Consulting a therapist ...?

 A good exemple to illustrate previous post.

During a discussion, I said, I do not go to restaurant to eat alone.

The newly met person replied with a smile or maybe you should go and consult a therapist.

To which I retorted you do not know how many activities I do on my own, but meal eaten alone defeat the purpose of being shared and enjoyed, the more we are; the merrier.

After effect shock for me, was how rude this person is.

Second after effect shock; maybe I should have added with a smile, maybe you should be consulting a therapist as you feel selling your own house as you feel alone into it..

Typical people, not seeing the grossness of their own problem but filtering and distorting reality through theirs. That's how you end up spoiling everything you touch.

Stepping back i could nip it in the bud these stupid comments.

That is one way of seeing it, I have the freedom to judge, especially when feeling feisty.

Likewise, from her viewpoint; she has the freedom to be rude topping the judgemental part and lack of social manners. Because unable to deal with her own pain; she has to project it onto others and try to fix her problem in this way outside of herself.

As she can't fix it inside; because it hurts to face the ego.

Hence she has to spit it outside on people, thinking they'll do her homework.

Side note, a typical well bred british won't be doing this. I guess i got too much used to good sensible british people.

Now, once the reactional part is over.

What is interesting is to know how to integrate that experience.

The last two posts are not vain wisdom, they are pointers to help to remember so that 

I can on the course recalibrate myself. The sooner the better.

Integration cannot be done mentally

but the mental remembrance serves as a guidance to remember, let's state it again.

Now having the power of purification, when that experiences arises in the consciousness next time, 

i should just say I forgive and let it go.

So that I can make space to new experiences that would be highly valuable to me, 

while not dwelling on this rare case that popped out of my subconscious, and manifested itself in the conscious life.

And that is also why one should treat the people as kids, because in terms of maturity they are kids.

But if you do not forgive, then you are a kid too. 

Makes no difference, because you'd like to keep enjoying some mud battle.

So to sum up, 

be true to yourself on spot

if you are still in reaction mode, then react

then let go, as fast as you can 

so you can create space for the new experience

which be higher in quality than such encounter.

I must say that at some point any sensible person who grows tired of childishness

would not even raise the eyebrow 

would let it go on spot, not even be bothered by it

then higher forces take over

and merely wishing for good quality people, 

would be a wish heard and fulfilled.

Ego and blame exist not

 Interesting insight today which came out of the yesterday's one.

Ego or blame does not exist. ie have no reality.

Now i know for sure. 

In truth everything is in essence from the Source 

so divine

so what happens is just that instead of experiencing and letting it go

it is experienced and hold onto 

hence the accumulated and seperated experience from the whole is not being freed

hence never transformed nor integrated back to the Source.

That is the ego, call it a name given a transitory state of what we do when we hoard energy in ourselves.

While our body are suppose to be in the flow, assist the flow.

Next, no blame because the divine cannot blame itself.

Blame comes only from narrow vision emerged from the consciousness of the ego.

And the more it is being fed by energy the more it becomes solidified into an entity.

What religion call shatan. 

Which is why it exists and not exists.

Because if your aim is inisght from the Source, there is no God but God.

if your vision is filtered by the consciousness then there is duality and in the manifestation for sure there is good and evil.

Aim should be the Absolute

while you navigate in the experience of the relative to be integrated.

Quality of consciousness

 What is the Power of Words

The Power is not in the words

but in the receiver of the words

and more exactly in his state of consciousness

if consciousness is to be likened to a screen or a mirror

then the clarity of its reflection determine the power of the words.

Necessary intro to put the below vision in context.

I dreamt or heard/saw or was given the insight, as both are at the same time

as the following:

You are as a Human 

the contact point of all the consciousness and living form out there

and as such you have the whole of universe inside your body

your ability as a human is unique

it contains the two horns, and the spirit

horns ie ego and subconscious balloons

there combinaision is a mechanic that allows you to experience 

as a point of contact the whole of the universe 

with your ability, of the Spirit, to love and allow them to be transformed

ie upgraded to higher consciousness

so you are the all;

the insight was of that sort.

Now written, it is totally disconnected of the clarity of the reality 

as when seen, the insight was a fact, a clear Event happening 

that had Power to imprint its Reality of Being upon my consciousness 

and the level of clarity imprinted on the consciousness only equals to the level of awareness.

Definitely awareness now is not the same.

And there is a great gap between the bright light of that is vs the filter of my current perception now.

Not the same awareness at all.

To Just Know. 

means to go from the complicated layers of filters to see reality towards the shredded naked Sight.

The impediments are only mine. and the filter is due to the channels which get obstructed by that which is emerging in the consciousness.

But when the sea is calm, the awareness is there.

and it is not the same.

Dew Drops falling from Sahasrara

The combinaision of walking with sitting cycles 

are indeed bearing quick and efficient results.

Lately the routine was contained to a good 3.30 am routine of sitting

and then mainly walking before day time starts.

I suppose it has done its time

and Spirit had told me now I am advancing veeeeery slowly 

when I had asked about progression.

