The soft way or the hard way?

Today i met a familiar acquaintance
after years

life is funny

here is what i learned
and it is so fair
life is so fair

you see
the very thing people accuse me of
either by wrong thoughts, backbiting etc
is the VERY thing that WILL happen to them...

myself i am so surprised
but this rule is so true

you see
in the past
when i came back from the uk
i was like feeling i was at the end of my life emotionally speaking
cause bellywise, i felt pain not to be able to open the door of spirituality
by not having a real teacher

and that very person
happened to think i was in some love affair
and depressed by that

cause she was only projecting her own limits
by transposing them onto me

yes i was love sick
but love sick for Truth
really
that was the most tragically beautifully sincerest moment of my Life

which i will never ever trade for

though usually people would like to trade pain for love

but is like the movie vice versa
without that traumatic pain i would have never found Love

so much to tell
but too much to write

you see
the desire for me was always my spiritual quest
i wanted Truth
spiritual opening
Light
help
direction for my evolution
to see positive change
a new life

and i was love sick for that
that was my universe

and that girl
thought i was love sick for some guy
and she happened to laugh at it

i never minded it
cause i knew exactly what i wanted
is like some pure water
whatever mud you put in it
it remains clear

why?
cause it keeps running

and now
i met her
and i learned
she happened to wake up and cry every morning

because she was played emotionally by some guy
and lost her virginity

by hearing that
i felt so sad for her
you know why?

cause myself
i remembered
how when i came from uk
i used to wake up every morning
and hope it will be a new day
with some magic change
that i will see a door opening in my spirituality
some path being lit up

even writing it now
i feel tears

so i used to wake up every morning
désanchantée
realising is still same day than day before
and no opening for spirituality

so i used to cry

so i knew what she was going through
as pain
and i felt sad for her

and yet i realised
she was just getting back the change of her coin

cause you see in islam
there is a saying that is as follow

when you "curse"someone
this curse is true
meaning
it WILL apply
EITHER on the one saying it
OR on the one being the object of the "curse"

curse could be anything from thoughts being repeatedly occuring
to verbal attacks and actions

so as it was wrong
not applicable on me...

..she happened to create her own reality
with it..

such a wise girl
ended up in such a state

i felt very much empathic for her
because i wish not her to go through that pain
as i could feel what she was going through

is like to be in a jail and being hammered by your own emotions

and shakti showed me so clearly
her state
that no doubt was possible

you see?
and of course i helped to heal her heart chakra
not because i planned it
but just because it happened to be the moment dedicated for her help
and that was chosen by the spirit

and i like that

when i was feeling her heart
was like a heater was on
so that was the pain she was feeling

but you see
people harm themselves by themselves
and this of course they will never know
they will think the harm came from others, from that guy

of course it came from that guy
as other guys prior to him existed too but never managed to hurt her before
why?
cause she had protection
but the day you choose to lose your protection
you get hurt by letting such stuff touch you

she -ignorantly- let herself being harmed
by choosing to use curse words and laughing at me
is her right really
yet this is karma
if you are not 100% sure of your "curse"
be sure the curse is 100% sure of its destination

and also
she fell down in my esteem
cause i did not expect she would do such a thing

so is funny
i helped a girl who cursed me
and ended up helping her
against her very curse

and is funny
cause she knows not i helped her

and of course
she learned the lesson the hard way

the soft way
would have been humanity

when i was in need of help
she could have lent me some hand
she would have helped herself by helping me

ie
she would have avoided that situation
because of the insight she would have gained from mine

she would have learned i was yearning for truth
that i was spiritualy home sick
that i just needed hope

that a human touch would have not helped me
but would have soothed me
momentarily

that she would have grown to be someone else
through this experience
and would have certainly not challenged Life
to live a love sick story
just for her soul to learn what it means to be emotionally played

cause she occulted that
by then
and thought was just some laughable stuff

you can't occult the life lessons your soul need
so,

never laugh at life
but laugh with life
that is wisdom
to know that each thing has its place

when life laugh, laugh
but when life is sad, be compassionate and help with your human touch/human empathy

but when life is sad, and cry
lol don't cry with it hahaha
but FEEL it
and open to it by offering your presence
only by your present attention you can share
learn from this while giving comfort to the other

see?
is indeed about putting things at their right place
laugh with life
not at life

and you will learn your life lesson the soft way

Empathy

There is much stuff which changed
incredibly rich experiences in terms of life lessons are happening to me

at same time i see fraility of life
On one side life is rich
because full of experiences
and yet on the other side
life is "ephemerial" because these experiences last as long as they have their share of life

and might seem poor
(in power)

