after my meditation
as i was looking at the keyboard
it felt light was coming out of it
then on the spot i realised
it is not light coming out of the present keyboard itself
but it was because i was in the present
meaning that
i was not identifying myself in that very present moment
with any other thing than the Present itself
thus the Present itself
is Pure Light
for if i was identifying myself with some
past or future thoughts
then de facto i would not have been present
yet, what is the Present?
if not that which is Eternal
i.e. in the manifestation (outward/out of ourselves world that one can see with our eyes)
the Light itself.
for in the Present
inside we are One with our Light
and its projection
meaning what we can see in our outside world in that very moment
is also reflecting this light
while wearing different form.
so it is not the light coming out of the stuff around me in the present
but it is only my own inner light
that i could see outside of me
for the outside is only the inside but wearing/experimenting varieties of other forms.
Saturday 14 June 2014
Friday 13 June 2014
One thought and One emotion at a time
I found a thing
it is said that we can use our power best
if we use ONE thought and One Emotion
at a time
so there was an insect flying in the room
so i raised energy
and put my attention on it only
so it makes one thought
and one emotion
so i felt joy for that very attention of mine (who was the insect)
if the insect would remain stuck up there and move no more
yes!
it hit me,
the attention is not ON the insect outward
the attention IS FEELING inside
how joyous i would feel FEELING the insect stuck up there
so it is as if the attention was the insect !
therefore i understand
this is why the awareness is ALL that around
for the awareness is aware/witness of EACH SINGLE THOUGHT
and the insect is BASICALLY A THOUGHT - MATERIALISED!
therefore ONE thought
and ONE feeling OF it
equals you are it inside
and can have power on your "self"
this is WHY there are this picture
about the awakening with multiple eyes
for it means
ALL the thoughts that one is AWARE of,
is the COMPLETE awareness
it is said that we can use our power best
if we use ONE thought and One Emotion
at a time
so there was an insect flying in the room
so i raised energy
and put my attention on it only
so it makes one thought
and one emotion
so i felt joy for that very attention of mine (who was the insect)
if the insect would remain stuck up there and move no more
yes!
it hit me,
the attention is not ON the insect outward
the attention IS FEELING inside
how joyous i would feel FEELING the insect stuck up there
so it is as if the attention was the insect !
therefore i understand
this is why the awareness is ALL that around
for the awareness is aware/witness of EACH SINGLE THOUGHT
and the insect is BASICALLY A THOUGHT - MATERIALISED!
therefore ONE thought
and ONE feeling OF it
equals you are it inside
and can have power on your "self"
this is WHY there are this picture
about the awakening with multiple eyes
for it means
ALL the thoughts that one is AWARE of,
is the COMPLETE awareness
what i have learned
before i had doubts
even with sufism
because i knew not what is Truth
i knew not how could i trust
with a spontaneous awakening
and feeling of cool breeze
stemming from inside
i knew it was not controlled
from outside
therefore
it was mine
uncontrolled
neither by someone nor by my ego
but i wanted more
a new change
for Truth brings change
because if you don't change for the better
than you stay in same situation in your life
not evolving
and turning in circle
with the same "issues"
more or less worsening
so i learned it was about taking charge of one's own life
the cool breeze is the manifestation
that the inner divine energy
pushes upwards
at heart level take the spirit
and bring it upwards
above head
above thoughts
and thus liberates you from your bonding
of identification with your own thoughts
above thoughts
is pure silence
once liberated
we have space
space to create what we wish for
therefore each person should seek for what
his or her pure desire it
to allow it to be manifested
the more more thoughtless awareness
the more silence
the more silence, the more emptiness
and when ONE thought with ONE emotion
is placed in this shrine of silence
encircled by emptiness
then this ONE thought
becomes empowered
and is manifested
for power before
ALSO existed
but used to be divided by different thoughts
when divided so much, quota of power per thought is weak
but one thought one power
is a powerful condition for your desire to become real
thus you are your own master
at last free to experience what you wish
which is no more illusive daily striving.
but if you trust not
this spirit inside
which is the container of the Pure Love
then you cannot gamble your Life
for a new change
for letting it take a new turn
and become first
transformed by Love
and then, become itself Love
once it is Love
it is actually a level of manifesation of this Pure Awareness/Silence the spirit is brought in
for in vibration
Peace is above Love
and i guess above Peace
are new levels
for Face of God
shines ever day into a NEW splendor
as there is NO limit to GOD
but if one takes not this turn for Pure Love in life
then, there is no more space
for the Pure Desire for Love
to transform us
and as God forces not
one has no more natural ground to live
for Pure Desire cannot be removed.
