Universe talking to me!

After having resumed my meditation practice
to a new rythm once back to France

Universe started talking to me!

Morning i got the following sms
'Always pay attention. You don't meet people by accident and things don't happen by coincidence'

I said ok let's see
what happens then
I theoretically agree, but practically don't feel it so far
since am back

and right now,
as i was watching  some awesome dating goals!
i said aaahh not sure i can enjoy these
my husband is rather Mr I-am-angel-not-human-mood
no wonder though his feet are on earth, mostly his head is stuck in heaven

contemplating the fate of having such a husband
i received the following message ON SPOT:

"Go to  sleep
knowing some of the best days of your life
are yet to come"

Tadam! Hit my feelings!
THAT's the moment I said
WHAAT ? ???
IS IT A HIDDEN CAMERA
Universe is answering my thoughts
talking to me

now,
i look forward to more talks from It

Hey i should thank Universe
for having treated me like a Queen in Lahore
hmm.. i should have desired to get the Honda City Car
Class A
am sure It would have given it to me
shoot! 

Anyway... that car...loved it so much
haaaan am missing my personal driver routine

Another Flashnews...Got Finally!!!
My Genealogic tree book going back to prophet muhammad time...

In Big lines...am proud to say my dreams were true

My ancester was the personal helper of the prophet and used to prepare his seating area
and had sworn to follow the prophet grandsons Hasan and Hussein
wherever they would move to their service

So.. he was from the Al Ansar living in Medina
then, went to Iran
there my family Branch married the Iranian Princess
and moved to afghanistan
and then India

on my Mother side
her Great...Great...grandmother married the member of prophet muhammad family

I even saw their wedding in dream
the one i discovered only now in this biography
premonitory vision :)

so elegant and honorable
white clothes
and decent simple people

hmm...now i hesitate
initially i wanted a simple ceremony
but am getting passionate about partying..i think i would go for the Grandiose Celebration

back to family..
no wonder my cousins and brothers well..no wonder
that my family has such auspicious faces

yes they are worthy of praise
though some of them could be worthy of a few slaps too hahaha
cause is not all about genes is also about self improvement
once you feel self sufficient you become a pain in the foot of others
so you better be grateful for those Genes and be able to move on

so ... Fatimah (as) is my greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat grandmother!!!:)))

and then settled in India in fine
and then are from Rajput line

hmm... i discovered Punjabi people
in old time
before the colonization wipe this customs out
as the British were following the wiping out plan of Indian strength

Punjabi used to give to their soon to be married daughter
the Quaid-e-Punjab ... the book as inheritance teaching Punjabi and its culture
PLUS a sword..cause the punjabi ladies were ... actually...true to the movie...Jodhaa Akbar...
taught swordmanship

imagine...no wonder why i love fencing
and my heart beat when i watched Jodha Akbar first time
is in genes
now i found out the origins of my likings

isn't it an adventurous, poetic and yet passionate view to know about your roots
fantasizing about how life was by then
feeling the taste and honor of it passing in your genes and recorded in there?
somehow..you can ACCESS it


while remembering is all past
and now is all about how MUCH you can make the MOST of it...

The Past which is Present and wishes to be Discovered as a Pure Mystery in Future... 
In other  Word is God who is a "Mystery and created its creation to be Discovered" (Hadith)

From that point of view is an exciting Mystery to be discovered
what  the BEST days of my life are now holding for me...???

For this gotta sleep...
woooooooooush! in bed!

Morning Meditation

Celebrating Nice Morning Meditation

Enjoy song and pictures

Story Behind the pictures :

"
One of the most important religious holidays along with Makha Bucha in many Buddhist countries, Visakha Bucha (pronounced Wisakha Bucha in Thailand) celebrates the birth, enlightenment and passing away of the Buddha, which according to the Theravada Buddhist traditions, all took place on the same day of the year: On the full moon of the Indian lunar month of Wisaka.
The sixth lunar month, usually falls in May, or beginning of June. This year, it was on the 4th of June in Chiang Mai.
In most Buddhist countries, including Thailand, it is an official public holiday. Like many Buddhist holidays, pubs and bars are also closed and no alcohol is served anywhere during the whole day.
On this day, devotees, usually dressed in white, visit temples, bring offerings, meditate and listen to sermons. In the evenings there is often a candlelit procession, and the devotees walk around the main Chedi (stupa) of the temple three times, celebrating the triple jewel of Buddhism – the Buddha, his teaching (Dhamma), and the monkhood (Sangha)."


Text & Pictures credit : http://www.canvas-of-light.com/2012/06/visakha-bucha-in-chiang-mai-thailand/

Organize vs Organic

There are some people
who are attention seekers
Power hungry

they feel excitation
in managing people
as if they are playing chessboard

There is a time when a person seems "useless"
to them
so they didn't want to be colored by her color
say qualities, fame, money, power etc.
were - in apparence - lacking in her
then,
of course, let's make fun of her

but if ... all of sudden
some USEFULNESS is seen
let's say some mass self realisation at muslim level is FEASIBLE
then let's organize meetings and ORGANISE all of that

under a NAME

cause you know ORGANIZING
is so much more SELF-GRATIFYING

I see You
Remember it

I say
Be colored in the color of God
is way better than trying to dye yourself like a cameleon
with someone else's light/color
find your OWN

and remember
What matter is to follow your Inner Gut feelings
and give self realisation be it in mass or not
be it in group or alone
yet it MUST BE
TRUE TO YOURSELF

so if your GUT feelings say
Meet people who have a PAST PROVEN record of SINCERITY
then honor them
but if they are on a Power Trip of self-importance
then let them be happy as they are in their own world

cause it is not yours...