Now the intensive part during the Easter break 

born good fruit so far.

The first day

I just felt warm vibrations getting out of both hands mainly

At some point I even joked about myself being a can of worm

or even a pit of fire opened up 

for me to realease the accumulated heat.

But again 

who is the I?

Written like this makes no sense to even mention that question.

But now the question does settle nicely 

and has its place.

The heat accumulated comes from both channels 

and let us not forget the left channel is the storehouse of 

past individual and collective subconscious.

So even the channel itself 

points at the fact that we have a storehouse in us

in such a case

how can there be an I 

when we are already a bag of little i accumulated and store in us.

Hence the body is indeed is the House of God

the Temple that has to be purified.

From another perspective

during meditation, I saw so freshly remembered that the current i is still a collection of other i.

For instance on day 2,

when i was walking the cycles

about 20min into it

I could feel about 3 drops falling and gliding on each sides of the head.

Spirit had told me

once you feel the drops

you just stop everything and focus the attention on the drops.

While meditating 

at some point I had the image of the moist earth

in a vertical section and I remembered

how a flower is intrinsically a storehouse of other elements 

that reach her for her growth

water, minerals and sunlight.

So in reality I remembered

that a flower is not a flower

but a collection of all the other elements 

embodied now into this single "item"

A bit like a chair is not a chair

but a collection of molecules 

themselves a collection of atoms

So like for our body 

we are a collection of these little i 

Now when one read this 

and attention is out

does it help much

but for me

i write this 

because of attention being IN

hence it is an insight for me

a shift in perspective

but not yet a knowledge that I am as a settled perspective.

Let's just say a passing insight

like waves on shore 

to remember

but not yet rooted enough 

to call it settled.

Anyway 

the aim is the opening of the 4 petals in the brain

that are linked to the heart nadis.

This is the set intent

before meditation

that one must let go 

so that the vibrations that are Intelligent

can water that area.

So on the Day 3

the water drops are more frequent and a little higher in number

than on day 2

Also since a couple of days 

I can feel from the picture of Shri mataji

as if a mouth is blowing air on my heart

I asked the Spirit

it said Holy Spirit is Intelligent

but I asked how come not felt before

it said it is because now my awareness has grown 

hence the perception too.

Amazing 

this truly show that the Intelligence levels are always there

of course

but depending on how much our awareness gets refined

the forms we perceive evolve accordingly.

Divorce? Go for it.

 For the yogi who needs to hear it.

Considering divorce? Yes, it is the right thing to do.

True religion or Dharma is within.

All the other methods are man made support for our growth.

They change according to the era we live in. 

They are no more necessary if they are harming more than helping.

Mariage was created as an institution to provide for security and a familiar place that we can trust to grow.

Centuries ago, it helped men to be taken care of, women to be secured as not allowed to work and have sustenance. But now time have changed necessity is no more the same.

In islam, it is said your faith is not complete unless you marry.

It is also said men and women are each other cloth, they complete each other.

True only if they represent each other feminine and masculine power of completion.

If man learn to become more loveable and women learn to become more self disciplined.

Man taking in more love quality and women more discipline like qualities.

But what i see so far, either women trash their husband or husbands trash obedient wives.

Again, this is a general observation, may not apply in few cases and in other cases both may be so blind as to not even see that. 

The whole point is

we are in an exceptional era where we can become a wholly integrated personality and reunite with the Source. 

Never ever this era will come back again. Never, at least on this Earth.

So better make the most of it now.

Again, mariage is to be a support for your common goal of growth if you are a yogi.

But if it becomes an impediement and sucks you in a drama and you can't grow out of this drama 

because you just can't, then the least evil is to get the divorce and in that new context find your own footing to keep growing.

Remember if your partner refuses to meditate 

then it is a calamity for both of you

because you cannot keep compensating 

unless you are extra strong.

At some point if you feel under the water and are really regressing 

then make the next best solution 

change context and hence get the divorce.

Though partners in meditation are better

but if it is clear it will not happen 

then better go for the least of evil.

Take care.

Expansion of the Light of the Sun Within and the Reintegration to the Whole

I was listening to a talk of shrit mataji about cancer and from it this is the conclusion i draw 

for the self healing and growth.

For the healing is when we as an individual outgrow our current selfish, seperated state and reintegrate into the whole, this is by the way what sahasrar is about, the full integration of the light that is scattered here and there.

The Light in you once vibrated

Expands

and by its expansion 

it draws into it by touching the other cells into its spread 

and thus bringing them back under the authority of the deity (call it angels or being of authority) 

the deity who is linked to The Source then re-establish the order where before was the chaos.

Isn't it beautifully reconforting that changes ARE happening in us for our reintegration to the Light of the Spirit?

I suppose if we only limit our sight, to the vibrations being a tool, then our perspective limit our growth.

Which I was never into it. 

As I am more interested in seeking the state where we just know, and that happens when you, namely your attention and love, are fully integrated in the sahasrara.

This reminds me of my early days when I had asked a yogi in Paris, 

that I wanted the true knowledge; aka i was refering to the knowledge to just know it.

