Mastery

spirituality is a dangerous place to be
cause never i saw ANYONE give something
for the sake of God

always some retribution is demanded
one way or another
be SURE it will be demanded

some ask for sex
others for money
others for both lol

stuff is i know myself
when i help someone i do it from my own inner generosity
and that is called compassion

so when you lie to someone
what you do?
you steal him his free will see?

cause you expect him
to obey to you
and as you have doubts he won't
you use lies
and as is presented as truth
the person will agree while being ignorant

this is how lies
help you to bypass his free will

when i was seeking spirituality
i saw how i could be as muslim be slowed down
in my process to find truth

so i ask for guidance from God
to learn truth from non muslim base
cause you see i knew truth is not about religion
but about its very Essence

and religion was slowing me down

but if is undeniable that muslims / or any religious group
that you belong to
put loads of its conditioning on you
and slow down your enlightenment process

a non muslim / or non religious group
has the defect of having no more deep rooted ethics
they will do as their ass wants

the sacredness and nearness thingy
that you find in any religious group is lost
the behavior is just messy, and most of time based on lies
to bypass your free will
and make you adhere to it

that is just a non religious form of controlling

cause ANY being
be he enlightened or not

will at some point
wants to chiselled you to his image
and stomp the beauty of your sincere offering for that path

manipulation is used when you know you can't get it by saying truth
so you lie to bypass the other's free will

see?
Free will is to have the freedom to choose
but if facts presented to you are deformed so that you be more willing to believe in them
isn't it harming your free will?

it is.
so whatever happen
just know

that you can rely ONLY on your own soul

cause most women out of jealousy will not help you
and most men will only be interested for their ego for you to serve
so if you want freedom
just cease to seek a master out of you
cause they are all fake.

if you seek to seek one outside?
where you find mastery?
through your Master Within.

Buddah India and DNA

i had visions just in the first minutes when i started meditation this morning

in the beginning, i saw a Budda sitting over branch of a tree under the night sky and behind him i saw a silver moon, very huge
the silver moon was really beautiful

and then i got another vision
so real
i saw as if i was in India and was visiting some poor quarters or so
and people there
though they were utterly poor
they were so generous cause they built a HUGE cup for me
a sort of vessel that can carry water
was hand made , like they had melted the metal to create it
and i could see thick nails planted in sort of metal ribbons decorating the huge vessel
actually it was so huge it could fill up the square or a market place

and i was surprised they made me that gift for me
while they were poor and had nothing for themselves
was really truly generous behavior 


and in the third vision i saw the color blue and orange from DNA
then i saw these blue and orange bits of DNA exploding


and then i saw the energy going out of the body
and it is how it started to affect life around
 
 
i wondered if  dna orange and blue color?
actuallty yes...to my surprise it is ..

cause DNA is based on 4 proteins chains 2 are orange..2 blue
the re-arrangement of them as adbc..creates the life dna..etc
in billion combinations

anyway..there are only 4 proteins in the dna
which are creating life
in different combinations..etc
of them 2 are blue..2 are orange like in my vision and when they exploded energies went out of it like light  and it affected the atmospher around

the whole vision liberated a good feel...

had to blog it

Hellish realm

In last post was about witnessing
reincarnation from the Above, like from Heaven

that time i had since people who were stuck in hell
brrr...have goosebump so disgraceful it was

first of all their bodies were disgraceful

i think as a human being
we have a real Graceful body
so well balanced and really graceful

in there
i saw it was like midnight time
and the people stuck there
were trying HARD to get out of their realm

so in a way everyone tries hard
to get out of his condition
to get a better life

but trying hard
in the wrong way
leads to nowhere
is like you are stuck
and is really desperate situation

and that is hell

the guys i saw they had only
legs and their body ended up hardly on the navel
very little of backbone

and their legs were up
while trying very HARD to grow something
by pushing even more on their "what remained of their" belly

ah...what to say?
was disgraceful
and i saw so much effort but to no avail

was like sport club?
so much smelly by the men's effort

their body was so disgraceful
cause it was just half..

i just wanted to see no more of it

then i saw the  female
and i saw they had their body
but their hellish level was due to the fact
they were so BAD behaved in groups among female..

and it reflects reality
the girls i knew in the yogi group
they were like schizo?
so well behave in their own company
and so bad mannered when in group
so badly using their power really

knew not that one had one behavior in group
and another when alone
that is to their disadvantage this backbiting in female group
brr.. really not good to see

and Spirit told me
that these men
were actually with their soul separated from the spirit

it made sense...

