Chapter 1 : Meditation

Hi there,

My intention to go for a two month journey

Was to develop intensive meditation.

For 10min of meditation a day is not efficient in itself.

As Shri Mataji said in her early talks, which are the best as a guidelines to grow

You need to get up at 4am and meditate at least an hour.

Goal is not vibrations, but Spirit.

Vibrations are the boat leading your personality to get integrated in the spirit.

Getting dissolved in it, if i use correct term.

So the more petals are open,

The more vibes will flow of course.

When petals open more,

It means we get less and less identified with our thoughts

And then bingo,

We are more in touch / identified with our spirit.

Which is pure light but covered with thought forms.

The process is that the more we meditate/i.e. stay with attention undisturbed on the cool breeze

WHEREVER we feel it (means not only sahasrara)

The more our channels get purified

And like for a motorway energy can pass through and cross agnya

And we are thus PURIFIED from thoughts identification.

That is for the process and how it worked.

Therefore my two month intensive meditation is a success !:)

For my aim was not only to use collective to meditate more

For it suffices that i be on my own, that it becomes heavy to get up at 4am

Which means that at some point some individual /personal effort is needed

Without which we cannot enact our pure desire for God.

Unless there be this personal routine established 

Or call it intensity

There cannot be breakthrough or progress

As i understood so far.

First two weeks, i was in central France, must say early meditation was not that early

It was just collective meditation that i joined at 7am.

Lol i tried to get up earlier but was impossible due to our 3am sleeping time

Jesus though it was fun, i was appalled !

And was in deep sleep deprivation.

Once i arrived in Italy, first month, i took part in collective meditation, 7am too.

There vibes were definitely stronger due to the quality of the yogis there.

Still, i could not get up earlier than 6am.

So i could at times meditate 1h before the collective one, as a personal meditation

And do the walking cycles/meditation.

Once my friends were all gone, i shifted to a castle and from there as i was more on my own,

I started to meditate at 4h30.

And it lasted till the end of my stay.

Would you like to hear a funny story :

When i was meditating the first night,

A Spanish lady which came recently, asked me how come so many alarms rang during the night

Lol so i told her,

It was my try to get up and meditate early.

She is a sort of collective type lady, who likes to harmonise things

So she said but this can t do,

That everyone got up at different time

LOL innerly i exploded in laughers

Who are you to tell me at what time i should get up for MY individual meditation ?

Anyway, she wished to join

Which was a good decision

As long as she prevented me not to wake up early.

Day after, we meditate together.

Then, it occurred to her, we can ask the girls dorm to join us for morning meditation

So i invited them all, some were from Belgium other from china.

Let me  tell you Chinese people have great stamina for meditation and devotion

For i often saw them regularly meditating throughout the day

And even at night, ESPECIALLY when they came back late.

One girl got a sort of heart attack

When i announced 430 ! lol

She could not make it

So we meditated all at this time

Next day she joined us.

A friend told me

To help them to increase their vibes

So i wanted in a few words next day

Tell my method to apply some cycles on their different chakras

So that their vibes increase

Of course one of the Chinese woman,

The one who could not possibly get up at 430

And was up thanks to me

Turned her back on me

Not to listen 

for she wanted to stay in silence

Such rudeness !

of course, we gonna meditate 

in silence

i just meant to give 1min indication for HER OWN good!

not forgetting, that i could have remained by myself on my own

to meditate in SHEER silence

without them

YET i DID invite them (see! :) grammar mistake this time;) )

so it is not me who was going to "disturb" their hardly earned 

meditation time!

I felt really heartbroken

That not only i do them good, but not thanking is one thing

But displaying rudeness is another.

So i left them all meditating downstairs

And i went upstairs to meditate on my own.

Yes, so far i had noted that when i meditated on my own

my vibes were strong and i felt good.

Since i started this collective meditation at 430, i had a heartache

So i needed to stay longer with attention on heart.

Therefore, i learned that i was purifying them.

I wondered what is the point, especially when people know it not

And add rudeness to ungratefulness.

A friend told me, that it makes spirit happy.

Anyway, once i was over with my anger,

I wished to have a new group of meditation

Who would like to learn my method and where i could meditate longer as i wish.

Yes it is important to wish,

And it is important not to suppress anger, and

It is all the more important NOT to linger on it.

These are three rules i learned and applied during my stay,

And have lots of anecdotes about them. And how it works out.