...Mine is filled with Organic Guidance
not an Organized one

Nature is Organic
not Organised :)

Organization? no thanks! I am my Own Successful, Richly Guided, and already Celebrated Organizer!;)

Kissi:x

Free Will vs Slavery

How much of Will is Yours?

When you can FEEL your will behind an action
or even before meeting someone
when you can FEEL it

then is your Will

But if you go and meet a person or an event
with a blank mind
you won't obtain anything
except what your "luck" is

determined by your subconscious
fear, limitation, love or expectations

hence you will be like an empty vessel
which is thirsty for experiences
but let itself being filled
by the Will of others

this is how you can assess
how much FREE Will you have

Look at the actions of yours
how much of intent attached to them is actually felt by you as being Genuinely Stemming from YOU?

if you can't feel it and tell it
if you don't even know about this
then, you are unconsciously a slave to others' will

Just you don't know it yet.
Realising it
is becoming self-realized

Kiss;)

Lahore

Sharing my impression about my trip to Lahore...

there,
people are alive
everything is in movement
nothing is still
nor frozen nor rigid

everything flows

here if it rains
traffic jam and everything blocked

there people and the country as a whole thrives..
despite the constant blackouts and all kinds of pollution issues

Brave people they are

True Fighters for Life

is like they have some inside battery in their bodies
and they keep going on
doing multiple jobs and following their passion
and succeeding ...

is a pleasure to see life thriving

Sun is the Power
that sustains their energy

they are more in touch with nature
though they are more and more racing towards
western models of success

i hope earnestly they keep in touch with Nature

there i felt like swimming in a bubble of water
like walking in a dream
easy peasy

we have all kind of servants
for nearly everything

personal driver
hop and go
personal maid
the new trend is 3 maid per houses

Houses are like luxury hotels
Amazing to sleep in King Size beds

Wardrobes...Awesome
should i speak of Orgasm at this point? hahaha

women are real queens there

and i enjoyed so much
SHOPPING
EXTASE

all kinds of worldwide items at hands
so many colors
1200 colors in one shop
for the customers to find matching clothes...

and still if you are unlucky not to find
the matching thread to sew
they will order YOUR COLOR from India ...
and you have no HUGE costs for such demands

Life is soooo easy to serve you and your desires..

I just had to desire something
not to say it
not even to mention it
but to desire it in my heart

that next day i was brought where i wanted to go...

I was for instance
on a ride
and saw Pak Tea House
and i thought ah i want to go there

next day i met a cousin
and he spoke of the hyped place to go
where journalists or literature lovers go and discuss

and guess what ?! was that Pak Tea House
with a century long story

and third day... another cousin
who did not even know about it..
brought me there
without me mentioning it

same ...
i desired a Jewel set
forgot to buy it

my aunt
God knows how she guessed it
not only bought it for me
but customized the pearls to the color of my dress

i felt truly like ME there
natural respect and honor given to you as  a HUMAN BEING

not like an item

here by contrast
i see how people uses you
as if you were an item

but there
is so OBVIOUS
that you are YOU
and are treated as such


Lahore
i love the trees there
is like light falls from them
each time i go there
i feel i am in a dream
in a bubble where time exists not

my family is very special
i have so many innocent girl cousins

they are of my age range

you see innocence oozing from them
some kind of purity
you don't see here in western countries

is a combination of natural good manners embeded in you
without any artifical mannerism
and an inner glow of light
which makes you feel sweet
looking at them

people living in the moment
and being with you
not chatting with you and thinking about how to use you
or chatting with you with a pre-plan in mind

no
is very much in the moment
is what makes it clean
and Alive

cause is not mental dependent
of some past manipulative plan
or some future profit they could get from you

even...when a few had such intent
their behavior flashed out to me
as it was against the natural glow of others
they were obvious to me when they had some manipulative ideas

but was rare and childish

but in europ
people are like living in a dark cloud of past or future
hanging on top of their head..
no covering all of their head till down their shoulders and more..

not in the light air of the present

which makes their movement slow
hard
like you cut throw mist to live there

over there you are flowing in the current of light
and have smooth flying to your destination

hahaha about destination
my life was in God Hand
people doesn't drive there...
they play video games....

If there is Life and Harkat (Movement and dynamics infused from sun light in you)
the extrem is the MESS!! hahaha
but even that is a joyous mess i would say

here is perfect in terms of discipline
you obey the law
and you are on the motorway of life
you know where you are and where you go

but there is no surprise
no fun
is just motorway of life
where all is frozen
you can't move from left to right
you have to follow rigid rules all the time
and become rigid as well

Nature is "disciplined"
in the way it follows some patterns
mathematical patterns as you know

yet is flowing
and brings you surprise
thanks to its Creativ-ness

Here is what i miss...

we are not riders of Life
but Laws of life ride us
and we are more like donkeys bearing weight of our life

than Masters of our Life riding donkeys..

