Sunflower and petals are all ONE spirit

Hi there!

When someone calls me
and feels really down
it is like i see him inside of me
and i KNOW as i SEE him
i CAN THUS elevate him

i can heal him
elevate him
patch him back

these are the words i jot down a bit randomly
hoping they are close to my feeling


and ONCE i do it
i feel myself repaired! inside
and feel so comfy and happy

why it feels so?
because this feeling proves that we are ONE in spirit
and it is NO theory
that I AM THE OTHERS

yes this is the picture i ve taken in Italy
i call it the SUNFLOWER

and the sun makes NO efforts
to BRING his rays to every corner of the earth
they just LAND in their

this is HOW sharing joy is authentic
and effortless

but people do not know sharing
and EVEN less they know HOW to receive (sunrays/gifts)

if you don't know how to receive
how can you give?
you remain an empty cup i tell you

when i shared my miraculous experience
in italy
meaning
in a picture
seeing sunrays coming out of my belly
except 1 person
no one came back to share this joy

why?
lol
because they have no attention inside themselves
they said to themselves
she will have ego

but no it was their OWN ego speaking
plus they lost their opportunity to KNOW how to get the SAME

why?
because you are responsible ONLY of YOURSELF
NOT of the others

it means
you say
ok i see that,
i like it
how it happened
i want same
let s ask
let s be joyous
and let it be contagious!

let us share our experiences
so that they become ALIVE for the rest of us

this is WHAT a collective is

this is WHAT is a NATURAL COMMON SENSE
behavior of those who have the DESIRE of God
if no purpose
no seeking
no asking
no answer

and doom to same routine...
i tell you

instead of looking into your OWN joy
into yourself
you invest yourself of the CHARGE of the "care" of the other?!

fake
it is ego speaking
ego acting
and ego is joyless
because not of the spirit

in truth 
it means you are pretending
UNDER cover of doing her good, protecting her from an inflating ego,
and thus NOT giving any feedback, no expression of joy

you are actually
censoring your heart from sharing her joy
and just censoring it
from opening!

classic.

third,
it is NOT for nothing
that shri mataji said
only through the sufi will come this widespread self realisation
as success

why?
because they have a DESIRE for GOD
they have a purpose
and WHEN you have a purpose

then,
you ACT according to IT
you ask
inquire,
seek feverishly
and you are restless
and keep on your track
because you see the signs
and run after them before they are gone!
because time wait NOT

this is NATURAL selection

instead people
are NOT doing ANY introspection
to see WHAT i need to IMPROVE

that my weaknesses are my potential strengths!

that the other is MY mirror
and that i can be that TOO

this is HOW a life time pass
and you die
while God kept coming in front of you
but you kept turning a blind eye to him
because you thought
that it is NEVER in a human being

if SPIRIT is ONE
and spirit is in YOU AS in the OTHERS
than WHY you take others' life as LIGHTLY as this?

why it is NOT a mirror to you?
for your OWN progress?

why the indifference?
it means that whether i had or not this experience
shared it or not
it would have been the same?

for no sharing took place


only a girl asked inquired
i told her the method
and she got an amazing experience

where she felt her rate of vibration increasing
this morning
she felt as if she saw Shri Mataji face in her heart
with thousands hands

and she saw light of God
in herself and in others

to remain general

HOW is this possible?

first the meaning of it
is
that kundalini was opening MORE her heart
in heart is the spirit


third,
stunning news to me

i changed my mobile
and contacted EVERYONE on earth lol
hehehe i like dramatising effect
no contacted all my contact telling them
hey guys here i am contactable
lol can we tell it so?
does not sound english

is there any common sense filled living soul
who will no contact you
and then ask
a  third person
what have you become?

this makes me stand on my chair
no bed
lol

first contact that person
see if she is still alive lol
and THEN as a LAST option
check a third party to know if there is some sign of life

again,
time tells about people how they grow

whenever i have been contacted
was for a favor to give

but no one
(well except for one or two people
whom i recognise thus as GENUINE friends)
contacted me to ask
hey girl are you ok? what are you becoming?

why not so?
for there is no genuine care

this is also natural selection
process

i always wondered
how scene shift in life
how we change naturally platform
of friends, of level of society
for a more refined one

it is so
you keep giving to people
and they keep making wrong choices
the one of not receiving

at the end,
the balance shift

and God replace them by better than them
because it is needed for the evolution of each of us
to meet people who are WILLING to SHARE
so that we KEEP creating and experiencing ANEW


I would have wished to write this earlier
for the experience was fresher
about my feelings when i uplift people who calls me
but hey, :)

better than nothing :x


Beware that miracles..(like photos..or others) are "evidence" of the path...

they are not ego pumping...
they are not only needed..but actually required to know you are on the right path


so blessed are those who have it
and blessed are those who love those who have it
for they have it too like this.
the rest, keep busy with the charges that are not yours,
see where it leads you ;)

:)

B-DAY!

