Saturday, 14 May 2016
Mastery
spirituality is a dangerous place to be
cause never i saw ANYONE give something
for the sake of God
always some retribution is demanded
one way or another
be SURE it will be demanded
some ask for sex
others for money
others for both lol
stuff is i know myself
when i help someone i do it from my own inner generosity
and that is called compassion
so when you lie to someone
what you do?
you steal him his free will see?
cause you expect him
to obey to you
and as you have doubts he won't
you use lies
and as is presented as truth
the person will agree while being ignorant
this is how lies
help you to bypass his free will
when i was seeking spirituality
i saw how i could be as muslim be slowed down
in my process to find truth
so i ask for guidance from God
to learn truth from non muslim base
cause you see i knew truth is not about religion
but about its very Essence
and religion was slowing me down
but if is undeniable that muslims / or any religious group
that you belong to
put loads of its conditioning on you
and slow down your enlightenment process
a non muslim / or non religious group
has the defect of having no more deep rooted ethics
they will do as their ass wants
the sacredness and nearness thingy
that you find in any religious group is lost
the behavior is just messy, and most of time based on lies
to bypass your free will
and make you adhere to it
that is just a non religious form of controlling
cause ANY being
be he enlightened or not
will at some point
wants to chiselled you to his image
and stomp the beauty of your sincere offering for that path
manipulation is used when you know you can't get it by saying truth
so you lie to bypass the other's free will
see?
Free will is to have the freedom to choose
but if facts presented to you are deformed so that you be more willing to believe in them
isn't it harming your free will?
it is.
so whatever happen
just know
that you can rely ONLY on your own soul
cause most women out of jealousy will not help you
and most men will only be interested for their ego for you to serve
so if you want freedom
just cease to seek a master out of you
cause they are all fake.
if you seek to seek one outside?
where you find mastery?
through your Master Within.
Sunday, 8 May 2016
Buddah India and DNA
i had visions just in the first minutes when i started meditation this morning
in the beginning, i saw a Budda sitting over branch of a tree under the night sky and behind him i saw a silver moon, very huge
the silver moon was really beautiful
and then i got another vision
so real
i saw as if i was in India and was visiting some poor quarters or so
and people there
though they were utterly poor
they were so generous cause they built a HUGE cup for me
a sort of vessel that can carry water
was hand made , like they had melted the metal to create it
and i could see thick nails planted in sort of metal ribbons decorating the huge vessel
actually it was so huge it could fill up the square or a market place
and i was surprised they made me that gift for me
while they were poor and had nothing for themselves
was really truly generous behavior
and in the third vision i saw the color blue and orange from DNA
then i saw these blue and orange bits of DNA exploding
and then i saw the energy going out of the body
and it is how it started to affect life around
i wondered if dna orange and blue color?
actuallty yes...to my surprise it is ..
cause DNA is based on 4 proteins chains 2 are orange..2 blue
the re-arrangement of them as adbc..creates the life dna..etc
in billion combinations
anyway..there are only 4 proteins in the dna
which are creating life
in different combinations..etc
of them 2 are blue..2 are orange like in my vision and when they exploded energies went out of it like light and it affected the atmospher around
the whole vision liberated a good feel...
had to blog it
Hellish realm
In last post was about witnessing
reincarnation from the Above, like from Heaven
that time i had since people who were stuck in hell
brrr...have goosebump so disgraceful it was
first of all their bodies were disgraceful
i think as a human being
we have a real Graceful body
so well balanced and really graceful
in there
i saw it was like midnight time
and the people stuck there
were trying HARD to get out of their realm
so in a way everyone tries hard
to get out of his condition
to get a better life
but trying hard
in the wrong way
leads to nowhere
is like you are stuck
and is really desperate situation
and that is hell
the guys i saw they had only
legs and their body ended up hardly on the navel
very little of backbone
and their legs were up
while trying very HARD to grow something
by pushing even more on their "what remained of their" belly
ah...what to say?
was disgraceful
and i saw so much effort but to no avail
was like sport club?
so much smelly by the men's effort
their body was so disgraceful
cause it was just half..
i just wanted to see no more of it
then i saw the female
and i saw they had their body
but their hellish level was due to the fact
they were so BAD behaved in groups among female..
and it reflects reality
the girls i knew in the yogi group
they were like schizo?
so well behave in their own company
and so bad mannered when in group
so badly using their power really
knew not that one had one behavior in group
and another when alone
that is to their disadvantage this backbiting in female group
brr.. really not good to see
and Spirit told me
that these men
were actually with their soul separated from the spirit
it made sense...
