The Obvious that is hidden : I was a hidden treasure and wanted to be discovered

oh
an event made me remember
just a few days before i got self realisation

but let's start with the beginning
when i used to read biography of the prophet
and i had read when was the hardest time of his life
was at mount Taif

was the hardest
because was the time
he was alone
and when you have a message to share
and this message be to share goodness
so that it be of benefit to all

and you are called a madman
for that
then i felt was indeed the hardest time
of his life

as we know
in joy time
all the universe rejoices with you
and gods come and dance with you
and the gods are just Archetypal qualities
over matching group of consciousnesses

which come to your way
and take part in your joy
this is why
the more variety of people gathered
the more authentic the joy is

but in times of pain
you are really alone

but prior to feeling joy
you feel deep pain
and it can't be, i feel,
be any different way

why?
because God
to know Itself
needs to discover itself

like when in islam
is said,

I was a hidden treasure
and wanted to be discovered

something of this effect

so beautiful
and innocent like request
it is

not request
but desire
the sheer desire to see our own beauty

but is like
unless you have a starting point
you can't see beauty

for in truth
nothing exist
not even darkness
except light

but if you are in the creation
manifestation level
you do
i mean your mind
do have the notion of duality

so unless
you feel
the deepest of pain
you can't seek for the deepest bliss

there may be exception
but i speak for myself

is like
and is for sure
pain which shows you
the other face of coin
that is joy
DOES exist

and because darkness and light
are both one in divine spirit
if you have a problem
then, in the spirit,
which is such a huge field of energy
manifested in this world

somewhere
someone
HAS the solution
IS the solution

for nothing exist by itself
in the world of duality
except the spirit
and the spirit Glory is ONE
and WHOLE

and is BLISS

(though i know it not yet
but i feel it IS)

so this experience of pain
as much pain one feels
as much challenge is higher
to transform it into light
and get the final realisation

that indeed
there is nothing else
except God Glory

that is real testimony
that your OWN body and soul
actualise it

when you say
La ilaha illa Allah

for nothing else
remains to be testified
except this Bliss and Glory
of God within

for if it was not within
then how could a dual thing
witness Unity?
except by integration
and transformation into light

so this is WHY
the must is
to surrender

not to surrender
by doing some freaking
crime against humanity jihad
as some insane guys
who call themselves muslims do it

but as doing the TRUE jihad
which is
by the way told by the prophet

the greater jihad
is the struggle of the ego
to surrender WITHIN to God

such people
will never in 30 000 years
be saved
after their death
their soul once awakened
from their limbo
will feel the SHOCK
of having NOT
what they think they will get
some 70 virgins may be
or i don't know what they mind
imagined

think!
and think hard
such people are destroying
other life
so sacred
and condemning themselves
to eternal doom

i really feel pain
in my belly for them
is so sad

so real surrender
is all about YOU and GOD
WITHIN

three key words
and for this you need
to surrender to your shakti within

which myself have NOT surrendered
so far
for i am learning again
from the complicated
to go to the simple

and this is normal

for if the soul was not complicated
it would not
WHEN it discovers the simple
SEE THE WORTH of it!

for if it was all simple
from the beginning

then we are back to the initial desire

I am the hidden treasure
and wanted to be discovered

see?
this is like winding back a tape
and the more
the soul has learned intricate stuff
about life
the more it has POTENTIAL worth

ONCE
it reverts back to the simple
to God Within
and Surrender
to APPRECIATE
and really LIVE
this bliss
and surely
i can feel ahead
the ecstasy of sheer simplicity

for this is why duality exists
to feel the bottomless pit of pain
and all that is so complicated

to surrender it back to God

so that
you experience the highests of Bliss
and see how all of this is Simple

but as i only talk
of my own experience

this is always what happens with me
whenever i challenge God
and i always do
not my fault
i think i am bent on discovering
that limits exist not lol

so innerly
when i had read that story of the prophet
at mount Taif

i had read his prayer
very beautiful one
so beautiful
that i copied it down in my pocket book
and used to read it often

because i wanted to understand
what was his pain
and i said to myself
is it possible to feel pain
when all is so comfortable
and thank God
in your life?

