MAGIC LOVE

This movie was THE hymn to seeing Life in the other

in it it was shown
how average couple last not
or even best friendship last not

cause people see not the very PERSON

but they see Money in her or him
or they see FAME and think they will get showered by their nearness
by their Glory and gain it themselves

anyway they see expectation in the other person
and how they can benefit you

is like a girl i knew
as soon as she knew someone was "important"
had fame or was about to marry
she used to stick to that person
to prepare the "land" for the future
so that she has the best seat in the first row in that person life

and get the glory showered on her
or the light of that occasion

see?

that is a calculated behavior
thinking light and love and LIFE is out of you
securing some interest and seat
by all means and "acts of (interested) generosity"

so at some point
i lied to people around
and pretended to have no job nor money
anyway i pretended to be in a lesser state

just to see how they actually are seeing me

and they were not seeing anything
except their own interest in the other person

likewise lately
they came all with sweet words

"i love your stubborness, humor and love,
may be a mix of all that"

and as soon as i started to use this very humor
to play the very person and tease her about her bisexuality

or the spy-der-man lol
about his hidden calculation
to draw back the muslim in advertising their cult

where all their attraction to my love and humor went?
all down the drain

because was empty words
one was seeking me out of curiosity the bisexual one
wanted to see where i live, am i married, what i do
am i sad or happy
sad is better like this she can enjoy it more
people are sadistic especially women to women

the guy,
wanted to manipulate
to get back a muslim in his group
to be able to better advertise his cult

that is what is interest
is an image you have of the person
and you want that image to reasssure yourself
and bring yourself up

thinking is glorious to receive other's light
is not

and as soon as i teased jokingly her bisexual ass

the true words
that her hearts were harboring
came out

"i understand why yogi rejected you"

that made me laugh when i read it
i said hmm.. not 5min before she forgot the love and humor she / they claimed to love in me

it was just a balm they were putting over me
thinking let's pat her as she wishes
and we got her

string of invisble manipulation
that can't EVER work with me

cause
thanks to God Grace
i am ABOVE them
so don't they think i can see them?

anyway,
out of SHEER luck i saw that movie

and in it

two people met
and they ONLY saw LIFE in each other

amazingly the scriptwriter and movie maker
managed to show

how each minute is like the last
and its value is even more priceless
when you -at the same time- ever have present in your mind
the running out of time and yet its ability to contains true Love for Life

and time in itself is not enough to Love

again the actors were infused with this philosophy
their acting were so great
that i would equal it to real

and then their great quality to pass through their eyes
the appreciation of life they were seeing in each other

made me realise
that as a realised person if we manage first to see our OWN self
like this through this thoughtless awareness

which after 10 of years of practice or 30 year of practice
no yogi in paris managed
even less in a permanent way

that is
to see in himself the Life itself

imagine
when you can ALSO see the Life in the other?
and not the image of that person that your self interest made

and now imagine
if both could see themselves AND each other
for that VERY life in them

don't you feel
is a whole NEW level of EXPERIENCING LIFE?

that has nothing to do
with the average man and woman , friend or lover

that has to do with Life itself
and THAT is MAGIC LOVE

Amazing Script writer beauty

What to say
i have watched such a BEAUTIFUL movie ...

i don't even dare to name it..just to keep it a bit longer in myself..

is just so beautiful

the script writer must be an alien? someone otherworldly? a time traveller?
i don't know
let me dream a bit longer

the actors, the main lead male and female
awesomely true

and the content..so deeeeeeeeeeep and spiritual

and the character so opposite and yet melting in each other
like day and night to make it a whole day

the music
and soundtrack .. especially one or two instrumentals
so nice, it seems they are there to touch the string of your soul
to make it arise

is another movie
i cried for .. remember i hardly ever cry for movies

except for Interstellar and a bit less but still for Cloud Atlas

but that movie is another Level

if i cried for Interstellar and Cloud Atlas
was for the pain the main lead was inspiring
like the cry of his soul for the Truth

but as i said that movie is another Level
i cried for its content
because it was just SO true

and i cried
because it was for the FIRST time
i saw it in "real" life
out of myself

so that i could say
"ah so it DOES exist"

i cried cause it was like a mirror
of myself
of my own appreciation for Life

i don't have the right words for now

plus this movie
is just as deep as i am used to express myself
contentwise i would say is the number one movie

now, you ask
but what is this movie?

