One thought and One emotion at a time

I found a thing

it is said that we can use our power best
if we use ONE thought and One Emotion
at a time

so there was an insect flying in the room
so i raised energy
and put my attention on it only
so it makes one thought

and one emotion
so i felt joy for that very attention of mine (who was the insect)
if the insect would remain stuck up there and move no more

yes!
it hit me,
the attention is not ON the insect outward
the attention IS FEELING inside
how joyous i would feel FEELING the insect stuck up there

so it is as if the attention was the insect !

therefore i understand
this is why the awareness is ALL that around
for the awareness is aware/witness of EACH SINGLE THOUGHT

and the insect is BASICALLY A THOUGHT - MATERIALISED!

therefore ONE thought
and ONE feeling OF it

equals you are it inside
and can have power on your "self"

this is WHY there are this picture
about the awakening with multiple eyes

for it means
ALL the thoughts that one is AWARE of,
is the COMPLETE awareness

what i have learned

before i had doubts
even with sufism

because i knew not what is Truth
i knew not how could i trust

with a spontaneous awakening
and feeling of cool breeze
stemming from inside

i knew it was not controlled
from outside

therefore
it was mine
uncontrolled
neither by someone nor by my ego

but i wanted more
a new change
for Truth brings change

because if you don't change for the better
than you stay in same situation in your life
not evolving
and turning in circle
with the same "issues"
more or less worsening

so i learned it was about taking charge of one's own life
the cool breeze is the manifestation
that the inner divine energy
pushes upwards
at heart level take the spirit
and bring it upwards
above head
above thoughts
and thus liberates you from your bonding
of identification with your own thoughts

above thoughts
is pure silence

once liberated
we have space
space to create what we wish for

therefore each person should seek for what
his or her pure desire it
to allow it to be manifested

the more more thoughtless awareness
the more silence
the more silence, the more emptiness

and when ONE thought with ONE emotion
is placed in this shrine of silence
encircled by emptiness

then this ONE thought
becomes empowered
and is manifested

for power before
ALSO existed
but used to be divided by different thoughts
when divided so much, quota of power per thought is weak

but one thought one power
is a powerful condition for your desire to become real

thus you are your own master
at last free to experience what you wish
which is no more illusive daily striving.

but if you trust not
this spirit inside
which is the container of the Pure Love

then you cannot gamble your Life
for a new change
for letting it take a new turn
and  become first

transformed by Love
and then, become itself Love

once it is Love
it is actually a level of manifesation of this Pure Awareness/Silence the spirit is brought in

for in vibration
Peace is above Love

and i guess above Peace
are new levels
for Face of God
shines ever day into a NEW splendor
as there is NO limit to GOD

but if one takes not this turn for Pure Love in life
then, there is no more space
for the Pure Desire for Love
to transform us

and as God forces not

one has no more natural ground to live
for Pure Desire cannot be removed.

This is why
no conditioning

even be it the apparent ultimatum of Quran 
given by ignorant people 

see the scene :

 As the battle continued, Malik al-Ashtar fought his way through the opposing army until he was two rows away from Mu'awiyah's tent.^[5][7] Only two rows away from killing Mu'awiyah and ending the war. However, a situation occurred. Mu'awiyah wanted to trick Imam Ali's army to stop fighting and disunite them by creating confusion. So he asked Amr ibn al-As, who told him, "I'm sure we can cheat them with the Qur'an."^[8] Mu'awiyah loved the idea and ordered his soldiers to place the Quran on their spear.^[4][5] When most of the soldiers of Imam Ali saw this they stopped fighting. Though Imam Ali knew that it was a trick by Mu'awiyah to create confusion and disunity, he told his army "It's a trick! I was the first to invite them to Allah's Book. And I was the first to believe in it. They've disobeyed Allah and broken His promise." (this is referring to the negotiation/persuading process before the war)^[5] Imam Ali wanted his soldier to continue fighting because they were so close to victory. Despite Imam Ali's effort, 22,000 soldiers of Imam Ali disobeyed his commands and said "Stop fighting and order al-Ashtar to withdraw!"^[5] Knowing that his own soldiers had turned their backs on him and a few group of true believers, Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib told his soldiers to command Malik to return for safety reasons.^[4] The messenger gave Malik the order. Even though, Malik knew that he has the opportunity to end the war and rid the world of Ma'uwiyah, he stopped and returned.^[4][5] Malik said "If Ali ibn Abi Talib orders something, I have to return".^[7] This moment was a defining moment in Malik's life because it shows his discipline and submission to Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib.