soul is in belly
which they had
but the higher part of their body was missing
which was where the spirit dwell
in the heart till its evolution on top of head
so yes was really sad to see how hard they were trying
and really to no avail
and again i say it
such a disgraceful body..
a human being should realise he has a really pretty
and graceful body as it is
then i saw and felt
well actually i lived it
how once one dies
it goes through the underword i saw
like central of earth
through an energy vortex actually
and pop OUT on the other side of the earth
through the vortex
and it is how it is an eternal cycle
while for the luckier it is so
for those who are stuck in hell
they are stuck for a long time
cause they can't like go out of it and reincarnate
so i realised that death is not like the end
is not like people who commit suicide
or even at time of dying think
in a glamorous way about another new life
while getting rid of their current life issues
no at all
is just worse actually
cause at least in this life you have your memory
and the blessing of a FULL graceful body
and if you are lucky your awakened kundalini to purify yourself
while knowing that even yogi can get stuck and become demon
as i witness it if they remain stuck in some realm once they die
cause what counts is your state when you die
on that very moment
the state of you when you die
is written in all scriptures
conditions the realm where you wake up
Monday, 18 April 2016
Feel of the Belly vs the mind habitual thinking
suddenly i realised
when i felt a vision of change in my belly
and i let myself feel it
just focused on it
without
by choice letting a simple "but"
or thoughts / mental activity
(cause it would have diverted me from my belly feel)
then i ALLOWED
myself to FEEL the change
and if i make space
for this change to be FELT
in the belly
then considered it as i won!
cause if i feel it
it means the soul recorded it feels good
so is in its cell memory
and thus it will DEFINITELY recognise the situation
to let my body on the given moment
REPRODUCE
this feeling of change
and now what was my feeling about?
was about a new world where the individual touch
and thus individuality of each single person
would be looked after and worth far much
than the value we give
to "luxury" brand names
cause luxury is sought after
just for its name
yet i saw traditional hand made products
far more efficient and communciating a warm and happy feel
and far much efficient
than "luxury" brand names
so yes about the belly
is all about letting once feel it
cause when during the feel
we lightly in an undisciplined manner
allow to be again drifted back by thoughts
thinking i have time to come back to the feel
then it is when the opportunity
of realisation is lost
cause the thought is the doubt
doubt of what?
i often never got that point of what is doubt
so now i got it:
the thought creates the DOUBT
about YES WE CAN
and it is not a slogan
it is WHAT your OWN belly
was inviting you to feel as "YES YOU CAN"
and so is ONLY by not letting yourself
being diverted by thoughts pattern
"ok let me see if is viable" or "but.."
then you LOSE the opportunity
to FEEL your belly
and lose the chance for your cells
which are emotional cells there see?
to record that ACCEPTANCE
and that acceptance of YES I CAN
is the ABSOLUTE certitude
that WHEN the situation arise
your body / soul actually
will RECOGNISE IT
and the belly
for is where soul is
having already recorded your feel
will ALLOW you
who are a machine just living on his cortex
which programmed to reproduce 98% of his daily activities
as a robot does
to be reprogrammed
by grasping the opportunity
and how so?
first by creating the space for you to SEE it
cause it breaks down your habitual functioning
which is based on habits, you get it!
once space is created in your robotic routine
it allows you to feel TOUCHED by the moment
(the present)
and once touched
third blessing is to NOT feel afraid to cross your limits
and is ONLY possible if NO fear (emotional) /NO doubt (in mental)
and WHO can obviously PREPARE YOU?
to have NO doubt and NO fear i.e. be emotionally ready for this new step?
that's it!
only your PREVIOUS FEEL that your BELLY showed you
and you stayed upon
with it
and thus was RECORDED
for you to NOW act on it
with no fear nor doubt
and thus allow yourself to enter into a new experience/world
so by shining you let other feel allowed to shine
(paraphrasing Marianne Williamson)
and that...when i think i got it
in a split of a second
while feeling my belly
when i was inhaling air...amazing God, isn't it?
plus these 3 blessings (creating space to see / to be touched by the present / to be able to act)
actually is what our everyday actions are about
what we call routine
INITIALLY it started so
but by LACK of faith
we got stuck/limited to it
what is now called a comfort zone
while initially man was created to be a creator
and not a robot
that is mind blowing essay
i just happened to write
isn't it?