Life taught me how to speak up my mind
taught me to be upright and dignified

Life also taught me
that too much empathy makes you die for the others' pain
people are not willing to do the right things

you can show them
but cannot force them

your goal though remains your own evolution

to be human
is to act with humanity
and yet not to be identified with it

is to be able to do your utmost
and accept when you cannot act against the other's free will
even though you know in advance the shape of their action
and the fruits they will bear

pain come not from knowing
but knowing that others will remain ignorant
and keep making wrong choices
which will have sour consequences for them

to know and to accept to let them fall
is the real pain

you cannot ignore
you cannot act against others free will

but you can remember to be free

I am free

i am free
as an experience i enjoy
as an experience i transfer identity
is not a running away from difficulties
it is the choice of mine not to identify myself with pain

it is the choice to last in an experience as long as i feel joy there
it is the choice to preserve my nature
and not to forget

that i am free
(to choose whoever i want to be)

I am that I am and you can't locate me

In the midst of the tempest
i sought for silence
for freedom from the empathy
of feeling others' pain

and in a vision
i saw a jar
which bottle neck was surrounded with
three lines  made of a colorful straw

and i said i am that
i want to be that

because in the midst of the tempest
wherefrom i was feeling others' pain and torment

i felt myself overloaded
and yet wish not to ignore them

yet i sought for my own peace
sought to preserve it

to stop from being dragged away by the current

so i said
i am that straw of 1cm  lost
in the midst of the many strawlines that are making up this second line of straw
on the bottle neck
who can know i am that?
who can pinpoint me?
and know i am there?
no one can see me there
nor reach me

nor pain can reach me there
as pain is attached to those people's experience
what is the experience of a straw line in terms of identifying itself with others' pain
except if you are some relative
you are bound to others' pain, to family's pain, to friends' pain

but if you are free
i.e. if you are that 1cm straw line lost in a thread made of straw
surrounding the bottle neck of a jar
who knows you are -at that moment- that?

you are free
some may think
what is this rambling of that 1cm straw
is rambling for those who seek to find me
by identifying me
to corner and limit me

but is truth for the others

and once i know i am free
and can be wherever i want 
then i make other's free from pain
then i can make other's free from pain


so i am the third straw on the second line
of the bottle neck of that jar
i am family free
and emotionally free
free from (absorbin people's surrounding) pain
i know no pain
when i am free
i am light and thus in bliss
and make other's happy and pain free

Mind Veto

The Ufo don't land
therefore there is no alien

....

Your mind vetoes what's in front of your eyes
because of what it does not know yet..


this is what i learned today

everything is obvious
but as your mind think it is not
it puts a veto to it
and you stay in the dark
thinking is not possible

and the mind only puts that veto
cause it is ignorant
meaning
it knows it not ...
...yet.

I am Not what you think i am...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmm sooooooooooooo HAPPY!!!


Among others good stuff happening to me
there is ONE big
that i HAVE to tell

cause the flow of it
is just amazing

remember?
in some post
i had said a few months back
"ah i feel so disappointed
for not having received gifts for my birthday
out of sincere attention from so called friends?"

remember?

well guess what?
since that beginning of year
i.e. since september

i just KEEP receiving gifts
and NOWADAYS
is JUST amazing

i can't wait to come back
and check all of them

Praise be to God!

Gifts out of thin air
even from people who knows me not...

that's called LUCK!!!

i am on a ROLL baby!:)

that's the power of Shakti
you don't even know if you get what you desire

but once you do
then ok you know is from Shakti backing
and that's an amazing flow!


LOL
that's the message i got today :

Field of Dreams

This is the perfect time to harness the field of vast potential not yet realized in your life. Great abundance is yours if you’re willing to do the work alongside the Gentle Gardener. Be clear about your thoughts, feelings, and beliefs. Concentrate on your best life regardless of the temporary outer conditions imposed upon you by the greater world, which has its own story to tell. You have a basket full of seeds that are quite powerful, for your talents are Divinely in- spired and will indeed lead to a great harvest to be shared with others. You will reap what you have sown. Dream big, dream beautiful, take action, and tend to the garden of your life . . . and experience the extraordinary.
 