This is why
no conditioning
even be it the apparent ultimatum of Quran
given by ignorant people
see the scene :
As the battle continued, Malik al-Ashtar fought his way through the opposing army until he was two rows away from Mu'awiyah's tent.[5][7] Only two rows away from killing Mu'awiyah and ending the war. However, a situation occurred. Mu'awiyah wanted to trick Imam Ali's army to stop fighting and disunite them by creating confusion. So he asked Amr ibn al-As, who told him, "I'm sure we can cheat them with the Qur'an."[8] Mu'awiyah loved the idea and ordered his soldiers to place the Quran on their spear.[4][5] When most of the soldiers of Imam Ali saw this they stopped fighting. Though Imam Ali knew that it was a trick by Mu'awiyah to create confusion and disunity, he told his army "It's a trick! I was the first to invite them to Allah's Book. And I was the first to believe in it. They've disobeyed Allah and broken His promise." (this is referring to the negotiation/persuading process before the war)[5] Imam Ali wanted his soldier to continue fighting because they were so close to victory. Despite Imam Ali's effort, 22,000 soldiers of Imam Ali disobeyed his commands and said "Stop fighting and order al-Ashtar to withdraw!"[5] Knowing that his own soldiers had turned their backs on him and a few group of true believers, Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib told his soldiers to command Malik to return for safety reasons.[4] The messenger gave Malik the order. Even though, Malik knew that he has the opportunity to end the war and rid the world of Ma'uwiyah, he stopped and returned.[4][5] Malik said "If Ali ibn Abi Talib orders something, I have to return".[7] This moment was a defining moment in Malik's life because it shows his discipline and submission to Imam Ali Ibn Abi Talib.
Quran ties people in fear - that's a trick
Quran cannot be understood by mind, but by heart.
while Truth is Spiritual and ever preached,
few can hear it,
to be led to Victory
source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malik_al-Ashtar
nor the outwards play of power can deter the Truthful people :
see the scene :
Their enmity and open threats of a breach between Abu Talib's clan, the Banu Hashim and the rest of the Banu Quraish distressed Abu Talib who was aware of the cost that his nephew Muhammad had to pay if deserted . Abu Talib sent for Muhammad and told him the news, "Spare me and yourself and put not burden on me that I can’t bear". Muhammad thought that his uncle would let him down and would no longer support him, so he replied:
"O my uncle! by God if they put the sun in my right hand and the moon in my left on condition that I abandon this course, until God has made me victorious, or I perish therein, I would not abandon it." Muhammad got up, and as he turned away, his uncle called back and then said "Go and preach what you please, for by God I will never forsake you.". Abu Talib then recited two lines of verse with meanings of full support to Muhammad.
source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Second_and_third_deputation_with_Abu_Talib
Moon is the Left channel in our subtle system in our body
Sun is the Right channel
even if ALL kinds of Power of BOTH channels were given to Muhammad (peace be upon him)
he would have NEVER abandon Truth, which is in the CENTRAL CHANNEL, the Middle Path (ehdina sirah tal mustaqim = the straight path) for any other manifestation of power.
He stood his Ground.
for ONLY the middle channel opening leads to Victory.
and Victory is in Surah Fatah ( Chapter of Victory) in quran,
Fatah, with the sound Fa, means the Opening ,
like the opening of a seed
or like in surah Falak (the day break)
the cleaving of the seed which leads to see the light
and this cleaving is that of your Inner Energy
which pierces your fontanel area
and brings you to Light
while before you were closed into an egg/seed/ darkness
nor could ever make a true seeker of Truth waver
see the scene.