thing is
when you question yourself
then the challenge to God start
why?
because if their is a question
then there is a solution

and till you find not the solution
is like God grind your soul
till you push yourself to find it

so my life was all normal
and all traced
but asking myself such question
led me to wonder bit by bit
more about what is real
value of life
the GREATEST POTENTIAL
that one can make use of
our own life

for if such honorable people
and prophets suffered so much
then it means
there was something MORE
than what the current LIFE
i was living

when my own life
took the spiritual turn
to find the answer

it brought me back
to the VERY week
preceeding my little spontaneous self realisation

only now
i can see how
it was all planned

this is why it is said
in Truth
you see that everything IS
AS IT SHOULD BE

but when you are
in the middle of it
you think is chaos

and INDEED it is
because you are in the cyclone
and not in the center of it
where there is peace

and indeed
if you stop grabbing
at faith
at THIS VERY moment
chaos will destroy you
BUT
if you  grab the rock
as tight as you can
this very chaos
become the VERY path
that had to lead you to God

either smoldered by chaos
or raised to a more glorious
and perfect path
initiated by your desire

so is of utmost importance
to NEVER EVER give up
with the pure desire
of seeking truth
for if you do
you know
what the chaos
you raised
by your own hand
in your life
by challenging God
will smolder you like never

not because is a sin
but because

I am the hidden treasure
and i wante to be known

and always remember
is not a sin
because deeds are judged by intention

and indeed
when you challenge God
is in the true sense of the word
not as a defiance
let me be clear

challenging God
out of curiosity
to KNOW
the deep Truth that your OWN Life is meant to bear

this is my way
to really call
for the experience
to "know" God ways

if i had to live a well throdden path
all planned
as i was heading into
i would have died of sadness
and boredom lol

anyway
that very week
i felt so much at the end of the end
does it exist lol?

that in our house
there was a wooden terrasse
and it was raining so strongly

and not to panick family
i told them is normal
and i am not insane lol

and i went out
and just sat under rain
like for meditation

for i used to sit often
like this to contemplate

but these days was nearly
impossible
so much at unrest i was
and at life crossroads
while i was seeing no solution
spiritually speaking
seeing no breakthrough

i just went there
and sat under rain
and i imagined
that God was cleaning me
with the rain
and purifying me

and that like
my own body was witenessing
this cleaning
for sure
with the same desire
i wanted the same cleaning for my soul

and that as of now
was in God hand

for i had really done
the most i could
and i could no more see
what else was possible
for me
i had no more even options
to choose from
all options
and experiences
at my level by then
were exhausted

to be honest
i was afraid
for it was a stormy rain
and there were thunders
and strong wind

and as i had eyes closed
and the surrounding was so 
this is how you feel
small
and afraid

like a branch of a tree
which could be taken
by a strong wind
and crushed to the next wall
by the chaos

but i did my most sincere
prayer by then
as the body was experiencing this
soul took the testimony
that this purification DOES exist
but is just it sees if not HOW
and needs God for it

when i came back in the house
i remember again
my mom face
she was there with a towel
and she was worried
and in pain for me

this is moms
they are always so
but more important than mom
is your own desire for God
and you have to be true to it
either you desire it or not

and when you do
any little stuff different from
your "sane" routine
people get worried or questioning
is nothing about them
is about you
is just to follow your OWN
inner drive of the moment

the next day
i received a mail
which said
something like,
'do not rush it,
God help is coming'

this just awe strucked me!
like when circumstances
and unknown people
start talking to you
to what was supposed to be
secret to you

and the next day
i got this spontaneous self realisation

at the beginning
when i started to write it
i felt so sad
for this period of my life
was the hardest one

is the hardest part of your life
to remember you have to remember
something
but you just can't
and you know
is about the eternity of your soul
but you know not
what, nor how
even worse nor who could help you