Quran ties people in fear - that's a trick
Quran cannot be understood by mind, but by heart.

while Truth is Spiritual and ever preached,
few can hear it,
to be led to Victory

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malik_al-Ashtar



nor the outwards play of power can deter the Truthful people :

see the scene :
 

Their enmity and open threats of a breach between Abu Talib's clan, the Banu Hashim and the rest of the Banu Quraish distressed Abu Talib who was aware of the cost that his nephew Muhammad had to pay if deserted . Abu Talib sent for Muhammad and told him the news, "Spare me and yourself and put not burden on me that I can’t bear". Muhammad thought that his uncle would let him down and would no longer support him, so he replied:

"O my uncle! by God if they put the sun in my right hand and the moon in my left on condition that I abandon this course, until God has made me victorious, or I perish therein, I would not abandon it." Muhammad got up, and as he turned away, his uncle called back and then said "Go and preach what you please, for by God I will never forsake you.". Abu Talib then recited two lines of verse with meanings of full support to Muhammad.

source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Second_and_third_deputation_with_Abu_Talib

Moon is the Left channel in our subtle system in our body
Sun is the Right channel

even if ALL kinds of Power of BOTH channels were given to Muhammad (peace be upon him)
he would have NEVER abandon Truth, which is in the CENTRAL CHANNEL, the Middle Path (ehdina sirah tal mustaqim = the straight path) for any other manifestation of power.
He stood his Ground.

for ONLY the middle channel opening leads to Victory.

and Victory is in Surah Fatah ( Chapter of Victory) in quran,

Fatah, with the sound Fa, means the Opening ,
like the opening of a seed

or like in surah Falak (the day break)
the cleaving of the seed which leads to see the light

and this cleaving is that of your Inner Energy
which pierces your fontanel area
and brings you to Light
while before you were closed into an egg/seed/ darkness

nor could ever make a true seeker of Truth waver 

see the scene.

Heart being capable of All Form of love
is not a poetic moving wish of ibn Arabi

it is LITERALLY the HAPPENING
THE VICTORY talked of above

for it is when the Kundalini takes your spirit
Above your thoughts
thoughts are mental FORMS

and once your are ABOVE those mental forms
you are in the PURE AWARENESS which is the ONLY state
where your Heart can be capable of ALL forms of LOVE.


for Love is the Meaning of Life
and without Love Life is no naturally no more.

so unless you already know what you desire
and that desire be your DRIVE

and unless you test your belief
to see if this belief feeds you and quench your thirst
for Life, Love, God

you will never find Certainty.

For finding ever fresh and renewed Life
is finding God
finding this constant Pure Love in continuous way
is finding God

and finding God
is finding Certainty

Finding Love is finding Certainty.
For the Constant Presence of Love felt on your path, is the Proof of you having found God inside you.
it is the proof of you being finally fed by your Pure Desire.
Therefore, your life will naturally flow and go on.

for God is not outside
it is the REAL YOU inside

the HU (arabic meaning WHO HE IS)
and the real Eternal Life in you

is the SPIRIT

whose manifestation at heart level is LOVE
and above thought is PEACE

and above is as far as you can go.

Natural Drive

if there is no more drive
then self obviously

the inner life can no more flow

and when the river is no more
life is no more.

Reality of heaven and hell

what is Reality?

even the word Reality is not really true, real i.e. rightly understood by us

i never was religious from the beginning,
but spiritual
by then i had no clue that even the word spiritual existed

i only knew that i liked to discover inner beauties
as if i was literally uncovering lid fro a can

so when i went on an islamic forum
and saw so much division
that hit me
for i never thought that division in what is called the last and completed religion existed

so i declared by then,
that God does not takes side even if it is called islam
but protects Truth

this i was innerly sure of,
it was a sure shot

innerly i felt disconnected with the inner touch
when i met a sort of muslim teacher

who was so much more in touch with quran
that i wanted to follow the quranic teaching

but the thing is
people knows more the letter of it
than the spirit of it

from that time i lost touch with my inner self
and that used to be soft

once i tried to be "honest"
i felt it was impossible to practice religion
and i felt my heart became hard

somehow i met a sufi group
so that was the spirituality i was always attracted with

that time was really particular
for i was so much in touch with my inner world of dreams and visions

this was a total mind blowing experience

for it opened a door to perception
to right perception on some regards

and that is :
hell and heaven exist
right now

as said in the Constantine movie :

 John Constantine: But when you cross over time stops. Take it from me, two minutes in hell is a lifetime. When I came back I knew all the things I could see were real. Heaven and hell are right here. Behind every wall, every window. The world behind the world, and we're smack in the middle. 

watching this movie
when i heard Heaven and Hell are right here

it reminded me my own dreams and visions in that period of my life

the new breakthrough by then in my life
was to really understand
that Heaven and Hell are NOW and NOT later, not once we are dead we go to heaven and hell

i can related to the muslims reading that
for each single counter truth i may seem to say
because i went through them all

it can be proven 
by simple logic 
in hadith is it not said 
the way we die is the way we are raised up?