:)

so many things to write
i make lots of self discovery within a week
i also NEED to write a letter of praise about a friend
such beautiful qualities she has

but as i am in hurry
just one quick post

it was my birthday
and i realised ONLY true friends
remembered not only to WISH it but also to CELEBRATE it with me.

now, i naturally can tell
who is a true friend
from a "meditation peer" lol


a true friend,
like she acted,
and i felt positively shocked,
she bought me a gift weeks ago

another one
with her daughter
they learned it later that it was my birthday
but both of them
did such a beautiful surprised b-day party

it is so caring
i tell you why

we came back at 1am
who has the courage to do a b-day party at this time?

but she knew i loved the wii dancing
and what is funny
is that her daughter had heard me months ago
saying i love this wii experience of dancing
we shall do this together!
i never mentioned to them that i would love it for my b-day party

and they prepared it for me.
spontaneously.

vs

another group of "friends",
during our summer holidays
i literally told them
that for my coming b-day
i would like to have a wii dance party by and with them

some will laugh
why i was so direct
but it is only because
first i considered them as family/real close friends
for i always gave them the BEST advice
for i wished them the BEST.

so much, that i told them
i feel like being their "psy" giving free consultation lol

so i wanted to see,
is it same on their side?

as you know,
i am not a material person
 the whole year
i took part in their collective b-day parties
either by being present or by taking part in their gifts
or even by creating videos specially for them
why?
because it gave me joy to show i am THERE
and to SHARE it with them

JOY is to be SHARED
LOVE is SHARED
there is no other way

i did my share.
now, what about them?


so, this time
i openly not only give my b-day date
but also told them what i would like
because i KNOW what gives me JOY
and joy increases ONLY if more people take part in it


yet! no one chose to remember
to celebrate it with me
for the exception of one girl who wished it by mail
which is sweet
but let's be honest, it was not my point
and she knows it.

my point was
let 's dance ! lol

anyway,
i concluded

experiences in life
give us
the clarity

to know WHO
are your true friends
and mine i can count them on a single hand

true friends are those
who remember you
BECAUSE it is their INTENT
their WILL POWER 
 
who care for you
who are not only opportunist
or remember you for collecting money

but whose hearts are -IN the present.
and they don't shove the message under the carpet
as soon as they HEAR it.

you see,
it is HOW you pretend to "forget"
or say that "circumstances" were not right.

had the 1am circumstance right for a wii party ?
no
but the HEART was there.
PRESENT.
see?


you see or hear something
WHAT you CHOOSE to do?

close eyes?
fine
but where is joy?

act
this is what a friend and her daughter did
they created joy for me, for them

i am really appreciative
because above all
i SAW they are true
and this

when time will be right
they will get it 1000 times back from me
:))

they don't know
but i know

i never forget someone who did good to me sincerely
especially when no one cared.

and i could give them what their inner heart desire
for this is my wish
if i can see the sincerity of a person
and i know what she wishes
then i am happy to look forward to her happiness
and i feel happy to feel their happiness in me too.

so above this b-day party
which seems a petty thing

i tell you what i discovered about them

i discovered that my friend
is a beautiful mother
she shared with her daughter
in all honesty

told her
look it was our friends b-day
we did not know about it
it is a belated b-day
let's do something
as she is coming to see us today

and while that day
they had NO spare time
they came late to their own appointment

just to go and shop for me gifts!
which were bought by her daughter

which amazed me
is that she pinpointed
one of my preferred flower
the night jasmine from india :)

she wrote me a b-day card
with such innocent words
who happened to be so true

wherein she said "tu es une personne trés gentille"
which means real "kind and nice" person.

and packed herself the gifts
i loved to hear
that at the shop she refused them to pack it
for in her mind she had a very PRECISE idea
of what SHE wanted.

so at such a young age of 10
she STOOD her GROUND!

i loved it!

what a wonderful mother
make such a wonderful child:)

she taught to her child
how to be honest, straight forward, assertive
and have fun.