even the best intended people
or family's
thought of being of help
but they were just loading me off
with their own worries

what i wanted was
another pair of eyes
who see in me
and for which i have nothing to say

but that these eyes
could know all of my past,
present
and future

and desire for what i knew not

is crazy
written like this
even more crazy
when you gave up everything
for something that you could not even name

and that you could not even remember

but once the chaos was over
and faith helped me to resist
the Helping Hand of God was there
and It transformed it
to the actual path i am walking upon

that is all by the Grace of God
indeed

and i thank God
for all that Life is

and i wish
that all in my life
keeps transforming itself
till it integrates wholly into the Light
that it has always been
Ameen.

Here is the dua At Taif :


“O Allah! Unto You do I complain of my weakness, 
of my helplessness and of my lowliness before men.  
O most Merciful of the merciful. 
O Lord of the weak and my Lord too. 
Into whose hands have you entrusted me?  
Unto some far off stranger who receives me with hostility? 
Or unto a foe whom you have empowered against me? 
I care not, so long as You are not angry with me.  


and i happen to come across my favorite poem
so is so meaningful now 
in the light of what i wrote :


“Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken."

(Sonnet 116)”
― William Shakespeare, Shakespeare's Sonnets 
But Your favouring help, that were for me the broader way and the wider scope.  
I take refuge in the light of Your countenance whereby all darknesses are illuminated and all things of this world and the next are rightly ordered, 
lest You make descend Your anger upon me or lest Your wrath beset me. 
Yet it is Yours to reproach until You are well pleased. 

There is no power and no might except through Thee.”


 

The Thin Lady

ah am happy
for about let's say a month now
i missed NO day of meditation
EXCEPT one tiny day lol
was because i really did not hear my alarm

otherwise
i managed to meditate every morning
with let's say a 2 hour gap from my routine time

which is a miracle
because knowing that one has NEVER EVER
same timetable, mood, circumstances
and that our own negativity attacks us
as soon as it knows you are going on the right track
it requires a GREAT effort to meditate
when your inner gross energy is saying you
just glue yourself back to your pillow lol

anyway i kiss myself
good work i did
:x mwha lol


today,
THE thing i felt
is the same i felt when i used to be in nursery
may be you felt same?

you know
when i was a child
and started to go to nursery
and we HAD to sleep
this i never got it
always wondering
why making me get up early from bed
to go to school and then sleep there lol!

anyway
i always had there this nightmare
that a very white and thin lady
was in me
and i could feel her
and she was so thin as energy
very light
like a leaf

but suddenly
something very rough
and grooooooossss
was enrolling her from both side

and she was lacking more and more breath

like innerly
i knew it was like she was being
silenced
and it was a death like sentence
for her and for me
as i could feel her

but when i used to wake up
i kind of had this weird sensation was true
even though the ladies told me
was only nightmare

you know
once you open your eyes
from dream you think is just a dream
but you are still living that dream

like in inception
such a great movie makers they are!


anyway!
this morning!!!

i had the SAME sensation
and FEELING

is like your body cell
record all memory
and when it present to yourself
you JUST remember

and i felt the same thin energy!
but this time was OPPOSITE !

she was arising!
and the gross energy
that i had felt both sidde of her
was just merely disintegrating
away from her!

i felt so happy
the reverse!

:)
i knew it was not a nightmare
indeed
by then it was the shakti
which was being suppressed
for when you are a kid
and enter into a man made world
your own innocence
start getting covering up
by the conditioning of the place
and school and locality and country

and so on
where you live

and this is the very Life
and flow in you
and from you
which is being clouded
and suppressed
if you get it not awakened
and re-established

ok i am late
sorry for typo

kiss:x

The One

There is a must read book
ok once i finished it
i will recommand it to you
with all the due diligence it requires
so great it is

in the meanwhile
a neighboring acquaintance
self invited herself "again"

sometimes
i wonder
is it me or people have no manners?