well..Joker..this time
is my movie and i keep it
in me

...a bit more longer

and i really think i have to buy it
and to watch it at will

i never watch twice a movie

EXCEPT this one
because the actors emanate such a nice vibes in their role
that you feel the roles are real
i felt infused with their aura/acting

is a FIRST
for a movie
i tell you


plus
you feel such a nearness
closeness

is as i had said
it feels like

i am taking in ALL THE BEAUTY of this movie i am seeing
TAKING IT ALL IN ME

and then
it feels like
NO IT JUST UNCOVER IN ME THAT VERY BEAUTY
WHICH WAS ALREADY PRESENT

BUT THAT MOVIE
ACTED LIKE A MIRROR
FOR ME TO SEE IT

cause i think
the soul
just wishes to see itself
in the other

but the other
does not have that space
to share with you

except for my best friend

but i would say
even the yogi i met
though they are blessed
by this "space" / thoughtless awareness

they don't see its value
cause it is a FREE space
they don't know how to use it as a mirror
to see others beauty

and see that the other beauty
is your OWN beauty

this is why i say
when i watch this movie
i feel is my own beauty i am seeing...

so do i feel so with any amazing beauty
i see in the other
cause i don't feel it is a loss to me

as people do
and end up feeling jealous and envious

jealousy is an immature gross feeling
which shows
that you have not yet sorted out
that this beauty you are seeing in someone
it is all YOU, all in you after all

i think i definitely have to go for movie making
and i dream to meet such script writer
and work with them

is powerful
to meet such AUTHENTIC SOULS

....about souls

i am much more since two weeks in touch with my own soul
and that is communicatively speaking

 like today
once i finished meditation
and take a deep breath from belly
i let me soul give me any message it has for me

cause i said to it :)
now that is your space
i meditated
is now or never if you want to give a message

cause you see?
we have a soul
our part of authentic Self
which just happens to wish to move its way back to the Source

and it just wait to be listened to

but we don't

we just listen to our remnants thoughts
and we reproduce MORE THAN 93% of them everyday
cause
if i am not mistaken
the habits are stored in our cortex
and we just reiterate them
like robots

is so sorry
not to really live the Life

am sure
there is a smoother and more fuller way to live Life

people ask
if i have found what i am seeking...

rather they should ask themselves
if they dare to seek something better?
cause they think they "arrived" and reached their destination

but self realisation (like as in having some kundalini strands awakened)
is just an entrance door
to something greater

how could it be all that is?
this is how religions went wrong,
and this is how cults are born

is like mixing up the means with the purpose of life

and thereby
missing out so much more possibilities
to live, and breath in a more FULLER & more beautiful Life

which will become
actually
the beautiful Realm

that eyes have never seen
and ears have never heard of

where you would live in..
Petals

Spirit and Yogi..

Do you know what is shaitan or demons?

Or why some mind games exist
saying if God exist, then why he created a devil , if he is so good?
all many kinds of mind challenges like that exist

especially set by atheist people
but they are good
cause they force sincere seeker to think about
the duality of life

this topic is for other time

now,
i had a dream
where i was with the yogi
and the spirit was witnessing the actions of everyone

then as i talked to the Spirit
he got angry by their behavior

instead asked all of us
to compete
the swimming pool was so unclean
(swimming pool water is your own water,
your own purification
as to how much you practised purification
here using Shakti - if unclean means you are in want of purification)

so as swimming pool of theirs
was unclean
i went to another
brand new all clean

and they on their side competed
and i competed on my own
and then spirit call us both as group

and i happened to be the winner
even breaking some world record

then Spirit told me

"do they think I will be happy
with their low magic of paper burning
and burning shakti?"

"they considered you only as low muslim"

"it is ME who knows if you have value or not
NOT them"

"so do not believe their lies"

i can tell the even tiniest unease i was feeling
i had it no more
as it is like a dead rope linking me to them
was broken
and they could no more affect me
with their low mentality

instead

they are now reaping their deeds..

Remembering who I am

Had a nice dream life lol
today in dream i was seeing much of
my past life and a bit of my future life

was very much real

even seeing the names i had in my past

i find it cool
hehehe
cause i can google it
and i find those names
hey it feeds my curiosity


but the best of best
was when i was told

'she is recovering her memory
and know who she is"

that is the best part
cause the true memory and ID
is you being the Spirit as true nature
and not some past lives

but when you are recovering your memory
about who you are
as Spirit

then in the process
you DO start remembering also
the stored experience of your past lives

as you are recycled into creation
see? (unless enlightened)

:) i am remembering...who I am :)
so happy!!!