it is up to the parents to give children
opportunities to experience life
to know good manners
but not mannerism
i.e. good manners FROM the heart

and the b-day cake was so cute
lack of time
but no lack of care
it was donuts
i loved them!

of different kinds
of course the chocolate one was the best!:))

what i loved about them
was that they respect themselves
they respect their heart
they EXPRESS it

unconditionally

meaning
you do not look at WHO
but at the WHAT

what is my heart saying?
and you follow it

and of course
then the who is then being automatically honored

you can only share if you have something to share
if you don't have love,
how can you share it?

it will burden you
when it comes to celebrate b-day of someone else
in a group of "friends".
you will choose "to forget" and  turn a blind eye
to a few people b-days

why?
because this is the moment of TRUTH
where you realise inside of yourself

hey why should i celebrate her b-day?
it gives me no joy.really.
let's turn a blind eye to it.

and why it gives you no joy?
for you never learned to appreciate this person.
you used her
but
were neither truly appreciative
nor grateful.

therefore, you are unable to love her.

and this is the truth.

this applies only to those who pretend
to appreciate you and be your friends
not to those who never issued that claim.

for them, it is normal lol
that they do not take part in b-day.

see?
sharing joy and love
must be natural

so those who naturally showed it to me
by celebrating it with me
are those who are first sincere with themselves

then, they could be sincere with me.

why is it so?
because it is those who appreciated me
they saw me
and let me know
that i've brought something into their life.

for the others,
for sure i brought something into their life
for i am not oblivious to the good i did

i am not oblivious to the practical advice i gave them
rare are people who give you life saving advice
only because they wish the best for you

but then, these "friends" chose to let it become dust.

and this is a natural feedback
a natural selection happened
in the most spontaneous and authentic way
while leaving them happy
with their choice for they were free to choose
and never from me they will hear any reproach

as my aim was to see.
and for me it makes me happy
for i have seen and i know.


and clarity is what helps you
to advance in life
to make right decisions.

and only truth remains,
falsehood always perishes

when time passes.
from your life.

this i call
natural selection!

kiss:x
ps : i was feeling lots of scent in my mouth
while writing this!

in the bull eye!:x
and blessed post.


pps : the WII dance is :
http://www.nintendo.com/games/detail/2ec398vhy15qeeua2gp2aqlcpanwfmyl

Energies projection

There is a great thing i literally realised today

that when we see someone as bad
actually the person is ok

this feeling of hate i had against a person
i could have had it with another one
it is just that this person happened to be there
at that moment.

so the energy that i bore in me
on a given time
is way deeper in me linked to
some unresolved issue i had let s say with people breaking their words

so when my inner energy which is linked with this breach of trust
once in certain circumstances awakened
and thus TESTED

it manifested itself outside of myself.

but HOW it worked?

i tell you
it is as if this trunk of energy
starting from my belly (for belly is the center of well being)
is linked on one side to a screen which is projecting on it
a past experience of a breach of trust

and the energy trunk grows up to my brain
and there of course
there is no outlet
if my sahasrara is not opened
it receives not the love energy to dissolve it

therefore
it projects like another screen of tv
but let s call it in a laser like way
it project "an image"
on a white piece of marble/light
which is the other person

so that the person is somehow being
influenced and in a way controlled by my energy
and if my inner energy is repulsion
then this person will feel repulsed
and will flee away seeing me

and this works on her
because in her own consciousness she is feeling guilty
and is not at rest/peace!

so the trigger work.

but if i have the sahasrara opened
and let the energy of love being showered
on my deeper inner past experience of breach of trust
this experience is transformed in love
and the energy emitted out of myself
is love
and it attracts in turns the person
whose behavior will change and become amiable

so it is in the end
all about myself
about my inside.

it is never the other one s fault.

after our period of blaming the whole word
we are actually witnessing and experiencing
the manifestation of our own unresolved energies
inside of our selves
which are like any "intelligent" robot
manifesting themselves
out of us
and chiseling our world outside
and making it at our OWN image.

so if our world is ugly
it is because we have inside of us
some precise energy
which is related to some past unresolved painful experience
which ONLY need
like a child does
to attract our attention
to get resolved/to grow!

