Boredom

i realised that actually i feel bored
when things goes into routine
and seems no more working

and i had forgotten!
that joy is the key

JOY/Love is the ONLY power
that works

which means
if i do something
without joy then it will bear no fruits

this means NOT to submit to the task like a slave
and call it joy
or force joy upon myself

this means to INITIATE a VERSION of that task
in MY MIND that would BRING JOY
and eventually i could FEEL JOY in my heart

this changes everything

so now, lol
i took part in a game to win a week end somewhere in some castle

so what i did
is first i imagined myself at this place
wondered FIRST
WHAT joy is close to this scene to me

so for me
it was the stone of the castle
i like the touch of it

the wind of the place
that gives sensation of freedom up high
a castle up high on a cliff

and under the sea
the waves sound is fabulous

and of course
a good green forest nearby
to feel refreshed in the morning

while having my breakfast in the garden!

;)
as i felt the joy of the version of the scene
then, i let it go
in the silence


i have to win !
for otherwise why i would have felt the joy?

if i felt it, then it is real

it is JUST the timing of it
that i am not in control of

as i have been told
you do your share : the WHAT
and let GOD care for the : WHEN (why, who etc.)