hahahaha
Thursday, 14 April 2016
Amazing Morning
This morning was so magical
when i woke up
i felt deeply rested
the first thing i saw was a vision
that a huge white gift box
has been untied
and the golden lace fell
and i was within the box
i forgot the rest of the vision
but it was all agreeable
and then i saw my window
and i saw the sunrays entering
and how they were making
the white curtains luminous by filtering within
and from my bed
i could see the bright blue sky
and the birds chirping
that was an amazing morning
Difference between dream and vision
Difference between a dream and a vision
in dream there is one spot from which there is LIFE
in vision there is life from ALL direction
like in real life
except that in real life
you get so used to life
that you only see your OWN image
i.e. you only see ONE SPOT of life
and that is your mind
this is why all the rest
gets in the dark
and you are not (inter) connected to the rest
so what is ALREADY LIFE ALL AROUND
becomes just limited to ONE SPOT
that is your mind
and of course
as you know mind cannot encompass all these interconnections
as the heart can
Remember Who You are
So when i hear the words
in their cultural context
that as you belong to this culture
you need to learn how to "serve"
lol
as if people are teaching me
HOW I SHOULD LEARN TO BEHAVE
since WHEN i am to be TAUGHT as if i have some LACKING?
As if i WORTH IT NOT?
I WORTH IT SO MUCH
that they should be HAPPY that i can FIRST HAND
tell them HOW IT IS TO REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE
but people are SO STUCK in ONE IMAGE OF THEMSELVES
THAT ANY RELIGION OR WANNA BE SECT
wants to carve you into their images
but NOT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE
even those who are anti-conformist such as yogi
ended up being so conformist
how?
as Oscar Wild said through the "conformism of the anti-conformism"
they ended up becoming hindu!
born christian but giving themselves new ID of hindu
i understand now my friends
who laugh at zen buddhist american who change their name into a buddhist name
that is HOW YOU HAVE FOUND YOU ID?
not knowing that when you change your name
and uses two
you split your personality
and change your destiny
you actually LOSE POWER
even in islam is the tendency for new converts to take a more "muslim name"
and if the prophet muhammad was born in japan?
you would have taken a japanese name?
total joke!
idea is not to find a NEW ID in some OTHER culture
for ALL CULTURES WORTH IT
nor is to make puja and sacrifices to your OWN RELIGION
AIM is to use them as METHODS
TO REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE
AS I AM NOT WHAT THEY THINK I AM
they will never understand
Existence prior to my birth
The reincarnation vision
just made it clear for me
that i was free
with no parents
no mother nor father
i was I
so when i looked at the parents
mom and dad
i see where they are crossing their rights
they own me as long as i needed growth
bodily speaking
as long as my body needed
growth and shelter
and my mental needed a context for formation
so that it may continue its own growth
and emotions where to be put into their place
to teach me their "use"
that's it.
but then, once this part is over
is what i call over crossing their rights
cause once the body has matured
like a shell that needs to protect the inner seed
the shell gets dry and it falls
is a must
so that the seed
may receive waters from rain and its minerals
yet, the issue is in our society
we cling to the shell / our body
and retain it
while it needs to dry out and become dust
so that our real Self may grow and shine
so we don't live our Life as Self
we never gave ourselves this chance
we just cling to the shell who has dried out
and our identification
of parents' son and daughter
is very strong ID
i think we owe to parents the respect
when they gave us shelter and food
for our body to grow
and our mental/emotional self to have time to mature
but once this step is done
and in the light of my vision of reincarnation
i saw that I existed
prior to reincarnating
prior to choosing the continent where i will live
prior to having a mom and dad
In fact
I existed.
I existed prior to my parents
I existed prior to their influence
and I existed prior to any of their rights on me
this is what is
to exist prior to time
so they have
i.e. the continent i live in
or the nation
or the family
or the parents
NO SHARE in defining WHO I AM
cause I EXISTED PRIOR TO THEM
cause in the vision i was CONSCIOUS of my existence
prior to any other existence that i am NOW living
and that sets the limits of the shedding of your shell
which has had its time to grow mature and now is dying
to the growth of the inner Self
that has all the rights to EXIST BY ITSELF
and this is WHAT one has been told by ALL religions to REMEMBER
IS TO REMEMBER THAT YOU EXISTED PRIOR TO ALL THIS
Tuesday, 12 April 2016
Reincarnating on Earth
ahh, i am getting so lazy posting on this blog
have too much to do
but is important to record it all
so let's do it :
i had a vision
i saw i was in sort of a
space shuttle
and then the door
opened
and i saw the Earth
and randomly i picked
up a place
a continent
i was seeing America and Europe, Asia
i picked up one, as i was lacking time
and i was absorbed
there
was very
smooth! (fall)
smooth, like being
absorbed by sponge ... wool...
lol in real i could feel i could not get more absorbed in my matelas hahahaha!
Actually as my friend said
"that was an amazing vision, baby!
formidable.."