therefore
it attracts our attention
by manifesting itself
and popping out into our world
and coloring it, painting it
like a child paint on a canvas

have you ever seen a child's painting?
it expresses his subconscious so spontaneously

same with us
our inner energi-es
pop out
when they are triggered by some parameters/circumstances
and they paint on our canvas,
which is our world/people we meet

and it shows us that it needs to receive Light/Love to grow
and it is NOT the kind of love you think
it is ATTENTION ILLUMINATED
the one that is so
when our sahasrara is opened
and the light pours from upwards
deep down

this is WHY
it is important to have loooong meditation
long enough to let this energy of love/cool breeze
sink inside and transform our "matrix" lol

kiss:x

Chapter 2 : Photography - Nature

NOW the nature,

It was the MOST beautiful time EVER i had

In terms of discovering NATURE

Of course, in central France it was pretty green hills surrounding our village,

The area was Puy du Dome,

I have some nice pic, that i need to insert there, soon.

BUT BEST OF BEST

Was in ITALY !

When i went to the youth camp !

I took so many BEAUTIFUL pictures,

Sheer beauty it was,

Not only there, but also on flicker i need to publish them.

There were so good,

That a guy asked them to me,

For he failed his when he took them from his tablet,

I teased him to give me credit once he publish them on facebook.

Lol, for i sensed he would have pretended them to be theirs

By his convenient « silence ».

Some were really miraculous,

Others just with the right sun light

I need to select them and post them as soon as possible.

Yes, i started to take real good pictures in the youth camp,

For when i used to look at the landscape, i used to say i wish to capture it inside

But this time literally speaking

The camera DID capture it !

as i was taking pictures with my mobile

and yet they were of such a good quality, 

the castle guests who were passing by, 

said, you should buy a professional camera 

and start taking pictures

it would be more awesome:)

What i loved in this landscape at the camp
was that we were surrounded by green mountains
and early in the morning
we could see clouds surfing down from them

once we went for a day walk and when we arrived by the end of day
at the summit of one of them
it was FILLED with mist!

it is what people called it mist.
but i called it clouds!

for when we look at them from afar
we say there are clouds surrounding the summit
but once we are in, we call it mist!

no, for me it is clouds!
and when i was a child
and used to take airplane,
i asked my mom how to walk in the clouds
she said it was impossible
as a man would fall
lol!

dream concretised!

i COULD WALK in the clouds!
that day!:)

also, what often happens,
is that when i used to look at the mountains from the camp,
i thought that their greenery/forest is beautiful

but once i was on the OTHER SIDE
THEN i realised i was part of what i called beautiful!

that is incredible!

we ALWAYS forget what we look at
and don t realise
that we are part of it
when we are on the other side!

so i felt proud
to say to myself
that i am in the place i praised !:)
and that i am part of that beauty:)

another strong impression of mine
was when i looked at these mountains
and could see early morning
LITERALLY speaking the sun rays
which i have by the way
miraculously caught on camera!

so, when i saw these sun rays
falling upon this green forest
the light was so cool and yet intense
that i felt
it was literally entering through my eyes
and flowing like a river all the way in my belly

and i felt fulfilled
can one say nourished?

yes i have not tried
but i guess i could have stayed without eating that day
without having feeling of lack.

another time,
it is when i was really sad and disappointed
at people's behavior in the camp

and when i was looking at the mountains,
i concluded that there is only nature
which is sane
and where i would wish to be with
if i had to make "a permanent choice to be with"

and like for a video
i was seeing how roots of trees
could absorb the elements of the earth
and really integrate them!
this on the spot i found it really relieving, and fascinating

-relieving, because it was like a guarantee to me,
that nature does not segregate, it always INTEGRATE
it does NOT cut links
which is not the case with human beings

so i found safe, considering that,
that at least integration or unity existed in nature.

-fascinating, because it was alive!
it is incredible that roots of trees, in truth moves out
to reach elements around
grasp the soil and made it firm,
take the minerals and integrate them in its sap!

so that nothing was left out.

i liked it:)

with the little time i stayed there,
two weeks
i realised a few things about nature,

such as how much i was not in contact with its natural rythm,

like, one night i felt really cold
and i wondered how come
then i realised that during the day
there was no sun
therefore, the earth/soil had not accumulated enough heat
to give it back at night!

so amazing,
how much i am disconnected from natural rythm of the earth,
when i only have knowledge of heater and tar.

another, big time of mine
was when the youngster invited me to meditate with him
at the hill at 430
i went there
of course it was really cold
don t know if really meditated
but i felt happy
that it is a new experienced i never had
to meditate on an elevated place at 430 in the morning
and see first rays of sun.

i think i have to do a post about this nice guy
for at the end of my stay i thanked him
for i think he might have been the only one
who had a kind nature and was able to display it.
it is not for nothing
that he meditated at 430.