YOU BET I DREAM BIG!!!

just these few words to say

to those who thought
"ah yea, criticise not and just accept the no-gift situation
cause you are not worth it
keep giving to us,
and when you don't
let us call you STINGY ... "

as i read their minds

i say to them :

and READ MY LIPS

GOOD ..

I AM WHAT I AM
CAPISH?

as for the Stingy stuff
as when we used to say
when we were kids in french

"c'est celui qui dit qui y est"
meaning
as kids are wise

"the one who says it
(i.e.saying the insults)
is the one who is"

lol that was my fav. insult to others
hahahaha


GOOD for ya?
If not, try to love more your ass first...
LOVE YA ALL!!!

KISSES :x

Chandeleur

pannnnnnnnnncakes!!!

Here in France was Candlemas
...yummy... with a friend we shared our pancakes recipes

for the first time in my life
i forgot to take pic!
hahahaha

cause we just ate them
sooooo delightfully

with some Pure Honey
that costed me a hand lol

ahh... next time
i think we gonna make it tomorrow lol
let's add melted chocolate on sugary coated apples
and shove them in the oven
and let's add chantilly on top of it...

hmm?
drooling already hahahaha

more seriously
today got a nice dream
in which the woman i met
and yea was quite real meeting

told me by looking at my palm
that i have a HUGE force within me

of course she was talking of the Kundalini
and of course was something new to me

cause what you think you know
is not what you feel

the feeling of words
and the way the words are said
and absorbed
makes your perception of reality

and the way she said it
it hits its target

and within me
i felt how true her words were
i felt SOLID and ENTIRE in my belly (not sure if you got what i mean)

that i had within me
that SOLID and HUGE GROUND
and that i was brave

felt SO much GROUNDED

and i feel right now
that indeed
when you are TOTALLY absorbed
by ONE emotion and ONE idea
then you stand SOLIDLY on TRUTH of the MOMENT

yea...i would say...that is what TRUTH is

and you just are BRAVE and DOMINATE the situation
as in being your OWN master

and not some weakling or puppet

hence my friends
BE YOURSELF

Love ya all,

Life is indeed too short to live with limited perception of others
and waste time with past

cause i KNOW key is in the Present
God is in the Present


Past is NO MORE of my concern
all Value is IN HERE
right NOW or never

biding you kisses to all
and preparing my next trip to my cherry blossom and pinkish Country lol

yea that's my gift set that reminds me of my next trip

sooooooooooooooooooo exciiiiiited !!!

hey!!! when i read it
i said HEY THAT's ME!!!!!

lol
hahahaha 

Sun Warmth and Sweet meals...

Got back from my sunny trip...
even more delicious
when i realised was minus 4 and minus 8 there
mwhahaahhaha


over there life was sooooo great
imagine i could do ALLLLL i wanted
and still was only 4pm in afternoon
time passed NOT
lol i could be late and was not late
i could do such a GREAT bargains and found doing that deliciously powerful


SUN was amazing
imagine we were only in january...

got plenty of vitamin D

i was told to be a fierce business woman there
of course i told them
"i took it as a compliment"

hahahaha

Got even one guy asking if i was already married

managed to meditate there
better than here
had amazing dreams

In one jotting down moment
i would say that
i was amazed at :

time blessings - just lengthen, never late
day starts and you have all the time in the world to do all you want

second,
things FLOWS
you just wish something, you do it
here in France, so administrative
you can't see opportunities
you have to dig them out
people cooperate not, so stingy they are
lack behavioral generosity
are afraid all of the time
not open opportunities

third,
seeing people living their life simply
and of course striving to become richer
yet you still have TIME to see  them evolving
here with globalisation everything is same in apparence
though people are just plain empty inside
rare are families with some stuff in them

but but but
one thing people mentality there
is always money tuned
everything is to be sold lol

but just within 3 days i got bored
my boredom level is increasing fast
cause i want new stuff and find something new and richer with meaning

lol i started to tour the country
was somewhat more appeased
but really i have the feeling i saw all i wanted to see

so far so good!

KISS to my lovely readers