In Lahore i also had many good experiences
one of which is to have visited the Medical College where Mataji did her Medicine Studies

again i feel time exist not there
everything is like there as a Given Life in Eternity

I loved most the soil there
the nice smell of it
as i said the light falling from trees
and their special surely special leaves
i loved seeing so many pets and animals there too
the magic of desire and all of them being fulfilled
just because i wished for it

Kun Faya Kun!
Be and it IS

Yes... so many saints graves and shrines
i went to a College and it had a shrine in there!
Amazin
i went to a garden
again a saint
i went to an old Fortress
again a century old famous saint shrine

i think the country is still alive and thriving
despite all the issues be it economics, politics, hygien
it is still there and fine...may be thanks to the saints, shrines
which are as much alive place as any other lively café or tea houses

even the cemetry... it is all shiny and emitting light
is so peaceful...

here cemetries feels like doomed and sad and all grey

Jesus is another world there
there is beauty everywhere
Beauty increases when you see it


I miss Beauty

Is not the End that counts but the Journey

Is strange for me to say
what i am going to say
but i only realised it now that i changed...

I used to look at people as a whole
and think why they bother to decorate their house
and invest so much energy to set things
when they know they will eventually age and die

For me was puzzling behavior
i found it being useless, pointless
and because was purposeless eventually
the behavior was childish and even stupid to me
..seen from above..

After 10 years,
only now
i realised

is not the death that counts
meaning people don't live to die

but they live to experience those moments of life..
because they are precious

though i had lived life
because i happened to be alive

time was not precious to me
i just lived cultivating myself,
doing what i had to do
studying mostly
on my own

most on my life
i lived it on my own

and funnily
all this time i never felt i was alone

is only recently
when i experienced that me too
am mortal

that life for me started
and that i could sense that
all this time i had been lonely

but i could not have possibly realised that before
as only opposites teach us the existence of duality
of what is company
once is removed
what is loneliness

so in the past
i used to observe for a second, life
and just saw pattern
people are born, race to live
against time - like a time war - lost in advance
squeezing a boring routine in their schedule
they call life

and die.

but now...
i realised
while myself i immerged myself in It :
we don't live to die

but to experience these important moments

so in a way..
Death or being mortal is a blessing

as it helps you value those moments,
and each moments if you are lucky in keeping such awareness

and my second conclusion
i wonder ... looking back at myself

Am i an alien?

trying to understand human behavior
because i often feel i try to understand social behavior
that are a given for most people
but for me is not

as i feel i am not part of it

Kisses above the Clouds

..Above the clouds...and ready to crash in the ocean...but so beautiful clouds!...it was worth it !

I often wondered am i seeing clouds or ocean waves ... incredibly mesmerizing!

Evil Eye - Energy of Love and Hate

Evil eye exists
and here it is what it is about
roughly speaking :

A person does not consciously
says ok i wish harm to that pretty stuff you are wearing or possessing

is just she will look at it
and you or your stuff will get spoilt

like once i wore a nice pearly brand new bracelet
the girl looked at it
it broke down on the spot! LOL
and pearls scattered all over the floor
was brand new!

same i was wearing my brand new Bordeaux colored handbag
as soon as a girl slowed her pace to check it
and paff scratched!

third
wearing my brand new
navy blue heals
so impressive
the girls just went behind me LOL
to have leisure to check them
of course i was hearing their comments
and paff! on spot it got unsew

snif..

but today was dangerous

i told a friend
to call me later
as i was driving

already had a list of such experience
with her
but today was too dangerous

was the car ..
i was about to have an accident!


on LAST MOMENT Divine power helped me
cause in NORMAL SCENARIO  i was done!
i just got saved..
cause i literally felt my car being pulled back
and the car in front had the "luck" to intuitively move on left
as he was trying to quickly take over other cars
and i had the lucidity to turn car on my right

but clearly
if i had NOT felt that being pulled back
as my car HAS BEEN MOVED ASIDE
i was done!

so thank you Spirit...

but this friend ...
not her fault
but is her residual
hateful and unconscious energy

here is how evil eye works :

Imagine some past traumas
which happened to you
those are recorded as images
and have some energy
now
the evil eye as we call it
is about projecting the energy
from the past trauma -without the images-
on someone

so is her energy projecting without the images

so i had to purify the car
which was affected by negative energy
as i felt just floating in it
no stability
and felt not clear headed
nor well

As everything is made of God energy
because GOD is everywhere
so God/Love means unity or working together ..see?
so all of sudden the car
good energy left
there was an energy of hate
which was dissonant with mine

no love = no unity= no work together
and indeed no more harmony nor unity
so atmopsher in car changed all of sudden after that conversation


So i was being rejected by my car
which was now full of NON LOVING energy

Everything is made of GOd energy
God is even in inanimate object

so i had to purify the car
i just went out
and put my hand on itand said it like 10 times
i love you car

then i felt GOOD
and could drive it with no more incident
and rather felt so comfy driving it again..

and the amazing dynamic i understood today

is that when stuff works
is because you are one with the object
and that is Love
not an emotion
but the unity in action
see?

all of sudden
my car was filled with hateful energy
just because i drew someone's attention on it
what we call evil eye
again is not a conscious stuff that my frind did
but is just her trauma affecting my car  and me

once i said those words
it stopped the hate from the other which she put in the car


same if you have a stuff you love
just say to it often you love it
so it ll prolonge its life with yours
same for people
say it to yourself
i love you so and so
no need to tell them
and it will prolonge their ties with you

and that working together will last longer

incredible learning

if you SEND LOVE to objects
they will be WORKING with you

and another thing i learned is that Love and hate
are both needed
as Love alone without challenge is no point for universe to exist
and hate without love
there would be no Grace

so another lesson for me
Love and Hate co exist for universe to exist as it is



so yes evil eye is not intentional
but it sucks!