she self invited herself
and with her own mouth
told me
am i not the most sincere ?

lol what a timing!
yesterday i was thinking about sincere friends
and here one who popped up
out of nowhere
and self inthronised herself as sincere

well
to start with
in "sincere friend"
there are two words

one is friend
a friend is someone you meet and
naturally it clicks
so nature makes you see
that this is a friend

which means
the common interest
is sustained from both parties

therefore
if you want to know who is a real friend
you should be able to pinpoint
your interest at the deepest core
of yourself

as long as this interest is shared
then friendship is shared

after there are different levels of friendship
which is as much temporary as your interests and needs

but when i use the word "friend"
for me is very sacred
because my inner core is sacred
and i base friendship
on the common and conscious sharing
of spirit

and this is a 24h round the clock
interest

the other day
i was looking around in my house
and every single thing
i could relate it, to a choice i made
for the pleasure of the spirit within

this is how you know what you core interest is
you look around wherever you live
and check every single stuff

for who you did it?
for what?
what was the obvious, apparent reason for doing it
and what was the hidden one?

for me there was no hidden one
all the stuff related to my most inner self

so the higher is your goal
the more time to find the matching friendship

in the uk
and in the context of my search of truth 
people had light on their face
but very few knew about the Holy Spirit within
this is why there was a lack of respect towards women
not a conscient lack of respect
but the whole atmospher was imbalanced
so i knew something clicked not

here in france
there is a bud of knowledge
about Holy Spirit
yet it grows not as a  tree
so that it would open up enough
like a light full of glory on people face

there is always something missing
in either group


shining face
full of glory

with an upright character
of someone who knows what it wants
and do what it says
fully in the open

perfection is not to be reached there
perfection lies in being totally responsible of
who we are
and when we do so
then we let ourselves shine

that is my ideal of friendship
and of course
once you find such a friendship
you don't let it  go

because it is you
outside of yourself
so how can you hurt the other?
would be as if you are hurting yourself

and then sincerity
is again that atmospher
that emanates from the person
you just feel at ease and are yourself in the present

you don't have hidden interests
which will pop out once time has elapsed

you will always be your genuine self

so imagine
when i wrote the post yesterday
i was so full of subtility in my mind
and today
that gross person pop out
saying "am i not a sincere friend"?

i wondered if i should have condemned her
on the spot and told her
are you kidding me?
for she is the last person in the world i would trust

or
start laughing
because of the gross manners of hers?
giving herself titles by her own lips?

and popping up like popcorn
when you asked for nothing?

it is then i realised
like in the book i am reading
that such people play on information
they use information
as information is power
like in trading
the first who get it
will make "apparently" well informed decision

so her only interest was
to withdrew information
use speed of information
make informed choices prior to others
to gain a visibility
and be worshipped as such

so it denotes a lack of self love
which means never she will be able
to give sincere love

as we can't give, what we don't have

in itself is ok
if one has the same interest is
perfectly ok to associate with such a person
we need of everything to make a world

and this variety makes the world beautiful.

but if one's consciousness is not developed
enough
to KNOW that it is HOW it works
then one ends up projecting our OWN
values onto the others
and think they are wired as we are
ie BY the SAME core interest/values

and that is when
the best friendship become
the worst enemity

which is sad
because it is the VERY moment
when the mind fall into the trap
of becoming what one dislikes

so one lose the path
"path" is to be genuine to our OWN
value and accept it fully

for rejecting what we like not
is never
and will never be
an atonment or replacement
for what we are wired to love
in ourselves

so is of the utmost importance
to know what we like not
and not associate with it
and YET give it space GRACIOUSLY to LET it develop on its own

AND
to KNOW what we love
and work for it
so that it grows in best condition

for we are our own master
and this is the rule of the universe

if you don't love yourself
no one else will
for you

not because of bad intention
and so on
but because this is the rule you agreed upon
to exist as a divine spirit in an individual body
in charge of your own self
alone

and the only exception to this rule
is when the other is fully aware of being the spirit
that he will be able to love you as his own self

as spirit is One

and this friend will be
The One :)