Heart being capable of All Form of love
is not a poetic moving wish of ibn Arabi
it is LITERALLY the HAPPENING
THE VICTORY talked of above
for it is when the Kundalini takes your spirit
Above your thoughts
thoughts are mental FORMS
and once your are ABOVE those mental forms
you are in the PURE AWARENESS which is the ONLY state
where your Heart can be capable of ALL forms of LOVE.
for Love is the Meaning of Life
and without Love Life is no naturally no more.
so unless you already know what you desire
and that desire be your DRIVE
and unless you test your belief
to see if this belief feeds you and quench your thirst
for Life, Love, God
you will never find Certainty.
For finding ever fresh and renewed Life
is finding God
finding this constant Pure Love in continuous way
is finding God
and finding God
is finding Certainty
Finding Love is finding Certainty.
For the Constant Presence of Love felt on your path, is the Proof of you having found God inside you.
it is the proof of you being finally fed by your Pure Desire.
Therefore, your life will naturally flow and go on.
for God is not outside
it is the REAL YOU inside
the HU (arabic meaning WHO HE IS)
and the real Eternal Life in you
is the SPIRIT
whose manifestation at heart level is LOVE
and above thought is PEACE
and above is as far as you can go.
Natural Drive
if there is no more drive
then self obviously
the inner life can no more flow
and when the river is no more
life is no more.
then self obviously
the inner life can no more flow
and when the river is no more
life is no more.
Thursday 22 May 2014
Reality of heaven and hell
what is Reality?
even the word Reality is not really true, real i.e. rightly understood by us
i never was religious from the beginning,
but spiritual
by then i had no clue that even the word spiritual existed
i only knew that i liked to discover inner beauties
as if i was literally uncovering lid fro a can
so when i went on an islamic forum
and saw so much division
that hit me
for i never thought that division in what is called the last and completed religion existed
so i declared by then,
that God does not takes side even if it is called islam
but protects Truth
this i was innerly sure of,
it was a sure shot
innerly i felt disconnected with the inner touch
when i met a sort of muslim teacher
who was so much more in touch with quran
that i wanted to follow the quranic teaching
but the thing is
people knows more the letter of it
than the spirit of it
from that time i lost touch with my inner self
and that used to be soft
once i tried to be "honest"
i felt it was impossible to practice religion
and i felt my heart became hard
somehow i met a sufi group
so that was the spirituality i was always attracted with
that time was really particular
for i was so much in touch with my inner world of dreams and visions
this was a total mind blowing experience
for it opened a door to perception
to right perception on some regards
and that is :
hell and heaven exist
right now
as said in the Constantine movie :
John Constantine: But when you cross over time stops. Take it from me, two minutes in hell is a lifetime. When I came back I knew all the things I could see were real. Heaven and hell are right here. Behind every wall, every window. The world behind the world, and we're smack in the middle.
watching this movie
when i heard Heaven and Hell are right here
it reminded me my own dreams and visions in that period of my life
the new breakthrough by then in my life
was to really understand
that Heaven and Hell are NOW and NOT later, not once we are dead we go to heaven and hell
i can related to the muslims reading that
for each single counter truth i may seem to say
because i went through them all
it can be proven
by simple logic
in hadith is it not said
the way we die is the way we are raised up?
if we die as a believer we are raised as such in heaven
if we die as a disbeliever we are raised as such in hell
because our last moment is NOT a moment OUT of Time
it is NOT to come
it is ALREADY there!
by the very choices we do in the now and then
we choose either to take the PATH leading to heaven
or the PATH leading to hell
and the PATH itself is heaven if we die on it
or the path itself is hell if we die on it
as in the hadith of the guy
who chose to show abnegation to God to be forgiven
after having killed so many people
he died while travelling to a saint place
and while he was half way between the heaven and hellish place
angels of both sides fought to know who shall get his soul
and finally due to his INTENTION set
God shortened the path to heaven for him
thus he was counted among the heavenly ones
so it is true
each of our decisions and choices BUILD up to our heaven or hell
and NOT as to COME
but as IS.