soul is in belly
which they had
but the higher part of their body was missing
which was where the spirit dwell
in the heart till its evolution on top of head

so yes was really sad to see how hard they were trying

and really to no avail
and again i say it
such a disgraceful body..

a human being should realise he has a really pretty
and graceful body as it is

then i saw and felt
well actually i lived it
how once one dies
it goes through the underword i saw
like central of earth
through an energy vortex actually
and pop OUT on the other side of the earth
through the vortex

and it is how it is an eternal cycle
while for the luckier it is so
for those who are stuck in hell
they are stuck for a long time
cause they can't like go out of it and reincarnate

so i realised that death is not like the end
is not like people who commit suicide
or even at time of dying think
in a glamorous way about another new life
while getting rid of their current life issues
no at all
is just worse actually

cause at least in this life you have your memory
and the blessing of a FULL graceful body
and if you are lucky your awakened kundalini to purify yourself

while knowing that even yogi can get stuck and become demon
as i witness it if they remain stuck in some realm once they die
cause what counts is your state when you die
on that very moment

the state of you when you die
is written in all scriptures
conditions the realm where you wake up

Feel of the Belly vs the mind habitual thinking

suddenly i realised
when i felt a vision of change in my belly
and i let myself feel it
just focused on it

without
by choice letting a simple "but"
or thoughts / mental activity
(cause it would have diverted me from my belly feel)

then i ALLOWED
myself to FEEL the change

and if i make space
for this change to be FELT
in the belly

then considered it as i won!

cause if i feel it
it means the soul recorded it feels good
so is in its cell memory
and thus it will DEFINITELY recognise the situation
to let my body on the given moment
REPRODUCE
this feeling of change

and now what was my feeling about?
was about a new world where the individual touch
and thus individuality of each single person
would be looked after and worth far much

than the value we give
to "luxury" brand names

cause luxury is sought after
just for its name

yet i saw traditional hand made products
far more efficient and communciating a warm and happy feel
and far much efficient
than "luxury" brand names

so yes about the belly
is all about letting once feel it
cause when during the feel
we lightly in an undisciplined manner
allow to be again drifted back by thoughts
thinking i  have time to come back to the feel

then it is when the opportunity
of realisation is lost

cause the thought is the doubt
doubt of what?
i often never got that point of what is doubt

so now i got it:
the thought creates the  DOUBT
about YES WE CAN
and it is not a slogan

it is WHAT your OWN belly
was inviting you to feel as "YES YOU CAN"

and so is ONLY by not letting yourself
being diverted by thoughts pattern
"ok let me see if is viable" or "but.."

then you LOSE the opportunity
to FEEL your belly
and lose the chance for your cells
which are emotional cells there see?
to record that ACCEPTANCE
and that acceptance of YES I CAN
is the ABSOLUTE certitude

that WHEN the situation arise
your body / soul actually
will RECOGNISE IT

and the belly
for is where soul is
having already recorded your feel
will ALLOW you
who are a machine just living on his cortex
which programmed to reproduce 98% of his daily activities
as a robot does
to be reprogrammed
by grasping the opportunity

and how so?
first by creating the space for you to SEE it
cause it breaks down your habitual functioning
which is based on habits, you get it!

once space is created in your robotic routine
it allows you to feel TOUCHED by the moment
(the present)

and once touched
third blessing is to NOT feel afraid to cross your limits
and is ONLY possible if NO fear (emotional) /NO doubt (in mental)

and WHO can obviously PREPARE YOU?
to have NO doubt and NO fear i.e. be emotionally ready for this new step?

that's it!
only your PREVIOUS FEEL that your BELLY showed you
and you stayed upon
with it
and thus was RECORDED

for you to NOW act on it
with no fear nor doubt

and thus allow yourself to enter into a new experience/world
so by shining you let other feel allowed to shine
(paraphrasing Marianne Williamson)

and that...when i think i got it
in a split of a second
while feeling my belly
when i was inhaling air...amazing God, isn't it?

plus these 3 blessings (creating space to see / to be touched by the present / to be able to act)
actually is what our everyday actions are about
what we call routine
INITIALLY it started so

but by LACK of faith
we got stuck/limited to it
what is now called a comfort zone

while initially man was created to be a creator
and not a robot

that is mind blowing essay
i just happened to write
isn't it?
hahahaha

Amazing Morning

This morning was so magical

when i woke up
i felt deeply rested
the first thing i saw was a vision

that a huge white gift box
has been untied
and the golden lace fell

and i was within the box

i forgot the rest of the vision
but it  was all agreeable

and then i saw my window
and i saw the sunrays entering
and how they were making
the white curtains luminous by filtering within

and from my bed
i could see the bright blue sky
and the birds chirping

that was an amazing morning

Difference between dream and vision

Difference between a dream and a vision

in dream there is one spot from which there is LIFE

in vision there is life from ALL direction
like in real life

except that in real life
you get so used to life
that you only see your OWN image
i.e. you only see ONE SPOT of life
and that is your mind

this is why all the rest
gets in the dark
and you are not (inter) connected to the rest

so what is ALREADY LIFE ALL AROUND
becomes just limited to ONE SPOT
that is your mind

and of course
as you know mind cannot encompass all these interconnections
as the heart can