:)) hahaha baby
this english expression makes me laugh
cause i really feel like i am a baby in a craddle hehehe
so is like this..
here is the inspired interpretation :
of course from Spirit knowledge, not mine
i suck at dream interpretation on my own
about the dream meaning :
imagine you are the
awareness..or main emergence from the absolute..or the I AM
you see,,everything
,, from above..see?
like a space station
allegory?
ah.. it reminds me of Dr Who episode
you knew that it was all true?
well .. isn't it exciting?
coming back on earth
this vision is like the one of Richard Rose
he was on top of some mountain
and seeing people from above
and he could ,,become
anyone,, by ,,focusing attention on it,,
and i KNOW is true
cause before was same
when i focused on a flower
a seed
actually i WAS it
meaning i felt i was a seed germinating
i was in the grass
and i saw the grass
and i saw myself growing
and saw the sun rays warming up the ground
see?
practice
is what i have been told
we all have gifts
we need practice to develop them
well for me is the healing and that stuff how you call it?
to become what you focus on?
hahaha
i want to try this
need space and room for that in my schedule
so noted down
back to vision now
in other words..this
is the principle of ,,how,, the awareness by,,focusing,,...becomes
consciouness...and goes,,poof,, in the object ,, and gives it
life
and THAT is the principle of reincarnation
lol far from the myths
and far from the indian ideas or reincarnation
is just in absolute terms
simple as that
so i saw myself reincarnating
as an experience
cause later in dream
i was on this earth
and taking pictures of flowers
people were annoyed
that i was making them lose time
but flowers had such a beautiful color
they were shining
like an aura around each bunch of flowers
so bright and shining
lol again i say shining
so on earth i was experiencing people's frustration
and the "lack of time" fear etc
but when i was up there
as awareness i had no emotions
it was awareness
distance
and no emotions of fear etc
cause as spirit..or
pristine joy awareness...you have no fear
and
,,when there is focus
of attention..beware..that is the moment of creation..
indeed
as soon as i focused on earth
i "became" part of it
all makes sense ..
so the "fall" from heaven
is this allegory
you need to get "lost" on earth to experience Life from within
and
realization
is the way back ...
re,,uniting,, with this power of God..this awareness that is "up there"
to be one with it..or spirit..or awareness..or
bliss..or the true reality...
and who unites?
is the soul of course
so i saw in vision
how /why
reincarnation occurs..
so when i jumped
was soft as cotton wool
when i entered into the earth
it felt like going through a womb
actually
absorption (of attention) happens
,,because of my focus,,,..this creates consciousness or attention..also known as the soul
individuality
so...so when people saw vortex is actually the door of possibility of creation they are themselves creating by focusing their attention on that spot of earth
and they go
there..to experience new experiences..etc
as the attention digs, the vortex is created by its power
in the process..the
spirit becomes flesh..etc..animates the soul..creates the
environment etc
so this fall
this separation is essential!
unless it separates..it can't know itself..universe is based on
this tension..like electricity?..
that is life cycle reincarnations
and the way back home
is
the way back is
from consciousness becoming attention (top of head)/focus becoming intent (of spiritual cultivation) / and becoming
awareness back to before time ..
and that is called ... Realization
ps : i SEE you - from Avatar Movie song
Monday, 28 March 2016
Avatar the Movie
I just seen the movie AVATAR for the 3rd time..this time on tv..
Marvellous, Magic and so LIVELY
that is how Avatar the movie makes me feel
as any good book
a good movie
makes you feel alive, involved
as much as you would be the hero in it
jotting down what i love much
lol while writing this
the music Ave Maria has just started playing
well .. i loved the Forest MOST
just watching it
the light and COLORS
how it was shining
and responding to the human touch
a touch filled with presence of the consciousness
was sooo magical
and how they were flying in the air
on their ride?
was so magical, smooth
you could even feel
in the now
your own fear and limitation
and all of sudden
as the hero so switfly, smoothly and WHOLLY jump in emptiness
with not safety net lol ..
.. well, it makes you feel free
pushing your own limit
and wanting to do same
i think some plane jump
in parachute is on my way...
plus you can obviously guess and feel
the native people LOVE for their Forest
and it goes without saying that you guess
how Amerindians had such a deep wisdom
and how they were viewed by those they welcomed..
this part was very much heart breaking
i felt real sad to see the beautiful, pretty, all so colorful forest
under firing, ashes
and the so PRECIOUS OLD TREE falling down
but then i felt even more sad
to realise that is exactly what is happening every day
with the Amazonian Forest
and to a more refined level
how human being is so much cut from Nature
so much that in a documentary i saw how an interviewed american kid
had no clue that it was a tomatoe..