 Love to Hate
and by the way

We are never getting older LOL
lol i should start hiding my age
people think i was 24 while i am 34
but now i was told i am looking 16... twice..
luckily i don't need to show my ID card to buy cosmetics hahaha

kiss
Enjoy the song

The Chainsmokers - Closer

Celebrating the 30 000th Blog Viewing

30 000th pageview was today!
Round figure ! ;) Caught my eyes :)

Today i came to a very profound self realisation

Is  not a thought, nor an opinion, nor a theory
is something i learned and i can count it as a means which has changed my vision of life

Since long
i had the impression
to be holding myself back

waiting for the ideal moment
waiting to improve and be even more perfect
so that i may be -finally- understood by some people

is like i took on me the burden
to be up to their image they wanted me to be
in a word trying to please them

but that was like always holding back my breath

today
after discussing a dream i had with a friend
i realised
there are some people we cannot save

at some point
i had started to please them
so i put on a burden which was not mine
this burden made me harder

exemple
is like when you have a rock on your back
and you are ascending a mountain
so even if the person next to you wants to chat with you
you will snap at him
as you are so much burdened already

so no time for such small talk
nor lightness

one day i heard
that enlightenemnt fruit
is also to realise
that actually
whatever happened in your life
was ok
things are just as they are

and they are good like that

trying and hoping hard to change people
are to bend ourselves to their cherished image they have projected on you
and what they want you to be

is something which is the real burden

if you let go of it
in a way
if you let go of trying to save them
or change them for their own good

then
you are happier
and you can chit chat with them
and just do the small talk they want
on a day to day basis

in a way
you surrender to the idea
that you can't do anything for them
you stop battling for this

because at some point
when i think about the fact
that we all die
what remains at this very time?
at your death bed?

is regrets
ah i should have been more loving
i should have been more kind
i should have been more lenient
and i should have let them be ignorant kids
at least i would have not wasted time from lack of human warmth
from lack of familial warmth
from lack of friendship warmth

cause in reality
a world is made of so many different people
if you try to be so picky
or if you try to shape them in your image
or if you let yourself being shaped into theirs

either you end up with a sour face
and a hardened heart

or

you become stupid ape
mimickeing all they want you to be

to be able to find the middle way
is to live among them
without being part of them

just to be able to Feel Life Warmth itself..

and of course the love we have for them
resurfaces
after we put it on hold..till we became better

so is best to forgive
and send them love

as i feel so much pity for them being ignorant
yet i know is like speaking to walls
they are -in a loving and non judgemental way- ignorant
impatient, and very much weak in truth

so the best thing you can do for a weed
is to give it love

Marrying a non realised person

If i can give a word of advice..
never ever a yogi woman should marry a non yogi

cause at some point
her shakti won't be able to compensate
for his non realised state

at best if she meditates
everyday and more than prior to her marriage
it ll stay AT BEST stable


but living
with a guy who meditates not
even prevent you to go to meditation group
or like not incense etc.

she will lose it within 2 or 3 years
and wonder why she married

well to statisfy her comfort zone
ok i know this guy since long
so let's marry and time to have kids

yet

all that counts when you die
is THE STATE in which you die

one better die
with a better state than prior to one coming into this world..

otherwise you will be slave to your dying state
and reincarnate
just worse
in most of cases

is tough for women
especially their friends should give the right advice

Girl i am your friend
and i advise you not to marry a guy who is not meditating
and if you married
and regret
well God will provide you for a better husband

but don't let your spirituality go down the drain

With Love
Petals

paris meditation - final

Yes now about my meditation
daily with a friend

we used to wake up at 630 every day
and get it right

the very first day
i felt a wind wooshing out of my head
was at the place of the limit between scalp and forehead
i was told is the virata

was amazing sound it made
wooshing out
like a fountain

the next days we did same

i even managed to feel so cool
that i had to take a shower to warm up...
feeling cool in winter time
i abhooooorr it

with indian blood
i have to move to south
or some warm country

can't get so coolnes topped with winter time


was great disciplined
maintained during a week


FIRST TIME EVER
I meditated with a yogi in morning
at a set time

EVEN when i lived in an ashram
NOT EVEN ONCE it happened
i was always meditating all alone

people should care for this GOOD old lady
she met mataji
and meditated by herself for SO LONG
30 years or so of meditation is NOT nothing

so some RESPECT SHOULD BE GIVEN TO HER

BUT most people make fun of her
WHICH IS REVOLTING TO ME

anyway
i had a GREAT TIME with her
meditation wise
otherwise she is a sincere lady
and has like anyone some ups and downs
but is her private life
not to be told here

anyway
a friend who was being bullied
by a group of singer
told me her hard time

so while was saying me this
i imagined she was singing on stage
and her kundalini shooting up

so much that light was emitted
and her so called singer ladies friends
saw it
and shut up

LOL
guess what next day she calls me
and say
hey you know what happened
a singer lady saw my kundalini while she was performing

hahaha
this is when i explained her
about the power of master
your life is liek a book
your erase what you want
and write what you want

call it my moment of insight!

ah yea
this morning as i was meditating
with my fiancé
aboutr 1h
i saw in vision at mid way of meditation
 that an angel all golden
was having an arrow pointed at the moon
and i looked at moon
then he moved clockwise to the starts and i followed it
and at the end he pointed at me

wowhahahaha

LATER
i realised hey !
is like abraham story
he looked at moon and stars seeking god
and at the end he found it!!!!
was INSIDE


HEY WHO KNOWS
I WILL FIND MY OWN FULL ENLIGHTENMENT SOON!!!



kiss

paris meditation - part 4

Basically
in first talk i heard at the ashram
was about the 21st sahasrara day or so

where shri mataji said to yogi
enough about cool breeze
is only the start

now COUNTS YOUR POWERS

you should count them...

to know WHO you are

well despite that
such conditioned yogi
still thought is just about innocence powers...

is the very moment
i wanted to slap them

you are dumb
or what??