if we die as a believer we are raised as such in heaven 
if we die as a disbeliever we are raised as such in hell

because our last moment is NOT a moment OUT of Time
it is NOT to come

it is ALREADY there!
by the very choices we do in the now and then
we choose either to take the PATH leading to heaven 
or the PATH leading to hell

and the PATH itself is heaven if we die on it
or the path itself is hell if we die on it

as in the hadith of the guy 
who chose to show abnegation to God to be forgiven
after having killed so many people
he died while travelling to a saint place

and while he was half way between the heaven and hellish place
angels of both sides fought to know who shall get his soul
and finally due to his INTENTION set 
God shortened the path to heaven for him
thus he was counted among the heavenly ones

so it is true 
each of our decisions and choices BUILD up to our heaven or hell 
and NOT as to COME 
but as IS.

heaven and hell are ON THE SPOT
it is NEVER after

the word HEREAFTER - Akheera 
means MORE than the english image of hereafter 
we misunderstand it as AFTER the NOW

just by browsing on net one can already find  this :

f. akrabajamaa , utani % ukoo.} 
Ahora. n. and Akhera, Aheri, 
(i) that \vhuh is last (or behind, 
or beyond), the end, the last stage; 
(a) cs'i world, fun 

source : https://archive.org/stream/swahilienglishdi00madauoft/swahilienglishdi00madauoft_djvu.txt

Akheera with the meaning of LAST, as in LAST stage , that which is BEHIND or BEYOND the seen

like in the prayer of the Prophet :

Allah shows me things as they REALLY ARE.

it is because by then in his time

people went out of sheer period of ignorance

hardly learning that one should should not stone to death baby girls

so how could, except for a few, on a mass scale, higher level consciousness be taught to 

people who were so much LOW in their mind

by the way, this is why the prophet said in his last sermon 

report my worlds to next generation 

for they may understand more/better.

!

it is about understanding more deeply WHEN you ASCEND as SOUL 

and your consciousness is raised from lower to HIGHER worlds of understanding!

another word for low is the root word of Dunia 

muslims takes too narrow mindedly the meaning of dunia

i know because i went through it

dunia is seen as the life on this earth

that one should shun 

so that one reap all for the akeehra in the after life after death

but dunia is NOT this world 

dunia is the LOWER part of this world/time

how can time be LOW 

when this very time can be your savior?

Daani', which literally something which is low, lowly, insignificant, 

something of inferior value

source : islamhelpline.net  

so the lower aspect of this life, 

in another word, lower consciousness is this dunia

but if you ASCEND, i.e. do the Miraaj as the prophet did, 

as you are supposed to work for it in ramadan 

then, you can LIVE in this world without being part of the dunia

this is why in a hadith

it was said of a man who came with his ablution water dripping from his face

that he is from the people of heaven (prophet saying)

while other companions of prophets 

tried to see lol by stalking him all day long or week long what he did for that 

what extra prayer he did

and finally as they found not

they asked him please tell us 

and he said

i do nothing

except that i forgive those who hurt me

and how could he be SEEN as HE REALLY IS ON THE SPOT 

as a person of heaven?

because heaven was HIS STATE in the NOW

and how he went to heaven ?

by forgiving constantly 

so, 

when keanu reeves said : 

hen I came back I knew all the things I could see were 
real. Heaven and hell are right here. Behind every wall, every window. 
The world behind the world, and we're smack in the middle. 

that is all true!

by then, 

when i used to see heavenly like pictures

because i was more in a temporary state of goodness

i used to be so happy

as if i was in another world though living in this one

but when i had constrained myself by attaching myself to 

self reproach, guilt and sorrow

i saw literally speaking hell

felt it 

and when i used to got up from these nightmares

i could still feel scorch on the skin, if i had been hurt during it.

it is ONLY because of the awakening of the cool breeze

that i started to learn to LET GO and FORGIVE myself.

our own body will become heaven or hell

by the way we choose to address ourselves 

yes the way we address others is the way we address ourselves ON THE SPOT

it is not a far off connection

for i learned a few weeks ago

that if i hit my foot 

the nerves got shocked and the hurt ascended up the spine!

therefore back got hurt! though there is no apparent link between a foot and back hurt! 

and i understood 

1-the meaning of resonating - we, being a resonator 

2-the meaning of extending limbs 

such as 

if foot hurt lead me to accumulated in my spine, nervous system the hurt felt 

then what about my hands when they give hurt to someone else?

it means , that me too i accumulated inside of me ON THE SPOT the hurt i am sending out

by extension i am the Beauty i recognise and give to others

and the hellfire that i nourish in acting so towards others and thus myself.

it is the FIRST time i REALLY lived the experience of 

the OTHER as YOURSELF

by the way :)

did you know that Keanu (Reeves) means in Hawaii language "the cool breeze over the Mountain"!:)

Bad Mood

i had a real bad mood yesterday

the thing with bad mood
is that you WANT TO STAY WITH IT
as looooooooooooooong as it takes

and then, had i had my fiancé in front of me
i would have smashed his head

lol
hehehe

so,
having a bad mood is OK
actually it is important to avoid it
  

however..is also important to see,,who is watching the bad mood,,?..