Children Innocence

ah kids are the best frequentation in the world!
each time we have guests
i don't know how come
but i end up in the kids area

i just realised it today
with conviction.
prior to that i thought was randomly
or by chance

but no
is always like this
hehehe

so much the better!

this time i had as guests
two girls
and gosh last time
i gave self realisation to their friends
who had very deep and amazing experience
one of them suddenly developped on the spot wisdom
which was pouring out of her lips
incredible
even her mom was taken aback

and this time i just went out
to play with them in the garden
that i forgot to give self realisation
really
it just went out of my mind

at the end of the day
when was time for them to go
their mom just gestured

oh my!
the youngest
broke my heart
she retained her tears
and went out of the garden
and hid to cry

you know?
best is to look at the atmospher
surrounding someone
the atmospher gives you the real tone of the heart
of those who are gathered there

as for she
when i saw her
i felt she was broken hearted

let me just say
she went out of the garden
without any noise
and it is like in her heart
she choked her sadness!

that's it!
she choked it
and retained her tears

i have been told later
is because she had felt my shakti
and she wanted to get self realisation
and her inner self was afraid
that she missed the one in a life time chance for it

this really hit me
i knew something was abnormal
given her age, her behavior was so unlike her
usually she used to throw tantrum!
for she is very young may be 6

so i brought her back in the garden
and promised to come back for her next week
and this time i promised myself
to give her self realisation

to a friend of mine
kids apparently stick in its surrounding like glue
lol
i felt happy at the sight of this :)

because i know
the stronger is the shakti
the more delighted kids feel
because they just feel it

this is also why
when my friend is absent a long time
sometimes i just feel like crying
is because of the spirit and the shakti
that i unconsciously miss

i guess our own shakti is the best scanner
it scans for you the right people to be with
those who emit most innocence, sincerity
and shine most the "very essence" of the spirit


for if they are not around
is just a heartfel cry of missing them

and when you hear them speak
your heart leap in joy within
wonder why ?
hahaha

now i know why
is because of the spirit and shakti within
each other recognise itself in the other

also
unless you travel, you cannot realise
the defect of your own culture
ie the limits and excesses

likewise
when you bath yourself in kiddos surrounding lol
is like your standards are refreshed
like your lenses are cleared
and with the same filter
you just put your attention on the atmospher
around the people
and you know on the spot
what emanates

my own recommandation
for myself
because i keep forgetting that
is to let go
for past is past
and thank the people
who revealed to me what i want no more in my life
and what i want above all

this was already latent
but now is definitely sure

my heartfelt wish
is only to meet sincere people
whose nearness give me the same feeling
than the one given by this new friend of mine
or those children

because i wish to build up what is to be built
with the right people
and only innocent heart like people
emanate such ease

for there is no slyness, nor calculation,
nor play about control and action/reaction
is so new to me
only by coming to paris
i could give an image to those words

prior to that
i had never experienced it first hand
only heard of it

danger is to become what you dislike
and this happens when you let not go
and you forget your true nature

so it suffices not to dislike it
but you should forgive, let go of the past
and thank them for having showed you
what you want no more in your life

and now thank in advance
those whom you want in your life

i only feel comfortable with innocent like people
the atmospher says it all
and that is the sight from the heart
fed by your own shakti
which shows you reality

this is why this friend reminded me
"see this is why jesus said
only if you become children
you will enter the kingdom of God"

so,
if my heart already knows
just by looking at the atmospher
if it feels innocent like atmospher
or not around people

if i know
then why don't i move on?

and take it as an adventure
to meet more people like this brand new friend?

definitely
only those who cherish innocence
can be authentic

plus
it is seen on their face
it is "spoken/testified" by the atmospher 
surrounding them
there is no questioning nor doubt
about it

the heart just see it

so far i think
no more justification is needed

heart knows
eyes see it
and the mind decide to follow innocent like people
and this only.

and the more you wish for something
the more you attract it...

ameen.