** pictures to come **

:)
here they are :
https://www.flickr.com/photos/127266480@N08/

Chapter 1 : Meditation

Hi there,

My intention to go for a two month journey

Was to develop intensive meditation.

For 10min of meditation a day is not efficient in itself.

As Shri Mataji said in her early talks, which are the best as a guidelines to grow

You need to get up at 4am and meditate at least an hour.

Goal is not vibrations, but Spirit.

Vibrations are the boat leading your personality to get integrated in the spirit.

Getting dissolved in it, if i use correct term.

So the more petals are open,

The more vibes will flow of course.

When petals open more,

It means we get less and less identified with our thoughts

And then bingo,

We are more in touch / identified with our spirit.

Which is pure light but covered with thought forms.

The process is that the more we meditate/i.e. stay with attention undisturbed on the cool breeze

WHEREVER we feel it (means not only sahasrara)

The more our channels get purified

And like for a motorway energy can pass through and cross agnya

And we are thus PURIFIED from thoughts identification.

That is for the process and how it worked.

Therefore my two month intensive meditation is a success !:)

For my aim was not only to use collective to meditate more

For it suffices that i be on my own, that it becomes heavy to get up at 4am

Which means that at some point some individual /personal effort is needed

Without which we cannot enact our pure desire for God.

Unless there be this personal routine established 

Or call it intensity

There cannot be breakthrough or progress

As i understood so far.

First two weeks, i was in central France, must say early meditation was not that early

It was just collective meditation that i joined at 7am.

Lol i tried to get up earlier but was impossible due to our 3am sleeping time

Jesus though it was fun, i was appalled !

And was in deep sleep deprivation.

Once i arrived in Italy, first month, i took part in collective meditation, 7am too.

There vibes were definitely stronger due to the quality of the yogis there.

Still, i could not get up earlier than 6am.

So i could at times meditate 1h before the collective one, as a personal meditation

And do the walking cycles/meditation.

Once my friends were all gone, i shifted to a castle and from there as i was more on my own,

I started to meditate at 4h30.

And it lasted till the end of my stay.

Would you like to hear a funny story :

When i was meditating the first night,

A Spanish lady which came recently, asked me how come so many alarms rang during the night

Lol so i told her,

It was my try to get up and meditate early.

She is a sort of collective type lady, who likes to harmonise things

So she said but this can t do,

That everyone got up at different time

LOL innerly i exploded in laughers

Who are you to tell me at what time i should get up for MY individual meditation ?

Anyway, she wished to join

Which was a good decision

As long as she prevented me not to wake up early.

Day after, we meditate together.

Then, it occurred to her, we can ask the girls dorm to join us for morning meditation

So i invited them all, some were from Belgium other from china.

Let me  tell you Chinese people have great stamina for meditation and devotion

For i often saw them regularly meditating throughout the day

And even at night, ESPECIALLY when they came back late.

One girl got a sort of heart attack

When i announced 430 ! lol

She could not make it

So we meditated all at this time

Next day she joined us.

A friend told me

To help them to increase their vibes

So i wanted in a few words next day

Tell my method to apply some cycles on their different chakras

So that their vibes increase

Of course one of the Chinese woman,

The one who could not possibly get up at 430

And was up thanks to me

Turned her back on me

Not to listen 

for she wanted to stay in silence

Such rudeness !

of course, we gonna meditate 

in silence

i just meant to give 1min indication for HER OWN good!

not forgetting, that i could have remained by myself on my own

to meditate in SHEER silence

without them

YET i DID invite them (see! :) grammar mistake this time;) )

so it is not me who was going to "disturb" their hardly earned 

meditation time!

I felt really heartbroken

That not only i do them good, but not thanking is one thing

But displaying rudeness is another.

So i left them all meditating downstairs

And i went upstairs to meditate on my own.

Yes, so far i had noted that when i meditated on my own

my vibes were strong and i felt good.

Since i started this collective meditation at 430, i had a heartache

So i needed to stay longer with attention on heart.

Therefore, i learned that i was purifying them.

I wondered what is the point, especially when people know it not

And add rudeness to ungratefulness.

A friend told me, that it makes spirit happy.

Anyway, once i was over with my anger,

I wished to have a new group of meditation

Who would like to learn my method and where i could meditate longer as i wish.