Take Responsibility

Lol
i have a friend
she is real positive about life

it is how i call
being in CHARGE

taking responsibility and not pity yourself

she used to get fired by all her bosses
instead look at the brightness of her mind

she said, "I fired my boss"

THAT i call it LIFE

cause she did not get STUCK in what "other are doing to her"
instead this denotes

that she LOOKED at the situation
SAW what she likes not
and ADMIT IT to herself

and then in a split of a second
decided in her self

"hey if that boss is so unethical
then, why would i feel to be victim of his firing?

it is ME who out of WILL fire him from my life"

see?

cause we CHOOSE on which value we live our life

now... if she was confused in her mind
knowing that he is unethical and yet feeling low for being fired

that confusion
would have shown her lack of maturity
in recognising with clarity of what is GOOD and BAD according to her standard

see?

so first be CLEAR about your standards
and then FIRE people out of your life
when you see they are crossing bounds of decency

this is how you do your share
second, wish the best for them
i always wish for them to "get it"
but i can't change people

yet..i wish for them what i wish for myself
and that is THE BEST EVOLUTION possible

may you become your TRUE SELF
Honest and Sincere
and may you meditate in morning

cause mind is limited
but the desire is not
the more you have the pure desire to wish for something BETTER for yourself

the more ... God provides for you
UNLIMITED RESSOURCES TO TAP FROM

is like me
i went blindly in life
refusing all kinds of "material" opportunity
be it job in best companies or even proposals from millionaire guys

cause these "events/scenario of future life" had no LIGHT in them
when i considered them
i could not SEE myself SHINING in such situation

yet...considering the UNKNOWN
i could feel the LIMITLESS POSSIBILITY
TO BE SOMETHING MORE THAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN

...and that is a GREAT excitement to discover/live Life

and now, when i dwell on this
i feel very much appreciative of what is happening to me

though at times is stressful
cause there is a mismatch between this world and spiritual standards

but at least
i know i have the chance to explore the infinite

is like something i feel in myself
i can touch it
but am still, for now, not able to see it
but it feels great
like the excitement you may have when you near it

it feels like a golden ball of light
inside of me

Everlasting Beauty

There are moments in life
where you realise
that everything is a teacher

actually most of time
i could say i can see myself learning
is like the teacher is an event, or even a movie

which are speaking to me

it is like it was customised
and created to answer to my questions
see?

Remember?
when i wrote once
about a TV commercial
when i switched on tv
it was answering my very question
i had in mind about some coffee brand


now, is same
during the day
there were a LINE of events
one after the other
that were -LITERALLY speaking- talking to me

an outsider would think is just an independent conversation
that i am witnessing between two people

but in truth
in my self
i felt as if both people
were answering to my questions
without them knowing it consciously

is an amazing feeling of closeness

moreover
it was like they were acting my own life
was so strange
cause most of the details were matching my life
and as the conversation was very deep

it was 100% customised for me

Purposely i am not going into the details of it

but i could feel a very warm feeling
in the belly
and it rose up till the heart

and i felt satisfied
it made me feel also more grounded
and peaceful

because it is like an outer confirmation
of what i was feeling inside
and it felt warm to know that
if someone else could put words to it

then it already exist
and if it exists then is beautiful to witness

because i always felt
that if i can witness beauty
then i would feel real rich inside

as if i am somehow collecting it in me
and it won't perish
or as if it is stored forever in me
or as if i lived it for REAL 
i.e. lived it and KNOWING that i am living it

(cause most of time
we live without knowing consciously that we are living a life
is like we live a life unconsciously
that does not leave in you a feeling of sth alive
rather it is empty from Life , is  neutral at best
it does not add to your experience/i.e. it does not nourish you)

and this creates a feeling of satisfaction
or of fulfillment

because i KNOW this Beauty exists
and i am witnessing it
and if i am witnessing it
then it is in me
and it is for me
stored for ever
in me