POWERS
are that WHICH is MANIFESTED

the power of a nuclear plant
will give you POWER aka ELECTRICITY
which YOU as ENGINEER of your LIFE
will MANIFEST as a CREATOR
into LIGHT BULB, TV, micro wave

THAT IS POWER to be manifested

BUT AS SOON AS FEW yogis talk
about their powers
others say

yea yea
or wait is it some magician
or ah it is some show off

AS LONG AS YOU ARE EXPERIENCING
YOUR OWN POWERS
as token of your meditation practise

which are verily SUSTAINING YOU
IN YOUR OWN MASTERY

WHY on earth
you want others to SHUSH IT???

sick to the bone
is due to envy, jealousy
and till they didn't do it
it has to be shushed

this is WHY
out of million of seekers of truth

only may be 1 in a million
might have developped powers
and among them only a handful few
must have become mahayogi

but again.... NO ADVERTISING PLEASE
this is why the only thing you hear of it in this yogi group
is COOL BREEZE
CHAKRAS
AND YEAAAA FOOT SOAK!!!

cause you know
without salt
let it be a handful salt in your bassin
cause if you put a pinch of salt
as is the case of the concentration of salt in the sea
you may be NOT doing PROPER foot soak
let you empty you packet of salt once a week
just to be sure you put enough salt in it...

so that woman
whom i told i NEVER EVER do foot soak
may be once or twice a year
just to relax with some lavender oil

hahahaha

thought i was weird

and yet... i am the one who has progressed
see?
while she has some blocages

why?

cause as i told her
as foot soak cleanse you from your three first chakras

my walking cycles
method
cleanse you from ALL YOUR CHAKRAS

but dear...
is not mataji method...

is ALWAYS what i hear
see your conditioning??

unable to be your own MASTER
the yogi guy at center said
"tell us a creative method to purify ourselves
and his old yogi patriarch recentered him"

why??

as long as you purify yourself
and its FRUITS ARE SEEN
why are you AFRAID to use it???

cause is about putting others down
as they progressed
over your lack of mastery
and creativity

cause is all about you still sucking your Mother breast
and TIRING HER not by not becoming your OWN master

isn't it?

so when i said
my friends who did my method
felt her petal opening in her swadhistan

she used my method
not because i am her GURU
yea in  case some numbnuts think that
but because i TELL WHAT WORKS FOR ME

and you are just FREE TO TEST IT
AND DO THE EXPERIENCE
as per the SPIRIT OF your yoga taught by mataji

you WILL SEE THAT IT WORKS
and purifies you even MORE than some footsoak...
on a wider scale...

oh well...
next in the next day talk
Mataji said..  once your SPIRIT gets IMBIBED into your nervous system

you will TRANSFORM
and become a SUPER HUMAN

I WAS IN LOVE with THIS VERY SENTENCE

nothing like sour ears
never hearing what she says
and sticking to just cool breeze

beyond cool breeze
which is ....HELLO.....
MERE MANIFESTATION OF SPIRIT

YOU HAVE TO REALISE YOU ARE THE SPIRIT

AND SPIRIT IS BEYOND COOL BREEZE

and once you ARE that SPIRIT
do you THINK you are the SAME HUMAN
with same capabilities and skills?

or are you a superhuman

advising that arab girl
to may be put some cream in her butt
as it ll itch less??

cause is nice to send me a certificat
but it is not the one of your ring
her move was ONLY to look superior to me
by showing off a 10 euro ring being a 10 000 euro one

you will see within few months
she will change ring
why?
cause she needs one which is 
one more expensive than 10 euro

HAHAHAHAHA

anyway i love that girl
is the only one who helps me make abdos
just that move of showing off a fake ring was too hilarious for me
i even asked her to send me a certificate for her made in china clothes

so obedience she is..hahahaha
REMEMBER I RULE YOU!
I AM YOUR JUDGE

please...no more abdos...
ah laughing too much tires my belly now
need to calm down...hehehehe

Paris meditation - part 3

When i went to the meditation center
the second day
i found it absolutely amazing
the fact the new guy
put chairs in circle mode

it looks like less of a classroom
more like everyone is EQUAL

and mostly...

that the circle ENABLES energy to circulate...
it enables you to FEEL it IN THE CENTER of the circle

they should keep it up like this every day
somehow they don't

anyway i met there back
new participants
i had met a year before

the talk of the day was amazing
for once ... no more old talk
always put on screen
usually old yogi always put old talks there
because is their comfort zone
nothing shocking
for new listeners

but it becomes their OWN conditioning
own limits..
so many talks of Shri mataji
one needed a NEW yogi as teacher
to put FINALLY - God may BREATHES - a NEW talk

best talk of shri mataji
are those in her early years
as she gives you a map of WHAT serves your BEST INTEREST

I read ALL OF HER TALKS
INCLUDING THE ONES IN HINDI with NO translation

i can TELL YOU
much is MISSED by current yogis

no wonder
that most of them i met
did not progress except one or two

just look at their eyes
and face
as last ressort check their chakras
all hot

even the sweetest yogi girl i used to know
has developped so much hatred
don't know due to what
anyway she didn't flush it out of her system
she became such a sour face

this is the one that pained me most
she lost her sweetness, warmth, and innocent smiley face she had

went all the way 180° shift
from sweet to sour face
what can i say?

