Paris meditation - part 3

When i went to the meditation center
the second day
i found it absolutely amazing
the fact the new guy
put chairs in circle mode

it looks like less of a classroom
more like everyone is EQUAL

and mostly...

that the circle ENABLES energy to circulate...
it enables you to FEEL it IN THE CENTER of the circle

they should keep it up like this every day
somehow they don't

anyway i met there back
new participants
i had met a year before

the talk of the day was amazing
for once ... no more old talk
always put on screen
usually old yogi always put old talks there
because is their comfort zone
nothing shocking
for new listeners

but it becomes their OWN conditioning
own limits..
so many talks of Shri mataji
one needed a NEW yogi as teacher
to put FINALLY - God may BREATHES - a NEW talk

best talk of shri mataji
are those in her early years
as she gives you a map of WHAT serves your BEST INTEREST

I read ALL OF HER TALKS
INCLUDING THE ONES IN HINDI with NO translation

i can TELL YOU
much is MISSED by current yogis

no wonder
that most of them i met
did not progress except one or two

just look at their eyes
and face
as last ressort check their chakras
all hot

even the sweetest yogi girl i used to know
has developped so much hatred
don't know due to what
anyway she didn't flush it out of her system
she became such a sour face

this is the one that pained me most
she lost her sweetness, warmth, and innocent smiley face she had

went all the way 180° shift
from sweet to sour face
what can i say?

then
i laugh when i heard from her
comments
"dear i thought you left collectivity"

i told her
"and you? you were IN collectivity
yet look at you, what happened? why are you so down now?"

actually
her soul was severed from her spirit
apparently she says she meditates...

either she just close eyes and night dream
and play with her thoughts
hence no fruits of meditation are seen on her face
and this explains why the path leading her soul to her spirit is broken

or she does not meditate at all

so see 
is NOT because you are PART of a collectivity
that you are saved

UNLESS you are CONNECTED to your disciplined practise
with a REAL meditation
EVEN IF ALONE
as i was or with limited company for meditation at best

don't dare to patronise me
with your "she left collectivity"

the only good guy who died
and who was yet alone
reached spirit

NOT because he was AVOIDING collectivity
or because he was PART of "collectivity"

but because he HAD SINCERE PRACTISE

so anyone trying to peek at me
behind my back
let me return him the favor
and let him know

unless he heals his knee cap
this will spread to his spine
and is no good

on this note
i will try to write next post
about the fabulous mataji talk i heard
which is about DEVELOPPING YOUR POWERS

KISSES to you
and yes stop backbiting with arab girl
heal your knee
my intuition has indeed grown

Paris meditation - part 2

Next days during my stay
i chit chatted with a person
just a hello-hi

very short yet pleasant conversation

one day later...
as i was brushing teeth...
the person who happened to be a neighbor rang at our door

and asked about me
asking
"who was that girl..she was so pretty..."

i just overheard it

had it been a single incident
of an unknown person ringing at door
asking about me
i wouldn't have paid attention

but the day before
i met an old lady
that i absolutely knew not

i HARDLY sat in front of her
that she started to say that she was feeling some energy coming out from me
and touching her front part of body

HAHAHA

when she said that
i was myself amazed
and wondered... has my kundalini become so strong
as to be able to reflect 2 meters away?

cause she was sitting 2 meters across me !!

so i decided to give her self realisation

she kept saying
"i feel good, i feel so good, is too much"

honestly
i am the one who became afraid
what if she swoons because is too much??

so i kind of stopped the protocol

and just went near her
to raise her energy

and all the way during it
she said
"you know you are a REAL GOOD person"
"i love you"

and all kind of other NICE praises

yet i aboslutely knew her NOT
nor even ever talked to her
i hardly managed to sat in front of her
and ask her if she was ok
and wish to help her with the energy she was feeling

that incident
coupled with my first day arrival in paris
the first comment i hear by my friend
was
"you became younger!"

another male friend
said "you look SO fresh"

no wonder the driver
was under cover of inviting me the very evening to a conference
was only trying to give me a rendez vous

so all these successive events
spoke up by themselves
that my SHAKTI  is THE ONE

that brought that HALLOW
of Youth, Beauty, and Love around me
so that from 5 people, 3 of them being total strangers to me
ended up saying praises
in a natural way

i consider these praises
for MY SHAKTI
and feel FINALLY HAPPY
to be its recipient

at least my meditation started to bear
OBVIOUS FRUITS

Trees are known by their fruits
aren't they?