heaven and hell are ON THE SPOT
it is NEVER after
the word HEREAFTER - Akheera
means MORE than the english image of hereafter
we misunderstand it as AFTER the NOW
just by browsing on net one can already find this :
even the word Reality is not really true, real i.e. rightly understood by us
i never was religious from the beginning,
but spiritual
by then i had no clue that even the word spiritual existed
i only knew that i liked to discover inner beauties
as if i was literally uncovering lid fro a can
so when i went on an islamic forum
and saw so much division
that hit me
for i never thought that division in what is called the last and completed religion existed
so i declared by then,
that God does not takes side even if it is called islam
but protects Truth
this i was innerly sure of,
it was a sure shot
innerly i felt disconnected with the inner touch
when i met a sort of muslim teacher
who was so much more in touch with quran
that i wanted to follow the quranic teaching
but the thing is
people knows more the letter of it
than the spirit of it
from that time i lost touch with my inner self
and that used to be soft
once i tried to be "honest"
i felt it was impossible to practice religion
and i felt my heart became hard
somehow i met a sufi group
so that was the spirituality i was always attracted with
that time was really particular
for i was so much in touch with my inner world of dreams and visions
this was a total mind blowing experience
for it opened a door to perception
to right perception on some regards
and that is :
hell and heaven exist
right now
as said in the Constantine movie :
John Constantine: But when you cross over time stops. Take it from me, two minutes in hell is a lifetime. When I came back I knew all the things I could see were real. Heaven and hell are right here. Behind every wall, every window. The world behind the world, and we're smack in the middle.
watching this movie
when i heard Heaven and Hell are right here
it reminded me my own dreams and visions in that period of my life
the new breakthrough by then in my life
was to really understand
that Heaven and Hell are NOW and NOT later, not once we are dead we go to heaven and hell
i can related to the muslims reading that
for each single counter truth i may seem to say
because i went through them all
it can be proven
by simple logic
in hadith is it not said
the way we die is the way we are raised up?
if we die as a believer we are raised as such in heaven
if we die as a disbeliever we are raised as such in hell
because our last moment is NOT a moment OUT of Time
it is NOT to come
it is ALREADY there!
by the very choices we do in the now and then
we choose either to take the PATH leading to heaven
or the PATH leading to hell
and the PATH itself is heaven if we die on it
or the path itself is hell if we die on it
as in the hadith of the guy
who chose to show abnegation to God to be forgiven
after having killed so many people
he died while travelling to a saint place
and while he was half way between the heaven and hellish place
angels of both sides fought to know who shall get his soul
and finally due to his INTENTION set
God shortened the path to heaven for him
thus he was counted among the heavenly ones
so it is true
each of our decisions and choices BUILD up to our heaven or hell
and NOT as to COME
but as IS.
heaven and hell are ON THE SPOT
it is NEVER after
the word HEREAFTER - Akheera
means MORE than the english image of hereafter
we misunderstand it as AFTER the NOW
just by browsing on net one can already find this :
f. akrabajamaa , utani % ukoo.} Ahora. n. and Akhera, Aheri, (i) that \vhuh is last (or behind, or beyond), the end, the last stage; (a) cs'i world, fun
source : https://archive.org/stream/swahilienglishdi00madauoft/swahilienglishdi00madauoft_djvu.txt
Akheera with the meaning of LAST, as in LAST stage , that which is BEHIND or BEYOND the seen
like in the prayer of the Prophet :
Allah shows me things as they REALLY ARE.
it is because by then in his time
people went out of sheer period of ignorance
hardly learning that one should should not stone to death baby girls
so how could, except for a few, on a mass scale, higher level consciousness be taught to
people who were so much LOW in their mind
by the way, this is why the prophet said in his last sermon
report my worlds to next generation
for they may understand more/better.
!
it is about understanding more deeply WHEN you ASCEND as SOUL
and your consciousness is raised from lower to HIGHER worlds of understanding!
another word for low is the root word of Dunia
muslims takes too narrow mindedly the meaning of dunia
i know because i went through it
dunia is seen as the life on this earth
that one should shun
so that one reap all for the akeehra in the after life after death
but dunia is NOT this world
dunia is the LOWER part of this world/time
how can time be LOW
when this very time can be your savior?
