The Sun within

hmm
there is loads to say

main points being
this ramadan is one of the best of my life
for i am combining fasting
which purifies chi
with meditation

basically 
i care to maintain my hydration level up
is vital
as water stores energy
without it
all the meditation benefits goes to waste


second this fasting is not real fasting
real fasting is not to eat at all for days
am not yet to that level

yet it has been giving me a real bonus
as far as discipline is concerned

sleeping at midnight
waking up at 3 am
is crazy rythm
combined with 5 times a day meditation
each session of 20 min

at some point i felt the cool breeze
went out of my head
like a pressure cooker that push the lid

amazingly enough
unless i meditate in collectivity
my vibrations go down
for the subtle system absorbs all that is around
and i cannot compensate

but for the first time ever!
my vibrations are increasing day by day
even though i am unable to meditate in group
that's heavenly change!

 never i would have thought
i could even maintain my vibes
even less increase them in such a short time

once discipline is set
then
there is space created for love to expand...

for you relax in yourself
and in such a state
i noticed
whenever i wonder about something
i see the answer in image right on the spot
and later at night
if i still wonder at it
the spirit voice shows me the rest

so by chance a few days ago
i was watching a movie
and from the talk i heard therein
i wondered about the why behind

why the movie writer made a movie
with focus on alien theory
because the theory was being argumented loads
not as a passing topic
so the emphasize on it bothered me
as it fit not the usual frame

and on the spot
i saw how prior to the movie making off
leaders of the company in charge of tv communication
had an agenda
with a list of topics
about which propaganda should be made
using well known serials broadcast
to touch the viewers' perception

so i was literally seeing their meeting
and the choice of a topic in a movie is not anodin
a topic tackled on such an extend in a movie
was being so because of a well thought propaganda agenda

it took a flick of a second
for me to see the vision
but all was said in it

the very night
somehow i dreamt of a possible future of the earth
not set in stone
but the future we are heading into
given the current choices made
so much that i saw that all that used to be "nature"
and simple joys
like going to a warm restaurant with friends
on a snowy day
became a museum
for the remaining surviving generation to witness

it was such a desolation
myself i felt empty when i saw this
even now i feel very sad
as i remember it

but is not set in stone
we can always change future
future  of humanity
lies in the challenge of every peoples to unite
to fight for the survival of their humanity

either humanity will unite and succeed
or it will keep dividing itself and fail as a whole

you see
i kind of get few years of respite
of not seeing anymore these kinds of futurist catastrophic scenes
i had even forgotten that danger exist for humanity
because so happy i am
to feel everyday spirit nearness

but i guess
respite was necessary
for me to build hope within

i don't want to see anything like that
for once i would like to see a bright future
that the right balance has been stricken
would be so nice to see another vision of the world we choose as our future

at the end of the dream
i heard spirit voice
saying
"i am the general sun that keeps burning"
general like in command

it was said like a fullstop
like a counter balance to all the depressing stuff i saw
only by hearing the voice i felt better
because you see the voice is alive
it has a living presence

also
it meant to show
the origin of creation
when God sent its light to burn down
from higher levels to lower till it becomes manifested in this world
to manifest itself and experience itself

true
seeing and hearing origin of creation itself
is awesome
but for me
it was soothing to hear the voice
in itself i found hope
as it removed the hard impact of the preceeding images

just today
i received this quote
which illustrates very much the meaning of the sentence said by the voice :

The worlds are held together by the heat of the sun; each of us are atoms held in position by that eternal Sun we call God. Within us is the same central power we call the light, or the love of God; by it we hold together the human beings within our sphere, or, lacking it, we let them fall.

source : Bowl of Saki, June 29, by Hazrat Inayat Khan



have a blessed evening