then
i laugh when i heard from her
comments
"dear i thought you left collectivity"

i told her
"and you? you were IN collectivity
yet look at you, what happened? why are you so down now?"

actually
her soul was severed from her spirit
apparently she says she meditates...

either she just close eyes and night dream
and play with her thoughts
hence no fruits of meditation are seen on her face
and this explains why the path leading her soul to her spirit is broken

or she does not meditate at all

so see 
is NOT because you are PART of a collectivity
that you are saved

UNLESS you are CONNECTED to your disciplined practise
with a REAL meditation
EVEN IF ALONE
as i was or with limited company for meditation at best

don't dare to patronise me
with your "she left collectivity"

the only good guy who died
and who was yet alone
reached spirit

NOT because he was AVOIDING collectivity
or because he was PART of "collectivity"

but because he HAD SINCERE PRACTISE

so anyone trying to peek at me
behind my back
let me return him the favor
and let him know

unless he heals his knee cap
this will spread to his spine
and is no good

on this note
i will try to write next post
about the fabulous mataji talk i heard
which is about DEVELOPPING YOUR POWERS

KISSES to you
and yes stop backbiting with arab girl
heal your knee
my intuition has indeed grown

Paris meditation - part 2

Next days during my stay
i chit chatted with a person
just a hello-hi

very short yet pleasant conversation

one day later...
as i was brushing teeth...
the person who happened to be a neighbor rang at our door

and asked about me
asking
"who was that girl..she was so pretty..."

i just overheard it

had it been a single incident
of an unknown person ringing at door
asking about me
i wouldn't have paid attention

but the day before
i met an old lady
that i absolutely knew not

i HARDLY sat in front of her
that she started to say that she was feeling some energy coming out from me
and touching her front part of body

HAHAHA

when she said that
i was myself amazed
and wondered... has my kundalini become so strong
as to be able to reflect 2 meters away?

cause she was sitting 2 meters across me !!

so i decided to give her self realisation

she kept saying
"i feel good, i feel so good, is too much"

honestly
i am the one who became afraid
what if she swoons because is too much??

so i kind of stopped the protocol

and just went near her
to raise her energy

and all the way during it
she said
"you know you are a REAL GOOD person"
"i love you"

and all kind of other NICE praises

yet i aboslutely knew her NOT
nor even ever talked to her
i hardly managed to sat in front of her
and ask her if she was ok
and wish to help her with the energy she was feeling

that incident
coupled with my first day arrival in paris
the first comment i hear by my friend
was
"you became younger!"

another male friend
said "you look SO fresh"

no wonder the driver
was under cover of inviting me the very evening to a conference
was only trying to give me a rendez vous

so all these successive events
spoke up by themselves
that my SHAKTI  is THE ONE

that brought that HALLOW
of Youth, Beauty, and Love around me
so that from 5 people, 3 of them being total strangers to me
ended up saying praises
in a natural way

i consider these praises
for MY SHAKTI
and feel FINALLY HAPPY
to be its recipient

at least my meditation started to bear
OBVIOUS FRUITS

Trees are known by their fruits
aren't they?

Paris meditation - part 1

Okay
wishing to enjoy sun and my fiancé
will make the post short :

I am pretty much happy

Imagine...
i managed to meditate alone
for about a whole year
never missing my meditation for more than 3 days in a row

the harder the discipline
the better result

and when i saw people a year later
except for one guy
who just married
he had such a beaming joy on his face
proving his nabhi indeed SETTLED

that i felt REAL HAPPY
for him AT LAST

on my first day
as soon as i sat
with all the other yogi to meditate...

i had SO MUCH VIBRATIONS
i was sooooo cooool

that i thanked my Shakti
for having helped me
to maintain such a GREAT meditational discipline
ALONE YET STILL CONNECTED

even two ladies who worked on me
one of them said
i had all chakras COOL

hahahaha
so where could she work hahahaha

so i told her just work on fingers she feels
are neutral

and my hands
where so cooooool

even some friends came later
and said ok can we touch to check it

hahahahaha

ahhh,
so grateful i am

collective meditation
helped me to measure back after 1 year
my vibrational state

and i have UNDENIABLY progressed!

much juicy details to come...
gotta prepare a good yummy pakistani lunch for my dear

kissi

Distance healing works..

Incredible
still at job place
but had to take time out and BLOG THIS

I have some party tonight
and had a PIMPLE

a huge inflammation
coming out on left cheek
incredibly painful
and unesthetic

i am sure all girls will nods their head
in empathy with me

guess what?

my fiancé
who is a healer
i just mentioned him casually about the pimple...

and FROM A DISTANCE
he healed it....

the pimple is GONE
within 1min
first it got deflated
and now skin is FLAT

BACK TO NORMAL

GIRLS
i say we all should have a healer in our purse
to flatten all our pimples at WILL

yes...Healing at WILL

Ocean waves on shores of consciousness

fresh waters washes on the shores of creation
to soothe them
and bring some freshness
a new breath
and a new life

is how the creation keeps living

though creation is one with the fresh water
which get absorbed in shore's sand
and can be reshaped into a new form

this very water evaporates
once new form were taken
as if there had never been any benefit

if no traces of water are left
who can remember water of life and fresh love was there?

even if it has evaporated
the traces left is the new shape taken by the sand
water gave it opportunity to live a new experience
and it withdrew 