Daani', which literally something which is low, lowly, insignificant,
something of inferior value
source : islamhelpline.net
so the lower aspect of this life,
in another word, lower consciousness is this dunia
but if you ASCEND, i.e. do the Miraaj as the prophet did,
as you are supposed to work for it in ramadan
then, you can LIVE in this world without being part of the dunia
this is why in a hadith
it was said of a man who came with his ablution water dripping from his face
that he is from the people of heaven (prophet saying)
while other companions of prophets
tried to see lol by stalking him all day long or week long what he did for that
what extra prayer he did
and finally as they found not
they asked him please tell us
and he said
i do nothing
except that i forgive those who hurt me
and how could he be SEEN as HE REALLY IS ON THE SPOT
as a person of heaven?
because heaven was HIS STATE in the NOW
and how he went to heaven ?
by forgiving constantly
so,
when keanu reeves said :
hen I came back I knew all the things I could see were
real. Heaven and hell are right here. Behind every wall, every window.
The world behind the world, and we're smack in the middle.
that is all true!
by then,
when i used to see heavenly like pictures
because i was more in a temporary state of goodness
i used to be so happy
as if i was in another world though living in this one
but when i had constrained myself by attaching myself to
self reproach, guilt and sorrow
i saw literally speaking hell
felt it
and when i used to got up from these nightmares
i could still feel scorch on the skin, if i had been hurt during it.
it is ONLY because of the awakening of the cool breeze
that i started to learn to LET GO and FORGIVE myself.
our own body will become heaven or hell
by the way we choose to address ourselves
yes the way we address others is the way we address ourselves ON THE SPOT
it is not a far off connection
for i learned a few weeks ago
that if i hit my foot
the nerves got shocked and the hurt ascended up the spine!
therefore back got hurt! though there is no apparent link between a foot and back hurt!
and i understood
1-the meaning of resonating - we, being a resonator
2-the meaning of extending limbs
such as
if foot hurt lead me to accumulated in my spine, nervous system the hurt felt
then what about my hands when they give hurt to someone else?
it means , that me too i accumulated inside of me ON THE SPOT the hurt i am sending out
by extension i am the Beauty i recognise and give to others
and the hellfire that i nourish in acting so towards others and thus myself.
it is the FIRST time i REALLY lived the experience of
the OTHER as YOURSELF
by the way :)
did you know that Keanu (Reeves) means in Hawaii language "the cool breeze over the Mountain"!:)
Thursday 8 May 2014
Bad Mood
i had a real bad mood yesterday
the thing with bad mood
is that you WANT TO STAY WITH IT
as looooooooooooooong as it takes
and then, had i had my fiancé in front of me
i would have smashed his head
lol
hehehe
so,
having a bad mood is OK
actually it is important to avoid it
however..is also important to see,,who is watching the bad mood,,?..
is the witness
is the arising and passing away..of mental citta factors
(citta = is our attention, the mental + emotional sides)
if you do NOT do it on the spot..you CAN get stuck on bad citta
this is WHY i was SO MUCH ENGROSSED in that BAD MOOD
that i did not want to calm down
for i had taken it as MY ID by then, so much i identified myself with it
and why it was so?
because i refused to meditate..while in the BAD mood..to ,,see,, the mood
so meditation ON THE SPOT
allow us to SEE ourselves, here to see my bad mood
but true,
who wants to SEE that which is bad?
i prefer on the spot to have a fighting character
a real bad one
instead of seeing it passing
which means
preferring to identify more and more with it by allowing time to pass like that
instead of seeing it passing!
that is so stupid of me
hopefully
next time i will raise my energy ON THE SPOT
to SEE the state of emotions i am IN
so that it JUST be a PASSING thing
as it was MEANT TO BE
and NOT something sticky lol
the thing with bad mood
is that you WANT TO STAY WITH IT
as looooooooooooooong as it takes
and then, had i had my fiancé in front of me
i would have smashed his head
lol
hehehe
so,
having a bad mood is OK
actually it is important to avoid it
however..is also important to see,,who is watching the bad mood,,?..
is the witness
is the arising and passing away..of mental citta factors
(citta = is our attention, the mental + emotional sides)
if you do NOT do it on the spot..you CAN get stuck on bad citta
this is WHY i was SO MUCH ENGROSSED in that BAD MOOD
that i did not want to calm down
for i had taken it as MY ID by then, so much i identified myself with it
and why it was so?
because i refused to meditate..while in the BAD mood..to ,,see,, the mood
so meditation ON THE SPOT
allow us to SEE ourselves, here to see my bad mood
but true,
who wants to SEE that which is bad?