Paris meditation - part 1

Okay
wishing to enjoy sun and my fiancé
will make the post short :

I am pretty much happy

Imagine...
i managed to meditate alone
for about a whole year
never missing my meditation for more than 3 days in a row

the harder the discipline
the better result

and when i saw people a year later
except for one guy
who just married
he had such a beaming joy on his face
proving his nabhi indeed SETTLED

that i felt REAL HAPPY
for him AT LAST

on my first day
as soon as i sat
with all the other yogi to meditate...

i had SO MUCH VIBRATIONS
i was sooooo cooool

that i thanked my Shakti
for having helped me
to maintain such a GREAT meditational discipline
ALONE YET STILL CONNECTED

even two ladies who worked on me
one of them said
i had all chakras COOL

hahahaha
so where could she work hahahaha

so i told her just work on fingers she feels
are neutral

and my hands
where so cooooool

even some friends came later
and said ok can we touch to check it

hahahahaha

ahhh,
so grateful i am

collective meditation
helped me to measure back after 1 year
my vibrational state

and i have UNDENIABLY progressed!

much juicy details to come...
gotta prepare a good yummy pakistani lunch for my dear

kissi

Distance healing works..

Incredible
still at job place
but had to take time out and BLOG THIS

I have some party tonight
and had a PIMPLE

a huge inflammation
coming out on left cheek
incredibly painful
and unesthetic

i am sure all girls will nods their head
in empathy with me

guess what?

my fiancé
who is a healer
i just mentioned him casually about the pimple...

and FROM A DISTANCE
he healed it....

the pimple is GONE
within 1min
first it got deflated
and now skin is FLAT

BACK TO NORMAL

GIRLS
i say we all should have a healer in our purse
to flatten all our pimples at WILL

yes...Healing at WILL

Ocean waves on shores of consciousness

fresh waters washes on the shores of creation
to soothe them
and bring some freshness
a new breath
and a new life

is how the creation keeps living

though creation is one with the fresh water
which get absorbed in shore's sand
and can be reshaped into a new form

this very water evaporates
once new form were taken
as if there had never been any benefit

if no traces of water are left
who can remember water of life and fresh love was there?

even if it has evaporated
the traces left is the new shape taken by the sand
water gave it opportunity to live a new experience
and it withdrew 

Pain and Happiness

in murder cases
in movies
we see how many lives are broken
when a person is killed
is very much devastating

yet...
what happen when we do good to someone?
there too we affect not only one but so many other people
sticking around positively

but see?
this is never showed
is like in case of pain
voicing unhappiness is so much filling up the space

but why when you do good
people are not voicing as loudly their happiness?
is because they are not appreciative
they make it as if is their own happening
or some private stuff not to be shared

so you have the feel there is only pain in the world
the goodness exists not
or if it does
its flow is cut
due to lack of recognition and appreciation

this is why God says in Quran
unless you thank people, you have not thanked God

see?
and unless you are appreciative
the flow of goodness get cuts 
as people stop helping you out
as they wear out when they see no appreciativeness coming their way

Drama W - end

there are many stuff that are really cool
in that drama

i just jot down these last ones
but i will avoid to do more parts on this drama
though is amazing

i will just update this one at best

once the main hero was back in his world (of creation)

whenever he sees someone he sees the reality
i.e.that this person has no free will of its own, no authenticity in his choice of being so,
it has been just A transplanted (idea) there from a higher will... and so he felt so much like cut from them, like isolated and unable to do the talking and usual sharing of his thoughts with anyone else

that's pretty much how i felt
when i looked around
once i came back from uk
i found no one
till one day i found that Hope

back in the drama

i found so cool that
at all new change of emotion in the male lead heart
the main female lead was bound to disappear..
(which by the way make us, the viewers appreciate so much more their transient life and passing little moments of happiness)

and so each time the woman disappeared
was a translation of the male feeling a new level of emotion


i find it translate so beautifully
how the feminine energy changes her face in a myriad of way
the face being the emotions and feelings felt by the man
and the female disappearing
merging back into the world of gods

so beautiful when you think of it this way..

so...the male lead (creation) aims at stability of his heart
not to be bound to so much changes of heart
so that the stability or equilibrium be reached
so that his wife (feminine principle from god creation) may stay with him
and stop disappearing

Honestly
when i saw that

my heart really felt warmth and gratefulness
for the scriptwriters
who focused at the fragility of life
at the transience of feelings...

and the first amazing stuff
i repeat it
was when the scriptwriters depicted the time of creation slowing down to a standstill point
where everyone is frozen
except the male lead witnessing this ... who kept living.. while all his world was stopped..
and it hit me... that equals to contemplation of thoughts in meditation!!!

for life in real
is also meditation

as life is just the extension of our thoughts
what is life? except thoughts brought into action
thoughts actualised and realised ?

what is a sky scrapper?
it was an idea in our mind
then a design on a paper
then a building built...

by extension is what life is
just the extension of our thoughts

if we manage to contemplate our thoughts
we should by extension when we grow into our meditation
be able to contemplate this standstillness around us like in matrix, like in this drama W

from this very point of view
Life is an illusion