Remember Who You are

So when i hear the words
in their cultural context
that as you belong to this culture
you need to learn how to "serve"

lol

as if people are teaching me
HOW I SHOULD LEARN TO BEHAVE

since WHEN i am to be TAUGHT as if i have some LACKING?
As if i WORTH IT NOT?

I WORTH IT SO MUCH
that they should be HAPPY that i can FIRST HAND
tell them HOW IT IS TO REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE

but people are SO STUCK in ONE IMAGE OF THEMSELVES
THAT ANY RELIGION OR WANNA BE SECT
wants to carve you into their images
but NOT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE

even those who are anti-conformist such as yogi
ended up being so conformist
how?

as Oscar Wild said through the "conformism of the anti-conformism"

they ended up becoming hindu!
born christian but giving themselves new ID of hindu
i understand now my friends
who laugh at zen buddhist american who change their name into a buddhist name

that is HOW YOU HAVE FOUND YOU ID?

not knowing that when you change your name
and uses two
you split your personality
and change your destiny
you actually LOSE POWER

even in islam is the tendency for new converts to take a more "muslim name"

and if the prophet muhammad was born in japan?
you would have taken a japanese name?
total joke!

idea is not to find a NEW ID in some OTHER culture
for ALL CULTURES WORTH IT

nor is to make puja and sacrifices to your OWN RELIGION

AIM is to use them as METHODS
TO REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE

AS I AM NOT WHAT THEY THINK I AM
they will never understand

Existence prior to my birth

The reincarnation vision
just made it clear for me

that i was free
with no parents
no mother nor father
i was I

so when i looked at the parents
mom and dad

i see where they are crossing their rights
they own me as long as i needed growth
bodily speaking

as long as my body needed
growth and shelter
and my mental needed a context for formation
so that it may continue its own growth

and emotions where to be put into their place
to teach me their "use"

that's it.

but then, once this part is over
is what i call over crossing their rights

cause once the body has matured
like a shell that needs to protect the inner seed
the shell gets dry and it falls

is a must
so that the seed
may receive waters from rain and its minerals

yet, the issue is in our society
we cling to the shell / our body
and retain it
while it needs to dry out and become dust

so that our real Self may grow and shine

so we don't live our Life as Self
we never gave ourselves this chance
we just cling to the shell who has dried out

and our identification
of parents' son and daughter
is very strong ID

i think we owe to parents the respect
when they gave us shelter and food
for our body to grow
and our mental/emotional self to have time to mature

but once this step is done
and in the light of my vision of reincarnation

i saw that I existed
prior to reincarnating
prior to choosing the continent where i will live
prior to having a mom and dad

In fact
I existed.

I existed prior to my parents
I existed prior to their influence
and I existed prior to any of their rights on me

this is what is
to exist prior to time

so they have
i.e. the continent i live in
or the nation
or the family
or the parents

NO SHARE in defining WHO I AM

cause I EXISTED PRIOR TO THEM
cause in the vision i was CONSCIOUS of my existence
prior to any other existence that i am NOW living

and that sets the limits of the shedding of your shell
which has had its time to grow mature and now is dying

to the growth of the inner Self
that has all the rights to EXIST BY ITSELF

and this is WHAT one has been told by ALL religions to REMEMBER
IS TO REMEMBER THAT YOU EXISTED PRIOR TO ALL THIS 

Reincarnating on Earth

ahh, i am getting so lazy posting on this blog
have too much to do
but is important to record it all

so let's do it :

i had a vision

i saw i was in sort of a  space shuttle 

and then the door opened

and i saw the Earth

and randomly i picked up a place

a continent

i was seeing America and Europe, Asia 

i picked up one, as i was lacking time 

and i was absorbed there

was very smooth! (fall)

smooth, like being absorbed by sponge ... wool... 

lol in real i could feel i could not get more absorbed in my matelas hahahaha!

Actually as my friend said

"that was an amazing vision, baby!

formidable.."

