In Honor of Buddha

woaaa
such a nice and deeply real dream
i had ...

first
i saw myself opening
a buddhist text
and as i was reading it
it was flowing so smoothly
in understanding

you know what type of understanding?
the first hand one
the one that you don't use with mind
for you don't try to imagine
or extrapolate

but the one that is show to you
as is
so as i was reading
i even forgot i was reading
for is like the reading
was the symbolic act
of touching that knowledge
say the entrance door

for i ended up being the object
of what i was reading
and living it from the very point of view
of a seed of a wheat, of a pool of water etc.

imagine...
is like you become
or ARE the very object of knowledge
is like the object become you
and the object is the subject of action

is like when you look at some situation
involving two people
imagine you swap your seat
for the other person body
and you can see life through his eyes?

was same here in the dream
i was seeing the teaching
from the "body" / point of view
of a pool of water or wheat grains...

so i saw the cyclical change
through which a human beings goes through
life or life times
for time matters not in there
it takes the time it takes
what matters is the state of maturation
before some shift comes

so i saw first a pool of water being full
this pool of water was alive
and i was that
for it was teaching / showing
by way of its own metaphor
how when your actual state becomes full

then you pass onto next stage
and there i saw an ear of wheat
when it became full
i mean fully mature
it was describing/telling
how human being state becomes mature
and once it does
i saw that another grain of wheat grew
out of it
leading the human being to his next stage

and the one grain of wheat
arising anew
was rising on top of a past stage
which was pain
once pain state was fully mature
had completed its cycle
then from this state another state would be born
and that state would be that of Love
and so on for each state of being of human kind

**sigh**
i need a sigh emoticon
so much i am using it nowadays

but that was so real teaching

you see
i had those kinds of dream 4 years ago
i could see stars in the sky
a group of them
and they were telling their metaphor
just by their presence

or i had dreamt of being a field flower
and i saw myself
my own seed germinating
and a thin stem coming out of it

see is not them who are alive
is you
the stars or some flower seed or wheat
or pool water...

i just learned firmly
that indeed the whole universe is in you
and each element has its guardian
and you can't access the consicousness of those elements within
unless you are within yourself
ie your attention is within

for one day may be two weeks ago
i realised on the spot
the freshness of the saying
"bring your attention within"

you know how it felt like?
was like i barely touched
like wind that touch a swaying petal
the importance of attention within

not as mental conviction
but as one witnessed by the body

so i understood that day
if one day
i bring my WHOLE attention within
ie not a few %
but the WHOLE of myself
the WHOLE of my attention

then as the kundalini will bear it in Her
like a child that is being beared by a pregnant woman
then this attention JUST by being PLACED in that SACRED LIVING energy within
will become ALIVE as well

you don't know
what ALIVE means
because if you knew
then you would be an enlightened being

so that was my intuitive touch of a wind on a petal
that taught me that feeling
prior to any experience of a fully enlightened attention

and once that attention is fully born in the kundalini
as a child is born in the womb
then this attention becomes alive
and by that it means
where your attention is PUT
then it LITERALLY TOUCH IN 3D
everything you direct your - self or your attention to
so that your attention becomes at same time
the eye sight, smell, the touch
the within and without of any stuff you look at
you can feel and be the tickness of sth
no need to touch it with your hands to know it
because you ARE that

like when i was in uk
during my sufi time :) 
and the voice from within me arose
and who startled me by its depth
I AM THAT WHICH I AM

by then i had no clue
but now only writing that
it comes to me
so i remembered it

so the dream of tonight
just taught me that
how the human being goes
from one cycle to another
once his state is mature
his learning of one state with its associated feelings
then another seed which is another feeling/emotion/state
will sprout from this grain of wheat
because of the necessity for the human being
to learn a new state

: )
so of course
once i woke up
i checked on internet
and indeed the example of the wheat grain is
a teaching from Buddha!:)

it is a Buddhist Sutra

so fun it is
true!
i am now studying buddhism in dream :))

i guess in this blessed month of Ramadan
i will start it honoring it with the teaching of Buddha
and start reading some Buddhist Sutra :x


:x :x :x
kisses to you all

ps : i definitely need to recognise perfume
all the way i was writing this blog
and still now
i am smelling and tasting
some scent on my tongue
hmm it feels like a soft sugary waft
of ...?
hm don't know what scent it is
i suck at it lol