
is like some pure water
whatever mud you put in it
it remains clear
why?
cause it keeps running
and now
i met her
and i learned
she happened to wake up and cry every morning
because she was played emotionally by some guy
and lost her virginity
by hearing that
i felt so sad for her
you know why?
cause myself
i remembered
how when i came from uk
i used to wake up every morning
and hope it will be a new day
with some magic change
that i will see a door opening in my spirituality
some path being lit up
even writing it now
i feel tears
so i used to wake up every morning
désanchantée
realising is still same day than day before
and no opening for spirituality
so i used to cry
so i knew what she was going through
as pain
and i felt sad for her
and yet i realised
she was just getting back the change of her coin
cause you see in islam
there is a saying that is as follow
when you "curse"someone
this curse is true
meaning
it WILL apply
EITHER on the one saying it
OR on the one being the object of the "curse"
curse could be anything from thoughts being repeatedly occuring
to verbal attacks and actions
so as it was wrong
not applicable on me...
..she happened to create her own reality
with it..
such a wise girl
ended up in such a state
i felt very much empathic for her
because i wish not her to go through that pain
as i could feel what she was going through
is like to be in a jail and being hammered by your own emotions
and shakti showed me so clearly
her state
that no doubt was possible
you see?
and of course i helped to heal her heart chakra
not because i planned it
but just because it happened to be the moment dedicated for her help
and that was chosen by the spirit
and i like that
when i was feeling her heart
was like a heater was on
so that was the pain she was feeling
but you see
people harm themselves by themselves
and this of course they will never know
they will think the harm came from others, from that guy
of course it came from that guy
as other guys prior to him existed too but never managed to hurt her before
why?
cause she had protection
but the day you choose to lose your protection
you get hurt by letting such stuff touch you
she -ignorantly- let herself being harmed
by choosing to use curse words and laughing at me
is her right really
yet this is karma
if you are not 100% sure of your "curse"
be sure the curse is 100% sure of its destination
and also
she fell down in my esteem
cause i did not expect she would do such a thing
so is funny
i helped a girl who cursed me
and ended up helping her
against her very curse
and is funny
cause she knows not i helped her
and of course
she learned the lesson the hard way
the soft way
would have been humanity
when i was in need of help
she could have lent me some hand
she would have helped herself by helping me
ie
she would have avoided that situation
because of the insight she would have gained from mine
she would have learned i was yearning for truth
that i was spiritualy home sick
that i just needed hope
that a human touch would have not helped me
but would have soothed me
momentarily
that she would have grown to be someone else
through this experience
and would have certainly not challenged Life
to live a love sick story
just for her soul to learn what it means to be emotionally played
cause she occulted that
by then
and thought was just some laughable stuff
you can't occult the life lessons your soul need
so,
never laugh at life
but laugh with life
that is wisdom
to know that each thing has its place
when life laugh, laugh
but when life is sad, be compassionate and help with your human touch/human empathy
but when life is sad, and cry
lol don't cry with it hahaha
but FEEL it
and open to it by offering your presence
only by your present attention you can share
learn from this while giving comfort to the other
see?
is indeed about putting things at their right place
laugh with life
not at life
and you will learn your life lesson the soft way
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