:)) hahaha baby

this english expression makes me laugh

cause i really feel like i am a baby in a craddle hehehe

so is like this..

here is the inspired interpretation :

of course from Spirit knowledge, not mine

i suck at dream interpretation on my own

about the dream meaning :

imagine you are the awareness..or main emergence from the absolute..or the I AM

you see,,everything ,, from above..see?

like a space station allegory?

ah.. it reminds me of Dr Who episode

you knew that it was all true?

well .. isn't it exciting? 

coming back on earth 

this vision is like the one of Richard Rose 

he was on top of some mountain

and seeing people from above

and he could ,,become anyone,, by ,,focusing attention on it,,

and i KNOW is true

cause before was same

when i focused on a flower

a seed

actually i WAS it 

meaning i felt i was a seed germinating 

i was in the grass

and i saw the grass 

and i saw myself growing

and saw the sun rays warming up the ground

see?

practice

is what i have been told

we all have gifts

we need practice to develop them

well for me is the healing and that stuff how you call it?

to become what you focus on?

hahaha  

i want to try this 

need space and room for that in my schedule

so noted down 

back to vision now

in other words..this is the principle of ,,how,, the awareness by,,focusing,,...becomes consciouness...and goes,,poof,, in the object ,, and gives it life

and THAT is the principle of reincarnation

lol far from the myths 

and far from the indian ideas or reincarnation 

is just in absolute terms

simple as that

so i saw myself reincarnating 

as an experience 

cause later in dream

i was on this earth

and taking pictures of flowers

people were annoyed 

that i was making them lose time

but flowers had such a beautiful color 

they were shining

like an aura around each bunch of flowers

so bright and shining 

lol again i say shining

so on earth i was experiencing people's frustration

and the "lack of time" fear etc

but when i was up there

as awareness i had no emotions

it was awareness 

distance 

and no emotions of fear etc

cause as spirit..or pristine joy awareness...you have no fear

 and 

,,when there is focus of attention..beware..that is the moment of creation.. 

indeed

as soon as i focused on earth

i "became" part of it

all makes sense ..

so the "fall" from heaven

is this allegory

you need to get "lost" on earth to experience Life from within

and 

realization is the way back ...

re,,uniting,, with this power of God..this awareness that is "up there" 

to be one with it..or spirit..or awareness..or bliss..or the true reality...

and who unites?

is the soul of course

 

so i saw in vision

how /why reincarnation occurs..

so when i jumped

was soft as cotton wool when i entered into the earth 

it felt like going through a womb

actually

absorption (of attention) happens ,,because of my focus,,,..this creates consciousness or attention..also known as the soul individuality

so...so when people saw vortex is actually the door of possibility of creation they are themselves creating by focusing their attention on that spot of earth

and they go there..to experience new experiences..etc

as the attention digs, the vortex is created by its power

in the process..the spirit becomes flesh..etc..animates the soul..creates the environment etc

so this fall 

this separation is essential!

unless it separates..it can't know itself..universe is based on this tension..like electricity?.. 

 

that is life cycle reincarnations 

and the way back home 

is 

the way back is from consciousness becoming attention (top of head)/focus becoming intent (of spiritual cultivation) / and becoming awareness back to before time ..

and that is called ... Realization

ps : i SEE you - from Avatar Movie song

Avatar the Movie

I just seen the movie AVATAR for the 3rd time..this time on tv..


Marvellous, Magic and so LIVELY

that is how Avatar the movie makes me feel
as any good book
a good movie
makes you feel alive, involved
as much as you would be the hero in it

jotting down what i love much

lol while writing this
the music Ave Maria has just started playing

well .. i loved the Forest MOST
just watching it
the light and COLORS
how it was shining
and responding to the human touch
a touch filled with presence of the consciousness

was sooo magical

and how they were flying in the air
on their ride?
was so magical, smooth


you could even feel
in the now
your own fear and limitation
and all of sudden
as the hero so switfly, smoothly and WHOLLY jump in emptiness
with not safety net lol ..

.. well, it makes you feel free
pushing your own limit
and wanting to do same

i think some plane jump
in parachute is on my way...

plus you can obviously guess and feel
the native people LOVE for their Forest
and it goes without saying that you guess
how Amerindians had such a deep wisdom
and how they were viewed by those they welcomed..

this part was very much heart breaking

i felt real sad to see the beautiful, pretty, all so colorful forest
under firing, ashes
and the so PRECIOUS OLD TREE falling down

but then i felt even more sad
to realise that is exactly what is happening every day
with the Amazonian Forest

and to a more refined level
how human being is so much cut from Nature
so much that in a documentary i saw how an interviewed american kid
had no clue that it was a tomatoe..

