For the first time in my life i saw the ocean
not sea, but ocean
and not from afar
but right on the beach
when we were just 100m away
it felt so awesome
so huge
like a huge presence covering all of the horizon
that was as if it was one huge being
then, we went to the beach
just near enough to put our feet in the waves
that was really the first time i was doing this
that was amazing
when the wave came
that was really cool
temperature was cool too
and it was really impressive
for i had never heard the sound of the waves
and felt really afraid
i remember once i just sat on a wooden floor
when it was a tempest and raining
i was sitting in the garden
and i felt so much afraid
due to the force of the wind, rain
one feels that anything could happen
we are no more in control
but there, it were roaring waves
and the sky was covered with dark clouds
and the waters were from a deep blue and grey colors too
had i been alone
it would have been really awesome
but even though there were other people
i felt quite afraid
and first time waves hit the feet
that was ok
lol
till higher waves kept coming
i was so much considering the waves hitting the feet
that i did not see the size of the wave coming
and that time the wave was huge enough to cover all the legs up to the jacket
had i not lifted the jacket my camera which was in the pocket would have been all soaked up
and i definitely felt having a heart attack lol!
but the most amazing was when the waves were retrieving
for i felt like the ground on which i was standing
was slipping away!
one could not definitely stand on the sand
there was no still point
nothing to hold onto !
and not only this
when i was watching the waves retrieving from the feet
it felt like i had vertigo!
it was like i was seeing the earth being stretched!
like waves going backwards
while the ground was also going backwards
yes, it felt like the ground was being stretched.
when i told that to my friends
they start laughing at my impressions
well, that was my first time
i guess the mind needed some time to adjust
it was less strong the next day
but still the impression remained.
on the beach, i wondered at the shell!
i wondered how could something so beautiful could exist and be put like this on sand so gratefully
and one could pick it up so freely!
that is how it occurred to me
that it is not normal that everything be traded
for we are so used to trade, and buy/sell things which were meant to flow
from one kind of hand to another.
so i felt shocked inside to see that sea gives things so freely.
it is just mankind who is the sole being destined to accumulate and trade everything ; )
and all the little stones were beautiful
they were beautiful because they were constantly washed by the water
polished by the sand
and wind dried them
while sun make them shine
so beautiful they look liked
and they colors were so lively
so i wondered how they would look like
once i pick them up and bring them home
truth to tell, they lost their beauty
and their worth
they were worthy and beautiful only in that setting
that was there real place to be
they looked like small jewels there in the sand
while here at home, they could be any casual stone.
i wished for finding the most beautiful stone there
like a jewel from the sea
kept searching but did not find the one my heart would recognise.
my stay over there was so great
i would go everyday to the ocean
whatever the weather be
people said, they had never seen such windy and rainy weather in south of France
from their life : )
true, tempest, dark clouds and rarely some shot of a sun ray
and tempest back
but it was such a beautiful vision to contemplate
when not there
i was meditating in our place
or preparing some flowers or whatever activity was there
that was very simple
but even though it lasted only three days at best
i felt it as a whole week
and by the end of it,
while i was sitting,
suddenly any image of nature would come in front of me
and i could see it as if i was there
like i could see the ant moving under a leaf in its forest
and i could feel the weight of the soil being moved by its presence
that was a short but awesome beginning of clarity
i felt like waves had washed my vision lol : )
actually, it were my thoughts who have been washed by the waves
indeed, the last day i went
and i realised how one could hear nothing
but the sounds of waves
roaring waves
roaring wind
and nothing else
how could one possibly have to make any effort to calm ourselves or thoughts?
they were calmed by the natural sounds of the ocean
and i saw the waves hitting the beach
and i wondered at the hyper activity at the beach
and why did they not appear so active in the ocean?
i remembered that there are currents below
below the waters
and these currents from below move the waves to hit the shore
such a STRONG FORCE!
and as it was the last day
i just sat down and closed eyes
and i remembered
that these waters are within
and the jewel that i sought is within too
for i remembered a few years back
i had seen in a dream
a light within
like a pearl full of light
which was covered by dark waters
and when i did not recognise it
i saw that it went down and sank into even darker waters
and hit the bottom of the sea
where all kind of dark consciousnesses gathered around
and i realised a few hours ago,
that it is the soul
this light is the soul
entrapped in the dark waters
and it has to ascend
rise and be purified of its shackles
which prevents it/me to be.
this jewel is in everyone else
for it is the light of God
it is just that one has to believe
and when one truly believe
it gets freed.
Truth shall set you free
are not mere words
nor are there hinting at what your mind imagine it to be
there are what your real state is.
and now, it is so strange to be back in France
though i was still in France
it felt not France
for it has nothing to do with standards of routine
it has all to do to be in touch with the nature
and thereby to near our inner natural state
i imagine
if only three days could have made me feel new experiences
then what could it be just to live in such a setting?
and what is the point of remaining attached to a place devoid of such natural blessings?
life is much easier
when one is in touch with nature
for there,
we near our true forgotten state.