i prefer on the spot to have a fighting character
a real bad one
instead of seeing it passing
which means
preferring to identify more and more with it by allowing time to pass like that
instead of seeing it passing!
that is so stupid of me
hopefully
next time i will raise my energy ON THE SPOT
to SEE the state of emotions i am IN
so that it JUST be a PASSING thing
as it was MEANT TO BE
and NOT something sticky lol
Boredom
i realised that actually i feel bored
when things goes into routine
and seems no more working
and i had forgotten!
that joy is the key
JOY/Love is the ONLY power
that works
which means
if i do something
without joy then it will bear no fruits
this means NOT to submit to the task like a slave
and call it joy
or force joy upon myself
this means to INITIATE a VERSION of that task
in MY MIND that would BRING JOY
and eventually i could FEEL JOY in my heart
this changes everything
so now, lol
i took part in a game to win a week end somewhere in some castle
so what i did
is first i imagined myself at this place
wondered FIRST
WHAT joy is close to this scene to me
so for me
it was the stone of the castle
i like the touch of it
the wind of the place
that gives sensation of freedom up high
a castle up high on a cliff
and under the sea
the waves sound is fabulous
and of course
a good green forest nearby
to feel refreshed in the morning
while having my breakfast in the garden!
;)
as i felt the joy of the version of the scene
then, i let it go
in the silence
i have to win !
for otherwise why i would have felt the joy?
if i felt it, then it is real
it is JUST the timing of it
that i am not in control of
as i have been told
you do your share : the WHAT
and let GOD care for the : WHEN (why, who etc.)
when things goes into routine
and seems no more working
and i had forgotten!
that joy is the key
JOY/Love is the ONLY power
that works
which means
if i do something
without joy then it will bear no fruits
this means NOT to submit to the task like a slave
and call it joy
or force joy upon myself
this means to INITIATE a VERSION of that task
in MY MIND that would BRING JOY
and eventually i could FEEL JOY in my heart
this changes everything
so now, lol
i took part in a game to win a week end somewhere in some castle
so what i did
is first i imagined myself at this place
wondered FIRST
WHAT joy is close to this scene to me
so for me
it was the stone of the castle
i like the touch of it
the wind of the place
that gives sensation of freedom up high
a castle up high on a cliff
and under the sea
the waves sound is fabulous
and of course
a good green forest nearby
to feel refreshed in the morning
while having my breakfast in the garden!
;)
as i felt the joy of the version of the scene
then, i let it go
in the silence
i have to win !
for otherwise why i would have felt the joy?
if i felt it, then it is real
it is JUST the timing of it
that i am not in control of
as i have been told
you do your share : the WHAT
and let GOD care for the : WHEN (why, who etc.)
The Spirit
i had today a nice dream
ah that was beautiful and glorious
i saw the spirit
raising like a huge flame
and it raised in front of shri mataji who was next to me
and he raised so that she too recognises its grandeur
as she did, she bowed to it
i liked that
that was truly real scene for the word Glory
now somehow i will do what i can, to get this too
i have to , because this kind of glory i have never seen it in daily life
i just wish dream does not faint in my mind otherwise i forget my drive
out of boredom at times
(why?
cf next post)
it was beautiful
because when i look at it again
first, nothing else existed in the attention
except
only this great and i don t know for what reason, beautiful flame it was, rising
third it was really powerful and especially superior on its own
and when i look back at it , there is no question rising or doubts if it was good or not and to what limit
i can breathe well
ah that was beautiful and glorious
i saw the spirit
raising like a huge flame
and it raised in front of shri mataji who was next to me
and he raised so that she too recognises its grandeur
as she did, she bowed to it
i liked that
that was truly real scene for the word Glory
now somehow i will do what i can, to get this too
i have to , because this kind of glory i have never seen it in daily life
i just wish dream does not faint in my mind otherwise i forget my drive
out of boredom at times
(why?
cf next post)
it was beautiful
because when i look at it again
first, nothing else existed in the attention
except
only this great and i don t know for what reason, beautiful flame it was, rising
third it was really powerful and especially superior on its own
and when i look back at it , there is no question rising or doubts if it was good or not and to what limit
i can breathe well
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