really he thought it was apple

anyway even if it sounds extrem
such cases exist
and in contrast

when i saw the movie
i felt so impatient
cause i said to myself
OBVIOUSLY there are such amazing gifts around
in nature
to be experienced

that we could develop
by communicating with nature

as only what you feed grows
if you feed conscious communication
with nature
then nature gives it back to you

you can see more beauty
more brighter colors
more health and healing

you can experience
a real new realm
in terms of way of life

is just that the industrial Epopée
has got its time of being experimented

and now
imagine how much more beautiful
it would be to be able to experiment with Nature?

the starts is always slow
as it becomes a new wave
and a part of our life as a mass
only when a certain quota of people start doing it

but still as life is short
i feel i am wasting time
instead of getting back in touch with nature

is very slow..

just i admit i am impatient
and also do not have so far any real teacher
with a real discipline through which i could say

YES ! i am going somewhere

but the part i love most
obviously was the forest

second, i loved the paradox

of the dream (the human being) meeting the reality (the avatar world)

imagine
like when the fiancé avatar enter into the cabin of the hero
isn't it paradoxical?

my mind got so upside down at this point
that i was saying
okay what is real and what is the dream?

cause the hero is the human guy
and its avatar his "dream" body

but slowly
the avatar body takes over/takes more importance
say...his consciousness got absorbed by it
and then

symbolically
when the avatar fiancé enters his cabin
and meet the human being

it hit me
that it is actually Reality (Avatar) meeting the dream (Human body/realm)
liek dream and reality merged...so beautifully mind blowing paradoxical...

was just so beautiful

very often this topic is tackled in the movie

like when i saw the avatar hero jumping down from the newly mastered Great Bird
lol i call it so , cause i forgot its name lol

then when i saw that i said
is so funny
only because he mastered the unmasterable Bird

that people are in awe
while before they hated him?

so in a way
i thought
people are always so superficial?
they can hate and love the same person
in a switch of a second?

which means they love a person ONLY for his achievement/honor/status that this honor gives?

but then
it hit me
no.. not only

here
if we know that all of our worth is within us
cause we ARE worthy

is just that people know it not
but if YOU YOURSELF you KNOW it
KNOW that you ARE worthy

then
what matter ?
you won't even think people are interested or superficial, see?

and among them
those who realise their , superficiality,
then you will ALSO see them

cause they will admit it...

as his fiancé did
while going towards him said

"i see You"
next
"i was afraid for my people"

see?

the lines on the spot hit me
cause they answered what i was wondering about

and the space is provided for the people
to admit their own superficiality

cause at times
we need signs to see
and the manifested , like the Sacred Bird
are just symbol for us to get reassured that this one is worthy

not that he was not before..
but only because we , ourselves, were doubtful
and we NEEDED this sign

cause we were blind ...not to see the other Spirit/Worth
as we were blinded by...fear
or jealousy like for the dude who was about to become chief of his tribe
but see? his envy subsided when he saw the Common Great Sign of the Sacred Bird
then he left go of his envy
and accepted the Obvious
and surrendered to his Glory

(again he was not surrendering to become a slave of someone else Glory...
but he surrendered to accepting that he found His Glory within ...

i think is what most people and religion
mix up
and end up "worshiping" some outside God
or some other persons Glory
instead of surrendering to the idea that the other TOO has its own Glory

cause he is the spirit as much as me within )


as she admitted it

because you can SEE the other
or in other word she could SEE him at last
ONLY because she had no more the fear
and the Bird/the sign her consciousness was acquainted with
allowed her to believe in the worth of the hero

so the manifested realm
is needed to bring OUT, make OBVIOUS
our own hidden worth

cause we ALL have this Worth within

but the manifested is NECESSARY

for people to be able to SEE

the manifested gives a SIGN/PROOF (ayah in arabic)
of the worth of the Spirit already within you obviously

and only by letting shine your worth
that you remove fear from others
so that from their blindness they comes into the sight/light

and can at last say
"i see You"

i guess is what the muslims should learn
learn to shine their own light
so that they may be removing the fear
that their name / group of consciousness is creating
as havoc into the hearts of others..

Marvellous script writer,
designer,
story line writer
and all the team of this movie production
i just hug you all..