really he thought it was apple
anyway even if it sounds extrem
such cases exist
and in contrast
when i saw the movie
i felt so impatient
cause i said to myself
OBVIOUSLY there are such amazing gifts around
in nature
to be experienced
that we could develop
by communicating with nature
as only what you feed grows
if you feed conscious communication
with nature
then nature gives it back to you
you can see more beauty
more brighter colors
more health and healing
you can experience
a real new realm
in terms of way of life
is just that the industrial Epopée
has got its time of being experimented
and now
imagine how much more beautiful
it would be to be able to experiment with Nature?
the starts is always slow
as it becomes a new wave
and a part of our life as a mass
only when a certain quota of people start doing it
but still as life is short
i feel i am wasting time
instead of getting back in touch with nature
is very slow..
just i admit i am impatient
and also do not have so far any real teacher
with a real discipline through which i could say
YES ! i am going somewhere
but the part i love most
obviously was the forest
second, i loved the paradox
of the dream (the human being) meeting the reality (the avatar world)
imagine
like when the fiancé avatar enter into the cabin of the hero
isn't it paradoxical?
my mind got so upside down at this point
that i was saying
okay what is real and what is the dream?
cause the hero is the human guy
and its avatar his "dream" body
but slowly
the avatar body takes over/takes more importance
say...his consciousness got absorbed by it
and then
symbolically
when the avatar fiancé enters his cabin
and meet the human being
it hit me
that it is actually Reality (Avatar) meeting the dream (Human body/realm)
liek dream and reality merged...so beautifully mind blowing paradoxical...
was just so beautiful
very often this topic is tackled in the movie
like when i saw the avatar hero jumping down from the newly mastered Great Bird
lol i call it so , cause i forgot its name lol
then when i saw that i said
is so funny
only because he mastered the unmasterable Bird
that people are in awe
while before they hated him?
so in a way
i thought
people are always so superficial?
they can hate and love the same person
in a switch of a second?
which means they love a person ONLY for his achievement/honor/status that this honor gives?
but then
it hit me
no.. not only
here
if we know that all of our worth is within us
cause we ARE worthy
is just that people know it not
but if YOU YOURSELF you KNOW it
KNOW that you ARE worthy
then
what matter ?
you won't even think people are interested or superficial, see?
and among them
those who realise their , superficiality,
then you will ALSO see them
cause they will admit it...
as his fiancé did
while going towards him said
"i see You"
next
"i was afraid for my people"
see?
the lines on the spot hit me
cause they answered what i was wondering about
and the space is provided for the people
to admit their own superficiality
cause at times
we need signs to see
and the manifested , like the Sacred Bird
are just symbol for us to get reassured that this one is worthy
not that he was not before..
but only because we , ourselves, were doubtful
and we NEEDED this sign
cause we were blind ...not to see the other Spirit/Worth
as we were blinded by...fear
or jealousy like for the dude who was about to become chief of his tribe
but see? his envy subsided when he saw the Common Great Sign of the Sacred Bird
then he left go of his envy
and accepted the Obvious
and surrendered to his Glory
(again he was not surrendering to become a slave of someone else Glory...
but he surrendered to accepting that he found His Glory within ...
i think is what most people and religion
mix up
and end up "worshiping" some outside God
or some other persons Glory
instead of surrendering to the idea that the other TOO has its own Glory
cause he is the spirit as much as me within )
as she admitted it
because you can SEE the other
or in other word she could SEE him at last
ONLY because she had no more the fear
and the Bird/the sign her consciousness was acquainted with
allowed her to believe in the worth of the hero
so the manifested realm
is needed to bring OUT, make OBVIOUS
our own hidden worth
cause we ALL have this Worth within
but the manifested is NECESSARY
for people to be able to SEE
the manifested gives a SIGN/PROOF (ayah in arabic)
of the worth of the Spirit already within you obviously
and only by letting shine your worth
that you remove fear from others
so that from their blindness they comes into the sight/light
and can at last say
"i see You"
i guess is what the muslims should learn
learn to shine their own light
so that they may be removing the fear
that their name / group of consciousness is creating
as havoc into the hearts of others..
Marvellous script writer,
designer,
story line writer
and all the team of this movie production
i just hug you all..
Beautiful movie.
and my MOST preferred scene....obviously
is when the rebirth of the hero is taking place at the end
when he lies down
and transfer body
i loved everything
the touch of the body on the grass
the living grass enwrapping his body
imagine....all of this is quite real...
why you think you can't see it?
cause grass and nature respond as quickly as you ask
like in the movie
only if you have passed time giving such respect and attention to them?
we just need to switch our attention and respect from
artificial hierarchy in office
that consume so much of our energy
to the Nature itself really
and as we managed to experiment this Fast Society
with fast food and everything fast fast fast
i am NOT against it
cause for me it PROVES we can DO IT
now the only thing is
to switch it to the nature
the same pattern but re-directed re-wired to the nature
and you will
i am SURE
how fastly Nature will respond
cause is a living entity too..
is so beautiful
i feel so warm inside
anyway this movie
is just a master piece
and yea i loved
how the ceremony of rebirth started
you see all of them sitting on the grass
with their spine in contact with it
and their "hair" in contact and fusioning with the Mother Earth
was just a so naturally flowing movie
with so much intricate details
and such a nice touch
yes this too..striked me
the human touch
they were touching each other
all along the movie
was really warm feeling
that's a movie
that gives to the word Humanity
is True meaning...