In Honor of the Trees

In Honor of the Trees :

The Giving Tree

Once there was a tree....
and she loved a little boy.
And everyday the boy would come
and he would gather her leaves
and make them into crowns
and play king of the forest.
He would climb up her trunk
and swing from her branches
and eat apples.
And they would play hide-and-go-seek.
And when he was tired,
he would sleep in her shade.
And the boy loved the tree....
very much.
And the tree was happy.
But time went by.
And the boy grew older.
And the tree was often alone.
Then one day the boy came to the tree
and the tree said, "Come, Boy, come and
climb up my trunk and swing from my
branches and eat apples and play in my
shade and be happy."
"I am too big to climb and play" said
the boy.
"I want to buy things and have fun.
I want some money?"
"I'm sorry," said the tree, "but I
have no money.
I have only leaves and apples.
Take my apples, Boy, and sell them in
the city. Then you will have money and
you will be happy."
And so the boy climbed up the
tree and gathered her apples
and carried them away.
And the tree was happy.
But the boy stayed away for a long time....
and the tree was sad.
And then one day the boy came back
and the tree shook with joy
and she said, "Come, Boy, climb up my trunk
and swing from my branches and be happy."
"I am too busy to climb trees," said the boy.
"I want a house to keep me warm," he said.
"I want a wife and I want children,
and so I need a house.
Can you give me a house ?"
" I have no house," said the tree.
"The forest is my house,
but you may cut off
my branches and build a
house. Then you will be happy."

And so the boy cut off her branches
and carried them away
to build his house.
And the tree was happy.
But the boy stayed away for a long time.
And when he came back,
the tree was so happy
she could hardly speak.
"Come, Boy," she whispered,
"come and play."
"I am too old and sad to play,"
said the boy.
"I want a boat that will
take me far away from here.
Can you give me a boat?"
"Cut down my trunk
and make a boat," said the tree.
"Then you can sail away...
and be happy."
And so the boy cut down her trunk
and made a boat and sailed away.
And the tree was happy
... but not really.

And after a long time
the boy came back again.
"I am sorry, Boy,"
said the tree," but I have nothing
left to give you -
My apples are gone."
"My teeth are too weak
for apples," said the boy.
"My branches are gone,"
said the tree. " You
cannot swing on them - "
"I am too old to swing
on branches," said the boy.
"My trunk is gone, " said the tree.
"You cannot climb - "
"I am too tired to climb" said the boy.
"I am sorry," sighed the tree.
"I wish that I could give you something....
but I have nothing left.
I am just an old stump.
I am sorry...."
"I don't need very much now," said the boy.
"just a quiet place to sit and rest.
I am very tired."
"Well," said the tree, straightening
herself up as much as she could,
"well, an old stump is good for sitting and resting
Come, Boy, sit down. Sit down and rest."
And the boy did.
And the tree was happy.

© by owner. Added by volunteers for educational purposes and provided at no charge. Dmca

This is probably Silverstein's best loved book and deserves to be read with the illustrations alongside if you can find the actual book

oldpoem

 

source : http://allpoetry.com/poem/8538991-The-Giving-Tree-by-Shel-Silverstein

 

 

Shel Silverstein

As Edwin McDowell reported in the New York Times Book Review (8 Nov 1981), Silverstein 'for several years now... has refused interviews and publicity tours, and he even asked his publisher not to give out any biographical information about him.' What is known about Silverstein, however, is that he was born in Chicago (Illinois) in 1932, is divorced and has one daughter. Most of what is known about his views and opinions, aside from what may be interpreted from his works, comes from a Publisher's Weekly (24 Feb 1975) interview with Jean F. Mercier. Silverstein discussed the roots of his career in his childhood with Mercier

 

 