is the witness
is the arising and passing away..of mental citta factors
(citta = is our attention, the mental + emotional sides)

if you do NOT do it on the spot..you CAN get stuck on bad citta

this is WHY i was SO MUCH ENGROSSED in that BAD MOOD
that i did not want to calm down
for i had taken it as MY ID by then, so much i identified myself with it


and why it was so?
because i refused to meditate..while in the BAD mood..to ,,see,, the mood

so meditation ON THE SPOT
allow us to SEE ourselves, here to see my bad mood

but true, 
who wants to SEE that which is bad? 
i prefer on the spot to have a fighting character 
a real bad one
instead of seeing it passing 

which means
preferring to identify more and more with it by allowing time to pass like that
instead of seeing it passing!

that is so stupid of me
hopefully 
next time i will raise my energy ON THE SPOT
to SEE the state of emotions i am IN

so that it JUST be a PASSING thing 
as it was MEANT TO BE

and NOT something sticky lol



     

Boredom

i realised that actually i feel bored
when things goes into routine
and seems no more working

and i had forgotten!
that joy is the key

JOY/Love is the ONLY power
that works

which means
if i do something
without joy then it will bear no fruits

this means NOT to submit to the task like a slave
and call it joy
or force joy upon myself

this means to INITIATE a VERSION of that task
in MY MIND that would BRING JOY
and eventually i could FEEL JOY in my heart

this changes everything

so now, lol
i took part in a game to win a week end somewhere in some castle

so what i did
is first i imagined myself at this place
wondered FIRST
WHAT joy is close to this scene to me

so for me
it was the stone of the castle
i like the touch of it

the wind of the place
that gives sensation of freedom up high
a castle up high on a cliff

and under the sea
the waves sound is fabulous

and of course
a good green forest nearby
to feel refreshed in the morning

while having my breakfast in the garden!

;)
as i felt the joy of the version of the scene
then, i let it go
in the silence


i have to win !
for otherwise why i would have felt the joy?

if i felt it, then it is real

it is JUST the timing of it
that i am not in control of

as i have been told
you do your share : the WHAT
and let GOD care for the : WHEN (why, who etc.)

The Spirit

i had today a nice dream

ah that was beautiful and glorious
i saw the spirit
raising like a huge flame
and it raised in front of shri mataji who was next to me

and he raised so that she too recognises its grandeur   
as she did, she bowed to it 

i liked that

that was truly real scene for the word Glory

now somehow i will do what i can, to get this too   

i have to , because this kind of glory i have never seen it in daily life
i just wish dream does not faint in my mind otherwise i forget my drive  
out of boredom at times

(why?
cf next post)

it was beautiful 

because when i look at it again
first, nothing else existed in the attention 
except 

only this great and i don t know for what reason, beautiful flame it was, rising

third it was really powerful and especially superior on its own

and when i look back at it , there is no question rising or doubts if it was good or not and to what limit

i can breathe well         

Conscious and Subconscious

Have ever heard of people playing a role?
or again that life is like a drama, role play?

i JUST understood today its REAL meaning! :)
feel SOO content and fulfilled :)
yes findings like these are bread like to me,
well rather sweet than bread lol

it functions like this..you do to other what you would WANT to yourself,but you're afraid to do/experience this by doing this to yourself

so.... the human being found a way!
that  is projection !

PROJECTION !!!

"we think of the other the way we think of ourselves"

here is a little story,

at midnight a pious person was coming out of a church/mosque/ saint place
and he met a guy in the street

his first though, "oh the great guy, he is so diligently working out himself to keep vigil at night in prayer."

and when this other guy met the pious one,
he said to himself with a malicious face " ah, this guy playing the pious but in truth no better than me,
sneaking out at night to go to discotheque"

LOL
when i heard this
i laughed a lot

and it was a revelation,

it means we think of the others, the way we think of ourselves.


same about the rest of our life
we are wholly experiencing ourselves at all time
by doing unto the other what we are afraid to do/admit to ourselves of our inner/hidden desires/personality.

why afraid?
for we have a logical mind which is afraid for it can't manage to control the inner deep power of his inner desire.
it knows that it is SO STRONG that it will defies its logic.

thus this BLOCK
which is too traumatising to self experience (i.e. being experienced by the consciousness)
will be soften by being projected i.e. being experienced TOWARDS the other!

BY PASS way to experience it

so our subconscious is projecting on the other
to know itself
by passing the block between the logical brain and the inner desires of the individual

THUS

THIS IS HOW WE PROJECT OUTSIDE
THAT WHICH IS INSIDE OF US!

why the need for this self experience?
ah, suddenly it becomes clear, isn't it?

SELF experience
before i could not get what  SELF experience
it is the subconscious trying to know itself
while the conscious, as the name point at is CONSCIOUS of this EXPERIENCE

knowing how it works..automatically makes the ,,inner,, being understood


and the block was about

lack of communication between mind/soul/spirit..etc 
orin other word

 the conscious vs the subconscious reality


third, 
this projection creates a ,,connection,, between the conscious and subconscious - mind and soul?

this connection is
a medium to communicate between both.

