Onboarding for the I am what I am

 I was walking my cycles 

and attention went on the question of "to which degree can I be honest?".

Firstly, unless we ask a question 

we do not get answers.

Because asking question is just hooking the attention 

and then anchoring it there 

till the answer from the waves of the sea arrive.

The wave of the seas are the intuition

and unless I write it

it will be forgotten.

Because if sea are the words

written on the mind then 

once the waves leaves 

the words leave too.

They are not engraved like carved letters on a stone

they are amazingly enough just waves passing by.

Purpose is never to create an image

but give the color, the flavor and the scent of the insight needed for a moment 

so that it can enter and go out of your body 

without carving any image and without any hoarding.

Another topic the one of writing and knowledge.

Current topic 

is the Collective.

I have written a book 

and many people ends up asking me how to now.

Being honest with myself 

I can see the old old me say before I had met the yogi - how it would have reacted by then

I can see the old me say before my spiritual cleansing 

and now I can see the current me

and the future me.

Makes lots of perspective in one go.

Insight I got is deep and fleeting like waves, so I hope I get it written before it leaves me.

Wave like insight; this is why it is said it is signs: ayah in Quran. 

Because everything is fleeting timely symbolic knowledge. 

As it can never be permanent; hence the word symbol or sign is better than the word knowledge or writing i believe.

The first one is timely insight to make decision while the latter is about hoarding power and controlling masses.

Now,

The old old me was the Innocent kid who before having me the yogi in paris 

just spontaneously used to help people fully just because I could, just because my mother and family taught me to be so. 

I do not praise my mother enough, but she is the sincerest mother and wife I ever saw. And no not a bride as women are currently life long brides haha. Closing this topic now.

So this old old me was an innocent kid. The help I gave can be seen; insight to it can be given through the filter of the root. chakra. 

I just did it spontaneously, as Innocent just is. 

Now, the old me, is the one from paris when i met the yogi.

This is not to blame anyone but serves the experience and self learning, as flowers grow according to their rhythm, so one cannot blame the yogi of Paris, but I have the advantage of learning from these experiences, so I share:

The yogi there were doing their best in embodying the teaching of shri mataji.

Sure there need to be a starting point; but once you keep on the same road at some point you are being challenged and either chewed and spit out or digested and growth happens..

So I recall a girl she smoothed her talk with love 

and tried really consciously to be an ideal yogi

but always had fit of jealousy and anger.

Why?

Because when you do so 

you claim that you are ready as a drop to be integrated into the Ocean

yet yourself once extended is so exerted like a rubber stretched to its limit that it snaps

so the ego still cannot integrate the HIGHER COLLECTIVE SELF aka THE OCEAN.

This is why there were so many dramas in the collective yogi there

now i understand.

And this is why also it was the natural end for me. As from this point onwards I realised I was being used for material purposes not appreciated for spiritual ones.

So funnily enough, I had the green light from the spirit to experience the selfishness.

Because I was always serving and was always taught to be at the service of others that I had never allowed to serve myself.

So starting this selfish journey I of course started from guilt to enjoying my selfishness to till today feeling I am at the end of this experience. Because I saw the growth above the selfish, individual and egoisticla (not used as a negative word rather as synonym of individual).

Isn't it also beautiful to have the control of our experiences?

I mean who on earth say at some point: OK I experienced enough of selfishness now let me move on?

It is like you change experience and perspective and behavior like you change clothes.

Very swift and in control. This impression being shared let me continue now about the end of that experience.

My old self which experienced the selfish perspective; again not negative word, learned to have an insight into what it is to act and live giving oneself priority.

So I learned about the concept of priority and individuation 

how the human being exists as an individual. As prior to that I have been existing as a kid for a collective the family or the wider collective with hardly no sense of self worth and indivudal goal.

Very funny to speak like this now that I am reading it. 

So the experience of selfishness helped me to see myself as a body as an individual and I must say the individual has lots of enjoyment in squeezing out the juice of life and enjoying the moment.

But that I just lived from one experience to another and get bored very quickly too. 

And I couldn't really see how it is charming to just see life from an individual perspective.