Beautiful movie.

and my MOST  preferred scene....obviously
is when the rebirth of the hero is taking place at the end
when he lies down
and transfer body

i loved everything
the touch of the body on the grass
the living grass enwrapping his body
imagine....all of this is quite real...

why you think you can't see it?
cause grass and nature respond as quickly as you ask
like in the movie
only if you have passed time giving such respect and attention to them?

we just need to switch our attention and respect from
artificial hierarchy in office
that consume so much of our energy
to the Nature itself really

and as we managed to experiment this Fast Society
with fast food and everything  fast fast fast
i am NOT against it
cause for me it PROVES we can DO IT

now the only thing is
to switch it to the nature
the same pattern but re-directed re-wired to the nature

and you will
i am SURE
how fastly Nature will respond
cause is a living entity too..

is so beautiful
i feel so warm inside

anyway this movie
is just a master piece

and yea i loved
how the ceremony of rebirth started
you see all of them sitting on the grass
with their spine in contact with it
and their "hair" in contact and fusioning with the Mother Earth
was just a so naturally flowing movie

with so much intricate details
and such a nice touch

yes this too..striked me
the human touch
they were touching each other
all along the movie
was really warm feeling

that's a movie
that gives to the word Humanity
is True meaning...

Loved it..
and still do

as i got this message
in my tea bag today

"Life is a gift,
Experience is the beauty"

i feel is a timely message
and yet i feel so sad
cause i guess, feel it all
and agree wholly to it

but somehow..i can't even say i am on the High way to experiment Life
like in this Movie that i love so much

yet is the only movie
that i whole heartedly found that resonates with me..

while watching Avatar
instead of feeling blood running in my veins
i felt warm Love running in there

especially when it was said...
how many connection a tree had to other tree
which is superior to our own neuronal connection...

...so i let you imagine the possibilities...

just mind blowing love i felt for this
i really wish to experience that kind of new way of living

the rest is just dead boring now.

as this quote says

"The beauty of an exponentially-multiplying set of potential realities, collapsed into a singularity by our conscious decisions."

isn't it beautiful?

yea it just remind me the movie Interstellar now...
**sigh**

The Monkees Lyrics

"I'm A Believer"

I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me.
Love was out to get me
That's the way it seemed.
Disappointment haunted all my dreams.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

I thought love was more or less a given thing,
Seems the more I gave the less I got.
What's the use in tryin'?
All you get is pain.
When I needed sunshine I got rain.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/monkees/imabeliever.html

True Love

if i say i love you
to what i see
i am only saying it to my thoughts
so is empty

but if i first feel the object/the you
and then say
i love you
then this is true love

I love You

i don't say i love you
you, a second person/chakra,
which is existing in the field of my thought

but i say i love you
because first i felt you,

and if i can feel you
then you are in me,

then
when i say i love you,
i say it to myself

this is why there is no other
as there is only One
and that is Me

Beauty, make up, perfumes, luxury gifts...

Nowadays i am in LOVE with Beauty products
and am getting so many luxury gifts
and soooo girly

hehehe

4 years ago
had someone told me
i would be in Love with that

i would have NEVER believed it

do you know why?

is because your energy changes

and here is how i feel

when i see the package and the color
and the promise of the product
it feels like i am taking it in within me
the scent, the color, the promises,
the freshness, the energy born within the product

is just delicious food for the inner Beauty to blossom,
see?

before i would have classed this as being "superficial"

but when i was in uk
i was stricken by HOW attention was given
to the very moment to the very person
in front of you
when i met the sufi master

it made me curious

that i considered this life as superficial
and wanted the deepness

but he was giving the deepness to the very moment
by giving it his full attention

okay
don't think i am overall praising and am ALL for that guy
i just take the good i see from anyone and everywhere
that is the wisdom i learned from life

and this is how you enjoy
and truly respect Life
and are deep..

cause you give your full attention,
presence and thus respect to the Present/to It

and this is how
"superficiality" and "deepness" coexist
in the Very moment

cause you give to the passing thing
that is the present
the due attention to it
and learn to love it and enjoy it
by Feeling its color, its promises on the bottles of perfume
is actually you absorbing its labelling

this is why
don't get into the trap of taking side
by saying this is superficial
and this is deep

it is neither

it is Just the Moment
it is Present for you to enjoy it
so that you are enjoying the superficial
superficial in the sense that it is passing like the wind
and by being truly present
you become more connected to it
to the feel of it and thus to the feel of the Present

and you are colored by new colors
where superficiality and deepness coexist
are not differentiated
and they are one and the same
cause you are one with them

yet is impossible mind masturbation
to make deepness and superficiality
to coexist into your mind/thought/argumentation

it is just coexisting as one
when YOU decide to be one with the feel of the moment that each of them is giving
whether the moment take the face of what you call "superficial"
or whether it take the face of what you call "deep"

so these are just forms
what matters is
are you present with the form of the present moment
or are you opposing it and thus creating separation ?