So for next post.

Anyway, that day when i meditated on my own upstairs,

I did not see time passing,

I started at 430 and when people started to enter the meditation room,

For the collective one, i realised it was 730 !

So happy i felt !

I did not see time pass,

It was also due to the new music track i got,

Such a beautiful one, i could meditate non stop thanks to it.

A 20min track, repeat it 3 times, and one hour is gone !

So i did probably 1h walking combined with 1h sitting, and 1h sitting in silence without music.

Later on, when people asked and i told them,

Those downstairs wanted to join and the guys which are sleeping upstairs, half of them too

Wanted to join J !

So happy i was, there i had a new meditation group !

So next day we meditated all together

Most of them meditated 1h others a bit more.

So i felt happy that half of castle residents meditated that early.

I had met a french guy who was really happy to hear about this new method of walking meditation

For he was enthused about the increased of vibes

He shared with me too that he had met an Indian guy

Who sort of also develop a method, as he was aiming to increase vibes rate in body

And talked of it to Shri Mataji,

Who validated it

And advised him not to advertise it to other yogis

Except those who are ready.

Hmm, there i realised

Even among those who meditate

Only a few seek for a breakthrough

Others have a faint desire to progress.

Anyway, i might get in touch with this Indian guy

And see, for i am curious.

Who knows,

I feel like travelling a lot next year,

Say

India,

Japan

Canada

Egypt

Yeah !

After the castle, i moved to a camp in the mountains,

There we were only two to meditate at 430.

The second person, was a youngster of 17 J

He was already meditating in the castle with me,

And if one day i missed meditation, for i was sick that day,

The next day, he would come and enquire why i came not J

Ah i really loved that guy,

For his early morning dedication

Imagine he was the only one to meditate that early out of the 60 people in the camp !

Desire, maturity and aim is not the same by the yogis.

All do not remain seeker of truth, truly.

So i went on with this 430 meditation once back in the village,

But he could no longer

For he used to sleep in a tent in the forest,

Which makes things not in favor of early meditation in a hanger ! lol

Still i remain proud of him.

And happy.

So i went on once back down in the village,

With my 430 meditation

Quality i feel had dropped a bit.

In terms of combining meditation.

In the castle, i systematically

Did the walking+sitting with and then without music.

In the hangar, due to the atmosphere,

Lack of light and cold i guess

And also the fact that it is a dormitory + meditation room

I only and mainly did the walking meditation.

By the end of my stay i can say i succeeded to do a whole month intensive meditation

As i call it !:)

Here is my formidable beautiful meditation music

Upon which i used to meditate J

Kiss :x

PS : effect of meditation ?

I felt and also got this comment,

That my heart opened more.

May be when i was purifying the others

And had heartache, it purified my heart and opened it !

Hence when one told me spirit would be happy,

Literally speaking my heart opened J

When i purified others ?:)

Second,

An English lady who had met me a month before,

When she saw me back in the village

She literally stopped me

Took me by the shoulders

And looked into my eyes

And said

« your eyes have changed. You have something of Ganesha/ say Innocence in it »

Best thing is to hear change from people

As we ourselves do not realise it

And once we hear it

It means it is true !

For the Energy is a transformative energy !

And i feel for the lady managing the camp,

She used to criticise the 17 year old guy,

Without knowing that me too i meditated that early

For i kept it secret

As i know if people have no interest in meditation

What’s the use to draw their attention on it.

Somehow she learned about the youngster meditating that early

And reproached him of not being collective !

JESUS !

This is how people justify their jealousy,

And how they like to boss others around

Without bossing themselves around,

Get a hold of your OWN meditation, of your OWN attention

And THEN you can play by teasing people in a light way

But here it was not even teasing,

It was pure silly judgemental conceptualised behavior

About WHAT a collectivity SHOULD BE !

Collectivity is a NATURAL SPONTANEOUS OUTCOME

Of people living together

It is NOT something forced upon

And certainly NOT something that mind can SHAPE through judgement.

Though i have wisdom,

I lack words on the spot

To tell people what i think

May be because i am artificially conditioned to respect their egos

But it won t last long,

This behavior of mine,

For i noted during my stay

How people, who mostly follow their ego, even though yogis,

Are in a position of abusing those who are lenient and kind.

I gotta chisel their ego a bit

Next time !:)

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