CONCLUSION : 

so we always,,project,, the inner ,,outside,,..to ,,see ourselves,,

so the pious guy wanted to see his own piousness
to see what his piousness looked like :)

and the disco guy wanted to see what his depraved life looked like lol

true a mirror cannot see itself
it NEEDS a second person to be able to see HOW it reflects WELL!
so far so good

BUT 
when our attention FORGETS THAT! (man forgets, so use remembrance - quran/islam)
when it forgets the rule of the game : to know yourself, to experience your self
as a mirror would want too

and starts thinking that it is the beauty of the other i want to possess (one of the 10 commandments not to transgress -judaism)
or the ugliness of the other that i want to wipe off ( do not judge or you will be judged - christianity)

then it is HOW our attention got corrupted
and we forget WHO we are.

see ? all of the religious teachings AIM at bringing man back to :

THE PURE BLISSFUL AWARENESS OF THE PRESENT MOMENT BEING EXPERIENCED

- dedicating this clarity of revelation to my husband to be :)
kiss to you ; ) and HUGE love

-petals

 
 

Back pain healing

I had to imagine what it would be like having back blocked
and not being able to walk


guess what?!

it is what happened,
ah, if i am so good at imagining
i better imagine next time GREAT LOVELY things
happening to me

;) well i did
delicious ones lol

so,
i know they will happen :)


yes, so in the morning,
when i got up
my back was blocked
and i had much pain, going from the back to the right leg

so i raised the energy
and put hands on the main chakras
doing thus a cycle

and then,
when it started to feel cool
i stayed with this feeling
as long as this coolness spread in the body

of course,
i put first my attention on the area of the pain
for once the attention is in the cool breeze
then WHERE we direct the attention, the energy follows

thus when i directed my attention on the painful area
the attention was like a laser
or like the concentrated rays of sun
that remove the dark clouds

so the realised attention EMPTIES the area where it is directed
and then the pain disappears!

because the body is the densified extensions of our immaterial thoughts
so if cool breeze can provoke a state of thoughtless awareness
THAN
on the manifestation realm/concrete physical space
the cool breeze WILL ALSO provoke THIS emptiness
so here the thoughts materialised (my projection of experiencing this blocked back)
have been wiped off by the attention loaded with this cool breeze

et voilà!

my back got healed within 1h max!

ah so happy! :)

kiss:x

Shatter me!

Amazing video!

isn't ?!

[Verse 1: Lzzy Hale]
I pirouette in the dark
I see the stars through me
Tired mechanical heart
Beats til the song disappears
Annotate
[Chorus]
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!

[Violin Drop]
Shatter me!
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!

[Verse 2]
If only the clockworks could speak
I wouldn't be so alone
We burn every magnet and spring
And spiral into the unknown

[Chorus]

[Violin Drop]

[Bridge]
If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in rain
If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's nobody to catch me if I take a dive
I'm scared of changing, the days stay the same
The world is spinning but only in rain
(Only..)

[Chorus]

[Violin Drop]
Me...!
Shatter me!
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!

Lindsey Stirling – Shatter Me Lyrics

Ft: Lzzy Hale

Produced By: Silas

Source : http://rock.rapgenius.com/Lindsey-stirling-shatter-me-lyrics



kiss:x

Women!

i know NOW why women likes to talk a lot!


Because they need to probe the other person's MIND!

for women are EMOTIONALLY driven, or dependant
they NEED a DIRECTION to understand things
and THUS they will EXPRESS a LOT their feelings/emotions

to get a feedback (guid-ance) from the other MIND.

ah! so clever!

but it shows that over the long term,
the woman needs to develop her mind factor
as she is naturally bent towards emotions.

which i guess little women do.

ps : i am not talking of intelligence
but of perception

Ni hao!

: ) i like that song, so cute!

from the chinese drama, it started with a kiss

Lyrics

mo mo zai ni de shen hou shou hu de wo

duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong

huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong
wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong

zai ni yan zhong duo me ben zuo de wo
jue bu fang qi zhui zu ni de zhi zhuo
zhi yao ni neng duo xie hui ying wo
yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan dou jie shou

neng bu neng zai kao jin yi dian dian
da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue
da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue
bie zai jin jin guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie
wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie

neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian
neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian
jiu shuan rang wo zhi dao wo yong yuan zi shi dan lian
wo ye hui chang zhe gan xie
xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian

English translation:

       I wait quietly behind you
Really want to see your accidental smile
Maybe you do not understand my heart
But I will try my hardest to touch your heart

I'm the clumsy one in your eyes
I will not give up following you
I just need you to give me some response
I will accept a smile or a nod

Can I come a little closer
Confess my feelings out to you loudly
Don't shut yourself in your own world anymore
The warm sun welcomes you

       Can I come a little closer
       Can I become braver a little bit
       Even if I know that it will always be a one-sided love affair
       I will still keep my gratitude
       Smiling to you and saying goodbye.