Sincerity & Honesty

my soul

i dig in people to find some treasure

and all i see is deception

most people are so blind to themselves

that you can never touch them

you can never touch their sincerity

is like no one wants to be his Self

always something else

i feel the true self is found in the very moment

yet, people, it seems, refuse to live the very moment

cause they are using the moment to plan for future

but it is in the very moment

that you can see each other's soul light

not after

after is sheer luck if you meet her again

and even if you were to meet her

you would have forgotten that she has a soul

to be appreciated for

because you would be even more engrossed

in planning for reaching your target

so you will plan even more

thinking is closer

and get even more blind

to the present

so much that you will never see 

the very blessed moment

in the person

in front of you 

this is why you always miss sincerity

though sincerity is ever present 

in front of you

you see her not

Lyrics 

BILLY JOEL LYRICS

"Honesty"

If you search for tenderness
It isn't hard to find
You can have the love you need to live
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind
It always seems to be so hard to give

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can always find someone
To say they sympathize
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve
But I don't want some pretty face
To tell me pretty lies
All I want is someone to believe

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can find a lover
I can find a friend
I can have security
Until the bitter end
Anyone can comfort me
With promises again
I know, I know

When I'm deep inside of me
Don't be too concerned
I won't ask for nothin' while I'm gone
But when I want sincerity
Tell me where else can I turn
Cause you're the one that I depend upon

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you 

  

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/billyjoel/honesty.html

Belly and the Joy

When you have that warm feeling
that arises from inside your belly
and it goes and touches heart

then you can bet
that you are doing something
that your soul is appreciating

cause is a feeling of joy
that arises straight
and touches your heart
which is the place of Love

and thus you are doing
what your soul Loves..

that is the very nice feeling
of excitement
and being at the right place
and doing the right thing

then it feels like
you are breathing anew

Luxurious moment of Light

ahhhhhh!
Have just been invited for a LUXURIOUS bath time
Warm water ... mixed with Lavender essence

just ONE word
GLORIOUS

Eager to be Monday!!!

okay am hesitating between
a Verbena, Lavender or Jasmin ...

these are such AUTHENTIC essences
i think i will go for Lavender

now,
i had a very nice AHA moment of clarity

was about the Light coming out of fingers

As i got reminded
the fingers show you the state of your chakras
but it had NEVER occured to me ON THE SPOT
that DE FACTO the fingers were the EXTENSION of my chakras see?

and i mean it LITERALLY SPEAKING
not as in descriptive way

this is WHY  i can see LIGHT going out of it
cause it SHOWS the DEGREE of SELF REALISATION
more explicitely is the LIGHT of the SPIRIT
that has PASSED THROUGH THE chakra of the person
it ENLIGHTENED SO MUCH the chakras
that the LIGHT was GOING OUT of the fingers

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
then i felt it was AWESOME
the LIGHT OF THE SPIRIT i could see out of these VERY fingers
isn't it AMAZING?

you can see YOUR OWN spirit LIGHT!!!

AWESOME



Hope i can activate that one day at will
this will be ONLY when it will become stable i guess
a state
that's a beautiful experience

kiss and love:x:x:x

Collective bandhan ... and their paper burning

Yogi never understand
what it means to put attention within
always trying to purify others behavior and never theirs, right?

After doing some mischievousness
of course they think EVIL is outside of them

never knowing it is to be fixed within.

So after calling a collective bandan
where they are calling me "back to mataji"

Mataji is what?
is not the Adi Shakti within?
you think i left my own adi shakti within?

no... they just want to control you, the outside
by misusing bandhan/magic...

cause they want me
the GOOD muslim
to be "BACK" to what they call collectivity

Should i call them back to the sufi realised collectivity?
hmm? that they never entered?
is stupid cause a collectivity is spiritual
is not a concrete stuff just because you have a group
what they are is a "GROUP" of numbnuts not meditating
though they are many

so they were curious about me
thinking : she left mataji, she left the collectivity

i will straighten for the LAST TIME their twisted mind :
still i love them, they are like ignorant kids

see?

1- Mataji is not a person, is not God
2- Adi shakti is WITHIN, you can't leave your own SELF , as your OWN SPIRIT WITHIN IS GOD
3- if you meditate NOT , and i DO EVERY MORNING, you will get affected
and i saw , except one yogi living in their ashram who is actually the only good one, and people think she is stupid, doing well

all of the others, are just going backward in their opening of petals
lol
they have never ever thought about that i bet! the opening ...or closing off... of their petals..

4- Guys, still not getting it? where my spiritual power comes from?
may be from my petals opening? cause i meditate my ass in the morning?
if so, i left nothing? may be except your stupid group of overarching patronizing controllers?