Loved it..
and still do
as i got this message
in my tea bag today
"Life is a gift,
Experience is the beauty"
i feel is a timely message
and yet i feel so sad
cause i guess, feel it all
and agree wholly to it
but somehow..i can't even say i am on the High way to experiment Life
like in this Movie that i love so much
yet is the only movie
that i whole heartedly found that resonates with me..
while watching Avatar
instead of feeling blood running in my veins
i felt warm Love running in there
especially when it was said...
how many connection a tree had to other tree
which is superior to our own neuronal connection...
...so i let you imagine the possibilities...
just mind blowing love i felt for this
i really wish to experience that kind of new way of living
the rest is just dead boring now.
as this quote says
"The beauty of an exponentially-multiplying set of potential realities, collapsed into a singularity by our conscious decisions."
isn't it beautiful?
yea it just remind me the movie Interstellar now...
**sigh**
The Monkees Lyrics
"I'm A Believer"
"I'm A Believer"
I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me.
Love was out to get me
That's the way it seemed.
Disappointment haunted all my dreams.
Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.
I thought love was more or less a given thing,
Seems the more I gave the less I got.
What's the use in tryin'?
All you get is pain.
When I needed sunshine I got rain.
Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.
Meant for someone else but not for me.
Love was out to get me
That's the way it seemed.
Disappointment haunted all my dreams.
Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.
I thought love was more or less a given thing,
Seems the more I gave the less I got.
What's the use in tryin'?
All you get is pain.
When I needed sunshine I got rain.
Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.
source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/monkees/imabeliever.html
Tuesday, 22 March 2016
True Love
if i say i love you
to what i see
i am only saying it to my thoughts
so is empty
but if i first feel the object/the you
and then say
i love you
then this is true love
I love You
i don't say i love you
you, a second person/chakra,
which is existing in the field of my thought
but i say i love you
because first i felt you,
and if i can feel you
then you are in me,
then
when i say i love you,
i say it to myself
this is why there is no other
as there is only One
and that is Me
Beauty, make up, perfumes, luxury gifts...
Nowadays i am in LOVE with Beauty products
and am getting so many luxury gifts
and soooo girly
hehehe
4 years ago
had someone told me
i would be in Love with that
i would have NEVER believed it
do you know why?
is because your energy changes
and here is how i feel
when i see the package and the color
and the promise of the product
it feels like i am taking it in within me
the scent, the color, the promises,
the freshness, the energy born within the product
is just delicious food for the inner Beauty to blossom,
see?
before i would have classed this as being "superficial"
but when i was in uk
i was stricken by HOW attention was given
to the very moment to the very person
in front of you
when i met the sufi master
it made me curious
that i considered this life as superficial
and wanted the deepness
but he was giving the deepness to the very moment
by giving it his full attention
okay
don't think i am overall praising and am ALL for that guy
i just take the good i see from anyone and everywhere
that is the wisdom i learned from life
and this is how you enjoy
and truly respect Life
and are deep..
cause you give your full attention,
presence and thus respect to the Present/to It
and this is how
"superficiality" and "deepness" coexist
in the Very moment
cause you give to the passing thing
that is the present
the due attention to it
and learn to love it and enjoy it
by Feeling its color, its promises on the bottles of perfume
is actually you absorbing its labelling
this is why
don't get into the trap of taking side
by saying this is superficial
and this is deep
it is neither
it is Just the Moment
it is Present for you to enjoy it
so that you are enjoying the superficial
superficial in the sense that it is passing like the wind
and by being truly present
you become more connected to it
to the feel of it and thus to the feel of the Present
and you are colored by new colors
where superficiality and deepness coexist
are not differentiated
and they are one and the same
cause you are one with them
yet is impossible mind masturbation
to make deepness and superficiality
to coexist into your mind/thought/argumentation
it is just coexisting as one
when YOU decide to be one with the feel of the moment that each of them is giving
whether the moment take the face of what you call "superficial"
or whether it take the face of what you call "deep"
so these are just forms
what matters is
are you present with the form of the present moment
or are you opposing it and thus creating separation ?