Pain and Happiness

in murder cases
in movies
we see how many lives are broken
when a person is killed
is very much devastating

yet...
what happen when we do good to someone?
there too we affect not only one but so many other people
sticking around positively

but see?
this is never showed
is like in case of pain
voicing unhappiness is so much filling up the space

but why when you do good
people are not voicing as loudly their happiness?
is because they are not appreciative
they make it as if is their own happening
or some private stuff not to be shared

so you have the feel there is only pain in the world
the goodness exists not
or if it does
its flow is cut
due to lack of recognition and appreciation

this is why God says in Quran
unless you thank people, you have not thanked God

see?
and unless you are appreciative
the flow of goodness get cuts 
as people stop helping you out
as they wear out when they see no appreciativeness coming their way

Drama W - end

there are many stuff that are really cool
in that drama

i just jot down these last ones
but i will avoid to do more parts on this drama
though is amazing

i will just update this one at best

once the main hero was back in his world (of creation)

whenever he sees someone he sees the reality
i.e.that this person has no free will of its own, no authenticity in his choice of being so,
it has been just A transplanted (idea) there from a higher will... and so he felt so much like cut from them, like isolated and unable to do the talking and usual sharing of his thoughts with anyone else

that's pretty much how i felt
when i looked around
once i came back from uk
i found no one
till one day i found that Hope

back in the drama

i found so cool that
at all new change of emotion in the male lead heart
the main female lead was bound to disappear..
(which by the way make us, the viewers appreciate so much more their transient life and passing little moments of happiness)

and so each time the woman disappeared
was a translation of the male feeling a new level of emotion


i find it translate so beautifully
how the feminine energy changes her face in a myriad of way
the face being the emotions and feelings felt by the man
and the female disappearing
merging back into the world of gods

so beautiful when you think of it this way..

so...the male lead (creation) aims at stability of his heart
not to be bound to so much changes of heart
so that the stability or equilibrium be reached
so that his wife (feminine principle from god creation) may stay with him
and stop disappearing

Honestly
when i saw that

my heart really felt warmth and gratefulness
for the scriptwriters
who focused at the fragility of life
at the transience of feelings...

and the first amazing stuff
i repeat it
was when the scriptwriters depicted the time of creation slowing down to a standstill point
where everyone is frozen
except the male lead witnessing this ... who kept living.. while all his world was stopped..
and it hit me... that equals to contemplation of thoughts in meditation!!!

for life in real
is also meditation

as life is just the extension of our thoughts
what is life? except thoughts brought into action
thoughts actualised and realised ?

what is a sky scrapper?
it was an idea in our mind
then a design on a paper
then a building built...

by extension is what life is
just the extension of our thoughts

if we manage to contemplate our thoughts
we should by extension when we grow into our meditation
be able to contemplate this standstillness around us like in matrix, like in this drama W

from this very point of view
Life is an illusion

K-drama W - part 4

the daughter of the creator of the webtoon

loved what she said to the creation (the male main lead)

that now there is no more god nor creator

let us create our story together

i found it again astounding and filled with wisdom

as a metaphor :

the girl represents the feminine principle of creation
and she unites herself with creation
as she shift from her world to his

and show that now that he has no more purpose to live
he should find another purpose
by creating a new one with her

lol she gave an idea of purpose
which is to live a romantic life
that is typical of what a girl would prefer

and the fun part
was him
asking her in 4 proposiion what kind of romance
she wanted

1-cendrillon type
2-romantic week end at countryside
3-romance in day to day life (giving space to little things with kindness in their romance)
4-erotic +18 love affair

hahahaha

i felt like falling off my chair when i read these proposition

he of course preferred the number 4

i am disgressing writing this here
but is for my fiancé
as the guy acted typically like him

he is all for number 4
while i was for number 3

like in the drama

the girl answered 3 using her mouth
while she had 4 fingers saying 3

lol i guess her body language was telling her inner choice? hahahaha

anyway this scene was so greatly transposed also in drama
i had to write it and wink at it LOL

back to the drama

the fact that she shifts from her world (of creator) to his (of creation)

was really beautifully portrayed in the drama
the transition was amazing
artisitically speaking
i can't comment i don't have the skill to say it
is a must see

but also was wisely used by the scriptwriter

as they use most of drama as a space to
SHOW the BEAUTY OF TRANSIENT LIFE

i explain myself

in most stories
and they lived happily ever after
is show as last pic or last comment

but actually...

this is never shown over let's say majority of movie or drama episodes

why?

as the dad creator said

being happy is boring
who would want to write such story...

besides is true which viewers would watched a boring movie
where everyone is happy ?
and there is no ups and down

nor any challenge??

but i guess is teh contrast that makes you appreciate happy and lovey dovey life
where we them both cuddling in front of a cartoon book
using it as a guidelines to pick from
what kind of scenario they want to create in their life from it

as unless you experiment pain as he did as a hero for 10 years
you can't really , you the viewer who followed him up to know
appreciate the happy parts that comes now

as is by contrast
only if pain, you can enjoy the happy moments

and you feel happy and not bored
as is a sort of reward for the hero and you too the viewer

but what i loved most above all
was the zoom in and out effect

am sure the viewers noted not

but as he was in a cartoon book

so has he taken a "romantic cartoon book"
to get inspired and CHOOSE with her lover
what day to day small kindness (cuddling, reading book, dish washingetc.)
would be best to pick up and follow

as a transient joy
and appreciate the  present moment

so a cartoon using a cartoon book
zoom in and out

fantastic....!

plus undeniably
i love the enjoyment of little moments
yes transient moments and very casual are showed
how they are appreciated by them

why?
normally is boring

because there are built on some tension...