5-instead of behaving like an indian cast
following some guy who has no discriminative power
except sticking to mataji family title
what if I START behaving as stupidly as them, under pretext i am the GRAND....GRAND daughter
of FATIMA?

HMM?

back to earth guys
care for your own practice and meditation
then see if your petals open
so far they are rather drying out

and expect the consequences of your deeds


6- they never learn to appreciate the person for WHO THEY ARE
had they? they would have seen where my wisdom was flowing from
instead of asking me to be less deep...pure jealousy

so why they are afraid of my power?
while they had all the way seen them when i was benefiting them with ?
cause they NEVER took it for their OWN benefit
they ONLY saw YEA IS GREAT
GREAT to use her to BRING BACK OTHER MUSLIMS to worship indian god in sari
and make some dance after roasting some rice in chimney called havan

you think muslims are stupid and to be educated?

there are REALISED SUFI
with POWER of SPIRIT

and when they met me
they thought
ah! a muslim she never meditates
she is so numbnuts
let her use her for attracting others

NEVER EVER THINKING
OR EVEN YET WONDERING
WHERE I HAVE THESE SPIRITUAL POWER FROM
hmm?

May be because i am a REGULAR MEDITATOR
may be because the LAST ONES ARE THE FIRST?

May be i got self realisation later than them
but am ALREADY LEADING THE WAY

as of this DAY
they will have NO MORE muslims in paris
they are not entitled to respect,
they don't know to keep a meditational practice
only bothering by turning muslims into some pujadists hahaha

they are just stuck in marketing
thinking to work for the Glory of some Mataji
while all the way mataji only ask them to IMPROVE THEIR SLACKING MEDITATION
INEXISTANT PRACTICE IN MORNING?

once you do it
then muslims will follow
but this they will never get

and for the prank
they have activated protection i have from Mataji
and each single person having taken part in it
will have to BEAR the consequences of their INTENTION

Good intention, you reap goods
bad intention, you reap bad
that is the POWER OF INNOCENCE

capish?
let's see and wait your lot..

is me who should do a bandhan for you to get your practice right
mediate in morning! and you will see something else above your limited bandhan

and yea, the paper burning...
you are not burning the person ...
you are burning the NEGATIVE vision YOU HAVE INSIDE YOU OF HER

so at BEST this paper burning will make you to love me more?
not sure it will last though
but it can't destroy my so called "negativity" if i don't have any such as THEY thought me having abandoned meditation lol? as i NEVER abandoned it... but this too they will never get it...

and a bandhan can't bring me back, cause i NEVER left?

SEE? cause all the WAY you thought WRONG direction


is ok no more muslim for them in paris
seeking Glory out of themselves hmm?
only, when i see SINCERITY and PRACTICE in them
then they will see GROUPS OF MUSLIMS BY THOUSANDS coming for self realisation

TILL THEN
if the leaders are not ready
NOTHING

and.....mediate ....dear
numbnuts you are ... good at least you made me laugh
don't tire your hands too much with bandhans

with love,
kiss:x

Kid Mommy and Kundalini

Had to blog this
i was shopping in a Mart
and 3 times i happen to cross a path with babies or kids
and each time they stopped talking
and started to look on top of my head

how i know?
cause i looked at their eye balls gosh!

anyway
the last kid was the youngest
and she was crying so loud
actually i was so engrossed in my shopping spree
had not even paid attention to her


but i came near to grab my shower gel
:))
she stopped screaming
i thought "ah suddenly is pleasant"
and looked around and saw her

then she bent her head all the way back
and was looking at me
and her eyes went half closed
and then she said "mommy"

wow
that is FIRST time i saw a person melting
really
i had heard of it
that once your kundalini is strongly awakened
it "melt" the person next to you
but on a kid was even more obvious!

really she went soft like a cotton
or a wool pillow
hahaha
don't ask me why i say that
but is like when you are extremely tired
and you feel this extasy of jumping into the most comfy pillow on your large bed!
well was same

so i patted myself
and said yea! indeed
is my kundalini!

first i thought the kid swooned or fainted
hahaha
so abnormal it was

plus really
calling the energy she was saying "Mommy"
was just amazing
that it hit me
i said to myself
"AT LAST someone sees it! of course only kids do"

the kids see what we see not
and they see the Kingdom or Heaven on Earth

kiss:x!