so...when i receive these gifts
is like i am receiving a surprise from Life
which is waiting besides me
to see my excitation
while i am unwrapping it
and then i get back the Love
from such "inanimate" objects
AS MUCH AS
i LOVED them
by expecting them
by receiving them
by unwrapping them
so it is very much like saying
they send you back the love you send them in advance
Monday, 21 March 2016
the "You" in me and you
that is the second time it happened
but when i looked at someone
it felt like i was looking at myself
by then i could not tell why
cause obviously we don't have same face
plus not at all same gender hahaha
nor are we twins
yet i saw myself in him
how?
now i know
this happens
when the "you" i.e. your true nature (and not your thoughts)
sees the "you" of/in the other (his true nature too)
it is OBVIOUS
that when you see the "you" in the other
then you see your own self!
and that is why the true self is One
and that happens only
if you are deep and the other is deep too
or that you are deep enough on your own to see the other even if the other is NOT deep
hahaha
i am in the case number 1
the numbre 2 is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay harder for me to even imagine it
cause i am still superficial to get to the number 2
i guess i need serious A... S....?
:))
no kidding, i need serious longer meditation sessions
that's a very nice feeling
and very meaningful life moment
When you're alone and life is making you lonely
You can always go downtown
When you've got worries, all the noise and the hurry
Seems to help, I know, downtown
Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
No finer place for sure, downtown
Everything's waiting for you
Don't hang around and let your problems surround you
There are movie shows downtown
Maybe you know some little places to go to
Where they never close downtown
Just listen to the rhythm of a gentle bossa nova
You'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over
Happy again
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Where all the lights are bright, downtown
Waiting for you tonight, downtown
You're gonna be alright now, downtown
Downtown
Downtown
And you may find somebody kind to help and understand you
Someone who is just like you and needs a gentle hand to
Guide them along
So maybe I'll see you there
We can forget all our troubles, forget all our cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
Don't wait a minute more, downtown
Everything is waiting for you, downtown
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petulaclark/downtown.html
Monday, 29 February 2016
Thoughts Reading
LOL
i had bought some salmon for lunch with friends
and all of sudden i got a doubt
and said to her
"and don't give your salmon to the other one
(who also has its share)"
as soon as i said that
she flipped
and looked me and said
"how you knew?!!!
i JUST thought that..."
actually i said to her
i just got a huge doubt
while i was cooking
so i said it
and i understood also the stuff about thought reading
when i got a doubt
it meant as long as my idea was clear
"ok everyone gets its share"
i was ok and was MY thought
but as SOON as i got a doubt
like when you throw a stone in water
and it makes ripples
and image get less clear
then
i KNEW i had lost the clarity of thought
and that is what doubt is about
and second
it shows that i was not per say
"reading thoughts"
but i read thought
in the sense
that mine got affected
by hers
and as long as you are "above"
others
then you can "read" their thoughts
and those who "read thoughts"
actually can
differentiate
their thoughts from the others
cause you have to protect yourself
from being influenced by other people thoughts
and think these are yours
your true nature
per say
is YOU
and when we get used to identifying with thoughts
we are actually being controlled by people...
cause these thoughts are not yours
but theirs
see?
is like sun above clouds
sun can see them
likewise
i could see her thought
cause the true self is above thoughts
so yea we all ended up
eating salmon
and not a too nice friend
scarifying hers to another lol
though i look forward
at actually "reading thoughts"
kiss:x
Sunday, 28 February 2016
Why Past makes us smile
you know why we smile
when we remember something of the past
like when you find some old letter
or visit a place of your youth?