The flower

laying down
and watching the flowers
i wondered who had created them.
as intelligence i mean

an evolved consciousness?

that could not be!
for all consciousness are limited in perfection
so it HAS to be above consciousness level

As the pattern of the flower is all perfect
in geometry and all
so it is Mother Nature

but then i was told Mother Earth is a power
it is like current that realise your intent

then who gave this input for the creation of the flower?

The Law of the Sun

I personally LOVED that video,
called the Law of the Sun,

it refers to the story of Creation
where people grow gradually from
the worship of outer Sun/God

to the One Shining inside them.
The God given Light inside them : their own soul/

well, that's the path of cultivation
that lead to the remembrance of one's True Light/Self/ID

whatever the religion.

Before the Afterglow

i saw you because you saw me
as an angel you came and healed me

healed from what i was aware of and not
you came as a generous wind
untying all of my knots

so that everything may now flow
you make yours what was mine
my pain became your healing

and made mine what was thine
so that your beauty became my new identity.

I am aware that you are aware that i am aware of you being aware of me

Yeah! my first embedded extract of a video!

ok tell me one thing,
WHY when the guy got AWARE that she is AWARE of not only of his hidden defect BUT ALSO of HIM being AWARE that she caught him.

THEN WHY ON EARTH he STILL PRETEND that he is NOT aware?

that beats me!

for it is SAME in real life,
and i DON'T GET it :)))

ps : by the way, the title of the MOVIE i JUST realised! answer my question LOL hahaha.

Love and KISSES to Turkey! :)

i went to Turkey!


my brother asked me to choose for a destination
so i scanned in my mind the European map
and i felt the pull for Turkey

that was. AWESOME

i HAVE to make a video so beautiful the pictures were.

well,
having two cameras
one of my mobile phone and the classic one
i felt a bit at times cursing the fact that i am NOT FREE
for instead of simple feeling free to enjoy the beauty of the scenery
i wanted to possess them! this is why i was taking so much pictures
and the more i took pictures, the more i felt thirsty for more inside.

so odd.

then, i wondered WHY i took pictures,
it is because i wanted to share the images i had in my mind with others
but so far,
no one took the time for it,

lack of time
lol ridiculous
so i better do a video
with pictures
and my own commentary
and with a nice beautiful song

then! everyone will let it sink within lol
as one says ;)


second,
what i liked about Turkey
is the fact that i felt a bit empty when i came over there at the airport

for i had always travelled to places i was "in control" of

like in uk,
i could master the english,
and had also family over there
so i was going into a box

same with pakistan,
i speak the language,
and have family over there too
therefore, yes it is totally an ODD, but STILL a box

same with other countries

but for Turkey
NIET!
there was no language skills
i even had NO time to look for how to say hello!

let me remember now?
Güneiden , is it how we spell it?

but by the end of the trip my brother and i could compete in a game
to name each at least 10 cities of Turkey lol!
and also we learned some words like

Tuz : salt
Buz : ice cubes

hehehe,

ah yes, also,
Tshakur : Thanks
lol i tried to use it in the airplane, so easy!
hardly whispered it lol

cities ?
let me remember
let's see if i win in the 10 cities to be remembered :

Istanbul, Ankara, in the region Cappadocia there were Göreme, Ürgup, Nevshehr, after Konya we went there too city where Rumi has been buried, yep:) i prayed there and send him my salutation hehehe

some cities missing : Bursa, Batman, Samsun, hehe, no we visited them not. just to win the game.

oh in istanbul there were two sahaba (companion of the prophets) who were buried
one nearby the blue mosque,  but i learned it when i departed from Turkey,
and another one that we  came to visit his mosque by chance,
it was mosque Fatih, and the companion was Ayoub bin Zaid? i think

back to cities, we ended with Antalya, the sea side city, sooooo awesome and beautiful.

i have to make a post by cities. really. i came at the pier of the city. by night i reached it.
it was the last hours and the last visit before we went away. and when i arrived, the call to the prayer of maghrib had started.
so awesome, i was in front of the sea, i could not see the sun setting, but steam ship sliding on water
and sky darkening, and i was on the pier, lol my mother would have seen me so, she would have made a heart attack, for it was not really safe to stand like that while below is the water.

very nice conclusion of the trip with this awesome picture.

yes, when i came to turkey,
i felt like i was free
like i had no personality known in my routine
nor any name, nor any characteristic that people would remind me of
by their way of deal with me in the same normative way.

you know it feels like they play ping pong with you
they keep sending the same ball
with no variety
always the same move

of course, in Turkey it was impossible
because the only person who knew me was my brother
so he could not compete with the rest of people i met
so it is only with him i would remember i was so and so

otherwise the rest of time
it was like i had no delimitation
even of body
it was really ONLY LANDSCAPE

as you DIVE into the landscape

so much variety of landscape, climates and geography and also people we witness
and also we discovered not only their culture, history but also their economy.
indeed we visited hand made carpet fabric i mean,

i gotta show your pictures of them,
of how they are made and  all the process from the insect from cocoon to the carpet we could touch.
amazing

such a rich country

it would have been sorry i had not shared all of that on the blog
for it is like i took so much of the country
and as we know if you fill up your jar,
you have to empty it by watering plants around,
so that it may be filled up again.