Belly and its power

power everyone has it
this is why everyone has a life

but difference is about the use of it
unconscious vs conscious use

ok if i use the word power
is nothing surnatural
is about the "conscious use of it"
in my own vocabulary

so anyone thinking
is some supernatural thing
is weak minded
for i already defined it

plus is my blog
so i write as my daily introspection
flows :) kiss:x

so since a few days
i noticed
that very minimally
but surely
i kind of use my belly power
as if it is a sphere of energy
that you can project outside
and from there like a net
and you attract what you wishes

imagine a sphere of light expanding
whatever comes in
is part of this sphere
so is one

does not mean that you are
the stuff it englobes
but energetically you are that

it started
with the trees a few days ago
as i was in the car
all the trees on the road were aligned
and for some of them
it felt like they were more advancing
towards me
or with a real presence
they were really standing out
of the alley compared to others

and i learned
that trees too are very loving
in fact ...

-and this touched my heart
even now,
while writing it
lol feeling soft spot
in my heart -

... that very little attention
appreciation
and love is given to the trees

and if we do give them love
and touch them
to show them our appreciation

then we can imagine
how happy and really deeply
touched they would be
even though they have
a very faint consciousness

to their core
they would be really touched

imagine yourself,
if you are never given attention
and are invisible to everyone

and some day
someone sees you
and show you its attention

wouldn't it bring you to tears?
it would make you feel very soft
and alive

and definitely
you would love this person
who was the only one
to give you such attention
from all of your heart

same for the tree
the tree when loved
will love you really loads

actually
you would be loved by it
more than by any human being ever

because it does give
unconditional love
and in an ever present way

is very trustworthy
and faithful
because it just respond to your
own love

what you love
indeed loves you back

so, is as if they come to you
to somehow mark themselves out
that is faint but real impressive

yesterday
i was just in my mind
wishing to see and hear
some documentary
about this aspect of trees
like a loving entity

beware
as soon as i switched on
a channel
i stumbled about
a movie

which first words were

"a long long time ago,
there was a tree and
a young man who loved the tree.

everysingle day he came to the tree
and collected all falling leaves..."

believe me or not
it struck me!

the second AFTER
i wished for that
it was indeed coming
on TV!

that is SUGOI !!
lol
i have to use this word
FORMIDABLE
but in japanese
that really comes from the belly!
hahaha

but this time
unlike the other time
i was not shocked long
as to how come
i got exactly
the story i wanted

this time
is a bit like in vision
i saw that

it is indeed
like a sphere of magnetic light
it goes out from your belly
prompted by your wish
and is sent out

a bit like a letter
you send out

or
you know like
when you send
an air balloon
with a message
to the unknown
and yet someone answers you

well,
it is exactly same
on the spot
as soon as i switched tv
i got it back!

plus
i also learned
that if you placed yourself
above the message you expect to
receive from a source

and you kind of merge
your sphere
with the sphere of theirs
then at the merging
if your wish is conscious
enough
you know that your letter
has been delievered
then the excitement
is to wait for the answer

the difference i noticed
is now
just a bit more consciously
i wish
and just a bit more consciously
i know the letter is delivered

and i also feel
this grant more peace
for is a bit like
you sit in a comfy sofa
and send out your letter
to a very well chosen receiver
and once your energy blends with
the group consciousness of it
depending on God's will
you get the right feedback

at first
i guess it is a bit hectic
you remember
you forget
you remember
and so on

but once it get established
it becomes very natural

and from the belly
is your soul connection
to the "outer"
this is how you know
you are taking care
of your real needs
soulwise is most important
you are authentic
and less wandering blindly

and you feel a bit more fulfilled

this is why
5 years ago
i had dreamt
that i was very hungry

is about your soul
being hungry

and indeed
soul is in the belly

as present science
tells you
in the belly are
your emotional neurones

everything is linked
and interpreted according
to each field vocabulary

most important
is to find this space
between two busy-ness/thoughts
that you are stucked in
and to dwell on that

so that the very silence
feeds you

for the silence is not just
nothingness
is actually FULL

somehow
but i can't yet really tell
as i know not more

but for sure
is more fulfilling
than ever

kiss:x