But he told me you are already there, aka he was refering to the vibrations.

I felt so disappointed by the insights, which is ok, as we are all growing differently and we all have a different awareness.

But if you are to listen to the early talk of Shri Mataji; which are the best, before she had to water down as of the 90s to adapt to the level of the masses, She does say that vibration gives you the knowledge through the feel but at the sahasrar you just know it. 

And I must say that even as yogi people limit themselves so much, 

while the field of experimentation is so wide.

Again I do not want to complain because thereby I would be chosing a script where I look own upon what dissatisfy me and I rather want to look up on what elate me, such as the Light of thqt inner Sun thqt draws the cell under the authority of the Source.

I found that so poetically beautiful, i am sort of recovering my dreamy state when i was a seeker of truth and was precisely feeding my mind with such intuitive images, that was my best lofty time.

Then came the hardship when as a seeker of truth you end up on wrong hands 

then come the healing thanks to the meditation and growth 

now that i see again the beautiful horizon; 

i hope to make the most of it :)

Witnessing the Collective Consciousness

 Expansion of the consciousness

Each time I feel bored because I feel I am not progressing

then I do not remember how to get started.

So now that I am aware of the solution 

I better write it for time of need 

by then remembrance benefit.

Starting point

is the FEELING.

steps:

1. Hear the silence

2. Feel your current question - ie with all emotions related to it

3. you will just have to wait to see or feel the answer 

In my current case, question was about how to go out of the selfishness as an individual 

to go into the collective consciousness.

Since couple of days, this is how it went:

First throughout the day, I had a feel that I do not feel myself

meaning that a feeling of expansion

the static image of the self

the one we behold into our mind or see in the mirror was like beign erased.

Like design on sand erased by waves of ocean

again that is only a temporary experience

it does not mean if i were to be challenged to my core 

the ego would not retaliate

it is just for the sake of experimenting or getting acquainted or getting insight into that state.

Also true growth is when you outgrow your current state and there is no going back

you cannot brign a fruit back to its blossoming flower state.

the next step, was throughout the day I could see people acting like bees

so working more or less knowingly for a bigger common goal.

That part i could witness it so

because I had made up my intention to forgive, let go of the people whom i hate 

specifically people who do horrendous dead and distrub peace of others.

Even that is not helpful to hate such people, as it let us stuck in the problem and we are unable to fly above it. And if we can't then high forces can't protect us from them.

And the deal for high forces to give you their powers and protection is for you to be humble

not humble as people call it now. Humble by accepting there is only One Spirit, even in the people who deny it and commit hateful deeds.

If they deny spirit and you also deny spirit by hating them, then how are you better than them?

When Christ says to give the other. cheek, which now i understand

it means if you got slapped, then go till the end of the game by turning the other one too.

meaning that you need to have to let go of that battle ground. It is not the correct one. Nor it has to be your battle ground, the one of the forms.

So when you let go, you arise to the formless, where the spirit is; and then the higher forces take over and can protect you.

If you take the battle of forms into your hands; then you can more or less going for an exhausting and time consuming battle. 

So waking up from the dream is more powerful solution. 

4. the letting go principle as explained above; so I just say, I let them to their Script, and I forgive for they do not know (they are the spirit within); I even went to the extend of saying I love them in Spirit.

As you make a powerful intent and act on it from within, you get your state shifted and of course you shall experience a new reality and get insight only because you are at that level to be trusted with it.

Imagine you get insider information and end up harming the other? It won't do. 

For there is no such things in Kingdom of God; and if your intention darkens then for sure you go down.

This is how you get kicked out of it.

So lately, the very people i forgave i could see them in dream and hear that thoughts and their current state of mind and needs. 

I also happen to see people of my neighborhood, and what they were doing.

Spirit said that I was tapping into these people consciousness.

From my perspective, I do not see the point of knowing what the neighbors are doing.

Nor I am interested in knowing what the people I used to hate are thinking.

And today, I could see in dream also the life of a yogi and see his marrital issues and how there was disappointment as the partner was not really at all into meditation so that was causing him pain.

All in all, such insight in the consciousness of others teach me, that it is a trust. 

Information is there from the perspective of the Spirit to Witness for me also as part of the witness to witness.

When you know what the current state of people is, you know they are all in a scripted drama of their own and surely the individual me too. 

But seeing it from above, helps you to reapportion your deeds and thoughts.

The less you "mind" the quicker you can more onto higher grounds as long as you have the firm attention of your goal ahead of you. And in the process you can enjoy to take easier and sunnier path which are more flowery and you can play in the gardens while moving ahead.

Why choose pain, when you can choose joy on the journey?

All I have to remember is not to mind, to let go, as everything that bothers me is in a script.

And I do not have to take part into that script, I just have to let it go and remember they are all the spirit within. And then you can test yourself:

Try saying I love you, to the Spirit within the people you scorn..

I did it and now i laugh at it when i remember it was hard to do it

tight lips trying to say it as if they were gonna feel pain to say these words

this is also a good proof of how i was believing more in their script than in the simple truth of the God within which is One.