so...when i receive these gifts
is like i am receiving a surprise from Life
which is waiting besides me
to see my excitation
while i am unwrapping it

and then i get back the Love
from such "inanimate" objects

AS MUCH AS

i LOVED them

by expecting them
by receiving them
by unwrapping them

so it is very much like saying
they send you back the love you send them in advance

the "You" in me and you

that is the second time it happened
but when i looked at someone
it felt like i was looking at myself

by then i could not tell why
cause obviously we don't have same face
plus not at all same gender hahaha

nor are we twins
yet i saw myself in him
how?

now i know

this happens
when the "you" i.e. your true nature (and not your thoughts)
sees the "you" of/in the other (his true nature too)

it is OBVIOUS
that when you see the "you" in the other
then you see your own self!

 and that is why the true self is One

and that happens only
if you are deep and the other is deep too
or that you are deep enough on your own to see the other even if the other is NOT deep
hahaha
i am in the case number 1
the numbre 2 is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay harder for me to even imagine it

cause i am still superficial to get to the number 2

i guess i need serious A... S....?
:))
no kidding, i need serious longer meditation sessions

that's a very nice feeling
and very meaningful life moment

When you're alone and life is making you lonely
You can always go downtown
When you've got worries, all the noise and the hurry
Seems to help, I know, downtown
Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
No finer place for sure, downtown
Everything's waiting for you
Don't hang around and let your problems surround you
There are movie shows downtown
Maybe you know some little places to go to
Where they never close downtown
Just listen to the rhythm of a gentle bossa nova
You'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over
Happy again
The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares
So go downtown
Where all the lights are bright, downtown
Waiting for you tonight, downtown
You're gonna be alright now, downtown
Downtown
Downtown
And you may find somebody kind to help and understand you
Someone who is just like you and needs a gentle hand to
Guide them along
So maybe I'll see you there
We can forget all our troubles, forget all our cares
So go downtown
Things will be great when you're downtown
Don't wait a minute more, downtown
Everything is waiting for you, downtown
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)
Downtown (downtown)

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petulaclark/downtown.html

Thoughts Reading

LOL

i had bought some salmon for lunch with friends
and all of sudden i got a doubt
and said to her

"and don't give your salmon to the other one
(who also has its share)"

as soon as i said that
she flipped
and looked me and said
"how you knew?!!!
i JUST thought that..."


actually i said to her
i just got a huge doubt
while i was cooking
so i said it


and i understood also the stuff about thought reading

when i got a doubt
it meant as long as my idea was clear
"ok everyone gets its share"
i was ok and was MY thought

but as SOON as i got a doubt
like when you throw a stone in water
and it makes ripples

and image get less clear

then
i KNEW i had lost the clarity of thought
and that is what doubt is about

and second
it shows that i was not per say
"reading thoughts"

but i read thought
in the sense
that mine got affected

by hers

and as long as you are "above"
others
then you can "read" their thoughts

and those who "read thoughts"
actually can
differentiate
their thoughts from the others

cause you have to protect yourself
from being influenced by other people thoughts
and think these are yours

your true nature
per say
is YOU
and when we get used to identifying with thoughts
we are actually being controlled by people...
cause these thoughts are not yours
but theirs
see?

is like sun above clouds
sun can see them

likewise
i could see her thought
cause the true self is above thoughts

so yea we all ended up
eating salmon
and not a too nice friend
scarifying hers to another lol

though i look forward
at actually "reading thoughts"

kiss:x

Why Past makes us smile

you know why we smile
when we remember something of the past

like when you find some old letter
or visit a place of your youth?

you smile unconsciously
because unconsciously you know
that you and that other energy which is present
and you were communicating with by then

in the form of your parents or some other person
actually you were in disagreement with and much more
you were opposed to it
and you were rejecting it or neglecting it
to move forward

so you were just oblivious to your Present
and you can see yourself very much daring
while all was already Present

so being in the present/ce of that place of your childhood
you see the/your past
and especially your oblivion to your by-then-present moment

that is why you smile

and that is why
often you were told when kid
later when time pass this will make you laugh
while by then was nothing but annoyance or obstacle

and yet it is  like a script
is not like you could act wise
you were living your experience to learn about life

Matter and Anti- Matter

yesterday night
i saw orbs of light
light bubbles raising up

like a rain of light bubbles
but raising up yea

i saw it a few times
while i was sitting in my couch

 was pretty

this morning when i woke up
for meditation
while i was getting ready for it

it was said through images
i mean as images were telling it

i saw a rope
was said this is rope of God
you see as mentioned in hadith in islam
to "hold to rope of God"

and i saw it rolling itself
on the place of pain in body
it is like a balm
it rolls on it to sooth the pain

so i saw it was circling itself
over and over the chakra itself

(that is of course the kundalini rolling up
on the chakra to heal it)

then it was said
that when power goes through
it acts powerfully

so much that i thought
it might affects hugely the world
once it is switched on
cause the rope has curled itself many times
on the chakra
so once switched on
it would exerce HUGE power out

if the power switched on

cause it said
it works like the Switzerland anti matter circuit
and it is indeed The anti-matter
so once it is switched on
it acts like a reverse magnet
and got the 'matter'out