that is true and real appreciation.

also, the fact of being so free,
it felt like your were taken from a short river which used to be your routine
and now being dived into a larger sea
and just the change of water let you know naturally of your excess

my excess would have been,
the routine of judging situation, circumstances and people
ok i am not a bad person, but UNCONSCIOUSLY i did it
this is WHY i had likes and dislikes

while over there i had no such like and dislike
everything was a discovery
and then it went on its way
no judging or grouping of what i like or not

actually only by staying in a move, or current?
we can let go of what we, out of habit, get used to cling to
be it out of like or dislike.

also, my second strong impression,
after the one of feeling so FREE and LIBERATED

was that of JOY
i wanted to buy gifts for each person i chose to
and it has become a moment of JOY
which was filling me
i really felt at the level of the stomach,
being FILLED
once i bought stuff for people

like i DID something meaningful for this person
yes,
because i realised,
these realisations came all the way during the journey
BIT by BIT while i was experiencing the buying

it was like the gift in itself was not much worth
for imagine if i had just bought a copy of it in France
and pretended it was from Turkey?

no, it has meaning
because on the spot i was PUTTING IN
my OWN impression.

it is like the gift was a TOKEN
that you USE to fill it in
with the sun that was shining around,
the sand of the mountains
and the desertic landscape
and all of the natural local riches

you were all of it,
putting it in this token
that was called the "gift"

for when you OFFER the gift
it is like you are offering a STREAM of energy
that is coming from Turkey
and was born of your OWN experience there

so it is this like that beams around the gift
and then is seen on the face of the other person
who receives it.

and NO,
i felt NO burden at all while buying gift
as it could be when people out of the MUST of christmas
have to be FEEL the weight of the PRICE of the gift list lol

yes, i was feeling the JOY of buying the gift
AS IF i was buying it  for myself

it is because i was seeing the joy it would be felt by the person
and THEN as i was witnessing that feeling
so i was ME TOO experiencing it

without the burden of piling up gifts in my house lol
hehehe that i would never look at again
why?
because i received ALREADY from Turkey and its gifts
so what MORE  could i possibly grasp by having these gifts at home
and watching them?
nothing more growing or fruitul.

WHILE if i offer them to people around,
THIS WILL provoke a reaction, a CHEMISTRY and WILL produce its fruits
and that i could SEE and experience the sign of it in ITS growth. and it will become
who knows my NEXT over night growing bridge for a NEW experience.
for we are all ONE. and the CONNECTION should NOT be neglected.
Wealth, LIFE MUST circulate in the WHOLE,

before reaching you AFRESH.

this is why,
when you do good to others
ACTUALLY  you are doing good to your OWN SELF

finally,
once the gift is given,
it is not like it has ended,
you don't know what new seeds have germinated and then blossomed
in the other person WHILE receiving it

may be the person felt that kindness as a true mark of appreciation
for he/she was not forgotten? nor limited to only a professional role
but also was seen in his dimension of being a human being?
that he/she was present in the very mind of a person while being abroad?

and of course, there are other benefits to it too,
just one has to discover them by experiencing them.
who knows?

yes, the group we were in
they were all so different,
some were professional journalists travelling in countries
others went to Africa and lived there long time
others were from a variety of professions like doctors
or sales persons.

but what was surprising
is that people can very quickly pinpoint
who you are as a person
when travelling in a group.

so as i always said,
if you want to know the real worth of a person
just goes with him to a nice trip
and see how he reacts.
his inside comes out. due to challenging circumstances.
and if he has a WAY to grow, then ALL GOOD.
if none. then failed! :x:)

every person would have a major traits of characters,
and everyone would be able to pinpoint it as a consensus,

one would be called as being a non collective person vs collective one
another one being filled with anger
or very analytical and kind
or distant and erased
etc.

that was funny,
but as a whole

i was so pleasantly surprised by the country,
it was a rich country, filled with so much of local wealth, riches,
and kind of people

i LOVED hearing the azan/call to the prayer in the morning at the hotel
the first day
i wondered when i woke up,
where am i? lol

for i had only heard it in Pakistan.

the climate was so much changing in central turkey
in the same day, we got rain, wind, sun, rainbow! i took a picture of it!, and SNOW yes!
snow! i took a picture of it too! in case people are sceptic :))

the carpets color were so vibrant, colorful and amazing, that when they rolled them out 
in front of us one by one
it felt like a symphony (of colors) as a woman called it! :)
so true!

i have to show you the pictures of it.

we learned a lot about hand made carpets vs industrial made ones.
i have to share about it too.

