Prayer for Guidance

I submit the faults I see to 

the Ocean of Innocence within me.

I submit the desires that arise in me, to 

The River of Pure Desire within me.

I submit any want of attention and love arising in me and reaching for me, to,

The Unconditional Ocean of Love within me.

I submit my thus freed Attention to Thee,

The Keen Observer, the Ever Present Silent Motherly Companion, so perfectly measured in its Giving and Holding back, 

perfect in its creation process, who knows how to water a seed, neither too much so that it does not rot, nor too little so that it does not become dust,

Who taught me, patiently, silently.

Who never rushed me, nor pressed me. Was just silent and just patiently waiting for me just to recognise It, Her.

So Remember me, when i fail to remember You 

Ameen.

For I haven't been created in vain.

So I felt and thanked Mother Earth in early 2000.

So now, I remember again the same feel, today, in 2021.

Inbetween, the flower died and evolved into a fruit.

Let it mature, and let it go too.

Purification process - completion

 

A flower has to die, for the fruit to become.

Loss of everthing, is not an end. Not a dead end.

It is the new beginning. Phoenix rising from the ashes.

Let people rejoice when hurt affect you. And forgive them. Becquse they don't know.

They don't know any better, they don't know the Spirit, so close to them, within.

Or if they know, they forget to accept they have these hidden thoughts.

Hidden by the choice, as everything is led ooen, as soon as you feel it.

Covering up, to create an image of perfection.

Only God is perfect.

Your end is not a dead end, it is a living process.

Fruit after flower dies.

Foetus after the cell dies.

God after the human dies.

Die before you die, all masters said.

Living death is not a dead end.

Fruit is created from Life (flowers)

Chair is man made, creating dead object from dead wood.

Firstly, recognition, then submission to the living process. Is the beginning to become a fruit.

After death, know there is life. This is truth. This is true Faith. 

Secondly, know God is perfect.

I.e. not as an image to be worshipped. All scriptures warned not to create idols.

But perfect as in a living intelligent process, which knows its continuous, spontaneous course. Flowing like a river in you.

Thirdly, your perfection lies in not covering the truth. Your perfection lies in the remembrance of this perfect living process that you have to ride, like a boat on a river or a train on its track.

Unknown, mysterious yet self sufficient.Perfectly wired to growth.

Fourthly, what is to not cover and to remember?

Not to cover what clouds you see, feel in you, not cover the limitations you see and feel.

Such as anger, jealousy, envy, seeking constant attention, approvals, praise, love even.

Feel each emotions as they surface on the lake, when the dirt is stirred in you.

Life, its manifestation, ie people are your teacher. The perfect living process, remember?

Once you feel them, do not deny them. Do not turn a blind eye to it, as if you hadn't seen them in you. Do not reject them. 

Instead Bury your dead, with honor and love.

See them, and forgive them, let them go, entrust them into the Ocean of Innocence.

For heart to open up, the four rivers have to irrigate It.

Ocean of Innocence.

Ocean of Love, detachment, love for every feeling/unconditional as explained above no covering.

Pure Desire, let your desires arising be iffered to thr ocean of innocence within to be purified

Once you bury your dead. Silence.

The fourth river will arise, and open the other four in your brain.

Lastly, Remember. 

For each clouds passing by on the acreen of your mind, unload it, forgive, let it go when it arises in meditation or in your life on spot. Life is also meditation, once you have grown from sitting to standing and walking meditation.

This purification 

You can feel the nerves knot unknotting themselves in your heart, in your back of head.

Hence traits of your face change.

Auspiciousness is seen on your face. Flawlessness.

Because the living process is perfect.

So, you have sacrificed and entrusted to your inner Ocean of Innocence, Love and all That is.

I am what I am.

Ameen.

As God is the beginning and the end.

All e

Problems and Solution

 Problems come from within.

Solution, R-evolution has to come from within.

By upgrading consciousness.

Fortify your Attention

Laser like focus of Attention.

Needs training, everyday.

To anchor it, to let it grow.

Unload your Attention from this and that, and whenever you see clouds hovering on it, let it soak it into the Ocean of Innocence, within.

Condemn not, instead be KIND to yourself.

All and Everything is within.