(by the way
i love the english for its meaning
matter as in issue/pain
and matter as in material)

so thanks to its HUGE magnet effect
switched on  when powers goes in
it throws out the "matter"
and this is its anti-matter effect

then,
you are pure

cause you are your own true face
or fabric
without the thorns
cause the matter
are like splinters/thorns

and they get stuck into this rope
hence you feel the pain

is a bit like your skin
you feel pain when you got pimples
cause they are taking space that is not theirs
and as your skin has already the perfect space for itself
an extra piece of skin even of one millimeter
which is in other word the pimple
squeezes your "fabric" too much and you feel pain

is same with the matter
it acts like thorn when it gets stuck
into that rope
and it gives pain

so then when you press that rope
like when you press a button
to switch on the power
the power
acts like a magnet
which radiates a sort of electro-magnetism
and it sheds off the thorns/matters shards
and it acts like a HUGE anti matter

and then
you are your true self
and you are free from pain
you are free

Lyrics : Plus prés des étoiles - Gold
Closer to stars - Gold

for lyrics they are obviously in French
but remember Google is your Friend ;)

Ils ont quitté leurs terres
Leurs champs de fleurs
Et leurs livres sacrés
Traversés les rizières
Jusqu'au grand fleuve salé
Sans amour, sans un cri
Ils ont fermé leurs visages de miel
Les yeux mouillés de pluie
Les mains tendues vers le ciel

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Au pied des murs de pierres
Ils ont brûlé leurs dragons de papier
Refermés leurs paupières
Sur les chenilles d'acier
Eux qui croyaient vieillir
En regardant grandir leurs enfants
A l'ombre du sourire
Des Bouddhas de marbre blanc

Un peu plus près des étoiles

Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Ils parlent à demi-mots
A mi-chemin entre la vie et la mort
Et dans leurs yeux mi-clos

Le soleil, le soleil brille encore
Une île de lumière
Un cerf volant s'est posé sur la mer
Un vent de liberté
Trop loin, trop loin pour les emporter

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

source : http://www.paroles.net/gold/paroles-plus-pres-des-etoiles

Finger of God

ok i was trying over the past few days
to wake up at same time
meaning not 30min or 1h after

just same time

so today
i was like half asleep
and i did my cycle and trying to meditate
while still lying down

lol ridiculous

anyway
as i got a vision

i saw that there was a huge shiva
yea bit blue color body
and he was pointing his index towards my head

a bit like in this fresco painting of Adam Creation
by MichaelAngelo

Actually in the vision
i was trying to adjust my forehead
to the poiting of the finger
to be sure
that light goes through it
and like this i would get total enlightenment

and mind would become luminous

by the way writing it
luminous
is more like CLARITY in mind
it just make more sense to say it
is a bit like usually most of mind is clouded
and you jsut need light enough
so that it be lit fully
and you just see things at hand/in the present

then
of course i woke up
to do the walking meditation
followed by the sitting one

but yeaa
was tempted to stay in the bed
just to see the rest of the vision


ps : neeeeeeeeeeeed my arabicaaaaaa!!!

Intuition

is only by confronting myself
to new situation and people
that i realised new changes
which took place in me

in terms of perception
and use of say "power"
for everyone is like a seed
and thus EVERYONE has powers
or call it skills manifested

once it has germinated.

the new stuff i saw
is that when i looked at stuff
i kind of see the energy or aura?
around it like a halo?
and this is how i know
that i can grab it or not

also in terms of intuition
it got sharper
and difference is NOW
i can ON THE SPOT
decide ACCORDING to it

before i was like asleep
i could feel intuition
and yet not have the will to follow it
was very much observer of my own life
thinking i can't change it
stuff are as they are

now the intuition is being acted upon
spontaneously
on the spot
so the present moment is being caught
if i can express it so

third
i astonishes myself
by the new changes in my look and life style
is like i can see myself going through phases
of self care

stuff that i had never really paid attention to before

is like i am following a scenario
specially written for me
to act in a movie

and it looks normally flowing
is not like i have to "think"
as to what next i should do

yes definitely i don't recognise myself :)))

yet
is very much agreeable
because i am in self discovery adventure

kiss kiss