:)
the only regret would be that the development just
erase the local riches
for i loved to stop at petrol stations and being able to buy hand-made jars made of mud
for it was so real, authentic
we could just see them being made by the locals

or the hand made dolls i bought for my supervisor
for the women selling them were already on the verge of making business with tourists lol
they kept calling "Madame! madame!"

as they were 4 with their stands,
i scanned their faces and went to the one i clicked with
for she looked kind
and i bought her her two dolls

it was nearby the entrance of an underground city in Cappadoccia
even the tour guide sort of pleaded us in his tone, though it was hidden,
to buy them for they are, he meant, poor.

ah, i loved the Turkish men humor!
i guess my husband to be would have loved them ;)


lots of kisses and pictures to come
yes, i need to buy a cable to transfer them from camera to the laptop

:)
:x

ps : i forgot to talk of the ancient Greeko Roman city in south of Turkey
apparently the most beautiful and preserved old cities of this time are not in Greece
but in Turkey and Sicilia!
what a lucky girl i am! we went to Perge

HAVE is a MUST to show you the pictures or video :)

oh yeah, the manifestations
we witnessed them, me only one.

but as the guide was telling us,
how in Cappadocia,
so many peoples used to live from Hittes to Roman and Greek and
all religions, Pagans, Christians and Muslims

how the sufis of their time were specialists in Astronomy and all sciences and yet such spiritual guys

today's Turkey should learned from its past history
and not go into fanatiscim which would be devoid of any Beauty of the Spirit their country has inherited of
nor be so secular and hateful of spirituality that Attaturk put into museum.

you cannot put LIFE into museum
nor REDUCE life to a religion,

Life is YOU in ALL its RICHES.

Love and KISSES to TURKEY.
BE the example of SOLUTION of this Modern Era
the REAL BRIDGE between Europ and Asian
and mingle all of the religons and guide people to their OWN INNER riches and spirituality

that your country has inherited.

kiss:x ;)

Universal dreams and meditation

i had a few great dreams lately i forgot to wrote,

i had the dream of an old man who was about to die
so he wrote a letter to rumi in a newspaper sharing of his sorrow of life nearing its end,
then rumi answered to his letter saying
what he did of his life
he answered that he was the advisor of the king
and used to spend all of his time interpreting dreams.

(somehow that matches me, if i spend time to interpret people 's dos and don'ts.)

then, i saw both of them under a night starry sky
and then, rumi asked again
who he was
again he answered interpretor of dreams
he asked again with pressure
and then he answered : i was the liberated one

(yes, because the guy was sooo engrossed in his life/MEANING
for yes people in islam drive me NUTS when they don't understand what DUNIA means;
it means ONLY FALSE identifications of yours with your experience/role/ID/job etc.OK?!
hehehe.
- so the guy i repeat had identified himself with a role, and had forgotten that all the way
he was The Spirit - The Liberated One ALREADY).


and then, i saw like a white smoke, not smoke but can one say
a sort of white spirit of his?
ascending upwards to the starry night sky
it was symbolising his liberation

and one could see like eyes of God
watching him
they had turned like thunder

so rumi said to him
it is not of any use to get emotional
by seeing those eyes

(in a way they are just being so thunder like
because of his own perception reflecting his forgetfulness of who he IS.)

then, i think the scene ended.

anyhow, when i got up in the morning,
i rushed to go to meditate
because i did not want to end up dying like a waste
really
and also i did not want that all my past meditation becomes nothing
because i was slacking

so i did one hour walking meditation

during it, when hands in front of belly

i rememebered the ok mantra

so i realsied that if one does not start with it

the energy cannot rise to the sahasrara

like if we take the example of runners, each on a starting line

ready to race. and each having like say a kundalini behind them

and they have to run upwards to the sahasrara

it cannot happen

UNLESS they are authorised to go

so the ok word

is the one that authorised

well seen like that

it is the image i got

also,

when it is said if we have a problem we use the ok mantra

and turn it in our own belly

not on the outside

it reminded me

like in cartoon

you have a sort of huge marmite (in french, same in english?)

where the magicians turn the water inside

and then you see versions of real life?

so it is same

we are suppose to be like the outer witness of these images

which are mere images within the pot/marmite.

and then, we can just say it is ok

and the image of the scene changes.

then, during the walking one,

i felt a united field, like a balloon extended

except for the forehead

then, i started the sitting one

to let it sink

for about 45min

it was all cool

except on the face and forehead

and of course on the heart area

it was at the end like a stone put on the heart

so i cupped hands for a while

then, i ended with some projections of what will give me joy in life.

oh yeah,

for the precedent dreams,

i had seen a paiting,

a living painting

where there were all of the prophets

and i was watching it with a friend of mine

and i was asked to pintpoint which person was which prophets

so i saw jesus, john the baptiste and moses first as long as i remember

otherwise,

today in the meditation,

i saw the status in stone of saint pierre

with feathers behind him

was he an angel?

also he got his right hand in the middle of his body,

you know like a half namaste?

saint pierre in wikipedia is the symbol of ? i forgot.
will check later.

hm, good production of the day, isn't it? :)

kiss:x