Why Past makes us smile

you know why we smile
when we remember something of the past

like when you find some old letter
or visit a place of your youth?

you smile unconsciously
because unconsciously you know
that you and that other energy which is present
and you were communicating with by then

in the form of your parents or some other person
actually you were in disagreement with and much more
you were opposed to it
and you were rejecting it or neglecting it
to move forward

so you were just oblivious to your Present
and you can see yourself very much daring
while all was already Present

so being in the present/ce of that place of your childhood
you see the/your past
and especially your oblivion to your by-then-present moment

that is why you smile

and that is why
often you were told when kid
later when time pass this will make you laugh
while by then was nothing but annoyance or obstacle

and yet it is  like a script
is not like you could act wise
you were living your experience to learn about life

Matter and Anti- Matter

yesterday night
i saw orbs of light
light bubbles raising up

like a rain of light bubbles
but raising up yea

i saw it a few times
while i was sitting in my couch

 was pretty

this morning when i woke up
for meditation
while i was getting ready for it

it was said through images
i mean as images were telling it

i saw a rope
was said this is rope of God
you see as mentioned in hadith in islam
to "hold to rope of God"

and i saw it rolling itself
on the place of pain in body
it is like a balm
it rolls on it to sooth the pain

so i saw it was circling itself
over and over the chakra itself

(that is of course the kundalini rolling up
on the chakra to heal it)

then it was said
that when power goes through
it acts powerfully

so much that i thought
it might affects hugely the world
once it is switched on
cause the rope has curled itself many times
on the chakra
so once switched on
it would exerce HUGE power out

if the power switched on

cause it said
it works like the Switzerland anti matter circuit
and it is indeed The anti-matter
so once it is switched on
it acts like a reverse magnet
and got the 'matter'out

(by the way
i love the english for its meaning
matter as in issue/pain
and matter as in material)

so thanks to its HUGE magnet effect
switched on  when powers goes in
it throws out the "matter"
and this is its anti-matter effect

then,
you are pure

cause you are your own true face
or fabric
without the thorns
cause the matter
are like splinters/thorns

and they get stuck into this rope
hence you feel the pain

is a bit like your skin
you feel pain when you got pimples
cause they are taking space that is not theirs
and as your skin has already the perfect space for itself
an extra piece of skin even of one millimeter
which is in other word the pimple
squeezes your "fabric" too much and you feel pain

is same with the matter
it acts like thorn when it gets stuck
into that rope
and it gives pain

so then when you press that rope
like when you press a button
to switch on the power
the power
acts like a magnet
which radiates a sort of electro-magnetism
and it sheds off the thorns/matters shards
and it acts like a HUGE anti matter

and then
you are your true self
and you are free from pain
you are free

Lyrics : Plus prés des étoiles - Gold
Closer to stars - Gold

for lyrics they are obviously in French
but remember Google is your Friend ;)

Ils ont quitté leurs terres
Leurs champs de fleurs
Et leurs livres sacrés
Traversés les rizières
Jusqu'au grand fleuve salé
Sans amour, sans un cri
Ils ont fermé leurs visages de miel
Les yeux mouillés de pluie
Les mains tendues vers le ciel

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Au pied des murs de pierres
Ils ont brûlé leurs dragons de papier
Refermés leurs paupières
Sur les chenilles d'acier
Eux qui croyaient vieillir
En regardant grandir leurs enfants
A l'ombre du sourire
Des Bouddhas de marbre blanc

Un peu plus près des étoiles

Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Ils parlent à demi-mots
A mi-chemin entre la vie et la mort
Et dans leurs yeux mi-clos

Le soleil, le soleil brille encore
Une île de lumière
Un cerf volant s'est posé sur la mer
Un vent de liberté
Trop loin, trop loin pour les emporter

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

Un peu plus près des étoiles
Au jardin de lumière et d'argent
Pour oublier les rivages brûlants
Un peu plus près des étoiles
A l'abri des colères du vent
A peine un peu plus libres qu'avant

source : http://www.paroles.net/gold/paroles-plus-pres-des-etoiles

Finger of God

ok i was trying over the past few days
to wake up at same time
meaning not 30min or 1h after

just same time

so today
i was like half asleep
and i did my cycle and trying to meditate
while still lying down

lol ridiculous

anyway
as i got a vision

i saw that there was a huge shiva
yea bit blue color body
and he was pointing his index towards my head

a bit like in this fresco painting of Adam Creation
by MichaelAngelo

Actually in the vision
i was trying to adjust my forehead
to the poiting of the finger
to be sure
that light goes through it
and like this i would get total enlightenment

and mind would become luminous

by the way writing it
luminous
is more like CLARITY in mind
it just make more sense to say it
is a bit like usually most of mind is clouded
and you jsut need light enough
so that it be lit fully
and you just see things at hand/in the present

then
of course i woke up
to do the walking meditation
followed by the sitting one

but yeaa
was tempted to stay in the bed
just to see the rest of the vision


ps : neeeeeeeeeeeed my arabicaaaaaa!!!