Anyway; during this time the trunk of the tree grew and became thick enough.

And recently it got its make out and thorough cutting of useless branches and got pimped up.

That is the self purification I refer to, since I definitely got. the anger, hate and sadness purified meaning that they do not control me but I control them. So that is real mastery and self purification that I definitely witness to it.

But as I am not lying to myself 

I keep abreast and listen to the signals of my self

and the current self saw that many people wanted my help and guidance on book writing and publishing.

So my individual self felt not at all in sincere and full service mode.

Because it serves itself, it is is program. So why it would be so dedicated to serve others?

So i noted it. 

Insincerity would be to note it and turn a blind eye to it.

Which is also ok. Why? Because this reaction would merely proof the sap of the tree has still not reached the throat chakras so no need to push it; it shall in its own time.

So it is my time. 

Because I asked myself the question 

while walking the cycles - and that is key - because the cycles purifies your energy while you are walking, it stirs up the mud and you let it go and you feel more and more the cool breeze and hence your insight deepen and your vision clear out and you become the new you..

So I asked myself why I do not want to help others as sincerely I did help my self to write the book?

Then I felt the words such as: well i got no help, i did it on my own, I do all the job and now freely give it to others and again no appreciation just being used.

And yet I hit a wall within as i felt but i do not want that, ie i do not want to remain like that.

I want to grow, as i feel bore with that cycle of me vs others, doesn't really help me to grow if i don't change my way, ever.

And of course the divine never blame nor judge but i delay myself in my growth

and my growth is up to me, it can happen overnight or in three years etc.

So then keeping up with the cycles

I got that insight such as a clear vision and image of - not a notion nor theory nor thoughts - 

but the vision of the Higher Being not being a concept of being me.

I realised that the other is Me.

That the other and i are the I 

and that my experience shared is helping the I to grow and transform as it helps me the i to grow and ends up as a drop joining the sea.

But not as concept 

I saw it

Like a sea of particles of light 

that merge into one Light and it is the Higher Being the Collective consciousness and THAT is the filter to see life through the throat chakra.

So then I realised the old old me the kid saw life and served automatically based on the automatically ingrained innocence in me - i saw life through the filter of the moodhalra chakra

as and individual who picked a selfish path to experience it - the sap grew in the tree with its good and bad but as it remain stuck in mud - the purification cut off the bad dead branches and pruned the tree so that it became tall, continued its growth and then once it accumualted enough sap and thus experience it could get pruned thus purified.

The tree is in control of itself, as an individual wave, it is a wave because it is purified no more stagnant water as it has let go of extrems such as anger and hate and irritability and sadness, especially.

Now, the wave can become again stagnant if does not keep moving in and out.

This is the art of receiving and giving.

So the Spiriti is at the heart, you don't have to do anything there. SPirit or Light of God is perfect.

You just keep it as Goal. To get the Insight. But nothing to do here at the Heart Chakra.

So at the throat chakra I am working on it, naturally speaking nowadays.

As lately I just remember that the other are not to be blamed nor am i.

But the word other still is there, which means I am still in seperation mode.

Hence the limitation is wanting to sincerely help.

Then while I was for my own problems using the communciation between my spirit and the others'.

I struck me, if I draw upon the help of the spirit within the others and that their spirit serves me while their ego does not. 

Then me too I can as spirit help them!

BUT THE BIG DIFFERENCE WITH THEM IS...I CAN DO IT IN FULL AWARENESS.

While their spirit helps me when i ask it as telepathy;as we are one in spirit as the hoponopono method suggests it

I too can return the help on the gross level; as I am asked for the help.

But now the big difference is I am doing it in full control in full knowledge in full consciousness, it is now my new choice.

So Now as I had in the past picked up the path of experimenting selfishness which helped me to grow my tree and gain insight about myself as an individual energy.

Now I consciousness picked the path of experimenting the Higher Self and Be the Collective Consciousness.

Isn't it exciting? Isn't it there the new growth? 

This also dawn upon me that law is same everywhere. 

Be you a non realised or realised or advanced yogi or mahayogi etc.