Life, in me

I am just an electromagnetic field.

Like a lake of plasma, where the gods are being projected

Whatever they project, ugly or beautiful, it is not me

It is not me, it is not me, it is not me.

I am just a mirror of creation.

Who am i

Me, the mere mirror

Has been given the blessing of life

To Self Reflect

So judge me not, for what you see, is not me.

Life has poured Its Self into me, created me.

Though a creation from there, myself I became, here,  a Creator...as the elixir of Life has touched me.

Neither this, nor that

I am what I am

From creation to Creator

Still, Life, is the Best Creator of creators.

Noble Nature

 "There are some natures too noble to curb and too lofty to bend" - Little women 

Gracefully said.

The lenient way of acceptance. 

This is  a very loving way of giving space to that which the society tries to put in a box.

And if you don't conform, then you are condemned.

Truth is, this sentence found its echo and has stricken a chord in many.

Why so?

Because that part of our true nature found at last some recognition.

The beauty of Nature lies in its silent, ever-giving creative force.

Usually, we love to make noise to attract attention.

The louder, the better. Even more in our current society. 

Making a name in the society, having a title, making a show of oneself, being anti conformist etc. To leave a mark, to make a distinction from such and such.

Everything, whatever the form is, aims at one thing truly... To be seen. It begs for attention. It begs, in truth, for love.

Why Christmas time is so happy?

You go to a store and you feel like buying everything you see 😉

Why is it so?

Same store, once closed, drama is over. You'd run away from it at night time when it is empty.

Because the human warmth is gone.

Humans emit something joyful, even if themselves they don't know it.

So, it is not really the object you want to buy, but the experience of feeling the warmth of humanity, reflected on these items that gives you the joy and pushes you to grab hold of it.

Attention is the food that each soul, in truth, thirsts for.

Yet, with attention being such a valuable curren-cy, where does it flow?

Who's land do you irrigate with your attention?

You irrigate a land that is not yours, which fruits will never be yours. To eat.

You'll end up thirsty and hungry.

Lit the light inside first, grow in depth, then let it spread around.

Do not borrow someone else's light by mimicking it, because you think it is what the standard is.

Nor give your light to someone else, while you need it most.

Instead, forgive in yourself all the limitations and pain you feel,

So that your own light be allowed to shine and thus truly be seen.

To me, our true Nature, our true Essence is so noble that it just wait in silence for us to recognise it.

Our attention to it, will allow it to grow strong, straight and high, like a pine tree 🌲🌲🌲

So, it is more correct to say,

Our Nature is too noble to curb and too lofty to bend. 

It is how we came in this life when born.

Then, why do we leave it so ugly looking?

Mother Mary

 There was such a nice vision/ dream.

In which I saw a white space, where couple of people were doing their activities.

And I was seeking something else, that's when the scene shifted and I found myself looking at 3 women closed to God.

One of them, that i only remember, was the first.

And it was mother Mary. She was standing in her mihrab, or praying niche.

And I remember to have seen them all 3, and exclaimed, 'Oh they are so closed to God! I need to slow down the time, to catch them up'.

Energy goes where Attention goes

 There are dreams, where it is water color scenes on the screen of my mind.

There are also real dreams; where my senses, are partly or fully engaged, i tend to call them visions so real they look.

And there are visions; while i am awake and see it happening, day dreaming?

Yesterday it had a vision, in which i saw Shri mataji sitting on a golden chair, i was facing her and the exchange was telepathic.

I saw that she sent a beam of vibrations , you know like when you hit a gong? just using her mind intent and it hit me on top of my head and i felt both balloon resonating to the vibration hitting on them.

I can still recall the feel. It is really like you hit a gong and it vibrate at the impact of the stick.

I felt them shivering to the vibes. 

Then She said "Now let it go".

 

.......

 That was quite real. today i was thinking about it and when you realise that emotions are stuck into our system, as they are unseen, if you are being hit, it is to help you see them in you. to help you see even there location in your body, where they are still stuck.

The hit, helps you locate the stuck emotions, this pressure point is called pain. 

And then you let it go, it is your liberation.