Mastery

spirituality is a dangerous place to be
cause never i saw ANYONE give something
for the sake of God

always some retribution is demanded
one way or another
be SURE it will be demanded

some ask for sex
others for money
others for both lol

stuff is i know myself
when i help someone i do it from my own inner generosity
and that is called compassion

so when you lie to someone
what you do?
you steal him his free will see?

cause you expect him
to obey to you
and as you have doubts he won't
you use lies
and as is presented as truth
the person will agree while being ignorant

this is how lies
help you to bypass his free will

when i was seeking spirituality
i saw how i could be as muslim be slowed down
in my process to find truth

so i ask for guidance from God
to learn truth from non muslim base
cause you see i knew truth is not about religion
but about its very Essence

and religion was slowing me down

but if is undeniable that muslims / or any religious group
that you belong to
put loads of its conditioning on you
and slow down your enlightenment process

a non muslim / or non religious group
has the defect of having no more deep rooted ethics
they will do as their ass wants

the sacredness and nearness thingy
that you find in any religious group is lost
the behavior is just messy, and most of time based on lies
to bypass your free will
and make you adhere to it

that is just a non religious form of controlling

cause ANY being
be he enlightened or not

will at some point
wants to chiselled you to his image
and stomp the beauty of your sincere offering for that path

manipulation is used when you know you can't get it by saying truth
so you lie to bypass the other's free will

see?
Free will is to have the freedom to choose
but if facts presented to you are deformed so that you be more willing to believe in them
isn't it harming your free will?

it is.
so whatever happen
just know

that you can rely ONLY on your own soul

cause most women out of jealousy will not help you
and most men will only be interested for their ego for you to serve
so if you want freedom
just cease to seek a master out of you
cause they are all fake.

if you seek to seek one outside?
where you find mastery?
through your Master Within.

Buddah India and DNA

i had visions just in the first minutes when i started meditation this morning

in the beginning, i saw a Budda sitting over branch of a tree under the night sky and behind him i saw a silver moon, very huge
the silver moon was really beautiful

and then i got another vision
so real
i saw as if i was in India and was visiting some poor quarters or so
and people there
though they were utterly poor
they were so generous cause they built a HUGE cup for me
a sort of vessel that can carry water
was hand made , like they had melted the metal to create it
and i could see thick nails planted in sort of metal ribbons decorating the huge vessel
actually it was so huge it could fill up the square or a market place

and i was surprised they made me that gift for me
while they were poor and had nothing for themselves
was really truly generous behavior 


and in the third vision i saw the color blue and orange from DNA
then i saw these blue and orange bits of DNA exploding


and then i saw the energy going out of the body
and it is how it started to affect life around
 
 
i wondered if  dna orange and blue color?
actuallty yes...to my surprise it is ..

cause DNA is based on 4 proteins chains 2 are orange..2 blue
the re-arrangement of them as adbc..creates the life dna..etc
in billion combinations

anyway..there are only 4 proteins in the dna
which are creating life
in different combinations..etc
of them 2 are blue..2 are orange like in my vision and when they exploded energies went out of it like light  and it affected the atmospher around

the whole vision liberated a good feel...

had to blog it

Hellish realm

In last post was about witnessing
reincarnation from the Above, like from Heaven

that time i had since people who were stuck in hell
brrr...have goosebump so disgraceful it was

first of all their bodies were disgraceful

i think as a human being
we have a real Graceful body
so well balanced and really graceful

in there
i saw it was like midnight time
and the people stuck there
were trying HARD to get out of their realm

so in a way everyone tries hard
to get out of his condition
to get a better life

but trying hard
in the wrong way
leads to nowhere
is like you are stuck
and is really desperate situation

and that is hell

the guys i saw they had only
legs and their body ended up hardly on the navel
very little of backbone

and their legs were up
while trying very HARD to grow something
by pushing even more on their "what remained of their" belly

ah...what to say?
was disgraceful
and i saw so much effort but to no avail

was like sport club?
so much smelly by the men's effort

their body was so disgraceful
cause it was just half..

i just wanted to see no more of it

then i saw the  female
and i saw they had their body
but their hellish level was due to the fact
they were so BAD behaved in groups among female..

and it reflects reality
the girls i knew in the yogi group
they were like schizo?
so well behave in their own company
and so bad mannered when in group
so badly using their power really

knew not that one had one behavior in group
and another when alone
that is to their disadvantage this backbiting in female group
brr.. really not good to see

and Spirit told me
that these men
were actually with their soul separated from the spirit

it made sense...