The enlightened people always clash because they are under the same rule than the non realised

the refusal to grow, of course the topic are not the same, nor the scope nor the impact, and yet it is.

What differs is the subtlety of the fight 

but the law is the same

how fast you let go is what condition your fusion with the infinity, in other words with the light; ie with the Collective Consciousness, with the I am what I am.

So the whole point is to see oneself and to have that insight of the Collective being as Light 

that is a becoming an insight 

what help i do to the other i do to myself

I am a collection a sum of all the other individual energies

Isnt it amazing if i was just one i would only expereince me

but i am many and i can thus expereince so many in one moment

hence the beauty of relationship

hence the beauty of the collective

and it is the experience of the unconscious and conscious collective at the same time while you are conscious of it.

This is the new adventure and it is now seeing life through the filter of the Vishuddi Chakra; the i as part of the collective consciousness now i am onboarding for the growth of the I.

Bride but not wife

The funny thing about this era is 

that women want to be a life long bride

and embarking upon a life long honey moon.

Bride but not wife.

Again, nothing wrong.

Except that men expect a life long wife, for other scenario a life long servant.

Now if both were true to their expectations, they would both know what they are getting out of the deal.

Though the current life offers enough scope to be independant and find one's own dream and be on its own.

This is because the current time is set for the growth. 

Individual Growth.

Search for security and thus use of a partner is motivated based on reasons that are no more the glue of current society. 

Because the average human being can have all of this on its own.

So looking towards one's personal growth is the key element of this era.

As in some near future say from 50 to 100 years onwards the society would be in an AI jail.

As per what I saw, I liked it not.

I was told I won't be there anymore so it does not concern me.

This is true but then I am all the more convinced that sensible people should not marry nor have kids for this world. 

Given it is a place that is being transformed into a hell for future generations. 

This is unfortunately true. This scenario may got delayed but will happen.

I was also told there are better worlds out there. Better than here.

This too I believe it.

So if this Earth is a ship which is wrecking and being transformed into another hell.

It makes all the more sense that the sensible seeker of truth should just do their best to get their self realisation and be advanced enough to pick up their next place of reincarnation.

This is the most sensible thing they can do for themselves.

Earth is a buffer zone; where we are transiting and depending on what we make of our time there

our next place will match our energy.

As for me, I better be sure to awaken enough to be able to pick mine in full consciousness.

How to get rid of problems

 Spirit said in a quicker and briefer way, but I write it now in my own words, to break it down so that logic be felt.

You find you are in a hellish situation, how do you free yourself from it?

In other words, you are in a nightmare

How do you win if you are stuck into it?

Some will invent weapons and start to win the battle.

But the wise, will remember this is a nightmare

and the only way out is not by engaging in it.

The only way out is by WAKING UP.

In other words

You let go of the very thing you are disturbed with.

You let the light of the Spirit shine on it

and this flushes it out 

you forget about it 

it burns down the bridges 

and you are free from the very thing that has mesmerised your attention.

the very thing that has created the dream.

which exist because like a leech, it is sucking the energy from your attention and from your fears.

As your attention is hostage of the fears, images you are presented with.

The more you want something, the more you engage it by going towards its opposite.

Because the bridge is there, the positive and negative attracts.

Let go

and you are free.

The Spirit's light is already perfected 

so it can't be a dream 

if it is not perfect 

it is a dream 

and you have to wake up from it

by having the CONSCIOUS INTENT TO LET GO.

Now from me,

Then you will wake up to the next strata which may be still a dream 

I suppose when it is no more a dream, you will know. 

"Aap bohot kimti ho"

After my meditation 

I heard in urdu my spirit said to me

"aap bohot kimti ho"

In english it means "you are very precious".

It is the God within who spoke this, Spirit within.

That is such a Good Word! It does make me feel I am on an auspicious journey and lots of care is taken :)

War in Ukraine

Yesterday while sleeping

I could see two soldiers laying in an airplane

And I could hear the thought of the one laying there.

He was afraid to die

He was to be parachuted 

and felt those left behind where lucky

as they did not have to go through this.