Yes it is important to wish,

And it is important not to suppress anger, and

It is all the more important NOT to linger on it.

These are three rules i learned and applied during my stay,

And have lots of anecdotes about them. And how it works out.

So for next post.

Anyway, that day when i meditated on my own upstairs,

I did not see time passing,

I started at 430 and when people started to enter the meditation room,

For the collective one, i realised it was 730 !

So happy i felt !

I did not see time pass,

It was also due to the new music track i got,

Such a beautiful one, i could meditate non stop thanks to it.

A 20min track, repeat it 3 times, and one hour is gone !

So i did probably 1h walking combined with 1h sitting, and 1h sitting in silence without music.

Later on, when people asked and i told them,

Those downstairs wanted to join and the guys which are sleeping upstairs, half of them too

Wanted to join J !

So happy i was, there i had a new meditation group !

So next day we meditated all together

Most of them meditated 1h others a bit more.

So i felt happy that half of castle residents meditated that early.

I had met a french guy who was really happy to hear about this new method of walking meditation

For he was enthused about the increased of vibes

He shared with me too that he had met an Indian guy

Who sort of also develop a method, as he was aiming to increase vibes rate in body

And talked of it to Shri Mataji,

Who validated it

And advised him not to advertise it to other yogis

Except those who are ready.

Hmm, there i realised

Even among those who meditate

Only a few seek for a breakthrough

Others have a faint desire to progress.

Anyway, i might get in touch with this Indian guy

And see, for i am curious.

Who knows,

I feel like travelling a lot next year,

Say

India,

Japan

Canada

Egypt

Yeah !

After the castle, i moved to a camp in the mountains,

There we were only two to meditate at 430.

The second person, was a youngster of 17 J

He was already meditating in the castle with me,

And if one day i missed meditation, for i was sick that day,

The next day, he would come and enquire why i came not J

Ah i really loved that guy,

For his early morning dedication

Imagine he was the only one to meditate that early out of the 60 people in the camp !

Desire, maturity and aim is not the same by the yogis.

All do not remain seeker of truth, truly.

So i went on with this 430 meditation once back in the village,

But he could no longer

For he used to sleep in a tent in the forest,

Which makes things not in favor of early meditation in a hanger ! lol

Still i remain proud of him.

And happy.

So i went on once back down in the village,

With my 430 meditation

Quality i feel had dropped a bit.

In terms of combining meditation.

In the castle, i systematically

Did the walking+sitting with and then without music.

In the hangar, due to the atmosphere,

Lack of light and cold i guess

And also the fact that it is a dormitory + meditation room

I only and mainly did the walking meditation.

By the end of my stay i can say i succeeded to do a whole month intensive meditation

As i call it !:)

Here is my formidable beautiful meditation music

Upon which i used to meditate J

Kiss :x

PS : effect of meditation ?

I felt and also got this comment,

That my heart opened more.

May be when i was purifying the others

And had heartache, it purified my heart and opened it !

Hence when one told me spirit would be happy,

Literally speaking my heart opened J

When i purified others ?:)

Second,

An English lady who had met me a month before,

When she saw me back in the village

She literally stopped me

Took me by the shoulders

And looked into my eyes

And said

« your eyes have changed. You have something of Ganesha/ say Innocence in it »

Best thing is to hear change from people

As we ourselves do not realise it

And once we hear it

It means it is true !

For the Energy is a transformative energy !

And i feel for the lady managing the camp,

She used to criticise the 17 year old guy,

Without knowing that me too i meditated that early

For i kept it secret

As i know if people have no interest in meditation

What’s the use to draw their attention on it.

Somehow she learned about the youngster meditating that early

And reproached him of not being collective !

JESUS !

This is how people justify their jealousy,

And how they like to boss others around

Without bossing themselves around,

Get a hold of your OWN meditation, of your OWN attention

And THEN you can play by teasing people in a light way

But here it was not even teasing,

It was pure silly judgemental conceptualised behavior

About WHAT a collectivity SHOULD BE !

Collectivity is a NATURAL SPONTANEOUS OUTCOME

Of people living together

It is NOT something forced upon

And certainly NOT something that mind can SHAPE through judgement.

Though i have wisdom,

I lack words on the spot

To tell people what i think

May be because i am artificially conditioned to respect their egos

But it won t last long,

This behavior of mine,

For i noted during my stay

How people, who mostly follow their ego, even though yogis,

Are in a position of abusing those who are lenient and kind.

I gotta chisel their ego a bit

Next time !:)

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