you smile unconsciously
because unconsciously you know
that you and that other energy which is present
and you were communicating with by then
in the form of your parents or some other person
actually you were in disagreement with and much more
you were opposed to it
and you were rejecting it or neglecting it
to move forward
so you were just oblivious to your Present
and you can see yourself very much daring
while all was already Present
so being in the present/ce of that place of your childhood
you see the/your past
and especially your oblivion to your by-then-present moment
that is why you smile
and that is why
often you were told when kid
later when time pass this will make you laugh
while by then was nothing but annoyance or obstacle
and yet it is like a script
is not like you could act wise
you were living your experience to learn about life
Matter and Anti- Matter
yesterday night
i saw orbs of light
light bubbles raising up
like a rain of light bubbles
but raising up yea
i saw it a few times
while i was sitting in my couch
was pretty
this morning when i woke up
for meditation
while i was getting ready for it
it was said through images
i mean as images were telling it
i saw a rope
was said this is rope of God
you see as mentioned in hadith in islam
to "hold to rope of God"
and i saw it rolling itself
on the place of pain in body
it is like a balm
it rolls on it to sooth the pain
so i saw it was circling itself
over and over the chakra itself
(that is of course the kundalini rolling up
on the chakra to heal it)
then it was said
that when power goes through
it acts powerfully
so much that i thought
it might affects hugely the world
once it is switched on
cause the rope has curled itself many times
on the chakra
so once switched on
it would exerce HUGE power out
if the power switched on
cause it said
it works like the Switzerland anti matter circuit
and it is indeed The anti-matter
so once it is switched on
it acts like a reverse magnet
and got the 'matter'out
(by the way
i love the english for its meaning
matter as in issue/pain
and matter as in material)
so thanks to its HUGE magnet effect
switched on when powers goes in
it throws out the "matter"
and this is its anti-matter effect
then,
you are pure
cause you are your own true face
or fabric
without the thorns
cause the matter
are like splinters/thorns
and they get stuck into this rope
hence you feel the pain
is a bit like your skin
you feel pain when you got pimples
cause they are taking space that is not theirs
and as your skin has already the perfect space for itself
an extra piece of skin even of one millimeter
which is in other word the pimple
squeezes your "fabric" too much and you feel pain
is same with the matter
it acts like thorn when it gets stuck
into that rope
and it gives pain
so then when you press that rope
like when you press a button
to switch on the power
the power
acts like a magnet
which radiates a sort of electro-magnetism
and it sheds off the thorns/matters shards
and it acts like a HUGE anti matter
and then
you are your true self
and you are free from pain
you are free
Lyrics : Plus prés des étoiles - Gold
Closer to stars - Gold
for lyrics they are obviously in French
but remember Google is your Friend ;)
Ils ont quitté leurs terres
Leurs champs de fleurs
Et leurs livres sacrés
Traversés les rizières
Jusqu'au grand fleuve salé
Sans amour, sans un cri
Ils ont fermé leurs visages de miel
Les yeux mouillés de pluie
Les mains tendues vers le ciel
Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant
Au pied des murs de pierres
Ils ont brûlé leurs dragons de papier
Refermés leurs paupières
Sur les chenilles d'acier
Eux qui croyaient vieillir
En regardant grandir leurs enfants
A l'ombre du sourire
Des Bouddhas de marbre blanc
Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant
Ils parlent à demi-mots
A mi-chemin entre la vie et la mort
Et dans leurs yeux mi-clos
Le soleil, le soleil brille encore
Une île de lumière
Un cerf volant s'est posé sur la mer
Un vent de liberté
Trop loin, trop loin pour les emporter
Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant
Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant
source : http://www.paroles.net/gold/paroles-plus-pres-des-etoiles
Friday, 26 February 2016
Finger of God
ok i was trying over the past few days
to wake up at same time
meaning not 30min or 1h after
just same time
so today
i was like half asleep
and i did my cycle and trying to meditate
while still lying down
lol ridiculous
anyway
as i got a vision
i saw that there was a huge shiva
yea bit blue color body
and he was pointing his index towards my head
a bit like in this fresco painting of Adam Creation
by MichaelAngelo
Actually in the vision
i was trying to adjust my forehead
to the poiting of the finger
to be sure
that light goes through it
and like this i would get total enlightenment
and mind would become luminous
by the way writing it
luminous
is more like CLARITY in mind
it just make more sense to say it
is a bit like usually most of mind is clouded
and you jsut need light enough
so that it be lit fully
and you just see things at hand/in the present
then
of course i woke up
to do the walking meditation
followed by the sitting one
but yeaa
was tempted to stay in the bed
just to see the rest of the vision
ps : neeeeeeeeeeeed my arabicaaaaaa!!!
Intuition
is only by confronting myself
to new situation and people
that i realised new changes
which took place in me
in terms of perception
and use of say "power"
for everyone is like a seed
and thus EVERYONE has powers
or call it skills manifested
once it has germinated.
the new stuff i saw
is that when i looked at stuff
i kind of see the energy or aura?
around it like a halo?
and this is how i know
that i can grab it or not
also in terms of intuition
it got sharper
and difference is NOW
i can ON THE SPOT
decide ACCORDING to it
before i was like asleep
i could feel intuition
and yet not have the will to follow it
was very much observer of my own life
thinking i can't change it
stuff are as they are
now the intuition is being acted upon
spontaneously
on the spot
so the present moment is being caught
if i can express it so
third
i astonishes myself
by the new changes in my look and life style
is like i can see myself going through phases
of self care
stuff that i had never really paid attention to before
is like i am following a scenario
specially written for me
to act in a movie
and it looks normally flowing
is not like i have to "think"
as to what next i should do
yes definitely i don't recognise myself :)))
yet
is very much agreeable
because i am in self discovery adventure
kiss kiss
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