Intuition

is only by confronting myself
to new situation and people
that i realised new changes
which took place in me

in terms of perception
and use of say "power"
for everyone is like a seed
and thus EVERYONE has powers
or call it skills manifested

once it has germinated.

the new stuff i saw
is that when i looked at stuff
i kind of see the energy or aura?
around it like a halo?
and this is how i know
that i can grab it or not

also in terms of intuition
it got sharper
and difference is NOW
i can ON THE SPOT
decide ACCORDING to it

before i was like asleep
i could feel intuition
and yet not have the will to follow it
was very much observer of my own life
thinking i can't change it
stuff are as they are

now the intuition is being acted upon
spontaneously
on the spot
so the present moment is being caught
if i can express it so

third
i astonishes myself
by the new changes in my look and life style
is like i can see myself going through phases
of self care

stuff that i had never really paid attention to before

is like i am following a scenario
specially written for me
to act in a movie

and it looks normally flowing
is not like i have to "think"
as to what next i should do

yes definitely i don't recognise myself :)))

yet
is very much agreeable
because i am in self discovery adventure

kiss kiss

TV speaks to me

hahahaha

incredible synchronicity

since a week
i got my eyes and mind caught with the idea
of trying the Arabica Café

ok i let it go

then, i got guests
they came buying a packet of Arabica

ok i let it go

then, i felt like sitting in my couch
okay i want café arabica hehehehe

and i KNOW what kind of mix i want
the Italian one
some vanilla ice cream
and you pour onto it
some arabica coffee
hmm....just saw it yesterday on tv...yummy

and NOW
that i was checking for some arabica to buy
i was about to say is ok let it go cause i can just buy some casual coffee..

and tv spoke to me!
through the ad.. "Buy a quality coffee"!!!!!

WTF???!!!!

hahahaha

i thought TV  was speaking DIRECTLY TO ME

IS DECIDED

GOTTA buy that Arabica Quality Coffee and pour it on some Vanilla ice cream

hmm.... yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmy!!!

VID WARNING : I would add MORE WHIPPED CREAM !!!!!!

count on me!

Buddha Light

hm two days ago
as i was going to sleep
in vision
i saw balls of light
swirling upwards

of course as usual
i did not realise it was a vision
as i was in it
only when it ended i remembered
was different

so i was that ball of light
and i was following its movements upwards

then when it ended

i saw a black/tanned man
sitting in meditation style...

...it was buddha actually

amazing vision

Challenge

i wonder what beautiful new challenge
i can pick up?
something new of course
a new exciting project

i learned lately
how much i can affect positively
some people's life

that's powerful

same time now i want something new
hm yes something i can be proud of
cause it brought some beauty and easiness
and has ability to spread
cause it is fed by good attention

oh by the way
i was sitting
and a kid came near me
he sat next to me

he looked at me continuously
so i just smiled to him
and all of sudden
he spoke to me and said
"maman"

and he was waiting i reply to his call
i was just dumbfounded
trying to recover mentally
i said nothing

i felt he saw me
actually i felt afraid was new
plus he said it loud
and people were wondering why he called me so

i swear it hit me deep
cause he was speaking to me
i swear he was calling me

he was seeing his mom in me
the word "mother" all of sudden
felt so universal to me..when he called me so

 (you see is what is pure attention about
is to put your attention ONLY and WHOLLY on what you are saying
then you feel the universal power of it
but when you say something and yet part of your mind is wandering
on something else, what power you think it has?...think hard.)

so that boy has all of his mind there
when he said maman
and not to some human, not to some image,
not to my body,
but to "what is here"

you know
like when you become amnesic
and someone comes to you
and call you
by your name?

it hits you
because you recognise your name
you knew it
but somehow you were trying hard to forget
while pretending to recover memory
yet still praying deeply to go on playing hide and seek?

yet you are trying hard to
remember your name?

i felt like that
and i felt caught

the word maman
spontaneously came out of his lips
liek when i spontaneously happen to speak in urdu with some guy who doesn't even speak it!!!
because of the feeling of nearness ...see?

so now it feels like
the inside mother of the boy was looking at the inside mother of me
and calling herself cause she had found herself in the other
as in a mirror

Japan

am on a roll to write blogs tonight

is it possible
that one be so wrapped up in an energy
that we are clothed by it?

i got special make up
and i looked at my friend
she looked like a japanese to me
all pink in a kimono

and then another friend looked at me
and said i look like japanese too

and precisely
it happens now that i am to go to japan!!!

how is it possible?
that we get wrapped up by the soft energy
of the place we are to go?

is it because this place soft energy
has reached you so much
and enwrapped you
that you look like you already belong to it?

Japan!!!!
i am cooooooooooooooooooooming mwa:x

Life lesson : Accept your Glory

:)

I accepted that i should be praised publicly :)

that is what happened

i did some looong hard job
i was in charge of managing a project from A to Z
except for M,N, O lol
but basically i had to do everything

and in my funny habit
i was about to let all of the credit go to someone else
who was about to steal my idea
a misogyne by the way

and shakti showed it to me
in dream

future was set
and when i realised that i was about to be stolen
from the credit of this soulful hard work
i decided to stand for it

too long to detail it now
but basically i chose to fight for the credit
and it happened that profile changed

and the misogyne guy
not only happen not to steal my project
but praise me in front of 100 of people
and even asked them to give me a standing ovation
at least 3 times

if i had not stood for it
i would have suffered loss this time
pain of this loss
and in future you can bet i would have been forced by another pain
to accept being praised

so i am happy i stood for it
plus i recognise not myself
lol i changed so much
that is like an old me is writing her astonishment of the new me that is being born