tension being...that the main female lead can leave at any time
as she is not from his world...

is great!!!!

so as you have this tension on your life
you learn how to appreciate the beauty of transient moment
you learn in fact to breath life every moment

Korean drama W - part 3

At the end of the cartoon
it was like for any good story written  "The End"

the main female lead
wondered
what happen to creation when we write the end?

she asked

do the cartoon/creation go on living peacefully and we just don't know about them?
or do they stopped living ... hanging in time, like frozen?

this totally ASTOUNDED ME

cause is EXACTLY what i used to wonder when i was a kid
when i used to read a story it was always said : and they lived happily ever after

and when i never read that for a story
i resented the writer
as it did not close the story on a happy circle

like a full stop and you can keep imagining your heroas are happily living ever after contirnuously

or again
sometimes
even not long ago
even 4 years ago i saw myself doing that :

when i use to leave my room
i would turn my back quickly
and check if everything was in the same place i left

lol you would laugh
but i used to think ok if i turn my back
may be the things get animated
as i removed my sight from them
so how can i know what happens if my sight is not there to witness them

well see
is same in that drama
and that hit me
as i thought i was watching my self worrying about such stuff
is so funny when you see yourself in someone else as essence i mean

the next amazing point
was
the female lead part of the world of creators/gods

was drawn to the creation place
as teleported
cause the creation kept thinking about her
so is the law of attraction which is shown

likewise
the creation the young guy
is her own creation
when she was a kid
she imagined the ideal lover

and as she put her desire on paper
and drew him

lol...word play now but real
she got drawn by the creation

so this metaphor
if you see it as such
shows you

you get what you wish for
as you energise your desire
somehow at some point
by magic they or you cross each other path

is so true
but when i read the comments of the reviewer

they all wrote :

ah if only was true
ah if only i could jump also in my preferred movie

yet is true
is just they take the movie as exterior to their self

but their own life is a movie
and they are all their own life hero
and god and goddess and creator and creation

is just the shift of the observer
that hapened not
for them to realise is

ALL TRUE

so they never started living their life
in that realisation
and thus in all awareness

Korean drama W - part 2

in the next episodes
here are some sailliant points that i like in that drama
no need to give context is clear enough for those who watched it
and have a bit of spiritual interest :

when the creator of cartoon drew something
it did not hapen according to his will
as the creation (main lead) would by pass his will

ex : he drew him drowing
but he never get drowned
as his will to live was stronger as the one of dying for no reason

so his subconscious ... kept dreaming of being killed in river han... but he fought with his free will and stayed in his conscious world where he had little but still power..to use his God/creator given free will vs whispers pushing him to accept suicidal thoughts

this is true
in reality too
people who choose suicide
do it because they became overcome by such whispers
but they know not
so using their free will
they think is their own thoughts
and commit it..

 yet the main lead kept having nightmares about him drawning
so this proves that our dreams are not "false"
as they are in our subconscious who keeps being rewritten by
whispers from high/lower realms

this is is called in islam waswas
whispers that hit you when you sleep and somehow
interfer with your free will and control you

even though the creator is hit by the free will
of his creation
still he realises that his free will is
this too is part of his creation

as he created him to be by nature
strong willed...

i found that U-turn amazing lol
if i can name it so

and i liked how the creator explained
that even his Desire to live in accordance with moral law and in all clean consciousness (Dharma)
is so because was his will to give him this desire and attributes along with it
so somehow his desire for permanent quest for truth and thus this nature of him is also predetermined

this is why i was told once
youcan't give desire to someone for truth
is something innate
you have it or not

i found this deepness tackled by the scriptwriter amazin
i have been told that as korean have a buddhist background that may explain
them dealing with such deep topic in some drama

i say there is more to it
cause you need a backing behind
surely some spiritual master or teaching
to get you along the path

cause is a drama
means a collective work
from script writer to conveying the right feel to all the collaborator
down to the actors

so some stable and constant backing
should be to support them to do such precious drama
spiritually speaking

along the line of the drama

we learn the trauma through which the young man went through
as creation was created
to make him strong willed

so he spent most of his life till then
to look for the culprit of who killed his parents
and was told there is no one to blame for

as this is a trauma created to make him strong

this too shattered his world
as his life purpose was broken
as he lived to find a culprit
so now he had no more purpose to live

he was told that
you can become a hero (of your own life/udnerstand it as a person in charge/a master)

on through living this trauma
so that you become the hero ONLY when things are unsolved
he was told
who wants to go through hardship if he stays happy?

that won't exist

so trauma are created for you
to seek for solution
thereby gaining in desire for truth
thereby becoming the hero of your own life
(is my adding and interpretation of course..don't assume is written so openly in drama lol)

i like some quotes such as :

you being a killer was not visible
as you held a pen (pen of creator) isntead of a gun

is what is said about decision maker
they make decisions about who should live and die
but of course they are not the end users
those who hold the guns to follow their will

i found the korean script writers
have very great ability to write clearcut sentences with much deepness
is inborn in their culture

yes an inborn eloquence and wisdom

anyway to challenge his predetermined nature of never going against Dharma
that he was given by his creator

he tried to kill his creator
but did it with half will
one strong enough to show if he wants break free from control he can
and yet not really aiming at killing as is definitely not his nature

again what a paradox
did he manage or not to go against God will
yes for the show of rebellion and no in real
as at teh end, he did not kill him as his own nature prevented him to do killing

found it amazing

there is no meaningless scenes in that drama
all is there for a purpose
and fit in the greater image created by the drama