If you keep making a drama out of it, it is your choice, but it serves no purpose than you experimenting what next as part of the running drama, well it is a fun for a time. You like to be the victim, you like revenge, you like the satisfaction of going through a wide range of emotions, experimenting them blaming here and there, such and such and inside enjoying the whole process.

 

But then you end up believing that the drama is real and you can't let go. 

 

Enjoy, experiment and let it go. 

 

Body should be full of running energy, fluid. Stuck up emotions just stagnate there and you don't know they are still there, your system becomes clogged and it starts putrefying, attitude and manners change, you traits become rough and your behavior grosser, you develop eventually disease and you believe it is human fate.

 

It is not, you can be a perfectly higher being. You can be full of living stream, running rivers of pure water in your body, imagine what new fruits these running water can bring to you?

 

Like Bruce Lee said - Be like water my friend.

 

Sometimes just a beautiful word said to your friend, make them shine with beauty, because their spirit inside them was happy to be seen, recognized.

 

Everything beam, respond, resonate to its alikeness. Spirit resonate to Beauty. 

This is why people beam with joy if you say nice words to them.

 

There is no need to make it specially a method, a social convention or a management practice, but just to time it when you feel it, it is what it makes it real.

 

I am resuming blogging after i recall now quite a few years, even though i feel it has just been yesterday i had blogged. 

Truth is i look back and see how a wonderful life i have had, beautiful and unique experiences and people i met. Yes i was very little versed in human being social behavior, sounds funny to say this. But it is true.

I have learned a lot about how a human being functions. For the sake of the experience i chose to dwell on some unexplored emotions that i had never tried before; such as understanding the why of certain behavior, digging into it till its bone marrow and getting to understand why so and so did what they did, why they had these feelings, why they acted the way they did.

 

I realized it is good for me to understand the mechanics of how human being feel and act on their emotions when alone and when in social settings. 

For a while it taught me a lot, but overall the only conclusion i came to each time at the end of the experiment was that only Love solves everything it; only love is the only working option, and love is not an emotion, love is above your thoughts to start with, but love is intelligent, love is not an emotion, but it is a power that moves mountain of complexities around you.

 

Love is independant, it is well rooted in your sacred chakra and it takes it time, the time it takes it takes, to grow through you. Like a seedling , then this seedling becomes a plant, and a young tree, and its bark become as thick as it can get, till you realise you have been nursing a tree inside you, that has spread all over your nervous system, these nerves are its branches.

 The more you let the sap flow into it, the more it cleanses, unclog and bring nutrients to its leaves and when it rises above your brain, when it break through the marasm of your thoughts, as it is said, "higher powers take over" vs the power of your thoughts.

 God is Great, greater than what your thoughts, than the power and scope of action of your thoughts. 

 

You wish and you let it go. Then you wait and see what Gift life will bring back to you. As the whole Universe conspires to nourish a seed with its nutrient, so does Life for your wishes.

 

Life itself is a metaphor, babies are born to remind the parents of their own lost heavly state of innocence. The baby birth to its growth all is a metaphor about your own soul.

Your soul is this unknown treasure within you, asleep, once it wakes up by the Grace of the kundalini, only a tiny portion of it awakened. Even this tiny portion needs to be nutured in your nabhi, start its ascension, growth and breakthrough your sahasrara and connect to the whole.

Its connexion to the whole make all the other be like your extended self, though i do not feel it so, i do see how at times the universes conspire knowingly or unknowingly into helping me, by gathering all the elements i need for things to work out.

Finally, learning to celebrate and feel the joy by doing any simple task, is i learned the reality.

Being anxious for the next step, behind stuck in past pain, none of it has light, as it is just no more nor will be. But that celebration in the present, that joy is the only moment that transform your past pain, submit them to the natural state of joy and like a river it will flow its course, you have to do nothing.

The path flowing is itself a living river that follow its natural course. Future is also created without you doing anything,  except feeling your desire fully in the present.

As my friend danny, reminded me, 

Attention is the only thing you have.

It is true.

Where is your attention, and what you do of it, how you focus it, how you purify it, how you train it, all of this matter.

Where attention goes, energy goes, so imagine, the quality of your attention, the more refined it is, the more wonderful the sparks it'll create as soon as Energy is laid upon it.