Himself he could not desert the army

or he would be in danger for the rest of his life.

Once I woke up I kind of knew what I witnessed - I being here the awareness of the Collective consciousness - 

Spirit told me it was the scene linked to the war in Ukraine.

A night before that

I had seen a whole building half way standing, half calcined.

The whole collective is definitely being damaged by this war.

I do not watch the news, but still I could see what is happening.

Current governments in place are of an old age, very immature. 

They do not know that above the physical damage, what damage is being done to the collective mind.

The return to true Innocence

Yesterday I ended up witnessing a conflictual situation 

Not agreeable at all

I could find and see the sincerity of both parties involved 

while both of them could not see each other good intent for one another 

a bit like a conversation between a mute and a deaf.

Both not seeing each other sincerity 

because both are insecure and try to protect themselves 

from one may one say.

Anyway 

Later when i was reminiscing this 

I could feel the heart chakra being in pain 

and also I had out of nowhere tears in my eyes.

And for sure I can say they were not at all my feelings

as I was not at all sad.

So I ended up understanding it was empathy 

and thus I was feeling the heart and emotional state of another.

Thus before sleep I was advised just to let this happening go.

For that I just said with full intent that I forgive and let go of everything I witnessed.

Despite the fact that I was not at all part of that argument, it did take a toll on me witnessing it.

As soon as I said that, 

the mind went black 

and I could hear the water in the womb 

Like for an echographs

Then I could hear the heartbeat of inside a body 

and finally, I could hear the sound made by the blood flow in the body.

Later I asked the Spirit what this was

And I was told it is the return to Innocence.

Like when one is being reborn.

So this is good sign of good progress and direction.

It is true that Truth is simple

but the delay in fully self realising it

and maintaining it is of our own making.

We like to play so long that we end up forgetting that we are ourselves standing between Truth and the current self.

Humbleness is not an attitude

it is not mannerism 

it is not even to be looked for outside of your self 

even less fruitful to witness it in another if not just for the sake of distraction or remembrance

depending where your attention is while witnessing this quality in someone.

Humbleness is the return to simplicity 

as a new born is.

For this you can't gain it by imitation

but simply as in the above exemple by letting go.

Because then you truly do a favor to the Holy Spirit 

who can keep growing in you 

instead of keep waiting that you unblock the way by forgiving, if one day you remember to do so.

And again forgiving is a loaded word now 

I would rather say by letting it go

just erase the slate in your mind 

and you return to your Self.

Human Map - Setting the record straight

 The Holy Spirit or Ruh or the Shakti is the Power of God.

This is in the central channel.

The Attention is on the right channel.

The Subsconscious or the soul or the accumulation of our past lifes experiences and current ones is on the left channel.

Both channels are the manifested channels from the Source, The Spirit.

The Spirit is in the Heart.

The Spirit is set there as a Reminder.

The both channels once they are PURIFIED, they EXPRESS their POWERS.

The right purified channel expresses all the power of the PURE attention.

The left purified channel expresses all the power of the subconscious, 

which is...LOVE.

What is the power of LOVE? It is to gather to ONE, to unify, to transform the scattered lives, in our subsconsious and gather them under the flag of Love. 

In brief, it is HEALING.

The power of LOVE combined to the Power of Attention, 

is when one becomes a vicegerant on earth, what is called in islam as Caliphate; you rule not others; but your own body in the Name, by the Power of God. You are your own true master.

Attention can fly 

and Love can heal

it is like magic dust being spread over issues to be fixed.

My Aim is to awaken every single cell of my both channels 

and thus awaken the ultimate powers in my body 

so that I become the manifested proof that this is the next evolutionary step of what a human being can be.

A Maha yogi. That is the ultimate actualisation of our whole being that is part of the collective.

As there is a scale in our body to balance both channels so that the third one may arise, 

likewise there is a collective scale that shall tip.

Whether people are ready, matured or not, the scale will tip as the minimal ratio will be reached.

Spiritual Training is starting,

Now. No weaseling out of it.

Mcmc let's do it!

Kissi.