soul is in belly
which they had
but the higher part of their body was missing
which was where the spirit dwell
in the heart till its evolution on top of head

so yes was really sad to see how hard they were trying

and really to no avail
and again i say it
such a disgraceful body..

a human being should realise he has a really pretty
and graceful body as it is

then i saw and felt
well actually i lived it
how once one dies
it goes through the underword i saw
like central of earth
through an energy vortex actually
and pop OUT on the other side of the earth
through the vortex

and it is how it is an eternal cycle
while for the luckier it is so
for those who are stuck in hell
they are stuck for a long time
cause they can't like go out of it and reincarnate

so i realised that death is not like the end
is not like people who commit suicide
or even at time of dying think
in a glamorous way about another new life
while getting rid of their current life issues
no at all
is just worse actually

cause at least in this life you have your memory
and the blessing of a FULL graceful body
and if you are lucky your awakened kundalini to purify yourself

while knowing that even yogi can get stuck and become demon
as i witness it if they remain stuck in some realm once they die
cause what counts is your state when you die
on that very moment

the state of you when you die
is written in all scriptures
conditions the realm where you wake up

Feel of the Belly vs the mind habitual thinking

suddenly i realised
when i felt a vision of change in my belly
and i let myself feel it
just focused on it

without
by choice letting a simple "but"
or thoughts / mental activity
(cause it would have diverted me from my belly feel)

then i ALLOWED
myself to FEEL the change

and if i make space
for this change to be FELT
in the belly

then considered it as i won!

cause if i feel it
it means the soul recorded it feels good
so is in its cell memory
and thus it will DEFINITELY recognise the situation
to let my body on the given moment
REPRODUCE
this feeling of change

and now what was my feeling about?
was about a new world where the individual touch
and thus individuality of each single person
would be looked after and worth far much

than the value we give
to "luxury" brand names

cause luxury is sought after
just for its name

yet i saw traditional hand made products
far more efficient and communciating a warm and happy feel
and far much efficient
than "luxury" brand names

so yes about the belly
is all about letting once feel it
cause when during the feel
we lightly in an undisciplined manner
allow to be again drifted back by thoughts
thinking i  have time to come back to the feel

then it is when the opportunity
of realisation is lost

cause the thought is the doubt
doubt of what?
i often never got that point of what is doubt

so now i got it:
the thought creates the  DOUBT
about YES WE CAN
and it is not a slogan

it is WHAT your OWN belly
was inviting you to feel as "YES YOU CAN"

and so is ONLY by not letting yourself
being diverted by thoughts pattern
"ok let me see if is viable" or "but.."

then you LOSE the opportunity
to FEEL your belly
and lose the chance for your cells
which are emotional cells there see?
to record that ACCEPTANCE
and that acceptance of YES I CAN
is the ABSOLUTE certitude

that WHEN the situation arise
your body / soul actually
will RECOGNISE IT

and the belly
for is where soul is
having already recorded your feel
will ALLOW you
who are a machine just living on his cortex
which programmed to reproduce 98% of his daily activities
as a robot does
to be reprogrammed
by grasping the opportunity

and how so?
first by creating the space for you to SEE it
cause it breaks down your habitual functioning
which is based on habits, you get it!

once space is created in your robotic routine
it allows you to feel TOUCHED by the moment
(the present)

and once touched
third blessing is to NOT feel afraid to cross your limits
and is ONLY possible if NO fear (emotional) /NO doubt (in mental)

and WHO can obviously PREPARE YOU?
to have NO doubt and NO fear i.e. be emotionally ready for this new step?

that's it!
only your PREVIOUS FEEL that your BELLY showed you
and you stayed upon
with it
and thus was RECORDED

for you to NOW act on it
with no fear nor doubt

and thus allow yourself to enter into a new experience/world
so by shining you let other feel allowed to shine
(paraphrasing Marianne Williamson)

and that...when i think i got it
in a split of a second
while feeling my belly
when i was inhaling air...amazing God, isn't it?

plus these 3 blessings (creating space to see / to be touched by the present / to be able to act)
actually is what our everyday actions are about
what we call routine
INITIALLY it started so

but by LACK of faith
we got stuck/limited to it
what is now called a comfort zone

while initially man was created to be a creator
and not a robot

that is mind blowing essay
i just happened to write
isn't it?
hahahaha